#underwing adoption post

[weirdly-specific-but-ok]

pt XVI good omens season 2 (still not traumatic) episode 3 EDINBURGH

HELLO IT'S ME IT'S THE OFFICIAL GOOD OMENS MASCOT WHY DO I STILL KEEP INTRODUCING MYSELF IDK. If you don't know who I am, thank God and Satan for their mercy and flee. Also, the day after I post this, I'll be watching the last three episodes on livestream for the first time so. You know. I'm hyped on the energy of this being my last day not enveloped in tears. Take the summary:

Before the episode starts, someone asks why Crowley said in the last episode that Aziraphale couldn't fall because look at him, all angelic when Crowley looked the same as starmaker. I reply that "Crowley thinks he deserved it, he sees Azi as something beautiful and untouched while he probably sees himself as idk marked in some way so god kicked him down."

I am told that I am learning too fast to weaponise the narrative to induce angst. So then I say oh, I go too fast for you. Tears ensue.

The episode begins! Everyone shrieks about Edinburgh, David Tennant, how it is their favourite episode, and SCOTTISH CROWLEY.

We open with lesbians being gay, and then Muriel enters as Inspector Constable! They are very sweet and very determined to do their job right, and they are adopted by Crowley and Aziraphale just like Jim.

Crowley sits on Aziraphale's chair's arm. The maggots all swoon.

Fine, I also swooned.

Aziraphale gaslight-gatekeep-girlboss-mansplain-manipulate-manwhores his way into getting Crowley to give him the Bentley keys (BOUNDARIES. BOUNDARIES.).

WHAT PLENTY OF USE DO BOTH OF YOU GET OUT OF THE BOOKSHOP?

The really ineffable plan is whatever the fuck was happening in Aziraphale's brain when he somehow went from London to Edinburgh via Loch Ness (check the map) and then proceeded to disguise himself as a detective who pretends to be a journalist.

Crowley slays in sleeve garters and a cardigan keeping house in the bookshop meanwhile, does not sell books, instead cleans with Jimbriel and periodically yeets book stacks into corners when distracted.

Aziraphale reads his old diary entries about Crowley, a (6000+) 13 year old with a crush.

MINISODE MINISODE. They are in Edinburgh during the mid 1800s. Victorian outfits, check. Scottish Crowley, check. Capitalist Karen Aziraphale, che-wait what.

Huh. Well. There's a wee bit of body snatchin' going on, to sell to doctors for medical research because there aren't enough murderers, and to make enough money to survive.

Aziraphale channels his inner capitalist judgemental Karen and ruins that plan, come on Aziraphale you have religious trauma but you're better than this, and long story short, Wee Morag dies after Aziraphale realises his error, her friend Elspeth has to sell her corpse for pennies, and is about to commit suicide with laudanum. Azi, oh god. I'm glad you underwent character development at least.

NOW CROWLEY HERE SLAYS. I KNOW THIS IS AZIRAPHALE'S PERSPECTIVE AND IS BIASED. BUT WITH THIS POV, CROWLEY SLAYS.

He calmly educates Aziraphale about how his whole "the poor have more opportunities and you shouldn't give them money or they'll lose the virtue of poverty" is absolute bullshit, and he does this understanding Aziraphale's situation and not losing his temper.

The framing. The framing of the shot when they see Wee Morag and Elspeth sitting down on a step and explaining their situation. Aziraphale stands above, bustling with righteousness, and judges them. Crowley sits down. He sits down next to them, rather than taking the high ground. He meets them where they are and empathises. It is the fact that he is fallen and damned that makes him behave really divine and sorry I wrote a whole hymn on him have it I'll stop rambling just know I love him.

I think his amusement is a facade so hell won't think he's genuinely being good. I think he's morally grey and incredibly brave and kind.

When Elspeth is bouta kill herself with the laudanum, Crowley grabs it and drinks it himself, and grows tiny and then huge, absolutely high off his head. David Tennant takes the opportunity to travel Scotland from east to west in terms of accent variety.

He gives us the good message of NO DYIN'. NO MORE DYIN'. IT'S NOT ON. And then forces Aziraphale (who doesn't want to ruin her virtuous poverty) to give the girl all the guineas he has in his pocket, and tells her to go off and start a farm or something. BUT NOT JUST PRETENDY GOOD, BE PROPERLY GOOD.

He then gets pulled into hell. To be punished for this. Aziraphale is frightened and heartbroken for him, looking around desperately, and we find out that Crowley didn't meet him for a while after. And later he wanted holy water. To protect himself? He got punished by hell. For how long? The whole month in between the incident and the diary entry? There can't be anyone better at punishment and cruelty than hell.

Sorry I'm just screaming here.

Never mind fuck I started this summary really happy and bouncy and listening to a dance playlist. Dionysus by BTS and Italian pop is still playing and now I'm crying.

Is this the natural progression. Fuck I'm crying. Sorry guys something else happens with Aziraphale politely talking to a phone and Crowley smiling really beautifully while unsuccessfully trying to manipulate two lesbians into a relationship and something about a visit I don't care everyone's being morally dubious as usual and then lovely Scottish music outro I CAN'T FUCKING ELABORATE I'M SITTING HERE CRYING OVER CROWLEY.

right summary done, time to go sob, lmao i thought i wouldn't cry today over good omens HAHAHAHA still not traumatic eh HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

#good omens mascot #good omens #good omens fandom #weirdly specific but ok #asmi #crowley #maggots #lgbtqia #aziraphale #neil gaiman #edinburgh #scotland minisode #victorian minisode #scottish crowley #david tennant #michael sheen #ineffable fandom #ineffable idiots #good ineffable omens #ineffable brainrot #good omens brainrot #CRYING OVER FICTIONAL CHARACTERS #AGAIN #YAY #anthony j crowley #starmaker #wee morag #elspeth and wee morag

[youremyheaven]

Cancer Girls: Baby Voice Edition

I've noticed a pattern with many female celebrities who are known for their "baby voice" and I thought I'd make a post about it. Since Mercury is what affects our voice and style of speech the most, I'll be looking at Mercury placements along with big 3.

Obviously not everyone on this list has a natural baby voice, in fact I'd say the majority of them speak in a very affected pseudo baby voice for which they've become known. I had previously observed how Cancer rashi women do this THE most but here are more examples.

Marilyn Monroe

The OG Ingenue who was known for her breathy baby voice. She has Rohini Sun & Mercury along with Ashlesha Rising

2. Pamela Anderson

She has Ardra Sun, Punarvasu Mercury and Mrigashira Rising

3. Paris Hilton

She has a Pushya Moon and is known for her fake baby voice which her mother claimed she learned from her.

4. Drew Barrymore

She is Punarvasu moon & Mrigashira Rising

Many have noted that a lot of famous Punarvasus have a slightly ditzy way of speaking/demeanour. Almost all Mrigashiras have a very hyper, enthusiastic, kind of frantic and restless way of being and talking. They actually embody "golden retriever energy". I think the combination of these two nakshatras results in Drew's childlike enthusiasm and kind of frantic manic way of speaking and behaving. A lot of people think she's weird 😭but it's just her nature, even Pamela Anderson who shares similar placements has a similar demeanour.

5. Wonyoung

She has Punarvasu Venus conjunct Saturn (both of them are exactly conjunct so idk which one would be her amatyakaraka) and she has received a lot of flak for her "fake baby voice" 😭 Her real voice is naturally deeper and more mature but honestly Wonyoung is such a good example of a Jupiter dominant woman; they are obsessed with presenting themselves a certain way and are very "image conscious", this truly extends to everything from clothes, style, etiquette, speech, voice, absolutely everything. They know exactly what behaviours will elicit what responses.

6. Halsey

She is Punarvasu Moon (atmakaraka) & Mars along with Swati Mercury & Rising

She's known for singing in cursive 😭 but also just has a very sugary high pitched speaking voice. If you observe her even she has a very expressive, animated way of speaking, she's not quite ditzy but she's still almost childlike in her demeanour from time to time.

7. Ariana Grande

She is Ardra Sun & Punarvasu Mercury and she rose to fame for playing a ditzy airhead on Nickelodeon. She in fact spent many years speaking like Cat Valentine off screen as well until she underwent an image revamp in the mid 2010s and adopted a blaccent.

This video shows how when she was younger not only did she have a fake baby voice, she also had a very different slightly ditzy demeanour.

8. Shehnaaz Gill

She is an Indian reality star turned influencer who is known for her baby voice and exaggerated cutesy mannerisms. She is Pushya Moon.

(the interview is mostly in Hindi but you can observe her mannerisms and way of speaking)

9. Melissa Rauch

She has Punarvasu Mercury (amatyakaraka) and played Bernadette on Big Bang Theory where she spoke in a distinctive high pitched voice whereas in real life, her voice is entirely different.

10. Kristen Bell

She has Punarvasu Sun & Mercury. She literally voiced Princess Ana in Frozen. Watch any interview of hers and you will see how expressive she is when she talks, she uses her hands a lot, her face is so animated and its so Punarvasu like🥰

(Tumblr does not allow me to embed more than 10 videos per post so I'll just be linking the rest)

11. Jennifer Garner

She's Mrigashira Moon (atmakaraka), UBP Mercury, Rohini Stellium (Venus, Mars & Saturn)

She's a very good example of a typical Mrigashira. She always speaks like a very sweet, enthusiastic kid; very expressive, very animated.

Here's a link to her interview.

12. Mandy Moore

She's Revati Sun (atmakaraka) , Pushya Moon, Mrigashira Rising

She voiced Rapunzel in Tangled and imo Rapunzel is Tangled is a veryyyy good example of Mrigashira behaviour in many ways but especially with her mannerisms and manic pixie like behaviour which makes sense since she was voiced by a Mrig actress.

Here's a link to Mandy speaking

Here's a link to Rapunzel in Tangled

13. Jenny Slate

She is UBP Sun & Moon and Punarvasu rising

Her sense of humour and how she delivers jokes is a good mix of UBP and Punarvasu

Here's a link to a stand up bit

I've noticed that many Pisces rashi folks (UBP & Revati) are very expressive storytellers and have a very specific style of delivery (Salma Hayek, UBP Moon is a good example and so is Rihanna, Revati Moon).

Jenny has the dryness/deadpanned delivery of UBP mixed with the expressive frantic style of Punarvasu

14. Anna Kendrick

She is Ashlesha Sun (atmakaraka) & Mercury (amatyakaraka)

She has that typical Cancer girl sense of humour and speaking style

Here's a link

15. Mindy Kaling

She is Ardra Sun & Moon, Rohini Rising with Punarvasu Mercury

She rose to fame playing Kelly Kapoor who is a very typical Cancer gal tbh, replete with the slightly ditzy, hyper & manic style and mannerisms and squeaky excited voice.

Here's a link to her being Kelly

Here's a link of her as Mindy Lahiri on The Mindy Project

`16. Leslie Mann

She is UBP Sun, Revati Mercury and Pushya Ketu

Here's a link to an interview but Leslie is such a good example of this ditzy, kind of naive way of speaking. Her mannerisms and the way she delivers is so Pisces girlie of her.

17. Lana del Rey

She is Ardra Sun, Ashlesha Moon & Punarvasu Mercury

Lana is a good example of an introvert Cancer gal. People often think they're kind of weird and kookie and they have a chaotic kind of manic pixie way of speaking and behaving that it throws people off.

Here's a link, her speaking voice sounds very young and soft.

18.Rose Byrne

Pushya Sun & Moon, Ashlesha mercury

She's usually more composed and elegant but when she's more comfortable you see that Cancer girl charm come out. One thing all these women have in common is how they like to act out their stories and be very expressive with their face and body; their sense of humour is very silly and slapstick.

Here's a link

19. Emma Bunton aka Baby Spice

she is Pushya Sun, Mercury and Venus

(isnt it sweet that someone whose alter ego is literally called Baby Spice is a Cancer stellium 🥺)

Here's a link but Baby Spice is also a good example of a less manic but still very cutesy Cancer girl

Many Cancer girls have a tendency to "act cutesy" or "babyish" but also more often than not they are just very in touch with their inner child and kind of goofy and silly.

20. Mary Kate & Ashley Olsen

They're Mrigashira Sun, Punarvasu Mercury & Ashlesha Rising

If you've watched Full House or any of their movies, you can see the ditzy girly girl behaviour of Punarvasu come out but irl they're more introverted and a little awkward, sort of like Lana and seem funny in a shy way.

Claire Nakti had observed in her Swati video about how Swatis and Punarvasus share certain similarities, I've seen this extend to their behaviour and mannerisms as well. Jennifer Tilly, Mila Kunis (both Swati Moon) and Emma Stone (Swati Sun) all have a very similar energetic girly, sweet and humble but kind of kooky and silly style of speaking and story telling.

#sidereal astrology #astrology notes #vedic astro notes #astrology observations #nakshatras #vedic astrology #astro notes #astro observations #astrology #astroblr #Youtube

[minecraftbookshelf]

Marriage of State AU Character Designs: The Mad King of Mezalea

Joel actually has three major looks through the course of the AU; Prince of Mezalea, Trophy Husband, and King Joel, with the subcategories of "armor" for each.

They all have the same base design of "human", differing by (apparent) age and general sense of style.

Some Joel Skins to start us off and provide the base we're working off of, and also the Mezalean banner because color pallet

And also, because it is actually relevant, (bear with me here) some samples of Mezalean architecture.

The Matral Palace and the Villager area.

Based off of Joel's final skin, the vibe is kind of "Victorian military dress uniform" however there is something very, very important to take into consideration from a worldbuilding perspective.

The Mesa is a warm weather biome. Its a colorful desert. Which means high temperatures during the day and cold at night. So tight-fitting, thick fabrics in a Victorian style would be incredibly impractical.

So we turn to the second possible source for fashion inspiration: The architecture, which gives mostly Byzantine vibes.

So what would Byzantine clothing look like, especially for nobility?

First off, taking into account that the Byzantine Empire lasted for approximately a thousand years and, naturally, underwent some dramatic changes in clothing style during that time, we'll pick a specific vibe out of the options. I settled on a bit of a mix between Early Byzantine (think the Theodora Mosaic shown below) and Middle Byzantine (see the mosaic of Emperor Constantine IX below)

And here are just some screenshots from my pintrest board for Mezalea and Mezalean!Joel, because if I put all these on here separately I'll hit the image limit too soon.

(General disclaimer: yes, Pintrest has an art theft problem, yes Pintrest is much harder to effectively use now due to the pervasiveness of ads on everything, no I don't use it for like, formal things. It remains one of the best ways to collect visual references and figuring out The Vibes)

(Yes, we get to go full Material Gworl vibes for the Mezalean King, as is only right and proper.)

General characteristics I'm adopting here for Mezalean clothing:

Brocade (and bejeweled) kaftan/kaftan-esque outer layer. This is a formal wear thing, and is absolutely a "showing off the wealth" power move.

Lots of Big Chunky Colorful Jewelry

I don't know what it's actual name is, but that general style of having jeweled tassel-like things hanging from the front sides of the crown/headdress.

Light-weight and loose fitting under-layers.

And of course, bright colors.

Prince Joel: Before he became part of the main cast in an epic fantasy adventure spanning several hundreds of years and an entire continent (and the adjacent ocean) Joel was the youngest of three princes with two older brothers who were both married and had kids.

Which is to say, it did not look like he would ever be the king.

His role in the kingdom was very much that of an ambassador to and direct connection to their people. He spent a lot of time working on fishing boats and in the mines and quarries. While he did receive a standard royal education on things like diplomacy and combat, international interactions were not his focus at all, much more involved in the day to day operations of his own home. (And yes, that is a very vital aspect of the idea of "royalty" in general, supposedly, and that being a particular point of Joel's upbringing will make more sense when I get around to writing and posting the post about how royalty functions in the Empires. tldr; its related to the whole thing where Pixlriffs accidentally redefined "war")

Basically, Prince Joel = the first skin, the simple green one. He's wearing more lightweight, practical clothes that allow him to engage in physically demanding dirty work without costing a fortune every day. He still dresses up for formal events, but he doesn't even attend all of those and he is far from a daily sight in court.

Trophy Husband: For a couple hundred years, Joel didn't live in Mezalea. Instead, he was one half of the chronological first arranged marriage in the "au in which all the marriages are arranged" situation. And this one was the one that most resembles the set-up of a generic "period" bodice-ripper novel (though that is not how it played out ultimately, for the parties involved, despite the romance that does happen.)

Basically, this is his War Prize Era. In which Lizzie won a husband in combat and then didn't really know what to do with him.

During this time period, Joel mostly wore ocean styled clothing, though during formal occasions he would wear a notable amount of Mezalean accessories, that were part and parcel of the treaty with him. (I'm trying so hard not to derail this into just a breakdown of the events of the Joel & Lizzie arc of the au im trying so hard)

He did tend to mix Oceanic and Mezalean clothing, due in part to Oceanic clothing being primarily designed for underwater wear, while he lived above the surface, finding the balance of practicality and appearances demanded by the political nature of his existence at the time. (Also a personal comfort thing as Mezalean clothing tended to afford more skin coverage and also had shoes) Once he and Lizzie were more comfortable both in the world and with each other he had more opportunities for personalization and tended towards Mezalean styles in oceanic colors. He did develop a significant appreciation for the Oceanic idea of skin-tight under-layers for water travel.

King Joel: He did end up back in Mezalea as king, which is when we hit the style closest to the second skin, which mostly for this is really an indicator of color scheme. Formally, he is now wearing the full Kaftan and Jewelry look, day to day its more of "colorful, simple, and lightweight" because he still is very active in the day to day commerce of his empire. He does usually wear significantly more jewelry than he did as a prince, he grew a taste for it during his trophy husband era XD. The details of his day-to-day wear are also fancier. finer fabrics, more embroidery, brocade hems, etc.

Most of his earrings are gifts from Lizzie, some in Oceanic colors, some in Mezalean, but all with little chips of prismarine to remind him of her even when she can't be there.

Armor: Joel's armor preferences are simple netherite plate. He also does have a ceremonial trident, as a member of the Oceanic royal family. His is gold-plated.

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Lizzie || Jimmy ||

AU Masterpost

#empires smp #empires s1 #smallishbeans #the mad king of mezalea #rain rambles #marriage of state au

[rozaceous]

the blorbo-ification of korvin kwan

set in a combo of @vermillioncrown's 'the pros and cons of digging your own grave' and my 'a sunset every hour,' i wrote a scene for verm as gift fic, because i was so affronted by how mean the narrative was to My Boy (korvin) and how much i wanted him to get wrapped in a blanket and also have a dental visit. hence the title--i spiritually adopted him in a hopefully less cracked version of 'you lost the rights to your oc bc you were mean to them.' (we've all seen the screenshots of those posts, right???)

so this is allie finding out that dick grayson has been hiding an entire twelve year-old from her. she is not well pleased lmao.

Allie’s pretty sure that she’s timed Dick’s work schedule correctly, but she’s also willing to wait outside the doorstep of his latest safe house until he arrives and soothes her frazzled nerves about his general state of being.

What Allie is not expecting is for not-Dick to answer the door, and especially she isn’t expecting that someone to be a wavy-haired East Asian boy who opens the door but doesn’t undo the chain lock, peering through the gap between door and frame all squinty-eyed.

“Um,” says Allie, eyes flashing to the 302 on the door, which is exactly the number it should be. “I’m…looking for Dick?”

The evaluative quality of the kid’s stare does not diminish. “You’re too young to be a girlfriend.”

She’s helpless against the instant full-face squinch that sentence causes. “We’re more like mutually adopted siblings,” she hazards, voice tight, and regretful that everything regarding the usage of Dick's name sounds inappropriate for the public, especially under-eighteens.

A pause.

“Mr Richard didn’t tell you he underwent child acquisition,” he observes.

“He didn’t, and he’s going to rue that fact until the day he dies.”

“Sounds like siblings, yeah. You’re Allie, then?”

“He talked about me to you but couldn’t be bothered to mention you to me?” she mutters, mostly to herself.

“I was trying to pretend to not-hear him talk to you on the phone. Not really possible in this shoebox.” Some of the squinting eases. “If you can prove who you are, I can let you in until Mr Richard gets back. Otherwise I’m calling the cops.”

Allie is…impressed by that statement, she's pretty sure. “I haven’t got a driver’s license yet, but I’ve got a learner’s permit and a library card. Sufficient evidence?”

A hand pokes through the gap, fingers making grabby motions. Three minutes later has her standing in the kitchen, shoes and coat off, and peering at the meal prep in progress.

“Korvin,” as she’s been informed is the kid’s name, “I know Dickard’s idea of a good meal is take-out, but what the fuck? Do you seriously have to cook it yourself if you want a vegetable?”

“Mr Richard makes sure I get fed,” is the dodgy reply, and Allie knows what covering for someone you don’t want to get in trouble sounds like. So she decides straightforward is best.

“Look, I love Dick to bits,” she tells Korvin. “But his life is held together by silly string, boyish charm, and Barbara. Fuck,” she realizes, pulling her flip phone from her back pocket. She holds the power button until the screen lights on. “Yeah, hope that freaks them both out and gets him over here tout de suite.” She puts her attention back on Korvin, who is regarding her with similar wariness as when he first opened the door. “My point is, if you’re not getting taken care of, you tell me, and I make sure it happens. Capische?”

Korvin seems a little too stunned or cagey or something to reply.

She flips her phone back open and opens her contacts before pressing the device into his hands. “Put your number in and text yourself so you can contact me. Which, by the way, is an ‘anytime’ kind of offer.”

Another, slightly wide-eyed look, and Korvin follows her instruction.

Twenty minutes later and even the way that Dick opens the door tells Allie that he knows he’s about to get the ass-chewing of his life. He slinks through the entry like a dog pretending it doesn’t know a thing about the torn up couch cushions, grinning brightly and waving at her across the apartment where she’s removing vegetables from the oven.

“Hey, Allie!” She’ll give him credit that nervousness makes his voice waver only slightly. “See you and Korv met!”

"Hm."

#verm has been pushing for a different title bc this one makes them shy abt korvin being my blorbo i think #but what are friends for if not adopting your si's as their favoritest guy??? #so for right now the tag is: #tbokk #we've been noodling abt further ideas for this universe too #hasn't gotten much to the writing stage bc verm is in Writing Hell #but if you've got questions we've got answers

[sir-scarab]

My last posts have been about my new L5R character, Moshibaru Korekuta and this one is no different. Born a peasant, she underwent a 20 Goblin Winter; bringing back 20 goblin heads from over The Wall to prove her worth and become a proper samurai. While out in the Shadowlands she came into possession of a fallen samurai's wakizashi, which later became the key to getting adopted into bigger samurai family.

#legend of the 5 rings #l5r #legend of the five rings #oc art #comics

[unnamed-proxy]

HAHA here it is! The Berry dca head-cannon masterlist!

Looong post ahead beware.

Sun:

-They can actually draw really, really well but is limited by the fact they can only use crayons, if provided with the right materials their art style would be very watercolor dominant and look like something out of a classic children’s book. (Think the ‘promotional artwork/merchandise’ from welcome home or the in-game art of rain-world)

-Gender-fluid but often male presenting

-Asexual, even if they had lips they would not enjoy kissing or anything stronger than that, however they do adore hugs and cuddling!

-They find it a lot easier to express louder emotions, anger, happiness, annoyance, excitement, etc. they’re an ugly cryer as well.

-Due to their lack of facial movement, they’ve adopted a constant flow of physical expression/movement, even when they’re going to sleep they’re still moving! Usually including (but not limited to) swaying from side to side, fidgeting with their hands, or in-place dancing like they do in game!

-They have very intense anxiety, but they were good at covering it up until Moon got the virus, becoming inconsolable whenever things got to their head afterwards.

-Adding onto that last one, they’re an overthinker.

-They have a love for makeup and sometimes hang out with Chica to play around with face paint. They’re the reason they and Moon have the starry eyeliner I give them in drawings.

-They keep a Moon plushie in their ‘room’ that they’d project him onto while in control, and they never sleep without it. (Even with the virus)

-They’re a huge theater nerd, being a particularly big fan of Hamilton and the Jekyll and Hyde musical +basically anything Disney, though they don’t get to quote/see those as often. (Their fav is a tie between Princess And The Frog and Tangled)

-They get VERY jealous very easily.

-When they’re having a bad day and Moon isn’t available they usually have a gossip party with Roxy and chica where they bitch about the incompetency of the workers or a particularly bad Karen over imaginary tea.

-Continuing from the last one, Sun also enjoys doing Roxanne’s hair when she lets them.

-Their eyes were white while having the virus since they scratched the paint off clawing at their face whenever Moon took control (or tried to).

-They love the children’s drawings and are very quick to praise them! Adults on the other hand are when they get sassy, ‘if a robot programmed to act like a child on all levels but intelligence can drawn better than you then you don’t deserve any respect anyway’ type mindset.

-If you’re over the age of 13 it’ll be a lot harder to get on their good side, but usually if you’re nice to them they’re nice to you. Unless you’re staff, they’d explode any and all staff members with their mind if they were capable of it.

-Favorite color is green.

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Moon:

-Goes by he/him, it/its, and they/them on occasion

-Hat functions as a tail/third arm. Its rim is attached to his head by a Velcro like material or a magnet once placed on.

-The nightcap is stored inside his stomach hatch, which is shot out by the second button on his chest.

-The upper/first button on his chest activates a musical function, the music is generated through a music box attached to the throat of his endoskeleton. Sun can use it to, but they can’t pick the song like Moon can.

-It was the one who confessed first (See)

-Moon was originally a generic fruity Disney villain character in the theater and would act out on its emotions through a theatrical, more cruel lens than they were at heart. Though he underwent massive restrictions being added to his code alongside heavy reprogramming when being relocated to the daycare.

-He is demisexual and/or Asexual, he is open to kissing but nothing more intimate than that. Otherwise, he has the same boundaries as Sun.

-Moon acts like a cat in as many ways as you can think of. Enjoying the sensation of petting/rubbing or scratching on his head, purring when happy, hissing and growling when angry or threatened, and his nightcap flicks and sways near constantly when he moves, straightening and shooting upwards when he’s annoyed and doing said hissing, and curling around his torso when he’s afraid.

-He’s also just as physically expressive as Sun! Though in different ways. Constantly shifting from foot to foot, bouncing on his feet (as shown in game), tilting his head to express what his eyes can’t, and fidgeting with his fingers like Sun. Moon is also no stranger to stimming, though he tries not to around anyone besides Sun.

-He is autistic.

-If he had a functioning mouth, its go-to stim would be chewing and biting, Sun would have no issue with this and sometimes offer to be the subject of it instead of himself.

-He has anger issues as a result of his past programming, though has long since found techniques to calm himself down for the sake of Sun, pre-virus anyway.

-Moon is a huge victim of masking, most of the inhabitants of the plex still believe him to be a maniacal monster because of this.

-He desperately wishes to go outside and see the world, hanging out infront of the glass doors of the ‘Plex’s entrance after hours to look at the stars and occasionally asking Sun to paint what they think it looks like out there.

-He keeps children’s drawings and various nicknacks inside his hat. Magnets, plushies, shirts, paint sets, severed animatronic heads, you name it and it’s probably hoarding it in there.

-He’s extremely self-conscious and overcompensates to either get people to stay with or away from him.

-He’s a wonderful singer and enjoys doing duets with Sun in his spare time!

-It sleeps with a Sun plushie and often keeps it with him in his hat at all times.

-He is very much aware of their actions during the Vanny virus and sees them as proof that he’s a horrible person.

-Moon is the reason the daycare was closed down, being responsible for a child going missing 3 different times times with the help of Vanny, until being fully taken over by the virus. (While under the virus’s effects Sun did not shy away from holding this against them.)

-He loves Sun dearly, though is extremely envious of them, he would never admit it though.

-Favorite color is purple

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General/both:

-GR!Foxy was Sun & Moons best friend and trusted them with her life, as did they with theirs. This persists through their relationship with Roxy though they’ve gotten significantly more distant since she became part of the band

-Their theater backstory is Sun being a rouge court-jester that joined Foxy after he visited their kingdom. They were then cursed to have their deepest, darkest thoughts and desires manifest in the form of Moon.

-Adding onto previous, Moon is the in-universe reason for Foxy missing a hand.

-The skirt was a gift from Sun! It wasn’t/isn’t a part of their original costume and they both wear it as a symbol of their love, which is why it doesn’t change during their transformation.

-Moon and Sun were the patient zero of the Vanny virus, both being different prototypes. Sun was given a version where it heightened the flaws of the animatronics programming and personality, I.e their anxiety and jealousy. While Moon was given a removal of rules and restrictions, affectively turning the infected into a wild animal or a zombie. Both types were installed 3 months before the rest of the cast and both were modified/reworked due to being ineffective, the first being too unpredictable and generally useless while the second made the victim too tough to control. Though they were basically considered failures and Vanny never bothered to put the updated version into their systems, deciding it wouldn’t be too important

-They’re a tag team! If one doesn’t feel like they could deal with a specific person they’ll send the other one out to defend them (‘Soooo bad, I should turn off the lights myself.’), or they’ll just feed the one in control insults from the head-space. Sun specializes in more personal, action based insults that cut deep while Moon makes judgments on character and rapid fires.

-Sun wants to be friends with Vanessa, Moon does not. She hates both of them.

-Freddy sees both of them as a singular identity and is, put simply, a massive jerk to them, but he has a particular sore spot for Moon.

-The broken staff bots in their room were taken from multiple different places, Moon would sometimes clean up after Monty so he wouldn’t be caught or they’d find an already malfunctioning one and put it out of its misery. They’d then take it back and try to learn how to repair them so they don’t have to rely on parts and services anymore to sustain themselves.

-They’re both really into playing pretend and crossdressing!

-Eclipse goes by they/them and is omnisexual & polyamorous

-Eclipse doesn’t have a favorite color, if you asked they’d just answer with ‘rainbow’ or ‘I can’t decide!’

-Eclipse was a backup ai in-case Moon went rogue that failed to activate. Sun commandeered it into a way for them to both be in sync again post-Ruin as they were extremely basic and non-sentient.

-Balloon world Eclipse is what Vanny would use to infect the boys and communicate with Moon.

-Even if they were put in separate bodies they wouldn’t leave each other alone, Moon would latch onto Sun’s neck and let them drag him along while they do their job and whisper little comments to make them laugh into their ear just like they used to in their headspace, Sun would follow him around during naptime and try to keep contact, usually holding hands or, on bad days, riding on his shoulders.

-adding onto the above, if they were upset at each other they still wouldn’t be more than a room away and make sure the other is in view at all times. DO. NOT. SEPARATE, no matter how bad the argument is, there is nothing worse to them than being alone with their own head.

Aaaand that is all! TYSM for reading <3

#berryboxed #proxy rambles #some of these may contradict as I have a LOT of different interpretations of them #but I did my best to keep it consistent #Master-post #not art #daycare attendant #dca fandom #also please excuse any typos I’m not proof-reading this #might’ve forgotten a few #poor Sunny’s section is way shorter than everyone else’s #I love their sassy ass how it is #swearing tw #swearing cw #Sun x moon

[thenightling]

Which Witcher is Witch?

Note: I know there are multiple-in universe Witchers. This post is specifically in regard to the title of the franchise. It's time to address something in The Witcher fandom. In the Witcher novels you have a monster hunter (called a Witcher) named Geralt of Rivia, who adopts an orphaned princess from a fallen kingdom. Her name is Ciri. Geralt had accidentally claimed Ciri via a magical invocation known as "Law of Surprise." When you call upon Law of Surprise in front of someone, whatever they gain next now belongs to you. It can be as random as a sack of flour or a puppy. But the thing about Law of Surprise is it invokes Destiny itself and once invoked it cannot be denied. The person who called upon Law of Surprise cannot decline what he has claimed and the person who has to give the thing cannot refuse to give it or Destiny will intervene to make it happen. Geralt had invoked Law of Surprise (without realizing it) in front of a pregnant royal. When he learned she was pregnant he fled rather than take her child. Twelve-years-later the kingdom was sieged and Princess Ciri was the only survivor, forcing Geralt to embrace his Destiny and accept her as his adoptive daughter.

Now, when I first got into The Witcher a fan boy scolded me that Ciri could not count as a "real" Witcher and that "the author said so." He insisted that because she never underwent the Trial of the grasses she would never count as REAL Witcher no matter what was said in the novels or video games. This was before I learned how the novels and video games actually end, mind you, or perhaps I would have had a better rebuttal for this totally-not-a-misogynist. Recently I saw some interviews with the showrunner and writer for The Witcher Netflix TV series. I am well-aware that there have been many deviations from the novels but I do find it a suspicious tell that the two main things that seem to offend certain fan boys are 1. The canonical realization that Jaskier is bisexual / pansexual and 2. The idea that Ciri will become a Witcher, herself...

The best scenario ending of the third Witcher video game (Witcher 3: The Wild Hunt) is Ciri becomes a Witcher, herself, and goes off on her own adventures. In the novels Ciri eventually ends up in another universe (possibly our own) where she rides off the Knights of The Round Table. The TV series is already hinting at going in the direction of Ciri becoming a Witcher, herself. And now the showrunners have pretty much confirmed that Ciri is the actual main protagonist of the show. But there are angry fanboys whining "But Geralt is The Witcher!" No. Not necessarily. The title may be subversive. You thought you were following the adventures of The Witcher this whole time when you were watching Geralt but the reality is Ciri is who the title is for. Ciri is also The Witcher. Now there are angry fans whining and bemoaning the idea that Netflix has "changed The Witcher" and made Ciri the main character even though "The title is for Geralt." Not necessarily. I'm not sure why so many of the fans seem to be reacting badly to this. It was kind of expected the whole time. It's how the video games end, which are actually set after the novels. And in the novels she rides off with some of King Arthur's men. She's pretty much The Witcher there too. I'm getting deja vu of the angry "My adventures with Superman" fans from just a few days ago who whined about what a "Simp" Clark is for Lois- meaning he's doting and devoted to her and wants for her happiness. Superman was always like this... Fanboys, this sort of sexism went out style in the sixties.

#The Witcher #Ciri #Geralt of Rivia

[veshialles]

Dr. Edith Harper Chisholm

-2102- Resident Psychologist of Vault 76, honorary Responder, "field medic". -2287- Traveling researcher, Priestess of the Forgotten God, occult expert.

Once an esteemed graduate of Vault-Tec University and a close personal friend to the Chambers and Hopper families, Edith Chisholm set out on Reclamation Day alongside her fellow residents to explore and settle in the ruins of Appalachia together.

Throughout her journeys, she grew ever closer to Jaden Chambers and Beverly Hopper, coming to care for them as her own children, and soon enough found herself romantically involved with Janice Chambers. Though initially fully loyal to Vault 76's mission statement of "reclaiming the wasteland", Edith soon became disillusioned with The Overseer's colonial vision when the mysterious Scorched Plague threatened the health and wellbeing of her newly-found family.

Although curing mutagenic infections fell far outside her typical area of expertise, Edith worked tirelessly to formulate a treatment plan, utilizing the resources left behind by the extinct post-war factions and following the trial of breadcrumbs left behind by The Overseer to seek out a solution to this monumental problem. While she remained acutely aware of the dangers, fervently analyzing and documenting the unique "telepathic" properties of the Scorched Plague is likely where her morbid curiosity with the occult and the unexplained truly began.

In 2103, after the Scorchbeast Queen was slain, and a cure for the plague was finalized and distributed, Edith's fascination with unexplained phenomena began to turn into obsession. Though her many encounters with so called "cryptid" and "mythical" entities served to fuel this fixation, the main driving force behind Edith's predilections came after Beverly Hopper's exposure to an unearthed mysterious artifact granted her with telekinetic powers, transforming Beverly into a kind of Psyker.

At first, Beverly's powers were greatly beneficial to the survival of the family and to the returning wastelanders, crushing raiders and crippling the abominable mutant hordes who would have seen them all dead or enslaved. But as the months drew on, and as Beverly grew in power, so too did she begin to grow reckless and careless as well, becoming as much a danger to herself and those around her as to her would-be foes. A force of raw fury and power to be reckoned with.

By 2104, Beverly's growing instability lead to tragedy when her family finally confronted her with their concerns, lashing out against them and mortally wounding Jaden when he dove in front of Edith aand his mother, taking the brunt of Beverly's telekinetic blast. Realizing what she had done, Beverly fled across Appalachia, leaving a path of carnage in her wake. Solemnly, Edith and Janice swore to stop their adopted daughter by any means necessary. Relentlessly they pursued Beverly until finally cornering her inside an abandoned nuclear facility, where a final confrontation played out, ending with Edith trapped inside the reactor core and suffering intense radiation exposure. Though she miraculously survived and was rescued by Janice, over the coming weeks and months, Edith underwent the slow and painful transformation into a ghoul, while Janice's health merely deteriorated.

Broken and grieving and irradiated, Janice and Edith returned to the homestead they had built, caring for each other until the end. Desperate to find some form of "understanding" in the wake of so much pain and loss, Edith sought out spiritual guidance and found her way to The Enlightened, fully indulging herself into the field of paranormal and occult research, etching crude wings onto her face and proclaiming herself as a Priestess of the Forgotten God.

Years later, when the Brotherhood Of Steel's fledgling presence made it unsafe for Edith to exist in the open, rumours began to spread among the Appalachian settlers about a dangerous and powerful mad-woman wreaking havoc and destruction somewhere to the east of Appalachia. A rumour which Edith has been chasing ever since.

#ruby's ocs #edith chisholm #beverly hopper #jaden chambers #janice chambers #fallout 76 #fallout 4 #ug-qualtoth #fallout oc #ghoul oc #my writing #long post #my screenshots #sorry been obsessed with the paranormal undertones of Fallout today. wrote this out on a whim #and thinking about my fucked up psyker oc as well

[dcwnthercbbithcle]

@dollhidden asked for a 'Plot's Please!' for their characters, BUT TUMBLR ATE THE MESSAGE AFTER I TRIED TO SAVE THE DRAFT! Very Sadge!

send me “plots please” and I’ll respond with 3 (or more) interesting plots / relationships / connections I can think of for our muses! | ACCEPTING

HEY LADYBUG!! Happy New Year! How've you been doing? I hope it's been well! I won't lie to you; I went a little hard with these ones, and the major reason I made Doe multi-verse and more inspired by Dead By Daylight was because of you and your muses, or more specifically, wanting to roleplay with you in your verses!! ASDASDSADH

POTENTIAL INTERACTION COMBINATIONS / INTERESTING DYNAMIC IDEAS

Okay, so, straight off the bat, given how long we've been mutual and all the convos we've had, I don't think I really need to spend the time selling you on my muses and explaining their entire deals and instead focus on the many potentially interesting combinations with a couple bits of explanations for them while completely VIBRATING with excitement! ASDHASDHASD

So first, Fíadh, now I THINK I've told you about Fíadh before, but just in case, this is a bun memory moment, let me rewind. In the broadest sense, she is an Inscryption based oc that takes notes from the entity known as Leshy for her background. She's a mix of folklore, classically dark fairy tales, gods that hold humans to the exact bestial nature as all other animals, sacrifice, bloodshed and the brutal beauty of nature. Now, she isn't CONSTRAINED to Inscryption; it's just an important context for understanding both the sort of woman and character that she is! She is my not-so-feral, malevolent, formerly human mountain-dwelling monster that will eat people alive! She's fun and sassy, like a goat, but also an apex predator who knows that about herself.

NOW THIS IN MIND: Fíadh would be FASCINATING to watch and interact with any of the RE: Village muses. Now, this is partially because being confronted with the fact that she's not the most dangerous beast in the woods would be a startling revelation. But also, more like her but not like her, ones that left their humanity behind, who gave it up for 'family' and duty in exchange for this feeling of belonging and love.

Especially Lady D or any of the daughters, because, like, Fíadh isn't feral feral but she is so unacquainted with 'proper' 1910s+ manners that I think it would be funny for the girls to have a 'WHY IS SHE ALLOWED TO DO IT?' and Lady D having a minor coronary because HER HOUSE, her nice, clean house is getting HOOF PRINTS PUT EVERYWHERE AND SNOW!! NO YOU GIRLS CAN'T KEEP HER!!

NOW SALLY, SALLY, MY BELOVED, my mean ghost lady who will adopt 90% of your muses. You know Sally, I don't need to explain Sally but like, hear me out:

Sally adopts Rosie inside the fog or in Sally's post-fog AU. Now, in the fog, the AU is pretty obvious, the Entity is feeding on the tragedy that's befallen everyone's favorite mold baby and the lycan monsters that have hunted her father in his endless quest to rescue her.

BUT POST-FOG AU?? Rosie is in recovery from the events of the DLC that have had an obviously traumatizing effect on her. Sally, who herself has been a victim to very similar circumstances in the fog both BEING the murder ghost and being eternally tormented and torn apart by the ghosts of her patients reaching out for help, is trying to take her underwing and help her step forward in a way that Best DadTM Chris can't fully help because he's never lived through a hell comparable to them.

Also, Sally and Ellie <3. Ellie reminds her so much of a boy (Frank) she used to be the social worker in charge of, per her modern-ish AU. Being driven both by guilt and the ghost (metaphorical) of the little boy, she failed to stop from slipping through the cracks to go full in on trying to correct and model healthiness for her when she isn't healthy at all.

AND DOOOOOOE, oh my god, where could I even begin to start with Doe?? She's my ghost girl, but less murder and anger and hatred and more depression and confusion and fear!! Please DM me for more information about her and the card so I don't completely spam and overwhelm this meme! We can do so many non-DBD AU things with her, though!!

Your Until Dawn muses, for instance, she is a PERFECT character to interact with any and or all of them within either the events of the game's narrative or in a kind of aftermath 'revisiting the old trauma and confronting it' AU.

HAUNTING OF HILL HOUSE MUSES??? It's more of a stretch to insert Doe into that Universe, BUT HELLO!!! Ghost ladies who die miserable deaths throughout their lives NEED to stick together! Let Doe, my strange little creature, go in there and befriend the other ghosties.

THE LAST OF US TOO! Doe is usually depicted as dead for obvious reasons per her narrative, but I am SO OPEN to a living Last of Us / Apocalypse-style AU! It would be hilarious to see her little quiet spitfire self with Tess or any other girls her age!

PLOTS

OKAY, THERE ARE A LOT, AND I DON'T WANT TO SUBJECT YOU TO AN EVEN LONGER TEXT WALL, SO I'll LIMIT MYSELF TO ONE TERM THREAD IDEA, message me though!!! because I had ones for ALL of the ones I mentioned above and I am more than willing to elaborate in the dms or on my discord!

Fíadh and the Dimitrescu sisters!!! I know I said Alcina may be one of the most interesting because she fully stands above Fíadh's height, even with Fiadh's horns, and has the most extreme personality differences but HEAR me out!!

Let's set the stage: it's a standard pre-Ethan Winters storming in after baby Rosie, while Mother Miranda is still doing her plotting to bring back her daughter after the 'failures' of the lords and the Lycanthropes start to overrun villages left, right and center while the experiments continue.

The Lycan has worked well, or rather a tad too well, in driving away most life from the isolated, crumbling eastern European mountainsides that used to encompass the formerly expansive kingdom under Mother Miranda's reign. Except for Fíadh, the Lycans have proved to be largely pests for many of the other lords, especially Alcina, who is now finding difficulty in securing new, continuous virgin blood sources for her wines. They have DRAWN Fíadh closer and closer to the village boundaries.

You see, Fíadh is a being of the hunt and bloodlust by extension; she craves a challenge in her own domain to make the act of her feedings (entirely exsanguinating a being and drinking all of the blood from them while leaving most flesh untouched in a semi-vampiric fashion) less of a chore and more of an enriching exercise of cleverness, trickery and/or brute strength.

Humans are clever, so they often make appetizing prey in terms of entertainment, albeit frustrating and not physically enriching. They'll sometimes bypass her entirely, paying tribute to her leader so she cannot harm them, or, in the foolish case, will require a bit of disguise and environmental manipulation to trap them before they can leave her domain and thus enter into the blessed domains of maintained towns or past running water where she can't follow, but physically? No challenge; they are far smaller & far, far weaker. It takes little for her to tear them asunder, and the fun ends when she isn't following and plotting how to trap them like hares.

BUT THESE LYCANS? They are a HUNT for her in all aspects, fueling the bloodlust more than the limited game of unmutated humans. Many Lycans are smart enough to see the massive 7ft+ woman with goat horns and run, but not intelligent enough to remember how their previous unmutated human selves warded her away or escaped her pursuit. Instead, they will group up, stand and charge, and physically? This is a major threat, especially if they bring out their leaders or the most mutated. They stand a chance against her physically; she can't simply trap and run them down.

She has to remain clever, pick them away from each other and prepare for a real fight with the chance of her being HURT. Which is fun! It's a REAL hunt that she often craves but can't get from human prey. Combined with their blood functioning to feed and sustain her, just as the blood of any other humans can, without much in the way of brutal side effects other than it tasting less palatable to her. She is hooked on this new game and will follow the food source back to the source, expanding her territory in the forest as there is less of a need to remain at the high peaks of the mountains.

Which brings her directly toward and through the domain of Castle Dimitrescu and Alcinia. Their neck of the woods overlaps significantly with Fíadh's range, and with Fíadh's boldness expanding, the chances of them running into each other only grow while he ventures further for her hunts. But it's not a matter of inherent hostility. Fíadh isn't a creature that is murder on sight; she's often benign until she considers you food or an annoyance.

So, I have some ideas of where it could go from there!

MUTUAL CURIOUSITY, similar to introducing two cats from opposite sides of a window. Intense winter weather would deliberately keep the girls separated and isolated, allowing Fíadh to become familiarized with the sight and presumed roles of the girls within the castle. Perhaps they're curious enough to release Moroaicǎ from the dungeonous cellars and crypts of the castles or shoo Samcă from the uppermost areas of the castle. Providing her game and fun and forming a kind of rapport between the girls until the spring and summer warming could allow them to interact physically.

MAYBE THEY DECIDE TO HUNT EACH OTHER A LITTLE BIT, perhaps when the girls finally come into contact with Fíadh, who, to that point, has come to view and respect their place as residents in the area and thus 'not to be messed with' they decide to test her, just as anyone would a new toy. Trying to push the boundaries to see how much they can get away with, how long until she fights back against them, and eventually how much it takes until she breaks, given the girls have never been too great at preserving their toys. However, to the girl's delight and perhaps frustration, Fíadh doesn't break and die. Not like the humans they usually gain as staff and toys from Alcina. Something, something the curse, something, something being a supernatural creature, it's neither here nor there. In any case, the girls would eventually need a mutual cease-fire as once aggravated, Fíadh is BRUTAL and won't let up. Fíadh heals fast as long as she has blood, and between her size, the girls would have trouble attempting to overwhelm her, especially compared to a person like Ethan. She's a big target that would force them to attempt at their human forms, which, given her size advantage, would result in blows for Fíadh, but not enough to take her down.

Either way, they're separated; Fíadh is licking her wounds but recognizing well that the girls aren't to be hunted and instead wholly respected, not just cause they live there but because they put up a good fight and can hold her off well enough.

From there, things could either go down as an enemies-to-friends route, rather standardly. Perhaps the girl would delight in watching Fíadh hunt and feed in her own way. Maybe they want all the flesh left over from one of her kills, and they have a slow burn warming up to each other in that way. OR OR we could go with one of your ideas of Cass finding a hunting buddy who is willing to follow her in the sadistic hunts.

OR OR OR we could go an entirely different direction!! I'm open to any suggestions!!

But I will give you this image to play with: it's early spring, it's warming, but the temperatures at night still dip down dangerously low for the girls. But stir craziness is what it is, even in an estate as large as the Dimitrescu's. They're released for fun during the day under a strict curfew for their own safety, all return... but where's Daniela? Fuuuuck, she's being irresponsible again. All staff are being sent out en mass looking for her. The other girls are panicked & angry, but largely out of concern for Daniela. There doesn't seem to be much sign of her, could she lost?? It gets colder, but a stranger approaches the castle on a mission. It's Fíadh, and she has something massive wrapped up tightly in her arisaid and held to her furred and insulated chest. It's Daniela, burrito'd, warm and toasty, but now the Dimitrescu's are indebted to a fairy. (maybe, not actually; Fíadh isn't out for prices; the hilarity of Daniela getting stranded and needing to be wrapped up and returned home is enough payment)

RELATIONSHIPS + CONNECTIONS

Now, HEAR ME OUT: I love romance, and I could definitely see something that could develop with Fíadh and your RE: Village muses, most especially Cass, but I would not brush anyone out of possibilities. And same for Doe and either you Until Dawn or TLOU muses, though I will warn you, there is no happy endings with that gay ghost girl! Haha

In terms of non-romance though, FRIENDS!!! I love friends and I love enemies!! I am open and happy to do all of it, including slow burns that go from enemies to friends to enemies again! Relationships are MESSY but so am I! Haha

Also Sally would kill, murder and maim for Rosie, Ellie or little Sarah. Do you want to see why they feared her so terribly as the nurse?? Cause if you mess with the girlies, SHE WILL SHOW YOU AND THEN SOME! Haha

[atomicdela-au]

Alrighty we back again bois

It is time for talking about the TMC characters, and what their roles are within this AU. I’m gonna give a brief description of each character is at right now for their development. I’m not going to go within detail about the characters backstories because that would make this post WAY too long lol

(Note all of these characters are going to be in alphabetical order)

Adam Murray

Probably my favorite character that I am having the most fun writing for within this AU. Not because that Adam is my favorite character from TMC originally (Yeah, I know everyone hates him Lmao) but his story that I came up for him was an interesting take on his character.

In the first act of the AU he isn’t so much a major character, but rather of a bridge between both acts. Adam is more of a major character within the second act of the AU.

Archangel Gabriel

Within this AU there is a plot between the alternates we know and love. To put it in simple terms, there is this build up plot of during the years after the bombs had dropped, the USDOTP (Known as the United States Of Temporal Phenomenon) have been trying to build themselves back together after the attack/war that had occurred.

Throughout the story, especially second act there are mention of rumors that the department was undergoing some tests or experiments with a new type of creature or monster that had emitted from the radiation. And these creatures are known as the alternates.

The rumors that people have been spreading across the wastes had to do with the fact that the department was subjecting humans with extracted alternate DNA (Yeah I know, it’s weird but bare with me) because it was known that alternates are tough to kill. Perhaps you can even call them immortal.

And I know that I am spoiling one of if not the biggest twist of the story but those rumors turn out to be true.

But what does this have to do with Archangel Gabriel? Well with this AU, Gabriel is not the embodiment of Satan like he is originally in TMC.

Gabriel was one of the first humans to be conducted underneath this test. And before he was experimented his human name was Gabriel Jackson.

(I know I said that I wasn’t going to do any backstory talk but I had to give context as to why Archangel Gabriel was referred to Gabriel Jackson in this AU.)

Cesar Torres

Cesar is definitely one of the major characters in the first act. But he is not a major character in the second. He is a supporting character to Mark Heathcliff.

More on him later with the backstory post that I eventually do.

David Lee (Or Dave Lee)

David is not much of a major character in act one, but certainly is in act two. It is due to the fact of with his association with MandelaTECH in this AU. Along with his work with work with Thatcher. Can’t really say much else than this, I did not really develop him so much yet.

Evelin Miller

Like Dave, Evelin is in the same boat. Her only development of right now is just the “Girlfriend Role” but soon enough I’ll get around to developing more stuff for her.

6/Intruder (Also known as Hugo Zamora)

Just like Gabriel, 6 or known famously as the Intruder also underwent the same experiment by the USDOTP. He was the sixth person to undergo this test (haha see why I put him as the sixth one?).

Also ALSO like Gabriel, I gave the Intruder a human name, which is Hugo Zamora. (I know it’s a weird name but I think it’s interesting)

As for his role, Hugo is a minor character in the first act but more of a major role in the second act. This is due to his affiliation with Adam Murray.

Jonah Marshall

Like Adam, Jonah is a major character in the second arc of the story. In this AU he shares a backstory with Adam too, and I really like how I have built their dynamic so far for both of them.

Like Cesar, he is a supporting role.

Jonny (The Cat)

Yes, this is the fucking cat Jonny.

All I have for him so far is that somewhere in the second act, Adam adopts a cat and names him…well Jonny.

Jude Murray

Ah yes, Jude Murray. Also known as Adam’s Father. He briefly appears in the first arc, but not isn’t a major character in the second arc. I can’t say much about him either yet, since again I’m leaving

Lynn Murray

Like Jude, Lynn appears briefly in the first arc, but isn’t major in the second. But she is mentioned by Adam in the second arc. After all, it is Adam’s mother.

Mark Heathcliff

Good old Mark Heathcliff is a MAJOR character in the first part of the AU. He is the center character. Not only is he a central character in the first arc, but he is also a major character in the second arc as well, which is neat.

Mervin Marshall

I know Mervin is a joke character but fuck it. I don’t care what anyone says lol

Mervin has the last name Marshall, which I like to head cannon that he is related to Jonah Marshall in someway. So that deems Mervin to be Jonah’s father in this AU. So far what I got planned for him is that he is a major character in the second arc due to his relation to Jonah.

But I had the idea of Mervin also making an appearance in the first part too.

N (The Alternate)

Ah yes, another well known alternate, N.

Just like Gabriel and the Intruder (Or Hugo) I gave the same thing to N. His human name was Ethan Sutton, but once he was injected with the alternate DNA he was given the alternate name of N, but was given another name named Nemesis.

After Gabriel he was the second one to undergo the experiments.

Ruth Weaver

Ruth Weaver is a supporting role in the first part, due to her affiliation with Thatcher Davis. But she is not a big role in the second part.

Sarah Heathcliff

Sarah definitely is a supporting character in the first arc but then picks up her character in the second arc because of the relation with her brother Mark and of course Adam and Jonah.

Stanley (Or Stanley Zamora)

I know that Stanley is the same person as the Intruder, but hear me out. There is a story dynamic that I am sticking with for this AU. I thought to make Stanley and Hugo (The Intruder in this AU) as twin brothers. Both of the brothers underwent the same experimentations.

Although Hugo was the sixth person to be experimented, Stanley was the Fourth. More on their backstory later when I get around to post more about the characters.

Thatcher Davis

Like Ruth, Thatcher appears in the first part briefly. But the difference is that he becomes more of a major character in the second half. More on him later too.

The Preacher

The Preacher (Or her Human name in this AU is Amelia Phillips) also underwent the experimentations. She went after Gabriel and N, making her the third person.

Like a bunch of other characters I do not have much to say about her either until I talk about backstory.

Other Characters (Mostly fan-made to help the story along):

James Heathcliff

James Heathcliff Mark and Sarah’s father in this AU.

Michelle Heathcliff

Michelle Heathcliff Mark and Sarah’s mother in this AU.

Kimberly Marshall

Kimberly Marshall is Jonah’s mother in this AU.

Sebastian Torres

Sebastian Torres is the father of Cesar in this AU.

Milena Torres

Milena Torres is Cesar’s mother in this AU.

That’s about it for characters. I know, it’s pretty boring but soon enough I’ll make a post about their background lore is about soon (not sure when but I know it’s one of my priorities to post about.)

I know it’s sorta spoilers but oh what the hell. Who cares about spoilers.

Anyway thanks for taking the time to read this SUPER long post. See y’all in the next one.

#Atomicdela #mandela catalogue #atomicdela au #mandela catalouge au #history au #jonah marshall #adam murray #There are SO MANY CHARACTERS #this tag list would be super long if I included all of them in here #mark heathcliff #cesar torres

[orangerosebush]

(I am putting this in its own post, as I realize it could be derailing the post I replied to, oops)

When dealing with the "rules" that govern the fairy characters' lives in AF, there are moments where the folklore appears to have some overlap with Christian religious elements, despite the People being tied to Irish folklore. To this I'd say: of course the fairy from book one is hurt by holy water -- because there is no (record of) Irish mythology or folklore that isn't syncretic!

Due to a variety of factors, the records on Irish folklore exist as a melange of the historical, 'pure/unchanged' pagan practices (which is a very fraught idea due to some things in the historical record) of Ireland and the forms of Christianity brought to the area throughout history.

After all, superstitions about the fairy folk being able to be warded off by holy water exist outside of Artemis Fowl lore, as Colfer blends the cultural past of Ireland with his vision of a techno-optimistic future to create the world of the books. But to return to the question in this post: If Irish folklore is Irish folklore, why then are there similarities between quirks of Christian belief and some of the quirks of that folklore? Because Christianity in Ireland (and I will use 'Ireland' to refer to the entirety of the island) exists in both the form of mainstream, codified religion AND in diffused cultural/ folklore forms.

With the Norman Invasion of Ireland in the 12th century, the Anglo-Normans forcibly transformed Ireland into a Christian territory. It is true that Christianity existed in Ireland before the Norman Invasion — the introduction of Christianity to Ireland dates to sometime before the 5th century, presumably in interactions with Roman Britain, and there’s an archeological record of this with sites like the monastery of Skellig Michael. With the Norman Invasion, however, Irish pagan practices were stamped out in the process of securing Anglo-Norman control over the island. In Ireland, many of the Pagan religious practices that existed before the Norman Invasion were kept orally amongst the Irish people, and pre-invasion history was so intertwined with Irish mythology that in the attempt to Christianize the island, history and mythology were lost or edited.

When myths and history were written down by monks who came over from Britain, the mythology underwent deforming edits due to the monks feeling squeamish about transcribing pagan mythology without denouncing it or reframing it within a Christian framework. The written history that has survived from this era is therefore limited, and what does exist, may exist in various forms due to myths being transcribed in various different ways by different monks who chose to include different elements from the same myth. Any history that would’ve survived orally is limited, too, due to the speaking of the Irish language and practicing of pagan religion being criminalized. The Statutes of Kilkenny in 1366 commanded that “if any English, or Irish living among the English, use the Irish language amongst themselves, contrary to this ordinance, and thereof be attainted, his lands and tenements, if he have any, shall be seized into the hands of his immediate lord”.

Thus, Irish mythology and folklore often adopted characteristics of Christian theology and folklore in order to become “acceptable” and to be allowed to survive as cultural forms of thought.

This is how you get things like the following version of the Tír na nÓg, an Irish myth/story. Tír na nÓg is the story of Oisín, a member of the Fianna warrior band from the Fenian Cycle of Irish mythology, who falls in love with the otherworldly princess Niamh. The pair elope to the princess’s magical homeland, but eventually Oisín grows homesick and embarks on a journey to visit his loved ones in Ireland. Once he gets there, however, he realizes that the three years which had passed in the fairy world have numbered a devastating 300 in reality. In some versions of Tír na nÓg, Oisín ends up dying from grief, but this version of Tír na nÓg? It has a striking difference in that the Tír na nÓg story explicitly states that not only is Oisín left with an Ireland in which all his friends and family are long dead, but also that Oisín is met with a newly-Christian Ireland. As Oisín himself starts to rapidly age, making up for the 300 years he missed, St. Patrick appears and baptizes him, granting him passage to Heaven.

There’s also the 12th-century text (note: 12th century!! The birth of the text coinciding with a newly post-Invasion Ireland is no coincidence) of Acallam na Senórach, or Tales of the Elders of Ireland, where St. Patrick and various figures from Irish mythology (I think Oisín is included) discuss the importance of successfully melding the old ways of pre-Christian Ireland with the new Christian morals and values brought by missionaries.

It follows, then, that the folklore with which Colfer was working has many ‘Christian’ aspects to it, as that is a feature of Irish mythology itself.

One of the frameworks employed in Irish mythology is that at a certain point, the old gods diminished in power as the island entered the age of Christian belief. These gods became the fairy folk, who retreated underground and who interact with the human world increasingly less frequently with the march of progress. Similarly, I think you can read the People in Artemis Fowl as being a mirror of the historical progression of belief systems and mythology in Ireland.

I mean, Holly mentions being related to Cupid in the first book, and at one point in the historical record, the Greeks and Romans did have contact with the Celtic people! After all, there’s research as well about the similarities across archetypal figures in the pre-Invasion Irish pantheon and in the Roman pantheon, suggesting not only the presence of Christianity within Irish folklore, but also the presence of beliefs from Antiquity.

Tl;dr — Colfer’s worldbuilding of fairy religion Looks Like That because Irish folklore Looks Like That (kind of)

Sources:

Daibhi O Croinin - Early Medieval Ireland 400-1200-Routledge (2016)

Colum, Padraic. A Treasury of Irish Folklore: the Stories, Traditions, Legends, Humor, Wisdom, Ballads and Songs of the Irish People. Wings Books, 1992.

#artemis fowl #long post #religion mention

[sonicasura]

Wolf Father and Werehog Son

More stuff based on this idea. Usually this stuff goes in my side blog but since I posted the first part here and it wasn't a full fledged idea...here we are. Basically this a summary of various changes that came with Sonic coming into Twilight's life.

Sonic- Adopted by Twilight around 13 years old and is about 16 when the Chain arrives. Stands around Time's height in normal form, around 7'1 in Werehog form. Helps the village by either herding goats, collecting herbs or deliver packages. Sonic tends to switch to his Werehog whenever he feels like it.

Can decently swim thanks to the combined efforts of Prince Ralis and Twilight, although he still prefers to stay on land or run on water. Quite well known around Hyrule for his incredible speed but only certain people know about his Werehog form(especially the Gorons as he wrestles them in Werehog form.) One of the few to considered an honorary Gerudo and Twili.

Due to his adaptability involving foreign energies and the positive view from Hyrule's Hero, Sonic becomes the new holder to the Triforce of Power. This grants him access to various transformations that his iterations underwent on their own journeys. It is mostly intertwined with Sonic's emotions similar to the how the Chaos Emeralds react before positive or negative emotions.

Transformations: Super, Hyper, Dark, Darkspine, Excalibur, Werehog and Colors(simplified term for every form)

Forms like Excalibur and Colors require mediums to properly channel. Colors ended up creating a Wisp of each color including White, which has no form, for Sonic to use. They usually stay in Ordon Village until Sonic calls them(or they act like ducklings around Twilight)

White Wisp- Gleam

Red Wisp- Flair

Orange Wisp- Pel

Yellow Wisp- Bee

Blue Wisp- Viva

Cyan Wisp- Link Jr

Green Wisp- Drift

Pink Wisp- Krash

Violet Wisp- Iris

Purple Wisp- Fang

Indigo Wisp- Orbit

Crimson Wisp- Frei

Magenta Wisp- Beat

Black Wisp- Bang

Jade Wisp- Flo

Ivory Wisp- Spark

Grey Wisp- Stele

Twilight- Ranch hand and Gardener currently raising one hedgehog son alongside eighteen Wisp kids. Has the dad bod plus adoption papers to prove it. Also has toe beams alongside paw pads after constant use of Wolf Link during his journey. Remodel his tree house abit to fit his new family and created a large garden(to provide more but also a good stress reliever)

Twilight acted as a temporary ambassador for the Twili when an incident with Darkspine Sonic had reopen a stable connection between both realms. His house has two guests, usually reserved for Midna and Ooccoo alongside her son Ooccoo Jr due to frequent visits.

Tends to roam around in Wolf form, something now known amongst the village alongside a select few. (This development is a result of constant encouragement from Sonic.) Has a special 'den' for alone times whenever things get too much.

Called the 'Rainbow Man' due to the Wisps' duckling habits which leaves speedy rainbows in their wake. Twilight hung up the Master Sword and uses a broadsword until the Chain appears.

Ordon Village- More lively and bigger village as some Twili join the population post Darkspine Sonic incident with a few Gerudo following after thanks to a certain blue blur. Ordon was made more suitable for everyone thanks to combined efforts of the villagers, Twilight's family and acquaintances. Plans are being discussed to turn the area surrounding the Arbiter's Grounds into a village or colony.

Darkspine Sonic incident- Not much is known about this occurrence as the only few witnesses prefer to keep their mouths shut. What can be said is the mysterious transformation, Darkspine Sonic, opened a stable connection between the Twilight Realm and Hyrule.

Warp Point- The Chain were definitely unprepared for the strange additions to their quest. Luckily these newcomers come with a much needed gift. Thanks to the combined work of Sonic, Midna, the Wisps and Ooccoo, a warp point to Twilight's Era is now available to them.

It leads to a personal house project jokingly called the Wolf's Den. This secret cabin located in a small alcove within Ordon Forest serves the purpose of a (temporary) hideout for the Chain. Plans about creating warp points in the other eras are being discussed with Wild's era as the next plausible target.

That's all I have for now! Figured I sum up some of the interesting stuff but save some goodies for later. Until next time folks, continue to reach for the stars and I'll see you back in Hyrule!

@hermitdrabbles56

#sonicasura #loz #loz link #legend of zelda link #legend of zelda #loz tp #legend of zelda twilight princess #linked universe #linked universe related #sonic #sonic the hedgehog #sonic series #sth #sonic wisps #wolf father and werehog son #sonic the werehog

[hellshire-harlot]

More Sadiya facts because I just finished the game woop woop!

I decided that at her time of being sacrificed, she is 15 (by human standards). As she grows the Cult, Agnus Dei, she gets older. She’s 16-17 when she defeats Leshy and Heket, 19 when she beats Kallamar, and 20 when Shamura falls. By the time she’s usurped Nariner, she’s just about 21.

As her story progresses, Sadiya very slowly begins to care for her Followers more than she used to. Particularly the younger ones; any children born into Agnus Dei she takes care of to the best of her abilities. She also was taught by her family to respect and appreciate her elders, leading her to enforce that trait on her Followers. By the time she’s defeated Narinder, she’s come to see her Followers as more of a family (though she’d never admit it).

One of the main ways Sadiya expresses this compassion is when a Follower dies naturally (old age/disease). She buries them as quickly as possible and holds a funeral for them as soon as she’s able. The flowers on the graves are placed there by her. She regularly visits the graves to collect the devotion. She sees it as a final reward of sorts; they gave all they had to her, even if she doesn’t like them, she honors their loyalty and devotion with a proper burial and, she hopes, a peaceful afterlife.

Sadiya’s family, as I mentioned in a previous post, was slaughtered right in front of her. At the time, she was 14. She managed to survive on her own for about a year before being found and captured by Heket in Anura. She underwent a very drastic personality change after taking on the Red Crown; before her sacrifice, she was timid, meek, and kind, and very openly compassionate to the point of naïveté. After her death, however, the darkness inside her was unleashed. She had absolutely nothing left to lose anymore, not even her own life. She became violent, manipulative, and angry at pretty much everyone. No ‘mercy and forgiveness’ arcs for Sadiya; she takes great pleasure in revenge and avenging the eradication of her race.

After defeating Narinder, she was very tempted to kill him, especially because he threatened the lives of her family Followers. But she decided she was still indebted to him, after all, he saved her from death and gave her a second chance; she decided the fair choice was to give him the same. She later went back for Baal and Aym, who she had gotten kind of attached to over her visits to Narinder’s realm.

She had a spouse when Narinder was brought to Agnus Dei. She sent them away on a Mission, hoping they would die. When they returned safely, she began to distance herself from them until she ultimately decided to sacrifice them. Shortly after, she married Narinder and became the adoptive mother of Aym and Baal. She realized pretty quickly after sparing Narinder that he was one of the only people she really, truly cared about. She had grown to care for her Followers in her own way, but they were still disposable, first and foremost. Narinder was not. Even though he, like her, is functionally immortal, she is fiercely protective of him and their children. After marrying him, she never took another spouse.

After defeating the Four Bishops, Sadiya’s rage finally began to cool. She had avenged her family and her species; their souls could rest peacefully now that their murderers were dead. Though their Cultists would always be a threat, she didn’t see them as the ones wholly responsible for their deaths. She knows the ones who personally killed her family are long dead by her hand. An eye for an eye has been taken. Now that they’re gone, she can work on things she really wants to- maintaining Agnus Dei, learning from Ratau, spending time with her husband and children, and exploring. She always loved seeing new things, and even though her rage gave her some tunnel vision, she greatly enjoyed taking in the new realms she explored. Her personal favorite is Darkwood, mostly because it’s where she was born. Anura has too many bad memories for her and Anchordeep is too wet for her tastes (she hates it when her wool gets wet). The Silk Cradle is her second favorite, she really likes the atmosphere.

Sadiya would literally never admit it but Sozo fucking terrifies her. She’s so freaked out by him for real. She walks into the Spore Grotto literally like that one meme of the lady laughing nervously and going ‘WHAT THE FUCK?????’

Whenever she goes to visit Ratau for Knucklebones she tells the Cult she’s going on a crusade but in reality she’s going to gossip and gamble with her New Dad

Sadiya hates Midas’ cave. The whole atmosphere freaks her out. It’s the Vibe, the Vibe is wrong and she Doesn’t Like That

#Cult of the Lamb #Narinder #the one who waits #cotl aym #cotl Baal #narilamb #Ratau #cotl Ratau #Agnus Dei chronicles #cotl #cotl sozo #cult tw #death tw #OC: Sadiya #the lamb #cotl lamb #Sadiya #Hellshire heresy

[tempportal]

psychology + mental health : deep dive!

general mental health related trigger warnings apply.  feel free to include more or exclude those facts / test results that take too much time or don’t apply, you can check out this list for more personality-related quizzes to include!

quick facts.

diagnoses. due to his aversions to mental health services, Five has never tried to secure any kind of formal diagnosis for himself, and it’s highly likely that he never will, but that does not mean these diagnoses don’t exist despite his personal opinions on the matter — Five underwent multiple psychiatric evaluations and examinations when he joined the Commission, as all new recruits are expected to do, but the results and observations went straight to the Handler, not to him.

though Five himself does not know it, and would likely refuse to believe it if he ever accessed his Commission file, the final consensus is that he suffers from C-PTSD, or complex post-traumatic stress disorder, and IED, or intermittent explosive disorder, as well as obsessive-compulsive tendencies, self-destructive tendencies, persecutory delusional disorder, panic attacks, and alcohol addiction.

triggers. as a result of the unethical experimental procedures he endured at the hands of the Commission, Five can’t venture inside hospitals, doctor’s offices, or dentist’s offices, or he’ll suffer a severe panic attack — even the Academy infirmary is off-limits for him, as the faintest smell of antiseptic or the briefest glimpse of a surgical scalpel will upset him. when the situation is truly critical, however (such as when Viktor slashed Allison’s throat in S1) he’ll typically suppress his panic responses on blind reflex, effortlessly and unconsciously compartmentalizing the trauma for hours, or even days, at a time.

other triggers include : the sight of fire & the smell of smoke, the flash feature on cameras, the genuine or perceived scarcity of the bare essentials (such as food, water, and medical supplies), unexpected or uninvited physical contact from others, (particularly on his shoulders, back, neck, face & legs), performing sexual acts with others, pornographic videos, and physical confinement.

positive coping skills. despite his stated commitment to a fresh start with his family, Five does pay regular visits to Dolores in her department store, and he’ll often discuss his problems with her, quickly coming up with healthier alternatives and solutions to these issues thanks to her input. 

additionally, Mr. Pennycrumb quickly becomes a kind of emotional support / therapy animal for him, providing the affection and comfort he refuses to ask for, and occasionally even bringing out his long-buried inner child. Five is noticeably calmer and happier after he’s adopted the dog, and the two of them go practically everywhere together, even sleeping in the same bed at night.

negative coping skills. Five’s knee-jerk reaction to stressful or frightening situations is to reach for the alcohol bottle, and the stronger, the better, but he also willfully neglects his own physical welfare so long as it quiets the mental dilemma — for instance, he often suffers vivid, terrifying nightmares about his past in the apocalypse and his days in the Commission, and his solution to the problem is simply don’t go to sleep. in that vein, he typically resolves his frequent anxieties over the potential dearth of food & water with twenty-four to forty-eight hours’ total abstinence, and he has a secret, hidden hoard of bottled water, canned rations & emergency medical supplies in his closet, as it’s the only solution he’s found to ease his worries.

aside from these habits, he also engages in other self-destructive behaviors on a fairly regular basis : he often lashes out at his family and friends when he’s extremely upset or frightened, in an attempt to alienate them and isolate himself from others, and on particularly severe occasions, he deliberately seeks out sexual encounters with others in a subconscious effort to relive his unwanted relationship with the Handler.

attachment style. disorganized-avoidant / fearful-avoidant

love language. quality time and acts of service (to give) and quality time (to receive)

myers-briggs / mbti. intj

are their diagnoses formal (via a doctor or therapist) or informal (self-diagnosis, a hunch, unrealized)? as stated above, Five did receive a formal diagnosis in his earliest days at the Commission, but he knows nothing about it, and he would probably become defensive, or even furious, if anyone ever tried to tell him.

have they ever been treated / medicated? due to his prolonged isolation, Five had become unaccustomed to ordinary stimuli such as strangers, large crowds, and physical contact with his fellow humans, so the Commission inflicted several weeks’ worth of intense exposure therapy on him. however, this treatment only heightened Five’s aversions and anxieties in the long term.

have they ever been hospitalized or treated on an inpatient basis? no.

how old were they when they first started experiencing / realizing symptoms? before he ever jumped into the apocalypse, he had a fairly intense panic attack when he was around eleven or twelve due to an incident of abuse at his father’s hands, but he brushed it off as a one-time occurrence, and never discussed it with anyone else.

do they have a family history of mental illness? not exactly in the biological sense, but his adoptive father displays a few symptoms consistent with post-traumatic stress disorder, and all his adoptive siblings have mental health problems of their own.

how was mental health handled / discussed in the family / community? it wasn’t, really. the atmosphere of constant, cutthroat competition in the Academy meant that any admission of mental distress would be ruthlessly exploited as a perceived weakness.

what are their thoughts on their mental health / their diagnosis? to tell the truth, Five doesn’t consciously realize that he’s struggling with mental illnesses, which often results in some pretty extreme frustration with himself over his symptoms — everyone knows that he’s a genius, everyone knows that he’s the logical and rational and reasonable one, so he can’t fathom why he frequently acts in such unreasonable ways. he catches the scent of an antiseptic ointment, and all of a sudden, he’s shaking and sweating and scared, and he’s got to get away from the smell before he throws up. he heads to the front of the library with an armful of books and his card in his hand, and the lady behind the counter is perfectly nice, but she’s got ice-blonde hair and bright red lipstick, and the next thing he knows, he’s dropped all those books on the patterned carpet, and he’s outside on the concrete steps with his head in his hands, trying like hell not to hyperventilate. he has a particularly realistic nightmare about the apocalypse, on his knees in the rubble with the cold corpses of his family all around him, and even when he wakes up in his childhood bedroom with Mr. Pennycrumb beside him, it still takes him the rest of the night to convince himself that he really is home, and he will never have to go back.

but he could endure these symptoms just as he endured the perils of the apocalypse, and the horrors of the Commission, if he only had a logical explanation for them. if anyone could ever persuade him to confront the fact that his mental health problems really are mental health problems, and this is not any kind of character flaw or personal shortcoming or intellectual deficiency, then Five would have a far better handle on his issues.

in what ways has their diagnosis shaped their life or experiences? due to the fact that he’s never actually accessed the diagnosis he received, it’s safe to say that it hasn’t affected him whatsoever.

symptoms. note that all of the below, on their own, are normative and typical aspects of human functioning. they become symptoms when they last longer than normal, or when they pose a significant impact on someone’s life / functioning.

bold all that are present, italicize those that are resolved, or in the past.

depression. anxiety. panic attacks. disassociation. derealization.    depersonalization.    suicidal ideation.    self harm.    homicidal ideation.    psychosis.    auditory hallucinations.    visual hallucinations.    delusions.    mania.    hypomania.    racing thoughts.    hyperactivity.    attention difficulty.    flashbacks.    nightmares.    hyperarousal.    hypoarousal.    hypersexuality.    hyposexuality.    psychopathy.   risky behavior.    catatonia.    somatic / bodily concerns.    mutism.    phobia.    agoraphobia.    hoarding.    obsessions.    compulsions.    body dysmorphia.    hair picking.    skin picking.     amnesia.    illness anxiety / hypochondria.    sensory loss.    speech difficulty.    comprehension difficulty.    communication difficulty.    tics.    defiant behavior.    irritable mood.    vindictiveness.     aggression.    pyromania.    kleptomania.    paranoia.    attention seeking.    narcissism.    avoidance.    dependency.    pica.    rumination.    food restriction.    food binging.    purging.    soiling the bed.    insomnia.    fatigue.    sexual dysfunction.    delirium.    developmental delays.

explorations / elaborations on any of the above symptoms:

the majority of five’s symptoms are largely self-explanatory, trauma-based, and present in his character throughout the canon series itself, but there are a small handful here and there that might need a little bit of expansion. for example, his disassociation emerged in the earliest days of the apocalypse, as a way to separate himself from the physical agonies he endured — the sensation of suffocation due to the smoke, the constant hunger and starvation, the various injuries and wounds — but this particular problem hit its stride, so to speak, when he joined the Commission, and had to silently suffer the painful experimental procedures at the hands of the surgeons, and the Handler’s sexual advances as well.

as the suicidal ideation was simply a result of his environment, and the hopeless mindset he’d allowed himself to fall into, Five no longer struggles with this symptom whatsoever now that he’s returned home to his family — after all, he never truly wanted to die, he just wanted to be with his siblings again — and the same statement holds true for his visual hallucinations. once he’s left the endless, oppressive isolation of the apocalypse, these behaviors disappear fairly quickly. on the other hand, the auditory hallucinations persist long after he returns home, as he continues to carry on entire conversations with Dolores, and “hear” her responses. the homicidal ideation only presents itself during his monthly aggression cycle (though his siblings would certainly argue otherwise).

unlike the vast majority of his symptoms, his struggles with hyposexuality can’t merely be boiled down to severe trauma — his asexuality is a perfectly natural aspect of his personality, and it would be a part of him even if he had never ended up in the apocalypse, but the disgust and repulsion he experiences during sexual acts does stem from the Handler’s unwanted advances.

tagged by: @immortalled​​ (thank you!! it was so cool to see such a thoughtful, nuanced take on nathan’s psyche!)

tagging: @theseancekid​​ @dvarapala​​ @chaoslulled​​ @creelsclocks​​ @seancez​​ @thenightmareofyourdrems​​ @littleshcp​​ @greatwrath​​ 

#@ spark i am so so so sorry that this took me such an embarrassingly long time to complete 😭 #tag game #that's one badass stapler! ; ( headcanons ) #a first rate pragmatist ; ( meta )

[malcriada]

heads up, long personal post dealing with pet loss and grief

exactly one year ago i lost my sweet baby P. to cancer. she had beaten it once before but this time it had spread too much and was too big to be removed completely. even chemotherapy would have not been able to cure her, just prolong her life (probably).

she came to me as a chronically ill foster with complications from a first (botched) cancer removal surgery. we had to go to the vet together a LOT and she had to go through multiple additional surgeries. here is a picture of her in her hated cone she had to wear so often.

she was a stray, missing all her teeth and bleeding out of one ear when a neighbor who frequently fed her took her to the vet. she saved her life by doing so. there P. was diagnosed with cancer and underwent surgery to have the mass in her ear removed. they did a procedure called total ear canal ablation which rendered her partially deaf. during the surgery a nerve was damaged which led to her right eye not being able to close fully anymore (after this she needed multiple daily ointments to keep her eye from drying out). the surgery wasn’t done very cleanly and some cartilage remains were left inside her, which led to her having frequent abscesses.

despite all her issues and her age (she probably was a senior already) she adapted so well to life in my home, together with J., another foster she had lived with before. both of them came to my home in july 2018. here they are together, being adorable little menaces.

despite them not being the best of friends; J. was a lot younger and more active, he wanted to play, she just wanted to relax and sleep, they tolerated each other. while she was shy and withdrawn the first month after moving in, she underwent a total transformation shortly after and i could clearly see her sassy personality shining through more and more. she gained so much confidence, climbing on top of everything, hissing and swatting at the much bigger and stronger J. and of course demanding love and cuddles from me.

i never intended to adopt them. they were always meant to be my temporary fosters. but after 2 years, when i still hadn't found potential adopters, i decided to keep them. at this point i was deeply in love with both of them already and couldn’t have let them go anymore.

is it silly that i related to P. the cat and started to project my own issues onto her? probably, lol. but a cat that had such a hard past and numerous health issues just seemed like a perfect fit for me. i related to her hardships and was determined to do everything in my power to make the rest of her life comfortable. i knew she was not going to be in my life forever and that our time together was probably very short, so i decided to make every day extra special. i pampered her as much as i could, fed her the best food i could afford, went to the vet regularly and tried my best so she could have a nice and relaxing rest of her life.

she loved to sleep and she loved warmth (another thing we had in common lol). she would lay outside on my balcony in the searing heat (that made me panic a bit and i tried to get her to come inside again lol), loved to lay on top of heated pillows and comforters. but most of all she loved to cuddle. she would lay on top of me and burrow her face into my chest.

we spent ~3,5 years together and with every passing day my love for her grew. it became clear to me that she loved me just as much. she wanted to be close to me, loved sleeping on top of me and was the first cat i managed to successfully calm down while at the vet. i have never been able to do this before. if i put my face close to her, she started purring, even without me touching her. one time after one of her surgeries she was extremely distraught and scared, but after i opened her carrier in the backseat of my mothers car she wobbled out, still shaky from the anesthesia and into my arms immediately. she proceeded to lay on top of me and i stroked her fur, kissed her little head till she fell asleep, purring.

here she is, being an adorable little distraction while i was working on my computer. obviously i was too much of a sucker to ever say no to her.

in 2021 her cancer came back, this time in her other ear. she had to have a second total ear canal ablation and was pretty much deaf afterwards. there was one specific whistling i did whenever it was time for food that she could sense the vibrations of i think? that made it so she came running to the kitchen lol. i tried to adjust to this new life with her. in fall of 2021 i noticed a lump near her ear and took her to the vet immediately. the vet took a tissue sample and confirmed it was cancer. again. (still?). i payed a lot of money for a CT scan to make sure another surgery would really remove *all* of her tumor and not just part of it. i really thought we would beat this again and finally be done with it.

unfortunately this turned out to be very, very wrong. i was awaiting a call of her vet telling me the date of her upcoming surgery. he did call, but immediately told me he had bad news. her tumor was too large to be removed completely, possibly fused with her bones already. there was nothing that could be done. chemotherapy would only serve to prolong her life, not cure her. at first i was adamant at trying out whatever, just for a chance to have her with me for longer till i realized how incredibly selfish that was.

she hated the vet, she hated every procedure that had been done to her so far. there was no chance to cure her cancer, as multiple vets told me (if there had been i'd have gladly plunged myself into debt to pay for her chemo). her vet gently recommended not doing any other procedures and just wait till she was sick enough to be euthanized. he told me as long as she wasn’t in too much pain and still eating, we could just try to enjoy our remaining time together.

those last few months with her were among the most painful times of my life. her cancer advanced very quickly, i could see her tumor grow as the weeks went by. but she was on pain killers, still eating and overall had more good than bad days. during all of this i monitored her and kept in close contact with her vet to assess her quality of life.

as the months went by, i noticed a change in her behavior. she wasn’t able to sleep properly anymore, just doze off a little bit. her favorite resting spot was on top of me, where she managed to sleep a bit more than otherwise. though she was still eating i sensed it was time to let her go. i never wanted her to suffer and was always adamant that her life shouldn’t be prolonged more than necessary if her qol declined too much. in my mind it was better to euthanize too early than too late.

on december the 2nd i called the vet. he came to my apartment free of charge and performed the euthanasia there which was an incredible gesture i will never forget. on this day, shortly before the vet arrived, she was still purring and looking for me, wanting to be pet. this only made me cry harder lol. no matter how bad she felt, she still sought me out because i made her feel safe (sometimes i can't comprehend how this little animal could love me so much lol). when the vet came, i gave her a big spoonful of butter to lick (her favorite treat that she wasn’t allowed very often lol). after giving her the first injection he told me to take my time and say my goodbyes. i stayed next to her while she was struggling to stand and trying not to fall asleep. stroking her fur i told her i loved her very, very much and she was my special little girl. i told her to not be scared, that i‘d be by her side always. when she fell asleep i carried her with me to the sofa, where the vet gave the second injection that stopped her heart. i don't think she felt a thing. she fell asleep peacefully, while being in my home where she felt safe. i like to think i was able to give her a good death.

after the vet left a good friend of mine came over and she took this picture of the two of us. some may say this is morbid but i wanted one last picture of us together before burying her and saying goodbye forever.

this is the longest post i have ever written on tumblr and it’s about my very good friend P. who unfortunately went away from me and broke my heart in the process. i still miss and cry over her every single day because i love her so, so much.

if you’ve read this far: thank you. i‘m bad at socializing and connecting with others on here (partially bc of the tism but also by the way tumblr is designed lol) so there is a good chance we are not close and you’re just reading the babbles of a random tumblr user that mean nothing to you. but to my like, 10 followers and mutuals on here that are still active: meet P., she was a sweet and kind cat and every friend of mine who met her fell in love with her instantly. she was a real cuddlebug and so very loving (she never bit or scratched anyone, not even the vet who she was terrified of).

i think i will miss her till the day i die.

some other random pictures of her:

she looked pretty rough when she came to her first foster home (not me) but i like to think we helped her achieve a pretty good transformation. first pic is her after her (first) cancer surgery. second pic is her after living with me for a while ♥️

some other favorite pics include these of our cuddle sessions. we had this thing where she would press her head against my chin when she was laying on top of me.

despite her old age she was still playful and enjoyed a good hunting session. not for too long though, lol

she was a sweet and curious girl and this is how i'll choose to remember her.

#txt #grief #pet loss #animal death #P.

[readingrobin]

A little late, but I thought I would throw my hat in the ring for @logarithmicpanda's readathon going on this month. Since I have summer reading going on at my work (which is a stiff competition and can be a bit cut throat), it seems natural to tag along with this little challenge.

I've already done a fair bit of reading, so I'll do a quick update as well as to what I'm working on now/hope to get to by the end of June. Hopefully I'll be able to provide updates as well. We'll see.

Books Finished Thus Far:

Two Roads by Joseph Bruchac (Indigenous author) - A middle grade post-WWI historical fiction about a half-Creek boy who lives life on the rails with his father after losing their farm, and is sent to an Indigenous residential school when is father goes to Washington D.C. to protest for veteran compensation. Focuses more on the sense of community among the Indigenous children that came out of the residential schools than the harsh and brutal treatment they underwent there, but the latter is not swept under the rug. (3.5/5)

Lore by Alexandra Bracken - Sort of a Greek mythology meets The Hunger Games. After rebelling against Zeus, the Greek gods and goddesses face a punishment that, every seven years, they lose their immortality and fall to earth, where hunters attempt to kill them and take their godhood for themselves. Worldbuilding was a bit confusing and could have used a bit more clarity in certain aspects. (2.5/5)

Half-Witch by John Schoffstall - After her magician father is tossed into jail for a spell gone wrong, Lizbet must travel beyond the treacherous Montagne du Mondes to retrieve a mysterious book to save her father. Accompanying her is the acerbic and sarcastic witch, Strix. Together they face goblins, devils, and murderous humans and both are transformed in the process. Sort of like if a Grimm's fairy tale got really self aware. Great writing and has a very Neil Gaiman tone. (4/5)

Ember and the Ice Dragons by Heather Fawcett - a middle grade fantasy adventure about a dragon turned human girl by her adoptive sorcerer father. Ember has an issue of accidentally bursting into flames at certain temperatures and so is sent to her aunt's research base in Antarctica. There, she comes across a yearly hunt for ice dragons and their priceless scales and decides to sabotage it from the inside with the help of her friends. This was a fun story with great characters and I desperately need a sequel now. (4/5)

Where the Mountain Meets the Moon by Grace Lin - In order to turn around her family's fortune, Minli embarks on a quest to find the Old Man on the Moon with the help of a flightless dragon. This was an absolutely delightful middle grade fantasy inspired by Chinese fables that I absolutely flew through it. (4.5/5)

Currently Reading:

The Library of the Dead by T.L. Huchu

The Extraordinaries by T.J. Klune

The House in the Cerulean Sea (reread) by T.J. Klune

June TBR:

Out of the Blue by Jason June

My Last Summer with Cass by Mark Crilley

The Wicked Deep by Shea Ernshaw

Iron Widow by Xiran Jay Zhao

The Carpet People by Terry Pratchett

The Grandmaster of Demonic Cultivation by Mò Xiāng Tóng Xiù

Plus others who knows

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