#tw: ed behaviors

[luxe-in-luxury]

"To be enough"

Hobie X reader angst/ fluff 🎸🩷

Tw: Starving , possible ED

Fic under the cut.

"Can't sleep?" Hobie yawned as he woke up to you tossing and turning in your shared bed.

"I'll be fine. It's just a bad night. " You sighed. *Don't worry, go back to bed. Sorry for waking you up. " Placing a kiss on his cheek, you sat up, waiting to go get a glass of water, when your stomach rumbled.

Hobie grabbed your hand.

"Darling. What did you eat today?"

His eyes bore into yours, before you looked away, tears gathering in your eyes.

"A little rice, and two fishballs. " You sniffled. "I know that's not healthy, I know I promised you to eat enough but- " You tried to wipe your tears away, but they just kept on flowing. "But I can't stop myself. I'm not perfect , I'm overweight, I know. But this makes me feel a sick twisted sort of happiness, like I'll finally be enough one day. "

Hobie pulled you into his embrace, stroking your hair, letting you sob into his shoulder.

"You don't have to do these to be enough, love, you already are enough. You are perfect in so many areas, who cares about that stupid number on the scale? I don't, because I love you. " He kissed you on your forehead. "You've been so strong, at least you ate something today. But how about we fill that tummy with something else, hmm? I'm sure I have so food laying around. " He kissed you once again, and held your hand. "Come on, darling, let's go to the kitchen"

"And I'm getting rid of that blasted scale tomorrow."

A/N: wrote this during one of my episodes, no beta , obv

Take care of yourselves okay?❤️

#across the spider verse #atsv #hobie brown #across the spiderverse #atsv hobie #hobie x reader #hobie x y/n #hobie x you #tw: ed behaviors #Tw: starving #i want to give all my darlings a hug #you are enough and loved and much more than a stupid number on a scale

[harrywavycurly]

I would love a blurb dialogue between eddie and reader who is struggling with an ED. I’ve been in recovery for 2 years now and this time of year is so difficult for me.

If it’s too sensitive of a topic I totally understand 🖤

Hiii my lovey!! I just wanna say I’m so proud of you!! 2 years is amazing and I really hope you enjoy this, I went with a few conversations but if you prefer more of a blurb let me know I’ll gladly do it for you💖

TW: these conversations are centered around the reader having an ED so if that’s not something you’re comfortable with then please scroll on✨

*Eddie knows this time of year can be hard but he’s there for you and let’s you know he’s proud of you*

“Hey look at me…you’re doing great. If that’s all you can do today that’s fine baby.” “I’m sorry.” “For what? You don’t need to apologize to me sweetheart.” “I feel like you spent all this time making dinner and I just ruined it.” “Baby it’s Mac n cheese it took me ten minutes and you had some didn’t you? So it’s not ruined at all.” “It was really yummy…” “yeah? Yummy enough to add it to the list of things you’d be okay with trying to eat again?” “I think so yeah.”

“Can we…leave?” “You okay princess?” “Yeah it’s just like…I can’t do this right now…I feel like everyone is staring at me.” “Sure baby let me grab your jacket and we can go.” “Thank you.” “Of course sweetheart.” “I just feel like they are watching me to see if I’m actually going to eat anything and it’s just…making me uncomfortable.” “Want me to tell them all to fuck off? Because I will.” “Eddie…” “I understand baby but don’t forget how amazing you’re doing okay? This time of year is always a little…tricky but it’s gonna be okay.” “Promise?” “I promise and I’ll be right here by your side the whole time.” “Have I told you today how much I love you?” “Don’t think so. But I love you too baby.”

“Why is the us whole day just about eating? It’s fucking ridiculous and I hate it.” “It is kinda weird I’ll give you that. But we don’t have to go if you don’t want to baby we can stay here and watch one of those lame holiday movies and just be lazy lumps on the couch.” “You’d be okay with that? Really? Won’t Wayne be upset if we don’t go?” “Eh he can add it to the list of things I’ve done to make him mad.” “Eddie don’t be ridiculous I don’t want Wayne upset with you.” “Why would I want to go and be around a bunch of people who will be complaining about how dry the turkey is or how the green bean casserole is too runny. Staying home with you sounds a hell of a lot better to me.” “It’s just a rough day for me…” “i know it is sweetheart and that’s why we will just stay home and relax.” “You’re too good to me Eddie Munson.” “Now who’s being ridiculous?”

#tw: ed behaviors #tw: ed #eddie munson x you #eddie munson x reader #eddie munson x y/n #eddie munson concept #eddie munson x you fluff #eddie munson x reader fluff #eddie munson request #boyfriend eddie munson #Eddie munson #my little dungeon master baby

[mazzystar24]

Tw: Ed behaviours implied

Don’t mind me just creating scenarios in my head that make me wanna cry in public

Anyways 🤩

imagine Bobby dies and he leaves buck a recipe book and buck spends months not being able to cook and having trouble eating anything because he would remember Bobby each time and then after months of healing he starts teaching Chris recipes from the book

#911 #hope I made you all cry on this fine day #911 abc #911 fox #911onfox #9 1 1 #buddie #implied? #not clearly but in my brain it’s a cute scene where after months of worrying about him and being there for him #eddie walking in on buck teaching Chris #buckley diaz family #bobby nash is buck's dad #Bobby Nash #angsty little brain makes angsty little ideas #evan buckley #evan buck buckley #christopher diaz #tw: ed behaviors #my posts

[carladuquette]

Happy Thanksgiving to all who celebrate!

A few years ago I wrote this GG-inspired Elite fic. CW for ED behavior- the holidays can be hard, please take care of yourselves 😘

When I falter, at least it was my mistake 

In which Lu's father is the Mexican ambassador to the US, all the kids live in New York instead of Madrid and Lu is having the worst Thanksgiving ever.

Right now, Lu thinks, Val is probably getting ready to board his plane to New York to spend Thanksgiving with her. Four full days! And almost three of them without their father, who is leaving for a trip after breakfast on Friday. She and Val already agreed to spend all of Friday at home (in bed) in their PJs (or out of them). They'll just have to go out for dinner with Carla and Polo Friday night because her best friend's boyfriend is one of the few friends Val has managed to hang onto after his move.

After their most recent fight a few days ago, Lu isn't thrilled to hang out with Carla, but she knows Val won't let it get awkward. Lu might have the better grades, but she lacks the ease he shows in any and all social situations. Lu has never gotten anything she hasn't fought for - attention, recognition, love - while Val just needs to show up to get people to like him (outside of his own family, that is). She's not jealous, because Val always includes her. With him by her side, she can relax and let go at least a little bit of the tight rein she has on her life every single second of every single day. With him by her side, she knows she, too, becomes a person that's easier to like.

Lu sits up in bed and almost bounces in anticipation as she reaches for her phone. When she sees the string of messages from Val, she frowns. After reading the first one, sent at 3:36 am last night, it's like a hole has opened up underneath her and she's falling

falling

falling

#thanksgiving #this was the first fic i wrote outside of close your eyes #it was 3 yrs ago and my writing has def improved since then lol #tw: ed behaviors #elite #lucrecia montesinos #lu x carla friendship #gossip girl #blair waldorf #blair waldorf must pie #fanfiction #writing

[chuck-leglerg]

A short view back to the past on F1 drivers' questionable relationship with food and exercise:

- Valtteri Bottas suffered from ED around 2013

- David Coulthard suffered from bulimia in his teenage years

- George Russell said "I can't afford to have dessert cuz I weigh 72kg in the morning" in Miami 2022 [PSA: as long as your overall diet and nutrient-dense and balanced, you can have desserts in moderation]

- Charles Leclerc said in 2018 that he "tries to workout enough that he can afford to eat whatever he wants" [PSA: you should never "earn food" through over-exercising]

- Also Charles in his 2023 winter training videos, mentioning how he "was quite good over Christmas" and "worked hard enough today so he can finally 'enjoy' his dinner" (ngl that video was a bit triggering to me cuz I see my ED self in it) (not implying he does have any problems in this regard) [PSA: every food is good food and again you don't need to overexercise to "earn" food]

And here they are, a fia-accredited media, doubling down on their job that already have weight requirements and their very questionable relationship with food, posting body shaming comments about drivers, under their east Asia fatphobic social norms. (I am allowed to shit on it cuz I AM from east Asia)

As someone who suffered from ED and is still recovering from recent relapse, I find it incredibly triggering, disgusting, and potentially dangerous. This body shaming promotes nothing but fatphobia and weight stigma, and can be very triggering for those who already have issues with food.

I bet whoever wrote that caption has no awareness that eating disorders have the highest mortality rate among all kinds of mental health issues. I bet whoever wrote that has no idea that eating disorders affect people of all genders, races and body sizes. I bet whoever wrote that caption has no recollection that eating disorders are under diagnosed in many demographic groups such as men, especially male athletes.

I am personally grossed out by that. And I hope I will never see that.

And please. If you have issues with food, seek help. Go to see your GP and talk to them about it. Go to see an ED specialist and get help from them. Talk to ED helplines and see your options.

#tw: eating problems #tw: ed behaviors #I am just so fucking sick of that #and yes does that shit caption affect me today? yes. #would i be affected and start restrictions if i were charles? def. #and fuck you shigasportsjapan and fuck ur east asia fatphobic social norms

[finaltennessee]

Quick personal rant because I can’t talk to my friends about this

Over the past 2 years I’ve gained a good amount of weight. I’d always been curvy, but now I’m more plus size. I’ve grown to accept it and I’m trying to love myself which isn’t anything I’ve ever been good at. My friends are all small. One of them has been obsessed with working out since we graduated high school. Another has recently gone on a health journey bc she “got fat” (she gained 10 lbs). I’m used to getting commented on about my weight because of ✨mother tings✨. They have never commented on my weight and I appreciate that…however, the constant “oh I am getting so fat” or “oh nobody is gonna like my body, I’m so bloated” or “god, I need to lose weight” eventually wears away at the strength I’ve been building up. Bc they’re my best friends and the people I trust most and I know they are talking about themselves and I would hope they don’t think that about me, but it’s hard not to take it that way. It doesn’t help that I’ve noticed I’ve gotten less compliments from them since I’ve gained weight (in general also). Idk. It just sucks. I love them so much and this isn’t anywhere near friendship ending stuff to me.. just hurts

Side note: I know people are allowed to have their own insecurities and express them, but when I am basically the walking talking version of their insecurities/things they hate or want to change about themselves, stings a lot. And they are fully aware of my past with food/weight issues involving my mom (even more than me bc I don’t remember everything from my childhood).

#personal rant #body postivity #body neutrality #tw: ed behaviors #tw: weight

[ohtobeleah]

TW: ED - Don’t Open If You’re Sensitive To The Subject. Remember to censor your on content.

I had a relapse with my eating disorder a few nights ago that just has me feeling so disheartened. I’m working through it and I know the steps to take because I’ve been doing this for years now but fuck me dude…..

It just feels like the only thing I can truly control at the moment and I hate that. I hate that that’s what my mind does when I’m in a crisis.

But I’m working through it—I’m doing alright. I’m back on track and have a really good support system around me to help. I just wanted to put it out there for anyone else who might struggle with an ED. It’s rough, I know. But we’ll get through it.

#trigger warning ⚠️ #tw: ed behaviors #tw: eating disorders #bulimia #disordered eating mention

[featherfliesfree]

I think I open Tumblr like once a year or so.

Because I can.

Because for the longest time it was all I had.

But I found myself, my purpose, and my person. I didn’t have time or even the urge for Tumblr anymore.

I got better. I got happier. I healed.

Now I’m getting married.

I’m so excited. I really am.

But my sense of self worth is in the dumpster. My body dysmorphia is WHACK. I want to be the most beautiful bride. I want to look like a goddamn Disney Princess when I walk down that aisle.

And so I feel like I’m on a precipice right now. On one side is my mental health and the relationship that I have grown to have with food. On the other side is the way I used to be.

I used to think taking that step would be hard.

But the thing is—the horrible, dirty secret is—that even from the beginning I wanted this.

It’s horrid and shameful and I understand that I am the problem, but way back in the day I was one of those wannarexics.

I’m sure the kids are calling it something different nowadays, but that was the name for it back when I crawled through those old forums with the black background and the white text.

I knew what I was getting into back then and I know what it would mean if I were to do it again now.

#ed #ed recovery #eating disorder #eating disorder recovery #tw: eating issues #tw: ed mention #tw: ed behaviors #tw: ed

[findingmypeace]

11/12/2022

Right now I kind of hate the sound of my own thoughts. Earlier today I wrote how frustrated I am. I’m going to put this under a cut TW: ed behaviors.

I can feel myself starting to slip and move towards relapse. If I’m completely honest I’ve really only been in quasi-recovery. I’m keeping down a normal amount of food. I’m purging only once every couple of weeks. But what I eat isn’t that balanced. I’m eating a lot of binge food. I’m keeping it down (!) but that also makes me feel out of control and like I’m not really in recovery. I mean I ate cookies for breakfast yesterday. I didn’t purge but it felt like a binge. There are other things that are very much signs of a relapse but I’m so frustrated with myself that I don’t want to say what I’m doing. This morning I ~sort of~ had a reality check. My behaviors made me feel incredibly nauseous and I ended up throwing up. I threw up blood. It scared me for awhile but then I kept doing what I’m doing. In fact, part of me wants to stay up all night just to do behaviors.

WTF am I doing? I don’t want to relapse. I worked to hard on recovery to just throw in the towel. I’m trying to fight it. I bought cinnamon rolls to b/p on while I was grocery shopping. I ate the cinnamon rolls but I didn’t purge. But I did use laxatives and diuretics. I want to bang my head against a brick wall! When is enough really enough?! I can’t relapse. Not only will I hate myself for it but I’m pretty sure most people in my life will be incredibly pissed at me for relapsing. BS and DI will probably cut off contact for real this time.

In a moment of weakness I bought a scale off amazon. I didn’t want to waste any real money on it so I bought with an amazon gift card I had. But I think I’m going to return it. A scale will be in almost instantaneous relapse. After I finished 9 months of treatment in 2018 I bought a scale just to ‘know my weight’. Not to actually lose weight. I told myself I’d just monitor it but not use ed behaviors. Bullshit. That’s such a lie. Within the week I had relapsed.

The present moment is the longest I’ve maintained recovery outside of treatment probably ever. And even now it’s like quasi-recovery. I’m still using behaviors. When I face that reality I start to feel incredibly hopeless. Maybe recovery just isn’t possible for me. But I do actually believe it’s possible. And that makes me hate myself more because then why am I not doing what I’m supposed to do.

I am going to fight this as hard as I possibly can but if this turns in to a full blown relapse I will not be going back to treatment. I’ve been there, done that 7 times. I’m not going to do it again. When I relapsed in 2018 I basically gave up. I told myself, “This is it.” I decided I would just live with an eating disorder for the rest of my life. It wasn’t until 2021 and I big lecture from my PCP along with some health scares that I was even open to treatment again. I feel like I’m kind of in that place. Except not quite. I’m still doing recovery orientated things. I’m going to keep doing them. I’m really going to try hard to fight this but it’s really, really hard. Ugh, I’m so frustrated. I need to talk to LS. I know she’d give me a really big reality check. But I don’t want her to know. Fuck!

#personal #eating disorders #bulimia #tw: ed behaviors

[jodybscrawny]

Hello all I’m going to be sharing my plans for summertime and weight loss. I have dubbed this plan:

Summer of Skinny

Let us begin.

Rules for consumption:

•Under 500 calories everyday, one meal a day 6 days a week.

•Every 2 weeks metabolism days are afforded. These are days of 1,500 calories and then immediately back to normal the following days.

•Get all 5 food groups in everyday. Focusing on proteins and fibrous carbs.

•Drink 96 fl oz of water (or more) everyday.

Rules for activity:

•Workout for at least an hour 5 days a week. 30 minutes once a week, only one off day. Weight lift every other day.

•Yoga with mom 30 minutes everyday.

Here are my statistics and goals:

Height: 5’7

Weight: 150 lbs

Goal weight 1: 140 lbs

Ultimate goal weight: 135 lbs

I want my stomach to be flat, my arms to be toned, my legs to be slender, and my hips to be thinner.

I hope posting this may keep me accountable, free to use program.

#tw: ed behaviors #tw: ed mention #4na #tw: 4na #ed restriction #low cal restriction #ana goals #body goals #low cal diet #ed diet #4na diet #ed fast #4na tips #🦋 tips

[piscinez]

someone bully me into eating please

#🦇—pluvioriginals ! #tw: ed behaviors #just in case

[boxofbadaddiction]

Give me strength not to eat the last of that tray of brownies...

#been binging shit food for days now cause I'm a sad piece of shit #i well be guilty and mad asf at myself if i do but #THAT BITCH BE CALLING ME #tw: the big sad #tw: toxic relationship with food #tw: depression #tw: ed behaviors #tw: ADHD/BPD crash

[kai-isnotokay]

tw ED

i cant be the only one who finds it easier to exercise the shit out of myself when I'm starving, right? like idk, when I've fasted for over 24 hours my body is like "let's fucking GO!!" and next thing I know I've done like 50 crunches and an insane amount of pushups like how does that make sense. but then when I'm eating anything my body's like "what even is motion"

#tw ed #tw: Ed #tw: ed behaviors #twed #tw 4n4 #tw 🦋 #tw ana thoughts #c 🦋 thought #🦋.txt #tw ana shit #tw over exercising #over exercising #cw Ed #tw eating issues #pro recovery #not pr0 4n4

[coffee-and-darkmoods]

Chantel's parents came home one day to find their daughter lying, unresponsive on the floor, confirming their fears, that she had been starving herself to death. They had to wonder why, why Chantel would choose such a cruel self punishment when they provided her with everything and anything she wanted. They always felt they had an open door policy and that she could talk to them about anything but she was a closed book regardless and now they'll never know what, if anything, they could have done.

#ts4 gameplay #healy legacy #tw: ed behaviors

[bella-but-not-hadid444]

is it bad i’m more focused on my calorie intake and my weight than this school year

#tw:ed #tw: ed behaviors #pls don’t report just block if u don’t like this #girlblogging

[ilovethebittertaste]

coming back to 3dblr after “recovery”

#ed vent #ed not sherran #tw ed diet #tw ana diary #ana bllog #ana trigger #4norexi4 #ed meals #low cal restriction #pro recovery #i hate everything #ed not ed sheeran #ed not sheeren #tw restrictive ed #disordered eating thoughts #tw disordered eating #not diagnosed #tw self destructive behavior #i want to disappear #disappointment #depressing quotes #sorry for being depressing #kinda depressing #just my ramblings #i want to ⭐️ve #i wanna lose weight #i will reach my ugw #i wanna be skinnier #i wanna be tiny #i wanna ⭐️ve