#tw; abuse mention

[raphaelapproves]

Today, focus was a precious commodity and I ended up behind at work so did not get the chance to post the conversation as promised.

But now, here we are, the "conversation"--and I do use that term loosely--that I had with an Astarion girlie.

Allow me to set the scene.

This happened on a video where a streamer was, I assume, HORRIFIED to find that if she just self-insert played the game with answers she would give--SHOCK!--Gale was the companion who liked her the most. I can't imagine why.

Anyway, the comments section was the predictable Gale-bashing. Some in good fun. Most of it not. And I'm me, so I just couldn't help myself, because I see too much of my younger self [ who still tried to engage with people and connect but didn't know how ] in Gale, so I responded to a couple of comments. This was the one that prompted this little meeting of the... well, one mind and then whatever the other person was operating with. Must have been a different Operating System, because it sure didn't make sense to me.

It is below the cut, as are my thoughts because it turned into a long post as, apparently, I had many thoughts.

Astarion Girlie [ henceforth AG ]: THEN HE CAN GO SUCK OFF LETTO II ON ARRAKIS CUZ I AM NOT HERE FOR GALE'S SEXIST A$$ 😤

Me: First: how is Gale sexist? Second: and yet you're okay with Astarion [ NOTE: the username had something to do with what Astarion could do for them, so I made an educated guess ] who is canonically racist, knowingly lured people to their deaths, and was fine with condemning the world for himself???

AG: are you serious??? 🤣 Gale mansplains EVERYTHING to the women around him including magic to other magic-user, uses coercion as a flirting tactic, & slvt-shames Tav if you're romancing someone else.

Me: Wow. There is so much wrong with that. 1) Tell me you don't have an autistic friend without telling me. 2) He explains to EVERYONE not just women. 3) Genuinely? What coercion? 4) He just tells you -- He isn't for an open relationship [ says he wishes you had asked him first which is y'know healthy? ] and asks you to choose, then says he wishes you well if you don't choose him.

AG: have you considered touching grass?

Me: This is such an intelligent rebuttal. Brava! So insightful and useful to a debate. Have you considered maybe listening to others without belitting them because you can't have a friendly discussion?

AG: 1) all of my friends are auDHD and so am i. you're an ableist joke. 😘 2) now you're gale-splaining his sexism 😂 3) i'm not interested in continuing with someone as clearly unwell as you are, bye!

Me: I AM autistic, friend. 2) It's not sexism if he's literally explaining his special interest to EVERYONE regardless of sex. 3) Again, quite mature. Thank you. 👏👏👏

I am just. How??? can anyone be so ??? I do not even have a word for it. It baffles me.

Astarion has canonically done terrible things, would canonically do many even more terrible if not swayed from it, and yet Gale??? is the one with whom they have a problem??? And they can't even logic their own argument???

As someone who is autistic and has been a victim of continued mental and emotional abuse from someone who always wanted to play the victim card and as someone who was always given the excuse "well they're not well and you know it, so you just have to deal with it and don't argue" when they're going out of their way to make your life hell and trying to frame you as their own personal villain, up to and including gaslighting you to the point of nearly two decades of depression, making you feel like you were broken and the worst human being in the world, and having you contemplating things you shouldn't, and them lying to others about things that happened or things that were said to get you in trouble, I get very, very tired of the mentality I see so much around the crazed Astarion Girlies of excusing everything he has ever done and being unable to even acknowledge a single flaw and attacking anyone who does say anything.

I have and continue to live that, have been and continue to be on the other side of it having to suffer because someone else wasn't held accountable, and I am Tired. [ At least now, thanks to my best friend in the entire world, I can see it for what it is and I'm in at least a better place now mentally, 98% of the time. ]

[ NOTE: This is NOT against the Astarion writers I have seen on here. Please do not misunderstand. The Astarion writers I follow on here are the only reason I can still even marginally like the character at this point. He is fascinating. He is multi-faceted. It's one of the things I love to see explored by those who I follow. It is always interesting to see people write complex and even morally difficult characters because that, too, is a form of understanding humanity. It's one of the things I love exploring with my anti-heroes and villains. In Baldur's Gate, that would include characters like Raphael, Gortash, Dirge, etc. So please know I am not hating on any Astarion writers! Everyone I follow is amazing! ]

But when you bring up those character flaws and morally difficult things that does make the character so complex and multi-faceted, these are the responses you get:

Astarion is a victim!

Yes, that is true. But Gortash who, let's be honest, at least doesn't fully know what he's doing is wrong [ you pass the insight checks and what not/narration tells you/the VA tells you that he thinks he's doing the right thing for himself and for the city, etc. and with the way he was raised, what example did he have to the contrary but I've already gone on that rant HERE ] is to the smallest degree even less culpable in my mind than Astarion, and he doesn't get a pass the way Astarion does? And he certainly shouldn't. He isn't absolved. He is doing terrible things whether he can fully rationalize it or not with his understanding of life.

Astarion though, acknowledges on multiple occasions, gives excuses, justifies his actions at every turn while still knowing that what he's doing and planning to do is wrong. And it's heavily implied that he really wasn't all that great of a person BEFORE Cazador either [ that is not to say that he deserved what happened either, just to clarify ]. But the point is Astarion did, at one point, having come from what seems an affluent family, have a knowledge of right and wrong and still made decisions that he made, even before Cazador and after once he was free.

Cazador made him do those things! Yes, he did, but that excuse stopped the moment Cazador's control was no longer an issue. He had free will and a knowledge of right and wrong, and he made the decisions he made.

But it was a habit by then! It was what he learned to survive!

And that coupled with the knowledge of right and wrong goes only so far as the moment you choose to knowingly make your trauma someone else's. Cazador wasn't going to force him to do the Ascension ritual and pay 7,000 souls for his own betterment. "Because after 200 years of SHIT, PURE SHIT, I think I deserve better." A paraphrase, but I think I caught the most important parts. He knew it was wrong, he acknowledges it and immediately tries to justify himself, and is still quite willing to do it. Literally, if he kills you by draining your blood, he acts like nothing ever happened and then tries to sweep it under the rug with Tav if they continue to be upset about it by telling them there's no reason to be.

And yet, we have a problem with Gale, who can be or come across as condescending at times, but I think you can hardly call a man sexist who made his girlfriend his entire personality--since she was the goddess of his SPECIAL INTEREST--and continues to put her word above even his own life, prioritize her forgiveness over his continued existence and who takes such great interest in literally everything Lae'zel has to say about the Astral Plane and her people. We have a problem with a man who is honest about his comfort zone? Who loves your PC even if you become a mindflayer? Who only takes issue with you when you do something morally bad? Who literally gives you approval points for anything even remotely resembling a good choice? Who feels like he doesn't even deserve a place in the world and would gladly give himself up for any one of his companions?

He's always harassing me for items!!!! AND HE GOT MAD WHEN I WOULDN'T GIVE THEM TO HIM!!!

The count is THREE and you can give the man the most trash items you have and he still thanks you and tells you that he will repay your kindness because he knows what such sacrifice means. He is thanking you--just as he gets mad at you if you don't--because he literally has a ticking bomb in his chest that would kill not only HIM if it de-stabilized and exploded, but also anyone within the vicinity.

Well he betrayed Mystra!!!

He tried to get on equal footing with someone he loved, to share in something he loved with the person who embodied it. Was he overly ambitious? Absolutely. [ And honestly, tell me it's not Gifted Kid Syndrome -coded to assume that he could do this impossible thing. ] Did it cost him? Yes. And then Mystra, who could have fixed it and didn't cast him off. And he still prayed to her. And took all of the blame on himself, despite the fact that Mystra shares more than a little responsibility for what transpired. [ I.E. all of the Origin PCs have been victims in this game, in some way or another, and some if not all of them to power imbalances in relationships. Why does anyone think Gale is the one exception? ]

HE'S MANSPLAINING TO ME!!!

He is literally telling you all about his special interest and probably assuming that you don't know much about it, or at least not as much as him, because he was literally a Chosen of Mystra and an Archmage. Again, can he be condescending and huffy at times? Yes. He absolutely can. Call it a character flaw. Everyone has them, but you know what? His doesn't condemn anyone to death, so why are we up at arms?

HE DOESN'T WANT ME TO SEE OTHER PEOPLE!!!

And that is his prerogative and he's straightforward and honest with you about it. He tells you--if you already started flirting with or seeing someone--that he wishes you had the courtesy to tell him first [ which, IS IN FACT the healthy way to go about a relationship of that nature, just as shown with Halsin insisting you ask your partner first ]--but if you choose the other person, he wishes you both well, usually gives some compliment to the other person, and then continues to treat you well as long as you weren't rude and demeaning to him during or after the fact.

So why???? Is so much of the fanbase SO AGGRESSIVELY against Gale? But Astarion is uwu Babygirl and can do no wrong? What about defending Gale makes me "so unwell", but how DARE anyone rightfully criticize even the smallest thing about Astarion because [ insert extensive list of reasons why none of that should matter ].

That he is a victim, that he's pretty, that his VA has a great voice and personality, et cetera, does not excuse that Astarion has knowingly done terrible things both against and within his will and will do so again without hesitation if he helps him, particularly if your Durge or Tav doesn't try or manage to sway him.

Make this make sense to me, because I certainly cannot seem to make it do so.

I've said it before with that Gortash post I linked above and I said it on a similar post for Zevlor and somewhere that I was talking about Minthara and Nere, but the double standards within a loud portion of this fanbase--even within the game itself and among the people who worked on it--is not one of its better qualities.

#|| out of charm || { ooc } #|| ' full of sound and fury signifying nothing ' || { psas // thoughts // ramblings } #tw; abuse #tw; abuse mention #tw; suicide #tw; suicidal thoughts mention #// Vague blink & you'll probably miss it on the latter but still there so I'm putting the warning & tagging 'suicide' alone tag blocks

[avastyetwats]

“ Stop saying that. You’re none of those things, my darling. You’re my everything. “ from your main, thought I’d throw supportive Izzy at you <3

Weak-hearted. Soft-handed. Lily livered. Pathetic. Cowardly. Naive.

"You're none of those things."

He'd been called those things all his life. As a child. As an adult. He'd been laughed at, made fun of, bullied, abused. Yet hearing those words from Izzy, telling Stede that he wasn't any of those things, was enough to help calm the blonde's crying, his face buried into Israel's neck, clinging to his savior. His safe haven.

His father's voice had gone quiet thanks to Izzy's words. His lover's voice filling his mind, filling his heart, and pushing everything and everyone bad away. Shielding him from the pain, from the darkness, from the evil. Nigel's voice was gone, too. The faces of those that pointed and laughed were gone, the face of the man that triggered this break had been pushed out, too. The man that reminded Stede so much of his father. Both in looks and behavior. First he started poking fun at his crew, first at Black Pete, then Olu, and then Izzy. Made fun of his leg and when Stede stood up to him, it was turned on him. All the names kept flying out of the man's mouth, insults his father had used as well, and it's when he hit him that Stede lost it. He hit the man right back, knocking him off balance causing him to slam his head into a nearby table, cowering in fear as Stede approached him with his drawn cutlass. He aimed it at the man's chest, his hand shaking, his knuckles white from how tight he was gripping it, but he hesitated.

That's when a gunshot rang out and the man's body fell lifeless to the ground and Stede stared in shock. The man holding the gun eyed Stede, scoffed and sheathed his weapon, muttering 'pathetic excuse of a pirate' before he turned and walked off... and so did Stede. Without a word, Stede left the tavern, sword dropping to the ground on the way out and he hurried back to the ship.

He went to his quarters, shut the door and ran into the head where he washed the blood from his hands, but when he looked up, that's when he saw it. That's when he saw himself in the mirror. The rage, disgust, and guilt overcame Stede in that moment and he raised his fist and slammed it right into the mirror, causing it to shatter and his hand to be cut up by the several shards of glass. He screamed in anguish as he dropped to his knees and only minutes after did Izzy arrive, rushing to his aid. Stede started crying, apologizing over and over, and explained how that man reminded him so much of his father. His father whom Izzy knew from Stede's stories, none of them good, but he didn't know how bad it could get... until now. And now he was being held and rocked while Stede sobbed into his neck, though he was calming down thanks to Israel's words, thanks to the comfort he was providing Stede. Comfort he's never had with anyone else, comfort only Izzy could provide him. He barely paid attention to his cut up hand that still needed aid only because Izzy took away all of his pain. He was only focused on the arms around his body, on the warmth from Izzy's, on his oh so familiar and comforting scent, his soothing voice... everything Izzy. He was everything Stede needed in this moment... he was everything Stede ever needed.

@izzyeffinhands

#so uh this got away from me now #I'M SORRY #sort of not really #tw; abuse mention #tw; bullying #izzyeffinhands #c; stede bonnet

[ladyimaginarium]

how do we forgive our fathers? maybe in a dream.

for the love of a daughter — demi lovato // agustín gómez-arcos (trans. william rodarmor) // for the love of a daughter — demi lovato // amatullah bourdon // anonymous on promptuarium // for the love of a daughter — demi lovato // woodtangle — mary ruefle // for the love of a daughter — demi lovato // sherman alexie // milk and honey — rupi kaur

#web weaving. #mine. #i can only forgive my father in dreams. #father's day my& beloathed (눈‸눈) #tw; alcohol mention #tw; drugs mention #tw; abuse mention #tw; abandonment

[dragetunge]

Putting some comments under the read under

The fact this is Toothless' face after Astrid hits him I'm just. Even he doesnt like how she treat him.

#🔥▓◤out of dragon nip: ooc post◥ #fuck the ship #im not even tagging it #but will tag this #tw; abuse mention

[warriorsbutnotreally]

Huh why didn’t ashfur possess squrrielflight, like he could’ve made her do terrible things to the point where she’s exiled.

now this is mostly theory and my own character study on Ashfur; but I do believe that the reason he didn't was because he wanted to deliver the punishment

for someone as obsessive and possessive as him, it wouldn't be satisfying for someone else to hurt his target

and for him this was a two in one deal;

he got to torment and torture Bramble for 'stealing' Squirrelflight, while also 'punishing' Squirrelflight

it's very much the incel mindset of "if I can't have this person, I want to make their life a living hell"

and while he could've done that by possessing Squilf, he wouldn't be able to psychologically trick and torment her the way he did with possessing her mate, the one who 'got in the way'

if he possessed her he wouldn't have the chance to look down on her with the grossly smug satisfaction that he was hurting her

tldr; Ashfur, like all incels, is fucked in the head and wants to inflict pain on the object of his "affection" [it's not affection, it's obsession] because she didn't feel the same about him

#tw; incel #tw; abuse mention #tw; torture mention

[ivyxmantled]

“You know why I live alone? People distract me.”  ( kyle & anyone )

“Well, it happens frankly.” Jane shrugged. She had been the one who had been so desperate to be alone that she had struggled to even make friends anymore. But, she had struggled since she was a young girl to break out of her shell. “And besides...” Jane started. “Isn’t that a good thing to have people to distract you?” Because, Jane could only imagine what she could think of when she had been alone. When she could have thought about the world that was out there and that REX could be out there. “Even if just for a little bit.”  

@ragdclls​

#jane ; interacts #tw; abuse mention #tw; mental health

[stillgrxwing]

@bcssbitchs​ // harwin & rhaenyra

She had barely made it out of bed. She knew it had been... DAYS since she had last been home. But she still had bruises adorning her arms, the bruise on her face had been fading, and the color on her cheeks had almost faded to a light red. The maesters had insisted her and the babe were fine, but she couldn’t find herself pushing through to even leave this home on the water. Rhaenyra huffed slightly leaning against one of the pillars that stood along the outisde of the gorgeous desk... with this gorgeous view. Maybe, she could have been lucky and Daemon and that dragon would never find her again. But... she didn’t know if Harwin would ever find her, and after their conversation? She didn’t know if he wanted to find her. Rhaenyra brought her hands together as she fiddled with the ring on her finger. She couldn’t help but HOPE that he would find her. She turned hearing the door open, and for once, she didn’t jump. She turned her hands falling to her side as she let out a choked sob. “You found me...” She cried. 

#( dear brother. i had hoped that you were dead. || rhaenyra targaryen ) #tw; mental health #tw; burns #tw; bruises #tw; abuse mention

[smolcuriouskitten]

Trying something new...

It was 1977 and Rockelle was alone as always in her home. She can't remember the last time she went outside, as she was still fearful from the events with Ramondas and her husband, no ex husbands death. Trying to occupy her mind and pass the time, she spent the bulk of her time studying magic.

God that word alone left a sour taste in her mouth. Even with him dead and most of those scars healing, she could feel the after effects from what he did and god damn her skin would crawl. Simple tasks such as bathing or cooking would always bring back unsavory memories. She could almost hear his disapproval with everything she did. Eggs not cooked well, too many wrinkles in the shirt, and there was a speck of dust on the ceiling fan.

Trying to break that cycle of remembering the terrible things, she focused on perfecting her craft. She will be damned if something like that happened again. She had remembered her sister brought over a new vinyl for her to listen too. Maybe music would help to silence those unsavory memories temporarily.

She looked down at the vinyl for more information. It was brightly colored, which caught her eye, and the title had the name of the band. MAZE. She knew her sister wouldn't steer her wrong, so she delicately put the vinyl on the record player and adjusted the needle. Listening to the first song, she closes her eyes and focuses on the beat and vocals.

Very pleasant to listen too. It helped to silence her mind for a moment which was all she needed to perfect this spell. A simple object moving spell. Closing her eyes and focusing her attention to make the purple glowing ball appear in her hand, her attention was brought to the next song. The beat was intoxicating and it made her hips sway along with the beat. Opening her eyes, she was amazed to see the little ball still present in her hands.

It took her weeks to focus on this alone so she wasnt gonna lose it. Her hips swaying and her feet moving to the beat, she pushes the ball to a book across the room, which the aura captures in its hold. Oh god its happening. Dont lose focus, just move it from the shelf and put it down. She found herself singing along, the book seeming to dance around the room to her, then it was placed on the table in front of her.

Happy feelings, exactly what she was feeling. She began to hop around the room and dance, happy that she was finally able to do the spell. She kept moving onto other objects, until she moved most of the objects from the bookshelf to her table. All the while, she sang along with the song, feeling empowered and guided by the joyous sound filling her ears. She could hear her mother cheering her on with this little accomplishment.

Its always the little things that make her happy.

#i think too much; {dabbles} #{Im starting a new series where I make little blurbs around Rockelle and her evolution as a person!} #{this one is a test to see the results on how it does! this can be a series of you guys want!} #tw; ptsd #tw; abuse mention #tw; death mention #Spotify

[yesfxckyxu]

▌ 𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐋 𝐍𝐀𝐌𝐄 : Jack Neverbore ▌𝐒𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐋𝐄 𝐎𝐑 𝐓𝐀𝐊𝐄𝐍 : verse dependent; Single/Multi  ▌𝐀𝐁𝐈𝐋𝐈𝐓𝐈𝐄𝐒 𝐎𝐑 𝐏𝐎𝐖𝐄𝐑𝐒 : verse dependent, usually none as he is human ▌𝐄𝐘𝐄 𝐂𝐎𝐋𝐎𝐑 : brown / burnt umber ▌𝐇𝐀𝐈𝐑 𝐂𝐎𝐋𝐎𝐑 : black ▌𝐅𝐀𝐌𝐈𝐋𝐘 𝐌𝐄𝐌𝐁𝐄𝐑𝐒 : Naomi Neverbore, Sir Neverbore, two sister(s) ▌𝐏𝐄𝐓𝐒 : none / took care of a stray cat before

▌𝐒𝐎𝐌𝐄𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐘 𝐃𝐎𝐍'𝐓 𝐋𝐈𝐊𝐄 : snobby people, salty / spicy candy ▌𝐇𝐎𝐁𝐁𝐈𝐄𝐒 / 𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐈𝐕𝐈𝐓𝐈𝐄𝐒 : working out / fighting / verbal debates / mind games / runs a vigilante gang ▌𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐑 𝐇𝐔𝐑𝐓 𝐀𝐍𝐘𝐎𝐍𝐄 𝐁𝐄𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐄 : “Yes.”  ▌𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐑 𝐊𝐈𝐋𝐋𝐄𝐃 𝐀𝐍𝐘𝐎𝐍𝐄 𝐁𝐄𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐄 : “Ha. Almost.”  ▌𝐀𝐍𝐈𝐌𝐀𝐋 𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐓 𝐑𝐄𝐏𝐑𝐄𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐒 𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐌 : Crow / Hyena / black cats  ▌𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐒𝐓 𝐇𝐀𝐁𝐈𝐓𝐒 : strong need to always have the final say in every discourse / stubbornness / unpredictability / sadomasochism  ▌𝐑𝐎𝐋𝐄 𝐌𝐎𝐃𝐄𝐋𝐒 : @pvremichigan​‘s Mich other than that, no.  ▌𝐒𝐄𝐗𝐔𝐀𝐋 𝐎𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍 : heterosexual ( canonically )  ▌𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐔𝐆𝐇𝐓𝐒 𝐎𝐍 𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐑𝐈𝐀𝐆𝐄 / 𝐊𝐈𝐃𝐒 : marriage is iffy, considering that he views it as impossible for himself. kids are a huge no, due to his behaviors and he would most likely become abusive which he is aware of. needs help first before ever deciding to have a kid of his own. 

▌𝐒𝐓𝐘𝐋𝐄 𝐏𝐑𝐄𝐅𝐄𝐑𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄𝐒 : dark aesthetic and custom. Jack is not fond of brand types, mostly. Jack usually prefers stuff that is black, red, white; all types of distressed threads. he mainly wears hoodies, as a signature ‘lame’ style, but other days when he feels up to it... he’s very fashionable in the ‘grunge’, ‘goth’, etc. styles. 

▌𝐒𝐎𝐌𝐄𝐎𝐍𝐄 𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐘 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 : “What even is love?”  ▌𝐀𝐏𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐀𝐂𝐇 𝐓𝐎 𝐅𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐍𝐃𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐏𝐒 : easily detachable, unless you catch his empathy. once you have a twinge of empathy from him, you have the potential to become close to him. and when you become close to him, you have to go through his levels of trust. which, can be hard to manage due to his paranoia and illness. he ‘tests’ all of his friends and sometimes can get violent depending on how close you get to him, but in the end, if you manage to knock reality into him when he needs it the most: you can have his unending loyalty and unconditional love. 

▌𝐅𝐀𝐕𝐎𝐑𝐈𝐓𝐄 𝐃𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐊 : ( in our world, it probably would be something similar to coca-cola... canonically, that is. ) 

▌𝐅𝐀𝐕𝐎𝐑𝐈𝐓𝐄 𝐏𝐋𝐀𝐂𝐄 𝐓𝐎 𝐒𝐏𝐄𝐍𝐃 𝐓𝐈𝐌𝐄 𝐀𝐓 : Tom’s Burgers, and if not that, the hideouts. that is when he seeks comforts. but if not seeking comfort, he will go anywhere that is dangerous to put him on the edge to give himself a sense of ‘living’.  ▌𝐒𝐖𝐈𝐌 𝐈𝐍 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐋𝐀𝐊𝐄 𝐎𝐑 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐎𝐂𝐄𝐀𝐍 : “Both.”  ▌𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐈𝐑 𝐓𝐘𝐏𝐄 : usually red-heads that can kick his butt to the moon though, its either the very strong types that can beat him up, or a type he hasn’t come across yet.  ▌𝐂𝐀𝐌𝐏𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐎𝐑 𝐈𝐍𝐃𝐎𝐎𝐑𝐒 : both. he hasn’t gone camping before, so he definitely would like to try that out as an experience. 

#c!jack headcanons;; #headcanons;; #dash games;; #tw; abuse mention

[speciosuspoematis]

ANONYMOUS ASKED: Is everything alright, Mr.Lamoureaux? You look very pale.

“Quite well, thank you.” Words were rushed, minorly insistent and followed by a swift need to pull the lengths of his hair on the left hand side to cover the beginnings of a bruise near to his eye. Shock was coursing through his blood, yet he did perfectly well to hide it as fatigue; “Naught but cold, I assure you-” 

And with such words spoken did he disappear, continued walking in order to finish his tasks for the morning ere any vibrant colouring could be seen upon sincerely paled skin.

#Anonymous Ask #Unsigned Letters || Anonymous Ask || #TW; Abuse #TW; Abuse Mention

[godmona]

desdemona currently has two children alive, though early in her life she experience a miscarriage of twins.

two unamed children with trickster deity reynard: the first children desdemona would have had, these two would have been immensely powerful. being the children of a deity, reynard took interest in desdemona for singular reason that her immortality would allow her to handle the pregnancy of his children. he was a complete asshole otherwise, emotionally and physically. this abuse is a reason why desdemona lost these children, toppled with her own distress. they are currently represented by white roses in desdemona's green house. sergius godfrey: a child she had during the roman empire. his father was a gladiator and someone desdemona did genuinely love. he died quite soon after sergius's birth. sergius has no extra abilities besides his immortality from his mother. viktoria warlow: in the timeline, currently very young or a newborn. viktoria is the first child between herself and her husband, elliot. viktoria is extremely powerful having abilities from both her mother and her father.

#& headcannon post / #tw; miscarriage mention #tw; abuse mention #let me know if you need me to further tag !

[transcowgirlslut]

it's kind of bullshit that people will react with horror to me discussing my fantasies/kinks until i clarify I'm the sub in them. like even my therapist was all like "ohhh it's ok to want to hold power so long as it's consensual" and then clearly relaxed when I clarified I wanted to be the sub.

i love you everyone and with rape kinks, those who want to roleplay kidnapping and abusing someone, i love you i love you i love you. this ain't me fishing for a dom/me to be clear---you are VALUED as a person, outside of your sexual fantasies. I care about you and appreciate you, and there is nothing wrong or bad about you!!!!

#tw kidnapping #tw abuse mention #tw r@pe mention #i love you all

[bells-of-black-sunday]

Random question but which of your muses do you feel closest to?

Closest to in terms of how alike I am with them would probably be Luka...? Where we both went through periods in our life where we didn't really know what to do with it and then finally after a few years got the confidence to try and make something out of it. For me while I have both my parents and they're wonderful, I was agoraphobic up until like a few years ago.

I was genuinely terrified to leave my house or be alone in public and that's a big reason why I started going back to therapy and really started untangling things and behaviors I learned as coping mechanisms for surviving the abusive situation I was in (and still am technically, he still lives here I just don't talk to him or be around him) that actually ruined a few friendships I had.

But I do have a plan in place for me to actually be able to move out and do things and be a normal person.

#ooc #tw; abuse mention #thank you for the ask!!! <3

[teaboot]

When I was a kid, I regularly lost reading privileges for "having an attitude" and "acting out".

It wasn't as simple as being told not to read during other activities- one of the first times it happened, I remember being six years old, watching my stepfather pull fistfuls of books off my bookshelf and throw them to the floor in a heaping mess while I cried and asked him to stop.

It was weird. Every other adult I knew described me as exceptionally well-behaved, but at home, it was the opposite, and it was blamed on "learning bad habits from that shit you're reading".

Because I couldn't read at home, I spent all my free time at school in the library, reading with my friends.

When I grew up and moved away, I realized that my family life was toxic and abusive, and the "attitudes" I was being punished for were standing up for myself, standing up for my younger siblings, and resisting actual, real-life psychological abuse. Because I'd learned from what I'd read that my family wasn't normal, not like my parents said it was, and in my stories, the heroes were the people who spoke out when it was hard to.

It is insane to me that there are students right now who can't access books. It is insane that books are being outlawed. It is perverse that we are stealing away an entire generation's ability to contextualize their lives, to learn about the world around them, to develop critical thinking skills and express themselves and feel connected to the world or escape from it, whatever and whenever and however they need.

That is not how you raise a compassionate, thoughtful, powerful society.

That's how you process cattle.

It's fucking disgusting.

#I know this is old news but Jesus #Every day I hear more about school book bans and I feels less real #Restriction of information is restriction of freedom #People need stories #Even bad stories #Even tragic or problematic ones #We need to set purity culture on fire I'm not kidding #Abuse mention #Abuse tw

[warriorsbutnotreally]

Ummm... Any Longtail ship ideas pls

so I actually don't have a lot of Longtail ships lol

I like LongPurdy and LongPurdyMouse as platonic thing [no romance, just old people looking out for each other]

though, admittedly, I think LongSol is an interesting ship, esp for a Sol redemption AU [probably also for an AU where Longtail doesn't retire early]

other than that, I don't really have a lot of ideas for ships

I know someone mentioned LongDaisy sometime recently in my ask?? and tbh I could see that being cute as a ship

also I do wanna take this chance to clarify;

I don't see LongFire as problematic [tbh Longtail is apparently now closer in age to Fire than Onewhisker, as of Onestar's Confession and Long's mentor, Darkstripe, being a kit at the start of the book, it's likely he's either gonna be revealed to be littermates with Dust and Raven OR about the age of Silverstream] BUT it was something that someone who was ab*sive to me in my past shipped and so it's one of the things that's been tainted by that

#longtail #tw; abuse mention

[sin-esthezia]

the thing that gets me the most about ableism against pd’s is that ppl will be like “these disorders make you an ASSHOLE!!!!” and then turn around and pretend that other disorders can’t and don’t make you act shitty.

depression and anxiety can make you irritable and snappy. they can cause you to refuse to listen to people and to be distant and withdrawn. they can cause you to seem angry, bitchy, rude, uncaring, etc.

ptsd causes an array of difficulties in forming meaningful relationships. it pretty much shakes up your entire worldview and sense of self a lot of the time. ptsd can cause you to get angry often. it can cause you to yell and scream. it can cause you to withdraw from others, run away, or cut them out. it can cause general changes in demeanor and more cynical worldviews. it can make you seem grouchy, negative, explosive, impolite, difficult, needy, controlling, etc.

and yet when people with personality disorders have symptoms of that nature, suddenly we are irredeemable monsters. when it’s npd, bpd, hpd, or aspd instead of ptsd or depression and anxiety, people suddenly and magically lose the ability to be understanding.

mental illness is an explanation, not an excuse. i firmly believe that. hurting others is never justified simply because you have any disorder.

but if you can be patient with people who have depression, anxiety, ptsd, ocd, or any other more well understood mental illness, you can be patient with us.

#ableism #ableism mention #ableism tw #cluster b #cluster b positivity #npd #bpd #hpd #aspd #npd positivity #bpd positivity #hpd positivity #aspd positivity #narcissistic abuse #narcissistic abuse awareness #actually cluster b #actually bpd #actually npd #actually borderline #actually narcissistic