#ugh im so tired

[spinjitsuburst]

i said i would do it.... and behold......... ninjago tier lists feel free to yell at me for character placements

#im so MAD i couldnt find a good one with dragons rising characters #ill do another one at some point with like. just the DR cast #but arin and sora would be in the favs category. by the way. #ugh im so tired #ninjago #lego ninjago #spinjitsu screams

[hxllrzxr]

I don’t want to give up but I’m not getting anywhere

#ugh im so tired

[berry-lite]

Disordered ramblings below:

I meet with my doctor today to talk about my ED and a social worker to talk about the intensive outpatient program. It's currently 4am and I'm freaking out thinking I'm not sick enough and they're not going to diagnose me with atypical anorexia because I haven't lost enough weight. I don't want to get diagnosed with bulimia or BED because I only truly binged once (not counting since my diagnosis since I've been pseudo recovering).

I lost almost 20 lbs (18.6 lbs) in 6 and a half weeks. That's a rate of 2.86 lbs a week, normal weight loss is supposed to be 2 lbs a week max, so I should have only lost 13. So I hope that means I am sick enough? I'm not counting the past week since I've been bouncing in and out of recovery. I also get blood work today and am scared it will come back normal and that's more proof I'm not sick enough.

I'm also trying to lose as much as I can before I start the program. I want to see if I can get to 175. If I can lose weight slowly from 175, I think I could be okay with that with help.

It's also a program where I'll probably only eat one meal at, so I could just OMAD... but maybe since I'm thinking this, I need a partial hospitalization instead, but I don't want to give them control over so many meals. I hope I don't say something about PHP to the social worker. Stupid recovery brain.

I mean I know I need energy to deal with cancer treatment but I'm not starting for a few weeks, and it looks like I may not need chemotherapy, since I could do hormone therapy. So it's still okay if I lose more right?

#berrybytes #inner disordered ramblings #ugh im so tired

[wnightingales]

are we. are we back to the sammy jericho midcard vortex

#please no #ugh im so TIRED #gabbi���s wrestling liveblog #aew #aew dynamite #sammy guevara

[gh0stsp1d3r]

so I forgot to tell you guys but it does turn out that I do have moderate insomnia lolz.. currently writing this at 4 am and I have to wake up at 6…

that’s why I haven’t been as active im just trying to figure shit out, I’ll get to everyone’s requests soon (:

#i wish i was joking #im writing this at like 4 am #but I queued it so that I didn’t wake anyone up #ugh im so tired #not too sure if this is gonna affect my writing or not #but I hope it won’t

[poems-of-a-lover]

alright. who's gonna step up and mercilessly make out with me until im bright red and can barely breathe. cmon.

#can u guys tell im very sleepy #ugh im so tired #also my??? thighs r sore???? i didnt realize my routine was so thigh centered bc wow #my arms and my thighs r d e a d #anyway. boys <3 #mlm #mlm yearning #mlm post #mlm love #gay mlm #trans mlm #t4t #mlm blog #mlm thoughts #t4t yearning #sfw #mlm sfw

[patisserieblu]

Some folks are waaaaay too comfortable with forcing kids to eat something they don't like.

Like imagine you're at a restaurant and there's a bouncer who won't let you pay or leave until you've eaten everything on the plate. That would be fucking abhorrent, but people just be doing that to their kids.

#we dont show pictures of starving children to adults and tell them to suck it up and eat the brussel sprout #so why the fuck does anyone think it's cool to do that to kids? #ugh im so tired

[soldier-poet-king]

Bookstore fucked up and sent me this 4 days early and I'm not complaining but also I cant read it yet bc I havent finished my reread

#and i havent finished my reread bc im so tired and busy #i leave at 6.20am and get home past 5pm #i got chores and stuff too #ugh im so tired #will not be posting abt it til at lwast the 13 dw #the goblin emperor #the grief of stones

[kieshartzishere]

Just because I am literally running on no sleep and smii7y videos with mild spite.

(And to torture/humor @pleafyistired )

The eyes are always there, they don't see all the time, but you can bet their soul they know the figure is always there.

It is in the dark, a shadow, the silhouette.

The last part is the nickname or term they call it.

It sometimes looks humanoid when out of the natural shadows. Almost like it's someone important.

Or well, supposedly important.

#kieshartzistalking #rtumblr kiesha #ugh Im so tired

[cookie-run-kingdom-story]

updated my tower of records and made the blog theme more mobile friendly!

#ugh im so tired #not cookie run

[trashbaget]

being this superfoxyawesomehot is so exhausting 😩

#me at any given time: #ugh im so tired #it’s because im hot isnt it #it’s because im too sexy for my shirt #shut up im holding the trashtalking breadstick

[the-100th-witch]

Spent valentine's day doing chores and applying to jobs lol

maybe i should eat

#personal #ugh im so tired #been up since 6am

[vheenuz]

so hey yallll!! im tempted to write some more but idk what to write about… i’ve been really into cod lately so maybe that??

#send help #writers block #i literally have no ideas what to post here #hekp me #ugh im so tired

[arsenickittycat]

ok things have died down now

it wasn't as bad as last time and this time we managed to close our door before we freezed up, yay!

I know it sound silly but it genuinely made me feel a bit safer (even though I was terrified that they would actually come to my room or get angry because how dare I put some space between us)

#arsenic vague posting #ugh im so tired

[poems-of-a-lover]

fuck i need someone to just. help me calm down. when things get rough. like telling me that its okay and that im allowed to rest now. im allowed to relax and let my guard down. nothings going to happen to me if i do, they promise. im allowed to rest and stop thinking and i can just let them handle things. i dont wanna think anymore. i need someone who makes me feel safe again please.

#ugh im so tired #i hateeee being on edge constantly #i need to be put down immediately #kinda vent ig???

[valentinoappreciator]

how FUCKING hard can it be, for a supposedly professional place, to answer a simple job applicant's email with something bullshit like "sorry we're full for the time being" or some shit??? why do I gotta be the one to do all the leg work here!!!! fuck you

#text #my post #work #ugh im so tired