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beom9yus · 7 months

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: alien!taehyun x afab!reader

: you were relaxing one day, when you hear a sound of a crash coming from your backyard

: oral - reader receiving, penetration, gendered term girl is used and that’s it. pretty tame fic tbh

: 5k words

It has been more than a year since you’ve moved into a rural area. You’d always loved peacefulness and quiet, and you worked hard for your current living situation. You get to work from home and make a lot of money, while not having to interact with people, because of course, you live alone with no neighbors surrounding you. You loved it. You’re surrounded by beautiful plants and scenery, seeing fields filled with flowers in the summertime. Of course, it’s expensive living like this. You have to drive for some time to reach stores, and the satellite WiFi and utility costs are tremendous enough, but luckily with your job, you earn more than enough to live the way you want. You loved going outside, doing whatever you wanted without the fear of anyone watching you, your hobbies sprouting freely from how carefree you’ve become. Resting and doing what you want always comes after work though.

You feel your eyes strained as you close your laptop, finally escaping the electronic light hitting them. You get up and stretch, at last looking outside, and you see the warm sun has started to set. The beautiful rays shining through your windows, hitting your walls and furniture, illuminating your house beautifully. You smile to yourself, realizing your work was done. It was worth it, you have the next three days off because you decided you would finish your work assignment before it was supposed to be completed, wanting to enjoy extra days doing what you want. You just suffered sitting on your computer for eleven on-and-off hours for something that could be done in four days, but it had been completed.

You dance a little to yourself, realizing you could spend the next few days frolicking like a little lamb in the fields if you wanted to, maybe you should go hiking, or just stay in sleeping, or anything else, whatever you wanted. Your little dance was stopped early as you felt your stomach grumble. Hungry..

You head towards your kitchen as you decide on what you wanted to eat. Preparing the dish and finishing it, you throw the plate into the sink. You’ll do that later.

Now, it was time to relax and watch a show on the couch. You decide to put on some random alien documentary, liking crazy theories and conspiracies, it was just interesting to you, because you will never believe them until you yourself come across one and see one in front of you. Which you know will never happen. The documentary was quite interesting though, almost believable, until you start thinking again rationally. You spent some time like this. At this point you were getting a little bored, texting back some of your friends, them asking when you’ll be in the city again. You continue to scroll through your social media apps. Then you stop and look around, thinking you hear a loud whirring sound coming from outside, until suddenly, you hear an alarmingly scary thundering crash come from the back of your house. You see a bright white light shine through your windows for a split second, like a quick flash. The light was harsh and pale compared to the warm and pretty rays from the sun earlier. You think that somehow, maybe, a car found itself onto your secluded area, but it can’t be. Your house was way too hidden and far away from the busy city or any type of civilization for people to know where it is without exact directions. You head towards your windows, trying to see if you could view what exactly just happened, and that’s when you realize it’s way too dark. The sun went down some time ago, and the light from inside your house can’t reach too far out.

You grab your jacket and shoes, along with a bright flashlight. You slide open your doors, cool wind nipping at your cheeks. It’s cold. You decide not to turn on your light until you got closer to whatever it was that infiltrated your space, scared it might be something dangerous. You get closer to where you hear gentle whirring, the only sounds outside coming from your shoes crunching against the grass. Barely able to see, your eyes finally make a dark outline of a weirdly shaped—weirdly shaped something. You have no idea what it is. Finally after it seemed like forever, you get close enough to actually see some of the stars reflecting off of it, and you finally turn your flashlight on.

What. The. Fuck.

You start to breathe quickly through your nose, about to freak out. What the fuck is this? It looks like some weird—spaceship?! You drag the light of your flashlight along the bright metal. You notice the way it looks like nothing you’d ever seen. You see two thick leg-like metal poles sticking out from the smooth underside. You extend your hand out to feel one of them, and not surprisingly, it’s cool to the touch. You continue to look, until you realize, if this is some kind of spaceship, where’s the person? You start to panic again, for some reason feeling scared. Maybe this was one of the downsides of living alone with nobody close. You had no one to call over or help you. You try not to think about it too much, as you continue to walk towards the other side of the spaceship, if you could even call it that. It was like a saucer shape. You feel crazy even just thinking of this as a flying saucer like some conspiracy theory freak, but there was no other way to explain its shape.

You look at the weird capsule in front of you, until you realize it had fallen on its side. You reach what seems like a glass dome, it hadn’t been cracked, but it was now separated from the machinery, barely hanging on. You shine your light on the dome, shining the light slowly towards the inside, following where your eyes moved. The light illuminates some parts inside, seeing weird advanced looking gadgets and screens, unusual looking buttons attached on the steel-looking dashboard. As you move your hand, your flashlight lands on something you wished you almost made up in your head.

You see a man, still sitting on the small seat in the device, eyes and mouth closed, his head on the headrest facing towards your side, and looking…dead. You quickly go towards him, stumbling and almost tripping. You were about to move him a little from the seat, and then you realized there’s heat radiating off from him. A lot of heat, like, intense heat. Worried for this random stranger, you try to think of a way to help him. You were way too weak to carry him into your house, but there had to be a way. You quickly realized you could maybe drag him..? It was not an optimal choice, but right now you couldn’t think of anything else. You quickly grab a sheet you leave outside for when you want to lay down and look at the stars, and you expand it onto the ground. You struggle as you grab the mysterious man from his arms, and slowly drag him onto the thick sheet. You feel your hands hot from where you had grabbed him, almost as if you ran your hands under warm water. You look at the stranger and grab the two corners of the sheet and try to pull him into the house. You would’ve laughed at this scenario, a man passed out on a sheet, and a nimble person like you dragging him into your house as if you were some weird person dragging a body somewhere. You quickly realize that ‘funny’ thought was a little macabre, and instead focus on using all your strength into dragging this guy inside before something else happens to him. About 15 minutes later, the stranger is now on your living room floor, and you’re a sweating mess. You breathe heavily on the couch when you realize you have to also place him on the couch. Closing your eyes tightly, you mentally prepare yourself to try to transfer him onto it. You bend your knees down into a squatting position as you grab his arms and pull them on top of your shoulders. You slowly, very slowly, move up, until you can finally plop him into the couch. That’s enough exercise for the rest of the year, you think to yourself. You position his head and legs correctly, going into the kitchen again, but this time to get a cloth for his forehead.

Once you walk back with a washcloth and a bowl of cold water, your body freezes as you look down at him. He had some kind of antennae on his head. What. What? You shake your head fast, trying to force yourself out this weird dream that you were obviously in. There’s no way this is real life. You also didn’t realize, how he’s a little weird. He had pink hair, which isn’t anything especially weird, but why were these weird things coming out of his head the same color? They weren’t that long, maybe three inches tall, with a small little bulb on the top of them. He had what seemed like shiny, glittering skin on his neck and jaw. You also noticed his clothing. He was wearing this weird shiny and sparkly white turtleneck, with different pretty colored bead looking things going down the cloth. It was really pretty actually. You notice a sharp body necklace on his shoulders that went down under his chest area. It had what seemed like sharp shark teeth shaped metal lining it, along with black medium sized beads traveling across his chest. Maybe the weirdest thing was that he didn’t have any shoes on. You didn’t have the heart to keep looking at his feet, weirded out by them. You tried not to freak out as your imagination runs wild from confusion and slight fear. Not as strange, but also weird of you to think—he’s cute.

Really cute. Furrowing your brow, you ask yourself, is this some kind of prank? You look around, waiting for some guy to pop out with a camera or something, yelling at you that you’ve been pranked. That doesn’t happen though. You have to sit with the reality that you dragged in some random person with antennas on their pink haired head and cute face in your house, that is now laying down on your couch.

You lower yourself onto your knees, the back soles of your feet on your butt, placing the bowl on the center table and making sure the cloth soaks up the cold water. As you ring out the cloth, you look back at him, brain registering quickly that two eyes were looking back at you already. You screamed and quickly got up, almost slipping because you knocked over the bowl in the process.

You calm down the best you can as you finally look back at the person staring at you. He looks confused as you look back at him.

“Hi, um, I don’t know what happened or what or who you are or like, why you’re here but I found you passed out inside your…vehicle?..outside. Are you, are you okay?” You see the way his antennae twitch slightly as you finish talking. It seems like he’s thinking about his response as he places his finger on his chin and looks down at his thighs. He quickly looks up at you again, answering you. “I’m fine. Thank you. I’ll be leaving now.” He starts to get up as you go towards him and lightly push him down by his shoulders. “Where are you going? That thing outside is kind of really trashed and it’s” you look up at the clock, “it’s 11pm right now in the middle of nowhere, what are you going to do?” You wait for his response as he does the same gesture as before. “Trashed..?” He looks really confused, his mouth into a scowl. You nervously back up, suddenly nervous again. “Yeah, it’s like, messed up. All dented and broken and stuff.” You shift your hands around awkwardly, not knowing what to do.

“Oh. I’ll fix it.”

He starts to get up this time and you don’t stop him, instead following him with your flashlight. You feel the cold hit you once again as you waddle behind him into the darkness. You see the way he walks, so confidently and swiftly. He doesn’t say anything as he hears you walking behind him. He doesn’t really care.

You guys have reached the spaceship and he turns to you. “Can I use that?” He was pointing at your flashlight and you handed it over to him. He quickly moves around the ship, examining the body. He grabs a gadget from the inside that looks like some form of advanced, clear tablet, and starts to use it. You were panicking a lot at this point. Is this dude an alien? Some kind of extraterrestrial? They exist? You almost feel drained as your brain works hard to try to understand what was happening. You feel yourself stare at nothing, still not wrapping your mind around the current events.

That’s when you see two feet that weren’t yours in front of you. You look up and see him looking down at you already. “I’m going to have to stay here for a while.” You make an offended look as you stare back at him in shock. “What? Why here? Isn’t there someplace you can go? I don’t even know you that well by the way-or actually I don’t know you at all! I don’t even know what you are. There’s no way you’re staying here.” He looks unaffected by your words as he just opens his mouth to talk.

“My earth name is Taehyun, I’m what you humans call an ‘extraterrestrial.’ If I go anywhere else, there would be safety regulations exploited and your planet would be in danger. If anyone else finds me out and the information gets into the wrong hands and people realize we exist, bad things will happen. For this world, of course,” he looks around at the scenery as if he could actually see anything in the darkness, and finally looks back at you, “not mine. So if you want to be safe, along with everyone else, you’ll continue helping me.”

You think about it, your head spinning. What is going on? He has to be telling the truth, how else would any of this make sense? You decide to trust him, and nod your head. “Okay. How long?” He finally makes a facial expression that wasn’t confusion, as he does a small smile, “about 5 months. I need to recuperate, as my ship runs on my body power, but because of the crash, I’m extremely weak right now and what I use to heal up, along with devices that could contact help are broken.” Your eyes open wide at hearing five months. There’s no way this is happening. There goes your next three days off.

It’s happening. Today marks the last month left of Taehyun staying with you. You’ve noticed how he actually has grown stronger slowly over time, as well as his skin seemingly glowing, his big brown eyes becoming somehow shinier, and his hair prettier. You close your laptop as you always do, and head to the living room. There you see Taehyun, watching the same documentary you were watching the night he appeared. “There’s no way they think they’re right. They have everything wrong. It’s really funny actually,” he says, smiling cutely and looking at you. He has gotten so much cuter too. He started warming up to you after a month and a half, and since then you’ve always seen his pretty smile and gorgeous boba eyes looking at you with actual care.

You had to teach him a lot of things, how to basically be human. You giggle as you ask him, “what did they get wrong?” He looks at you before thinking for a second. “Well, they think we’re some kind of super smart humanoids or something. We’re not. Our technology scans the most advanced forms of society and species in each planet, and we can transform into whatever it is. It’s easier that way to go unnoticed and to fit in.” You nod your head, “yeah that makes sense. So…what do you really look like?” He makes a thinking face, puckering his lips as he thinks. “I dunno. It’d be hard to describe honestly. I don’t think your little brain could handle it either.” You laugh as you shove him a little, “shut up!” He giggles, his eyes scrunching up as his sharp teeth show up when he smiles. You start to question yourself as your heart skips a beat looking at him. What’s wrong with you, have you really fallen for an alien?

“Are you okay?” It seems Taehyun picked up your change in mood. You quickly lift up your spirits as you let out a “yep!”

You look at the tv and then at him again, “Isn’t it crazy how it’s almost been five months since you crashed here? Time went by fast. I remember how stern and cold you were when you appeared.” He lets out a tiny screech, “noooooo! Don’t remind me. A lot has changed you know! Thanks to you I’ve experienced a lot of things I’ve never experienced in outer space. They might be really tame, but I really understand the experience and love for them.” You smile as you ask him, “hey, since you said you guys change form, how come you still have alien characteristics? Like your antennas and skin.” He playfully scowls as he answers you, “I’ve answered this question already for you a million times! It’s because my space ship broke down mid-flight so the transformation couldn’t be fully completed. I would’ve looked no different than an actual human, you would’ve never guessed.”

“Yeah I know, I just like hearing about you guys.”

He gives you a serious ‘really’ face as you giggle. “Hey, since it’s almost time you leave, what’s something else you want to do on Earth before you go?” He looks at you, suddenly looking embarrassed. “Uh…well that’s private” you scoff. “What? What do you mean it’s private you weirdo, tell me nowwwww.” You get closer to him as you start to shake him by his shoulders. He gives up quite easily, “wanna gaisbsosbdsexhsidbxhuman.” “Dude. I heard none of that. I won’t know what you want if you don’t tell me clearly. Speak up! And clearly!”

He sighs, defeated. “I want to experience sex with a human.” He scratches the back of his head nervously as you just look at him, “Friends that I have always tell me about their visits and from the sound of it…they’re always talking about how it feels really good or whatever. I just want to know what it’s like too. You know it’s different for us in our material bodies.”

“Oh.”

You say nothing else as you continue to focus on the tv screen. Well this got a little awkward…suddenly, an idea appeared in your head.

“What if…what if I helped you?” You try your best to look away from him, staring at the wall, not wanting to see his reaction. You just hear a quiet hum come from Taehyun, something you notice he does now when he thinks about something difficult.

“Ok.”

You almost get whiplash from turning your head towards him, surprised. “Huh? Ok? Really?” He gives you a confused smirk, “why are you confused, you’re the one who asked me. And yeah, ok. It’s not like you’ll remember anyways.” Suddenly he looks a little sad. “What does that mean?” He shakes his head, “nothing. Well, are you going to come over here or not?”

You slowly get closer to him again, nervous. “You don’t have to do this just because I wanted to experience it, you know.” You look down to his lips and into his eyes again, “yeah I know. I wanna.” He smiles as he places a hand on your cheek, kissing you. He was cool to the touch, unlike how you first found him. You slowly kiss him back, feeling nervous. You like the way his pretty lips feel against your own, soft and fleshy. He nips at your bottom lip as you feel his hand travel under your shirt, cool skin against yours making you gasp a bit. You feel him smirk against you as he takes the opportunity to explore your mouth with his tongue. Fighting back, you guys continue to make out.

You suddenly feel your lips tingle, and you separate yourself from him, placing your fingers on your lips. “Are your lips feeling a little weird?” He asks you, a little breathless from your activity. You tell him yes as starts explaining to you, “when we feel…sexually aroused” he coughs, “um, our spit turns into this kind of aphrodisiac, it kind of affects your skin like a little irritant, but it makes you feel really good after it finally settles in.” “You have built in aphrodisiac inducing spit? You’re literally so freaky,” you giggle.

He smiles against you as he kisses you again, tugging at your shirt to take it off. You take it off, only your bra showing. Taehyun takes the initiative to remove it from your body, leaving your breasts free. You felt your nipples harden at the cool air coming from Taehyun’s hands as they’re groping your fleshy area. He leans down and sucks one of your hard nipples into his mouth, and you feel the same tingling sensation that you felt on your lips onto your right breast.

You move your head back, eyes now watching the ceiling as you play with the back of Taehyun’s pink hair. Feeling good, you bite your lips from letting out whimpering noises. You feel and hear yourself almost panting, body freezing for a split second as you feel a surge of hotness run through your body quickly. Suddenly feeling needy, too needy, you squeeze your thighs together, wetness feeling way too apparent right now. “Feeling needy y/n?” Taehyun looks up at you. You swear you almost cum right then and there at the sight of his pretty boba eyes glimmering as they look up at you, left nipple now in his mouth. He suddenly feels a lot warmer now, no longer cool. You shake your head yes, too scared to talk. He runs his thumb over the nipple he had in his mouth before he switched, and starts slowly rubbing it. “You have to use your words my cute girl, I won’t know what you want unless you tell me clearly. You told me that, remember?” He’s evil. Sighing shakily, you respond, “Taehyun, I need you to fuck me. Please, feeling so hot and bothered. I need you in me.” You felt yourself start to blush deeper at your own words. He just smiles as he says, “after this.”

He gets down from the couch, his knees now on the hard ground and he faces your hips towards his head. Slowly removing your pants, you look down at him, your eyes half lidded. He talks as he’s still removing your underwear now, licking his lips at the sight, “I’ve never done this before so let me experiment a little as I get a hang of it okay?” You swing your arm across your eyes, feeling embarrassed at being the only one naked, along with your current position. “I’d let you do anything to me, just touch me please.” He slowly spreads your legs open, seeing your arousal separate from your thighs. He takes in a sharp breath, wanting nothing else than to make you feel good with his mouth. He looks up at you and sees you covering your face with your arm. “Remove your arm y/n, I can’t see what’ll make you feel good if you’re covering it. Wanna see your face.” You clench around nothing, his words hitting your core. You slowly remove your arm and look down at him.

He smiles, “thanks.” He places his hands on your thighs, squishing and pressing down on them. You squirm at the feeling. He slowly moves his right hand onto where your cunt is, stopping right before touching it. With his thumb, he slowly slides it over your flaps, this small movement making you go crazy, wanting more. You involuntarily raise your hips, chasing his touch. He places his other hand on your pelvis, his hand bringing you down to the couch pinned, as if you were a piece of paper. He really did get stronger.

He takes his thumb and index now, spreading open your cunt. You take in a quick breath as you feel the tip of his fingers lightly touch your clit. He brings them down to your slit, and presses the tip of his index into it. He does this maybe three or four times, watching your face as he does so. He finally removes it and takes his finger in his mouth, tasting you. You watch as his eyes widen as he looks up at you, he fixes himself in front of your cunt again, mouth slightly open. “I need to taste more of you,” he says as he finally lowers his mouth onto you. He first starts kitten licking your flaps, and it feels nice, but this isn’t what you want. “Taehyun..need more.”

He nods his head, his tongue finally entering past your folds, licking your soft skin. He drags his tongue down to your slit, letting it enter in and out of you, and you feel the tip of his nose press against your clit. Seeing how you start breathing raggedly, he finally decides to travel upwards, mouth finally encasing your clit. You let out a loud moan as he flicks his tongue slightly over it, then lapping it up. You felt your cunt start feeling tingly, and everything started feeling ten times better.

He starts eating you out like a hunger crazed man, loving your reactions. You make eye contact with him, loving the way he looks, his eyes looking so cute and innocent, as if he wasn’t eating you out. The pleasure was so much at this point, you feel your eyes and head roll back as your mouth opens, moaning and calling out Taehyun’s name. Finally, feeling the tip of one his fingers enter your slit again, you came. You came down hard, shaking and pulling on Taehyun’s rosy hair as he continued lapping you up. You swear you were screaming at this point, feeling too good. Your high is finally coming down, yet you still feel Taehyun’s mouth on you. “Fuck, too much Tae.” His mouth finally lets go of your cunt.

You watch as he raises his head from in between your thighs, his face a mess, “did I make you feel good?” You almost laugh, as if this wasn’t the hardest you’ve come from being eaten out, “yeah, so good. It felt like you were already an expert.” He smiles brightly, his face glistening because he had your arousal everywhere. You shakily move forward to kiss him, tasting yourself through the kiss. Still feeling like you were missing something, you press your forehead against his, “let’s go to my room.” He nods as you grab his hand and drag him into your room.

As soon as you enter your room, he stands in front of your bed and you push him down. “Taehyun, take off your clothes, please.” He quickly starts removing a white graphic T-shirt you had gotten him, along with some black pants. You bite your lips as you see his shining skin on his neck, looking like glitter. You want to run your tongue over it. He’s only left in his underwear, his bulge apparent as you start to straddle him, kissing him again. You couldn’t get enough of it. You move your head down, finally reaching his neck. It was smooth, and you decided to suck on it, wanting to see your marks later. Your hands travel up behind his head, before they reach one of his antennas.

Curious, you start slightly touching it, feeling the soft rubber like skin against your two fingers. You feel Taehyun twitch and start whimpering. You touch it a little harder and you hear him mewl, “ah, fuck, th-that feels good, they’re s-so sensitive.” You smirk as you let go of it, finally having enough. You lift him up from the bed and take his place. “Fuck me Taehyun.”

“Fuck, okay.”

He crazily takes off his underwear, making you laugh the way he almost falls. He gets on the bed and he’s finally on top of you, face to face as he kisses your cheeks. He looks over your face, his eyes scanning it, trying to figure out what you’re thinking, and you look down.

Finally seeing his length, you almost choke on your spit. “Wh-th-that’s not going to fit in me.” He looks down, confused. “Is it too small?” You look at him as if he was stupid, “you’re huge!” He laughs, “is that bad?” You think for a moment, “well, it depends I guess..” Suddenly thinking of having his big dick filling you up has you clenching. You couldn’t wait anymore. “Put it in me, please.” “Okay.” He grabs his dick, putting the fat head between your puffy folds, while circling and sliding it around your vulva. It feels really good to you. You lift your hips up, and he gets the message. “Are you ready my cute girl?” You nod your head yes and he presses his tip against your slit, slowly entering you.

At this point you’re so wet it’s actually a little easy for him to completely enter you. You still feel the pain, but it fades away quickly as you start feeling heightened pleasure. He feels so good in you, feels so full. You’re whining a lot at this point, feeling his entire dick against your walls, every movement making you moan. You look up at Taehyun and he’s not doing any better. He has eyes furrowed in concentration, and he’s letting out quiet whimpers, trying hard not to rut into you. You whisper against his ear “move. Please.” He groans out your name, as you feel his hard abs press against your tummy as he starts to pull out a little.

He starts moving at a brutal pace, pink bangs swinging back and forth. You feel like you’re just a rag doll, the way he’s pounding into your cunt while your body acts as if it’s rubber, you’re feeling too good to have the strength to move along with him. He now sits up on his knees, turning your body over. “You feel so good y/n, never thought it’d be this good. Don’t ever want to stop.” You groan and moan at his words, tears spilling out from your eyes as he finds a new position in you that hits everything just right. Your hands grip your bed sheets tightly, stained with tears now. Taehyun hisses behind you as he feels you deliciously contract against his dick, making him feel even more good. He moves one of his hands from his hips and onto your tummy, pressing down on it as he sees the way it bulges a little when he thrusts into you. You feel your knees about to give out as you bury your head into your bed, feeling pleasure in a way you haven’t before. “My friends were right, this feels so good, I’ll never be the same after this. I’ll need to have you constantly.” He gives you an especially hard thrust, and you feel yourself coming on his dick.

You shake even more this time, feeling you and your brain become jelly, drool leaving your mouth. Taehyun becomes a whimpering and moaning mess, letting out loud and constant “y/n,” and “ah fuck,” as he feels your walls hug him so tight he can barely move. You fall on your bed, not able to keep yourself up anymore. Taehyun notices and flips you around once more, grabbing your back as he easily lifts you up, making your arms wrap around his neck. He continues thrusting into you and you feel his movements become sloppy. You let out a quiet “Taehyun…” and he snaps. You feel the way his cum pumps out of his length and into you, his intensely warm seed filling you up, and you love how it feels. You come again, although not as hard as the other times. Taehyun’s still messily thrusting into you, repeating your name.

He slowly puts you down on the bed, and takes out his dick and plops down next to you. With half lidded, tired eyes, you see that his cum wasn’t anything like normal cum. It kind of looked like, clear, golden honey? Curiosity beating you, you crawl over to where Taehyun was, panting heavily, as you clean him up with your tongue. He doesn’t even try to move you away, just groaning and hissing at the feeling. You tasted his cum in your mouth, and it tasted like honey. You’ll never view honey the same. He looks at you, “we need to do this for the next month.” You giggle as you get up to clean yourself off, but meanwhile you’re going to have to teach him about aftercare, you also start feeling a little sad he has to leave eventually, but that’ll come another time. “Yeah, but you still have things to learn, alien boy.”

The month had passed since then, and he was healthy enough to leave. You were both outside, and within the first touch he gave the ship, it seemed to magically have fixed itself. He finally turns to you, taking out a small vial. “You know I’m supposed to give you this, to make you forget.” You gasp, tears that were already filling your eyes spilling, “I don’t want it. I don’t want to forget you.” He smiles, “don’t worry, I’ve thought about it, I’m not giving it to you.” He kisses you, savoring it as the last kiss he’ll give you for some time. You hold in your sobs as he enters the ship. He sadly smiles at you, “don’t worry y/n. I love you. I’ll come back for more.” With those last words, he was quickly gone, leaving you staring at the night sky full of stars.

thinking about taehyun zooming away on a flying saucer has me giggling ngl…

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delululand · 3 months

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the way he looks without breaking eye contact and slowly moves his body🫠 kang taehyun take responsibility for making all my worst and most perverted fantasies awaken

#txt hard thoughts #txt hard hours #txt taehyun #taehyun hard thoughts #txt kang taehyun #taehyun hard hours #txt smut #txt imagines #txt thoughts

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kittysarchive · 19 days

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TXT, What they say during sex

Yeonjun

spurting out nonsense, he will give out both praises and degradation.

"You like that huh?"

"Fuck such a filthy girl"

"Kai can hear you"

"Who owns this pussy?"

"S-so good"

"M-mommy!"

"Your so tight princess"

"Fuck, you take me so easily baby"

"Such a brat, always begging for my cock aren't you?"

Soobin

In a wave of pleasure, he will find ways to make you more wet. Even if that's by his words.

"You're making such pretty noises"

"Don't stop"

"You asked for this"

"Fuck baby, I'm gonna cum"

"Take it like the slut you are"

Beomgyu

Beomgyu will be the one making all the pretty noises.

"Dont stop!"

"I'm so close!"

"Ahh"

"T-to much"

"Please..."

"One more please!"

"Am i your good boy?"

Taehyun

brining the dom back, don't let his doe eyes fool you. He makes it known that he owns you, that he is in charge.

"Fuck baby girl"

"Whose your daddy?"

"Who owns this pussy? Come on say it"

"Go on, open up"

"Spread your legs for me princess"

"You so wet and tight"

"I can barely move your so tight"

"Come on give me one more"

"Are you crying? You're the one who wanted this"

"Such a slut, taking my big cock so easy"

Kai

He just wants you to please him! "I'll be your good boy!"

"Don't stop mommy!"

"I....I'm not your bad boy!"

"I'll be good! I promise"

"S-so good"

"I love your tits mommy!"

"S-stop.....wait don't!"

"I can't...do anymore"

"I'm sorry mommy"

#txt smut #txt headcanons #txt hard thoughts #txt hard hours #txt beomgyu smut #txt yeonjun smut #txt soobin smut #txt kang taehyun #txt taehyun smut #txt kai smut

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blue-jisungs · 2 years

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zzz…

summary. getting out from taehyun’s grip in the morning is a mission impossible…

a/n. i luv him sm i just wanna hug him n squish his cheeks n kiss his nose help

as much as you would love to stay like this, you had to work. and so did your boyfriend.

but right now he was asleep, arm swung over yours as he pressed the side of his face into a pillow.

you could see his sleepy features, blonde hair covering his forehead. it was good to know that he was having the well deserved and needed rest but… you were trapped. and you really had to get up to work.

you tried to move out of his grip as gently as possible not to wake him up. there was no way you could just wriggle away so you grabbed his arm and tried to lift it up.

but taehyun just squeezed your arm and moved his hand to your waist, pulling you closer.

your eyes widened in horror because you really didn’t want to wake him up.

you allowed yourself to stay still for a second to check if he’s asleep. but his calm, regular breath just assured you that he held you closer unconsciously, in his sleep.

which made your stomach swirl with butterflies. oh, how you’d love to stay with him a little longer.

a sigh escaped your mouth as you tried to wriggle away, this time a bit stronger. as you thought you made it, you’ll be free…

"don’t go" his raspy, morning voice made you stop your movements.

"i have to…" you sighed, trying yet again.

but taehyun effortlessly squished the skin on your hips before moving you even closer, like you were his teddy bear. all the progress you made was lost and now there was no way you’ll be free.

"stay with me a bit longer" he murmured, eyes still closed.

taehyun moved his head a bit, fighting a yawn. you just sighed and scooted closer, burying your head underneath his chin.

"mkay but just a little bit" you mumbled, closing your eyes. it was so warm and fuzzy, you never wanted to leave.

especially when hyun hummed in approval, visibly happy and his fingers started softly brushing the skin on your hips in a soothing manner.

in a matter of seconds, you two were asleep again…

[ masterlist <3 ]

taglist: @geniejunn ,, @luvhyun3 ,, @starlostseungmin ,, @elviransworld ,, @jnks6r ,, @sieunsgf ,, @lhsng ,, @ethereallino

#txt scenarios #txt x reader #txt reactions #txt masterlist #txt imagines #txt taehyun #txt kang taehyun #txt fluff #txt #tomorrow x together #txt soft hours #kang taehyun #taehyun fluff

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atinystraynstay · 4 months

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I Could Be Your Lifeline - Kang Taehyun

Synopsis: You and Taehyun have been childhood best friends. You grew up in the same town, went to the same college, and now worked in the same city. You two are each other's lifeline as you explore the world of being a young adult. He would do anything for you.

Pairing: non-idol! Kang Taehyun x fem reader

Genre: Angst, bad date, fluff, best friends to lovers

Word Count: 2.7k

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I sighed as I glanced between the red dress and the black dress that was in my closet. They both were gorgeous, but which one screamed 'first date'? At least you don't have to make a decision on your own.

"Taehyun, if you were going on a first date, what color would you hope the girl wears?" You asked

Taehyun was laying on your bed, his head resting on the mountain of pillows you had at the top. His arms were crossed over his chest. He watched as you held up the two dresses, your eyes somewhat glancing towards the red dress but you were trying your best not to make it obvious. It took everything in him not to smirk, not wanting to make it known he had caught you. You were too adorable.

"I think the red one would be nice? You know, a pop of color to catch someone's attention."

You grinned with satisfaction. His heart skipped a beat at the sight. God, he loved making you happy. You hung up the black dress in your closet before heading towards your bathroom to get ready.

Once the coast was clear, Taehyun pressed his head to your pillow and let out a low groan. It was torture witnessing you get ready for someone else. He wanted to be the guy that was going to take you out, show you out to the world. He wanted to be the one you got excited about seeing, telling anyone that was willing to listen. Yet, he find himself always freezing up when it was time to confess to you.

As he heard the door open, he sat up quickly. His eyes nearly popped out of their head as you revealed yourself. You got to be kidding me.

You were wearing a maroon, square neck dress. It was a long sleeve dress that had elastic cuffs around the wrists, amplifying the fairy-like look. It was a fit and flare dress that just looked like it was made for you. Selfishly, he might have also picked out the dress because it was his favorite color on you. You just radiated when you work red.

"So, what do you think? You sure this isn't too much for a first date?" "Y/n, I mean this, you look phenomenal."

You grinned with satisfaction as you did a small twirl in the dress, letting him have a full view. If only you weren't getting ready for someone else, if only you were getting ready for him. He wanted so desperately to walk up and kiss you, to feel your lips against his. But that wasn't something that best friends did.

You turned towards the mirror in your bedroom. It was a sun mirror you bought from Urban Outfitters. It was very fitting, as Taehyun always compared you to the sun.

"I think I'm going to leave my hair natural today. I've really been loving my curls.'

God damn. You were going to be the death of him.

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Before your date showed up, you urged Taehyun to leave. Mainly because this was your first date with this guy, and you didn't want to give the wrong impression.

While Taehyun should be happy for you, he couldn't help but feel the sting in his heart. You had only really gotten serious abut dating in the past couple of weeks. He thought he had more time to devise a plan in how to make you his. Your friends saw it as the perfect opportunity to set up your dating profile.

Not surprisingly, you were getting messages within five minutes of your account being open. Of course everyone wanted to be with you. You were one of a kind. Taehyun just wished he was first in line.

He had found himself back in the dorms an hour after you give him the boot to the door. He took the long way home, wanting to take the train back to the dorms so he could be alone with his thoughts.

Would you even be interested in dating him? You two were best friends. While there have been numerous storylines where best friends are perfect lovers, he knew the reality that it can be hard. He cannot afford to lose you in his life. It was dangerous territory to venture into. Even him confessing his feelings was a risk.

Maybe he should talk to Soobin or Yeonjun about how he was feeling? He felt like the whole scenario was a cruel form of torture. While he loved seeing you be happy, he felt sick to his stomach knowing it wasn't him at the end of the day you were seeing so intimately. Maybe his two older friends could provide insight?

He was about to get a glass of water to clear his mind when his phone began to ring. That's freaky. I was just about to call Soobin. Did he read my mind? Taehyun peered over but froze the moment he saw your name flash on the screen. Something didn't feel right about you calling him this time.

However, he didn't hesitate. Not now. Getting water was soon forgotten as he reached over for his phone. His thumb hit the green answer button before he held up the phone to his ear.

"Taehyun?" You sounded distressed

At the sound of your voice, he was on high alert. You didn't speak in your normal energetic tone. You sounded upset. What happened? Were you ok? He needed immediate answers, but he knew allowing himself to get worked up wouldn't help the two of you at the moment.

"Angel, what's going on?" "I need you to pick me up.'

He frowned upon hearing you but was immediately on his feet. He wasn't sure what had happened, but there was no time to ask questions. Not when you need him immediately. "I'm already on my way," he promised. He grabbed his car keys and wallet before rushing to slip on his shoes. Taehyun just had to get to you.

"Are you in a safe location right now? I have your location, but I want to make sure you're okay until I get there." "Yeah, I'll be okay. Can you please hurry?" Taehyun didn't have to be told twice. With his shoes and jacket on, he rushed out to the car. He put you on speaker so he could get into the car quickly, but also could listen and speak to you if needed. He didn't even notice that it was raining. Taehyun literally sprinted out of the dorm to get to his car. He didn't even notice that it was raining. Taehyun literally sprinted out of the dorm to get to his car.

"Y/n, sweetheart, do you want me to stay on the line with you while I drive?" "Taehyun, no! It's raining. I don't want you to risk getting into a car accident. Just get here safely, please."

You were always looking out for other people before you looked after yourself. He's never met someone has kind and compassionate as you.

"I'll be there in 10 minutes."

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It felt like only a minute passed by between when you called Taehyun and hung up the phone. You waited under the awning outside of the restaurant after hiding out in the bathroom. At least until you were certain your date left.

Four wheels pulled up which caused you to look up. You could recognize that car anywhere. Taehyun. The car was still running, able to see the emissions from the exhaust pipe wrap around the car signaling Taehyun had the heat running. A door opened and closed followed by quick footsteps.

Taehyun emerged from the other side of the car, a look of shock and concern on his face. He was holding a rain jacket in his hands. It was your pink rain coat, the one you left in his backseat the last time you two got caught in the rain. "You told me you were in a safe location, y/n. It's raining out. You could get sick," he frowned.

You matched his frown, sighing. "I'm sorry. I just couldn't stand being inside any longer," you confessed. Taehyun didn't want to come across as if he was scolding you. He was just concerned. All he did was kiss your forehead lingering before assisting you in putting your jacket on. "Come on, sweet girl," he spoke gently. He moved his hands to make sure the hood of the jacket covered your head. You worked on zipping it up. Once satisfied that you would be dry, he smiled. "Let's get you out of here."

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Taehyun and you had a habit of going on drives when you were upset. You often blasted music from a playlist you two made. You would scream lyrics, laugh, and just forget about your problems. Tonight, you two rode in silence.

He went to every length to make sure you were comfortable. It was an awkward silence. It offered you to fill the space with whatever you needed. If you needed to play music, he was ready to sing along with you. If you needed to vent, he was ready to listen. He would drive for however long you needed him to. With the heat on, you were able to relax comfortably into the leather seat behind you. However, if you got too hot, he would cut it off.

You were his whole world.

When you told him that you didn't even get to the dinner on the date, he immediately took you to the nearest convenience store. The two of you ran inside, laughing and dodging the raindrops as they continued to fall. Taehyun loved hearing your laughter. You still had not unveiled what exactly happened, but he was just content seeing you happy again.

You picked out all of your favorite snacks - a lemon lime soda, a bag of honey butter chips, and these blue gummy sharks. He also got a salmon kimbap he knew you loved.

Instead of sitting in the convenience store to eat, Taehyun had another idea. He paid for your food, even though you fought him on it. It was a losing battle on your part anyways. Taehyun had you two return to his car where he drove you towards the top level of a parking garage in the city, where you could park and enjoy your food. He also knew that you loved looking at the skyline

"Thank you for driving out to come pick me up, Taehyun," you spoke up.

Looking over at you, Taehyun smiled gently. "It really isn't a big deal, y/n. I would do anything you asked."

"I bet you're wondering what happened," you murmured.

Of course he was curious. You've had a handful of bad dates, but none that resulted in you calling him to rescue you from the date. However, he didn't want to just ask outright out of respect for you.

"Taehyun, he was awful! First of all, he showed up to the date late. I understand because the weather isn't the best," you began retelling. "But then he had the nerve to tell me how I should have dressed, how I should have done my hair."

He could feel his anger bubbling inside of him. He's never met the guy you were supposed to go out with tonight but he prays he never comes across him. Taehyun couldn't understand how someone could be that brainless. I mean, you were the most incredible person. You have a heart of gold, and are effortlessly beautiful inside and out. You are perfection.

"I just got so frustrated and upset that I wasted my time getting ready for someone like him that I just got up and left," you explained. "I'm so sorry, angel," he sighed. "I just don't get what is wrong with me?"

His eyes widened. He turned in his seat so he was resting the side of his body against the driver's seat. Was he hearing you correctly? Did you actually think something was wrong with you? No, he needed to fix that.

"There is nothing wrong with you."

The tone of his voice took you by surprise. He was stern. His gaze locked on you which made you instantly regret asking that question. You stared at him with wide eyes. Seeing your shock, he relaxed a bit but still knew he had to help you see just how amazing you are.

"Baby girl, I mean that. I am not speaking to you as just your best friend. You are the most remarkable woman I know. Not only are you kind, generous, intellectual, and witty, but you are so gorgeous. You carry yourself with grace and elegance. You are stunning from head to toe. Any guy would be lucky to be yours. The guy who were out with tonight is going to realize tomorrow how much he lost out on."

Your heart swelled hearing Taehyun. You never knew him, or anyone for that matter, viewed in such a positive light. You figured you were average compared to other girls.

"I mean, I regret not telling you sooner how I feel," Taehyun admitted.

In that moment, both of your eyes widened as you stared at each other. You were trying to make sure you heard Taehyun correctly. On the other side, Taehyun was freaking out over what he just said.

"What?" You both said in unison. "Taehyun, tell me what?"

There was no turning back. Taehyun's feelings towards you have been growing every day. It pained him when you went out with other people, but it also brought him great joy to have you in his life. He never wanted to do anything to upset the balance, but he was about to take a leap. The way you were looking at him made him want to scream out his feelings.

"Y/n, I've had feelings for you since we met. I've wanted to be the man in your life. However, I thought we were just best friends and I didn't want to mess things up because I didn't want you to see me as just some creep, you know? I wanted to show you that I could really be the man you deserve in your life, but that led to me never confessing," you admitted.

It was as if everything you've wanted to hear finally came to light. You have gone back and forth with the idea of you and Taehyun getting together. However, you were his best friend. You never wanted to cross a line you couldn't backtrack. He was too important in your life.

Not realizing what took over you, you very carefully crossed over the middle console into his lap. He laughed and was taken back by your actions. His hands immediately fell on your waist to help you over, wanting to make sure you didn't hurt yourself in the process. "What are you doing?" "Something that I should've done a long time ago," you confessed.

Once you were settled in his lap, you placed on hand on his shoulder. The other hand cupped his cheek, gazing into his eyes. You were looking for any sign at all, whether it be verbal or his body language to stop. He stared at you with anticipation. A gentle smile was curled on his lips. You watched as his eyes glanced from yours to your lips before looking back into your eyes.

There is the green light.

You leaned in to fully press your lips against yours. He squeezed your hips at the feeling and pulled you in closer. You giggled against his lips as reality set in. You were kissing your best friend. His lips were soft yet he overtook the kiss, showing that he wanted this as equally as you did.

The sound of your lips smacking against one another and the sound of rain still falling made the perfect ambiance. You melted underneath Taehyun's touch. He always had the power to make you feel soft and warm without even trying. Now with getting to be such emotionally vulnerable with him, really letting him in, that feeling was amplified.

Yeah, you definitely were not going back to how things used to be now.

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yeoosaangg · 6 months

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Shameless || Kinktober - Day 31

pairing ▸ kang taehyun × f!reader × hueningkai

now playing ▸ shameless - camilla cabello

⤷ ❝so many mornings i woke up confused. in my dreams, i do anything i want to you.❞

genre ▸ non-idol au, fwb, smut

warnings ▸ mutual masturbation, throat fucking, double penetration

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You have both your friends sitting on your bed, backs leaning against the headboard.

You have your legs slotted in between their thighs, a vibrator pressed up against your clit. They were pumping their cocks watching you pleasure yourself.

You're basically sitting on their laps, just slightly off center for them to see your pussy.

Y/n: Such pussy fiends, begging to fuck me with your big cocks inside me. Is that what you two want?

Taehyun: Yeah, wanna ruin you.

Kai: Want you so bad, baby.

Y/n: Be good and I'll let you.

They start pumping their cocks faster while you increase the intensity of the vibrator. Soon enough, you're all cumming undone.

You crawl over Kai's lap and bounce on his cock.

Taehyun: No fair! Why does he get to fuck you first?

Y/n: My ass is still available, handsome.

You stop your rhythm just enough for Taehyun to shove his cock balls deep inside your asshole. You scratch Kai's chest and start fucking yourself on both of their cocks.

Taehyun takes control of your hips and slams his hips into you, cock hitting deep inside you.

Kai let's out a series of moans and screams your name over and over again. Taehyun's thrusts give Kai the same pleasure inside your dripping pussy.

You clench around them and squirt all over the place. They don't stop until you milk every single drop of cum from their dicks.

Taehyun pulls out, but fucks his cum back into you a few times before stepping away. You nuzzle into Kai's body, grinding so his cum stays deep inside you.

Y/n: Both of you are so good to me.

Kai: What are friends for, right?

Taehyun cleans you up as best as he could with his best friend's cock still in your pussy.

Kai: You wanna sleep like this, baby?

Y/n: Mhm. It's your turn, anyway.

True.

Taehyun helps Kai lay down properly by pulling at his ankles. The sudden movement made both of you moan with Kai's cock hitting your cervix.

All three of you sleep comfortably that night.

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a/n: very short cuz i'm sleep deprived. it's literally 6am, wtf is wrong with me? (๑•́ ᎔ ก̀๑) BUT!!! happy end of kinktober, i had a great time writing these. thanks for reading ‹𝟹

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nayoungs-archive · 2 months

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˚. ♩ i'm the wind in our free-flowing sails ⁺ . and the liquor in our cocktails ⭒ ֗

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the-second-tonks · 2 years

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★TXT reaction to their s/o randomly texting them 'i miss you' while they're at the practice

Requested!

˗ˋˏ ♡ ˎˊ˗ Soobin

They'd be having a break when he checks his phone and notices your message , it was loads of full stops , so he couldn't read . Well , we all know Soobin takes an eternity or more to respond because he reads the message from the notification and doesn't bother to reply , so you purposely used to add a lot of fullstops and spaces so that he couldn't read it from the notification. He opens the chat and notices you writing you missed him . His heart did a huge flip and his lips pulled out a smile as your phone started to vibrate . A video call from Soobin made you jump on the bed. He was outside the practice room for privacy and a break from his extroverted teammates. He talked with you for a few minutes and he maybe left the video call on inside the practice room, with the camera facing their practice so that you wouldn't get bored , on the condition that you don't make any sound.

˗ˋˏ ♡ ˎˊ˗ Yeonjun

Of course when it's the break he checks the phone and sees your 'i miss you' message with some emojis. He'll reply with an 'you miss me?!! No cuz same' and stuff . He'll call you and talk with you about stuff and promise you he'll be back very soon . He'll check his phone again and again in between practice so as to reply to your messages. He'll tell you to keep sending him messages , no matter if it's a rant or just 'i miss you's and he'll reply to them . The messages secretly boost him to finish his practice really quick so that his price is you . Well let's say he kept the promise because he finished his practice early . But the members were angry with him because they had to hurry . It happens every once in a while now , and the members get very annoyed at him , but they melt too bc ngl it is cute .

˗ˋˏ ♡ ˎˊ˗ Beomgyu

I think when he'll check it , he'll directly send a voice note and it'll have all the members talking because they want to disturb him but our boy runs out shouting like crazy because you're his partner and he wants to talk with you . Literally.. i see you waiting straight 5 minutes while the app shows recording audio.. or something. I think he'll speak so much that he'll forget about the break . When his break is about to get over he'll make a smooch sound to the mic and say “I miss you too” .. finally sending the voice note and disappearing. He'll be very happy though , and he'll be extra energetic in the practice then . I think when he'll return he'll stay glued to you the entire time because he doesn't want to leave you again!

˗ˋˏ ♡ ˎˊ˗ Taehyun

I personally feel when he receives this text he'll be delighted and will send you a few pics of him with that cute peace sign of his lmao . I also think Beomgyu would photobomb some of them lmao cue the members teasing him and Yeonjun whining “how cute” you both are . Taehyun really misses you too and you might have a talk for a little bit until he has to go. I feel like he'll feel bad about leaving you but will have to do it nevertheless. He does keep his phone aside and probably leaves your msg on read by mistake 😭 but he'll make up because he'll finish his practice pretty early and run to your house . He'll pick up some healthy food on his way home to enjoy and will definitely ask you to select a movie to watch .

˗ˋˏ ♡ ˎˊ˗ Huening Kai

I think he'll video call you too . But it'd be more like he does it with the members. He might even make you talk with the members lmao and would introduce you to the choreographer and the staff members. He'll have to disconnect soon though. I feel he'll then ask one of his staff members to shoot some of his videos and send it to you so that you can watch them and enjoy and feel as if he's near you . He's so sweet that he'll even ask some of the staff to play games like Ludo or Pubg or something so that you can keep yourself distracted until he pops up in your house with a bunch of icecreams and chocolates and pastries and chips and everything to make up for the time he couldn't spend with you .

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Likes or reblogs are appreciated(✿^‿^)

That's all for today (◍•ᴗ•◍)

#txt reactions #tomorrow x together reactions #txt headcanons #kpop txt #soobin x you #soobin x y/n #txt soobin #yeonjun x y/n #yeonjun x reader #yeonjun x you #beomgyu x y/n #beomgyu x you #txt beomgyu #txt kang taehyun #taehyun x you #taehyun x y/n #huening kai #txt huening kai

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cyberkinks · 2 years

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『 𝐉𝐔𝐒𝐓 𝐀 𝐁𝐄𝐓 ──── ・♡ 』

──── ✦ ✧ ∗

[ 𝐈𝐍𝐂𝐋𝐔𝐃𝐄𝐒 ] ──── frat boyfriend!taehyun, wom!reader. ft. the others. him being your boyfriend in your mind and not his, a small sex scene, sexual intercouse, non protection sex, kissing, neck kisses.

[ 𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒 ] ──── trigger warning use: starvation. use of swear words, some errors maybe, use of pet names. btw read at your own risk. mature content!

[ 𝐆𝐄𝐍𝐑𝐄 ] ──── non idol au, mixed feelings, fake/real boyfriend au, collage au, smut, fiction, fluff.

[ 𝐏𝐋𝐎𝐓 ] ──── in which, you were a nerdy loser and he was a popular hottie and when he randomly decided to ask you out on a date, of course you said yes thinking nothing of it. but his conscience was slowly dealing with him along with his guilt so he decided to finally tell you tha-.

[ 𝐃𝐈𝐒𝐂𝐋𝐀𝐈𝐌𝐄𝐑 ] ── this is for entertainment purposes only!

𝐀/𝐍: ❛ i know it’s been a while and i’m sorry for that ❜

𝐇𝐞 hated the feeling that was bubbling in his gut. not that feeling but the feeling of guilt. he knew what he was doing was wrong. stringing you along just to break your heart with one sentence.

taehyun gulped at the thought that he had to tell you sooner or later but now wasn’t the time since you were on your 5th date after 4 months of dating.

4 months of secrets and lies that were hidden underneath his tongue. the courage he didn’t have to just stop or end the bet with his friends since he actually started to like you. not just because of your looks anymore but your personality. that’s what stood out to him the most.

your always chill and relaxed mostly quiet but whenever you have the energy, you can be the life of the party sometimes.

you two were currently sitting down on the couch, watching a random thriller movie that neither of you have seen before. you held onto taehyun’s arm, quivering in fear “i hate scary movies sometimes” you pouted and turned your head towards him who was already looking at you seeing his eyes sparkle.

“what?” you frowned in confusion lightly touching on your face “is there something on me?” you asked but he didn’t say anything. you had him wrapped around your finger without you even knowing.

his conscience was making things worse. he knew that all of this was wrong. he knew someday soon that he just had to tell you that-

“it was a bet”

shit.

“what do you mean?” you sat up on the couch, facing your body towards him. he sighed “you were a bet” you gulped, removing your arms from his and folded them.

“excuse me?”

“our relationship was a bet” you blinked.

“me and my friends made a bet to see who can get you……in bed first” your eyes widen, completely taken back by his words.

after a few seconds of thinking and collecting your thoughts, you felt your blood began to boil.

“what? why would you do that?” you stood up from the couch along with him “listen, i don’t care about it anymore i really like you genuinely but i just felt like i needed to tell you, y/n” he tried to grab your hand but you yanked it from him.

you shook your head “no, i don’t believe you!” “y/n, im sorry but i promise i really think your an amazing person and i think i even lo-“

“get out”

he blinked this time “what?”

“i said get out! i don’t wanna see you anymore!”

was all you said before walking away from him and towards your bedroom, slamming the door shut which echoed though the house.

taehyun sighed before packing up the few things he had and left.

later that night, you cried into your pillow knowing you were smearing your mascara all over it but you didn’t care.

you felt stupid.

a guy like him? it was too good to be true.

you felt something in your soul when you were with him. you knew deep down that something must’ve been going on for him to go from completely ignore you during those 3 years of high school to suddenly asking you out now.

you laid your head on your pillow, sniffling and wiping your eyes with the sleeve of your favorite hoodie. a ding came from your phone making you look over at it, seeing that it was taehyun texting you for the 5th time apologizing once again.

he also wouldn’t stop calling you after you kicked him out which annoyed you.

you just wanted and needed space from him for a while but that isn’t what he wanted.

taehyun wanted to see you and hug you tightly and apologize for being such a dumbass for not ending the bet.

soobin was currently trying to snap him out of it but he couldn’t. he needed you and you only but you were ignore any and everything he sent you.

he couldn’t sleep for days that started turning into weeks.

taehyun hasn’t showered or been to class which you noticed but didn’t say anything.

it’s not like he’s you’re responsibility anymore. because he isn’t….right? yeah totally.

thoughts began to cloud your mind starting to actually get worried about him. you bit down on your nails since it’s been a few months now and you were over it but he couldn’t leave your mind.

‘where is he?’ you thought.

you dug in your pocket in the middle of class for your phone to see if he tried to text or call you recently and he hasn’t. you sat your phone down by your papers, thinking of the reasons why he isn’t in class.

‘maybe he’s done with school? maybe he’s just off on a trip? or maybe-‘

“y/n?” you heard a voice whisper out, making you snap out of your thoughts and turn your head to see yeonjun standing beside you and you roll your eyes looking away “yeonjun, i don’t want to have fucking sex with you so go ask someone else” you blurted out quietly making him raise an eyebrow.

“okay but that isn’t what i wanted to talk with you about” he sat down beside you “it’s taehyun” you turned your head back towards him “what about him?”

“he’s not eating, showering or sleeping, y/n” your eyes widen.

“what?” your eyes widened.

yeonjun nodded “yeah and i’m worried about him, he just stays in his room drinking beer all day”

he continued “he’s failing half of his classes which barely happens and they’re gonna kick him out”

“that’s awful” you commented and yeonjun nodded.

“i know and i was hoping you could help” you nodded “i’ll try”

“thank you”

you gave him a smile before he got up and walked off to his class. your smile then faded away because of the news.

you stood at the door of their dorm room, taking a deep breath before knocking. within a matter of seconds, it swung open revealing soobin who had a surprised look on his face “shit, you’re here, thank you”

“what? you thought i wouldn’t be here?”

“yeah actually”

he moved over to let you in and you walked in, looking around “his room in down the hall and to the right- ““i have a question” you spoke up.

soobin raised an eyebrow at you “what is it?”

“do you usually make bets?”

you titled your head waiting for him to answer. the smile that was on his face disappeared “no, i mean not really” he cleared his throat and you squinted your eyes at him.

you followed his instructions and walked down the hallway and went to the room on the right side and knocked on it.

you heard someone rustling around and stomp towards the door. “i told you guys to leave me alone!” the door swung open, revealing taehyun who was in such a bad state.

his eyes were puffy, he was in the same clothes from the night you two broke up. his hair was all over the place. he looked like he was done with his life and didn’t care anymore.

you looked at him with concerned eyes as he looked at you wondering if he was imagining you standing there of if it was actually you “taehyun” you softly spoke and that’s when he let out a breath. he felt a lump in his throat feeling his eyes began to tear up, blurring the sight of you “i-“ he cuts you off by speaking.

“y/n, look i’m sorry okay? i know i fucked up and i ‘sniff’ i promise i didn’t mean to hurt you-“ “tae, it’s okay, i’m over it but i’m worried about you”

taehyun looked down at his feet “i heard you’re not eating or showering and it’s been months now, that’s not healthy”

“i know, i just couldn’t do anything without you” he murmured before sniffing again “i loved you”

those words made your eyes widen “you loved me?” you asked and he nodded “a lot and i should’ve told you about the bet before and i didn’t and for that i’m so sorry” he grabbed your hands.

“i want you, y/n and i need you please give me another chance” he begged, kneeling down on his knees and you blinked the tears that you felt coming away.

“this isn’t another ruse of yours, is it?” you teased making him chuckle and shake his head “no, baby i promise this is all me”

you thought for a minute before nodding your head and his face lit up “yeah, we can try again” he stood up from the floor “i promise i won’t hurt you again”

“you promise?” your eyes sparkled which made a smile form across his face.

“promise”

after a nice warm long shower and him eating a few pieces of pizza the guys bought for him, you two were tangled up in bed together while your previous clothes were laying on the floor.

soft whimpers came from your mouth as he slowly began to move his hips into you, letting you adjust to him before speeding up a little. his lips went to yours, kissing you gently. your arms were wrapped around his neck, deepening the kiss.

his lips went down to your chin then your jaw line and to your neck, leaving kisses all over “i really do love you” he mumbled against your neck.

“i love you”

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slytherinshua · 1 year

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THINGS TAEHYUN DOES AS YOUR BOYFRIEND

genre. fluff. headcanon. warnings. none. pairing. taehyun x gn!reader. wc. 513.

FOREHEAD KISSES

We all know Taehyun is a gentleman and so so romantic. And forehead kisses feel so delicate and sweet, especially coming from him. I think it would be such a comfort thing as well. He likes to give them after hugs or while cuddling. Another thing he would love doing is creating a trail of kisses starting from your forehead down to your lips. He loves hearing you giggle when he does it, and he smiles in between the kisses he places on your face.

PHOTOSHOOTS TOGETHER (MODEL COUPLE <33)

Taehyun would get a photographer to do a couple’s shoot every once in a while. He likes having professional photos done (though he also has a soft spot for candid photos of you) for you both, especially with coordinated outfits. Having photos where you look amazing is a big confidence boost for you and Taehyun knows it. He would compliment you a lot during the shoot because you look so stunning and he’s very whipped <//3

STUDY DATES

STUDY. DATES. I’m pretty sure we all think of this when we think of dates with Taehyun. I’m reminded of his mood diary every time. It would be so relaxing to study with Taehyun. And he’d have an answer to every question you’re stumped on <33 I’m sure he would bribe you with kisses as well, and suddenly make studying something enjoyable :D

LETTING YOU STEAL BORROW HIS HOODIES

Taehyun. is. so. bf. We all know this, right? And hoodies = bf material. He would love it when you wear his hoodies cause he thinks you look cute in them. They’re just the perfect size too big to look cutely oversized on you and he adores it. He won’t explicitly mention that he likes it when you wear his hoodies, but you can tell from his blushes and smiles and kisses that he loves it.

KISSES ON THE LIPS

In my opinion, Taehyun is the most romantic member of txt. And with that, I think he would love kissing your lips as much as he loves kissing your forehead. Mostly perfect timing kisses, like while a firework show is going on, or while its raining. He always finds the exact right moment to initiate them to make seem like out of a kdrama.

CARRYING YOU

He likes giving you piggyback rides. Especially if you’re tired after a date, he’ll gladly carry you instead. He’s got muscles so he wouldn’t even get tired smh… Plus he likes being a gentleman so even if you protested, he would just pick you up anyway. He would hold you so securely too, there’s no way you would even slip.

CAT CAFES

Okayy go-to date spot right here. Cats + Taehyun + coffee/tea/dessert = literal perfection. The cats in the cafe just seem to gravitate towards Taehyun and it’s the most adorable thing. You two could spend all day together in a cat cafe easily, it’s just too easy to lose track of time in there. Plus from how often you’ve gone, the cats have grown to know you two <33

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sunoooism · 10 months

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I was down ; you picked me up

› summary: in which Taehyun finds you in a pit of despair and helps you climb out.

› angst, comfort / wc: 1,628

› warnings: mental health issues, self doubting thoughts, suicidal thoughts/intentions, eating disorder & depression, crying, mentions of throwing up, angst, comfort ending, some sort of higher education au (they live in dormitories), if you're ever feeling like this please reach out to someone (my dms r open), I'm not at all romanticising this kind of behaviour but it's comfort writing and very much self indulgent, don't read if you don't like, gn!reader.

everything around you felt dull and dark, felt like it was suffocating you, dragging you down into its grey mass. it had this horrible feeling of loneliness splashed into the mix, filling up your lungs until you were drowning in it. and what was worse, nobody cared enough to pull you out. you supposed it was nobody's fault but your own though. summer was the chance you had been waiting for, the chance to erase yourself. unanswered texts, missed calls and unreturned letters piled up for too long and eventually your friends stopped trying all together. it hurt, but you had achieved your motive in the end, so you didn't understand why you felt so unpleasantly about it. unfortunately rumours were now circling about the school, the hot new subject being that you thought you were too good for your old friends and that's why you ghosted them. ironic, your mind that loved to torture you so with your low self esteem was laughing at you. yet, today you didn't seem to care enough to express it outwardly.

hair askew, uniform crinkled, eyebags that felt ever so heavy, you dragged yourself to the library. earning a few glares and nudges on your way, you had guessed they were fueled by the rumours. and despite looking worse than death itself, no one seemed to notice the longing for it behind your lifeless eyes. as you passed through the many hallways, you spotted your friends, now ex friends, all laughing together through a window. the usual numbness you felt was replaced by a wave of hurt that almost swallowed you whole when you saw how unaffected they were by your absence, even though you knew you didn't have the right to, not after you purposely cut them off. although there were many students blocking your view of them, Soobin still managed to clock you gazing at them with wistful longing and regret.

in an act of panic you jumped at his sudden attention and sped away from them, but not before you heard Kai call your name. fortunately for you a study period was last on your schedule, so you made your way to your dorm, trying to look as inconspicuous as one could when speed walking away from a group of people. the footsteps managed to follow you through buzzing crowds until you reached the hall of which your dorm was located, you breathed a sigh of relief when you could no longer hear their thundering stomps.

warm tears were already making their way down your cheeks by the time you'd collapsed on your bed and hidden yourself amongst the many blankets and cushions sitting upon it. you let your sadness consume you once again, choking on your gasps and sniffles.

your room was your only outlet of peace, every student at the school knew that, which is why you didn't understand why someone was now banging on your door when they were meant to be in class anyway. you didn't have the energy nor the care to open the door. not leaving your dorm in three and a half days had made you feel like jelly whenever you moved, that and all those days depriving yourself of food, water and daylight didn't help either. you had hoped it was punishment enough for pushing your friends away, but apparently something in your body wanted for you to suffer more, curled up in your bed staring at a blank wall until you fell asleep. the showers and the cookie basket your mother sent were calling to you, almost as inviting as a siren song. but with most things these days you couldn't find it in yourself to want to or care enough.

the incessant knocking on your door continued, as well as the now overuse of your name being called. in all honesty the thought of someone seeing you like this made you want to throw up, probably what they would do at the sight of you. ah, your mind was torturing you again, enough to make you teeter and sway at the edge, but never enough to push you over and watch you tumble down until you hit rock bottom.

you heard your doorknob turn and someone walk in. you thought you had locked your door? not knowing who it was you were ready for some judgemental looks being thrown your way when they saw your state. you were hoping it was an axe murderer coming to end your pathetic and dreary life but apparently not as kang taehyun was all who flooded your vision.

"y/n, what the fuck? everyone thought you were dead" the sentence had come out more venomous than he'd of liked, but right now it was hard to sound soft as he stared at his friend looking like they'd been drained of all life.

"might as well be" your throaty response came out quiet, but he heard, and it broke his heart more than when you'd dumped him right before summer. though it was the first time he'd heard you speak in 9 weeks, he could hear all the self loathing and resentment your tone held. taehyun laid a hand on your arm, rubbing soothing circles that spread the first warmth you'd felt in weeks through your body, then he asked the question everyone who felt like you dreaded and hoped for at the same time.

"are you okay?"

somehow, you still had enough fluids in you to push down your stoic barrier and let everything pour out. tears began to stream down your cheeks, which only worried the boy that knelt beside you further. "y/n?" the call of your name passed right through you, too busy gasping between sobs to acknowledge he was talking to you.

"y/n? can you sit up for me?" his tone was mellow, just as soft as his touch that had now trailed down to your hands. you supposed he didn't want to upset you more than you already were by sounding angry. despite the gnawing thought of wanting to curl up in a ball and die because someone had seen you like this, you manoeuvred your body languidly so you could lean against the wall, because you knew that this was best for you right now.

after a moment of putting the deep breathing exercises Yeonjun had taught you to good use, a tissue was held in front of you. your shaky hand reached out and grasped it, barely strong enough to hold it up to your face.

"i'm sorry" the words escaped you before you could even choose to say them, a frown etching its way onto taehyun's brows when he heard. "why are you apologising?"

"I-" the words died in your throat once you realised you weren't quite sure why, was it because you dumped him? because of the fact you ignored him all summer only for him to be the person comforting you at your lowest? both?.

"you don't have to apologise for feeling things'' you didn't quite know how to respond to that. your lack of reply gave him another opening to speak. "do you want to talk more about it after some food and a shower?" nodding hesitantly, you followed his slow movements to walk towards the door, planning to grab clean clothes and a towel on the way. that plan was quickly brushed to the back of your mind when your vision clouded over with black spots, weakening you until you collapsed back onto your bed with a shaky breath that alerted taehyun to your troubles.

"woah, you alright? want me to grab a nurse?" all that followed was a brisk shake of your head and tears making their home under your lash line once again.

stupid. you couldn't even walk right.

"i'm sorry" you squeaked out, voice quivery with the sniffles. "hey, it's okay. there's no need for apologies over this, yeah?" your body sought out refuge as it leant into his palm he had placed gently on your cheek, his affection burning your skin with the familiar warmth that had always come to you when the two of you were dating. you wondered how he felt about all this, watching his ex fall apart multiple times in ten minutes for a reason that was unknown to him. god, you must have looked stupid.

"i'm sorry, taehyun" you finally spoke after an awkward silence, both waiting for the other to say something. "hey, what did I just-"

"no. it's, it's not for that," he watched you carefully, as if he looked too hard you might crack under his gaze. you hated that, but nevertheless you were grateful he cared. "i'm sorry for ignoring you this summer, it wasn't fair to you, or to anyone else I ditched. I just, I want you to know it wasn't because of you. i just thought it might hurt less for you and me when i…."

the rest was caught in your throat as you couldn't bring yourself to say it in front of him, the boy who'd said he would give you the whole world if he could. the boy who treated you like royalty every minute you spent together, the boy who used to love you more than anything else. the boy who still does love you more than anything else. he didn't deserve to hear what you were about to say.

"when you..?" one glance up into his curious brown eyes was all it took for him to understand. you could see him trying to mask the pain for your sake, hiding it so you didn't feel guilty. but you already did.

"i'm sor-" you were promptly interrupted when taehyun spoke over you, eyes gazing fondly into yours. "hey,"

"no more sorries, 'k?"

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delululand · 5 months

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he usually says 아빠 왔다 (daddy came) and even this phrase itself…. (I also study psychology and we could go over mean this phrase, but today we won’t)

plz do tell us when you have time 😭😭😭

ohhh okay I'll try to explain it, sorry if it's a bit messy, I just have a lot of thoughts and they don’t always look structured but I'll try to attach photos and videos for a better understanding of what I'm talking about

below I’ll leave taehyung’s own explanation of this phrase and so, he’s the one of members who use that phrase

let's think a little about what general associations the phrase “dad’s here” evokes? often the words that come to mind with the image of a dad are dominance, strictness, strength, discipline, responsibility and in general something more adult? like a dad is usually a man, not a boy or a guy (ofc different people may have different perceptions due to their life experiences and other things, but I’m talking about a more general idea)

and often these are the vibrations that he emits? like seriously the impression he makes by just watching him without getting to know him better is literally dad…. yes, he has a second side when he acts cute, but I would say the dad side seems more pronounced (and i can’t stop thinking about tyun daddy kink)

below I’ll leave a video and let’s look how does he say this phrase. if you pay attention to his body language, firstly, he looks very attractive in this hoodie and gray sweatpants (sorry, it came out), secondly, his shoulders are straightened, his hand is in his pocket (even when he’s sitting), his head is slightly raised and HOW he sat down on a chair, pushing it with one hand and sitting with his legs wide apart. all this shows dominance, both the phrase itself and his body language

I think it wasn't something conscious and it's just a phrase, but it reflects this part of his personality well. and this is not the only time we can see the dominance in his character manifested. he often shows this through his body language and voice intonations, and it works. as another example i want to show the video (I can't attach more than one video in a post so I leave the link)

just listen to HOW he tells the guys to put down the blankets, even his very intonation sounds quite dominant. before his arrive, everyone was just resting and lying around randomly, but as soon as he arrived, he immediately said to put out the blankets. + he's not the official leader, but everyone stood up and started doing it without question. i watched full episode and this moment really feels like 아빠 왔다 (dad’s here) hahaha

so that's all, I just wanted to show how one phrase that seems insignificant can well describe a person's character and his inclinations towards something

#txt taehyun #txt hard hours #txt thoughts #txt hard thoughts #txt kang taehyun #txt reactions #txt imagines #txt

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tqmies · 1 year

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Description. Making a drunk friend at a party was the last thing on your agenda, and she’s far different than what you’re used to. But maybe that’s a good thing? Enter her brother, who is convinced you are exactly what everyone says you are. Though, the two of you are far more alike than you think.

Pairings. Kang Taehyun x Female Reader

Genre. ANGST, Fluff?, Comfort. (This is a self ranting oops.)

Warnings. Underage Drinking, Underage Smoking, Illegal use of marijuana, Parties, Peer pressure, Identity issues. Mentions of Sex. Throwing up due to drinking. Arguments. Wooyoung and Yeonjun are like morally gray.

Word count. 7.8K

Note: This is based on a true story honestly, I’ve gone through this in my life, and I’m sorry if you relate. It is better now and I feel at peace <3 Dm’s are open if you need to talk babes <3

Sequel: When I’m Alone

The first time you meet Kang Taehyun, was quite unpleasant.

Choi Yeonjun yanked your hand as you two tried to make your way through the crowd. You giggled as you followed behind him, ready to grab the first bottle of alcohol you could spot. Yeonjun rushing as he spotted a familiar face.

Wooyoung, your other friend, greeted you sloppily. Eyes red, a sign of the weed he probably smoked before you arrived. He was never going to let up.

You only get to speak a word to him before he’s shouting. “Woah, is that a new piercing?” He asked too loudly, as he got closer to your ear.

“It’s just a bar.” You laughed, gesturing to your industrial piercing that went through your ear. “Don’t touch it, it’s still healing.” You rolled your eyes as you playfully swatted his hand away.

“It makes you look hot.” Wooyoung admitted bluntly, Yeonjun laughing in response.

“She was crying like a baby when they did it, said it hurt so bad.”

You had jokingly hit him on the arm, “Hush!”

Shooting you a lopsided grin, Wooyoung spoke, “I would’ve guessed it, that’s how she was when she got her helix.”

And you hated that he was correct. Like you could fool him anyways, he was your best friend as well. The three of you had grown up together, taking every big leap through life together. That’s how it had always been.

And you’d like to think you wouldn’t have it any other way.

“Hey, I brought you a beer.” A voice said, pressing a cold one to your side.

“Chaewon!” You exclaimed, taking in the sight of her. “You bitch, you dyed your hair without me!”

She stiffed a laugh as she shows off her newly bleached hair, then she turned to you accusingly. “Your hoe ass got a piercing without me!”

“She has a point.” Yeonjun interjects, taking a beer from Chaewon’s other hand. He fumbled with the top of the can before he opens it, a sign that he can’t wait to start chugging it.

You ignored the two as you opened your bottled beer using the bottle opener on the wall, infamous in this tiny house that belongs to Lee Heeseung. Not that you ever see him here anyways, he’s usually upstairs with a girl by this time of night.

When you made it back to your friends, you noticed Yeonjun holding a blunt in his hand. “I thought we agreed we lessen the drugs.” You’d spoken up.

He looked at you with wide eyes, “It’s one hit!”

“Whatever.” You sighed, taking a swing of the bottle in your hand. As you looked around, you began to feel overwhelmed by the amount of people. You forgot how quickly these parties fill up. It was one of the things you hated about these parties.

“I’m gonna go find someone to pour liquor into my mouth.” You had said, excusing yourself from the group.

When in reality, you just wanted some fresh air. But if they had heard that, you’d never hear the end of it. So you stuck with the alternative, lying.

It got them off your back too, sometimes you just needed a minute to collect yourself. You were sure you’d find someone to pour you drinks in no time.

You reached the sliding doors that led you outside, and slid them open to reveal a group of kids with cigarettes outside. Great.

Just the kind you’d expect too. A scary looking all-boys group just looking ready to pounce on the next person to walk through the doors. Clearly, very sketchy.

You were not the one though.

You pushed past them and settled on some couches, leaning into the plush of them. Why did Heeseung have lounge chairs with such fancy pillows? Who bought those kinds of things?

The door suddenly opened and you’re drawn from your useless thoughts. A girl came stumbling out, her skirt riding up dangerously high, heading straight into the group of cigarette boys.

This probably wouldn’t end well.

They all stared at her, one of them looking like they’re about to speak.

Your female instincts shot into high alert. And despite you having no clue who she was, you headed straight for her.

“Hey, I was waiting for you.” You said, grabbing her arm.

You didn’t like the odds of this clearly drunk girl outside alone with this group of boys, so you hoped she’d get the hint.

She just squinted as she nodded. “Oh, hey!” She feigns recognition, but you can smell the alcohol on her breath and recognize the slight slur of her words.

“You’re done, we better get you home.” You laughed, hoping the boys let you guys go back inside. Their eyes following you two closely.

And they did, you sighing in relief as you closed the doors.

“Where are we going?” The stranger giggled, you shaking your head.

“I’m going to get you some water.” You grabbed her hand, keeping a hold of her as you two moved through the crowd.

She almost tripped over her feet as she leaned closer. “I”m Sakura, are you my friend?”

You shook your head before introducing yourself, “I”m just trying to help you sober up.”

Sakura takes the bottled water from your hand, her grin widening. “Thank you.”

“No problem.” You reply as she starts downing the water.

This didn’t look good.

Before you could tell her to slow down, she’s drank the entire bottle of water.

“Oh goodness.” You muttered.

She turns towards to you and leans her figure on the counter for stability. “You know, I usually never drink this much.”

You nodded. “Then-”

Sakura doesn’t process you’re speaking as she continues. “I’m just trying to impress a boy. Stupid? I know. He’s one of my brothers friends, and he’s just so hot. I thought it might take the edge off and give me a bit of liquid courage-”

“You’re rambling.” You cut in. “I’m a stranger, you probably don’t want me knowing your life story.”

“Oh hush, you’re practically my best friend now.”

You smiled. “Well then best friend, you’re about to puke your guts out.”

And as soon as you say that, her face goes pale. “Where’s the restroom?”

You grabbed her hand and bolted for the guest bathroom, praying it was empty, and to your delight, it was.

Quickly moving, you grab her hair in a makeshift ponytail and kneel her over the toilet. Your efforts working just in time as she let out a string of blue liquid into the toilet. This was another one of the things you hated about these parties.

She coughed as tears left her eyes. “Who’s holding my hair?!”

“It’s me.” You remind and she nodded. At least the poor girl would definitely sober up after this.

“I think I’m done.”

You helped her to her feet as she wiped the tears from her eyes. “I’ll get you more water. Stay here in case you feel sick again.”

Sakura agreed and you headed towards the kitchen, seeing your group of friends now huddled in there.

Chaewon grabbed your arm. “Hey, we were looking for you. I need a beer pong partner.”

You desperately wanted to agree, beer pong with them was always fun. Not to mention you currently had an undefeated streak of wins against Wooyoung and his other friend Yeosang, but right now was not the time.

“I can’t,” You explained. “I’m helping my drunk friend out.”

“Drunk friend?” Yeonjun interjected, overhearing the conversation. “We’re your friends.”

You know what he’s getting at. If you weren’t helping any of us, then who were you helping? And you would be hurt by the assumption of your lack of friends if it wasn’t certainly true. But as of now, you guessed it wasn’t so true anymore.

You wanted to roll your eyes, sarcastically you spoke. “I held her hair while she puked, we’re like bonded for life now.”

Chaewon blinked. “Huh?”

“I’ll be back.” You said, having grabbed the bottle of water. Ignoring Yeonjun’s questioning and Wooyoung’s look from afar. It wasn’t about them right now.

But when you arrived to the bathroom, it was empty. You only had to look around for a few seconds before notice a couple arguing in your peripheral vision.

It’s Sakura, and a blonde guy, who looks vaguely like her. But you weren’t going to take any chances.

You warily approach the two as the male just stared you down.

“Is this guy bothering you?” You questioned, Sakura’s eyes finding yours.

“Yes.” She pouted. “But unfortunately he’s my brother.”

Her brother looked between you two as he spoke up. “How do you know her?”

“Who? Me?” You asked, ready to explain everything.

“I’m talking to my sister.” He responds, rather rudely. “How do you know her? You know better, she runs around with Choi Yeonjun for God’s sake. Sakura, c’mon.”

You’re about to snap when Sakura comes to your defense. “Hey! Leave her alone. She saved me from a group of guys who looked like they were gonna eat me. Then she helped me get sober, neither of which you did! You were running around trying to talk to a girl who doesn’t even know you.”

He stares back at her blankly before she speaks up again. “You’re talking about Choi Yeonjun?! You hang out with fucking nerds, that’s why you think social people are evil! Just cause they party a little doesn’t make them bad people. It just makes them different than you! And that’s definitely not a bad thing, Taehyun.”

You let out a little laugh when he turned his attention back to you. “Stay away from Sakura. I know all about you and your little friends. And I don’t need my big sister turning into the likes of you.”

Scoffing, you looked him up and down. “You don’t know shit about me or any of my friends. And why are you so uptight? God, its a party! You should let the stick come out of your ass every once in a while.”

“You helped her sober up, huh? I bet you got her drunk in the first place.” Taehyun accused, getting closer to you.

You were quick to shut down the accusation. “Actually, no. Sakura got drunk trying to impress one of your loser friends. But if he hangs out with you, I’m sure she’s better off without him anyways.”

“You-”

“Hey, what’s going on over here?” Wooyoung appeared, holding a blunt in his right hand while he swung his left hand over your shoulder. He had heard all the arguing from across the house, or so it seemed.

“Oo, can I have a hit?” Sakura perked up, boy was she curious.

“Sure, pretty girl.” He replied before you stopped him.

“Actually, I think it’s better if she skipped that.” You remarked, the last thing she needed was to get cross-faded as she was still somewhat tipsy.

Taehyun looked over at you and you just swatted Wooyoung’s hand down.

“Lame.” Wooyoung mumbled before leaning into your ear. “Ready to go upstairs?”

You looked away. “Not tonight Wooyoung.”

“That’s fine, wanna go back to the others?”

“Yeah, I just wanna see that Sakura gets home alright.”

“She will.” Taehyun interrupted, a dirty look on his face. “We’re leaving now.”

“Awe!” Sakura whined. “It was nice meeting you! Here’s my number!”

And she tugged on Taehyun’s dragging arm to grab your phone and put her number in. Saving it as ‘Kura <3′ and sending herself a text. “Call me to hang out!”

“Will do!” You yelled back as her brother dragged her halfway out the front door. Her pleading for one last drink before they left. Their dynamic was interesting in that way, he seemed like the older one there.

You didn’t look forward to explaining the situation to Wooyoung or the others. Though, the smile wouldn’t dare leave your face as you watched her exit.

You had made a friend, all on your own.

And it felt good.

That next day, you’re at Yeonjun’s place as Wooyoung blows smoke into your open mouth from the blunt he dragged on his lips. The smoke almost too much for you to handle. Though, you managed to keep a straight face, smiling back at your friend when the smoke cleared.

Chaewon fumbles with her fingers as she attempts to roll another one. Yeonjun just laughs at her attempts, “The wrap isn’t wet enough. Here.” Then he grabs the item and helps her properly roll it up.

You watch from Wooyoung’s lap, not that you cared anyways, you preferred nasty cigarettes over weed. It kept your friends at bay, and stopped them from trying to pressure you into the smelly green substance.

Plus, after the first few coughing fits, it wasn’t too bad.

“So, I met this guy named San.” Chaewon begins, helping hold the lighter.

“San? Isn’t he weird?” Wooyoung questions, you trying not to catch another puff.

“A little.” Chaewon sighs. “But he has a bong!”

“A bong?” You say, eyes widening.

“Totally.” She nods. “I’ve always wanted to try one.”

“Meh.” Yeonjun mutters. “Not all that.”

Chaewon just pouts, starting an argument with Yeonjun over it. Those two would bicker over anything if you let them.

You zone out and move to grab your phone. Scrolling through, you come upon a banner for some new action movie. It looks cool, and you haven’t been to the movies in so long. Since you were all in like 9th grade.

“Hey.” You say, returning the attention to you. “Why don’t we go see a movie this weekend?”

“A movie? Sure.” Yeonjun responds. “Which one?”

“This one.” And you hold out your phone so the three can huddle around it as you watch the trailer. You had seen the preview when you went to the movies the week before, albeit alone.

“The lead actors so dreamy.” Chaewon comments, Yeonjun scrunching his nose in disgust. “You’re such a woman.”

“Hey! What’s that supposed to mean?”

“Means what I said.”

“I’m gonna kick your ass.”

“I’ll go.” Wooyoung interrupts, going back to the movie. “If I get to sit by you.”

“Gross.” You say, pretend gagging.

“Yeah, lets go, but get crazy high right before.”

There it is.

“But then we wont be able to focus on the movie!” You try and reason as you whine.

“It’ll make the experience even better, can you imagine? Explosions on the screen while you’re high?”

And you shut down.

You should’ve known better than to think you guys could’ve just gone to see a regular movie like regular friends. Maybe you expected too much?

Too much for expecting your friends to want to do normal things?

You lean back into Wooyoung, “My bad, I have plans this weekend. We’ll go another time.”

And Yeonjun boos, “Liar, we’re your only friends.”

And you hate that it’s true.

Despite Taehyun’s callous warnings, you reached out and met with Sakura multiple times over the next few months. She was a fun girl, and a light to be around. She was someone who didn’t know your past, or the mistakes you had made. She was brand new, and you couldn’t wait to learn more about her.

In fact, you two were planning your next hangout via text as you laid on Yeonjun’s couch. The two of you were watching some shitty horror movie, you know, the kind that isn’t even scary but just comically bad. He loved those.

Kura <3: I was thinking the butterfly garden downtown tomorrow!

Kura <3: Oh, and then we could go on a picnic and take cute pics ^-^

You: I’ll make the sandwiches? :P

Kura <3: Yup, and I’ll bring the cake

Kura <3: And cheap bottle of wine

Kura <3: Promise I know my limits this time..

You laugh at the text when Yeonjun looks over at you, making a point of pausing the movie. “What’s got you glued to your phone?”

Shrugging you reach for more popcorn. “Just Sakura.”

He groans, “Sakura? The same Sakura you ditched us for last weekend?”

“I didn’t ditch you guys.” You reply. “I just didn’t wanna hotbox in Wooyoung’s car again. Plus she offered to pay, I can’t say no to a free meal.”

“Seems like you’re beginning to like her more than us.”

“That’s not true.” You disagree as you pout. “You’ll always be my number one, Choi Yeonjun.”

He smiles at that, and satisfied, he presses play back on the movie.

Though you can’t regain focus on the movie as it plays because you keep running over what you had said.

Maybe he was right, maybe you did enjoy being with Sakura more.

And you just can’t accept it.

Not even as you lay in your bed back at home, can you think of a time when you laughed as hard as you did with Sakura as you did with your old friends.

That time drunk Chaewon threw up in the bushes?

Meh, mediocre laugh at best.

When Wooyoung dropped his vape in the ocean during a beach day?

It really wasn’t all that funny how grumpy he was on the way home.

When Yeonjun got lost in a corn maze? Or when he tripped on a rock and busted his phone? Maybe when he choked on McDonalds french fries at 3AM cause he had the munchies and you had to call an ambulance?

Those were just traumatic.

No, no matter how hard you tried, you couldn’t think of anything.

And that was almost enough to make you tear up.

Though you were distracted from your moment of wallowing in pity by a notification from your phone. It was a call and the display read ‘Kura <3′.

You press the green button and speak into the mic. “Hello?”

“Hey!” She whisper-yells. “I know it’s literally the middle of the night, but I have a question..”

“Shoot.”

“Can Taehyun come tomorrow?”

“Taehyun?” You voice, and the surprise hits you suddenly. Why would Taehyun want to join you and Sakura’s day out? Did he even know you were going?

“Yeah..” She trails. “I might have mentioned it to him and Beomgyu and he said it sounded fun and how he’d want to come.. and then Taehyun agreed.”

“Beomgyu want’s to come?!” You exclaim. Beomgyu was the boy Sakura was so head over heels for. And you’d be damned if you stood in her way cause of a petty quarrel you and her brother had months ago.

“Yes! But I think only under the condition that my brother comes too.”

“That’s fine. I don’t mind.”

“Are you sure?” She asks, unconvinced.

“Positive.”

And she thanks you a million times before you can finally get her to hang up. Saying you two need to be well rested tomorrow, and how you look forward to seeing the butterflies with her. Though, right now all you can think about is how much you don’t want to see Taehyun. Weird, right?

You didn’t even realize you had fallen asleep until its the next morning, and as you lean over to grab your phone, you realize you only have an hour until you have to meet Sakura.

You shoot up from your bed. You realize you have an hour to shower, do your hair and makeup, pick an outfit, and make like twelve mini sandwiches.

Though you swiftly get it done, only running late by about ten minutes. But Sakura was a stickler for time anyways, so you figured you better hurry up.

You reach the gardens with no time to spare, spotting a parking space near the front. You park close to the gate and rush in.

You’re quick to find Taehyun, but no Sakura anywhere near him. He stands still, looking bored as he watches something on his phone. You lean on your heels to try to see if you can see your friend anywhere, but she doesn’t seem to be here.

You’re about to call her when someone calls out your name. It’s Taehyun, and he has the same bored expression on his face as he approaches you. “Sakura and Beomgyu already went in, so she told me to wait here for you.”

So in other words, she ditched you? For smelly old Choi Beomgyu? And then stuck you with unbearable monster Taehyun? Eh, you had been in worse situations. Good for her, at least she’s getting some alone time with Beomgyu.

Though, maybe at you and Taehyun’s cost.

“So, we should go in.” You say, awkwardly smiling. Trying to remain civil.

“You don’t need to pretend.” He speaks, furrowing his brows.

“Pretend?”

“Pretend to like me. We’re clearly uncomfortable around each other, so just embrace it. Pretending won’t get us anywhere.” And he walks away, expecting you to trail behind.

And you do, but his words stick with you.

He was straight forward, and you liked that. You also liked the fact that you two wouldn’t be kissing each others asses in an attempt to please Sakura. He just let you be, and you enjoyed that as you strolled through the gardens. Not saying a word to each other, just simply walking in silence.

After the trip is made, you all finally meet up at the end. Sakura gushing to you about the beautiful blue butterfly she saw, showing you pictures of it on her phone. Until she accidentally swipes too far and shows you a candid picture she took of Beomgyu, smiling towards an orange butterfly.

She waves her hands. “He just looked so pretty, and the butterfly-”

You hush her. “It’s a good photo, you should show it to him.”

“Show what to who?” Taehyun interrupts, approaching with the aforementioned boy behind him.

“None ya’.” Sakura responds, sticking her tongue out.

You two laugh as Sakura looks between you two. “Oh, I’m so sorry I left you two alone by the way, was everything okay?”

You narrow your eyes, “You’re not sorry!”

“A little.” She fake pouts.

“Whatever,” You playfully roll your eyes as you change the subject. “Can we eat now? I’m starving.”

“Oh! Oh, me too!”

And after deciding to just walk the short distance to the park, you two stop by your respective cars. You try and grab the basket and cups in one go but it’s clear that it won’t be happening, the basket’s just too heavy to carry with one hand.

You’re about to give up when the baskets lifted from your hands, turning to see Taehyun lift the load. Leaving you with just the cups. “Thanks.” You mutter. “But I thought we weren’t pretending.”

“Pretending? I don’t like you but I’m not a douche bag.” He remarks. “Plus, it looked like you were about to drop all the food.”

You smile.

After you all settled on the floor (Over the fuzzy blanket Sakura brought.) You sit at the end, Sakura right next to you with Beomgyu and Taehyun side by side on her left.

“You made these yourself?” Sakura breaks the silence brought upon by eating.

You nod, glad that everyone was devouring your food.

“Seriously?” She speaks again, and you lightly shove her.

“Yes, seriously.” You comment. “It’s just a sandwich, you act like its hard.”

“These are really good.” Beomgyu agrees. “I could eat like 15 of these.”

“You could eat 15 of anything.” Taehyun says with a snide. “One time he ate a soggy chip off the floor, we think Odi peed on it.”

Beomgyu yells in denial as you and Sakura bust out laughing.

“Wait.” You stop. “Who’s Odi?”

“Our roommate’s hedgehog.”

“Hedgehog!?”

“Yeah.” Beomgyu answers. “You should come meet him one day. Sakura, you should come too. Taehyun never lets you visit but I can finally show you that vinyl I was talking about.”

Sakura instantly agrees but you freeze up at that. “I don’t know..”

“Oh come on, Taehyun can cook you that shitty ramyeon he swears is the best.” Beomgyu says, eagerly awaiting your agreement.

“You didn’t call it shitty yesterday!”

“It was two in the morning!”

“Anyways,” Beomgyu continues. “You guys should come by tomorrow when I get off work, Taehyun has the day off so he’ll be there.”

“Yeah, Sakura you should go.” You nod.

“What time should I get you?” She qualms.

You shake your head. “I can’t tomorrow. I’m going to a party with my friends.”

“Yeosang’s?” She perks up. “He sent me the invite but I’m not sure I want to go after last time.”

“You mean when you met your best friend?” You say in fake shock, pretending to be hurt. Wiping a fake tear from your eye.

“Not that part!” She smiles. “Anyways, I think I’ll skip out on this one.”

Beomgyu wants to agree. “Ah I forgot that was tomorrow. I want to skip it too, but I’m sure Taehyun will be dragging me out there. You know that anywhere Yeosang is, she’s there too. Which means your brother’s there.”

Sakura nods in understanding. “Even though she has never once looked at Taehyun.”

He just stares back in annoyance. “This will be the time. I swear.”

And you all laugh, though you have no idea what’s going on.

Who was she?

And that smile that was on Taehyuns face as he spoke about her.

Why were you jealous that it wasn’t you who gave it to him?

The next afternoon you grab your purse, ready to head out the door as you plan to meet Sakura early. She offered to help you run errands before the party tonight.

Yet, you find yourself answering the door to an unexpected visitor.

Or, more like visitors.

Wooyoung and Yeonjun stood firmly against the door, moving to hold up a bag. You could only begin to guess what was in it anyways.

“Hey beautiful, I missed you.” Wooyoung commented, watching as you fumble with your jacket zipper.

“Hi, I missed you too.” You say, though you just go on about your tasks. “Why the sudden appearance?”

“We can’t just drop by? I wanted to pregame before the party.”

You slip on your shoes though, hoping they understood.

Yeonjun lifts his head up, “Are you going somewhere?”

You furrow your brows. “I’m going to a friend’s place.”

“Let me guess.” Wooyoung starts. “Sakura?”

You sigh. “Does it matter?”

“Kind of.” Yeonjun nods. “I’m beginning to think Sakura isn’t real. You made her up as an excuse to not hang out with us.”

You shake your head. “Oh I see, so you assume that I can’t make friends?”

Yeonjuns eyes widen, his words having come out the wrong way. “That’s not what I meant-”

“But that’s exactly what you said!” You snap. They had just come to aggravate you, it seems. Though, you were reaching your limit. “I’m tired of all of this!”

“All of what?”

“Of you all getting jealous over me making a friend! It’s like you guys can’t stand that it’s not all about you anymore!”

“So we’re the problem?” Wooyoung interjects. “But you’re the one who’s ditched us every time we’ve made plans!”

“Okay, because your idea of ‘plans’ always involve not being sober.”

“Since when do you care about being sober?!”

You pause, you didn’t. Truthfully, you didn’t care much about it, it was just the fact that they could never be sober around you. Like they couldn’t stand the thought of your presence and wanted to pressure you into feeling the same.

“Am I that much of a bore to hang out with that you have to be drunk or high to get along with me?” You meek, tears prickling your eyes. “You guy’s aren’t the guys I used to know.”

“Well no shit,” Yeonjun responds. “We grew up.”

“You’re right.” You agree, wiping at your eyes. “Maybe we just outgrew each other.”

“What?!” Wooyoung exclaims.

“What’re you talking about?”

Moving to grab your jacket, a sigh leaves your mouth. “We don’t seem to be getting along well these days.”

“We don’t?” Yeonjun asks, genuinely confused. “You’re just not acting like yourself.”

“Yes I am!” You yell out. “Maybe you guys just don’t know me!”

“Wait no-”

“This isn’t what I want! Parties and getting wasted is fun a couple times, but you guys live in that! You don’t even care about anything that’s not your next high. And I’m always running trying to keep up with you! I don’t want this anymore! ”

“If that’s how you feel then maybe we shouldn't be around each other anymore.” Yeonjun exclaims, making a point.

Wooyoung’s eyes flickering between the two of you before he nods. “I wouldn’t want you to feel obligated to be our friends.”

“No,” You sigh. “That’s not-”

You’re about to pull your hair out, why were they turning this on you?

“You’re clearly better off without us.” Wooyoung mumbles, grabbing the bag off the counter. “We’ll see ourselves out.”

“Wooyoung!” You attempt. “Yeonjun!”

Yeonjun just follows after. “You wanted to drink, you wanted to sleep with Wooyoung, you wanted to party. Don’t make us out to be the bad guys, you wanted to do all those things. And you could’ve just said no.”

He turns back towards you. “You blame us for everything but no one forced you to take a single drink. You could’ve walked away anytime you wanted. Maybe try taking responsibility for your own damn actions instead of blaming the only people who have ever been there for you.”

Then he slams your front door, you aching to follow behind them. These were your childhood friends, your closest companions. You had even shared your most intimate parts with one of them. But here you were, just letting them walk away.

It felt manipulative, the way they spoke about things.

It wasn’t ever as easy as saying no. Saying no would mean you couldn’t go to parties with them, to soak up their general presence. They would’ve gone on to other things, finding you as their sober friend, boring and a prude. It would’ve put you in two different places, but maybe that was where you needed to be?

Or could you just not take the blame? Were you really deflecting?

Though that night, you find yourselves in the same place. You entering a party you claim you always despise. You head straight to the kitchen, pouring yourself your favorite soda and mixing it with a bottle of stale rum you found. Anything to take the edge off.

The edge that you felt as you walked in alone, without anyone by your side.

You weren’t sure what you were doing here anyways. Your ‘friends’ would be less than happy to see you at this party. Though, you didn’t want to go knocking on Sakura’s door, just dumping your problems onto her. You didn’t know what to do, so you were just doing what was familiar.

You lean on the counter as Chaewon approaches you. “Is it true?”

“What?” You blurt out, wondering how word got to her already.

“Do you really feel that way? Like all we do is pressure you?”

You look down. “Chaewon-”

“You could’ve talked to us, you know? We would’ve laid off what we did around you. We would’ve understood. But you suck at communication, how were we supposed to know how you felt?” She sputters out.

“Well you probably all hate me now, so what’s the point?”

“Hate you?” Chaewon says as she looks around. “Wooyoung and Yeonjun got their feelings hurt, and I did too. But for them it’s different, they need time. How would you feel if your childhood best friend told you that they hated being around you?”

“That’s what it felt like to me. You guys never wanted to do anything I did.”

“You rarely ever asked. We thought you liked parties, we thought you liked thrills! When I met you-”

“People change!” You interrupt, exhausted by the whole ordeal. “Trust me I know. When I met them, they were different too. I just can’t stand what this has all done to you.”

“Well something happened to you too.” She says and then walks away, not even bothering to hide her displeasure.

“I realized who I was.” You scowl to yourself as you mutter, intended for no one to hear.

You just pour yourself another cup, this time of that nasty straight rum. You hadn't even realized you finished the other cup, until you’re pouring again.

A few mutual friends stop by and greet you, you making small conversation as they ask why you’re not attached to the usual boy’s hips. You just nod and wave them off, saying you had a small disagreement, then pouring yourself another cup of whatever concoction had been made in the blender.

The party was started to liven up, people packing in from every corner. You even spot several new faces gathered around Yeonjun and Wooyoung, soaking up their every word. Chaewon hanging off a couple other girl’s arms already, having made a new best friend as far as you could tell. It looked like they weren’t phased by your absence at all. Like you didn’t matter.

You hated this feeling. You hated being left out. This is what you had tried so hard to avoid, yet it all came back full circle. You needed another drink.

You pour yourself another cup, about to rapidly down it when someone puts a hand on your shoulder. “This is your third cup since I started walking this way.”

It’s Beomgyu, he smiles a bit awkwardly, grabbing the cup from your hand.

You whine, “It’s making me feel better.”

“About what?” He asks.

“Losing all my friends.” You pout, face feeling hot. Your vision starting to get wonky as it blurs when you move your eyes around.

“Did you and Sakura fight?”

You shake your head. “No.”

“So you didn’t lose all your friends.” He laughs, though the realization is lost in your lidded eyes and murky brain.

You don’t respond before he speaks again. “You and Yeonjun fought?”

“Yeonjun.” You mumble. “And Wooyoung.”

He nods along, realizing you were probably going to fall over if not for the counter keeping you grounded as you held to it.

“And Chaewon.” You say before a tear leaves your eyes.

Now look, Beomgyu considered himself decent with woman. But if there’s one thing he hasn’t learned how to handle, it’s a crying one. This was not in his lady whisperer manual that he and Soobin (Their roommate) had rented from the library to help them swoon their crushes. It worked for Soobin, somewhat, but Beomgyu’s was still a work in progress. Damn that manual.

“Hey,” He says, lowering his voice as he places his hand on your back. You barely remembering how he got here. “Don’t cry, I’m sure it’ll work out.”

And that somehow made it worse as you burst into tears.

Beomgyu’s attempting to comfort you when Taehyun spots the two of you from across the room. It’s an interesting scene to be honest. A run-of-the-mill party girl letting an anti-social gamer rub her back as she cries her eyes out in the middle of a few dozen people. That was one for the books. Not to mention one was his best friend and the other was you.

He can’t believe this is happening right now of all times. He wants to ignore it, he wants to believe Beomgyu has it under control. He wants to continue the conversation he’s having with this beautiful girl in front of him.

But he can’t.

He doens’t know exactly why, so he chalks it up to saving his friend from an embarrassing situation. Not that he cares about you or anything, right?

Taehyun excuses himself from the girl, ignoring her questions as he works to keep you two in his line of sight. Weaving his way through bodies as he makes it to the kitchen, thankfully in one piece.

You’re hanging off Beomgyu, using his as an anchor, seeing that you clearly can’t walk alone. He’s helping you wipe off your tears with a napkin as Taehyun approaches.

“Don’t tell me.” Beomgyu starts, an annoyed look on his face.

“Don’t tell you what?” Taehyun responds, confused.

“That you left Karina there all by herself! I had this under control.” Beomgyu rants, upset that his friend ruined his own chances. “You had her in the bag!”

“What’re you talking about?”

“You’re so-”

“Kang Taehyun.” You slur, cocking your head to the side. “You like Karina?”

Beomgyu shushes you as Taehyun waves him off. “So what?”

You shrug slowly. “Nothin’.”

Then you start giggling, turning to Beomgyu, as you fail to whisper. “He’s an idiot.”

Taehyun is not amused. “Why’s that?”

“She is not riding that wave buddy.” You laugh drunkenly.

He’s not processing a word you’re saying. “Huh?”

“Karina’s lesbian.” You say, words tumbling out. “She’s been out for a while.”

The two boys stare at each other in shock, mouth agape.

“No way.” Beomgyu says, throwing his head back.

Taehyun feels his heart shatter. “Oh.”

“Awe don’t be sad.” You pout your bottom lip. “There’s other fish..I forgot the saying.”

Taehyun mentally facepalms. “Let’s just go home.”

“Where does she live?”

Taehyun looks down. “I don’t know, I’ll ask Sakura.”

And he quickly sends a text, hoping Sakura will answer soon.

“I’ll drop you off at home.” He turns to Beomgyu. “Then I’ll take her.”

“No,” You protest. “Don’t leave me alone with the monster, he’ll bite my head off.”

Beomgyu pats your head. “You’ll be fine.”

The three of you are ready to head out when you’re stopped by an arm pulling you, it belonging to Wooyoung.

“Where do you think you’re going?” He asks, gesturing to you, though you realize he’s not speaking you but instead to the boys.

“I’m taking her home.” Taehyun says blankly.

“Home?” Wooyoung laughs. “Sure you are.”

Beomgyu moves up to grab you again when Wooyoung pulls you away. Shaking his head, “Two sober guys walking out with a drunk girl who can’t even hold herself up. Not a good look.”

Taehyun breathes out a sigh, this was not a good look. “She’s drunk, she needs to go home.”

“I agree, but I’ll take her home.”

“And why should we let you?” Beomgyu steps in. “She told me you two weren’t friends anymore. Why would we trust you?”

“And who the hell are you?” Another voice chips in, which you recognize as Yeonjun. “She’s never mentioned anything about you two.”

You start lousily pushing against Wooyoung’s arm. “They’re my friends.”

“Friends? What? Did you meet them tonight?”

You spat. “I don’t want two people high of their asses driving me home.”

Wooyoung releases your arm. “Fine, at least you can’t blame us for this decision. You’re doing this all on your own.”

You can’t believe he would go there. Even as you’re drunk, you have half a brain to curse them out, Taehyun dragging you out of there before you can start swinging at them.

Sakura still hasn’t messaged him back to he takes Beomgyu home. Dropping him off and saying he’ll try to pry directions out of you.

Though after about two minutes of trying, it was unsuccessful.

You were halfway asleep as well.

You two just sit in his driveway as you open your eyes suddenly. “Taehyun?”

“Yes?” He says, hoping you’ve sobered up.

“What are you doing here?” You ask.

He should’ve known better.

“I’m trying to take you home but you don’t know how to get there right now, so I’m waiting on Sakura to send me your address.”

“Sakura?” You perk up. “I love her, she’s my bestest friend!”

“I know.”

“She’s the only one I can be normal around.” You muddle. “No need to pretend. She’d never ask me to do something I didn’t want to.”

He nods.

“My other friends aren’t like that.” You start. “I had to pretend so much around them.”

You lull your head to the side. “I don’t even have to pretend around you.”

“That’s different.” He speaks. “You don’t care what I think.”

“No.” You agree. “But you know more of the real me than they do.”

He’s about to speak again when you interrupt them. “Why do you hate me so much?”

“I don’t hate you.” He says honestly. “I just think we’re really different.”

“But we’re not.”

“What do you mean?”

“We have a lot in common.” You smile. “We both like nature, books, silence, and people we can’t have.”

“People we can’t have.” He repeats. “Who’s yours?”

“Wooyoung.” You sigh. “I’ve had a crush on him since we met as kids.”

“He seems to like you back.”

“If he liked me back, he wouldn’t sleep with so many other girls.”

“Maybe he’s trying to get his mind off of you.” Taehyun reasons.

“We used to sleep together.” You say. “I thought it’d make him realize my feelings, that it would bring us closer.”

He stays quiet as you continue. “But it did nothing. Sex is just sex for him, and I can’t live that way anymore. I don’t want to have meaningless sex.”

“I’m sorry.” Is all he can muster.

“I’ve done so much for my friends. I’ve given my mind, my soul, even my body. And all I ever asked in return was for them to be there for me. But I didn’t even know who I was, I didn’t even know what I was doing.”

“Sounds like you have a lot to deal with.” Taehyun responds.

“Too much.” You say. “This, this is not me.”

“You’ll find who you are. I’m positive.”

“I’ll try. I’m not the girl you think I am. I’m tired of being someone I’m not.” You mumble. “You remind me a lot of who I was before I got into all this.”

“You still are that person. You just have to bring them out again.”

Taehyun honestly can’t understand what you’re going through. He sympathizes, yes, but he can’t grasp it.

He’s only ever felt accepted by his friends, never pressured and never like he was giving more than what was being given. He was blessed to have friends who liked him as he was, with his flaws and all.

To put on a persona and to give into pressure for his friends, it was foreign for him. Maybe he was lucky, or maybe it was the opposite. Maybe you were unlucky.

He believed you with his whole heart, he did. You weren’t like them, he knew. Taehyun caught glimpses of you in the past few times Sakura brought you around. You weren’t the carefree party girl that you were painted as.

He cared about you, he wasn’t sure why but he did.

He wanted you to be alright.

You wake up in your bed with a stabbing headache and no recollection of how you got there. You’re still in your clothes from last night, your makeup smudged as well. You pray that you didn’t bring anyone home, hoping you’re all alone to gather your thoughts.

What even happened last night?

One of the last things you remember was making yourself drinks after your confrontation with Chaewon. And also memories of Beomgyu?

And Taehyun? Was he there?

Your head throbbed from trying to remember.

Picking up your phone, you see it’s dead and you sigh. You groan as you roll back into bed. Everything hurts. Maybe you’ll take it easy from now on.

You finally bring yourself to get up and take a warm shower, still feeling the sticky air of the party around you. All of it washing away as your muscles relax.

Then you take a Motrin for the headache after breakfast.

Today was a new day and today was a day for change. You couldn’t repeat this cycle again, you had to change, you had to be yourself.

Checking your phone to see if it’s on, you see a dozen missed calls and texts. Some from Sakura, a call or two from Yeonjun, texts from Wooyoung, and one from.. Taehyun?

So it wasn’t a dream?

You call Sakura back first, her saying that Taehyun had driven you home after you got hammered. For which you were extremely embarrassed. She assured you it was fine and urged you to call him later, promptly to thank him.

The next call was to Yeonjun. It was a hard call, a call that led to you discussing childhood memories and that fateful day you met.

“You know I wouldn’t trade that day for anything.” You say over the phone.

“I know. Neither would I.” He responded.

He apologized for what he said and you told him it was alright. It didn’t affect you anymore. You guess it hadn't for a long time.

You thanked him for everything. For the memories and for the times spent. You hold in your sobs over the phone but he can tell from the sniffles. He says if you ever need anything at all, to let him know. And you thank him again.

You open the texts from Wooyoung next, them donning your screen.

1:34 AM

Woo ;): Hey

Woo ;): Did you get home okay?

Woo ;): Who were those guys?

Woo ;): I’m sorry for what I said

Woo ;); I love you

10:22 AM

You: Please don’t say things you don’t mean.

Woo ;): YN

Woo ;): ARE YOU OKAY ?

Woo ;): But I do mean it.

And that prompted a long unrelenting phone call. Wooyoung didn’t want to let you go, and you didn’t want to either. But it wasn’t good for either of you. You know you were only hurting yourself. So you confessed, laid your feelings out bare to him, and his rejection stung. But not as bad as you thought it did. You knew he didn’t like you back, you wouldn’t like you back either. Not with that fake personality you held onto. No but now you were free from it.

You were tired of the games.

Nothing had to be complicated anymore, nothing had to be pretend.

Taehyun’s texts was short and sweet.

Unknown: This is Taehyun, just wanted to be sure you woke up alright

Unknown: Do you want to go see a movie with me?

Unknown: I’m bored and I still don’t like you but Beomgyu’s taking my sister out so.

Unknown: Is that a no?

You smile a little before you type a little yes in, asking for details and what movie. He responds a couple minutes later, offering to pick you up and buy the popcorn.

“This sounds like a date.” You smiled, as you approached him in the lobby, returning from the bathroom to see him holding snacks in his hands.

“Not a date.” He narrows his eyes. “What about ‘I still don’t like you’ did you not get?”

“No no, but you tolerate me.” You speak. “And that’s more than I usually get from people.”

He nudges your shoulders, “That’s what you deserve at the very least loser.”

“Maybe.” You say, grabbing the popcorn from his hands. “Well thanks for giving me the very least.”

“Who paid for the tickets again?” Taehyun asks sarcastically.

“Some dude named Taehyun.”

“Alright, I’m leaving.”

“No!” You shout out playfully. “Then who will I hold onto when I get scared?”

He deadpans. “That’s not happening.”

“Oh but why not-”

“Not happening!”

And you two walk into the theatre, smiles across both of your faces as you entered, your arm linked with his.

(And for the record, he definitely let you hide your face in his shirt as you got scared.)

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