Martyn knows from the start that it won't last.
When he looks at Jimmy, dancing flares in his eyes, and wants so desperately to grab his hand that he digs his nails into his own palm instead. He knows, in all the jokes they make, that everything is numbered, each laugh counted and added up in the cracks of bones that never reach their chests.
He knows at night, too, when he forgoes sleep next to Jimmy on their single bed and listens to the sounds of the doomed world outside. Even in the silence, he can hear it when he cannot hear anything at all.
Time, time is precious, too much and not enough, this will end.
It does, of course it does, and nothing surprises him less. After all the deaths that his preceded by a hair's breadth, he thought, hoped that maybe—but no, these worlds always take their own, Jimmy is proof of that, Lizzie in a twisted way now, too, he supposes. They all are, really, and nothing has ever made sense more and less all at once.
He still has to catch his breath in BigB's Backrooms, and then again when he's on the surface and the wither has just been killed and everyone is laughing, they're laughing, and before he knows it it's been a week, two, and he's still catching his breath, looking over at the lonely dog on a lonely mountain and wishing for something—anything.
He needs, he needs—and so he goes around the server, doing things purposefully with no real aim, as though if he makes his presence large enough, it will cover up the two gaping holes at his sides. He takes and he takes and he takes and does not stop until—
He does not stop.
He slows down eventually, when the sky is dark and he's barked his lungs out, it seems like, and the very air itself can tell that they're not long, now, none of them are. Baxter is empty, as his hands, his head, his heart, but for a faint barking outside that disappears as soon as he strains his ears to hear it.
He sits down. Looks at the chests and lets out a long sigh that tapers off into something aching, broken.
"I'm so tired, guys."
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Guys guys guys
I have a crazy thing
Ok so
Sonic college AU. NOW LISTEN. LISTEN. It's not all about college that's just when it's set (mostly)
It has multiple storylines for multiple characters. (Amy, Sonic & Shadow, Tails, etc.)
I'm not sure whether I'd be able to make them all into comics or maybe I'd write them all instead, but I have ideas for each one.
Ok so. There are 5 different storylines.
1. Amy
Journey of self discovery
Coming to terms with who you are
Questioning own wants/desires
Instead of keeping the path you set in stone, you change course slightly (I could only describe it in a sentence mb guys <3)
Some plot important Surgamy
2. Sonic & Shadow
Again, coming to terms with yourself
This will be gay btw
I don't have much on this one yet, but will update 👍
3. Knuckles
Pursuit of Knowledge
Investigation(kinda?)
There is knuxouge in this one btw, it's not all that important to the plot but yknow
Again not much on this one (will update)
4. Shadow & Rouge
Found family (I live for these two ISTG)
Mental struggles (struggling together)
Adoptive Family
5. Tails
Bullying
Mental health
Pushing through
Friendship is magic n shit
(might change some details, it feels overdone, I want it to be interesting but the idea is growing on me now tbh)
Of course since they all know each other, sometimes their paths cross, they find comfort in each other with their similar experiences, share advice and wisdom, and enjoy each others company (GUYS I MADE THEM PLAY DND THEY HAVE RACES CLASSES ALL THAT SHIT OMD IM GOING TO COMBUST THIS IS ALL I CAN THINK ABOUT RIGHT NOW AND I HAVE HOMEWORK)
Tbh idk if this counts as a college au? Cuz since Tails is like 7 years younger than sonic he's like in highschool still (most of the cast had just entered college) so his story would be set in highschool yknow?? Idk it's probs fine I'll figure it out at some point.
If Ur wondering what conjured this up in my mind, I noticed that there's not a lot of Amy Rose appreciation (unless I'm not on that side of Tumblr ig, Ive seen a few people say stuff about Amy's treatment in the fandom). I wanted to give her her own little story, and was inspired by @normiessonicau (sry for tag, but srsly check them out their art is awesome and the comics barely started but I'm so excited) to make it a college setting for a foundation.
I knew what I wanted with Amy's story, and I just have to right it all down. But while coming up for Amy's story I got cool ideas for everyone elses... and it kinda snowballed...
Anyways!
Ive already written a lot for this and thats all I did TODAY and there's some more I still haven't mentioned cuz "lore" reasons I guess. Cuz I'm still not sure of the route I'm taking this. I'd love to draw them all but that's like rely stressful and I'd burn out almost immediately probably, especially since I've got exams coming up too so that wouldn't help 💀
Speaking of which I need to study (I will not be studying)
(almost forgot to mention! Silver and Blaze are in this, they're more side characters since I don't know their characters as much as I would like.. but they are best friends and in a QPR. I'd probs still do little mini comics of them watching all their friends kinda fuck up at life /j. Maybe they'll be one of the comforters I said earlier)
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Heyyyyya. I was thinking of reading captain x havers fanfics. I’ve never read any 🫣 and I thought you would be a good source to tell me some good fanfic? 🙏🏼🙏🏼
Okie so this based off you posting about liking fics involving time loops a few weeks ago? I think???? Now I’m doubting it was even you 🫠 but looool.
Can I ask (prettttyyy pls) Where are the time loop fics at 👁️👅👁️
yeah the time loop post was me!! as far as I know no fics based around that exist (yet?) but there is a series called "what are men to rocks and mountains" where havers is a time traveler, which I think scratches a similar itch. as far as other cap/havers fics, I'll give you the same list I gave my friend @.dykebeckett a while ago which includes:
https://archiveofourown.org/works/27044512 "if rome hadn’t fallen", havers fantasizes about what can never be
https://archiveofourown.org/works/26857282 "a soldier can sleep in any warzone", what if I never stopped crying. havers memories.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/31028219 "Exercise in Wanting", the most tender 2k blowjob you’ve ever read
https://archiveofourown.org/works/27875726 "rabbits wrapped in velvet", cap and havers exchange christmas gifts. I sob inconsolably.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/35163190 "someday, sweetheart", one of a handful where havers is a ghost that somehow gets to button house, but also it’s christmas and they’re sweet.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/27167254/chapters/70371735#workskin "I couldn't whisper when you needed it shouted (ah, but I'm singing like a bird, 'bout it now)", button house hosts a wwii museum exhibit, cap thinks of havers
https://archiveofourown.org/works/46311469 "as no men love for long", what if havers was a wwi soldier who died and he ghost-ed during cap’s life? sure, why not!
there are a ton of great ones but those are a few that really stick out to me, personally. hope that helps!
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old stuff from free draw cause i used to use roblox a lot
a) don't question the peekaboo demon with thighs
b) latter two images are of @vesparazratte 's silly both burning alive and as aubrey omori real
i have some newer ones i made today two
latter image is of me n my girlfriend @j1nxth3cl0wn in the pizza tower ice /lh i get to be noise :] kat is calling pick up phone so to speak
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