#ughhhhhhhhhhhhhh i hate this

[discount-kirishima]

ch 34 vs ch 74 btw,,, if you even care

#aki 'i hate devils with every cell of my being' hayakawa taking orders from a devil 🤌 #ughhhhhhhhhhhhhh i miss them so much!!!!!!!!! #chainsaw man #csm #akiangel #aki hayakawa #angel devil #a throwback for you guys on this csm tuesday #the growth in their relationship 🤌🤌🤌

[bonebabbles]

I keep using the word "frustrating" but I feel like it doesn't capture the anger that's building in me at how it doesn't seem to remember its own goddamn books. Everything with Jagged Peak in particular is incredibly sloppy.

With Clear Sky I get the feeling that they HAVE to misremember previous books, else you encounter the simple truth that he is a fucking monster. If you don't use passive voice religiously as if you're writing a NYTimes article about a cop, you'd have to address that he wanted to kill children after he slaughtered their mother for her land, that he beat an innocent woman to death and blamed it on a fox, and that he's a compulsive liar with a fragile ego. And you can't do that and ALSO say "he was a good mislead boy all along."

So... it's malicious but it's "understandable" on some level. The character they wrote is completely incompatible with the ""redemption"" they're trying to write. So you have to ignore it.

But Jagged Peak...

So Thunder is watching Jag's kittens as they play in deep snow. Jag sees this, freaks out a little, and tells the kids to stop playing because they could get hurt. We get this confrontation;

Those who have been following will remember that it was partially JAGGED PEAK'S fault that Sparrow Fur got mauled by One Eye, by letting her run off into the woods alone because "she was very insistent" about finding her biodad, Tom the Wifebeater.

This teeny little scene feels like they're going to address how Jagged Peak's biggest flaw as a kid was his recklessness, and that his irresponsibility continued into his adulthood because he was coddled. That this, right here, is a sign of character growth... but, the rest of the series doesn't seem to actually think this.

Gray Wing gets scolded for being "unkind" to him as if he's the same as Clear Sky. Jagged Peak's physical ability, like fighting to defend his honor and leading a patrol to get herbs, are what the narrative is fixated on. It's the thing he did back in Blazing Star that made Clear Sky "realize he was wrong about him." It bothers me. Badly.

We are slowly watching Gray Wing die of asthma (except when he needs to do something "cool" like rescue Turtle Tail from Tom the Wifebeater) and every other disabled character dies horribly. But here's Jagged Peak, with a story about how he's "Barely Even Disabled At All" with a little love and encouragement :)

What was behind the choice to make so much of this disabled character focus on his physical ability? In this arc which has THREE "useless" cats exiled for their lack thereof (Jagged, Bumble, Frost)? They say Jagged Peak needed a wife (introduced and then pregnant in the same book) to become his life coach, and that allowed him to overcome his leg... but why?

Why do this, when they obviously COULD have focused on his character traits? This little fucking scene proves it. They COULD have done this instead.

It feels like they're 3 different stories they want to tell about Jagged Peak and none of them are coming together; but the main one they're trying to write is awful.

#dotc hate #bones reads dotc #It doesn't help that this sort of story bothers me. badly. to begin with #disability is disabling. i hate the narrative of 'With a little love you can be Just As Abled as everyone else :)' #like NO? I am still disabled no matter how much you love me actually #And quite fucking frankly I would still be disabled if you stopped #Jagged Peak IS a full character. His personality (for better and for worse) shines through in some moments #But it gets ignored and the story they tell about him is completely about his leg #ughhhhhhhhhhhhhh I hope this is making sense

[rosicheeks]

😓

#I’m in such a social but nonverbal mood????? #like I really want to talk to people #and I’ve tried to reply to a few messages #or a few asks #and my brain just goes #?????????????? #words #jumbled #but I also wanna talk #so it’s just a struggle #also I hate finishing shows cause I just want to stay in that universe forever but I don’t wanna rewatch it over and over again #ughhhhhhhhhhhhhh #shut up rosie

[dizzybevvie]

New Autism Con unlocked: Just watched a movie that is beloved by all and i know is good but I didnt enjoy it because I could only think about spiderman the whole time

#UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH BEING AUTISTIC IS SUCH A FUCKING CURSEEEE #I enjoy it sometimes dgmw its who i am and i love myself #I wouldnt be so cruel as to hate 90% of my identity because I cant if i want to live #but god. it makes things difficult. #Wake up at 7 have to get ready so cant do anything abt hyperfixation #Work 9-5 cant talk abt hyperfixation #My cousin's pick for movie night shes too young to enjoy my hyperfixation #Go to bed. repeat. #For the next. 2 weeks. #🦖 #beverly says stuff #Beverly is Autistic tag #atsv

[irritablepoe]

guys i did it, i'm back on track (<- absolutely exhausted from showering and cleaning room after neglecting both for way too long)

#i should be studying now too... #ughhhhhhhhhhhhhh i hate today. and this cough #johnny's silly rambles

[orcelito]

and NOWWWWWWWW dressing the fic up

hesitating at the fandoms stage bc Sentido had elements of both tristamp and trimax in it, but this fic is almost entirely trimax. it'd probably be misrepresentation if i tagged it as belonging to tristamp too. but i also dont wanna risk ppl missing my fic bc theyre using the tristamp tag as a general trigun tag,,,

#speculation nation #ughhhhhh im probably just not gonna include the tristamp tag. i gotta be real about it #but whyyyyyyy does this fandom have two tags. why cant there be a general one. i hate it #i KNOW it's bc of old fans getting pissy about stampede clogging the tags #and/or new fans just wanting tristamp content. probably a mix of both #but come on i want a blend of ALL of them #but. this fic is very solidly trimax Only. maybe only the slightest of tristamp elements included #like possibly knives and his piano?? and the plants' song?? i love those elements of tristamp so much #but plot-wise and abilities-wise it's aaaaaaall trimax #ugh. ughhhhhhhhhhhhhh this is so annoying #anhyways yea im posting my new baby soon. look out for it.

[thesisthehomosexual]

JUST GOT JUMPSCARED BY THE WHOLE ASS THINGY CHANGING

NOT VERY HAPPY ABOUT THIS!!! WHAT THE FUCKKKK

(FUCKING RANTING IN THE TAGS BC IM PISSED--)

#WHY??? ITS UGLY AS FUCK #PUT THAT SHIT BACK #FOR SOME UNKNOWN REASON ITS CAUSING ME UNREASONABLE AMOUNTS OF STRESS AND PANIC #WHY THE FUCKKKKKKKKK #THIS IS STUPID AS SHIT #I FUCKKING HATE THIS #ITS SO FUCKING WRONG AND UGLY #UT LOOKS TOO CLOSE TOGETHER #I CANT FUCKING CHANGE IT BACK EITHER #UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #FUCKING STUPID #GREAT FUCKING JOB WHOEVER THE FUCK DOES THIS SHIT #AAAAAAUUUUUUUUUUUGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH PAIN AND AGONY ON PLATFORM TUMBLR

[rexcaliburechoes]

i want to commit kermit on fire.jpg

#rex rambles #i'm so fucking done i hate it here i hate it i hate it #i'm so fucking tired jfc #i probably should eat something but i have work i need to do first because it's already late #allergies are not helping either #ughhhhhhhhhhhhhh

[chronicas]

GOD FINE FINE! I will infodump about the thing I wish they’d’ve done in FFVII…

When Cloud has his mental breakdown and gives the black materia to Sephiroth in the Northern Crater I think they really had the potential there to do some really really interesting stuff, but instead it just resulted in Cloud being MIA and later non-responsive. (Which to be fair.. is not at all a part of the story I disliked. I love ALL of the story. This is just some thoughts I've had)

What I wish they would’ve done is further leaned into Sephiroth’s control over Cloud and make him an enemy temporarily. I do think Sephiroth was pretty underutilized in the OG (but overused in the remake) and that there should have been more direct conflict caused by Sephiroth for the party instead of it mainly being Shinra’s reactions to his presence that caused more issues.

The furthest they ever went with Sephiroth’s control over Cloud was him almost killing Aerith, but he was never an actual enemy.

I think Cloud being a temporary enemy would’ve been just a really really good plot line. It would give even more buildup to Sephiroth as the final boss. I’d also love to see how the characters would react. Cloud has been missing before at this point and most of them have faith in his resilience, but it was less of a losing Cloud literally and more figuratively losing him to Sephiroth then the story would play out much differently and with more tension.

Now I’ve explained my reasoning for why I think this would be sick as hell here’s how it would actually play out in my mind. Sorry if I sound like a writer in any of this I am not actually, I'm a cartoonist:

Cloud could appear multiple times before they manage to get him out of Sephiroth’s control. He could appear in Junon and cause a ruckus before the WEAPON shows up. A scene I often like to picture in my mind's eye is a brainwashed Cloud watching Tifa's escape from Junon. (She should still get to bitch-slap Scarlet)

I think Tifa would still play the most important role even in this situation, despite them not actually being childhood friends, Tifa has still known Cloud the longest and would be the most affected by his involuntary betrayal. I think everyone else would feel down at the loss of their friend and leader, I also think Barret should've had more of an opportunity to step up as a leader in the portion of the game as the original leader of Avalanche.

Mideel would be like.. all but cut out of this just because there's no reason for Cloud to be there unless the WEAPON was also. Perhaps because Cloud has Jenova's cells, Sephiroth could even use him as a distraction to keep them away from the Northern Crater, seeing they were created to destroy Jenova.

Eventually Cloud and Tifa would have to have a showdown that would end with them both getting caught up in the lifestream, after which everything would proceed the same as in canon with Tifa helping Cloud get his memories back which frees him from Sephiroth's control so they can defeat him.

Again, I have more details on this in my head, but it's hard to go through them all lmao. So anyways.. as always

#Is this an AU? I feel like this might almost constitute as an AU... #Anyways I would like to make a couple comics about this eventually. But only after I finish some of the other's I have planned. #ophidian lore #oh I hate to put this in the main tags ughhhhhhhhhhhhhh #ffvii

[notwhatyoucameherefor]

WHAT THE FUCK DID I REBLOG THAT FILLED MY DASH WISH PROSHIP DISCOURSE

#TUMBLR WHAT DID I DO #WHAT #literally every post on my screen as im typing this is people complaining about antis what the fuck did i do #ughhhhhhhhhhhhhh i hate blocking tags but ig thats what im doing today

[eeveearoace]

do you ever just. get exhausted. by socializing with people. even people you like! but you feel like you're not allowed to leave. so you just stay there. slowly dying. because if you ask to leave, someone complains about you "not wanting to spend time with family" when that isn't true at all! you want to spend time with them, but your energy is depleted and you just want to beg to have a minute to yourself. but it isn't socially acceptable to leave so then you feel like you're freaking out even when it's half an hour after the conversation ended.

or is it just me

#i might delete this post later #i just. i needed to rant im so sorry #but someone legit asked if i didn't want to spend time with them on a family vacation when i wanted to go to my grandparents house #bc i thought there was gonna be a bunch of drunk people partying #and im just. really not good at talking to people #i wanna cry right now #but if i say anything about being tired or whatever. im probably gonna get judged #i really hate my brain some days #why am i like this? why can't i just be neurotypical? #i want to be interested in “normal” things and be good at talking to people. not wanting to crawl into a corner and cry after talking #to people for a few hours #and of course im still panicking. because i agreed to do more socializing stuff today #ughhhhhhhhhhhhhh #(but honestly what's kinda funny is that i spent a while at my friend's house the other day. and i was totally fine and having fun!) #(i guess some days are just better than others? and we were also playing games/ talking about cartoons and stuff) #i don't know i just. i'll probably delete this post later. i don't really want people to pity me / think im a baby #i don't like that im like this either trust me

[cutiehulk]

Hate my life

Hate my body

Hate my shyness

Ughhhhh

None of what I do matters

#everything is so meaningless #how much do I have to suffer here #hate my life with burning passion #crap bullshit pathetic life #kill meeeeeeeeee kill meeeee i don't want to live anymooooooore #ughhhhhhhhhhhhhh #AaAaaaaaaaaaaaa

[comfortstars]

man I hope my friend's ex fucking explodes

#i hate him so much he practically tortured her for years and now that its finally over the doesn't leave her alone #ughhhhhhhhhhhhhh #delete later

[aroace-cat-lady]

It's so weird how I can have a serious conversation with everyone and give the best advice and being like wise and mature with every single person I know, except with my someones. And every time I try it I just end up being all goofy and stupid and I just want earth to swallow me whole and ughhhhhhhhhhhhhh

#i just feel like an idiot #like everything i say is wrong or my brain doesn't work and ughhhhhhhhhhhhhh #i HatE mYseLf sO MuCH

[mingoosgf]

I might just die drawing diagrams of ugly ass bugs and stuff someone save me 😭

#🦄 :: talk that talk. ୭ #FUCK U CLASSIC ZOOLOGY #UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #I DONT WANT TO DRAW ANNELIDS ANYMORE I HATE IT #😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[soulmatescoexist]

i can't believe i'm watching 13 reasons why! this show is so stupid these kids are stupid i dont even like teen dramas wtf these characters in this show like, ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS?!!!?!?!?

#god i fucking hate this but i can't stop bc i need to know the ending UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #this show making me wanna stab someone rn