#unrelated how do you tell people that you probably need to be put on self deletion watch and also that you need everyone to be very nice and

[froggibus]

Seeing Their Pact Mark For The First Time - Obey Me! Brothers

Summary: how they react to seeing their pact mark for the first time

CW: branding, marking, general possessiveness? suggestive (Lucifer’s and Asmo’s), jealousy (Levi’s)

more obey me content!! i am down bad for MAMMON rn so that’s what brought this about lol. also some happier content (thank god)

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Lucifer

his is on the back of your neck

usually it’s hidden under your hair or the collar of your shirt so no one really sees it 

lucifer is curious about it but doesn’t really care to ask

honestly he got really busy after the pact was formed and forgot all about it

you’re late for school one day and rushing to get ready in the bathroom when Lucifer walks by 

you have your head down looking for something and he sees it on the back of your neck

literally stops in his tracks and does a double take 

“so that’s where it is.”

jumpscare 

he asks to see it again

has you sit down in front of him so he can play with your hair and rub his fingers across the mark 

he loves that there’s a vow on your body binding you to him that only he can see

unless he gets jealous and “accidentally” uncovers it in front of someone 

(also unrelated but imagine giving him head in a position where he can see it—him holding you by the pact mark and guiding you along his length)

Mammon

it’s on your back where your heart would be

you know what it means but you don’t want to tell Mammon about it

he would probably just make fun of you anyways

one day he comes to see you after school, and forgets to knock

unfortunately for both of you, you’re in the process of changing into your pyjamas 

he walks in right as you take your shirt off, and he’s greeted by your back and the golden mark that resides there

definitely screams and hides his face in his arm 

“w-why are you naked??”

“why didn’t you knock?!”

you finish putting on your shirt and lay down on your bed, stomach first 

“mammon, you can open your eyes now”

he awkwardly does, relief washing over him when he sees that you’re fully clothed

“so what did you need?”

“was that my pact mark on your back?”

you agree and then ask if he wants to see it

he does but insists it’s just to see what it looks like (no other reason)

you lift the back of your shirt up and continue laying down on your stomach

Mammon feels really emotional looking at it

his pact mark, on his human?

he traces the outline of it, in awe of how it looks on your skin 

neither of you say anything for a while, you just lay there contentedly while he runs his fingers over the mark over and over again 

Levi

his is on your left thigh, just below where your underwear sit

what better placement for the Avatar of Envy?

you couldn’t find it at first, but you could feel it 

when you did finally find the orange mark on your leg, you knew that Levi would implode if he ever found it 

Levi sees you showing his brothers their pact marks and gets a little a lot jealous 

doesn’t confront you about it tho and instead decides to go pout in his room about it 

when you come in to check on him, he’s a little cold with you 

“cmon leviachan, talk to me. what’s got you so upset?”

you have to listen to a five minute self deprecation spiral before he even tells you why he’s upset

“levi…you know that if you wanted to see your mark, all you had to do was ask, right?”

he’s a little embarrassed about it now but with some gentle coaxing you manage to calm him down enough and get him to sit on the bed across from you

when you start unbuttoning your pants, his face burns 

“OMG y/n, w-what are you doing?”

“calm down, Levi…just, look, okay?”

you tug your pants down to your knees and stretch out your left leg so that he can see the orange mark 

“open your eyes, Levi, it’s just my underwear”

Levi wants to argue that it’s not just your underwear but he shuts up when he opens his eyes and sees the mark

it’s on your thigh of all places???

if people thought he was a pervert before, what would they think of him now??

“Levi,” you say, trying to bring him back to reality

when that doesn’t work, you grab his hand and place it over your thigh 

his hands are warm compared to your cold skin and it grounds you both 

“are you better now?”

he nods slowly, unable to look at you while his hand is on your bare thigh 

Satan

his is on the left side of your rib cage 

it’s just hidden enough that even if you wear crop tops, he wouldn’t be able to see it 

he definitely went around asking his brothers where theirs was in order to process of elimination where it is 

he doesn’t want you to just tell him

he feels like he should be able to know/guess where it is just based on the connection 

probably overworks himself trying to figure it out

finally, after a few nights of detective work and little sleep, you force him to lay in his bed 

“I’m going to show you where it is, and in return, you’re going to actually get some sleep”

he begrudgingly agrees, propping his head up on the headboard to watch you

you straddle his hips and slowly strip your shirt off, adjusting so that he can see the green mark of wrath 

his mouth goes dry seeing it 

he definitely didn’t consider that it would be there of all places 

reaches out and brushes his fingers across it 

“is it everything you hoped for” you joke

but it really is everything he hoped for 

Asmo

its below your belly button, stopping just above your pubic bone

it’s kinda the perfect spot for him too 

a cute little pink swirl leading to your precious parts

Asmo likes to giggle and speculate where it shows up

honestly he hopes a little that it ends up over your heart, but he won’t be disappointed otherwise 

loves to tease you about the mark too

one day you’ve had enough of his teasing and speculation though

“I’m putting this to rest, Asmo,” and you take him to your room and make him sit on his knees in front of you

you roll up your shirt and he can see just the beginnings of it under your belly button 

then you unbutton your pants and roll them down to your thighs so he can see the rest of it

his eyes are practically glowing when he sees it

“it’s so pretty!!” he gushes

asks if he can touch it and you agree, gasping when his perfectly manicured fingers brush across your mark

presses a kiss to it and leaves a glob of sparkly lipstick behind 

begs you to let him take a picture of it to keep (and may or may not set it as his Home Screen) 

also expect him to be admiring it and touching it anytime he sees it

Beel

his showed up just above your belly button

he always wondered where it was but never thought to ask 

if you wanted to show him, you would…right?

eventually gives in to his impulses and asks you directly 

“y/n…” bro is sweating buckets

you’re genuinely worried something is wrong by how serious he is at first 

“what’s up?”

“I just wanted to know…where’s my pact mark?”

Oh 

you’re honestly relieved it wasn’t anything too serious 

“follow me”

you bring him into your room and close the door behind him

honestly Beel starts to worry where it is 

when you slowly peel off your t-shirt, he covers his eyes and his cheeks flush 

you have to pry his hand off of his eyes to even get him to look 

“beel—calm down. it’s on my stomach.”

he’s breathless when he sees the swirling red mark

asks if he can touch and you nod eagerly 

his touch is gentle, calloused fingers smoothing over your skin 

you’re not sure what prompts you to ask, but suddenly you’re looking up at him through your lashes and asking “do you like it?”

Beel doesn’t even know what to respond to that 

of course he likes it

it’s a mark that ties the two of you together 

instead of answering, he chooses to press a soft kiss to the centre of your mark

Belphie

belphie’s is a tramp stamp

it’s on your lower back, right on the spot where your t-shirt always rides up while you sleep 

you’re half convinced that it only showed up there as a joke 

Belphie never really cared much to see it either 

like he always saw his brothers asking and fawning over theirs but he just…didn’t care

he always felt a bit of a disconnect regarding your pact tbh

he comes home early from school one day to take a nap and sees you already sleeping on the couch

you’re curled up in a ball, your face shoved in the cushions

and your shirt is twisted and has started to ride up as you move in your sleep

he sees the mark and his first thought is “y/n has a tattoo?”

he moves closer to see what it is and as soon as he realizes it’s his pact mark he almost falls over 

it’s there of all places?

because of fucking course it is

he kinda just sits on the floor next to you for a while admiring it while you sleep

until he notices you’re shivering and feels like he has to do something about it

slowly pulls down your shirt over the mark he loves so much and lays his jacket on top of you

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[fatal-blow]

Self-Massage and Myofascial Pain: Do You Have Low Back Pain?

"Doesn't everyone?" you say. No, actually. Yeah, I find the concept baffling too. However, you too could not have back pain for the low, low price of skimming this post.

The short story of all this is that I've been learning about trigger points, myofascial pain syndrome, and the science of good posture, and I've become so absolutely furious that this stuff isn't common knowledge--

(I have encountered ONE healthcare professional who knows SOME of what I know. FUCKING ONE. And myofascial pain is something that Every Single Human Person has experienced.)

--that I'm making little self-diagnosing guides for common pain patterns based on my own experience as well as The Trigger Point Therapy Workbook, which is now my fucking bible.

Common concerns:

"I'm pretty sure it's just my fibromyalgia." Fibromyalgia and myofascial pain have tons of overlap, so I recommend looking into this regardless!

"I do have pain, but it's carpal tunnel/stomach ulcer/tendonitis/arthritis." Myofascial pain is frequently misdiagnosed, and the treatment for it is easy and unintrusive. Even if the problem isn't myofascial, practicing myofascial release can help relieve muscles associated with these conditions.

"Will I hurt myself?" Probably not*. Self-massage can cause bruising if you're a little enthusiastic, like myself, but you won't cause long term damage. Maintaining focus and avoiding pulses are your only concerns, and they are mild.

*Some health conditions can make self-massage a bit dicey. I recommend a little research beforehand if youre worried.

"What does myofascial pain feel like?" A lot of things, to put it simply. Some signs of myofascial pain that I've come across are: areas that feel like bruises with no actual bruising, skin sensitivity (if you get pain from, say, running your hand over it in the shower), an assortment of symptoms from various things that seem unrelated, pain that doesn't go away with rest, pain with no clear cause, and more.

"Do I need massage though? Shouldn't I rest?" You also should rest, yeah, but here's the thing. Myofascial pain can be Instantly Relieved with self-massage. So why wait?

Furthermore, trigger points, the cause of these pains, don't always go away with rest. They can create positive feedback loops. If untreated, more trigger points can crop up, and the pain gets worse and spreads. Targetted massage can break that loop.

"Dude, I'm concerned by how much of a conspiracy theory this sounds like." Brother me too. Miracle cures aren't a thing, but stumbling across this information sure has felt like one, given I feel better than I have in years. Just...hear me out on this one. It won't harm you to try these techniques.

"What even ARE trigger points? What's myofascial pain syndrome??"

That's a long answer that I'll need to save for another post. You don't need to know what it is or how it works, though. Just how to treat it.

For more in depth info on self-massage, check out this post.

Disclaimer: I'm not a professional at anything except for being in pain, and constantly weaseling out ways to not be in pain. All this information can, more or less, be found in The Trigger Point Therapy Workbook by Claire and Amber Davies. I'm just organizing it into a more accessible guide for myself and others.

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I have low back pain, and my feet, knees, and hips also hurt. I might also have widespread pain in general.

This combination of symptoms is often tied to postural issues, and usually it's Morton's Foot (not to be confused with Morton's Neuroma).

One in four people have this quirk in their anatomy. The short of it is that the foot distributes your body weight across two points instead of three--which can leave you feeling off balance.

Mortons Foot can cause widespread pain. If you have other conditions such as hypermobile joints or anxiety, watch out!

Go to www.mortonsfoot.com. They'll explain it better than I can. I can also tell you they're legit; I bought insoles from them and boy do they Work.

Other symptoms: sensitive feet, frequent sprains/rolling of ankle, bad posture, unusual worn spots in footwear.

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The pain is in a horizontal band across my back.

The nature of trigger points is that referred pain patterns can seem nonsensical. A horizontal band of pain ANYWHERE in the back, not just the low back, can be caused by the abdominal muscles.

Can be caused by slouching, improper lifting, and overworking abs with exercises like sit ups.

Associated with the pain in your back after a hard day of work. This is the source of the "back breaking" in back breaking labour.

Massage Tips:

Do this lying down. Prop your head and shoulders on a couple pillows. Make sure you're warm, cozy, and comfy.

Lower abs should be massaged with fingertips, using your other hand to support them. Use your middle three fingers and begin by searching for tender points. Focus on the central muscle. Raise your head or legs to feel them contract.

If you find a tender point (and I do mean tender. If you're not familiar with pain, you might become concerned. Don't be--your body and mind are made so that you won't hurt yourself doing this) hang out and get to know that muscle. Seek out the spot that hurts the most.

Abdominal muscles go lower than you think. Get your fingers right down in the pelvis. Root around in there like a boar roots around for truffles.

Once you've got your guy, use short strokes from one end of the point to the other. Pain is subjective, but your goal is not to be in agony. Each stroke should cause a sensation right before you would classify it as pain. If you're grimacing, or tensing your muscles, ease off.

You only need 10-12 of these strokes. Search around for other tender points, do the same until you can't find anymore.

Your pain should have eased by now. If some, but not all, has disappeared, or you didn't find any success, try the other techniques in this post.

For more in depth info on self-massage, check out this post.

Your goal: To relax and soften the muscles as much as possible. Heat and other relaxation techniques will help. One session should be enough to bring some relief, but you should repeat this until you stop finding tender spots.

After massage, stand up and gently stretch out your abdominals three times.

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The pain is on one side, possibly both, and I sit a lot.

The section above can also help chronic sitters, but this section is the meat of the issue for us. My experience with this pain is that it's sharper and more debilitating than typical low back pain. It can make it hard to walk.

Caused by...sitting a lot. Wheelchair users take note, I wouldn't be surprised if this one could help y'all out.

This one is more likely to cause limping. Do you sit with your knees up a lot? This muscle doesn't take kindly to that. You also might have trouble getting up from low seats

Be careful with this one. If it's active, it's gonna hurt like a bitch to poke around.

Massage Tips:

Like the previous massage, lie down with your shoulders and head slightly propped up. Have an extra pillow on hand.

Pick which side you're working on. Prop your knees up, and lay your knees AWAY from your chosen side. Use the pillow to lay them on.

Use the tips of your fingers, using the opposite hand to support them, for massage. You can also put your fingers back to back (make a T) to dig deeper.

Find the hip bone. You can easily start by poking around the inside of it, top to bottom. When you find tender spots, massage with short strokes. Look for the sensation that precedes pain.

You can go deeper by pressing down into the area between the hip bone and belly button. If you feel a pulse, move closer to the hip bone. If you can't get away from the pulse, or if you've found a pulsing mass, go to the hospital. Not joking on that one.

If you're have trouble finding the muscle, bring your knee towards you. It helps if you do this with resistance against the knee. You should feel the psoas muscles flex.

For more in depth info on self-massage, check out this post.

Your goal: Relax, again try not to elicit so much pain that you're tense or grimacing. If these muscles aren't the cause of your pain, you might not even be able to feel it. Sometimes, the psoas muscles are so sensitive that you can barely touch them. Even the lightest massage can help, though, and over time you'll be able to put more pressure.

After massage, gently stretch the leg on that side behind you three times. This is best done while standing. Be careful not to strain it if you are lying down.

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Feels like, or has been diagnosed as, sciatica.

Sounds like you've got butt problems. Yup, you've got a pain in the ass. Different from Morton's Foot because the pain comes from the hips, and rarely refers all the way down to the feet.

Appropriately, your butt might be tender. Pain tends to extend across the hips, both above and below the belt line

We qualify this as low back pain, but if you put your hand overtop of the painful area it's more like back, upper hip, though that's not always the case.

Usually only one side, but can be both.

Massage tips:

Get yourself a tennis ball. If you're short enough, a doorknob will do in a pinch. If you have access to a Theracane, that's great too.

Brace against your tool of choice using a wall. Start on the outside of your hip, beneath the hip bone. Keep your knee bent and put your weight on the opposite foot. Look for tender areas and massage them out--look for the sensation that precedes pain.

You can also sit to get at your butt muscles easier.

Work all across the outside hip and all across the butt. Hell, get other areas of the lower back while you're here too. This will kill so many birds with one tennis ball.

For more in depth info on self-massage, check out this post.

Your goals: This massage is a bit tougher to control the pressure on, but fortunately the tool you're using is broad enough that it won't elicit the intense sensations that other trigger points can. The back of your hip should feel looser and more relaxed.

After massage, guide the hip through its range of motion. Don't force movement if it feels like the joint is "catching" or if pain intensifies--at worst the area should only be a bit sore afterwards.

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Pain is a deep ache that feels like it's in the spine itself.

This pain is actually from your spine! Well, generally. A lot of muscle pain gets referred away from the problem point, but these guys are right where you expect them.

Admittedly I have less experience with this back pain, but typically pain is also accompanied by your back feeling stiff as a board. It's the pain typically associated with throwing out your back.

This pain often gets blamed on osteoarthritis, but even if you have signs of damage on xrays, sometimes it's muscular.

Fun fact: these muscles, which run along the spine and interconnect the vertebrae, are only relaxed in two positions: lying on your back, and standing up straight. So if they're tensed up when doing either, something is going on.

Massage Tips

Tennis balls and objects of similar size can help, but sometimes don't penetrate through the muscles well enough. For an extra boost of gravity, you can also lie on a bed, with your tool of choice on top of a paperback book.

Follow the pain, massage it until it feels better. Don't be afraid to dig in if you aren't getting results. The muscle here is thick.

Best practice is getting the tennis ball into the groove of your spine and just going to fucking town.

Theracane can also be used.

For more in depth info on self-massage, check out this post.

Your goal: Your hope is to see a release of tension in the back. Before and after massage, lie down with a heat pack and relax to help soften the muscles.

Don't worry too much about stretching out these muscles until you have more confidence in your body again. It's easy to overstretch and undo all the progress you've made.

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And that's about it for lower back. I'm happy to add any clarification on these points if necessary, but please don't come into my inbox expecting me to diagnose you.

If you're a friend/mutual, though, feel free to hmu for more specific advice.

Final note: expect to need to work on these more than once, and don't be surprised if you only get relief once you've tried some or all of these. Experimentation is your best friend with myofascial pain, and even if it's not the source of your problems, it's good to gain familiarity with your body and the pain you experience.

#i hope this helps at least one person. that's all i ask. #chronic pain #disability #myofascial pain #fatals physio corner

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[the-s1lly-corner]

OOO what about a Dark Fey reader like Maleficent? that was being hunted down by a dangerous group of cryptid hunters, and had a broken wing n wounded by iron bullets but kept running.

And the Creeps found them took em in. and since ferfolk cannot lie,.. caught them off guard with a question on how they felt about that creep 😉

I expect to see Slenderman!👁👁 and another ig👍plz

idk I rarely see Supernatural like readers, it's a little disappointing imo. I love powerful self-inserts ok?

Slenderman with a Fey!S/o

UWAAAA I'm sorry for taking so long to get to this !! I've kinda been sucked up in a bunch of irl stuff !! (Nothing serious, just me working on things)!!

Admittedly I have never watched maleficent; so I'll solely be going off the info given in this ask I hope that's alright ☝️😔 and I apologize in advance if it's no good 😭💔

As you specifically brought up slenderman, he's gonna be our star today!! I was originally going to do the full list of characters but my brain js

A raisin

Also also!! I totally get what you mean ab the shortage of supernatural readers!!! Not just in the creepypasta fandom; but really any fandom! Let the insert have powers, let them be super strong, ect ect !!

You'd stumble into him after trying to hide and take shelter in his woods

Normally, he'd take down any trespassers after stalking them for a bit; but he was just too curious about you to make that the case

I dont know, I always think of slenderman to carry that kind of curiosity about the world and other creatures; I feel like that makes him more interesting than the fandoms standard "stern and oddly fatherly" take... also I just live the idea of curious cryptids!!

Moving on

He'd help patch you up with the resources in the forest; I've seen mixed opinions on whether or not slenderman has weird healing powers but personally; I think he has regen abilities that can only be applied to himself! Unrelated to the ask I know, but a quick little fun aside and little bonding point for him and s/o if they have the same deal going on

As for shelter? I'm personally still on the fence on if I wanna make the manor thing a part of my personal universe and hc that I write for these silly lads; but rn I've settled for a version of it! Not as grand or tidy as the old fandom hyped it up to be; it's a lil smaller and kinda... run down

Still livable, though, and you're more than welcome inside if you need somewhere to stay

Granted, I'm not entirely sure how the topic of romance would be brought up with him, but let's say he picks up on some behavior from you that makes him start putting together a picture

Bro has zero rizz I'm sorry

Regardless, he eventually asks the question; and as the rules go, you're kinda forced to tell him how you feel

I think regardless of if he reciprocates or expected your answer, he'd be surprised

I mean how many people are out here flirting with a forest monster, to their face

I think it could work, honestly! The relationship I mean!! I wish i had more hcs since this is such a fun idea, but I genuinely dont know much about fairy stuff and all the lore regarding them

But onto some more side hcs/little ideas to make up for the lack of stuff !!

If you need comfort, about the whole being hunted thing, slenderman is a good listener; and he understands what it's like, bro probably has to deal with people trying to get a look at him all the time. He gets it

Want revenge on them? Well if the hunters followed you into the woods they probably wont last long anyways; despite the whole curiosity thing he can be... rather territorial

Day to day life with slenderman is interesting as is, but with a fellow non-human companion? Shenanigans will likely ensue

What kind? Cant say, due to my lack of knowledge 😔☝️

Too injured to move around on your own? If you need to go somewhere slenderman will either fetch it for you, or just carry you to where you gotta go

Also he totally wont make it habit; even before the romantic relationship is fully formed

It just activates his neurons 😔

#creepypasta headcanon #creepypasta #creepypasta x reader #creepypasta x you #slenderman x reader #slenderman imagine #slenderman headcanons #creepypasta slenderman #slenderman

[notyour-valentine]

Don't forget to smile :-) ~ modern!Tommy Shelby & Reader (platonic fluff/angst)

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Summary: Tommy can't think of anything more ridiculous than the cheery messages the Barista keeps scribbling down on his to go coffee cups

Note: Written for @mrsalwayswrite auparty - I know I am super late, but life was busy and I was more representative of this Tommy than this reader. Despite the delay, I still hope you still enjoy it. At least, by now, I have the element of surprise on my side!

I do not consent to my work being translated, copied or posted elsewhere on this platform or any other. This hasn't been beta'd so I apologise for typos or mistakes

Warning: anger? car crash, violence, mention of blood, a tiny bit of politics? Depression, mention of suicide. Also Crypto Bros. Expect canon confirming tone and mention of violence.

Wordcount: 2282 words

Don’t forget to smile :-) 

The letters were mocking him. 

The four words added in sharpie to the to-go cup, in such a haste that the drawing had been smudged slightly. 

Don’t forget to smile :-) 

There was very little to smile about in the life of Thomas Shelby, especially these days and so it felt like a personal attack. 

He turned the cup so that he wouldn’t have to look at them. 

The most annoying thing about it was that stupid smiley. It made him want to punch a hole through the to-go cup with his pen just to be rid of it. 

It was as if she was trying to insult him, not just with that idiotic drawing and those empty words she always scribbled down on his cup, but with her whole demeanour. 

She was always smiling. 

She was always wishing everyone a “fantastic day!”

Tommy always knew some people were born with less than half a brain but very few had decided to be as blatantly obvious about it. 

Always smiling, always cheery, always adding messages like these that sounded like they had been taken straight from the pages of some overpriced self help book - or from one of these idiotic motivational instagram pages that would put cheesy phrases over the backdrop of some UFC fighter who would probably subcome to CTE before he turned fifty but he looked tough so what did it matter when you could turn it into an ‘inspirational image’ with ‘good energy’

That entire generation was nothing but a collection of fools living in an echo chamber and throwing phrases like “vibes” and “energy” about, although if he told them that, they’d probably “call him out” for his “toxic masculinity” and “bad vibes”. 

The fact that he knew all these things made him want to curse Ada even more, who had written her second dissertation about said ‘toxic masculinity’, or maybe third - he didn't remember, and to Finn, who only last week offered to ‘connect’ him with one inspirational speaker he really liked who was doing a podcast and really wanted Tommy to be a guest on it. 

He’d rather eat broken glass. 

But like most awful things in his life, that barista was unrelenting.

Apparently she was always the one doing the graveyard shifts, because it was always her handing out his coffee at the drive through in the earliest morning hours, always smiling, always with those stupid useless sayings.

The whole business would work better if their employees didn’t waste time with meaningless scribbles no one would ever bother to read. 

You’re doing great!

As if Tommy Shelby needed a little barista to tell him that.

He knew he was doing great. He knew how far he had come, straight out of the social estate housing in Birmingham to the penthouses of London and New York, with businesses on every continent and a company on the stock market (and several that would never be connected to his or his family’s name). 

Be proud of yourself!

Especially on a day like this with the Chinese business close to blowing up, it made him want to crumple up the cup in his hand, and preferably her idiotic smile with it. 

It was just so unnecessary - a waste of time and energy, even of ink itself. 

But no matter what, he could always count on those few words of writing to ruin his morning. 

Today again. 

You are loved!

He didn’t feel loved, if that even was a thing, not after Polly had been screaming at him for an hour straight, making his ears ring. 

Then again - 

Today’s a great day to have a great day!

What did that even fucking mean?

And what if some other car crashed into his on the way to work and squashed his skull to mush? That would be a sight for the firefighters that would be called to scrape his brains off of the asphalt. 

The next time he’d have to teach one of his rivals a lesson, he should send them something with that saying on first, before blowing up their car or setting fire to their restaurant.

It was funny in a way. 

You’ve totally got this!

He had stared at the writing for longer than he should have, having been up for nearly twenty hours now, running only on stubbornness, caffeine and desperation. 

You’ve totally got this!

Tommy stared at it and thought of the little barista with her silly apron covered in coloured buttons on the side, filled with meaningless slogans and symbols. 

As if putting some logo on a badge would fix things. 

She was only pretending to care about these causes, about him, about all the other customers she smiled at. 

But at least she’s pretending, a voice in his head reminded it. No one else is fucking doing it.

Least of all himself.

These days, Tommy was too tired to pretend, but it didn’t matter, did it?

Not really. After all, everyone was busy, everyone was desperate. 

Ada was up and about changing the world, writing books and fighting causes, trying to pass laws in at least six different countries at once, while Polly was somehow at the Met Gala, the Biennale and Cannes at the same time, hardly spending half as much time in England as she was spending in Monaco or St. Tropez or the Maldives. 

Arthur was already stretched to his limits, in and out of the clinical rehabs Polly and Ada put him in and the church retreats in Iowa that Linda recommended, and talking to his wife was tricky these days, after it came out that she had donated to some politician Ada hated. 

At first she and his sister had been throwing insults, then food, and in the end even fists had flown. 

There was no talking to any of them now. 

Just him, always him. 

“You’re earlier than usual!”, she remarked when he pulled up to the drive way.

Tommy only huffed. 

���Have a great day!”, she told him as she handed him his coffee and a sandwich he probably wouldn’t eat. 

Some days he even wondered if they would notice if he would disappear. 

They would, of course, at least when the money dried up. 

She was doing it for the same reason. He might not like her but he was a fair tipper.

Still, she’d notice before they would. 

Which was - something? He didn’t know, and he didn’t have the energy to think about it. 

London inner city traffic allowed him to glance at what she had written today

You are blessed!

Rolling his eyes, Tommy took a sip. 

So meaningless. So childish. So useless. 

Every single day, like an endless stream of blind idiocy. 

Don’t forget to smile =)

People look up to you!

You WILL achieve your goals!

Today is EXTRA good!

You matter!

I believe in you!

Don’t forget to do what you love 🤍

You do a great job being you!

Meaningless at the best of times, mockery at the worst. 

Countless times he had thought of changing the coffee place just to be rid of her needless pestering positivity, but it was the most convenient spot, besides, doing that would mean he had to concede a reaction to it and to him it was a sign of defeat to indulge fools. 

Still, it was nagging at him. 

This rainy Thursday she had written something particularly irritating on it. 

Not only had she greeted him with a smile “You’re back!” on the first day he had returned from a work trip to Paris.

“Yeah.”, he muttered as he waited for his coffee impatiently. 

As she handed him the cup, he glanced at it. 

People are grateful to know you 

This was reaching new depth. No one in the history of his life had ever been grateful for that. 

Not a single person. 

Even those people who were cursed to love him weren’t. They were grateful for his work and money, but not knowing him. 

Unless - 

Maybe it was the exhaustion, or simply because he couldn’t be bothered to go back to the bank to exchange his change. 

Fuck it, he thought. In a way, he was only doing himself a favor as it would be useless to send someone. 

So Tommy circled around the drive through and ordered some cinnamon roll from her colleague at the first window.

“You again, did you forget something?”, she asked with her beaming smile. 

No. 

“Ever been to Europe - “

Tommy had to squint to read her nametag. 

The name suited her, in a way, even if he hadn’t suspected it. 

“No, but I’d love to go to Rome!”, she said as she handed him the brown paper bag.

Tommy noticed the black writing from her pen, but didn’t read. 

“Cash this time.”, he said, handing her a pound bill, and then whatever had remained in his wallet from his trip to Paris. 

It wouldn’t change the world, but there was enough green and purple in there to finance a little trip for a barista. 

He shoved them into her hand unceremoniously and drove off before she had the chance to react. 

If she was smart, she’d hide it in her pocket, but if she chose to put it in the tip jar and share it with her colleagues, that was her business. 

People are grateful to know you. 

She was a fool, and Tommy couldn’t change that, but at least today he had made sure her words didn’t make her a liar. 

~

It kept raining all through the day, and into the late afternoon, through phone calls and meetings, through Michael throwing a fit and Polly being unreachable, through everything. 

“Tommy,”, Lizzie said, popping her head in through the tinted glass doors, “there’s a woman at the front desk to see you.”

“What woman?”, he asked, taking off his glasses.

“Some girl. She has something for you, something you lost and she refuses to give it to the security.”

Fucking really? 

Lizzie only shrugged. 

“She says its important. They’ve checked her. No weapons. She says she’s fine waiting downstairs until you come down.”

He had half a mind to test that theory, but then he shook his head. 

“Send her up then.”, he muttered. The only thing less appealing to him than having to deal with some stranger was having to deal with some stranger after a long day’s work. 

Five minutes later Lizzie came in again. 

“I can’t send her in here, Tommy - she’s soaking. It’ll ruin the floors.”

He closed his eyes for a moment, gathering his strength before getting up to Lizzie’s office.

It took him a moment to notice her without her hat and apron, but her smile gave her away. 

“Hi, so sorry for disturbing-”, she began. “I’ll be right off, I promise, but ah - you made a little mistake earlier.”

She really was soaking, from head to toe drenched and dripping, her clothes clinging to her skin. Still, she smiled. 

“What?”, he asked in utter disbelief. 

Reaching into her back pocket she took out the folded Euro bills he had passed her hours earlier. 

“You always give my five quid - so maybe you got the colours mixed up cause this one’s green too.”

She bit her lip in embarrassment as she handed out the bills to him. Each and every one, green, yellow and purple. 

“So yeah - this is yours.”

He only stared at her in disbelief. 

“Are you for real?”, he demanded to know.

“Yeah.”, she said immediately. “I mean, I’d like to think I’m good at my job, but I’m not - three thousand six hundred and seventy five Euros good at my job.”

When he didn’t take the money, she put it on Lizzie’s desk who was watching the interaction with wide eyes from the window. 

“Nothing we got is that good, not even the blueberry muffins.”

Tommy only stared at her. 

“Anyway, that’s all.”

She was already halfway out of Lizzie’s office, her worn Converse making squelching sounds on the floor, when Tommy called her back.

“That money was for you.”, he insisted. 

She stared at him with wide eyes.

“Oh but that’s a bit much.”

“So?”

She shook her head. 

“Well, it's too much.”

If he thought her a fool before, he considered her little more than an idiot now. 

When his disbelief kept rendering him speechless she spoke up again.

“Why don’t you put it into your charity? They’ve got a lot of flyers in the lobby and the kids probably really need it. I’ll be alright.”

Lizzie gave him a look which he tried painfully to ignore. 

“I really need to go now.”, she said with an apologetic smile, “sorry for interrupting and sorry about getting the floor all wet.”

“Can I ask you something?”, Tommy asked.

“Sure.”

“Why do you always have to smile?”

She tilted her head and frowned, but then - oh wonder - she smiled. 

“I read somewhere once about a man who wanted to kill himself - wanted to jump off of the Golden Gate bridge or something and was already on the way up but he didn’t do it ‘cause someone walked by him and wished him a good day and smiled at him. Made his day and saved his life.”

She shrugged.

“Don’t know if it’s true, but you never know I guess. Anyway, I really have to go or else you’ll have a proper puddle to remember me by.”

With that, she turned and opened the door.

“Have a great day!”, she chirped, the way she always did when he drove off, only this time it was her who was leaving. 

The End

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Another top 5 most insane Brian moments tbh.

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What are your top 5 insane Brian moments 👀

Lol well specifically regarding Freddie, it’s hard to choose, but in no particular order:

1. Writing “Save Me” about him (just read the lyrics, no further explanation needed)

2. “I wanted to put those words in his mouth” with the butterfly lyrics in “The Show Must Go On” and him feeling a serious need to give Freddie beautiful lyrics to sing about himself

3. Brian posting the following message on his old website publicly like it’s nothing. It’s heartbreaking, but like, he really sat down in front of his computer and decided to post this.

“Thought so” wtf wtf

4. Him apparently wanting to name a book with various people’s stereoscopic photographs that had absolutely nothing to do with Queen “Stereoscopy Is Good For You, Darling” in honor of Freddie and not understanding why his colleagues didn’t want that name because, “If Freddie were here, obviously that’s what he’d say 🤷🏻‍♂️” Like, this man does not understand that most people aren’t thinking about Freddie all the time and his colleagues in an unrelated field don’t want their collaborative project named for him lol. But his brain is like, “of course we have to mention Freddie :)”

5. I have a couple from instagram: him posting a video on Freddie’s birthday once of just him playing guitar and looking at the camera and saying, “Hey, Freddie” at the end and him talking to Freddie and saying “let’s hope we can do this again one day” in another video where he shows a pic of them playing together. Honestly, Brian directly talking to Freddie after his death guts me in general, but again, he really decided to post it for his millions of followers to see like it’s nothing! He just told everyone he hopes he can play with Freddie in the afterlife, like…

And then there’s when he shared a bunch of pictures by marilyn_artistyk and this was the very first one in the post:

I’m sorry, can we talk about how nuts it is that Brian saw a drawing of Freddie hugging his upset self from beyond the grave and not only liked it, but liked it enough to share it publicly to his millions of followers? Like, if I were in his shoes and I really liked the pic, I’d probably keep that private because there’s something painfully raw about wishing your dead friend could hug you!

There are other moments that are really intense, too, like him crying on stage over Freddie or choking up and saying he’d tell Freddie he loves him if he could, but I consider those to be purely sad, you know what I mean? With these^, there’s an element of, “God, Brian, what the hell was going through your head when you did this?” in all of them. There are other smaller insane moments, too, but these are the big ones I can think of right now.

#brian may #freddie mercury #long post #replies #Anonymous

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I’ve been WAITING for this question okay so

Just to clarify I’m fairly new to comics and also not up to date on what’s happening with most of the characters rn so if this doesn’t fit anywhere in any current timeline or has already been done uhhhh sorry I don’t give a fuck

Anyway I’d give Starfire a solo series.

The first major arc would be kind of a space road trip type thing and for this arc I’d partner Kory up with Donna Troy and it would be so fruity. Like so so fruity. Those women kiss. I’m not sure what exactly I’d have Kory doing in space or why Donna joins her but the arc should end in a way that consolidates the best parts of her lore and scraps everything else (this is how I’m retconning Red Hood and the Outlaws). So some kind of soul searching magic quest idk.

At the end of her space quest, Kory gets established with a job and apartment in a new city and her villains are all super high tech, sci-fi. The artist needs to have some fuckin whimsy in designing characters and backgrounds, none of that dark grey everything is gritty shit. Bright colors all around. Obviously there would probably be at least one arc with the Titans but I’d really want her to work with characters she hasn’t previously interacted with or to bring back characters she hasn’t worked with recently like Animal Man. Maybe for one arc she teams up with the (RENEE MONTOYA) Question to blend Kory’s whole alien thing with a street level noir story (making Dick the detective for this would be so lame and im not about that. Im giving Kory more female friendships thanks). I don’t know if she’s ever worked with Kon but if she hasn’t THIS IS THE TIME. It would be soon after she gets back from space and would kick off a storyline for him to change in some important way like idk maybe growing out of the Superboy mantle and actually being an adult.

Maybe none of that makes sense and if this is stupid feel free to tell me so. So yeah that’s my idea. Korydonna space road trip, set up a new status quo for the remainder of the series and have her work with new characters to fight super powered sci-fi villains in mundane settings, emphasis on Kory working with other women. If I have fundamentally misunderstood this character then just ignore all of this. But anyway the thing about this that I think would piss off DC is that Kory has no male love interests in this series, at all, period. She either kisses Donna or no one at all.

Unrelated to that I would also fix the whole Batgirl thing and have Babs be Oracle again, retcon Cass’s villain arc out of existence, and put her back as Batgirl for a solo series so we can have her pass the mantle to Steph at the end in a way that’s satisfying and does not include the character assassination. I don’t know how I would accomplish this in-universe without fucking up the timeline but I’d find a way.

I'm interested and am listening to you very closely. I'm not the most well versed person in Kory or Donna lore (I've read thousands of comics but not a lot with them meaningfully) so I can't say if this is compliant with anything, and even if it was an impossibility, this is about self indulgent stories YOU would write with no one at DC to tell you NO. I definitely feel strongly that DC needs more women with their own solos featuring other women and having relationships that are platonic so this 100% good in that regards and I feel a lot of people would be interested.

Kory and Kon interacted in TTv3 but I can't justifiably say it was the best of situations so having better interactions would be 100% a delight to see.

But yes, Kory deserves her own solo and we always need more queer content. And SPACE! We need more comics that take you away from Earth.

But here's an important question; WHAT CITY is she working out of??

Babs being Oracle again is a mantra even the most staunch of batfans cry daily and I feel most would welcome her back.

Tell me what you would do if you had full creative control to write for DC with NO push back from editors and who would you piss off the most with your unhinged creative wiles?

Also, I shouldn't have to say this but don't be a DICK to anyone whose self indulgent fantasies might make you mad. Keep scrolling, block, move on. Thanks.

#literally i have read thousands of comics but nearly all of them only had kory or donna as a background character #ttv3 was the most significant comics i read with kory and i did read rhato but i hated nearly every second of it #i hated 90% of ttv3 as well #someone please give this woman a meaningful solo #or at least a mini

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Feel free just to ignore this

So I know pluralpedia is obviously not a good place of information but this, this gives us a bad taste in our mouth as a programmed system. But since I really don’t know the full extent of what(and I say this with all  distaste) can be accomplished with programming, but I don’t think you can program yourself. Yes internal programming, but that’s usually put there by the handler. I don’t want to start drama and that’s not what I’m trying to do but to all my knowledge(and I can admit it is limited to my org and the things that happen to me and others ) that you CANNOT program yourself, you can condition yourself, but that is nowhere near the on the level of programming. I think it’s dangerous to spread misinformation about DID and especially about programming, like anything misinformation sucks.

I guess what I’m asking is this possible?

Im sorry about this.

https://pluralpedia.org/w/Self-programming

I clicked through the pages I haven’t read before, and I’m gonna take a more neutral stance on this.

🗝️🏷️ RAMCOA, programming, sh, syscourse

I haven’t seen the system mentioned as having coined it, but there are three listed examples.

The first is a traumagenic alter building their system of their own volition. I can see how this situation could arise and have no problem with it, but I wouldn’t call it programming. I probably wouldn’t call just this conditioning either.

It’s fairly common for alters to be able to interact and heavily affect their environment. If they’re creating structures and subspaces, good for them. Not programming. If they’re implementing commands not given directly by an abuser (maybe a sociocultural norm or forcing ‘good’ behavior), that might be conditioning. Also not programming.

The third (I did skip the second) is allowing the system to be programmed as a form of self-harm. That’s not self-programming. That would be just programming. Similarly, I don’t believe that putting yourself into an abusive situation constitutes self-harm in the same way that damaging your own body does.

Even lowering your defenses or creating ideal conditions is not doing the programming. Even asking someone to do it isn’t the same as doing it yourself. I do think that the external figure harming you is responsible for the harm, although there are nuances to both. Still not self-programming.

The second is exomemories. They specify parogenic systems with programming by their creator in the given text, but I’m going to address every kind of exomemory.

I wouldn’t mind having an alter tell me they experienced xyz in their exomemories as long as they bring up that it is exomemories. I can’t guarantee any kinship or overlap, but neither can I for any other person.

Along those lines, I wouldn’t consider innerworld memories as unreal as coverup memories. I don’t know if a nonprogrammed system can recreate the circumstances needed for external programming, but ours can and does. Even totally unrelated memories are a different kind of unreality from coverups, as they can be held as real by the alter.

Coverups are more up to the alter, if they are desperate enough for understanding to pop up in these communities. Some folks don’t think of those memories as real to them, so they aren’t. Some do but don’t care to risk themselves to the crowd.

Neither can claim RAMCOA in external reality if they don’t consider their memories external. But I wouldn’t shoot down interaction from those whose memories matter to them in that way.

As for the term itself, it’s fine. The examples are all iffy, but there are other means of identifying as self-programmed that would be fair in my eyes.

I also don’t mind the terms ‘scriptwriter’ or ‘scripted group’, but I don’t feel comfortable with no programmed systems using them. The references in the self-programming entry are not the people I would be okay with using those terms without some clarification.

RAMCOA is still trauma, and it feels icky to have people claiming entry to this really sucky thing we went through seemingly without research. It’s touchy for a lot of survivors, and it would be preferable to introduce around those words first if you can. We’re still in danger because of this abuse, and it’s a sore spot to poke into blind.

#ramcoa programming #ramcoa #tw ramcoa #did osdd #osddid #syscourse #endo safe #traumagenic system

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i see you've been train to busaned, how was it?

THIS WAS HIDDEN IN MY ASK BOX IDK HOW I MISSED IT BFEORE.. IM ASSUMING THIS IS FROM WHEN I FIRST WATCHED TRAIN TO BUSAN AND I NEED YOU TO KNOW. I AM TRULY FUNDAMENTALLY CHANGED AS A PERSON.. like not only was it a PHENOMENAL zombie film and i won't think about the zombie subgenre the same way again but also its message about what it means to be human which really is a core idea that should be at the center of every zombie film wasj ust so so so beautifula nd had me sobbing at the end and i love that we get an ending that in spite of everything ends wiht hope and i cannot stop thinking about it just in general... and seok-woo learning what it really means to be a good father and figuring out whats important to him when the world starts to fall apart and su-an's unrelenting kindness in the face of the end of humanity and the fact that her father can be so cruel or maybe not even cruel necessarily but just acting out of self-preservation and she is the light in his world and she keeps telling him that the only way out is through kindness and he's afraid to see what that could mean in a way and just in general the way the film shows how destruction and violence only lead to more destruction and how deceiving others is ultimately pointless and how kindness and love are really the only way to make it through tragedy and how you cannot survive an ordeal like this without a reason to continue living and the reason is love and other people.... and as a zombie film too the mechanics it introduces are fantastic, the entire idea of it being set on a train and the world outside the train versus the world inside being so drastically different and i love the creature design where the zombies don't attack unless they see someone it's so interesting and from an internal narrative point it's just so cool, this means the virus is actually pretty easy to contain and it means that wearing camo gear might actually help against zombies which again is just an interesting thought and when i tell you i GASPED when the small group of survivors on the train realized that they could travel through the cars of infected when the train was going through tunnels because of the low visibility THAT WAS SO COOL!! like what a neat idea!! what a fucking amazing design to put in your monsters!!!

and the way the movie is written it's just so beautiful... i love the boy's baseball team and i love the two old women on the train, the sisters, and i love seong-kyeong and her husband and i love how every person in the film feels so real and i LOVE the conductor and how he is determined to do his job as best as he can even as the world falls apart around him, and he keeps his train on the tracks as long as possible and he does everything he can to save everyone he can and AAAA ahg im probably not making a whole lot of sense right now but this movie is really just SO so good. i think it's probably the best zombie movie i've seen and it's one of my favorite pieces of zombie media ever. it really gets to the heart of what zombies as a concept are supposed to be about and it delivers on all fronts. from beginning to end i couldn't take my eyes away from this film it was incredible.

#ask #professorabacus #i rewatched it the other day bc its all just in my head im just #im just so it's so !!!!!!!!!!!

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19, 22, 24 and 32! ❤️

Oh thanks for asking 💜 I’m gonna put my rambling under a cut.

19. Tell me a story about your writing journey. When did you start? Why did you start? Were there bumps along the way? Where are you now and where are you going?

I have been reading fanfic since I was about twelve, starting with LotR, but the earliest thing I really remember writing were these stories about this group of online-turned-offline friends that I had when I was fifteen. We all wrote a different ‘alternate universe’ versions of our little group going on some adventure. In hindsight, the stories were relatively cringey and obviously full of inside jokes, but to put it in cliche terms, it ignited a spark. Around that same time I read a really popular HP/marauders fanfic that actually inspired me to read the HP books and then I was brave enough/inspired to write my first fanfics. At first I wrote something that I thought people would want to read (in my own language) so I tried writing stuff like Sirius/Remus, and I was so used to constant praise for my writing (because my readers were all my friends) that it started to feel fake almost. Eventually I just wanted to write something that nobody I knew would ever see, so I chose a username nobody would think to connect to me, started writing in English and wrote something I actually wanted to write which was a self-indulgent, practically self-insert OC romance fic. Cringe, maybe. But so much fun.

So I’ve been writing on and off for nearly 18 years, mostly off, and you don’t even need all your fingers and toes to count the things I’ve finished. I’m not the most productive. It’s the same as with any hobby; I get really into it for a while and then eventually it fizzles out. I take breaks that last months, years even. I am at a point where I don’t know if I’ll ever call myself a good writer, but there are certain parts of my writing that I actually really love. For the first time I’m also writing with intent and not just making stuff up as I go along and I want to challenge myself a little more, exploring some darker themes etc.

22. How organized are you with your writing? Describe to me your organization method, if it exists. What tools do you use? Notebooks? Binders? Apps? The Cloud?

Not very. I am generally an organized person, but when I write I put the whole story and everything related to that into one Google Doc. I can’t stand having to switch between documents or having anything separate.

24. How much prep work do you put into your stories? What does that look like for you? Do you enjoy this part or do you just want to get on with it?

Honestly? Not enough probably. When I have an idea for a story, it can be anything from one scene that evolves into something entirely different or a whole story arc that just appears out of thin air. Like, Kendall/Avery literally started off as ‘Kendall meets a girl in rehab and has sex with her’ and was meant to be a one shot. And Lukas/Gia came to me sort of fully formed late at night. My plans are usually very short, just a quick list of things that happen in each chapter. Since I write exclusively romance/smut/relationships, I start writing from the point where the characters meet because that’s usually very clear in my mind, and then I write a bunch of unrelated scenes that I have already imagined taking place. Eventually I backtrack to the actual beginning and try to write chronologically, but it’s a lot of back and forth and connecting these scattered scenes with each other. But there is always a plan, even if it is constantly evolving it doesn’t fundamentally change, and I always know what I’m writing towards. So basically, no, I don’t do a lot of prep work, but while I’m writing I’m working on the entire story at once. I also don’t like prep work, but it is helpful and it keeps me in check.

Back when I did zero planning, I started writing and posting a Bucky Barnes/OC story chapter by chapter and it went off the rails a little bit and eventually turned into a Tony Stark/OC story which… made sense and it was kind of like the characters had a life of their own, but obviously that wasn’t what my readers had signed up for. If I had a plan, maybe that wouldn’t have happened or I would’ve realized it was inevitable while planning. Idk. That story was/is 130k words and technically I never finished or wanted it to end where it did, but I lost interest and a few years later I came back to it to see that it had run its course and the ending actually kind of worked as ‘the finale.’ Sometimes I have a hard time ending things; a plan helps with that.

32. What is a line from a poem/novel/fanfic etc that you return to from time and time again? How did you find it? What does it mean to you?

“You all know, don’t you, that if people are frightened very often, they sometimes become invisible.”

From the short story The Invisible Child by Tove Jansson. And I don’t know if it’s this line specifically, but off the top of my head this is a story that comes to mind as something that has held meaning for me since I was young and now again as a parent. It’s about Ninny, who has literally turned invisible due to living with her child-hating, abusive aunt. In a nutshell: she comes to live with the Moomin family, finds respect and love and learns to speak for herself. In many ways I relate to Ninny a lot and I think somewhere along the way I overcorrected and instead of being invisible, people pleasing and afraid I became almost confrontational and too tough. Inside I will always be Ninny, though.

Ninny in the Moomin anime

#ask game

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My Very Specific Vil Agenda

So, to put it simply: I think deep down Vil is an artiste~ and he's actually rather reserved and sweet and maybe even just a tad bit shy, BUT he's developed a sort of "big sister" complex and the industry has made him into All That.

Let me start this off by saying that I have a habit of picking a character to be a fave based on nothing but vibes and gut instinct and then forcing them, in some way, shape or form, into my Softboy Box. (More often than not they also get injected with my patented Sadboy Serum but Vil has avoided this fate….for now.) And I really don't know why, other than I just find little mushy spots in characters humanizing and fun, and also its probably a third projecting on my part. So please keep in mind that this is entirely self indulgent and what I like to keep in mind when I write Vil, I do not expect others to like or agree with it nor do I think this is genuinely canon. I tried to keep it believable but I'm here for funsies lol Disney didn't hire me to do anything so I'll go as crazy as I want!

And of course, huuuuge thanks to @scarletrain1724 for helping me with some of these thoughts! I absolutely LOVE screaming about Pomefiore with you thank you so much for not only letting me yell but also encouraging me and ALSO also elevating my thoughts to something more <3

Now, without further ado: my personal Vil characterization can be split into three genres of person or however you'd say it. He has so much sweetness inside of him I just know it!!!! It's just all encased in a spiky thorny bubble of expectations. Sour Patch Kids who? How many licks does it take to get to the center of a Tootsie Pop??

Big Sister Vil

This one was my first deep dive decision into Vil and it got me REALLY loving on him because omg????? He TOTALLY fits the Big Sister archetype if you think about it. I mean it!! Picture a Disney sitcom, and picture the older sister of the main character. What personality traits do you think they'd give her?

Bossy, and probably kind of a jerk 

Super possessive over her clothes and makeup

Constantly making snide remarks about the main character

Probably more but you get my point

THIS ISN'T VIL SLANDER I PROMISE. But think about it - doesn't this fit Vil to a degree? Like he's got his firm expectations and he's constantly working, he's already achieved so much, his dorm members look up to him…and yeah, I'll be the first to say it! Sometimes he's kind of a dick about it! He's super pushy with people that he considers under his wing, he nitpicks every little imperfection he sees, and while I have not seen anything explicitly saying he does this, you think he's gonna let those unpolished potatoes touch his shit???!?! Blasphemy!!!!

But, in the way the Mean Older Sister usually comes around and becomes the MC's friends in those sitcoms, Vil has a hidden softness to him, too. Have you ever been in a club or extracurricular and the oldest person is your peer but they're kinda like the group mom? That's how I see Vil. Mom friend vibes except he's mean about it. He understands that unrelenting pursuits do not need to be aimed toward something he likes or entirely understands, and I'll bet he'll educate himself on his dorm member's interests so he can tell them they're pursuing it wrong teehee. He'll fix up an underclassman's makeup gently and send them off with a wave. He may be your biggest critic but he's also the first one to cut a bitch if they're stepping out of line. It takes a while to get there, but Vil can be that kinda naggy, kinda annoying guiding figure (and, of course, you love him anyway.)

Also, as someone with a huge bias towards good sibling tropes, it just makes me smile!! He's not fun to be around sometimes, and sometimes he'll say something that makes you think he HATES you. But deep down he cares, he's just…abrasive about it sometimes.

Inmate Number 90201 // Shy Kid Vil

DON'T BOO ME BEFORE I'VE SPOKEN!! Anyway shy vil agenda (tomatoes are thrown and a giant hook pulls me off the stage)

LISTEN….hear me out. There's a certain brand of shyness that is more reservation and less low self-esteem. Because I'm going to be honest, I know he has A Complex but I don't see truly low self esteem. I mean. I think he has kinda terrible coping methods and a toxic ideal of perfection, BUT. NOT LOW SELF-ESTEEM. So when I say he's shy, I don't mean he turns (or turned, when he was a kid) into a blubbering mess when people talked to him. I don't think he always clung to his father's pant leg when there were people at his house. I just mean that he was comfortable doing his own thing all of the time.

Now…..there is a difference between being shy and being private, especially as an adult. And to be honest, I'm not one hundred percent sure where I draw the line. But it just feels to me…Vil doesn't keep his personal information private just for safety. When he has fans lining up at the entrance of a studio or theater, waiting for him to walk by, he has to kinda brace himself for a moment. The thought of being recognized in public kinda throws him off kilter for a moment. There's no fear in this response, it's just…his comfort zone is by himself. Meeting so many new people is kind of bizarre, and the thought of them knowing so much about him is…undesirable. He isn't afraid of people not liking him, he's just…not fond of the expectation that puts on the dynamic between him and his fans. That's it, really. Vil can handle it well - he DOES handle it well - but he knows that he rather likes how practicing his lines is often a solo activity. He's fine with the independence.

THIS ALSO bleeds into the other trope I grouped in with this one……..I mean, forgive my bias against pretty much ANY industry (omg ruggie kin moment), but I refuse to believe Vil hasn't been hardened by The Industry. Who wouldn't be? Especially because (I think?) he was involved in celebrity business from a young age. So just in general, he's had to shape himself to meet the expectations of directors and choreographers and anybody else he's been employed by. We also know he is very firm about his image. It's been meticulously crafted since day one. This output does NOT come from a healthy, forgiving machine is all I'm saying.

(Also quick aside, my friend has also mentioned how its likely Vil probably had some strict teachers growing up - like ballet teachers (or maybe he was even in ballet as a kid? Was he? My brain is information soup) That type of strict tutelage can stick with you. They also said a big sticking point in ballet is control and stiffness without a loss of elegance and like that's!!! That's the stuff baby!! That's Vil!! And it would explain a lot about him~)

But Vil is intimately aware of how public perception works, and how that bleeds into the inner circles of TWST Hollywood (and vice versa!). And I'm not going to lie, I think him being a shy kid would partially explain why he's SO hardcore about….everything. I mean, imagine you're a boy who just likes acting and to mind his own business, and you're quickly rising to fame in a world where everybody wants to know everything about you just to pick it apart and call you horrible. First of all, the invasiveness is enough to give anybody nightmares, especially anybody remotely shy, but also - nobody wants to be called mean things. As a kid, he was private because he had his dad to help him stay away from giving answers he might regret later, and a part of him was probably extremely put off by how uncomfortable it all made him. But Vil has always been extraordinary, and I think he understands what a massively wonderful opportunity he's been granted where he's able to do what he loves. Vil is adamant that he's gotten his success so early in life because he worked hard and is genuinely that good, and he's right, but I don't think he's blind to the privileges he's always had access to. (Using them to his advantage is equal parts just using them and putting them to good use so they don't go to waste. One of the few rich boys I won't clown on. For now) So he rose to the challenge and pushed the growing discomfort aside, and became a bit…….colder. Over time, as he met more people and adjusted to his growing fan base, he became more and more firm in his boundaries, more strict, and more of the person he is in canon.

I'm not about to say Vil is traumatized by the industry, but I think it played a huge role in shaping who he is, and it makes sense that him being a bit more squishy as a kid is why he went SO far in the opposite direction. He's not a bad person, but he kinda overcorrected, and as a result he's kind of prickly and hard to talk to.

ALTHOUGH…….once a shy kid, always a shy kid. I think Vil's defo got some of that shy blood in him still. It's probably manifested differently at this point in his life but I bet it's THERE. If he was shy as a youngin' then I can imagine he didn't exactly have a lot of friends. Which is fine! He probably had enough. But as he got older and started climbing the social ranks, what was once shy became viewed as being snobbish, which is DEFINITELY not good for your image. And with a certain rivalry on his mind, plus I'm sure Vil hasn't landed every part he's always wanted, he began to feel true rejection for the first time. And he didn't know what to do with it, especially because it felt aimed at an intrinsic part of himself he couldn't "fix."

So he went in the other direction. Instead of keeping to himself, he made his wants and intentions (both for himself and others) clear. This also came with an added bonus: when the public has room to speculate over who you are, they will. If he gets to decide what fills in the blanks, he has a little more control over what people think of him.

Have y'all seen that tumblr post where it claims that Kristen Stewart and Jennifer Lawrence were both awkward, but one was introverted and mocked for it while the other was extroverted and praised for it? (I know that Kristen Stewart played a character that was liked less but shhhhh I'm talking about my anime boys I get to stretch the truth a little but here.) I bet that's kinda what he wants to avoid. If he puts himself out there more, he can avoid some of the mockery that might fall upon a more introverted soul.

Arthouse Hoe Vil

This one is a favorite of mine too hehe :3

So I got on this topic after talking about how the dynamic between Vil and Cater intrigues me (which……could be a whole separate post on its own but I'll save that for later). So y'all know in one of the vignettes (I belieeeeeeeeveeeee it's Vil's school uniform R card BUT don't quote me on that) Cater is trying to take a photo with Vil for Magicam clout but Vil tells him no because his face is part of his intricately curated brand? This is so FASCINATING to me because they're both in a similar sphere but are in it for vastly different reasons. Cater wants fame and attention (WHICH IT'S DEEPER THAN THAT I KNOW but this is a Vil meta and Cater will have to wait for his 15 minutes) but Vil needs to protect his brand because he wants to be able to continue what he's doing and it just implies to me that he is in it for the art of it all.

Like he cares about his image in general of course and he doesn't mind the fame I'd assume (it's probably more like a double edged sword to him tbh) but his heart is in it for the art of filmmaking and the art of modeling.

HOWEVER I feel like at some point it got…messy.

Vil is good at what he does and he's got the legacy to bolster his fame, and the films he was in stopped being cinematic art pieces and became instant blockbusters simply because they starred him. When he nodded something, it became about him and not about the clothes. And he recognizes this for sure.

Isn't that such a bittersweet thing? To be acclaimed for your art at the cost of it no longer being art and being merchandise instead?

Final Thoughts

I don't have a way to wrap "Arthouse Hoe Vil" up with a pretty little bow so I'm just moving on to my conclusion hehe~

First I wanna say that I don't think Vil is necessarily a victim of any of these things. Victimhood isn't a look he wants and I'm not trying to force him into it. irl you don't choose if you're a victim I don't mean to imply that but FOR VIL SPECIFICALLY you get what I mean But the way we turn out is influenced by so many things that I can't help but wonder about the influences he had. Vil's behavior only reads to me as a man who will do anything to avoid societal scorn. Maybe he's afraid of it, or maybe he just wants to keep up his image, I'm not sure. Maybe it's both sometimes. But he has gone through great lengths to keep up a certain act, and he will continue to do so.

Again, he's not shy in a self-conscious way, but almost in an introverted way. Keeping to himself. Comfortable with himself. Honestly this brainrot came to a head when I was talking about his relationship with his dad, and I've gotta say, I would not be surprised if the relationship Vil has with his dad is the type where they can just kinda vibe together. He holds his father in high regard and clearly they have a good relationship, but Vil's dad was frequently absent (not in a bad way) and a lot of the bonding we know about has been postcards he sent on Vil's birthday, or doing their own Beanfest thing. It just….it makes me really curious about Vil and what kind of relationships he holds dear and who he is deep down where his closest relationship that he talks frequently about is one where they are often doing their own thing. I bet when they DO see each other, they catch each other up and then just sit in the same room together sometimes. (For realsies though Vil and his dad make me SO SOFT.)

Vil doesn't HAVE to be sad. He doesn't HAVE to be this sweet, innocent kid who was beaten by the film industry until he hardened his shell and became someone unrecognizable and bad. I'm just saying I think at his core there is a soft mushy sweet boy and there are reasons his exterior is so tough. (I am totally down for sadboy Vil hours though so I'm not denouncing them, I just...idk! This post is more me poking you with a stick trying to get you to imagine lowkey shy Vil).

I think taking all of this and drawing the conclusion that he MUST be sad about it and it's ALL ruined his life is a disservice to him. Like he has his ANGST. He has issues I will learn more about come Pomefiore chapter in ENG. But all of what I just wrote isn't just fodder for his trauma, it's a deep dive exploring a potential reason WHY He Is The Way That He Is. Especially considering his dad seems….nice! Idk about his mom but he seems like he's had a good home life. And he has some really sweet moments! So what!! Why are you a little fucked up Vil. (pats chaise) let me psychoanalyze you boy

Anyway the TL;DR of it all is if Vil's fate after his graduation at NRC is him making his directorial debut with an artsy black-and-white super niche arthouse film, don't say I didn't warn ya. I'll be decked out in merch sitting right in the middle with Rook and Epel 💜god i hope any of this was coherent PLEASE

#god i have SO MANY MORE vil thoughts but I'll save those for when igni chap comes to eng #twst #twisted wonderland #vil schoenheit #twst vil #twisted wonderland vil #vil meta #is this really all the tags i can use? #nobody's gonna fuckin see this i bet alskdjfkdjf #anyway sorry this isn't written with any proper grammar #i am physically incapable of focusing on stuff like this unless i'm screaming like a mad woman the whole time #I DIDN'T EVEN GET INTO HOW SWEET HE IS INSIDE #AND HIS CONTROL OBSESSION #GOD #I'M ...... #to be completely honest. if i get scared i might delete this so pls be nice to me </3 im fragil

[berryunho]

Question unrelated to fics/ateez but since you’re in Korea I was wondering if you speak Korean? I’d love to visit in the future but honestly only have a very basic understanding of Korean and that makes me nervous to travel there so if you have any tips on like communicating I would love to hear them! (I hope this makes sense and isn’t weird to ask)

hi hi hi !! not a weird question at all lol !! sorry this got long af so im putting it under a cut LKJSFL;KSDJF

OKAY NOT TO SCARE YOU OBVIOUSLY BUT i would say that im like ... B1 level w korean hehe this is embarrassing af but i definitely thought that i was better than i am JLKFJSDLFKD getting here HUMBLED ME so fast ... like i normally watch kdramas w just korean subtitles and comprehend it well enough as long as the vocab isn't too obscure or specific and i can read ... alright ... like probably not a newspaper but the average like. fancafe announcement or whatever i can read ... BUT THE ISSUE COMES W LISTENING AND SPEAKING . without subtitles ... my ass is lost. like i feel like im only getting the gist of whats being said to me and not what's actually being said like . 75% of the time (and a lot of the time i have straight up no idea) . and when i DO fully understand what's being said it takes me a few seconds to process and by then the person talking assumes idk what's going on LJKSKDLF and i can speak ... pretty okay i think it just takes me a few seconds to put sentences together which obviously isnt natural speech at all and it makes having a convo pretty awkward/hard ... BUT LISTEN LISTEN LISTEN . this really only goes for like ... school related conversations ive had . basic interactions are SO easy tbh

SO LIKE THAT ALL BEING SAID . you really dont have to interact w korean people all that much if you're just traveling/visiting . like ... only when you're at a store or restaurant are you really speaking/listening and from what i've encountered in seoul most places/people are really nice and/or accommodating to foreigners !! like they'll be patient w you and try their best to explain something if you're not understanding (side note. i am NOT a partier [imagine that] so idk anything about clubs/bars lol but id assume its the same tbh) !! i was super super nervous about this at first bc like . obviously you dont want to look dumb . but ive encountered literally 0 rude people and its really not all that hard to communicate even if your korean isnt super amazing hehe hand gestures go a long way fr ! and if you can speak just a little bit it definitely goes a long way hehe

tips from someone thats lived here for 6 days:

1. at least know how to read hangul or you're really gonna be lost

2. at a store the cashier is gonna say like 5 or 6 things MAX to you in this exact order (1) hello [안녀하세요] (2) do you need a bag [포장이 필요하세요?] (3) how are you paying (and they wont ask if you have your card in your hand) [계산은 어떻게 하시겠습니다?] (4) do you have a membership (only at like big chains lol and half the time they dont ask if you're outwardly foreign) [멤버십은 있으세요? or like 포인트를 적립하세요?] (5) do you want a receipt [영수증이 필요하세요?] (6) thank you and goodbye [감사합니다 안녕히가세요] and like . 2/3rds of the time theyll just ask you in english if you want a bag or receipt . and if you have no clue what they're saying you can just say 아니요 to every question and it'll probably be fine JSKFJSLDFK

3. in a restaurant when the 이모님 looks expectantly at you hold up however many people are with you on your fingers and she'll hook you up and then feel free to just point at the menu to order or spice it up w the "[blank] [number of servings you want]개 주세요" and then they'll probably ask if you want a drink or tell you if the water & side dishes are self serve [반찬이고 물은 셀프입니다] ! if you have any dietary restrictions make sure you know how to ask if there's anything in the food lol like i dont eat pork so ill ask like [혹시 이갓에 돼지고기 들어가 있어요?] if im sus but most of the time itll say what meat you're getting when you order food lol but you can also say like [혹시 이것에 돼지고기 빼 줄 수 있을까요?] to ask them to take something out (LAKJSDFDLKSJ SORRY IDK HOW GOOD YOUR KOREAN IS SO JUST TO BREAK THAT DOWN YOU SAY LIKE "혹시 [food you're ordering]에 [thing you dont eat] 들어가 있어요?" if that makes sense KLAJLSDKFJF)

4. at a cafe or like fastfood restaurant the menu will typically be numbered and again you can just ask for the number ... and like one of my roommates is lactose intolerant so she asks if they have other milks sometimes just by going 무슨 우유가 있어요? and we dont know if thats the right way to ask but they know what we're trying to ask KJSFLKDJF

5. overall tip is to just ... not be nervous lol like yes i still vibrate when im interacting w someone in any context bc im so nervous theyll say something idk but ... its really not the end of the world if you dont get 100% of whats happening ! and like the milk thing like ... theyll get what you're trying to say most of the time ! and people are very nice ! and in seoul a lot of workers honestly speak basic english and/or will try their best to help you regardless of the language barrier

6. also the subway and buses all make announcements in korean and then in english so dw about that (also the kiosks where you can buy tmoney cards have an english option) (as do most kiosks here lol)

7. papago translator is a godsend

SO YEAH SORRY THIS WAS SO LONG WINDED IDK ALKSDJFKASDJFKL feel free to ask anything else lol i hope this was helpful and overall i highly recommend coming and i think you would definitely be fine even if you didnt speak any korean at all tbh :]

and also one more side note I am white which clearly impacts how people treat me here and I'm sure other foreigners might have different experiences but this has been mine !!

#anon #answered #lauren is in korea #that'll be my korea tag yeah #LKSJDFKSJDF #I REALLY HOPE THIS IS HELPFUL LOL #if there are mistakes in this pls correct me lol #okay bye

[abysslll]

this fucker has killed someone hasn't he

ive tried so hard to avoid hayloft II since it came out cuz it reminds me of those angst mlp animations and you do this to me. crying /j anyways does this character has daddy and/or parental issues in general. were they not there for him

so far I'm just getting murder vibes from this guy. either he has killed or was killed (dont tell me yet. i still need to watch bsd)

self destructive coping mechanisms. or just self destructive in general i dont think this guy copes

hes a vibe. i would not want him within 100 feet of me.

fnaf vibes from drunk by the living tombstones. 10/10. this guy is a threat to society

reminds me of that one comment on here "Unrelated note I just put in my first kill order on the dark web 💖 love and light"

i like. wanna sue him but idk why

arsonist? attempted or actually did it or he wants to?

ohhhhhh he hates himself heres the mental illness i was waiting for this one. not hates himself as in self-esteem but like yk? he probably has anger issues and takes it out on other people. he sounds like a good charactert to project on

he'd be part of the food poisoning polycule

impulsive and no consideration for consequences. probably got someone killed. vague bpd vibes. why am i projecting onto a character i dont even know

^I DIDNT KILL ANYONE I DIDNT MEAN THAT BY PROJECTING IMEANT LIKE THE BPD PART– i shouldve worded that better why must backaspace not work now

final thoughts: mental illness, a threat to society, a vibe, a killer

this is really funny you got it like. Perfectly. but also wayyy to the left

he is a killer! he has killed Many people :D

i'm so sorry for submitting u to hayloft 2 😭 he doesn't have daddy issues (his parents don't exist, long story) but he DOES have a gun- i don't really have a reason for adding hayloft i just feel like i could see it playing over an amv for him lmao

he is so so so self destructive. i didn't put drunk in just for the vibes, he is A Drunk™ (and also a threat to society)

dfghjklkj i have literally never seen that comment but it works so well for him-

WHY DO YOU WANT TO SUE HIM LHGFSDFG he is an arsonist tho. not in canon but in spirit

he has anger issues so bad sdfdsghgf, also abandonment issues but we don't talk about those. he's the king of mental illness

the food poisoning wH at

you may be projecting onto him but you are So Fucking Right about the bpd and impulsiveness and getting people killed, you have summed up chuuya in one paragraph

SALEM. MURDER ASIDE WDYM YOU WROTE THIS WHOLE THING WITHOUT BACKSPACE WITH ONLY LIKE> THREE SPELLING ERRORS HOW THE ACTuAL FUCK

#bat <3 #endless asks #this makes me so happy aaaaaa #i think i made chuuya out to be a lot edgier than he is in this playlist lmfao #anyway ! #you need to watch bsd someday hh #it's so good- #(but first i need to watch sweet home so don't start yet lol) #bsd tag

[feralbeeast]

Idk where else to put my vent stuff so here's that I guess. No need to react or even pay mind to this at all, just needed to get it off my chest TW ; self harm mental illness

I never wanted to be alive this long, I never wanted to hit this milestone, I never even wanted to make it past 10 years old. The only sort of healthy coping mechanism I have left that works is weed but nowadays it's taking more than it ever did before to even stop myself from being an emotional wreck all day or to make myself get up and do something, anything. I have unbearable urges to rip apart my skin and scream. I can't afford the therapy I need and I refuse to go back to a psychiatrist for big pharma drugs. At this rate I'm going to end up seriously self harming again and I don't know if my body can handle that another time.. its been a couple years since I've last felt that relief it would be too dangerous to start again. I'm losing my mind trying to cope with the trauma and memories that keep forcing their way back into my train of thought. I don't want to keep being a burden to my partner and what little family I have left, yet they keep telling me they want to help.. funny thing is I don't think anyone can help at this point, I've been pushed over the edge before many times and now I'm just hanging by a thread and its constantly being snapped and retied because I have overwhelming fear and regret any time I think of leaving completely. I have too many animals and people that depend on me to leave them like that.. I can't let myself give up but even with the guilt it feels closer and closer every waking moment.

A bit unrelated but still related to my state of mind... an old friend of mine keeps popping up on my social media's because they've reconnected with some of our mutual friends. It honestly hurts every single time I see their name anymore, they've turned their back on me and our mutual friends multiple times no matter how much we've been there for them and how much we've done and all the memories we have but appearntly that doesn't matter over some toxic person they had barely known when they threw our friendship away for the third and final time... everytime before I took them back when they came crying and begging for forgiveness, and honestly I would probably forgive them again if they asked me to.. I don't have the heart to turn away someone who I love and loved for a long time, I cared for them as much as I could in both of our times of need but I was the one left in the dust after everything. It's so unfair.. I didn't deserve to be thrown away because of someone else's opinion of me, someone I had met in person only twice and had been verbally assaulted by but yeah trust the person who physical beat you in an argument but dump the person who held you when you tried to off yourself multiple times, when you were having mental breakdowns and stayed up all night with to calm you down, gave you every last cent and food and weed I could give when you needed it but fuck me I guess.. have fun with the people you can but for my sake never fuxking talk to me again.

To anyone that actually read this thank you for your time and I apologize you had to see this

#TW #mental health #mental breakdown #suislide

[fairymint]

💗💝💓🥰💌

💗 - How long does it take your muse to fall in love?

This depends on how you define the type of love! crushes, squishes, aesthetic and sensual attraction? easy. Sometimes almost at first sight! sexual attraction is probably slightly harder- this might need a more solid interaction, a bid for intent- one does have to actually 'try' or put in some sort of unrelated effort. this has to be asked for a total stranger or aquaintence, rather than just observed, simply put.

But Felix himself is self-aware enough that deeper love is different. He doesn't 'give' himself romantic love based on shallower moments, so has to trust a little, first.

I think as a whole, other muses here don't have this sort of nuance- lots of them either fall hard as soon as they crush, or don't crush until they fall hard.

💝 - What's their love language?

definitely a touch man hiding behind verbal, for politeness sake.

💓 - What are some signs your muse has fallen for someone?

Actually smiling. You might not want to count coincidental smiling at jokes, or maybe you do, if it matters to you. But smiling unprompted simply isn't a habit with Felix; his tone of voice carries him far enough in most situations that 'call for' a smile. A genuine one is a sure sign of something good.

🥰 - Is your muse good at telling when others have feelings for them?

Realistically speaking, Yes. Due to being emotionally hypervigilant, I've never missed a beat IRL. There are many, many nonverbal context clues to body language and tone of voice that give people away. However, to be perfectly fucking blunt, the vast majority of us as writers need to practice writing shit like this. So I'm not sure if it's as easy to tell online. Hence the need to usually communicate, not even counting 4th wall meta shit, or muses having powers of suppression/deception. But even those of us who're good at it forget it sometimes, I think.

Back on subject though, yes, these sort of things should be painfully obvious to him, at least in the broad sense. But the human body has so many tells that I've had pre-transition partners who were so obvious that it was terrifying. These days it still gives me small butterflies now that I'm less dysphoric. He can get a really good read on people, which is....usually the problem.

💌 - How would they confess to their love interest? Would they wait on a confession?

Felix prefers customized confession, so it may take a while. Figure out the best moment to tell them, in a way that fits the person. This doesn't mean it can't be spontaneous or slip out in conversation; and it can be grilled out of him too; it's not a hill he's willing to die on the least bit.

But it's entirely feasible to beat him to it. Especially unintentionally, if he's busy with other things. I have had certain muses almost get a confession, for the mun to leave the rpc ooc, so. RIP. That's the main reason i won't do exclusives, lmao.

#ask. #felix ???. #exnusquam #long post #awww man damn that's alot!!! <333 #shipping.

[hairbykadibop]

Selling Self Care: You cant just wait for sickness to heal... Self Care First

Especially, Focusing on ➡️Hair.

You have to cut it off, Manage it, or Treat it.

You cant just wait for your client's hair / sickness to heal. You have to do something about it right then and there. ➡️facts.

You have products. Fine, Medium, Thick focused products for hair. You have scissors to do all the fancy cuts, and combs to put everything into place.

BUT, You cant just wait for sickness to Heal, within You, as a stylist - A stressor, An ex, An uncomfortable shoe, A post dated root job, A put off conflict with a coworker. You have to address those things to heal PROMPTLY to yourself, for yourself, for you ever to be able to help another with their hair care. Take a 3-5 to shake it off! There are so many ways ill address later.

Or youll end up throwing shade at "Samantha" in an unrelated statement, competing with her on the low in your sales pitch of self to your client.

Its all insecurity. Make you priority, and You can address any hair care need a client has. They feel theyre a priority too! Theyre YOUR client, You STYLE them with YOUR style!

its just true. Self care are needs that we have, our hands have, that cut the hair in our chairs. People can sense our issues, we can even project them onto a client whilst cutting, they can come back complaining when nothing is even Wrong, all from energy, reminding You why You didnt do what They asked.

😯😇🥸

Dont blame yourself Or take it out on another employee for a "competition ego boost". Wont work. You or your entire salon will eventually be infected with your sickness.

It takes 3 coffees, 6 lunch breaks and 3 client pass offs to cure One mistake of not self caring as a stylist.

Thats how the stylist pantheon works! Its just true.

Acting above this truth, probably provides one with a long list of people they criticize.

Nobody likes that.

These types of behaviors fail in salons.

Instead?🪽➡️ Take an unauthorized 5 minute break before the client comes back even when they're Ready, and you arent. Set an example. They came to see You. Your client feels the Self First groove, Puts themselves First after waiting, and understands you have a life. STOP OVEREXTENDING YOURSELF for a DOLLAR! There is a person underneath that style. You arent there just for the cut. They feel, And, they will eventually lead you into quitting or earlier "retirement" for your own good if you neglect yourself, or them... Or, Go to another stylist. You're lucky if they don't tell another.

🪴

You are not a machine to mindlessly foil with, cut with, or expected to entertain people who do not please you. This behavior is a 50-70% turnover recipie . & Why that many quit after the first few years.

Self Care is Self Preservation.

🤞🏼✋🏼☕

It sets the stage for All real hair salons, Self care first. (Good energy to encourage take home self care as well)

Ever see a 5 star salon owner with disposable clientele, or ancient books with refusal to change weighing their growth down?

Stylists just arent given this advice. You First. I learned this from my studies at Aveda. 80 % of salons are revolving doors...

...Other people are always Other people...

You have the power to be Yourself amongst stylist peer pressure, fear, and expectation.

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By engaging in self aware Self Care.

This generates a product sale, too. They need to take that extra 5 to put on the product You recommend for them, for Their self care.

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We see as we see and do as we do; We do as we see and we see as we do. We do what we do and see what we see.

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🌟SELL SELF CARE LIKE YOUR LIFE DEPENDS ON IT. 🌟

Why I⬆️ sell 5X ⬆️ more on average in my retail than any other stylist, on average in my past 7 years of Styling. Do you wanna see $1800 in passing retail sales in 4 weeks by just simply taking care of You? You have to self care even more, then, because envy will grow! 🪶 & Thats a whole other topic!

➡️Who can talk about product when theyre thinking about Bob?

#self care #hairy #salealert #happiness #aveda #fashion #accessories #face #beauty products #product design #skincare products #creative direction

[chikoyama]

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OC Emoji Asks // Accepting

🤥 LYING - are they good liars? do they have tells to show they're lying? Let me tell you.. Chiyori is an absolutely terrible liar. I feel like all the typical telltale signs will be there. She’ll begin stuttering and avoid eye contact. Her palms will start sweating and heart galloping.

Though, instead of actually lying, her strategy would probably be to change topics or ramble about something totally unrelated to prevent the other from drawing the truth from her.

🍩 DONUT - favourite sweet treat? Anything with a nice fluffy, spongy texture such as cheesecake, chocolate cake, carrot cake etc.

📚 BOOKS - how were they at school? what is their best subject? what is their worst subject? do they have a favourite subject? I wouldn’t say that Chiyori was academically gifted by any means. Like, she'd definitely put her best efforts into studying, but her results would still be pretty average overall. Though, she sucked at maths. Unfortunately, she didn’t have any subjects that she excelled at to make up for it. Her favourite subject was probably.. recess, LMAO.

🔥 FIRE - do they have any self destructive tendencies? what habits do they have that hinder them from becoming their best self? I don’t know if this would be considered as self-destructive, but Chiyori is rather guilt-prone when it comes to other people’s feelings. She tends to blame herself or feel shame for things that aren’t even her fault. For instance with her parents. Chiyori knows they adopted her after failing to bear children of their own. Because of that, she feels somewhat responsible for their happiness, especially for her mother who suffers from depression.

Aside from that, there’s also the whole ordeal with her cursed technique. I’m not yet sure what her issue is exactly, but I suppose Chiyori feels like she needs to exert herself to fulfill the potential of her cursed technique. So, she just keeps on taking in curses when in actuality she can’t handle it. Someone, stop her.

💓 BEATING HEART - what gets their heart racing? I guess any expression of gentle assertiveness that shows tender care for her. Particularly with things she hasn’t explicitly mentioned to them. Like, maybe they noticed because they're just that observant. Like if she's cold and they insist that she wear their jacket, or they tell her she looks extra pretty today because she's wearing a new pair of earrings etc.

In a romantic sense, her heart would probably race in the presence of someone who shamelessly flirts with her while still being super smooth about it. I think anything that comes unexpected really. It can be subtle touches like them placing a hand on the lower of her back to lead her somewhere, innuendos or stealing kisses while in the public. Stuff like that.

#2xcursekissed #answered #headcanons #thanks for sending in <3 #these questions were super hard #chi might not be the sharpest knife in the cupboard but she has emotional virtues ok #me realizing she's into soft doms