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#ughhhhh idk why it makes me so sad
natugood · 4 months
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I have incomprehensible thoughts rn about how many classic American folk songs are kinda fucked up (and many are "sanitized" for modern listening to be less fucked up), and it's wild that we just, teach these songs to children without any context or anything? like, clementine is about a miner's daughter DROWNING TO DEATH as he watches helplessly? Old folks at home is a fucking RACIST AF ass song written by a white dude in the perspective of a slave who has been freed who misses his life on a plantation? when John Henry was sang by miners it often had ad-libbed, graphic lyrics about having sex with women at the end of the work day (as a way to motivate themselves and get them through the hell that was mining in the 1800s), and a lot of our modern versions are just super sanitized? like I get its hard to explain a lot of that shit to kids but like, its often never revisited and those songs are just left as sanitized, incoherent childhood introductions to America when they actually all have great amounts of value and history when put into context!!
#I will die on this hill that American folk music is an important part of history and it makes me sad it gets left behind and sanitized#its original meaning should not be incomprehensible and forgotten. even if it is extremely ugly and vile; or even if its really dark and sa#like in order for the country to reconcile with its evil and paiiiinful past we need to ACKNOWLEDGE IT and stop trying to sanitize it#anyways. fun facts clementine was a favorite song of mine as a child and I still hold it near and dear to my heart. and dont get me STARTED#ON OLD FOLKS AT HOME#that song is soooo racist but I learned it in a cello positions book so I didn't know the lyrics or context for YEARS after I learned it#and I always thought it was such a hauntingly beautiful song cause musically IT IS. SO GOOD.#but goddamn when I found out the lyrics and the context I was so fucking mad. thats some awful fucked up bullshit like I cant even begin#and idk it makes me upset to think about the context but also I think it really important we recognize that was really the true atmosphere#at the time and that was our country. Stephen foster is an American folk legend and he wrote that awful racist song. he is great at his art#form but is not separate from his place in time. he was a racist even if he was progressive at that moment in hisotry.#and that is our country. and idk like I think that that adds even more pain to that song and it makes it even more painful to listen to#and thats why we need to not forget it and listen to it to fucking remember and acknowledge how we got here and what we came from#I hate that song and I love that song but I hate it and ughhhhh I wish I hadn't learned it on cello and loved the melody for years#cause its gross af. but also like#its where we came from so I shouldn't hate our history cause thats ignorant and not productive#anwyays#googoogajoob
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m0n1q · 4 months
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AUGHHHHHH OKAY IDK IF YOU'VE ALREADY SEEN THIS VIDEO OR NOT OF NOLA KLOP (The VA of V) sing a snippet of Eternal Dream and in the end of the video Nola says this -> "and Uzi, you better make my girl proud okay?......Or I'm coming for you"
AND IDK I JUST GFHGYDGBXFHCX THAT PART JUST GETS TO ME IDK WHY LIKE??? UGHHHHH UZI YOU BETTER MAKE V PROUD BRUH
https://youtu.be/oBpblwc1u1c?si=EYkzOTtWEQwoB38q <- the video :>
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^ my reaction to listening to that cover for the first time (have not recovered)
But her VA seems so sweet honestly!!! That whole video was just so cute and sad and asgegshshdjjdjd
That last bit hits right in the feels though😭😭
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iki-gai-lotvs · 1 year
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RATING ROR CHARACTERS (my personal opinion)
(from anime and manga) !!SPOILERS!!
GUYS MY SPELLING AND GRAMMAR SUCK NO JUDGING RN IM WRITING THIS AT 1 AM 
HUMAN SIDE
Brunhilde: 9/10 shes funny i like her and her character, esp when she had to like hide her feelings and stuff rlly hit deep
Göll: -0/10 shes like paimon 2.0 her voice is really annoying stfu
Lu Bu: 7/10 he was kinda scary looking when i first saw him and he still is but hes kinda cool
Adam: 9/10 love him for being a supportive husband yk but omg when he died it was so sad 
Raiden: 7/10 didnt like him at first, but he grew on me 
Jack the ripper: -0/10 ☠️
Nikolai Tesla: 10/10 I LOVE HIM HES SO FUNNY AJAJJAGJANGJNRJGAUGNUNIG i love his personality and his face hes cute
Buddha: 7/10 I have no big opinion on him, hes cool yk 
Qin Shi Huang: 10/10 dude, when i first saw him in the manga i was like damn im smelling a whole fruit bowl here BUT I LITERALLY LOVE HIM CUS HIS CHARACTER DESIGN IS SO COOL
Gods: 
Thor: 6/10 his like character design is so like anime?? idk how to explain?? it just like not my tastes yk 
Zeus: 7/10 HES SO SILLY AND WACK HE LOOKS LIKE A DRIED UP RAISIN 
Poseidon: 10000/10 smash dude hes so hot LIKE HELLO WHY AM I LIKE KICKING MY FEET WATCHING HIM hes probably like my fav character yk maybe below shiva tho 
Shiva: 1000/10 I literally watched the show bc my friend showed me a clip of him and i was like holy shit augbnjgbaunjguawnogutuaojwbu I LOVE HIS CHARACTER HE HAS A FUNNY PERSONALITY but like fr he lowkey got nerfed also dude him and that other guy i think his name was like rudva dude like i smell a whole fruit bowl right there 
Zerofuku 8/10: His backstory WAS SO SAD UGHHHHH but i lub him hes so skrunkle
Hades: 1000/10 LOVE HIM SM TOO WAS SO SAD HE GOT ELIMINATED CUS I LOVED HIM CUS HE JUST WANTED TO AVENGE HIS BROTHER N STUFF but like his character design first shocked me cus like yk hades?? but its ok i forgive my little skrunkle poo
Beelzebub: 1000/10  Also one of my faves i think his like staff and power stuff is mad wicked 
NON FIGHTERS
Odin: 5/10 hes ok his hair looks like a sofa though HIS CROWS R FUNNY THOUGH
Loki: 6/10 hes ok hes mad weird tho w the faces he makes n stuff like ummm
Adamas: 3/10 why he give me the epper jeepers
Ares: 1000/10 best character he was so funny everyone else was boring compared to him
Aphrodite: 0/10 im sorry but literally what was the point of her character other than being sexualized for having big boobs ☠️ deadass luv aphrodite in greek mythology could have had sm potential but literally hate her 
THE GUY THAT LOOKS LIKE HES FROM BLACK BUTLER 7/10: HES OK HES KINDA HOT YK BUT I FORGOT HIS NAME LMFAOOO
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Aight. So about my crazy idea- I’m making a fanfic about it. I can’t help it. So now y’all gotta suffer with it lol. Enjoy!
⚠️TW⚠️: swearing, possession, fighting, knife being held to someone’s throat, and i don’t really know what else-
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6:00 am
It was a cold-ish rainy morning. Massachusetts was laying curled up on his side with a book, his headphones and phone, and a blanket over him. Yep. He stayed up all night reading again. He really needs to stop doing that, and the other states make sure to tell him that, but it ain’t like he’s gonna listen to them. How ironic is it that he’s the one that knows all about medical stuff and what could happen if you don’t sleep, and a bunch of other sh*t, yet is probably the most reckless and risk-taking state there? Anygays- we’re getting off topic.
Mass slowly sat up, his back popping a little as he sat up, and checked the time on his phone. He sighed and decided to just get up and start his day. His cat, Mayflower, that was sitting at the edge of his bed meowed disapprovingly at being woken up and disturbed, walked over to where he was sitting, and hopped onto his lap, startling the Bay State. He giggled slightly and started petting her, Mayflower purring as he did so.
"I’m so sorry for disturbing you, your Majesty. I didn’t realize that I couldn’t get out of bed without disrupting your slumber. I shall in fact burn for crimes." He said, faux apologetically, but not being able to stifle the giggle at the end. Mayflower meowed at him and turned around, hopping up and putting her front paws on his shoulders. She rubbed her face all over his face, neck and ears affectionately (idk I’ve seen videos of cats rubbing their faces on their owners and apparently that’s supposed to be affectionate-).
He smiled and gently pushed her off. "Stahahap that you gohohof! (Stop that you goof!)"
Mass got up and walked to his bathroom so he could get dressed when heard a deeper voice in his head. ‘Ughhhhh not you again…" he thought.
‘Yes it’s me again! Good morning dumba$$.’ Satan’s Kingdom responded.
‘What do you want…?’ Mass responded mentally.
‘What do you mean….. Who says I want anything?~’ S.K. answered with faux confusion and sadness.
‘Whenever you decide to speak to me, it’s either because you want something, or you wanna make my life a living-f(speaks Boston) hell.’ The Bay State answered, clearly not wanting to this sh** today (it be like that sometimes 😔✊).
‘Ok fine…. I just wanted to if-‘
‘No NO you may not. I know what you’re about to say, my answer is f(speaks Boston) no.’ Mass said as he brushed his hair in front of his mirror
"Awwwww why not?~ It’ll be fun~" The village(Satan’s Kingdom) whined.
‘No means no, jacka$$.’
Mass heard a slight chuckle from the other being in his mind. Well that can’t be good.
‘Well you see, Massachusetts…. You don’t exactly have a choice in the matter~’ Mass’s eyes widened as he was forced out of control and sent into the mind-space.
S.K. was now in full control of Mass’s body. "Ohoho now THIS- is gonna be fun~" He said to himself, ignoring Mass’s attempts to get control again. He grabbed Mass’s hoodie that Mass had chosen to wear that day and put it on, surprised when he saw how big the hoodie was on him. "Dang. Is the hoodie that big or this thing really THAT thin.-" he said under his breath. He grabbed Mass’s hat and put it on, pulling his hood over it. Next was the eyeliner. Ok, done. S.K. looked in the mirror and grinned, flashing his fangs that went all the way to the back of his mouth, and flicking his forked tongue a bit. Nobody’ll notice the teeth, slit pupils, and tongue right? Naw. Probably not.
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Downstairs:
S.K. walked downstairs to where a couple other states were and poured himself a cup of coffee. He was about to take a sip of coffee when he felt a tap on his shoulder and he turned around to see New Jersey. ‘Quick how does Mass act towards him?!- Insanely aggressive right? Yea I think this is the one.’
"Mornin’ sleeping beauty." NJ said with a small smirk as he poured himself a glass of milk.
"Stfu." S.K. responded coldly. He noticed the slightly offended look on Jersey’s face.
"Well d*nm somebody woke up on the wrong side of the bed this morning, huh?" Jersey said.
"Perhaps so. Now shut it and let me drink my coffee." S.K. said, and then taking a sip of coffee. Except the thing is, he didn’t add creamer or sugar or literally anything. He just drank it straight up. Which Mass never does. And unfortunately, Jersey caught that small detail, seeing as how often he goes to Dunkin with Mass.
Jersey chuckled a bit and took a sip of his milk. "Well that’s new."
"Whaddya mean?" S.K. questioned, glaring at the state in front of him.
"Ya never drink yer coffee black, so I was just stating that that was new." The Garden State said.
"O-oh. Yea. Um. Whatever." S.K. said, silently cursing himself for stuttering.
Jersey looked at the smaller with a bit of confused expression. "Are ya doin’ alright? Ya seem to be a bit off. Are ya sick or smth?" He said. He reached his hand to the other’s forehead and feeling the side of his face (well it’s more like closer to under the ear/around the jaw-), only to have his hand swatted away.
"I’m fine. I ain’t sick." Said the smaller of the two.
"Ok then…? I’ll see ya later at the meetin’ I guess." Jersey said and started to walk off.
"The what?!" S.K. shouted, spitting out his coffee into the mug.
Jersey turned around confused. "Yea…? Didn’t ya get the email bout’ the meetin’ at 3?"
"Oh.. OH- that meeting! Oh yea, it probably just slipped my d*nm mind I guess. See ya later." And with that he walked away, leaving Jersey in mild confusion.
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Later at the meeting:
S.K. could now understand why Mass hated these meetings so much. It was sooooooo f(technical glitch)in’ boring… He put his hood up, pulled it down as much as he could, and then just stopped listening to everybody else. What he did notice, however, was Louisiana staring at him, seemingly studying him. Watching his every movement. Satan’s Kingdom tried to remember ANYTHING about Loui, and then it him. He forgot 2 things. 1:Loui is one of Massachusetts’s best friends, and 2: Loui is in fact capable of sensing bad energy or different energies and spirits, ghosts, demons, ect…. Sh*t he hoped that Louisiana wouldn’t say anything or sense anything. Unfortunately for him though, Loui did sense something was wrong.
From across the Table, Loui felt that something was a bit… off, to say the least. He could feel a new type of negative or even demonic energy in the room. Well there weren’t any apparitions in the room, seeing as Loui had already checked for any and found none. He was about to give up trying to figure out what it was, but it bothered him too much. He looked around the room and looked at the energy of the other states (+Gov), checking off each one after he checked. Florida… The Fed… Texas… Cali… York…… and all the rest seemed somewhat normal. That was until he got to "Massachusetts". There was something that felt incredibly wrong, and he was kinda worried for his friend. He hadn’t even noticed Gov calling his name until he heard someone shout "Louisiana!!"
He snapped his head towards Gov, who had been the one who called him. "Huh?"
Gov just sighed. "I’ve been trying to get your attention for the past 5 minutes."
Loui rubbed the back of his neck with a slight chuckle. "Whoops- Uh- Whatcha need, sha?"
Gov rolled his eyes fondly. Nobody, and I repeat, NOBODY, is ever really able to hate or be mad at Loui. "I just wanted to know if you had any updates about anything going on in your state that I might need to know about?" He said.
"O-oh. Uh- no. Nothin’ dat comes to mind, sha." Loui said with a smile.
"*sigh* Alright then. New York?" Gov said, then continued.
"F(speaks New York) you." NY said with a slight glare.
"As always you’re such a pleasure to speak to."
"Piss off."
Louisiana had pretty much gone back to what he was doing in the first place. He noticed that "Mass" seemed to be fidgeting with something with something under the table. So, purely out of curiosity, he slid down in his seat a bit so he could see under the table. His eyes widened a bit as he saw what “Mass" was holding in his hands. It seemed to be a small double-bladed thing with weird designs on it.
He sat back up and looked at "Mass" who hadn’t seemed to notice the fact that he saw the blades.
"H-hey sorry fo’ interruptin’,- um hey Mass you doin’ aight sha?" Louisiana said, sending a slightly apologetic look Gov’s way.
‘Sh*t-‘ Satan’s Kingdom thought as he panicked for a second. "Uh- yea why do ya ask?" He said, giving the younger a slight glare.
"Well- you seem a bit… off, today. I’m sensin’ a very negative energy comin’ from ya, it ain’t like yer usual moody sleep-deprived energy." Loui said.
"I’m fine."
"Are ya sure sha?"
"Yes. Shut it."
"Again. Are you sure? Cuz if there is somethin’ wrong I can h-" Loui started but cut off by “Mass" grabbing a random vase and throwing it at him. The vase hit Loui directly in the side of his head and shattered, knocking him out of his chair and onto the ground where he curled up holding his head. Chaos only arose from the table.
"LOUI-!" Florida screamed as he got from his chair and kneeled down at Loui’s side, Texas following.
"WHAT THE HE// MASS?! What is wrong with you?! He was trying to he help!?!" Texas shouted while glaring at "Mass" and trying to get Loui to uncurl himself.
"Yea wtf?!" New York shouted turning to Mass and standing up, glaring at him. He was shocked when he saw "Mass" with a sick-evil grin on his face and glowing red eyes staring back at him through his hood. His face fell when the realization hit him. "You’re not my brother…"
"It took you f(technical glitch)in’ morons THAT long to figure it out?! Ha." Satan’s Kingdom said with an insane look in his eyes that sent shivers down the spine of the usually stoic New York.
"I thought we got rid of you a while ago!?!" Connie (Connecticut) shouted.
"Nope! Now, you’re next, Yorkie!~" S.K. said as he leaped up and swung the blades at York, luckily though York managed to just barely dodge it. (Sh*tty fight scene coming up-)
S.K. snarled and jumped at York with the blades again, this time managing cut York across the cheek and making the other hiss in pain. The smaller of the two had a wicked grin on his face as he licked the blood off the knife and swung again, this time cutting New York’s arm, which made the other yelp (as in the way a dog does). Jersey had gotten up to go assist York, but got pushed back down into his seat by Oklahoma (whom he sat by since I’ve decided that he sits between Texas and Oklahoma). He glared at Oklahoma who just told him to sit tf down and let York deal with it and just reluctantly listened to him.
York eventually managed to somehow grab the blade as S.K. swung again, but unfortunately this meant that the blade cut into his palm. But ofc he didn’t care and managed to twist the knife out of S.K.’s hand by the blade and toss him at the wall with the knife to his throat. He found unnatural joy in the panicked look of his brother’s controller, but quickly shut it out as he came back to reality and the situation at hand. He was about to slit the other’s throat but something S.K. said stopped him.
"W-wait! Now b-before you s-slit my throat, you need to remember one important thing." S.K. said.
"And what the f(speaks New York) is that?!" York half yelled half said normally.
Satan’s Kingdom just chuckled before giving an evil grin and saying, "Well you see Yorkie~ Me and your pathetic excuse of a brother share a body. Meaning… If you kill me, you also kill your useless brother.~"
New York’s face fell slightly as he realized that the stupid man controlling his brother was right. ‘Then how do we get Masshole back without hurtin’ im’….’ While he was lost in his thoughts, he heard a loud voice shout:
"I need the Commonwealth of Massachusetts present at the table right this moment!!"
York turned around, still keeping S.K. pinned on the wall, to see that it had been Gov that shouted that. Gov. Of all people. To say York was surprised to see the usually anxiety-ridden man standing confidently with a stern look on his face is an understatement. He didn’t think Gov had it in him. He was quickly snapped out of his thoughts tho when he felt something give up behind him. York quickly turned back around to see his brother looking at him with tear-glazed eyes and let go, letting Massachusetts slide down the wall and curl up in a little ball.
It quickly dawned on York that Mass was having a panic attack and couldn’t calm down or breathe at all, so he decided to try to do something that Mass used to do with him when he was younger (and smaller cuz now York is 5’10 while Mass is 5’6-). He reached his good hand out in front of Mass so the other could see it and decide whether he wanted to take it or not, and York was secretly hoping and praying that he did. He could see that Mass had seen his hand and was considering whether to take it or not. Aight. So about my crazy idea- I’m making a fanfic about it. I can’t help it. So now y’all gotta suffer with it lol. Enjoy!
⚠️TW⚠️: swearing, possession, fighting, knife being held to someone’s throat, and i don’t really know what else-
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6:00 am
It was a cold-ish rainy morning. Massachusetts was laying curled up on his side with a book, his headphones and phone, and a blanket over him. Yep. He stayed up all night reading again. He really needs to stop doing that, and the other states make sure to tell him that, but it ain’t like he’s gonna listen to them. How ironic is it that he’s the one that knows all about medical stuff and what could happen if you don’t sleep, and a bunch of other sh*t, yet is probably the most reckless and risk-taking state there? Anygays- we’re getting off topic.
Mass slowly sat up, his back popping a little as he sat up, and checked the time on his phone. He sighed and decided to just get up and start his day. His cat, Mayflower, that was sitting at the edge of his bed meowed disapprovingly at being woken up and disturbed, walked over to where he was sitting, and hopped onto his lap, startling the Bay State. He giggled slightly and started petting her, Mayflower purring as he did so.
"I’m so sorry for disturbing you, your Majesty. I didn’t realize that I couldn’t get out of bed without disrupting your slumber. I shall in fact burn for crimes." He said, faux apologetically, but not being able to stifle the giggle at the end. Mayflower meowed at him and turned around, hopping up and putting her front paws on his shoulders. She rubbed her face all over his face, neck and ears affectionately (idk I’ve seen videos of cats rubbing their faces on their owners and apparently that’s supposed to be affectionate-).
He smiled and gently pushed her off. "Stahahap that you gohohof! (Stop that you goof!)"
Mass got up and walked to his bathroom so he could get dressed when heard a deeper voice in his head. ‘Ughhhhh not you again…" he thought.
‘Yes it’s me again! Good morning dumba$$.’ Satan’s Kingdom responded.
‘What do you want…?’ Mass responded mentally.
‘What do you mean….. Who says I want anything?~’ S.K. answered with faux confusion and sadness.
‘Whenever you decide to speak to me, it’s either because you want something, or you wanna make my life a living-f(speaks Boston) hell.’ The Bay State answered, clearly not wanting to this sh** today (it be like that sometimes 😔✊).
‘Ok fine…. I just wanted to if-‘
‘No NO you may not. I know what you’re about to say, my answer is f(speaks Boston) no.’ Mass said as he brushed his hair in front of his mirror
"Awwwww why not?~ It’ll be fun~" The village(Satan’s Kingdom) whined.
‘No means no, jacka$$.’
Mass heard a slight chuckle from the other being in his mind. Well that can’t be good.
‘Well you see, Massachusetts…. You don’t exactly have a choice in the matter~’ Mass’s eyes widened as he was forced out of control and sent into the mind-space.
S.K. was now in full control of Mass’s body. "Ohoho now THIS- is gonna be fun~" He said to himself, ignoring Mass’s attempts to get control again. He grabbed Mass’s hoodie that Mass had chosen to wear that day and put it on, surprised when he saw how big the hoodie was on him. "Dang. Is the hoodie that big or this thing really THAT thin.-" he said under his breath. He grabbed Mass’s hat and put it on, pulling his hood over it. Next was the eyeliner. Ok, done. S.K. looked in the mirror and grinned, flashing his fangs that went all the way to the back of his mouth, and flicking his forked tongue a bit. Nobody’ll notice the teeth, slit pupils, and tongue right? Naw. Probably not.
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Downstairs:
S.K. walked downstairs to where a couple other states were and poured himself a cup of coffee. He was about to take a sip of coffee when he felt a tap on his shoulder and he turned around to see New Jersey. ‘Quick how does Mass act towards him?!- Insanely aggressive right? Yea I think this is the one.’
"Mornin’ sleeping beauty." NJ said with a small smirk as he poured himself a glass of milk.
"Stfu." S.K. responded coldly. He noticed the slightly offended look on Jersey’s face.
"Well d*nm somebody woke up on the wrong side of the bed this morning, huh?" Jersey said.
"Perhaps so. Now shut it and let me drink my coffee." S.K. said, and then taking a sip of coffee. Except the thing is, he didn’t add creamer or sugar or literally anything. He just drank it straight up. Which Mass never does. And unfortunately, Jersey caught that small detail, seeing as how often he goes to Dunkin with Mass.
Jersey chuckled a bit and took a sip of his milk. "Well that’s new."
"Whaddya mean?" S.K. questioned, glaring at the state in front of him.
"Ya never drink yer coffee black, so I was just stating that that was new." The Garden State said.
"O-oh. Yea. Um. Whatever." S.K. said, silently cursing himself for stuttering.
Jersey looked at the smaller with a bit of confused expression. "Are ya doin’ alright? Ya seem to be a bit off. Are ya sick or smth?" He said. He reached his hand to the other’s forehead and feeling the side of his face (well it’s more like closer to under the ear/around the jaw-), only to have his hand swatted away.
"I’m fine. I ain’t sick." Said the smaller of the two.
"Ok then…? I’ll see ya later at the meetin’ I guess." Jersey said and started to walk off.
"The what?!" S.K. shouted, spitting out his coffee into the mug.
Jersey turned around confused. "Yea…? Didn’t ya get the email bout’ the meetin’ at 3?"
"Oh.. OH- that meeting! Oh yea, it probably just slipped my d*nm mind I guess. See ya later." And with that he walked away, leaving Jersey in mild confusion.
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Later at the meeting:
S.K. could now understand why Mass hated these meetings so much. It was sooooooo f(technical glitch)in’ boring… He put his hood up, pulled it down as much as he could, and then just stopped listening to everybody else. What he did notice, however, was Louisiana staring at him, seemingly studying him. Watching his every movement. Satan’s Kingdom tried to remember ANYTHING about Loui, and then it him. He forgot 2 things. 1:Loui is one of Massachusetts’s best friends, and 2: Loui is in fact capable of sensing bad energy or different energies and spirits, ghosts, demons, ect…. Sh*t he hoped that Louisiana wouldn’t say anything or sense anything. Unfortunately for him though, Loui did sense something was wrong.
From across the Table, Loui felt that something was a bit… off, to say the least. He could feel a new type of negative or even demonic energy in the room. Well there weren’t any apparitions in the room, seeing as Loui had already checked for any and found none. He was about to give up trying to figure out what it was, but it bothered him too much. He looked around the room and looked at the energy of the other states (+Gov), checking off each one after he checked. Florida… The Fed… Texas… Cali… York…… and all the rest seemed somewhat normal. That was until he got to "Massachusetts". There was something that felt incredibly wrong, and he was kinda worried for his friend. He hadn’t even noticed Gov calling his name until he heard someone shout "Louisiana!!"
He snapped his head towards Gov, who had been the one who called him. "Huh?"
Gov just sighed. "I’ve been trying to get your attention for the past 5 minutes."
Loui rubbed the back of his neck with a slight chuckle. "Whoops- Uh- Whatcha need, sha?"
Gov rolled his eyes fondly. Nobody, and I repeat, NOBODY, is ever really able to hate or be mad at Loui. "I just wanted to know if you had any updates about anything going on in your state that I might need to know about?" He said.
"O-oh. Uh- no. Nothin’ dat comes to mind, sha." Loui said with a smile.
"*sigh* Alright then. New York?" Gov said, then continued.
"F(speaks New York) you." NY said with a slight glare.
"As always you’re such a pleasure to speak to."
"Piss off."
Louisiana had pretty much gone back to what he was doing in the first place. He noticed that "Mass" seemed to be fidgeting with something with something under the table. So, purely out of curiosity, he slid down in his seat a bit so he could see under the table. His eyes widened a bit as he saw what “Mass" was holding in his hands. It seemed to be a small double-bladed thing with weird designs on it.
He sat back up and looked at "Mass" who hadn’t seemed to notice the fact that he saw the blades.
"H-hey sorry fo’ interruptin’,- um hey Mass you doin’ aight sha?" Louisiana said, sending a slightly apologetic look Gov’s way.
‘Sh*t-‘ Satan’s Kingdom thought as he panicked for a second. "Uh- yea why do ya ask?" He said, giving the younger a slight glare.
"Well- you seem a bit… off, today. I’m sensin’ a very negative energy comin’ from ya, it ain’t like yer usual moody sleep-deprived energy." Loui said.
"I’m fine."
"Are ya sure sha?"
"Yes. Shut it."
"Again. Are you sure? Cuz if there is somethin’ wrong I can h-" Loui started but cut off by “Mass" grabbing a random vase and throwing it at him. The vase hit Loui directly in the side of his head and shattered, knocking him out of his chair and onto the ground where he curled up holding his head. Chaos only arose from the table.
"LOUI-!" Florida screamed as he got from his chair and kneeled down at Loui’s side, Texas following.
"WHAT THE HE// MASS?! What is wrong with you?! He was trying to he help!?!" Texas shouted while glaring at "Mass" and trying to get Loui to uncurl himself.
"Yea wtf?!" New York shouted turning to Mass and standing up, glaring at him. He was shocked when he saw "Mass" with a sick-evil grin on his face and glowing red eyes staring back at him through his hood. His face fell when the realization hit him. "You’re not my brother…"
"It took you f(technical glitch)in’ morons THAT long to figure it out?! Ha." Satan’s Kingdom said with an insane look in his eyes that sent shivers down the spine of the usually stoic New York.
"I thought we got rid of you a while ago!?!" Connie (Connecticut) shouted.
"Nope! Now, you’re next, Yorkie!~" S.K. said as he leaped up and swung the blades at York, luckily though York managed to just barely dodge it. (Sh*tty fight scene coming up-)
S.K. snarled and jumped at York with the blades again, this time managing cut York across the cheek and making the other hiss in pain. The smaller of the two had a wicked grin on his face as he licked the blood off the knife and swung again, this time cutting New York’s arm, which made the other yelp (as in the way a dog does). Jersey had gotten up to go assist York, but got pushed back down into his seat by Oklahoma (whom he sat by since I’ve decided that he sits between Texas and Oklahoma). He glared at Oklahoma who just told him to sit tf down and let York deal with it and just reluctantly listened to him.
York eventually managed to somehow grab the blade as S.K. swung again, but unfortunately this meant that the blade cut into his palm. But ofc he didn’t care and managed to twist the knife out of S.K.’s hand by the blade and toss him at the wall with the knife to his throat. He found unnatural joy in the panicked look of his brother’s controller, but quickly shut it out as he came back to reality and the situation at hand. He was about to slit the other’s throat but something S.K. said stopped him.
"W-wait! Now b-before you s-slit my throat, you need to remember one important thing." S.K. said.
"And what the f(speaks New York) is that?!" York half yelled half said normally.
Satan’s Kingdom just chuckled before giving an evil grin and saying, "Well you see Yorkie~ Me and your pathetic excuse of a brother share a body. Meaning… If you kill me, you also kill your useless brother.~"
New York’s face fell slightly as he realized that the stupid man controlling his brother was right. ‘Then how do we get Masshole back without hurtin’ im’….’ While he was lost in his thoughts, he heard a loud voice shout:
"I need the Commonwealth of Massachusetts present at the table right this moment!!"
York turned around, still keeping S.K. pinned on the wall, to see that it had been Gov that shouted that. Gov. Of all people. To say York was surprised to see the usually anxiety-ridden man standing confidently with a stern look on his face is an understatement. He didn’t think Gov had it in him. He was quickly snapped out of his thoughts tho when he felt something give up behind him. York quickly turned back around to see his brother looking at him with tear-glazed eyes and let go, letting Massachusetts slide down the wall and curl up in a little ball.
It quickly dawned on York that Mass was having a panic attack and couldn’t calm down or breathe at all, so he decided to try to do something that Mass used to do with him when he was younger (and smaller cuz now York is 5’10 while Mass is 5’6-). He reached his good hand out in front of Mass so the other could see it and decide whether he wanted to take it or not, and York was secretly hoping and praying that he did. He could see that Mass had seen his hand and was considering whether to take it or not.
At much as Mass would hate to admit it, he was terrified. He had been so weak that S.K. had been able to take control, he hurt his brother and one of his best friends… He flinched a little when he saw his little brother’s hand in front of him. Thoughts of the possibility that York was mad and about to hurt him went racing through his head. Mass then decided that whatever happened to him would probably be well deserved, so he reluctantly took his brother’s hand and expected to be hit or thrown at the wall. What he didn’t expect was for York to pull him into his lap and wrap him in a tight hug and start rubbing his back soothingly. Safe. He felt safe. York wasn’t gonna hurt him. He buried his head in his brother’s shoulder and tried to calm down and slow his breathing.
"Aww-" Florida started but was quickly cut off when Texas used his good hand that wasn’t holding Louisiana to smack him in the back of the neck. Unfortunately Mass got a glimpse of Loui, who was unconscious in Tex’s arms, and that didn’t help with him trying to calm down.
New York could feel Mass getting riled up again and teleported back to his room where he managed to get Mass to calm down completely and get him to sleep.
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honestly I wish huntlow got a kiss just to stick it to the antis. it feels like m/f ships are getting pushed to the side in the show and in the fandom to prioritise same sex ones and it's honestly weird. like they get one kiss and are on their high horse for the rest of it
yeah, i mean, long answer, sorry it took 3 days, but i know i'm personally totally squealing happy with what we got and i'm just ?????? confuzzled over people saying that it could be platonic? because they didn't kiss? does that mean raida is platonic too? no kiss on the lips???? lmao platonic lap sitting but seriously. i'm gay i want representation i'm super happy that lumity got kisses and that raida happened like i'm not bitter at all about those ships being canon i'm super super happy! and the huntlow content we got was freaking adorable. but if they got a kiss then antis would probably find some way to say it was one-sided or non consensual or whatever, WHATEVER ANTIS! anyway, luz is obviously the protag so her romance should take front and center but it does feel a little weird when peeps are like 'omg gus and mattholomule (sp? i don't care enough about him) and omg darius and alador' like that's another confuzzlement when 3 second interaction=canon when it platonic hand holding durrr. but tumblr has always loved its slash shipping so why am i even pretending to be surprised idk
also?????? why do these people not want willow to have things? like, i'm trying to think of another show where the side character who is plus sized (and wow is it ever more acceptable for men to be large!!!!) ends up with the 'bad but sad boy' (or a serious love interest at all ughhhhh don't@me with grenda from gf) like bad boys (i mean, calling hunter 'bad' sort of makes me crack up, but that's how he was introduced and he has the appearance down) usually either end up with the protag or in a love triangle with the protag, not with a character like willow. even if willow is buff as fuck in the timeskip, she's still muscular and of a larger build than the other girls, so i love love love love love that for her and why do people want to say huntlow is platonic when it's super great to have not only that body representation in an animated show but to punch the idea in the face that those characters shouldn't be able to experience love interests like everyone else?
(also hunter's relationship with willow and gus was part of what really pulled him into the group so it makes sense from a writing standpoint if they wanted either of them to have a love interest for it to be with each other)
so yeah idk i haven't seen anyone on their high horse exactly, mostly just people being happy about their ships! and their same sex ships! but the antis are driving me nuts they're not here to be happy about anything they just want to scream about how huntlow sucks and isn't real and i think half the time (and this might be what you were talking about anon) they just don't want it to be canon because it's m/f and that's...why don't they just take their hate and push it somewhere else?
unfortunately we just have to try not to listen and find the good content
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rori I’m curious what are your top three ethel cain songs and why?
ok so first off I usually don't have anything beyond vibes as a reason for picking favorites of anything but here we go:
no.1 strangers. so it's partially the cannibalism thing I think, I just really love that this is a song about cannibalism like I've got a morbid fascination with cannibalism stories and I think it started when I read a book about the donner party at age 12 but yeah. cannibalism<3. but then also the repeated asking of "I tried to be good am I no good am I no good am I no good?" and "I just wanted to be yours can I be yours can I be yours can I be yours?" like. UGHHHHH. SHE'S BEING DEVOURED BY HER LOVER AND THE ONLY THING SHE'S CONCERNED ABOUT IS IF SHE'S BEEN GOOD? AND THEN TALKING TO HER MOTHER AT THE END? "found you just to tell you that I made it real far, and that I never blamed you for loving me the way you did. while you were torn apart, I would still wait with you there." "don't think about it too hard or you'll never sleep a wink at night again, don't worry about me and these green eyes, mama just know that I love you, and I'll see you when you get here" UGHSHAHGHSHDHSS. AND THE WAY IT FEELS LIKE SUCH A CHILDISH THING TOO IN A WAY? LIKE SHE'S BEEN THROUGH SO MUCH AND AT THE END ALL SHE'S CONCERNED WITH IS IF SHE WAS GOOD FOR HER FORMER LOVER, AND THAT HER MOTHER DOESN'T WORRY. OH GOD. it's also such a pretty song too but that goes for a lot of ethel's songs so if I was picking based on that we'd be here all day
no.2 house in nebraska. I just LOVE the way she sings this one it's everything to me, and idk the despair in it is everything to me all I know is that this one ends up on repeat a LOT. it is GREAT for dramatically screaming along to I love this one
no.3 hard times, this one is so godawfully sad to me omg. I hear it and it's like an instant iceberg for my mental titanic. ughhhhh "I'm tired of you, still tied to me" UGHHHHH
honorable mentions go to: american teenager, fighting for a spot in top three just bc it's an ABSOLUTE bop about the disillusionment of the american dream, inbred, ALSO fighting for podium placement, for being SUCH a Gross™ song (affectionate). oh it's sososososo gross. "sucking on the back of his leg to stay warm" girlie WHAT? sun bleached flies for "god loves you, but not enough to save you" and televangelism for being the prettiest track on the preacher's daughter album and also for making me cry even though it's just an instrumental interlude
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Taylor Swift Midnights opinions??
it is SUCH a vibe oh my god!!!!
like lavender haze was so dreamy and just felt so soft? idk if that's a good descriptor but y'know
and then maroon and anti-hero come in with the good ol' one-two and make me want to scream and cry
snow on the beach like...sounds sad but made me feel happy and idk why
you're on your own, kid was so SICK. LIKE WHY WOULD SHE DO THAT???
UGHHHHH BUT MASTERMIND MADE ME WANT TO BE IN LOVE!!! BLONDIE PUT SOMETHING IN THAT SONG AND I KNOW IT!!!
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Well that's a great way to wake up. To a message from my partner asking why, if I was so sad, was I hanging out with my friends a lot (3 times a week according to him) and not him? He's scared of just being a fallback. And like. I get those feelings, but like. Idk it's like you forgot the rest of the shit leading up to that time. Also I was Not hanging out w folks that often (I wish tho). Like jfc I wanted something to distract me from the shit of the holiday months and, I'm sorry, but it's hard for me to be around you when I'm sad. Because when I'm sad (read: deeply suicidal and depressed), you Don't enjoy being around me! When I'm exceptionally down, I always end up feeling worse when I'm around you! Like. I baked for the first time in years alone (we usually do it together) and the food turned out great!! Despite what you like to act like when we bake together (like I'm dumb as all hell and that everything I'm doing is being done wrong!) And when we Do bake together, it Has to be done his way and when it doesn't turn out right he finds a way to make it my fault!!!!! Because I didn't follow his directions exactly pitch fucking perfectly to the damn letter (I. Fucking. Do.) And! I actually enjoyed baking!! I forgot that it's fun!! Ughhhhh idk what to do I just. Is it worth it to stay together? Can we salvage this???? I don't know. Do I even want to?? I resigned myself to it, but what do I actually even want??????? Maybe I'm just scared to be alone and that's why I'm holding on. :/
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amiaboyoragirl · 4 months
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alone
i dont have any friends. i live at home with emotionally unavailable parents and my brother, who is my only semi trusted person. we are really close and honestly if i didnt have him i wouldnt be alive but we definitely butt heads and i feel bullied by him even though he doesnt mean to hurt my feelings hes just a blunt ass bitch and 6.5 years younger than me but the dynamic is basically im a big baby he feels the need to take care of. and were codependent with weed nicotine and money/food. im a mess and cant get a job, he does instacart when hes not stoned af at home. hes the only person i interact with during the day other than awkward convos with my mom complaining about something and at least once a day i have to hug my dad which makes me very uncomfortable because 1. im autistic. 2. i have sexual trauma 3. he has traumatized me so bad but either doesnt remember or doesnt think it was traumatic (didnt involve incest but he was too involved in my personal business and forced me on birth control that fucked up my health for a while when the incident that caused him to flip was asault but my mom just slut shamed me and yeah anyway my relationship with them is fucked) but i have ocd and if i dont hug them i feel like theyre gonna die after that thinking idont love them because they cant see any other reason why i wouldnt hug them. and honestly im touch starved so a hug is nice here and there but my body is so uncomfortable here. ive lived here my whole life and i feel helpless. im sure it is learned helplessness because of trauma but still i cannot fucking function outside in the world alone.
i also have tits that make me uncomfortable and im currently trying to figure out if i feel this way because im trans or because of trauma and the general sexualization of the female body and social dynamics idk. i also just got out of a 3.5 year relationship with someone i thought i was going to marry and shit but i felt like i was a lesbian and broke up with him even though i didnt want to lose him i knew he wouldnt love me the way i loved him or if i was a guy inside he wouldnt love me anymore. i know he loved me. but a lot of it feels fuzzy and i cant decipher what was real or if it was all chemicals cuz we fucked and smoked and ate and watched tv and talked all the time. the sex was fucking amazing. sometimes i cry about it still. and i still cant touch myself without thinking about him and just forcing myself to dissociate through it and sleep immediately after. ive always been a sex addict since i was way too fucking young but before this relationship i was sleeping with multiple guys all the time, i needed it to get through going to school and work and keeping up the mask. but then covid hit. met my ex. realized we are autistic. i couldnt keep pretending and forcing myself to work in a fucking restaurant that was sensory hell and triggered my eating disorder. ughhhhh god dammit i know im just romanticizing my ex relationship because im missing the sex and affection and talking to him but realistically we werent going to last and i still feel like we both were hiding some feelings or thoughts we had idk i think he couldve been a narcasisstic asshole but my heart doesnt feel that way, maybe im the narcasist and hes just audhd and traumatized just like me. idk fuck. i miss him so much. we were doing so good like finally things felt peachy again and looking up for us even tho in reality it wasnt we were and are still broke addicts too stubborn to get help. but it was fun while it lasted i guess.
anyway i feel like a rabbit in a hole running out of food and water while the world dances in the snow covering the exit. idk. i havent eaten breakfast yet and i already smoked twice so im sure ill eat and sleep this shit off but idk the thing that gets me everyday is i wake up from a dream i feel like im with my ex and then wake up alone and sad as fuck and it just ruins my day because i let it, i dont want to let go of the pain, of him, i fucking miss him and wish things could be different. we always said we wanted to die holding each other in bed like that couple preserved in pompeii. my chest is on fire right now and if i could just have one more night together id do anything. we have the same birthday so that sucks. i wanted to say happy birthday but it felt way too soon and idk if itd ruin his day or not but iwas def sad all day. we broke up 2 months ago now and havent spoken since but i saw him twice waiting to cross the street while i drove by and my heart sank to my ass. he looked good af. but i have to be honest with myself its not my responsibility to try to make him not angry and act like a man child sometimes. and its not fair tohim to feel responsible for my moods all the time we just couldnt take care of eachother the way we needed because we are both depleted of what we need idk. im going back to sleep. im just feeling emo we shouldnt get back together but i feel like i cant trust my brain because im bpd and pmdd and i always feel this way around my period, we break up then my periods over and im sad as fuck about it and regret it. its too late now im sure hes lost any interest in me and has moved on.good for him. he should. i actually really hope hes happy right now. but i know i didnt feel completely right with him so fuck it ill just try to move on. i just wish i could be normal and have a job or school and friends stuff to distract myself and have new memories but im so isolated rn and depressed idk. i might feel fine tomorrow so i wont kms lol. bpd is sooo fun. especially with gender and sexuality ocd and just wanting to be loved but feeling so unlovable ayyyyy.. i could feel hot after breakfast who knows.
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choulchoulmisha · 3 years
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It kinda sucks that Supernatural decided to go full circle instead of, idk, giving their creations proper endings that would've made sense and actually been satisfying.
At the start, Sam didn't want to hunt. He wanted a normal life. Dean didn't want/didn't think he deserved a normal life. He "wanted" to die hunting. But then you see their real issues in time and what makes Sam happiest is leading and being a teacher (and getting a dog, let this man have a dog!!!) And Dean is happiest around family (Cas, Jack, Sam, Eileen, and bring in all the wayward sisters, etc)
Sam and Eileen retiring from hunting and becoming leaders and teachers to younger hunters and Dean gaining a "normal" life (job application, Cas and Jack, etc) would have been imo, the best ending for them. They don't get what they "want", they get what they need in the end. Peace AND freedom. Doing what makes them happy without an audience to entertain.
But instead we get everyone dying and going to fake heaven. It's fake as fuck because Bobby would never be happy to see Dean without grey hairs showing up. It's way out of character.
Plus, everything they did was basically for nothing because they all died anyway. It wasn't impactful considering the way Dean died kinda stupidly and unrealistically. And god, Sam was butchered with that wig! They butchered my boy!!!!!
I'm just saying... Anyone who thought the finale was a satisfying ending and in character... Maybe pay attention while watching the show....
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staravya · 4 years
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Computer science is giving me depression
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pourcap · 2 years
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thoughts: cp chapter 13
ohh so that's why laurent shirked border duty... god is anything ever just the way it seems in vere?? laurent growing up as the crown prince sounds so incredibly exhausting
"(...) You will need someone you can trust." i mean, he's not wrong, but i don't know if i can handle laurent eventually finding out who damen is after he's begun to trust (and maybe fall in love) with damen :(
That, unreasonably, annoyed him. ‘If I’d bedded you, you’d know it.' i love when damen gets all i-have-a-big-dick-and-know-what-to-do-with-it and idk if there will be nsfw scenes between damen and laurent in those novels but if there are but they're written horribly i will be very disappointed (i am quite optimistic though because of the well-written but obv morally very dubious damen/ancel scene)
'I want you to rot here.' not that his reaction is much of a surprise but still: ouch.
'I think if you could beat your uncle on your own, you would have done it already.' i loooooove damen so much <3 he's such an idiot though like hello?? you're still pretending to be a common solider!! but i love love love when he isn't afraid to call laurent out
i feel so bad for damen :(
The Regent could have dispensed with his nephew years ago, with little fuss. It was easier to blame the death of a boy on mischance than that of a young man about to ascend to the throne. Damen could see no reason why boy-Laurent should have escaped that fate. hmmm. i hate the regent. he makes me gag :)))))
(...) Damen felt a certain amount of empathy with the man: Laurent could inspire homicidal tendencies simply by breathing. *gagging* (but i do like that description of laurent)
ohhhh !!! laurent changed his mind !!! i am so excited for this !!!
damen is even given armour?? isn't he like 6'5 and burning with hatred for laurent after all that's been done to him??
'Sleeping in his tent?' if these were any other characters i'd be happy about this (i mean, i still am, but i just can't see this going well)
He passed a hand over his face. Laurent had agreed to this? better not get a boner again @ damen
'(...) I just hope he knows what he’s doing with you, and that he’s not like the Regent says, distracted by his first taste of cock.' i like jord so much but can he please stop paying attention to what the regent has to say?
The pre-dawn light bleached Laurent’s hair from gold to something paler and finer; the bones of his face appeared as delicate as the calamus of a feather. (...) he did not need gilt to be recognised under a parade standard (...). damen...
fuck govart
'You should throw him a pet to keep him off the men,’ said Jord. 'No,’ said Laurent, after a moment. He said it thoughtfully. ???? what is he planning now
nicaise :((((
He held out something to Laurent, the gesture peremptory and full of repugnance. ‘I don’t want it. It makes me think of you.' :((((
'I remember the offer you made me. Everything you said then was a lie. I knew it was,’ said Nicaise. ‘You’re leaving.’ ‘I’m coming back,’ said Laurent. ‘Is that what you think?' they make me sad. will nicaise show up in book 2? i really don't want him to be left alone with the regent
The Regent pinned some sort of jewelled badge of office to Laurent’s shoulder, then urged him to rise, and kissed him calmly on both cheeks. ughhhhh can he pls just die
He returned his eyes to the road, and the first part of his journey. South, and home. hmmmm. i hope he kicks kastor's ass.
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lavender-lotion · 3 years
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Fanfic Writer Asks
I was tagged by @asarcasticwitch - thank you so much!
1) How many works do you have on AO3?
737, which is an ugly number :(
2) What’s your total AO3 word count?
1,890,054 words, which ... AH I might actually get to 2mil by the end of the year!
3) How many fandoms have you written for, and what are they?
thank you, ao3 dashboard for this handy list:
Teen Wolf (TV) (377)
X-Men (Alternate Timeline Movies) (187)
Marvel Cinematic Universe (93)
Glee (29)
Young Justice (Cartoon) (11)
Kingsman (Movies) (9)
Original Work (9)
The Avengers (Marvel Movies) (8)
Criminal Minds (US TV) (7)
Thor (Movies) (6)
Deadpool (Movieverse) (5)
Weird City (TV) (5)
X-Men (Original Timeline Movies) (4)
Yu-Gi-Oh! Duel Monsters (Anime & Manga) (4)
Ragnarok (TV 2020) (4)
Spider-Man (Tom Holland Movies) (3)
Teen Wolf (TV) RPF (3)
Iron Man (Movies) (3)
The House in the Cerulean Sea - T. J. Klune (2)
Venom (Marvel Movies) (1)
Stranger Things (TV 2016) (1)
Captain America (Movies) (1)
Fate: The Winx Saga (TV) (1)
Power Rangers Ninja Storm (1)
X-Men - All Media Types (1)
Percy Jackson and the Olympians - Rick Riordan (1)
Riverdale (TV 2017) (1)
X-Men Evolution (1)
Push (2009) (1)
4) What are your top 5 fics by kudos?
With You, I Belong
Mates and Marriage Proposals
The Perceptions of You and I
(baby) maybe that matters more
Breathing You In
5) What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?
ughh so, fair warning, I have a lot of works. I definitely do not remember all of them, however I do have four works tagged as Unhappy Ending and then another nine works tagged Ambiguous/Open Ending, which is way more than I’d thought I had! 
however, there is one fic that stands out in mind when I think about which of my works has the angstiest ending! Heed the tags :)
And Now?
Teen And Up Audiences | Major Character Death | M/M | Teen Wolf (TV) | Chris Argent/Peter Hale/Stiles Stilinski | Chris Argent, Peter Hale, Stiles Stilinski | Alternate Universe - Soulmates, Canonical Character Death, Peter Hale Dies, Unhappy Ending
Stiles Stilinski finds out who his soul mates are by setting one on fire.
6) What’s the fic you’ve written with the happiest ending?
ughhhhhhhh I truly do not know??? 
7) Do you write crossovers? If so, what is the craziest one you’ve written?
I don’t write many crossovers at all! I have some mcu/teen wolf cross overs, I have a teen wolf/glee cross over plotted (that i’ll probably never write), but my strangest is probably this teen wolf/x-men cross over!
what-ifs (don’t fuckin’ matter to no one)
Teen And Up Audiences | No Archive Warnings Apply | M/M | X-Men (Alternate Timeline Movies)Teen Wolf (TV) | Logan (X-Men)/Sheriff Stilinski | Logan (X-Men), Sheriff Stilinski, Stiles Stilinski | Memory Loss, Telepathy, Mentions of War, Implied/Referenced Alcohol Abuse/Alcoholism, Child Neglect, Grief/Mourning, Telepath Stiles Stilinski, Telekinetic Stiles Stilinski, Nightmares, Cuddling & Snuggling
There’s somethin’ there. Somethin’ that has him sleeping curled up on his side with a pillow tucked to his chest, somethin’ that has him splittin’ up his food ‘fore he eats ‘cause he don’t need as much as a baseline. Has him turnin’ to tell someone shit that ain’t there. There’s just...there’s just somethin’ there that’s missin’ and it shouldn’t be missin’.
8) Do you write smut? If so, what kind?
sometimes! I don’t write a lot of smut because I actively dislike writing it, but the smut I do write is super super soft and sappy and full of emotions lol
9) Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?
I respond to almost all of my comments! comments i won’t respond to: negative comments, unsolicited criticism, comments that aren’t relevant to the fic itself, comments simply asking for more 
I love love love responding to comments! I love every single comment that I get and I want to show how much I appreciate getting them, and personally I think responding to comments is the only way to do that! everyone has different comment philosophies, but for me, if someone is taking the time to comment on my fic like I so badly want them to, I think it’s important to respond to show my appreciation! 
10) Have you ever received hate on a fic?
aha YEAH I DO. this past weekend I actually got a number of shitty comments and had to file two ao3 abuse reports for harrasment (: I love it
I am no stranger to hate comments. I write copious amounts of age difference fic. I write copious amounts of incest. I am not going to apologize nor am I going to feel bad for enjoying either.
11) Have you ever had a fic stolen?
ughhh I sure as heck hope not! 
12) Have you ever had a fic translated?
Yes! I have a number of them :) I always always do my best to make sure it’s linked to the original fic, AND that I add a tag noting that there’s a translation!
13) Have you ever co-written a fic before?
I have made a few attempts! the only successful attempt is there's nothing i wouldn't do to make you feel my love which is a collaboration with @flightinflame, not quite a co-write!
14) What’s your all-time favorite ship?
I am unable to answer this lol I don’t have an all-time favourite. mutli-shipping forever.
15) What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?
god okay this is such a good question! imma ramble about a few so bear with me here! (i may have 700 posted works but I also have a few hundreds wips & ideas floating around in my gdrive, too)
gone & past - this is a starrish wip i’d started in 2017. I ended up deleting it from ao3 to rewrite it and never got there, but I have about 20k of content! I built my home, inside of you - thorki human au with college jock thor and high school dancer loki. i’ve got a start and nothing else Sheriff Stilinski Gets Some Sweet Sweet Lovin’ - massive wip where... well, the sheriff fucks his way through the entire pack. I want to write it but. trans allison au - this is an au where allison is trans and that changes the entire season 1 canon. it features stallison, petopher, and a looooooong ass outline that will never exist beyond my wips You Fill My Heart (With Such a Gentle Love) - this is a stetopher a/b/o au with pregnant omega stiles and alpha pair petopher falling in love. it started as a labour of love to someone I no longer have in my life. I have about 30k, a full outline, but idk. makes me sad to think about it they slipped briskly into an intimacy from which they never recovered - this is my big x-men first class rewrite that I honestly don’t think i’ll ever finish. I have a few thousand words, a full outline, but no love lost for cherik so. doubtful Physiotherapy (I'll Be Your Baby) - this was a fic I was SO excited about, and then it kinda flopped and stayed a wip because I didn’t have a plan or the motivation to finish it. it’s a winterspider human au with amputee bucky and science twink peter that I adore the premise of but who knows breathing you in chapter 2 - I have a massive second chapter planned for this fic but the first did so good so fast I am way too intimidated to write more in case everyone hates it lmao
there are more arjgoirjeg there are so many more but these are the bigger ones I can think of right now!
16) What are your writing strengths?
ughhhhh I hate answering this because I have, like, seriously bad imposter syndrome around my writing BUT I do think i’m able to weave poignant backstory into narration & i write strong, distinctive narrative voices!
17) What are your writing weaknesses?
literally I can’t write settings at all. I don’t know how people vividly describe settings but I absolutely cannot do that and it’s one of the reasons I haven’t delved into original fiction. I need to write the town my characters live in?? fuck that imma just use a location we’ve seen on screen & let readers fill in the blanks lmao
I am also shit at long fic. I don’t have the mind for long and interesting plots, and I don’t have the focus to write long fic (which is why every long fic i’ve ever posted has taken me literal years to complete smh).
18) What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?
I like it! both as a reader and as a writer. as a writer, I generally only use a few words, or small sentences that can be understood by context, and I generally don’t 
19) What was the first fandom you wrote for?
the last thing I wrote and posted was this one:
Languish
Teen And Up Audiences | No Archive Warnings Apply | M/M | X-Men (Original Timeline Movies) | John Allerdyce/Bobby Drake | Bobby Drake, John Allerdyce, X-Men (Team) | Not Canon Compliant, Future Fic, Established Relationship, Summer, Teasing, Fluff
It was a really, really hot Saturday, and most of the school was outback, enjoying the sun, not caring about the heat, and having the time of their life.
Everyone but Bobby, of course, who was melting away.
“I just want to remind everyone that I make ice. I am the Ice Man. I am not built for the heat and soon enough I’m going to melt away into nothing.”
20) What’s your favourite fic you’ve written?
this is another impossible question! I have a few I really enjoy, but I really don’t think I have a favourite that stands out above the rest!
i’m tagging: @4magicandmayhem @insertmeaningfulusername @midrashic @wynnefic @ikeracity @stronglyobsessed @elledelajoie @wolfnprey​ & anyone else who sees it and wants to do it! seriously! go ahead :)
blank questions below the read more!
1) How many works do you have on AO3?
2) What’s your total AO3 word count?
3) How many fandoms have you written for, and what are they?
4) What are your top 5 fics by kudos?
5) What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?
6) What’s the fic you’ve written with the happiest ending?
7) Do you write crossovers? If so, what is the craziest one you’ve written?
8) Do you write smut? If so, what kind?
9) Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?
10) Have you ever received hate on a fic?
11) Have you ever had a fic stolen?
12) Have you ever had a fic translated?
13) Have you ever co-written a fic before?
14) What’s your all-time favorite ship?
15) What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?
16) What are your writing strengths?
17) What are your writing weaknesses?
18) What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?
19) What was the first fandom you wrote for?
20) What’s your favourite fic you’ve written?
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1800violetcrave · 3 years
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greatest hits reactions !!!
greatest hits: so cool so cool so cool so cool
fuzzy : LETS FUCKING GO THIS SONG MAKES ME HYPE :DDD ALL THE LIL MELODIES AND NOISES HIT MY BRAIN SO WELL AAA
numb: literally been stuck in my head since it first came out LMAO
violet: still kinda early into the album but this is most likely gonna stay my favourite ?? idk it's just so fucking catchy and good and the lyrics ughhhhh 👏👏👏
just kidding: didnt like it that much when i first heard it but by the end of it i was boppin! wouldnt skip it but prolly wouldnt seek it out
secret life: THE INSTRUMENTAL THE SOUNDS THE BEATS AAAAA MY LIL BRAIN IS GROOVIN !! ALSO THAT ONE MELODY IN THE CHORUS MMMMM
"real life never feels like it's mine, so ill dissociate until im fine" ;-;;;;;;;
i HAD to repeat this one as soon as it was done, def one of my favs, probably tied with violet
american graffiti: it gives me older parx vibes and makes me all :,,,,,)))) really lovin aws' vocals in the chorus!! also the outro is sickkkk
paranoid: slaps 10/10 but we been knew !!! was stuck in my head for a while
fruit roll ups: THIS SONGGGGG !! okay first of all, 3/4 time, superior ! but SECONDLY it's so 🥺🥺🥺 it's so sweet and innocent and 🥺🥺🥺😭😭😭 :((((((( AND THIRD THAT LIKE SYNTH SOLO NEAR THE END??? LIKE THAT SOLD IT FOR ME THIS IS DEF A FAV AAA
like it: holy fuck the mood change 0-0 im so here for it tho !!!! the unhinged vibes of this song??? fuck yes
gladiator: holy fuck suddenly im in a dance club??? and im g r o o v i n ????
magnetic: OH MY GOD???? IVE BEEN REBORN ??? i fucking love songs with this energy like BANGING instrumentals and an apathetic voice and THE CHORUS?? THE REPETITION ?? i feel like this is catering to all my specific likes ofmhfkfhf
crying over it all: aaaah shite here come the sad girl hours again ;-; this gives me heavy nostalgia idk why
ice bath: oh my god i mean it when i say nothing can prepare u for this. it's an experience it's a moment it's an emotion
see u in the future: oh my gndjdbdhjdd i feel so bad for laughing but the intro caught me so off guard wtf wtf ANYWAYS THIS SONG WILL GO SO HARD LIVE IF HE CAN EVEN DO THE RAPS??? BUT YEAH 10/10 GOD DAMN I CANNOT WSIT TO SEE OTTO DO THOSE DRUMS LIVE AAAAA
my overall thoughts are that these boys CONTINUE to kill it every time !!!!! album after album they just keep getting better and going harder UGH wowow i love them :DDD this is definitely an album im gonna keep very close hdnfhdjfnnf it's so amazing :,)
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badmoon--rising · 3 years
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Formality
WERE IN THE SHIT NOW BAYBEEEEE
Ooohhhhh Allison.....
Derek’s screams make me so sad wtf.....
Oh my god the line “sweetheart, there are werewolves running around in the world. Everything’s a joke to me. How else do you think I stay sane” is INCREDIBLE character writing it drives me insane
SO interesting that Kate tells Allison that her only motivation to tell her the truth was because she has a natural talent for hunting and she wants to use her to catch the second beta, not for any other reason. It just says a lot and is great characterization
God. Allison. You are unbelievably fucked up.
DEREKS STUPID LITTLE CHARACATURE SNDKSNFKDKG
Hi Scott!!!!!!
DEATON IS THE MOST BADDASS CHARACTER IN THE WHOLE SHOW. I LOVE HIM HIS SCENE HERE WHEN PETER THROWS THE CHAIR AT HIM IS THE BEST I TRUST THIS MAN WITH MY WHOLE LIFE
Stiles: “you’re not alone, you have me!” The love......... the love
Mom............ :( OH MY GOD THE MUSIC IN THIS SCEN E IS THE SAME SONG THAT PLAYS IN THE MRI SCENE IN 3B IM SO FUCKING SAD. AND STILES TELLS HIM HE CANT PROTEXT EVERYONE...... AND IN 3B STILES INSISTS THAT SCOTT DOESNT PROTECT HIM. IM FUCJING MISERABLE.
Derek :(((((
Yknow what, screw each other
Such a cute line when Scott tells Jackson “you can’t tell me after all the time you spent with her to get to me that you didn’t actually get to know her and like her” I adore Scott’s love for Allison that isn’t inherently romantic it’s really sweet
PLEASE WHEN SCOTT BODYSLAMS JACKSON aND JT CUTS BACK TO HIM SWEATY ABD HORRIFJED EJFJEJGKRKG
“You gonna help me?” “hell heah” [hugs Scott] THE LOOOOVVEEE
Hi Stiles. You’re a clown
Penis Hale I’ll kill you myself. What is up with this bitch and skin
How much money did macy’s give this show
Derekkkkk :’(((((( I’m so sad
Mooommmm you are the best person ever
Jackson drinking vodka just out in the open like that lmao not in a million years
“Normal teenage girl” UGHHHHH ALLISON YOURE IN A CULT
Damn beacon hales high school has moneyyyyy
SNDKSKKFKD HI PETER????
A field’s medal :’) ilysm Lydia
DANNYYY
Okay. I do wanna say. Watching an entire gym full of (presumably mostly straight) high schoolers stare down One Man in disgust for acting homophobic is literally one of the most comforting scenes ever for me. It just warms my heart so much idk
SHSKFKSKF “WHAT ARE YOU LOOKING AT GREENBERG” WHY DID I NEVER HEAR THAT UNTIL NOW
UGHHHHH YOURE NOT JUST A GIRLLLLL Q__Q
Good for Scott :)
The way Stiles just Knows Jackson fucked up
Okay. Lydia’s bite scene. Iconic.
“LYDIAAA RUUUNNNN” ALWAYS HURTS ME
Uh oh. Tha big reveal
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photolover82 · 3 years
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The Masked Singer Season 5 Episode 9: Spicy Six Time ft a disappointing elimination (Commentary & Thoughts)
Hello everybody! Welcome (or welcome back) to Ana’s Masked Singer recap, where I, Ana, recap every single episode of the Masked Singer. So, after a week off because of the sing-a-long episode (which I never recap because there isn’t anything new to talk about), we are into our spicy six (that’s a Cinco de Mayo thing) or should I say top 6? This is where things are getting tough because everyone is so good and tough eliminations. Anyways, let’s get into this episode because *spoiler alert* I am not very happy with the result...
Side Note: I am not including guesses here because I feel like it is a bit repetitive (if you are new, you can see some of my previous blog posts hehe... especially the last one I posted)
First, let’s begin with the elimination that I feel is the saddest of the season:
Robopine 😦😦
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Commentary: He sang Water Runs Dry by Boyz II Men and it was beautiful! Like I understand I might have a bias for this guy because I love his voice and I think it’s butter... but I do gotta say the competition is stiff at this point of the show and people are really bringing it. However, come on guys, his voice is just stunning and emotional and ughhhhh why did he leave?! If you guys know my blog, you probably know that he is one of my favorites so this makes me super sad, I am now really hoping Black Swan wins it all
Having said that, he was revealed to be (as I suspected):
Tyrese Gibson
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Yeah, wooo I got it right. Honestly, this was upsetting but when he said in his post show interview that Beyoncé didn’t win Star Search but she still Beyoncé made me feel a tiny bit better about this tho. Idk man these eliminations every season as the show is about to wrap, it gets sadder and more annoying every time when we reach this point. Anyways, yeah Tyrese! He sang amazing, he did THAT so like I guess it doesn’t matter at the end of the day. Oh and if you wanna understand how that last clue package relates to him, the person he lost was Paul Walker and the amusement park ride he was talking about was Fast and Furious, which has a ride at Universal Studios (which I have been on... it’s cool ngl, his face is on the ride and everything)
Anyways, moving onto our remaining five or how they called it in the previews the “fiesty five”...
1. Black Swan 🦢🖤
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Commentary: Ok, so now that Robopine is gone, she is the sole person I am routing for to be in the finale at least (but I have heard some rumors about her this episode coming up tonight that I hope and pray are not true.. so this makes me nervous). In my ideal world, she can win it all. She sang Do I Do by Stevie Wonder and girlll be picking insane songs wow, but she be killing every last note. Her voice really is something special, I wasn’t too sure about her first performance, but she’s really proving herself omg. She is honestly a favorite of mine as you probably know.... because 1. Girl Power ladies and gents... but most importantly 2. IT’S FREAKING JOJO... LIKE THE GIRL WHO SANG “GET OUT (LEAVE) RIGHT NOW IT’S THE END OF YOU AND ME...” (if you know it, sing along) She got them pipes and I feel the same way about her as I did Tori Kelly last season, and to refresh your mind or let the new people know.... mark my words ladies and gents.... these girls are SOME OF THE BEST VOICES OF OUR GENERATION. There, I said it, drop the imaginary mic 🎤
2. Russian Dolls 🪆
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Commentary: Ok guys, so my gut feeling isn’t my favorite thing in the world... but it tells me how this show is being set up that they might win this season. I like them, don’t get me wrong, but I don’t really think they deserve to win it all (but like at the end of the day, wtf is all? A trophy? Is that it?! Just think about that before you get annoyed... also a message to myself because oof this season has tested my patience). Anyways, they sang Shallow by Bradley Cooper and Lady Gaga and like always their harmonies are on point but this whole “let’s be 2 people and then surprise a 3rd person and then ohhh is there maybe a 4th, nope jk we are back to 2, oh wait nvm now we are 3 again thing” is getting annoying and aggravating. Let’s just be straight here: THERE ARE 3 PEOPLE UNDER THESE DOLLS... NO MORE, NO LESS... don’t let them mess with your head. It’s Hanson, point blank end of story... are they the best thing since sliced bread? Ofc not... but the show is really hyping them up and setting it up for them to win so a group can like finally win for the first time... which makes me flash back to the time Kandi won because she was a woman and they wanted a woman to win... like I am all about girl power but that was not the move. Just like if they win, this will also not be the move. Not because they are bad, but because there are better *cough* Black Swan *cough* 🤷🏻‍♀️
3. Yeti ❄️☃️
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Commentary: I feel like Yeti is the most versatile of the singers, like he can sing, roller skate (still can’t get over that), dance, and now rap! I feel like he can really do it all and has a chance at being in the finale. He rapped It Takes Two and wow it was super fun to watch, it was hard to resist the urge to dance in your seat when you watch it. He really is super talented man.. he danced his little Yeti butt off and freestyled and everything wow. Everyone got super hyped, it was an awesome performance. He really brought the entertainment factor ngl. This is so Omarion, obviously, and I feel like he can do it all. He has a shot at the finals but we really gotta see what he decides to do in the next week or so.
4. Chameleon 🦎
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Commentary: I am sorry to all the Wiz Khalifa fans and the rap fans in general, but he should have gone home this episode (actually, he should have gone home instead of seashell but that’s beside the point). He rapped a Busta Rhymes song (who fun fact: was also on the show last season and got eliminated 1st) and I gotta admit, it was his strongest performance, but I feel as opposed to everyone else, he isn’t as vocally strong. He can rap like nobody’s business and has got flow for days... but this ain’t the Masked Rapper... this is the Masked SINGER, guys, I can’t believe he actually has gotten this far honestly. If he doesn’t go home tonight, I am gonna be a bit upset ngl.
5. Piglet 🐷
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Commentary: Alright, so Piglet reminds me so much of Crocodile, who I liked but I was very hot and cold about, because when he does certain songs, he knocks it out of the park, like the last performance he gave for the Spicy Six, where he sang Against All Odds by Phil Collins and it was one of his best performances. However, it’s only when he does love ballads that he shines, and I know it’s Nick Lachey and that’s how he is and all but like I feel like when he tries them upbeat songs, he falls flat a bit. Idk man I think ballads suits his voice more, or the upbeat songs he chooses are just not the right ones for his voice. Either way, I think he might go home next week in the semifinals.... I predict but you never know with this damn show.
Anyway, that’s it! Sorry for the late post.... it’s been an insane week for me. I am starting summer classes so I am trying to get used to this new schedule. I hope you guys enjoyed this recap and tonight is the fiesty five and I am a bit nervous ngl! Anyways bye guys and see you next week! 👋🏼
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