#unrelated but i still like really like my name

[todayisafridaynight]

rate the outfit

#rgg #ryu ga gotoku #ryu ga gotoku 2 #yakuza series #yakuza kiwami 2 #yakuza 2 #daigo dojima #snap sketches #see i did it i told you i'd do it #pov: you are at hot topic and trying to find something (he does not work there don't ask him) #segway section into something toally unrelated to people who do not frequent my blog :) #everyone else go away. unless you wanna keep reading 😳 #i watched Not Quite Dead Yet while i was finishing a comm and WHAT a movie #it made me want to call my dad so you know it was good 😭 #IT WAS CUTE THO FR i really loved how all th details of the movie tied in in the later sections #like the password being nanase's name but through the period table's numbers... stop that was cute #feels weird to say that as a highlight but i genuinely thought it was cute 😔 #im not gonna lie tho when nanase was lookin through her dad's phone brother was emo #i think a lot about what would happen when people i love die and i always think of doing that.. like still texting them.. and whatever.. #lemme move on from the somber moment thojVAERLKVA PLEASE when her dad was in the afterlife tho #HER MOM WAS SO CUTE both like. physically and just personality wise #we saw her for ten minutes and i have also fallen in love with her idc #they had to game end her cause they knew if we got to see any more scenes with her and kei i'd start crying i KNOW they'd be cute together #together more than what we got to see anyway... we know what i mean... #THE ENDING SHOT WAS ESP SO CUTE STOPPPP kinda creepy with her just. In Limbo but then she just. DEATH !! 👆 #nanase's song to her dad at the funeral had me :(( too im so weak for dads and their kids reconciling/having a nice relationship stop #big L for her not signing up for a record label tho idc like OK its sweet she's working with her dad BUT CMONNNNN #you can do both queen.... i would prefer you do it alone cause Kid Falls In Line always makes me want to chew glass #BUT i will excuse it this time.. i repeat for The End Shot that was cute and the rest of the movie was lovely so ill let it slide #final note before i use up all my tags again i loved her concert outfit 😔give me them bracelets girl i cant find any

[kelpermoosee]

I need to draw Booigi real soon, the lack of them is making me itchy

#kelperambles #uhhh pic is unrelated but I thought the paper luigi was cute 💖 #anyways I just wanted to ramble about how much I love booigi LMAO #but like I need the very specific type of booigi that has been rotting in my brain in order to be satisfied #OKAY OKAY. picture this: Names are such an important thing to Luigi. Many people don’t tend to remember the bare minimum about him #so he really appreciates the few people who take enough time to remember his actual name or small things about him #then when King Boo pulls up he’s literally yelling Luigi’s name and cursing him out #sure while Luigi is still scared of him he can’t help but feel flattered that King Boo subconsciously respects him enough to call him Luigi #not green mario. not the man in green. just him…truly him. #and while Luigi might not want an designated enemy (like what Mario and bowser have) #the fact that king boo believes that Luigi is significant enough to be his enemy is something Luigi cannot ignore #King Boo acknowledges Luigi for his strengths in his weird theater kid way #but I can really see them growing closer together once Luigi discovers that King Boos plays everything up just to be DRAMATIC ✨✨ #king boo WANTS luigi to react. and if he doesn’t get that he more or less just lets go of the act #like what’s the point of setting everything up if Luigi’s not even going to match his high energy? #honestly they just need to both RELAX for a second and they would really hit it off #it’s actually embarrassing. they’re so embarrassing.

[front-facing-pokemon]

#meditite #i never understood this pokémon. what do folks call it? a little angry psychic onion baby? that tracks honestly #the diamond mouth is whatever and i always found myself like. using its name as a vocal stim when i was a kid #bc again this is one of the bitches that was a shadow pokémon in colosseum so i know it pretty well. but it's also like not my fave #it's *really* just out here. floats and is blue and maybe a fighting-type? or at least it turns into one when it evolves #lemme check #okay yeah it's fighting/psychic and medicham doesn't change types. honestly in my mind i still see these two as totally unrelated pokémon #they just don't look the same at all. i get the general continuity bc they have similar-ish vibes but they don't look. continuitous #that's not a word i know but it expresses my thoughts well i feel. y'know. continuitous #i'll have more to say for medicham bc team charm but for now it's just this onion baby

[undermostcorgi]

the media which consumes your entire soul at age 12 will forever be a part of you. this is an unavoidable consequence of living and you have to accept this fact. no matter how old you get, no matter how long it has been since you last saw its smug face peeking out from the bushes as it follows you, no matter if you think you have outrun it for good and that you're finally finally safe and you hardly even remember it exists anymore and your brain knows a few brief moments of true peace, it WILL catch up to you in your moment of weakness. and listen you don't want to hear this but sometimes this is necessary for your mental health. you will on instinct want to reject it and run away again but sometimes. sometimes you just need to watch that old show or listen to that silly song or read that weird book again as an adult and it will hurt you a little bit in various little ways but it will also heal you a little bit. you can call it nostalgia you can call it connecting with your inner child or whatever you want but just listen to me it WILL HAPPEN TO YOU TOO AT SOME POINT AND YOU HAVE TO BE PREPARED FOR THIS (i am forcibly dragged off the stage by security)

#heed my warning boy #it seems i am not well today #recently made the reluctant decision to revisit what was probably my VERY FIRST real hyperfixation #something that i don't necessarily want to mention by name right now because. well #its pretty objectively bad LOL like i dont think i know of ANYONE still posting about it or really proud of having liked it back in the day #i dont think it is as well known to the general public so it wont get me hunted down for sport even if i did name it probably hopefully #but for those who know its. probably not the best thing to be revisiting lmao (even though i think it might still be being made?? wtf) #but i felt i had to because i was about to start my period and was going crazy insane like you do you know how it is #and i randomly remembered a fanfic i loved and then remembered my fav character and how much i loved him #my actual first ever blorbo oh my GOD he was everything to me #so i reluctantly decided to rewatch “just the first few episodes” just to see how much i remembered and also to prove to myself it sucks #but surprise surprise: nostalgia and hormones are making me actually kind of enjoy it #and now i am suffering from fucking Catholic-like Guilt for not hating it which i think is pretty silly lmao #so im kind of posting this in an attempt to convince myself that its like. FINE and cringe is dead and all that #and that sometimes i gotta be nice to my little mentally ill brain and give it the junk food (bad media) it craves #ESPECIALLY when im on my period LMAO #anyway completely unrelated: why the FUCK do i still remember almost every single fucking word to the delicious tomato song SDHJFKSAJF #i hope no one actually reads this far in the tags bc i know that reveal will probably deal psychological damage to some of you LMAO SORRYYY #ok yeah posting this and then immediately going to bed so that the Haters cant reach me LOL SEE YA

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#the closer i get to moving the more i dont wanna do annnnnnything #i just wanna pack everything and then leave. ive packed half my stuff. tsken down all my posters #but i still have like 10 days left ugh. time needs to move faster 😩 #i dont wanna work tho bleh. and i fucking agreed to do some extra stuff #so now i have to fucking get all my data together. analyze a million pictures with this weird software and upload a million pics from like #at least 2 or 3 past projects. and i have to name those. except i dont want to name them all fuck that #i am not going to have time. it will take literally days. get a fucking undergrad to do it i have better things to do with my time #ugh. im just mad bc its hot and my joints r swollen and my abductor is irritated so i have to take it easy #fuck that. i hate it. bleh i wanna draw. but there r other things i should do #im such a slacker now. and by slacker i mean im working normal hours and goofing off the rest of the time #and by goofing off i mean drawing and packing and reading #god. when the semester starts its gonna b insane bc theres no way ill b done with work stuff so ill have to start my phd while double timin #on paper writing. its gonna fucking suck. which is y i shoulf b working rn so i dont have to do that so much #but again. i dont wanna work. i just wanna lay here and track my heart palpitations. its fine. im just in transition which is really #fucking annoying >:-( #unrelated #also i wanna rewatch p4cific rim but its not on any of my streaming services anymore >:-(((

[kakusu-shipping]

TELL ME ABOUT YOUR MUSHISHI S/I!! Where did he come from?? Does he have a relationship with Ginko or anyone else?? I bet he researches Mushi, right? That seems on brand with you and your curious lil brain

Aaaaah you'd think right. I am once again answering an S/I ask with Actually I have two different Self Inserts for this fandom fdkgjfdkg

The other one, an adult who lives alone and runs a hot spring in the mountains Ginko regularly visits does Research Mushi, and writes about them in his novels. He's part of the ever growing Aro Ginko Polycule, I've talked about him a few times, he's not interesting, just kind of domestic and in love with Ginko who pays him a visit once a year or so.

A lot of my younger self inserts are much more Head Empty than my older ones, the one your asking about especially

He's a kid inflicted by the Ginko who just showed up one day in Adashino's village. Adashino assumed him some sort of love child of Ginko's and sent a letter telling him to get his ass over here as soon as possible.

He appears about 7 or 8 years old, but it's hard to tell sense his knowledge seems toddler like. He doesn't know how to use chop sticks, or what he can and can't eat, or how to dress himself, and doesn't speak or seem to understand much of what anyone says to him.

He has a bad tenancy to grab Mushi by the handful and shove them in his Tokoyami filled eye, which is what lead Doctor Adashino to bandaging up the opening, sense he assumed that probably wasn't a good thing to be doing.

In the few weeks it took Ginko to arrive, Adashino got pretty attached to the kid, getting rather use to parenting his larger than most toddler. However, like Ginko, if in one place for too long Mushi will begin to swarm around him, making it dangerous for him to stay in the villager, or anywhere for that matter.

It took a lot of convincing, but Ginko eventually agreed to take the kid on as his apprentice, taking him on his travels and teaching him the dangers and nuances of Mushi.

Basically, he becomes Ginko and Adashino's adopted son over time. Whenever he gets to talking he calls Adashino "Papa", but Ginko remains just Ginko or some form of "Master"/"Sensei" when he's learning. He also calls Tanyuu variations of "Mama" or "Auntie", with Tama being "Grandma" exclusively. He doesn't like Kumado at all.

#Emile's Arts #Self insert #I haven't come up with a name for him really because realistically Adashino would name him something Japanese #And eeeeeeeeeeh I don't like doing that very much #The reason behind his whole Toddler-like behavior is he's a foreigner #A little European boy who got separated from his Trader parents while traveling and lost all his memories #He has no clue what anyone is saying ever and doesn't really know how to speak either #Because when he tries when he's alone it sounds weird sense he's hearing Japanese all the time #He thinks he's speaking gibberish or something's wrong with him #So he stays quiet #Mushishi takes place in between the Edo and Meiji periods so around when European trading was permitted #But it's still a rather sheltered old fashioned country #Thus why Ginko has his more European style clothes #Anyway he hates the Obi and takes it off as often as he can #And is constantly just putting shit in his eye hole #The Tokoyami appreciate it #Unrelated for SOME reason I thought it was Tokoyomi instead of Yami #Even thought I KNOW Tokoyami is like darkness so that makes more sense #I dunno where the yomi came from #My other S/I is romantic (kinda) with Ginko where this one is Familial #It's also a hard reboot of the S/I 12 year old me made when I first watched the show #Thankyou for asking

[she-toadmask]

I swear my vocabulary has been ruined by this place

Bug annoys me? "I will eat you"

I really enjoy something someone wrote? My first instinct is "I'm eating this/I am consuming this/something similar"

Also earlier I texted saying a Slowbro set for the Cinderace event going on in SV fucks and my friend said, and I quote: "I am begging you to never word things like that again I am not young enough for new slang"

Edit: I don't know where I went in the tags it's late

#for reference my friend is my age so i found that very funny #its also interesting because like. i didnt have the shift in favorite character terminology that happened. #like i dont say 'i want to put him in the washing machine' and stuff like that. it didnt click with my brain. #unrelated but sometimes being able to remember shit really well is cool (like the lego star wars thing from earlier like i was 90% there) #but sometimes it sucks when you cant find what youre remembering. like this one set of d&d alignment videos i tried to find #there are so many i couldnt find it. i dont remember the channel name but the vid for chaotic good had robin hood on it #and i think lawful neutral had robocop? maybe they just talked about him in the video? #and i cant. fucking find the videos. #another thing i remembered i was eventually able to find again. these two people doing a thing doing dex stuff for all the pokemon #first time i looked i thought they were gone but second time i did find them. channels dead but at least it exists #unlike skydoesminecraft.exe where the only record is a full playthrough of the game i put on youtube. someone commented on it the other day #i hate when things go missing. i hate when people delete what they made from the internet. if its for privacy its. understandable. #i have unlisted some old yt vids of mine because my face was in them and i didnt want it on the internet #but otherwise. i dont like it. its why all of my terrible terrible wattpad fic is still out there. in case someone liked it. #it's 3 am i need to sleep

[the-acid-pear]

I have yet to keep inspecting the sweepstakes, I need some air and food first, but I might as well share what I've been thinking about Mike today, because I heard of an interpretation saying Mike was a camera man for Spamton which ... Is very interesting. Like for me this makes me think of Mike as someone who admired Spamton, someone way smaller than him, definitely younger imo, who simply excitedly followed along with the orders given. I mean, up to a certain point. I mean this feeling is reinforced in the q&a when asked about Mike, that makes Spamton get very defensive, almost protective. In my eyes it almost creates this almost platonic familiar bond dynamic whatever. But like this is just a shot in the dark, bc what we know is, 3 lines, period. But if when chapter 3, 4 and 5 come out and Mike is there and I'm right about these things then I'm gonna feel like a god tbh.

#luly talks #not gonna put this one on main tag bc its a bit too vague and speculative and shit but im leaving rbs on in case some1 is like hm ur into #something here nemo im which case i will wag my tail and bat my eyelashes #but am i making sense anyway? #like just to make sure: my idea of mike is a camera man younger and smaller than Spamton who admired the guy #and spamton out of idk fondness bc he reminded him of his old self kinda took the guy under his wing in a way #that's why he's so protective and shit #although unrelated to this bc just. putting that there and NOT touching it but it's interesting what Spammy says right after name dropping #mike if you believe in the cameraman interpretation (which i saw in a video i then stopped watching bc i wanted to explore that shit myself) #bc he right after says to not believe anything you see on tv but this could easily imply mike did do his part but the editing team changed #shit. but its just very curious what involvement Mike could've had because. why would he be as targeted as he appears to be? #and what caused him to also abandone spamton? is mike even fucking alive? judging by Spammy's q&a dialogue you'd assume he is #but i mean that's official but not canon right so it's a bit hard to judge? #but Mike seems to be the only one he isn't really resentful towards for leaving him almost implying it wasn't Mike's choice? #i just can't wait to see more of this bc it's gonna reveal a whole side to this little puppet previously unknown #in fact i think that after breathing some air im gonna go look at the snowgrave neo fight flavor text and cry and piss and etc #I'm still not over spamton begs the audience to stop taking the furniture i can see the poor guy being evicted as he tries to plead not to #so vividly wugh. my poor little guy of questionable morals . . . 😢 #also don't get me started on the commemorative ring man what on earth is going on there.........

[minamotoz]

personally under the belief that we should ship artie abrams with everyone. he deserves it

#glee #artie abrams #sorry for gleeposting i swear if i do later on it will only be art🙏 #anyways i lob artie he is So silly. he did nothing wrong and if he ever did NO HE DIDNT! #and he should be allowed to make out w every character #im still a ride or die for artina bc i got attached to them in s1 and never let that go #him and kitty are sweet together too #n i really liked him and brittany together too (hot take apparently) #i crackship him w every male character....... finn puck sam blaine mike etc . its silly ! its fun! #i also like the insnane ship names we get from these like fartie... and partie....... and shartie (i added the h to make it funnie) #oh and him and quinn!!!!!! i miss them so much why would they tease me w that amazing dynamic only toRIP IT AWAY I HATE U RYAN MURPHY!!!!!!! #on an unrelated note i am currently jn the middle of s5 of my ''blind''watch #the puppet episode is actually amazing i dont want to hear any slander. none of U understand s4-5 like i do!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[wowbright]

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#i really don't know what to do with these celebrities apparently supporting j***** d*** #like I wish I hadn't seen any of their names #but I have #and IDK if it is them liking his posts or their publicists #if they are doing it genuinely or out of fear of repercussions #it has soured my tumblr experience for sure #to clarify I am talking about blacklisting celebrities who I now have lots of questions about #because it is post that are completely unrelated to the trial but mention these celebrities that make me feel yuck #but idk if i want to blacklist because I'll still see their names because that's how tumblers filtering feature works #they show you that they have filtered a post and why #like sometimes scrolling through my dash is basically scrolling past five to seven post-its with names of things I don't want to see #before I get to an actual post #j***** d***

[dancedance-resolution]

looks like the tumblrinas are liking first kill so i’m going to start it tmrw!

#also i’m gonna use the tags to talk about an unrelated thing lol #i still keep in contact with my 6th grade english teacher bc she means the Absolute Fucking Most to me #and so i texted her about getting into the zine lol so that was a few months ago #and i texted her some really really significant news in mid may #and i texted her some really really significant news yesterday. #and she responded about the zine. but she didn’t respond in mid may #and i was like okay maybe she read it but since the little notif was gone she forgot to respond #but now not receiving a response to the second text has me feeling like AHH you know? #bc she’s a functional adult human. she Always Texts Back #and she would be sosososososo excited by both pieces of news that i shared with her!!!!!! #so i’m thinking maybe she has a new phone number now???????????? UFHDHDJFH #but the texts show as delivered so 🤔🤔🤔 #and like my brain is like. maybe she learned smth about you and decided to never speak to you again. but rationally i know that’s not true #bc she’d talk to me about it if she heard smth really bad; and also i haven’t done anything really bad in forever bc i haven’t left the #house in so long lol. #SO LIKE. #USHDGHSHHHAAA #it makes me so sad to think that shes no longer a part of my life all bc this fuckinfb phone number may not be working?? #also i googled her name and there are no obituaries for her so she is presumably still alive #AH I JUST DONT KNOW HOW TO FEEL ABOJT THIS #SHE MEANS SO MUCH TO ME AND IT FEELS SO IMPORTANT TO BE ABLE TO SHARE THIS NEWS AND THIS JOY WITH HER #BC SHE INDIRECTLY PLAYED A ROLE IN MAKING IT ALL HAPPEN YOU KNOW #AHFHSHUHHHHHHHH

[starsmuserainbow]

And now that commonly-used messaging app asked me to do my name-change. I'm... very unhappy about this. It was so nice to be able to use whatever name you wanted because you got these numbers behind it, now I have to resort to adding .s or _ or whatever to the name again like in all the games and everything.

If you ask me, that #0000 system was a lot lot lot better.

#✫ Out of Clurblopf ✫ | OOC #like; screw identification and if everyone remembers their name by heart #who cares; I can always look it up #I considered using the same name as my url here is but; I'm not /that/ fond of always carrying that 'chan' around #it fits/fitted to this blog but I don't really wanna use that as name for other things too #without the chan is just so much nicer; but now it's just impossible to go with the normal name again and ugh #that reminds me that I think I still haven't changed my name on one of the games I play? idk i can't remember #need to check that out at some point - unrelated to yall ofc

[127rkives]

uhhhh idk if anyone has discussed this before but... miguel likes to eat pussy from the back!!!

like idk, every once in a while, his brain goes brrrr and something short circuits. idk chalk it up to stress but it's more like some feral, animalistic urge. he can’t really explain it. it’s almost as if someone flips a switch, his mind goes blank except for the thought of needing to be with you, under you, in you. he has to stop whatever he’s doing and go find you.

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

and as soon as he makes it home to find you relaxed on the couch, he's flipping you over, contorting you face down ass up, and he’s nuzzling into your clothed pussy like a dog in fucking heat. when he’s finally spent just enough time shrouded in the scent of you, he's yanking your shorts off. he’s been at this for approximately 2 minutes but there's already a wet patch in the center of your panties. that sight makes his pupils dilate before going in for the kill. his claws come out to rip your panties to shreds right before he straight up nose dives into your pussy, and granted you can feel him, the action still catches you off guard enough for you to emit a loud gasp. it’s just too much too fast. “mig- ohhh!~”

“mmm... mmmf” miguel gets so much satisfaction from tasting you that he releases moans of his own. they would be bouncing around the room and intermingling with yours except right now he can't bring himself to pry his tongue from the slick walls of your cunt. 

“oh my gosh- miguel!”

hearing you raise your voice in alarm while saying his name is enough to make miguel pause for a second. you take the moment of reprieve to look over your shoulder— huffing and puffing— only to be stunned by miguel’s animalistic look. his curls are messily hanging near his eyes which are dark, yet spacey as if he’s on another planet. his lips are parted just enough to show a peek of his fangs as he breathes heavily through his mouth after suffocating himself with your pussy, and a gleaming mixture of his spit and your slick is smothered over half of his face and all the way down to his collarbone.

“m- miggy could you just give me a few seconds?” you ask. miguel tilts his head to the side and scoffs. a curt “no” is all you get before miguel locks his arms around your thighs to drag you back to his watering mouth. you don’t have claws like miguel but if you did the couch cushions would definitely be in shreds from the way you’re gripping them. 

the wet slurps of miguel’s tongue lapping at your cunt are soon paired with two of his thick fingers easily slipping in thanks to your arousal. he scissors them for a moment before adding a third. the speed he uses to pump them in and out and the feeling of his slightly calloused fingers against your gummy walls leaves you floating in the clouds. you’re brought crashing back down, however, when a deep groan from miguel sends sparks up your spine. soon enough you feel pressure building at the bottom of your stomach, only it doesn’t feel like it usually does. in a fit of panic you try to drag yourself out of miguel’s grip.

“ohhh my go- miggy!” it’s all you can do to let out little slurred calls of his name, but it doesn’t matter. miguel’s not stopping until he’s satisfied. your escape attempts are useless, but the wiggling is enough to piss him off.

“querida. don’t move so much. be good.” but you can’t be still. the tingly feeling in your tummy is growing and all you can do let out breathy moans as you thrash around in ecstacy.

“ahh- i can- can’t help it!”

all of your moving loosened miguel’s grip too much for his liking. in less than a second, he's yanking you back towards his mouth and hoisting your hips just high enough to wrap his lips around your cute little clit. 

one hard suck is all it takes before you’re squealing at the top of your lungs. a scream of “miguel!~” is the only thing leaving your lips while your vision goes white and your breathing stops for a second. miguel is unrelenting behind you, switching to messily swiping his thumb across your clit and shoving his tongue back into your pulsating cunt in an attempt to catch every last drop squirting in to his mouth. 

even when your arms give out beneath you and you faceplant into the couch miguel is still lapping at your outer lips like he’s been saved after being stranded in the desert for a year.

and like that, it’s like the switch in his brain flips again. he smooths his hands up and down your trembling thighs and scatters kisses in a path up your back to the nape of your neck. “you okay, cariño?” a weak “mhm” is all you can muster up as you turn your head to flash miguel a floaty smirk. he smiles and chuckles, recognizing the foggy look in your eyes. covered in a sheen of sweat and high off the feeling of him is just one of the times miguel thinks you look the most beautiful.

after ghosting his hands across your skin and giving you a few minutes to calm down, miguel goes to gently move you to his lap. he buries his nose into the crook of your neck, inhaling all of you. with the little strength you have, you wiggle around in his lap attempting to get comfortable but something is in the way- 

“ohh~” miguel’s breath is hot on your neck as he groans into it. his fangs graze your skin, his hands grasp onto your hips for dear life and oh...

someone flipped the damn switch again...

#miguel o'hara smut #miguel ohara smut #miguel smut #miguel thirst #spider-man 2099 smut #spider-man across the multiverse smut #miguel o'hara x reader #miguel ohara x reader #way longer than this was supposed to be buut oh well

[biioniic-biiohazard]

shaking and screaming and crying while i draw the same furry jpeg at almost five in the morning because toby came into front and started it, hated it for no reason, and then left front because he hated the sketch that much and now me and tom have to finish it because we both actually like it ((because he's fucking insane and looked at the lineart without the sketch for too long))

#i actually genuinely like it so far #i don't get why he hates it so much #it's a genuine improvement in art and i really like it #but he's like ''nooooo :(( it sucksssss i'm embarassed by ittttt it looks traceddddd'' #BOY WHAT ARE YOU ON ABOUT!!!!!!!!!! SIT YO ASS BACK DOWN AND FINISH THIS SPARKLEDOG !!!!! NOWWWWWWW #really though i wish he wasn't so weird about art now #THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH IT! you are just insane!! #bleghh anyways expect a post of the finished thing either later tonight or at some bonkers ridiculous time tomorrow whenever i get up :P #proxxtalx #edd's words! #((unrelated but i still love my silly tag name heheheh))

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#so thinking abt my inability to do things in thr context of my 0cd is interesting. bc i would say my primary problem is my obsessive #compulsive behavior and inflexibility. idk if thr inflexibility is inherent to me bc its part of the reason i got stamped with aut1sm or but #its part of what maked it so hard to tell if i had 0cd or not. bc im just so fucking rigid and structured abt literally everything without #any reason. y do i have to do X thing and i cant do Y thing? idk my brain just says i cant. which kinda does align with 0cd more or just #like something compulsive. and its sorta weird bc i think im a lot more aligned with purely obsessional 0cd. so i dont do a lot of external #ritual. its more abstract. like constantly i have to work or b perfect or else i start getting intrusive thoughts. always thr same ones. and #to make them go away i have to physically suffer usually thru overworking to my mental breaking point or sometimes more direct ways #when its really bad. and then i have to keep working. and i do a lot of fucking ruminating. fucking constand catogorizing and pathological #self reflection. again i have high standards and high affinity for self punishment which is a lot to deal with. its exhausting and misery #making. and the annoying thing is that im like this for a reason. i mean it makes sense. having a learning disability plus bad short term #working memory plus some mood weirdness. ive created a structure that makes me productive but also creates so much pressure thst i cant #function at all sometimes. and whats worse is that even then even with the amount of checking i do i am still a master of fucking up the lil #things. i forgot to write my name in the autoclave list and caused problems for ppl bc i forgot when i went up there Even tho i new i needed #to. i also forgot to put thr foam cap on a liquid nitrogen tank which would have been SO FUCKING BAD if it all evaporated. so many samples #woulf have been lost bc i just fucking forgot to put it back. that was just this week. idk i just forget things like that. i left a freezer #door open in hs and we lost everything in the freezer. i also fucked up an whole experiment by not reading a schedule right. and its really #frustrating not being able to trust that youve done the right thing in the past. not to mention all the bullshit i mislabel but thats more #dys1exia realated. alas. i check and check and get anxious spikes of: FUCK DID I DO X? for a reason. but also its no fun #unrelated

[yeoldenews]

While we’re on the subject of names, is there an explanation for how traditional nicknames came about that are seemingly unrelated to, or have little in common with, the original name?

ie- John/Jack, Richard/Dick, Henry/Harry/Hank, Charles/Chuck, Margaret/Peggy/Daisy, Sarah/Sally, Mary/Molly, Anne/Nan, etc

I am actually over a week into researching a huge follow-up post (probably more than one if I’m being honest) about the history of nickname usage, so I will be going into this in much, much more detail at a hopefully not-so-later date - if I have not lost my mind. (Two days ago I spent three hours chasing down a source lead that turned out to be a typographical error from 1727 that was then quoted in source after source for the next 150 years.)

As a preview though, here’s some info about the names you mentioned:

The origins of a good portion of common English nicknames come down to the simple fact that people really, really like rhyming things. Will 🠞Bill, Rob🠞Bob, Rick🠞Dick, Meg🠞Peg.

It may seem like a weird reason, but how many of you have known an Anna/Hannah-Banana? I exclusively refer to my Mom’s cat as Toes even though her name is Moe (Moesie-Toesies 🠞 Toesies 🠞 Toes).

Jack likely evolved from the use of the Middle English diminutive suffix “-chen” - pronounced (and often spelled) “-kyn” or “kin”. The use of -chen as a diminutive suffix still endures in modern German - as in “liebchen” = sweetheart (lieb “love” + -chen).

John (Jan) 🠞 Jankin 🠞 Jackin 🠞 Jack.

Hank was also originally a nickname for John from the same source. I and J were not distinct letters in English until the 17th Century. “Iankin” would have been nearly indistinguishable in pronunciation from “Hankin” due to H-dropping. It’s believed to have switched over to being a nickname for Henry in early Colonial America due to the English being exposed to the Dutch nickname for Henrik - “Henk”.

Harry is thought to be a remnant of how Henry was pronounced up until the early modern era. The name was introduced to England during the Norman conquest as the French Henri (On-REE). The already muted nasal n was dropped in the English pronunciation. With a lack of standardized spelling, the two names were used interchangeably in records throughout the middle ages. So all the early English King Henrys would have written their name Henry and pronounced it Harry.

Sally and Molly likely developed simply because little kids can’t say R’s or L’s. Mary 🠞 Mawy 🠞 Molly. Sary 🠞 Sawy 🠞 Sally.

Daisy became a nickname for Margaret because in French garden daisies are called marguerites.

Nan for Anne is an example of a very cool linguistic process called rebracketing, where two words that are often said/written together transfer letters/morphemes over time. The English use of “an” instead of “a” before words beginning with vowels is a common cause of rebracketing. For example: the Middle English “an eute” became “a newt”, and “a napron” became “an apron”. In the case of nicknames the use of the archaic possessive “mine” is often the culprit. “Mine Anne” over time became “My Nan” as “mine” fell out of use. Ned and Nell have the same origin.

Oddly enough the word “nickname” is itself a result of rebracketing, from the Middle English “an eke (meaning additional) name”.

I realized earlier this week that my cat (Toe’s sister) also has a rebracketing nickname. Her name is Mina, but I call her Nom Nom - formed by me being very annoying and saying her name a bunch of time in a row - miNAMiNAMiNAM.

Chuck is a very modern (20th century) nickname which I’ll have to get back to you on as I started my research in the 16th century and am only up to the 1810s so far lol.

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