#ugh why am i like this

[eros-ghoulette]

I was bored and my mind constantly wanders to this picture of Copia, so I drew it

#TUMMY #COPIAS TUMMY #copia fanart #copia my beloved #papa emeritus iv #ghost band #bite it #ugh why am i like this

[pixelatedraindrops]

The RainCode community seems to like me okay, but idk about the whump community. I’ve been blocked by two accounts, one of which I relied on for prompts. It doesn’t feel very good… ;-;

#pixel txt. #personal #vent #i hate it when I know I’ve been blocked #because then I get paranoid and ask myself what I did wrong #and bam the insecurity is back :’) #i think one blocks if your age isn’t on your bio #but idk about the other one… #i put a subtle hint to my age if thats whats required #ugh why am i like this

[myfriendgoo94]

kinda wanna be called a good girl :/

#ugh why am i like this

[transmascwillbyers]

rational brain rn: Noah won an award? I'm so happy for him! This is great!

animal brain rn: WAIT WHY THE HELL DO YOU LOOK SO PERFECT IN YOUR FUCKING SUIT AND YOUR HAIR AND YOUR VOICE IS DEEP NOW WTF NOAH I DID NOT NEED THIS GENDER ENVY-

#byler #noah schnapp #tw caps #ugh why am i like this #anyways let's normalize trans kids on the internet rambling incoherently about noah schnapp it's such a slay /hj

[digital-fantasy]

I caved and bought myself a badge. I have no self-restraint.

#p #badge #now i have 2 more badges #ugh why am i like this

[sunset-peril]

Dang it, I just remembered the Wolfbred don't speak Hylian before the Exile ends

Dang it, dang it, dang it

...

In other news....

WHY AM I USING GOOGLE DOCS TITLES AS NOTES

#watch me write myself in and out of plot holes and corners over and over again #ugh why am i like this #why do i do this to me #hyrule's final stand #now I gotta come up with a plausible explanation for how Impa and Midna can communicate #how will this WORK #no i have no clue what I'm doing with the three docs

[yennefer]

i pick up my keys tomorrow for my new place and i have so much anxiety i feel sick 😓

#this will be my first time living alone without my family/a rooommate #and my first time living in non student apartments #ugh why am i like this #makilah.txt

[iamnotaware]

Math final exam tomorrow 🙂(😭)👍

#11th grade went by so fast what the hell #i'm gonna be in 12th grade like a whole month from today #note to maths: you made me cry so much but i understood you kind of so it's all fine #i just hope the paper is easy tomorrow #i need to get good marks this time #for the academic validation #ugh why am i like this #maethinks #maethinks very stressfully

[bereft-of-frogs]

I should really be love this whole Goncharov thing rather than feeling a mild grumpy irritation about it because

1) it’s just fun I should feel absolutely 0 irritation, and a lot of the posts are really funny. it’s the kind of collective tumblr creative movement that I normally find really fun

2) I love House of Leaves and deep critical analysis about things that are completely fictional and I cannot believe that they got Danielewski to comment

3) I know how annoying I was at the start of the Dracula Daily stuff

and yet

1) I think when you start off outside of the joke and take a while to get in on it, it’s hard to shake this feeling of being an outsider. the inception of this meme started literally overnight and a lot of the early posts were indistinguishable from real posts I might see (literary analysis about fictional characters named Andrey are...not actually that uncommon given the types of blogs I follow), so it took me a long time to figure out what was going on, and it’s left me feeling...idk a bit shut out in the cold and unable to get as excited about the meme as I should be

2) After the last year of ‘it’s not that deep’ ‘symbolism isn’t real’ ‘shut up about media criticism’ I know I should be excited that people are getting on any sort of film critique train (and I know it’s probably not by and large the same crowd who are making and sharing these posts as were making all the ‘why would you watch a black and white serbian film from the pov of a pigeon when you could watch the mcu instead’ tiktoks this summer) but I’m left with this feeling of...ah ok symbolism and motifs and themes are real when it’s part of a joke, when it’s not real, but ‘it’s not that deep’ when we’re trying to be sincere? Which just contributes to feeling like I’m drowning in seven layers of irony.

I really hope that this meme catches on and inspires people to actually watch and critique older or more complex films and I really hope that I can find some energy to be excited about the genuinely funny and creative posts...ugh I hate feeling irritable like this...

#to be deleted #i went on the new post editor to make sure no one could reblog this lol #unnecessary dramatics #ugh why am i like this

[pandora15]

doing my usual scroll through the Obi-Wan Kenobi Needs a Hug tag on ao3 because dammit, I need a hug

#i woke up at like 2 something am this morning and struggled to fall back asleep for four hours before giving up #and now it's 4 pm and i'm really feeling it but i have an hour of work left #and though i'm tired i don't want to take a nap #or do anything productive really #i might just play video games after work because that seems to keep me occupied well #i also really need to clean up around here but alas i am lazy and it's to my own detriment #ugh why am i like this #pandora's ramblings

[littlemissamericana]

look at me finding the horniest song on an album and making it my whole personality again

#i can see you #ugh why am i like this #but like push me up against a wall

[the-100th-witch]

I'm feeling stagnant at my job and I've only been there for a year ???

I'm thinking it's bc im not at school on top of my job bc i didn't feel like this my first 2 jobs (college campus job - 3 years and retail store - 3/4 years and both I was going to school)

now that I don't have another thing going on - just work - I'm hella bored and I hate that lol I do want to go back to school in another year or 2 but i don't want to go JUST bc I'm bored

#personal #ugh why am i like this #i am trying to sub teach soon so maybe that will help

[dead-man-in-the-grave]

oops played pokemon for 10 hours straight again

#pokemon #pokemon violet #pkmn #pkmn sv #rain speaks #ok listen #i am basically at the endgame and am over halfway through the pokedex. ive only had this game for 4 days. thats 35 hours of play time. #ugh why am i like this

[seeminglydark]

ugh ive been staring into the void for like 3 hours, someone tell me to go enrich myself or take a shower or something jfc.

#ask me something idc #maybe itll force me to sketch #ugh why am i like this

[reds-ramblings]

I either think WAY too much or I don't think at all. There is never an appropriate amount of thinking that goes into anything I do.

#ugh why am i like this