#up close and asks if he wants to hold it

[st0ne-wasps]

got to tell someone all about the ending of marble hornets :3

#They asked I swear #Sort of #Listen I had to do it because I had to hold back from spoiling the ending for my boyfriend #He's so close to the end and I just want to say so many things #But I got to sum up the ending with so much excitement I ran out of breath so #My hunger has been satisfied for a while #I got to talk about hoodie and masky and Alex #And how everyone died #And all that good stuff #marble hornets #Also I swear I'll say something actually interesting soon

[nudibutch]

had to quietly square off with two men 4x my size for 20 min at the club last night w my sister and cousin bc they were big mad i was guarding drinks and clocked them as predators immediately and i just really need a femme to hold me right now bc i am so tired after my adrenal response kicked in for what felt like half an hour after and didnt get back home till 1am and got shit sleep

#they came up to us VERY CLOSE and asked what RACE WE WERE? 'because yall look a little different' #[we're part arab] #i was also the ONLY gay person there #it was just wee woo wee woo these guys are looking to roofie or hate crime #one of them was PISSED i was there and clearly sober he kept purposefully looking over his shoulder at me and holding eye contact #and i was like oh god we have to get out of here dot gif #run 'fight or flight dot exe'? #i wish so much in that moment there was a femme there to stand with me to be my secondary diffuser when i wanted to tell them to shove off #and hold me after #my sister was good at diffusing but i was very clearly pissed i did not make it subtle i was squaring off with 2nd guy the whole time #w new TN drag ban bill though i just #it was a lot #the whole thing was a lot #like they could have been anyone #sex traffickers weird creeps undercover cops #i need to get jacked. like if im gonna continue coming down here. i have to get jacked. for my own safety #slug.personal

[sturmhondsdemjin]

Steve spinning that nail bat is actually something that can be so personal. And sexy.

#an eddie munson ghost tweet #stranger things #eddie munson #steve harrington #steddie #eddie laying across the hood of steve’s car kicking his legs behind him and twirling his hair with stars in his eyes like #‘spin me next big boy’ and steve’s just standing there with his jaw on the ground like WHAT THE FUCK because his brain has malfunctioned #twenty different ways to sunday … and eddie ABSOLUTELY KNOWS what he’s doing and just reaches out to squeeze steve’s forearm … the arm that #holds the bat and gives a little ‘tch’ and a wink and WALKS AWAY leaving steve utterly baffled with his brain scrambling desperately trying #to catch up to what the hell just happened … THEY ARE IN PUBLIC!! EDDIE CAN’T JUST SAY THOSE THINGS!! but he did and he means it … and #steve just flexes his fingers around the bat and gives it another little twirl once his brain comes back down to earth. meanwhile eddie is #already halfway across the parking lot with his head tossed back and his face toward the sun and those rich brown eyes closed right as he #howls with laughter because he KNOWS he’s got steve right where he wants him … #[steve’s bat twirling becomes a subconscious habit … and not just the nail bat … it’s ANYTHING remotely twirling size. because eddie loves #it and steve really fucking loves eddie] #here’s a short story nobody asked for but everybody gets to see

[kyouka-supremacy]

On Kouyou and Mori's relationship

@2offayyo-kzt THANK YOU FOR ASKING because you prompted me to talk about Kouyou and I love talking about Kouyou. Original post the reply is referring to.

Okay most of it comes from the Kouyou / Mori / Chuuya scene at the closing of the guild arc. First off: in chapter 37 we are made aware that Kouyou decided to stay at the agency of her own accord. Besides from the reasons she had to stay, it's just pretty cool how it's confirmed that Kouyou doesn't feel like having Mori's orders or will she has to answer to and just... Pretty much is free to do whatever she wants. She doesn't care about what Mori requires from her - Mori who most definitely would have wanted her back at the pm as soon as possible - and just acts of her own accord, which is something that even Chuuya doesn't do.

Following up, Kouyou and Mori also reflect over how she's perfectly capable of freely leave the pm, yet she chooses not to (btw her little smirk following Mori acknowledgement of her abilities is SO cute). Again, it goes to show how independent she is from Mori (pretty much putting her on his same level I guess?), being able to leave the pm facing no consequences or retaliation, and just in general how master of her fate she is. It's nice, it's RARE for a franchise where female characters are usually just thrown from one side to the other by external factors and rarely get to choose for themselves.

Then - and so far I strayed a bit from the initial matter, but this is most relevant to the point I was making in the original post - she says “Shut up. I'll sew your mouth shout.” There's A LOT in those lines because it plainly shows how she just... Doesn't fear Mori, doesn't fear calling him out on his creepy behavior, doesn't fear (playfully? ← arguable) menacing him. She's just so unbound and free and self-governed, and totally unbothered by Mori unlike any other character (except for, well, Elise, who's part of Mori herself). It's a joy to see.

Next, the volume 10 extra. The “that's why I told you”, “I'll punch you”, it all goes to reinforce the concept that Kouyou is perfectly unafraid of Mori and doesn't shy away from calling him out and scolding him even sternly. But it's especially interesting to compare her behavior with Chuuya's. Where Chuuya tries to find accomodations for Mori, Kouyou scolds him, and later even accuses Chuuya of being “spoiling him”; their approach is completely different, and as a consequence their relationships with Mori are diametrically opposite. Again, back to my initial point: even Chuuya, who is one of the most self-reliant characters of them all, knows he has to answer to Mori, and accordingly treats him with respect; Kouyou is perfectly unbothered and unafraid.

And even more examples: chapter 42, Kouyou openly arguing with Mori's decision, lacking that mentality that is shared between pm operatives that Mori's plans are infallible and there's no point in questioning them (just think about how sure, confident and even smug Chuuya was about Mori's plan during the Guild arc, chapter 22). Chapter 43, Kouyou spending “half a year's worth of founds” to attack a government van, which I can guess goes against what Mori wants for the pm (lol) and once again just shows how Kouyou... Freely bosses around and does whatever she wants, answering to no one.

With this I'm not saying Kouyou doesn't care about Mori. She DOES care about Mori, she just doesn't in a “subordinate is loyal to their superior” kind of way. She cares about Mori, the thing is that she does because she chooses to and not for any other constraint, which arguably makes her the person that is closer and most loyal to him?? Because she has no second means for being loyal to him, and just does that because she wants to, which makes her loyalty the truest, most authentic one. And Mori knows that, and that's why she deserves to be the next pm boss, and I know they (authors) will never make her but she deserves it and she's the pm boss of my heart end of conversation.

Headcanon time while we're at it, I like to think for Kouyou to address to Mori so informally and familiarly is a way to make up / compensate for the trauma she underwent with the previous boss. When Mori killed the previous boss, she swore she would have never lived in fear again, and even though she ultimately decided to stay in the darkness, it's now her choice; a choice she personally and freely makes despite being aware of potentially, realistically being able to leave at any moment. Addressing Mori as he was her equal is a way for Kouyou to remind to herself about how free and unbound she is.

About Mori and Kouyou, I like to think they had this siblings-like relationship since before Mori became boss I mean, they canonly go cherry blossom sighting together. I like to think a very small, subconscious part of Mori killed the previous boss because Mori held resentment towards him for hurting Kouyou- but that's definitely straying too far alcbdklzbdkskxbks. I like to think Kouyou wanted Kyouka in the pm because she genuinely believed that under hers and Mori's lead Kyouka could be happy, that the pm was the place that most would have welcomed Kyouka, welcomed what Kouyou believed to be her nature.

#Anyways thank you for asking Op akdbdksbos I love talking about Kouyou #bsd #bungou stray dogs #“But how can you say Kouyou is fit to be the next boss when we never saw her holding remarkable leadership skills” #well maybe we would have if they cared to give female characters more than 0.5 seconds of screentime. #But since they don't‚ I can perfectly make up whatever I want for her skills and characterization #(Besides‚ she's part of the four / three pm executives‚ that must amount to something??) #Also chapter 46? The way Chuuya looks at Kouyou before making the decision of attacking the ada?? As if asking for her permission? #Which is NATURAL and VALID since Kouyou is his senior and has been in the pm way longer than he has?? #And is closer to Mori too for the matter??? Aaahh c'mon‚ it's like she's already the second boss. #Kouyou's role in the Cannibalism arc was to personally guard Mori. C'mon. #kōyō ozaki #Tbh very unpopular opinion but I always felt like Kouyou was like. an accidentally well written female character. #ōgai mori #Also not to fuel my “Mori and Kouyou have a close-siblings like relationship” headcanon but chapter 19: #Chuuya: The ADA took Kouyou hostage #Mori (literally‚ I'm not making it up): Well that's rather unfair. Right then! Let's kill the head if their agency. #Uh #bsd analysis #mine

[cthulhusstepmom]

Ghost is a walking dichotomy, Soap has discovered. He's watched him strip the layers of a man's skin away to get information from him, seen him snap someone's neck in as little time as it takes to take a breath. But he's also so capable of heartbreaking kindness. His genuine concern for the fish, the way he saves the best part of his plate for Soap; offering it to him with reverence. The way he's cleaning Johnny's wound so tenderly. It's in these moments of gentleness where Johnny almost forgets what they do, what they've seen, who they are.

So when Ghost's voice snaps into that serious tone it's almost like a slap in his dizzy, goofily smiling, face.

"Wha?"

"Where is it? I'll get rid of it for you." Under the sharp tone is still that lethal gentleness, and even under that is a shaking fear.

"Oh, oh Ghost." He shifts, uncomfortable in his skin and wanting to be anywhere but here. "Ye... Ye cannae get rid of it."

His Lieutenant draws back a little, a mix of apprehension and offense in his eyes.

"It hurt you, nothing else matters."

Soap can feel his heart splitting as his throat starts to burn. Ghost stares up at him with fiery eyes, hands still holding his wrist so so softly.

"Where is the snake Soap? I promise you it'll never hurt you again. Whoever brought it in is going to have hell to pay too." He earnestly promises and Soap feels a single hot tear slip out of his eye.

"Ghost..." He chokes out. "Simon... It's mine."

The small room goes silent. Nothing even dares to move but for the violent flinch the sentence rips out of Ghost.

He doesn't dare say anything, doesn't dare to move or even breathe. He looks down at Ghost and Ghost meets his stare with turmoil roiling in his gaze.

Soap doesn't know what he expected, screaming or sobbing or angry silence but the frantic confusion he can see in the other man is as far as can be from what he'd thought he'd get.

They sit there like that for a few long moments, each absorbed in his own thoughts, before Ghost slowly rises from his kneel. If Johnny were in better spirits he would tease him for the quiet cracks his knees make. And with that violent tenderness he slowly curls an arm around Johnny and leans him down into the bed, pressing behind him and holding him close just like they'd done on any number of frigid nights out in the blind. And they just sit there holding each other in silence as they slowly drift into a dreamless sleep.

#in this canon this is the first time theyve done something that can't be explained away by extenuating circumstances #but you don't really save the best parts of your meal religiously for your subordinate who youre friends with #Ghost is devoted to Soap #full stop #and Soap is dedicated to Ghost 100% #i hear you “Cthulhu why are the emotionally constipated military men just cuddling instead of resolving their issues unhealthily?” #to which i say: #Ghost just had his world tilted on its axis #a constant in his life is that snakes are bad and the people who keep them are bad people who do bad things #like his father #but here's John “he owns my soul” MacTavish bleeding profusely and still not letting Ghost kill the snake also being unquestionably good #even though he understands intellectually that Soap has done bad things #hes watched the little punk blow up shit for the sake of it and literally clip a car battery to a man's ears #that doesn't matter because Johnny is Good with a capital G and he is the exact opposite of Ghost's father #so he really doesnt have it in him to be angry and he just needs to hold close to the constancy and try to reconcile his new information #And Soap is just so so ready to be immediately rejected and never see Simon again #he doesn't want to sacrifice what he maybe has with Ghost to protect his rescues #because they need him and they didnt ask to be what they are or where they are #so hes just so so relieved that Ghost hasnt ordered him out and killed all of his babies #because he's seen Ghost shoot a dog in yhe head on a mission for barking and Ghost loves dogs #he doesnt want to see what Ghost would do to an animal he doesn't like #I HOPE THIS IS BETTER THAN THE CLIFFHANGERS #GUYS THERES SO MUCH CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT COMING #AHOFFBIDKSHAIAKBZJA #cod mw2 #fish person gaz #ghost x soap #ghostsoap #reptile person soap

[dutybcrne]

Kaeya absolutely thrives with a possessive lover. There will be a point at first when he does get a little weirded out, but solely bc he is still adjusting to accepting he’s genuinely wanted by that person. With an exceptionally possessive lover who consistently makes no secret of just how much they love him and how far they’re willing to go, he tends to get so weak for, because he’ll rapidly feel much more secure in their relationship and not worry as much that he’ll be abandoned, either from faded interest or due to his heritage.

#hc; kaeya #//He only starts drawing the line when his close friends in the knights/Winery fam get hurt #//But people won’t tend to go to those extremes; knowing him and who he usually associates with #//But he does LOVE partners who are V tactile; esp around others (once he gets used to it); hold him TIGHT so he can’t get away from easy #//Loves a partner who boldly declares him theirs to sb to drive home their claim; just SAYING he’s theirs at All gives him the fuzzies #//If they even so much as actively go and stalk him at work or daily routine; he gets a lil bit giddy #//If they are the kind to go Ape Shitt bc sb hurt him; he will ADORE THEM. Esp if right in front of him #//And smooch them all over their face; to hell with if they’ve got blood smeared across it #//Is prolly a bit MORE inclined to Initiate things if they do; tbh #//Loves the type unafraid to mark him up if they feel the urge to; esp if their jealousy got piqued #//Even if he may ask for more subtle spots like the junction of his neck; arms; JUST at the edges of the chest opening on his shirt #//Smth he can show off by shifting and positioning himself in certain ways; while not being TOO visible typically #//He does have to retain Professionalism after all. and would HATE to have to go to the church or Jean to erase the marks bc of it #//The main issue would be them rlly nagging him to open up so they can know More of him #//Bc THAT is difficult; no matter how whipped he is for sb #//However being given a decent incentive to Make him talk does help—esp the more they’ve shown to want to cling to him #//They are more trustworthy #//He lets a Lot slide when it comes to himself during a relationship #//Esp since he knows he’s more than capable of putting a Stop to shit if it goes to far; for himself or others getting involved #//But he can’t help getting the dokis when his partner is Unhinged; ESPECIALLY if such for HIM #//Esp if HE’S encouraged to be the same way #//Bc BOY will he himself RUN with shit if he’s allowed #//Sometiems he will deliberately do things to set off their possessiveness; but is always careful not to let it go Too Far #//He can handle the manhandling and being knocked around a bit by them due to his own masochism; loves them RLLY marking & wrecking him #//But he won’t do smth that will get sb Else hurt. unless they deserve it; THEN it’s a different story

[the-lady-hestia]

Good morning flight attendant who thought my fries smelled good

Good morning dad who is obviously watching TikTok’s a child sent him

Good morning woman who looks older than anyone I have ever met

Good morning tiny child who looks like they’ve just learned how to walk

Good morning to the woman who would have missed her flight if not for a kind stranger holding the flight as she ran to the gate

Good morning mountains in the distance

Good morning Pacific

I may never see any of you again, but it sure was nice sharing this sunrise with you

- good mornings in the San Francisco airport

#that one about the guy holding the gate is what made me want to write this #she was standing in the terminal and looked like she was having a panic attack #one guy came up to her and started walking with her #and like calmed her down #another guy went up and asked what gate she was trying to get to #AND THEN HE FUCKING BOLTED #he got to the gate and kept them from closing it before she got there #I saw it from a distance #she made it tho! #poem #poetry

[arthur-r]

falling asleep worked i did it for three hours. now what i’m still tired i just also wasted the day and looked stupid to my roommate….

#like im glad i slept but also. same problems as before #although my french teacher emailed me back said i should go to office hours. which is a proper response to my email #wikipedia guy texted me back with details like an hour after i texted but also like two or three hours ago #gonna settle the score by bringing a $20 bill tomorrow then i won’t feel so weird and guilty #but no i feel so fucking stupid and gross for like. i was crying so close to my roommate so i had to fall asleep #or else i’d be standing up with tears in my eyes next to my roommate which is worse #but i just. i dont know. like he thinks i’m just lazy. i’m always asleep i never tell him why #i dont know. good morning i hope everyone is doing well #there are two people i usually get dinner with and one is out of town and the other i think his parents are here and also things are weird #translation things aren’t weird i’m just weird and feel guilty for being such a weird person #anyway i just. college?? what am i doing here???? #i talked to my mom this morning she says that she felt the same way during college and that she should have dropped out way earlier #which. not helpful?? what do i do after i drop out?? i am someone who can’t hold a normal part time job and my only HOPE is ending up being #i mean anything really just something that requires a lot of prior experience!! #and the college is paying me really good to go to school but only if i stay full time #so i cant just lower my course load because that will actually make everything worse instead of better #idk. going to french teachers office hours tomorrow and will figure out time for linguistics teacher too and will get my LIS grade back up #(that one is just simple that one is i missed two discussion posts but there are ten more to come and also tests and stuff. i’ll be ok) #idk. and i still want to go to my LIS teachers office hours and ask how he became professor of rare books print culture and information bias #that is a good set of things to be a scholar for. and he’s curating collections at the same time as being my teacher #so idk. professors don’t seem as stupid and uppity as they used to. and i think i want to do that someday #plus with the salary jump from librarian i can feasibly become a major donor to local libraries to keep that influence around shdhdf #(although. if i get paid by the school (!!) to get a phd in print culture who says i don’t become a fancy librarian with that??) #i dont know. this is so stupid because i get so excited about the prospects and then i go back to the present and i’m flunking out of school #my grades haven’t been this bad since the height of COVID i thought something about me had gotten better but apparently not #like literally who went and made me traumatized?? why did you have to do that?? now i can’t be a normal person?? shut up!!!! #idk. just feel like if i weren’t having panic attacks about the fact that people are safe and kind here (and therefore must be hiding their #true intentions and taking advantage of me) then maybe i would have remembered to take my french test #idk. i’m tired and want to go home. sorry for venting all day i hope everyone is doing okay #vent cw

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

the push and pull of MSR in the cancer arc

Louise Glück, from Marathon / The X-Files 4×14, Memento Mori / Phoebe Bridgers, Moon Song / 4x17, Tempus Fugit / I've Been Thinking Of Ending Things, dir. Charlie Kaufman / 4×18, Max / Sue Zhao (@beamusing) / 4×22, Elegy / Lucy Dacus, Historians / Ocean Vuong, Into the Breach

#the way every time i do something cancer arc i end up deep in scully's pov... #i had room for one thing but it didn't work out so i want to mention Bag of Bones by Mitski which i had on loop while making this #i just... they go back and forth so much #being so soft and yet so tense and holding each other a little apart even though they want to be close #the way they hurt each other without even meaning to but comfort each other without consciously trying #it's simply so much. #there's so much they want to but can't won't say that they're scared of saying and it SHOWS #both in the moments they snap or push away and in the times they hold each other close #scully says it in elegy! ''he's been a great source of strength for me'' but when karen asks if she's told him that fhe truth is she hasn't #and that's so much of their struggle is that they dont know if they can say all they mean to each other #so you end up with the tension and pain of wanting nothing more than to be together and have that safety and comfort #but not knowing if it's allowed and okay and how much it might hurt in the end #they need each other but they're losing each other but they're also becoming closer in an agonizing new way #he's the ONLY person she called #you ever think of that scene in memento mori where they're on the phone and she says ''right now the truth is in me'' #and mulder immediately replies with "i will be right there'' so soft and certain because in that moment #she IS the truth and she is the only thing that matters #and then how she starts to pull away throughout the arc and isolate herself and that causes pain for both of them #and is part of why mulder is a bit of a jerk in gethsemane #but he never fully lets her pull away and she still leans on him she still has him and that doesn't change!!! #it's the push and pull of it all #Lu rambles #txf #the x files #msr #dana scully #fox mulder #usermoody #userscully #usermulder

[oddly-casual]

Have to get this out of my head, but I had a dream that 2012 Leo had an online friend that he would vent to about his ninja life. Not wanting a Chris Bradford incident he said he was never gonna meet the person in real life and Leo had to bend his story to make it seem like he was a human taking care of three siblings and not a ninja turtle and they slowly became best friends, but they would never meet.

Do with this what you will, or don’t

#tmnt 2012 #tmnt leo 2012 #tmnt leonardo #for some reason the online friend had a red son profile picture don’t ask me why #like idk I just got the feeling that Leo and this friend were super close and vented a lot to each other #also maybe they RP captain Ryan together Leo seems like the type #Leo reads Captain Ryan fanfiction you heard it here folks #eventually it became less about keeping his identity secret and more about wanting to hold onto what little ‘normal’ friendship he had #outside from his brothers and other mutants and those know knew about them #like during the Krang invasion they message Leo over and over but his phone is broken so he doesn’t get a single text #but after Leo wakes up they continue texting and confesses his hatred for being injured and his PTSD symptoms #or when tbe earth fucking exploded and Leo just stares at the ‘texter is offline’ screen for hours at a time #because now he doesn’t even have that comfort anymore #the whole whole this person on the other line has a normal life and goes to school and eventually collage and Leo is happy for them #but he also wishes he could be apart of that too but decided to keep his distance #familiar is good routine js good and Leo just doesn’t want to lose that

[astarriscus]

i think kazuha would be very nice to exchange letters and poems with

#he reminds me of someone w an old school kinda romance. even in a modern au? #theres beauty in simplicity and in doing things by your own hands (wholly by yourself) #i want to make haikus for him. or he shld make haikus for me. surhwujdjsodnskd #i both kin and romantically like kazuha okay #duhdhehdjdhwjdjjdi <333 #✩⤻; rambles ! #hmmmhmh i wrote this during my simp pass in ebg but then forgot abt it after ... oh well >< #i like making poetry n stuff !! might assign them to some characters but i also dont want anyone to steal my stuff so. :< <//3 #gna put this in kazuha x reader bcs y not LMAO #most of these rambles r in the tags but wtv we go 💪🏼✨ #hmmm kazuha likes decorating the letters he gives to u i think #not anything extremely extravagant but if he finds a leaf or wtvr !! an object that can serve as a reminder that hes there w u #even far away yeah ? bcs he loves you vv much :] #i feel like hes good w words in poetic stuff snd all but i kind of hc hes not the best w being straightforward #tell him to make a poem and he'll do it easily. ask him to talk abt his feelings and he won't be very good at it ? #ik i had a tag for hcs i have for characters but i cant rmbr anymore ... gahhh #anyways yeah ! kazuha is rlly such a romantic at heart i think. maybe im self projecting but i think he wants to love and be loved vv much #:(( ykyk yeah? and also that he prolly grew up w stories and fairytales n all that !! he holds them vv close to his heart hehe #tag later #kazuha x reader

[pepprs]

god. ok. i think i need to see another counselor. i feel so fucking bad but this is not feeling good or right to me and i can’t make it until july not having the support i need. lol

#purrs #he just lost a very close family member in the middle of the semester and it’s fucked up all his classes and he’s behind on everything so #it’s rly hard for him to be present for me and i don’t want to hold that against him at all. but ive so rarely felt like he is seeing me and #truly responding thoughtfully and carefully to what i have to say. before and after this he spends like half the session very visibly doing #other stuff and it makes it so hard for me to feel safe and connected and he also just like is so stiff and regimented which could be good a #and fine if i felt like he cared abt what i have to say and wants me to have some say over what we talk about too. but i just got out of a #session w him and i literally feel worse bc he was asking questions that i could SEE he was bullshitting and it’s like. i know and i don’t w #want to hold it against you but also this fucking sucks and i need help and im here for you to help me and you can’t. lol #i feel so bad especially bc he’s supporting me as part of a class and he’s getting credit and training and this is so much abt him gaining t #the skills he needs to get his degree and go out in the world and be a good counselor. but i shouldn’t have to stick with a subpar #experience just so he can do well in his class. ive never had this kind of disconnect w any of the other intern counselors i worked with and #i feel so fucking horrible bc he’s clearly in a bad place and it’s impacting him and maybe working w me is helpful for him but like. i need #something better than this and i cannot make it until july without it. but i feel so so so bad

[madamescarlette]

It's important to me as my primary cr1 mutuals that you know that She's Always A Woman is THE Perc'ahlia song out there for me, the associations are so strong for me now (also I Know Places)

okokokokok so I FINALLY got a chance to sit down and listen and had a nice lil cry over how stupidly DEAR AND SWEET THIS SONG IS. She can lead you to love????? She is frequently kind / and she's suddenly cruel???? She'll bring out the best and the worst you can be?????

SCREAMS!!! What a perfect and gentle way to sum up all the contradictions of who Vex is!! And the steady constant way that Perce sees her. There is something so unbearably affectionate and loving about the tone of this song that's so!!!!! much to me and I'm so grateful. Your mind ma'am Grace darling!!!

I Know Places is also an equally sweet song for Vex's side, it gives me all the Briarwoods arc feelings! There is indeed something very very very lovely about someone who will take your hand and run away with you when you are going through the lowest patch of your life and finds a way for you to still be yourself through it all.

#(my personal T + percahlia song is call it what you want because i am in my heart a percy girl) #(and it contains the one image that is most important to me-- #that vex meets him where he is with his curse and everything and loves him with it anyway #and waits for him to come out of it and makes it a world that will envelop him when he does #and that's what ''he built a fire just to keep me warm'' makes me think about #(i know that tal made percy to be a kind of cautionary tale about how going towards your worst impulses eventually poisons you #but instead he became a story about how when you're really loved you can be pulled back from the brink #even when you see nothing but death in your future there's still so much life to live #and you can remember how to want it too #and that's!!! a lot to me. sorry that this became this long thing but you know!!!) #sending you all my love tonight gracie darling girl 💖💕💖💖 #i DO still need to read the scarlet pimpernel again and write up some parallels!!! i've been meaning to do it all year #since you drew that line between them for me! but alas. my analysis brain has been shut off! #i still want to though!! i haven't forgotten and am holding it close to think about it for a while! bless you for telling me!! #ask #cr1 #friends tag

[juminsfakecat]

just think it was very sexy of cheritz to change the saeran’s character model for his AE. he looks at you and everyone in the eye vs. when he was always shyly looking away. nevertheless, with how much emphasis was made on his skinny and hungry he was in mint eye, he looks so round and soft like a marshmallow in his newer model <33 it’s technically only been two weeks in between the end of ray’s route and the AE, but it’s just so nice to see him surrounded by people who like him so much & his skills are incredibly respected vs. his penance to stay around. his underbags are nearly gone, and when he smiles, it’s the softest thing you ever seen (i’m sorry yoosung kim, but he was right, he beat you in the innocent department lololol)<333

#saeran choi #he’s just cheritz’s love letter to us bc he truly is a melting pot of everyone’s love/communication styles fr #he’s so sincere and comforting like yoosung #but he’s also so flirty and obsessed with u like zen 😭 #not to mention he’s direct and clingy like jumin #and he and jaehee are similar in the way they need support and ask so timidly please I’m a sucker #but omg when he jokes it’s always flirty like seven 😭😭 my heart i loved when seven flirted so it’s perfect for me #i guess u can say I’m telling him to love himself like v’s ugly ass (I’m sorry I’m very anti-v bc I’m playing the ae 🤍 and he & rika are #getting on my nerves 🤍 because hearing him understand the exact reason why he’s obsessed with rika just pains me 🤍) #BUT YOU KNOW WHAT SAERAN HAS ON ALLL OF THEM #how he’s so just touch-starved & unapologetically touchy with the player like pls #man was about to break me out the hospital for some coochie pls and I’d GIVE IT UP #they probably have been around each other 24/7 at this point just cuddling and holding hands #and honestly saeran is the only one I believe who had sex immediately LMFAO #bc he’s touch-starved yes but also bc he has ray’s sweetness yet saeran’s boldness #the rest of them tbh?? are really shy like even how confident they seem?? like even jumin comes off timid when he wants to be close #saeran… i mean look at how much he loves kissing 😭

[imthatqueerkid]

#crush blogging day 49 #today has been all about grappling with my inability to motivate myself to do anything #and the guilt i feel for leaving my cherished dragon plushie at fire boys house #its so silly hell be like 'dragon told me this' and i have to hold myself back from announcing 'he would not fucking say that' #youve characterized my boy so incorrectly you dont even know #blorbo from my plushie collection :(( look how theyve massacred my boy #anyway at this point im trying to understand the rhyme and reason behind the desire i feel towards him #by that i mean trying to be kind to myself when i feel sexually ir sensually attracted to him #and starting to explore more of where the shame comes from #why do i feel ashamed that i want to be close to him? why do i feel dirty for wondering about whether sex is something I'd want with him? #also: why do i feel the need to over analyze my desire to kiss him? #its literally not a big deal to want to kiss someone youve been going on dates with #but nooo ive gotta ask #do i really want to kiss him or do i just think i want to? if i really want to kiss him why didn't i the other night when he wanted to too? #(answer: if i didn't want to kiss him id probably not be up at 11 pm fantasizing about it) #(and its perfectly ok for me to not act on desires when im feeling scared or nervous; those feelings can and do coexist) #ughhhhh as soon as hes gone i want him back #as soon as ive got him and hes looking at me the way he does its like i feel so safe yet so nervous and i cant do anything #except hold him #mmmmmmmmmhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh see now i wish he were here so i could actually kiss him #but when he was here and down to kiss i couldn't face my fear of intimacy! how annoying is that????? (very) #this will be remedied soon because im pretty certain next time we hang out we will kiss. we will. #silly silly Jasper #fire boy #from the couch #Spotify

[bibiana112]

abt ur reblog abt fandom stuff, i will happily oblige to ask if ur brain gave u anymore thought of the no apocalypse junpei finds quark au? love love love aoi's role in it and i think abt it a lot so im curious! literally happy to listen to anything abt it this is my entire shit

Oh!!! Sadly I don't have much on it, no, but I do have the initial little exchange that made me think about it, a lot of times my brain just runs with a back and forth dialogue and if I like it I write it down and only if I like it a lot do I go back and write down the descriptors and rest of the context to how the scene plays out in my head but it's sadly not happened to this as fun as it would be of a scenario to think about my brain checked out after I wrote down Aoi being super embarrassing to Akane by talking about when she was a baby and bossing the two around cause they called him in to babysit for being the only one there who knows anything about tending to another living being

Okay actually I read the thing again and apparently I thought of this as an au on my version of the au where the kurashikis don't do any of the vlr or ztd stuff and just work with sois on random esper stuff after a couple years so they don't have to be on the run anymore but they still have more restrictions than other agents, so there's a little joke that's like hey do you this violates probation? And idk there could be a plot there somewhere also they're at least in their late twenties by that point if not early thirties and Junpei and Akane aren't married cause this isn't canon they don't get officially hitched as soon as they look at each other again

I guess I'll add what I actually have here, hold up I'll give the bare minimum of context so they're not talking in the void

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Once the door cracks open and Akane gets up in a huff to greet her brother with one rant after another, none of which Junpei even directs his attention to or try to follow, he gets up from his seat carefully. Holding a little blond baby draped in a single blanket they had lying around in his arms.

Aoi already got the heads up of what's happening from Akane earlier, although she didn't sound as eloquent as usual. Tenmyouji was out and somehow came across an empty lot which somehow had a baby crying in it and somehow it wasn't just him hearing things but an actual child that was abandoned there when he went to look.

And somehow, he thought bringing the kid home with him was the most logical course of action, which Akane couldn't agree with less. There were a thousand other ways he could have helped and as far as she's concerned this is one of the worst ones.

Before they could get into an even messier argument the crying started up again and she elected to call her brother in for backup before she had a Moment™ over how irresponsible it was for her stupid fiance to come home with an infant when he has yet to successfully keep a plant alive on his own.

Despite how set off by such an unpredictable event his sister was, Aoi wasn't seeming terribly unsettled. In fact after he's done helping Akane cool off and sending her to take a breather along with a glass of water for herself, he walks up to Junpei rather giddy. Which Junpei will never get used to seeing from him. He'll much less get used to hearing him make a high pitched voice as he leans in to lend a single finger for the baby to grasp with his whole entire chubby little hand.

"Aww... where did this little guy come from?" He spends a little bit like that, Junpei also smiling fondly while Akane, from far over the corner table, silently judges them both. It's late at night and she got herself coffee instead of plain water. Then Aoi's voice goes mostly back to normal, dropping harshly to an incredulous tone as he pulls his face away like he didn't want the infant to notice the change in tone. Although, his hand doesn't move away. "Seriously though, are you guys gonna keep'em?"

"That's the idea!" "We're *not* keeping it!"

"Ah, I see what the emergency really is. You needed a babysitter while you tear each other to shreds, I mean, sure, at your service. Hey, hold like this." With that Junpei's arms are free, he does watch for what his brother-in-law to be shows him to be the correct way of properly resting them over the shoulder and then how to support the baby's neck and head with how he was doing it earlier.

"Did you give them a bath after bringing them in? Even wrapped up on this it's far too cold outside. How long's it been exactly?"

"Uh, only a couple hours, sun was already down. And no, of course I didn't, how do we even do that? You can't just put him in a shower."

"Well, no duh. You need a little plastic bathtub, eh- honestly even just the sink will do, as long as it's shallow enough to hold them up."

"How do you even know this stuff."

Akane joins them, getting close while paying attention only to what they're talking about. Unfortunately, it's Aoi who's talking.

"Mom and dad had me help dry Akane after her first baby bath–" "Aoi..." Her hand goes instinctively to pinch his arm but it stops halfway, then it stays there as she closes her eyes and inhales deeply defeated by the fact she can't shut him up this easily without risking him losing his balance.

"She was soo tiny. I don't know about being this small, but I think she was heavier."

"Aoi. Aoi. Please, shut your mouth. And I'm pretty sure you just couldn't hold as much weight back then."

"Hm. Maybe." He shrugs. Then completely takes the subject over a one hundred and eighty degree turn. "Do you think this violates probation by the way?"

It's Junpei who answers.

"That's... A fair question."

He didn't think of the legal implications of bringing a baby off the streets to his house which just so happens to be the same place his criminal mastermind girlfriend lives. In fact, he was much more hopeful she'd be all altruistic about it and how it's the right thing to do instead of getting hung up on it being an impractical solution or that he's just fooling himself wanting to skip right to raising a kid together or whatever.

"We are not on 'probation', and we're not adopting a whole human child because of an impulse *you* had, Junpei. Our technically legal position is only yet another reason we should–"

Aoi interrupts her before she can get on a roll ranting again.

"Can you guys argue at the grocery store? This thing is gonna get hungry sooner rather than later and we can't exactly feed them with instant ramen."

"I have other things on the kitchen, I'll let you know!"

"Yeah, well, but I don't figure you treat yourself to baby formula on the weekends, now do you? And a can of energetic won't do it either, jackass. Now, get moving!"

#but yeah feel free to continue workshopping this with me this one's fun akdhksjs #if anyone wants to weigh in too I guess #this was very fun to go back to and write actually :3 #I have so many verbal exchanges between characters with zero context but that I look at and know exactly what's happening lol #my brain just likes to simulate conversation far more than it enjoys actually engaging in it which. c'mon man #but yeah! please lmk your thoughts :3 and thanksies for asking #a tag for asks #dreamy don't look #vlr spoilers #hhhhh god this has to go on the general spoiler tag for caitas sake gosh darn #oh hold up I am actually thinking more about this now that I should be asleep lol #like there was another hing I remembered too of Junpei just being so protective and wanting to stay close #that Aoi has to tell him not to fall asleep holding them or he can smush them #which led me to think how I'm not sure this scene would end with him just going to the store wih akane cause idk if he'd trust that #she wouldn't have instructed him to just take the kid to an orphanage while they're away cause well #no matter how nice he's being or how genuine the situation seems it's still Them. y'know? #I don't think even years of getting used to each other would make that thing in #his brain saying they both would scheme behind his back again if push came to shove go away completely #and he's very right that they would even if it's not actually the case here this once it's genuine #but he doesn't know that