#undiagnosed system

[cyber-therian]

got my first sysphobic anon omg

(little do they know that it actually triggered a switch so ive proved them wrong involuntarily)

now blade is in front (🏁)

#undiagnosed system #actually a system #system #traumagenic system #dissociative system #system things #plural system #system stuff #sysblr #osddid #did osdd #dog #gif

[shadowsbrainrot]

i hate the anti self diagnosis crowd bc it’s so counterproductive and has so little nuance abt how disability intersects w ppl who are already marginalized outside of it. So many ppl either don’t have access to or are not taken seriously by doctors because of misogyny, systemic racism and poverty, sometimes there’s just nothing a person can do than wait indefinitely on a waitlist when their healthcare system isn’t stellar or they don’t have access to anything better. The one thing self dx does is give ppl a community where they can find self help and a sense of belonging w ppl who share their struggle and ik from experience my journey was a lot lonelier and scarier when i was too scared to interact w other neurodivergent ppl on the internet when i was afraid to speak about my chronic pain or my experience as the host of a system, when i was bottling all these things up. nobody can tell you your experience except for yourself and trying to police and undermine ppl who are only searching for answers or a sense of community and belonging is not only stupid but cruel.

#pro self dx #self diagnosis is valid #disability #autistic #chronic illness #system #self diagnosers #neurodivergent #self diagnosed autism #self diagnosed adhd #undiagnosed system

[crispfried]

Being a system with a journal is wild. Some of us write super long, thought out entries while others are just like "sup bitches"

#did system #osdd system #undiagnosed system #system memes #did osdd #did #osdd #osddid

[foxless]

our most harmful persecutor found her way out of forced dormancy & im quite afraid. last time she was free she inflicted a lot of physical and emotional damage onto our secondary host (former host) that forced us to lock her away. i dont know what to do.

— 🐾 (alexander)

#persecutor #system persecutor #traumagenic system #osddid #did osdd #actually osdd #osdd community #didosdd #did #did alter #actually did #did system #undiagnosed system #assault mention

[bloodyscott]

i got called retarded for even showing to this one toxic bitch that did isn’t rare lmao

#r slur tw #ableism #did #undiagnosed system #system #sysblr #actually dissociative #actually plural #my life sucks👍

[henryisabigfatbitch]

System Blog Poll

#undiagnosed system #actually a system #system blog #system poll #endo safe #pro endo #polyfragmented osdd #partially intact system

[vriskasupremecy]

#actually dissociative #actually multiple #did/osdd #unspecified dissociative disorder #endos dni #undiagnosed system #anti-endo #humor #did memes #system memes #splitting #dissociative system

[th3d0nutl0rd]

My college lesson started 2 minutes ago. Where am I? At home. In bed. On Tumblr. It's fucking freezing and I'm sleepy, okay?

#stucky #college #a levels #i really wanna drop out #but simultaneously i love my subjects #it's not them that are the problem #and I'd also miss my friends if i dropped out #but also i have like 638373837 mental illnesses and 3682378373 physical illnesses and it just doesn't work for me #chronic illness #chronic pain #chronic fatigue #chronically ill #undiagnosed system #depression #autism #audhd

[a-place-to-exist]

˗ˏˋ looking to exist unapologetically as as a whole and yet separate, somewhere in our little corner of the internet ˊˎ˗

⌗ call me E, they/them. bodily 20+

⌗ plural (p-did / osdd), autistic, undiagnosed

⌗ small system (under 10 members, no introject)

⌗ lots of rambling about our system and experiences

⌗ no discourse, no harassment, no targetted hate

⌗ looking for people with similar experiences to mine

⌗ i won’t reply to comments (as this is a side blog) but i’d love to chat in DMs <3

Tags: talk, rb, denial, system tag, art, relatable

DNI: ED blogs, terfs/radfems

#pinned post #actually pdid #actually osdd #pdid #p did system #partial did #partial dissociative identity disorder #p did #pluralgang #plural systems #plural community #undiagnosed system #traumagenic system #small system #osdd #osdd system

[lostonessystem]

OH yeah apparently the less likable parts of me/us are just Defense mechanisms because, as much as I/we just want to be KNOWN, crave to be loved and accepted just as we truly are, I/we have only ever experienced pain as a result of opening up. And so now instead I/we just create a really nasty obnoxious dumb guy inside of my/our head that nobody wants to hang out with for longer than an hour and then Be that person until any situation where emotional intimacy might happen is over.

So that's neat.

#Aidan #Frank #i am Looking at both of you #love all my headmates but damn if that ain't exactly what it is #anyway this has been Vi #plural system #undiagnosed system #as in the diagnostic process is ongoing but there's undeniable tangibly different identities going on in here

[cyber-therian]

hello. im blade. ive posted here before. this is what i look like, im a shapeshifter and a therapy dog for the hosts. my primary job is protector. the image at the top left represents me comforting the lesser host, who is represented by the light. it is my primary duty to protect them. —🏁

#system #did system #undiagnosed system #protector alter #system protector #otherkin #therian #alterhuman #therianthropy #canine therian #canine kin #caninekin #alter intro #— 🏁 #dog

[i-m-crazy]

#tumblrpost #tumblr culture #adhd #adhdlife #clinical depression #lmao yeah #feelings are annoying #ughhhh #undiagnosed system #undiagnosed chronic illness #undiagnosed mental illness #mentally drained #tumblr addict

[superdumbfan]

Two: mention of harming ones self (not major tho I'm fine)

So went to my therapist. Well more like medicine provider but I forgot the technical term for that. And I was talking about sleep meds cuz I've had to be on sleep meds and melatonin because I have really bad sensory issues. Like meltdown and sometimes even hurting myself kind of bad. So I talked to my therapist this time and she said that I might have OCD, but I'm kind of confused cuz I also had doctors labeled me with ADHD and autism. I honestly don't know what the problem is but I just got on OCD medicine see if that helps. I would love to get a psych eval, but the closest center that does a psychopath is two cities away. It'd be an 8-hour drive going there and back and it's a major city so hotel cost and stuff like that would probably bankrupt me. My mom says that she's going to try and take me as soon as possible but we just got a new car and she's afraid that I might break down during the trip. I honestly don't know what to do I love to have some kind of diagnosis so I know what to do. I want to be able to just live like a neurotypical person. I want to be able to do things like sit on my bed or wear leggings without literally wanting to rip off my skin. I've talked to my brother about this and he said that he could believe if I was autistic because of how I acted as a kid. Again I honestly don't know what I am I just want to know I want to find it out so I can fix it as soon as possible. Cuz not only is it exhausting but it is breaking me I need help bad. Oh the joy of being poor in a capitalist society so I can't fix my own fucking problems.

#autism #actually autistic #actually ocd #ocd #adhd #mentalheathawareness #mental heath issues #mental health #undiagnosed system #this is a cry for help #nerodiversity #tw selfharm speak #nerodivergent

[shadowsbrainrot]

that undiagnosed audhd experience of having my needs and accommodations neglected as a child/teenager even when they very clearly impact my life causing me to high mask all the time and dissociate and use extreme escapism methods to cope with it all 😀

(emoji is sarcastic/laughing through the pain kinda feeling)

#idk where i lie in terms of support needs bc of how much i mask :/ #what’s worse is that my parents suspected autism but never got me tested bc of the stigma or wtvr #:/ #tw: vent #tw: ableism #self dx autistic #self dx adhd #undiagnosed system #undiagnosed autistic #late diagnosed autistic

[lilliestanleysart]

I'm confused, though generally I stay there lol. Anyway, I went to see my doctor yesterday. I told him that I wanted to be tested for ADHD. He was cool with it but told me to find a test online to take because he didn't have his test with him. I don't believe hardly anything I find on the internet, and I have issues with trying to find legitimate stuff too 🤔😭 so that's a lot for me. I'm still trying to figure this out but I looked anyway. Well I didn't like the first two I found. The first one, 7 yes/no questions. The second one, 10 5 point choice questions. Maybe it's just me but that doesn't sound legitimate to me. Well third time's the charm right? I went to this website autism360.com (please let me know if you have anything to say about the website please, good or bad I want to know) well you pay for the test, it's only $3, but it's 50 questions and a lot more intrusive (normally I'd hate that but for something like this I felt better about it) than the other two. Well I got 68% on their scale, it actually looks like a scale test then a yes/no test (since technically they can't diagnose, it's just a questionnaire test duh 🙄) Anyway in my results it suggested that I take an autism test because of my score. My thoughts were "I'm not autistic but it'll be interesting to see just how much I have in common with them." (I do see a lot of similarities but out of respect for the community and not being diagnosed myself I won't claim it) Anyway I took the test and got 76% (again it's a scale test not a yes/no)

Ok ok, the point of all this is. I don't have anyone I know personally on here (for good reason) and I can't actually talk about this with any of them either. I feel really fake just with this post so just to verify I'm not claiming or even disowning anything. I just want to know if this website is actually ok for the test results before I do a very idiot thing and take it to my doctor. I'm not sure what I'm doing or if I'm even doing this right. Please help, I won't say no hate because it won't stop anyone that wants to say mean things and I'm not an idiot about trolls, but just please help. I just need to know if the website is a legitimate one or maybe others that are known for sure. Thank you for your time and help ☺️

FYI the tags are just so I can get as much response as possible otherwise I'm not a fan of tags.

#undiagnosed adhd #living with adhd #adhd feels #adhd #autism #autistic adult #late diagnosed autistic #undiagnosed autistic #undiagnosed mental illness #growing up undiagnosed #undiagnosed system

[constelco556]

LEAF

Hello! My name is Leaf, and I thought I'd introduce myself.

I use she/it pronouns, but I'm still figuring out my identity.

If you ask the others, they'll tell you I'm the most motherly of the system. That's true, of course, but I also make an effort to help around wherever and whenever I can. I enjoy 2010's music, cleaning, and walking around in nature. I have two kids and a partner, and often spend time with my little family.

I am always open to talk! Don't be afraid to send an ask or dm us about anything. I will gladly listen to anybody's problems and/or give advice as best I can.

Thank you for reading, and have a great day! ^^

#🍃 #*-leaf-* #headmate intros #actually did #did system #system things #alter intro #undiagnosed system #but soon to be! #very close to a diagnoses ^^