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kazz-brekker · 3 months
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i do think it's impressive how quickly my opinion on bedelia du maurier went from "character who is the sanest about interacting with hannibal lecter" to "character who is making the absolute worst possible decisions regarding him"
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eskititgay · 9 months
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fengqing + pork soda - glass animals
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ectonurites · 3 months
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almost 4am can't stop thinking about the meaning of the idiom 'to have blood on [someone's] hands'—to be responsible for a person's death—combined with the fact that Zach is the one we are specifically shown with Daryl's actual blood on his hands (once for real and once in a dream)... Not Josh who had been holding the sword Daryl fell onto, but Zach who took the sword out.
#super dark times#+ part of it that's insane to me is: Josh COULD have easily ALSO gotten (literal) blood on his hands—we see him go to check for a pulse#after Zach did... but we don't see his hands during that—they're left out of the shot! we just see his face. and when we see his hands next#there's no visible blood on them (if any got on he theoretically wiped 'em off ig? similarly Zach's hands when seen AFTER the shot of him#touching Daryl ALSO don't rlly show blood anymore—we see his hands in the leaves tho so it prob went there) BUT SO there was a CHOICE made#to give us a close up shot of ZACH pulling his hand away from the wound with blood on it... but to NOT do the same/smthn similar with Josh.#and yet ZACH is the one who CAN'T ACCEPT THE ROLE HE PLAYED IN ANY OF ITTTTT!!!!!!! GAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!#this post brought to you by me rewatching the Zach + Charlie on the phone scene and needing to just. stop and scream at Zach being#like 'Josh‚ or fucking somebody else‚ they went up there and if they found Daryl alive—' LIKE BRO. YOU *KNOW* HE WAS DEAD.#YOU KNOW. YOU KNOOOOW. YOU WERE THERE. YOU KNOW HE WAS ALREADY DEAD. the denial. the trying to find any fucking way that#there could be even a sliver of a possibility that it WASN'T even PARTIALLY his fault.... shifting the blame entirely onto Josh...#[plus like. the 'somebody else' only added in after Charlie was giving him shit for trying to complicate this more—at first he was#straight up saying Josh was the one that fucked with the body]... aghghghsfd he makes me INSANE#also fwiw. i'm forever a 'Josh didn't harm anyone on purpose until AFTER his fight with Zach at Zach's house' truther. that provides#at least SOME sort of motivation to push him over an edge into... the shit that happens. anything before that just fuckin' doesn't make#sense. To Me. ive already written a lot on my thoughts about all of that though [uhhh in the tags of my gifset of the fight at Zach's house#anyways. im also NOT trying to say 'ah so we should Just Blame Zach' because nah nah this whole thing was a fucked up accident. they're all#to blame. plus Josh did horrible shit at the end On His Own there's no way of getting around that—but the messiness of how Zach handled the#initial incident and how that ripples out across the whole movie is simply soooooooo... ghghGHGhghGHGhghghgh. To Me.#in conclusion: im soooooooo normal about the characters in this movie (<- lying)
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latenightsinmay · 5 days
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personal vent/problem post idk how you call those but whatever. i need to get it out somehow so fuck it. if anyone feels like going through the tags. 1st why would you do that to yourself?. 2nd help a girl out pls
#re: my last post and the 'is this how people function or is it just me' crisis so bear with me even tho its wayy too tmi and personal#yes i did try talking to one of my friends when it first became a SituationTM but she has life going on and i didnt pust bc im in denial#now its a month later and SituationTM: sequel has happened#shortest version of situation 1: a guy kissed me (and then we continued doing that for a while. but nothing more) after a date#spent the whole time thinking about what im doing. that its weird and that i probably was bad at it. only thoughts no feelings#and i walked away from there feeling very 'people like doing that????? i dont want to do it again' <- this is the problem area!#anyways short context i knew him from other things before and he started flirting with me and asked me on a date over texts#now i said yes bc he was funny and nice and i did entertain those messages bc it was fun and it felt nice#idk the protocol for this yall. how do you judge if you say yes or no to a date (that was the first time someone asked me out seriously)<-#so i was not head over heels. but also i would not say yes or make out with a stranger bc thats just weird for me personally#now SituationTM sequel: another guy i've been friends with for half a year told me a bit ago while he was drunk that he really liked me and#he knows i dont feel the same doesnt expect anything. just wants me to be aware since we're close and he values our friendship#i basically said yeah ur right im sorry. he said thats fine i'll be sad for a bit but no worries. thought u had the right to know#and the thing is we are still friends and it didnt get awkward or anything but. ofc theres a but.#problem area no1 -> he is really nice and i like him. talking to him hanging out. i feel really comfortable around him etc#but when i think about anything in a relationship sense. theres nothing there. or at least i dont recognise that there is.#ik he is hurting and trying to get over it.but i still want to hang out and wont reject him when he spends time with me or hugs me or whate#he did that before anyways. even though i feel that might be making it worse in the long term for him. but i want the hugs and company :(#and i do like that he likes me on some level? is that weird? like i like knowing that im someones fav person#and fuck it would be so much easier if i did have the same feelings. bc i do like him and i trust him and all the things.#i just dont think the feelings i have are the feelings people in relationships have. cus some of my very close friends i feel the same for.#and after the first Situation i thought ok maybe the guy is the problem. but if i try to put this one into his place. its still nopeee.#so uhhh. what the fuck do i do with me? is it the person. is it the gender. is it the relationship in general? which part isnt clicking????#i could provide additional info to help with that question but im afraid i have no relevant experience info except lack of experience#do with that what you will#if you made it to here im sorry#i will try to word vomit all of this on one of my friends later today if i get enough courage to try and go through with it#(and manage to express my emotions in my native language *gags*)
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kingspuppet · 10 months
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In regards to that last post, I also think a lot of people forget that Goro stumbled across the Metaverse when he was only 14/15. He was hurt from his mother by being completely abandoned, traumatized from his circumstances, and ultimately angry at the world (and Shido specifically) for giving him the hand that he was dealt. And so when he saw his first chance at a way out, his first chance at having that control and power to take life by the reins for himself he took it. And I believe I've stated this before, but if not I'll say it again, that Goro lacks a lot of emotional maturity. It's obvious due to the life he lived he was forced to grow up quickly. He had to in order to survive and to make a life for himself. Being independent was what he had to do because he had nobody else to help him out. He didn't have a solid parental figure outside of his mother, and even then we have no idea just how present she actually was in his life before her death. So either way he had to be mature and prove that he could handle himself and take care of what he needed. And it sounded like him stumbling upon the power of wielding a Persona was almost like a lifeline being cast out to him so he could really prove that he was more than capable. But there was nothing there to support the nurturing of Goro's emotions in a positive way, and I think that becomes very apparent when you see just how heavily he relies on anger as a crutch. So when you put together the factors of how young Goro was, his lack of emotional maturity, and how he allowed his anger to fuel him it of course will pave the way to actions that are far more petty and flawed than someone who will sit there to rationally think out their ideas. This is especially true when it's probably the first opportunity Goro has and the potential worries about never having another chance like this again. It's childish and petty, and to an extent Goro knows this. He says how it's an extremely personal grudge and how it's not for something as lofty as society. He admits to not caring about Japan or the rest of the world. All he wants is a sense of control and autonomy for himself. He was a kid who was severely hurt by the life he was forced to live and he wanted to take that back for himself. All that being said, I hate when people label him as a "psychopath" or "evil" or anything equivalent to that. Because Goro wasn't born that way. He forced himself to fit into a mold so he could survive, but that mold also served as the catalyst for acting out his plot against Shido. Anyone else who was involved was a casualty, but he only cared about getting to Shido. So if that meant doing what had to be done in order to get there and making sure there were no threats to his plans then he would do it. It was nothing more than a means to an end. And sure, he may have some very dark/crude humor (we see that when he jokes about killing Maruki), but it's obvious that after everything with Shido that he doesn't have much of an interest in continuing that path. There's no benefit in him doing that as it serves no purpose to him. He's too practical to waste time on something that doesn't serve him or his goals. At his core Goro is just exceedingly hurt. He may be overly critical, cynical, and ruthless, but Goro only ever wanted to give back what he was handed. And immediate death wouldn't serve that purpose. He wanted Shido to feel that same pain he did in whatever way that looked like. And if that meant helping Shido rise into the political seat he so desired he'd do it all so he could kick Shido back down those same steep stairs he helped him climb.
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narutomaki · 9 months
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I always get self conscious when people talk about the amount of thought the goes/went into their art because there is.
there is no upper processing happening when I'm designing a character or background. my hand starts moving and my brain shuts off. I recognize there was probably a point in my life where this WASN'T the case but. like. it's why my art is like. mostly flat and lifeless. my art is never intended to tell a story because when I intend to I get angry/frustrated to the point of wanting to break shit because it's not going right. and I've tried to tell stories with my art both comics and stand alone pieces and it all feels fake or flat or.
idk.
I've TRIED to start and finish a piece where I've made conscious choices beyond "does this look good/right" and "am I being offensive in ways I'm aware of with anything here" but it just. makes me want to scream.
I learned people told stories with their art and I tried to and I stopped drawing for 5 years despite having. before that point been doing art studies for 8 to 10 hours a day for. 2 years.
I mostly just think it's because I have nothing to. say.
I can't add anymore tags to this post??? homophobia.
any way this post is useless idk I'm just sad because people do this thing so easily and enjoy it when it makes me break down crying. I don't get it. every person I've known regardless of neurodivergency has been able to do this consciously to some degree and enjoy it and meanwhile my stupid ass is asked how/why i chose something and I just. shrug. idk
looked nice?
#idk i probably say a lot UNintentionally#but like.#idk i feel like im just being. like. whining. for no reason. like boo hoo no one cares grow up if art makes you thay mad just stop drawing#like. man i WANT to think i WANT to tell stories i intend to tell along with the things i dont pick up on but.#i also mean like. if someone looked at a piece they could pick it apart comprehensively. like#but its like. idk. im like. i think im just to stupid for it.#im the same way with media analysis to be fair. which isnt like great but like.#why did someone choose this lighting? i dont know they thought it looked good ?#i have gotten 90-100% on every single analysis and opinion piece i ever submitted in HS for English#the only time i DIDNT get over 89% on an opinipn piece is when i tried to articulate my actual feelings on a topic to go along w researc#THAT got me pulled aside and told what i had written about was inappropriate and that i should think twice#before submitting a paper with that kond of content in the future#ao i did :^) and went back to bullshitting every single thing!#the curtains were blue in this scene to indicate not sadness but instead her deep love for uhhh fuck. flips through reading material and#lands on a random page. her dog buddy who is depcited in chapter (x) seeing as buddy is usually a male dogs name we can extrapolate and say#she chose these curtain colours after his death to remind her of the dog she had lost ÷#end sentence end oaragraph submit paper withoit a secondary proof reading and lie and say i left the roigh draft at home. walk away#how did i get high grades. dude. like everyone says teachers know when a kids bullshitting but like#the teachers ATE MY SHIT UP 😑 i got used as an example of comprehensive stucture and analysis on more than one occasion#this is not me bragging this is me saying i never actually learned how to domthis stuff because i was supported in faking it#some people can do analysis like yhis on their first read through like. and remember it. how? how??? what???#whay do you mean its because you read mote than thee sparknotes and random chapters because the book didnt interest you.#'we know when you dont actually read the book?' why did you compliment me on my comprehensive opinons of the parts i didnt readm#'We know when you write it the night before?' why did you laude me as an example of dedication put into an essay when i fucked around every#single in class wotk session past the first one and frantically typed and printed that in the computer lab before class 20 minutes ago?#why!! like DUDE#its like when they say they can tell when you use wikipedia to soirce things and then lie about it#and then compliment ur sources when youbl just used wikipedias sources. witout reading them urself.#which i also did#and when they tell you not to just use google translate because they can tell. when i did and then edited a LITTLE to catch names.
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pain-in-the-butler · 2 years
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wrote out and immediately scrapped some fanfic dialogue, in which Ciel tells Sebastian that he wouldn’t mind being a demon since it seems like demons don’t need to rely on anyone else to survive, because it was giving me s2 war flashbacks
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flovverworks · 1 year
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brain fried
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zipmode · 2 years
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My vision in my left eye has a c-shaped distorting thing going on in my periphery... this is new...
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arcann · 2 years
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now that i think about it, living with zero healers on sight for almost 12 years while on Dyulgor's ship would make Taigat the type of person who only goes to the doctor until their fucking heart is falling from their nose..... huh
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deeisace · 10 months
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am i emotionally ready for a new quantum leap? i don’t think so! am i gonna watch it anyway? uhhhhh yeah
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cheswirls · 10 months
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AAAAAAAAAAAAA i didnt realize this frlg rom reset gym leader lvls to gen 1′s which means they are absolutely stacked compared to the rest of the game and i am not flying thru this so quick anymore
#i think ive logged 24 hrs now n i JUST beat koga#at least half of that time is after lavender so like leading up to and then fuchsia city#i was underleveled for surge but still overleveled for everything else#managed to beat him so i thought i was fine#beat erika by PURE CHANCE so underleveled my golbat i had been grinding happiness was the last one standing#thank god bc i didnt save and fainting drops friendship a ton and i needed a crobat#beating erika was the last luck i had in the game everything has been downhill since#i reset and challenged koga soooooooo many times#impossible to beat his muk that sets up evasiveness w minimize and high def w acid armor#CANNOT hit the thing n when you do it does nothing#finally managed by getting two shots w marowaks ground type move and making koga use both potions to restore#and then fucking went thru 3 pkmn who each know one move that is never miss and spammed them#was NOT going to deal w high evasiveness this time around#it took so many to chip away bc 2 of those pkmn have terrible stats for the move type#plus this rom has split special/physical stats but moves that raise or lower atk/def arent split#so acid armor raised def and special def and decimated me#plus uhhh the only good tms are at the game corner so ive been saving money since lavender to buy coins meaning i have none for antidote#orrrrr potions or healing items at all meaning i kinda did koga on hard mode#(this was after my first attempt where i used max revive + full restore bc i had them at the time. did NOT work)#anyway uhhh rom hard i wanted to be at cinnabar today but i think saffron comes before n yea theres no way i can get thru all of that rn
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piplupod · 1 year
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#sorry to make yet another post tonight fhdksl im just having many emotions and thoughts abt everything lately and the group tonight-#-messed me up pretty bad i think RIP dhdjdl alas#anyways i am just... wishing i could be online less. but i dont have anything irl for social system (no ability to get one either sorry)#(i have... tried. so much. for years. it just isn't happening in my current situation dhdksl)#but like. if i take away social media then i go back to just..spending all my time daydreaming and making art#which sounds great on the surface but uhh its lonely. its very very very lonely fhfkdl#i also dont have the energy i used to so i would mainly be daydreaming and thats not healthy (never was#but yknow. survival techniques fhfksl.) but im just hhhh#i feel like i make myself a fool on here#my pinned post is stupidly big and i feel like i look like a ''chronically online'' goofass (maybe i am tbh) but dbdjdl#i just want ppl to see me and Understand what im saying and where im coming from#i also want ppl to feel safe here !! if u have issues w smth i posted i want it to be clear that u can tell me so i can make this safer !!#like fhdksl idk sorry. im just fhfkdl#i dont want to isolate myself but i dont want to be online so much fhdksl it is hard when my life has been reduced to this though#i wish i had more going on but i cant physically afford to get sick again. my body is incredibly fucked up from covid still!#so i cant go out and do things#and i could go for more walks around but paranoia from trauma makes that hard (plus i need to buy bear spray but thats scary fhdkdl)#(theres an influx of bears the past few years dhfkdl i uhhh am terrified of having a bad encounter w one)#but yeah im just fhdkls idk what to do!#pippen needs 2nd breakfast
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So Daddy - LN
Request from @rbmv33 - I saw that someone gave lando a daddy bracelet. I was wondering if you could do where the reader see the bracelet and jokes around with him and calls him daddy but he doesn’t realize it’s a joke 🩷🩷
I'm sorry, I think you wanted smut. For some reason I just have no inspiration/motivation for smut rn. Idk, Idk when it'll come back to me. I'm really sorry.
Themes: Suggestions of a daddy kink
No part 2 request please
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With Lando being so much busier than usual since there's so many more fan events in Melbourne compared to the average race weekend. Y/n has been just enjoying herself wondering around getting to move around the paddock and track on her own.
But when she does finally catch him with him, he's very much latched onto her though he's caught in conversation with some other people while hugging her back against him.
She's actually just fidgeting with his hand and tidying his bracelets a little when she notices one and while there's a chance he noticed what it said, he also puts bracelets on blindly.
"Sorry, baby. I gotta go." Lando states after the conversation apparently ends.
"It's alright, daddy." Y/n shrugs meaning to sound more teasing but she figures he'll figure it out.
"I-Ok." Lando nods frowning slightly but just sort of accepting it before he kisses her then takes off since he does actually really need to go.
It's not till later that Lando sees her again and this time she's lying on a sofa in the McLaren unit that, he sits down managing to pull her so she's lying with her head on his lap.
"Hey, beautiful." Lando smiles still having thoughts about the earlier name.
"Hi, daddy." Y/n mumbles still focused on something on her phone with her brows furrowed, again it was meant to come out more teasing but her mum is texting her in a conversation about plans for Silverstone despite it being ages away. "Ah, why is she like this? I swear, the woman is 11 hours behind us, it's like the middle of the night there and she's on the phone hassling me."
Lando smiles pinching her phone from her hands and tossing it off to the side.
"Problem fixed." Lando smiles making her look at him and smile a little before she grins at him. "You coming to the garage with me?"
"Uhhh...yeah, I just need to run to the bathroom. I'll be right back, daddy."
As soon as she's gone Lando leans back, trying to contain himself. Is it seriously turning him on? She's being so casual about it, is she testing the waters with something?
"Alright, ready to go?" Y/n smiles brightly reappearing making him uncover his hands from his face. "Are you ok you look a little...flush?"
"I'm good. Let's go." Lando nods standing up and taking her hand.
"Ok daddy."
Finally got the tone right to tease him. But Lando still doesn't react like she expects. Which she knows can only mean one thing...he's not mad about it nor does he want her to stop.
Lando looks almost stressed by the time they get to the garage and she can't lie that it's pretty amusing to see him so stressed out about it.
"We are leaving as soon as I've debriefed. So be ready to leave." Lando states as she moves to stand in the team guest spectator area in the garage.
"Yes, daddy."
Max's head whips around at that but he can't get a word out before Lando has disappeared from next to them.
"Did you just call him daddy?" Max questions not even thinking to leave the whole thing alone.
"He has a bracelet from a fan that says daddy, and I noticed started calling him it but he's not said anything yet." Y/n smiles crossing her arms while Max makes a noise of disgust.
"He's probably enjoying it."
"Well..." Y/n shrugs not actually caring about Max knowing far too much. She knows he's got secrets with Lando so there's no point in trying to cover for him.
"I'm traumatised." Max shudders while she just smiles and pats his shoulder.
"Just think of the stuff I'm not telling you about."
"Y/n, please." Max groans while she just grins, living for any way to torment her boyfriend's best friend. "I don't need to know."
"But I trust you enough to tell you anyway." Y/n grins then patting his shoulder. "You should be happy I like you so much, a lot of girlfriends and best friend have beef."
"I wish we had beef if I meant I didn't have to hear this."
"Max, that's so mean." Y/n pouts before grinning at him. "But I forgive you."
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"Hey, daddy." Y/n greets as soon as she sees Lando, leaning back on the sofa and smiling as his hand comes to her throat, gently squeezing it as he leans down to kiss her.
"Hey, baby." Lando smiles rubbing his thumb on her pulse. "We're going out for dinner."
"We are?" Y/n hums earning a short nod. Honestly the way he's looking at her is beginning to make her feel hot.
"Yeah, we'll go back to the hotel. You can get dressed in something nice and I'm taking you out for dinner." Lando states making her look at him for a moment. "Come on, baby."
Y/n seems to wait a couple beats before she stands up and moves with him.
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It's not till they're sitting across from each other that y/n decides to comment on Lando's reaction to her calling him daddy.
"So you like the whole daddy thing?" She asks not feeling bad for asking.
"Maybe I do. But you started it...so you mustn't hate it."
She doesn't in fact, it's something she really thought she'd hate but with Lando it feels annoyingly good.
"I don't hate calling you daddy...but it was that because of that bracelet."
He's just so happened to take off his bracelets before they came out for dinner when he got changed into a suit and shirt. Fuck.
"Bracelet?" Lando frowns in confusion. "What bracelet?"
"I knew you didn't notice. The bracelet from your fans. One of them said daddy...but for the record you are definitely giving me sugar daddy vibes right now." Y/n admits almost feeling shy when she says it.
It's as if she just unlocked a different side to her boyfriend and she didn't realise this side existed till now. But it might just be her new favourite.
Lando smirks a little as y/n bites her lip a little as their peace is disturbed by the arrival of the food.
"So...daddy...how often should I be calling you that?" Y/n asks as she pokes her fork into her pasta.
"As often as possible would be preferable." Lando shrugs making her clear her throat a little and shift. "Are you ok?"
"Yeah...I'm just thinking." Y/n mumbles making him raise his eyebrows in question. "I may have traumatised Max earlier with this..."
Lando seems to almost choke on the bite of food in his mouth.
"You traumatised him?" Lando laughs making her sigh.
"I didn't think you might genuinely turned on by being called daddy, but I was joking about it with him earlier when he heard me say it in the garage and he definitely didn't want to know." Y/n smiles making Lando grin. "He'll just have to get over it."
"I'm sure he appreciates that."
"Not my fault your fans has forced me to acknowledge you're daddy material." Y/n states then pausing while Lando gets a mouthful of food. "You'll have to make sure you wear that bracelet again so they all know."
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49311grayson · 27 days
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[Batfam] Weapons
Damiam: I'm off to school!
Dick: Hold on, Dami. No sword in school. Hand it over.
Damian: What? Why?
Dick: You can't go to school with a sword.
Damian: It's my right to have a protection with me! It makes me feel safe.
Dick: Yes, but not for other students.
Damian, rolling eyes: Fine! This is stupid.
Dick, take the sword away: Thank you. Have fun!
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*After the door closed
Jason, smuggles Damian a knife: Don't tell Dick.
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*After school
Jason: I'm here to pick Damian up.
Teacher: Oh uhhh Damian is in detention.
Jason: He's in what?
Teacher: He misbehaved during class and he's now being held in a room for an hour after school.
Jason: I know what detention means. I mean what did he do?
Teacher: He brought an knife to school and—
Jason: That's illegal?
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*After detention*
Jason: I thought we talked about exposing your weapons in public.
Damian: That stupid kid started first! It's supposed to be a little paid back.
Jason, sarcastic: So you decided to stab that kid in front of people? Great job. Jason: Next time, do it in some where more private.
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*Back to the Wayne Manor
Dick: I heard you were in detention today. What on Earth did you do?
Damian: I accidentally poked someone.
Dick, shocked: You stabbed someone?! I told you not to!
Damian: Ok, I may have aggressively poked someone with a knife.
Tim, mocking: Well, not surprised.
Dick: But I confiscated your—— Jason! You're not supposed to give Dami a goddamn weapon!
Jason: Why not? Back in my days, I always carried a knife with me. It's not a big deal.
Bruce: You What?!
Jason: See? Even the old man didn't know.
Dick, sighs: Don't tell me you've done the same thing Tim.
Tim: Of course not. But I do have a taser. Just in case.
Dick: Oh my god!
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