#tw RA rant

[spop-romanticizes-abuse]

i'm glad more people are pointing out the flaws and bad writing in spop, and the toxicity in c//a's relationship. however, i do want to remind y'all to not get too biased.

i've seen a few people victim blame catra when it comes to her relationship with shadow weaver, and that's a really shitty thing to do. catra was a terrible person but the way shadow weaver treated her wasn't her fault.

i know that a lot of us like shadow weaver as a character, myself included, but she was still an abuser. she still physically and emotionally tortured a child for no real reason, because abusers don't need a reason. it's all well and good to point out catra's abusive behaviour but what shadow weaver did to her was not her fault.

i've even seen people implying that catra deserved to get abused or that shadow weaver abused her because she was disrespectful or didn't try enough during training. this is a really fucked up take. catra being disrespectful doesn't justify shadow weaver's abuse, that's like saying that adora deserved to get abused because she stood her ground against catra sometimes.

and catra didn't have to attend the horde training, none of them deserved to be groomed into child soldiers. the horde wasn't an environment any of them chose to grow up in. of course, catra's inferiority complex can seem a little hypocritical considering the fact that she never tried to do better, but i can understand the idea of wanting to give up because you're a slow learner or not naturally gifted in something.

also, catra seeking out shadow weaver's validation isn't bad writing or catra being stupid. it's pretty common in abusive relationships, actually. take zuko, for example. he's the example of a well-written character that we all turn to so for once, i'm gonna compare him to catra in a positive light.

ozai was actively abusive towards zuko but he still desperately wanted ozai's validation and approval. this is the result of being raised by an abusive parent. you feel like you have to earn their love, even when you're upset or angry at them, you secretly feel like it might be your fault.

i have to admit, the light spinner episode still makes me feel really bad for catra. the way she asks shadow weaver why she got abused really resonated with me, because i feel like catra secretly blamed herself for the way she was treated by her mother.

she might have told adora that shadow weaver was a horrible, manipulative person but i think deep down, catra had the classic dilemma of hating shadow weaver but craving for her love at the same time. she wanted to believe that shadow weaver might see some potential in her, the same way she did with adora. it's easier said than done to be like “well if you know that your parent is abusive, why don't you just leave them?” or “why did you let them manipulate you again?”

basically what i'm saying is: let's be mature about this whole situation. of course none of this justifies catra's actions and of course she deserves to be held responsible for her abusive behaviour and her war crimes. but let's not cross the line and start being insensitive towards abuse victims. catra did a lot of shitty things but being abused by shadow weaver wasn't one of them.

#spop #she ra #catra #tw abuse #rant #long post

[aingeal98]

I have like. Two versions of Damian Wayne in my head. I think it's a consequence of getting to know and love him via Morrison's run on him and then wanting to know more, doing research into his mother's side, and being horrified by how racist the retcons made were. It didn't really change how much I enjoy Damian in any significant way, because I liked him for his dynamic with the batfamily and how entertaining he is as Robin. It's just that when it comes to anything deeper than that, about what motivates him, what he internalized growing up, the impact his childhood abuse had on him, anything to do with Ras or Talia really... A lot of writers fail so badly at making it compelling and instead just make me cringe and want them never to touch the al Ghuls again. And so we end up with two Damians:

Damian Wayne aka the Damian I love: Most easily described as an in-character, well written Damian with a solid backstory. Robin Son of Batman and his Robin run both pull this off pretty well. They don't downplay the horror of his childhood but they don't cross over into cartoonish territory either, and they allow Damian to have complicated thoughts and feelings about what he did and what was done to him. You can see how his abuse shaped him without it being shoved hamfistedly down your throat, and I don't come away thinking "I have to ignore all of this no matter how important it is to his character because logically Ras and/or Talia would not fucking do that". Also he's hilarious and makes me root for him whether he's insulting his enemies or electrocuting Jason or dying for the fifth/sixth time. Like that's my son and I can write a million words on his mentality and how it's changed and his opinions on his parental figures and his character development and how he'd interact with x or y character and-

And the second Damian, aka the Woobie Damian. The one you get where hack writers want to give him a sad backstory to justify how Edgy and Badass and Damaged he is and write the most cartoonishly over the top evil Ras and Talia possible. Most recent example I can think of is Tom King saying Ras locked Damian in a box with no water for a week because he didn't tie his shoelaces right. Or Morrison's Talia murdering her own son. Or how SuperSons wrote Talia. And look, it's not that I won't accept horribly, ridiculously evil villains. My favourite character's dad abused her in more extreme ways than even the worst al Ghul writer could come up with. It's that these are characters with already established personalities and traits. Unless they are being mind controlled they would not act like that and do these things. Just like how Bruce Wayne wouldn't lock Dick in a cave and feed him rats. There are ways you can show the impact of growing up in a cult and raised by an evil grandfather and being told repeatedly that you are destined to lead them all into a better world and trained in the art of killing a man. And these writers fail miserably at pulling any of that off. It's as shallow and boring as "You know why I'm mean to you all the time? Because my family taught me love is a weakness. I said mean things to you and stabbed you but my grandfather used to beat me for showing kindness to animals. Don't you feel sorry for me now?"

It sucks. I hate it. Anything with that Damian in it, I automatically filter out of my personal canon. The only way I can think of making it good is if it's like the "Slice the Baby Saturday" meme, where Damian is just bullshitting to see how much he can get away with and deliberately testing his family with stereotypes. But unfortunately those writers are dead serious about Ras making Damian climb up a whole mountain with no safety gear even if he falls and breaks his arm or dies. Because that is definitely something you would do with your one and only heir. They're literally two minutes away from saying Ras gave Damian a puppy and then told Talia to kill it in front of him.

So basically when I say that I love Damian and he's my favourite male Robin, know that woobie Damian is not a part of this conversation. Real Damian I would kill for. A writer puts woobie Damian in front of me and says his mom stabbed him I say let him bleed out so I won't have to endure comics about him anymore.

#dc #damian wayne #talia al ghul #ras al ghul #dc rambles #sorry it's time for my monthly al ghul rant #I bottle it up every time I see a bad Damian comic and then vent it in posts like these #abuse tw

[thermodynamic-comedian]

the thing about fantazy worlds where there is "no homophobia, no transphobia, and no racism!" is that there's still ableism, specifically anti-autistic ableism.

because queerphobia can be erased by normalization, but ableism can't be erased just by taking away the labels.

in fact, taking away labels like autism and neurodivergence only makes being neurodivergent even harder:

if there's no word for why someone's different, there's no way to help or understand them, which leads to othering and demonizing them.

this is why even in utopia based fantazy worlds like shera and the owl house, neurodivergent (and specifically autistic) characters (entrapta, alador blight) are still not understood as much as neurotypical characters. they still have to explain how they're different, and doing that without having the word "autism" be common knowledge just makes it more difficult.

the only real way to erase ableism is to create a world where neurodivergence and disability is understood, talked about, and accepted.

but no one's done that yet, so here we are.

#sorry for the sudden seemingly out of context rant #just had to get this stuff down somewhere #please correct me if i said anything wrong in this post; it was written in a hurry #neurodivergence #neurodivergent #nd #autistic #actually autistic #actually neurodivergent #neurodivergent representation #she ra: princess of power #spop netflix #spop entrapta #toh #the owl house #alador blight #tw rant #text post #autism

[3denthusiast]

I feel so awful and frustrated with myself. It feels like I just can't do anything right and nothing I do goes well. I can't even cry. I hate this.

#@na motivation #ana trigger #anatumblr #ed bullshit #ed not sherran #i need to lose so much weight #@n0r3xia #@na #🕯️as a 🪶 #tw ana diary #@na vent #ed vent #vent #ana and mia #ana rant #@na rant #tw ana rant #ra

[fishybehavior]

I wish every bigoted person understood queer people are real

And representation in media doesn't mean the world is fucking ending

#im so fucking pissed #my mom was talking about she ra #said it used to be good and now it has all those problems #fuck u mom #someone being gay is not a problem #cant say that tho #hate my life #rant #tw rant #rant in tags

[domreader-headcannon-scenarios]

Excuse the fuck out of me but being a man doesn't automatically mean they have a penis. You need to learn to separate those two. Totally fine if you avoid men because of trauma but penises have little to do with men. If you think penises have anything to do with your trauma specifically, you are transmisogynistic.

Dude…I’m scared of AMAB people, if you had read my post you’d know that. I just used the word ‘men’ bc it’s easier. I’m literally nb so I’m trans too dumbass. Also, do you even know what misogynistic means? It means you’re against women’s rights and that would be in against trans woman’s lives and rights which, I’m obviously not against. I have literally spent my life in hiding out of fear of what people would do to me if they found out I’m trans.

I literally explained I’m scared of a person WITH A FUCKING PENISE TOPPING. What the fuck is wrong with you? You know I shouldn’t have to write a fucking essay to explain

WHY ITS AGAINST MY FUCKING RULES, GET OFF MY BLOG IF YOURE GONNA BE A CUNT TO ME, IM NOT BEING BULLIED BY SOMEONE BECAUSE A JACKASS RAPED ME WHEN I WAS A CHILD

But you know what? Let’s get person

He stuck his fucking penise in me, he beat and left me alone in the woods, I literally got found by a random passerby.

Still think I don’t have a right to be uncomfortable? Get the hell off my blog, I know the difference, I’m not scanning every godamn word I use, I SHOULDN’T HAVE TO, I MADE IT CLEAR WHAT THE PROBLEM WAS.

I’m sick of people running around and trying to just say dumb shit like I’m ‘transmysogonistic’ because I’m scared of AMAB people.

I was raped, I was beaten and terrified, and you want to make this about lgbtphobic shit? Im not playing this fucking game, you might think it’s funny but I don’t now tell me, why don’t I have the right to be scared of AMAB people? He wasn’t the last person to rape me, and all the other times, it was AMAB people.

I told you I have past trauma I don’t want to talk about. Do you still feel happy calling me that? Are you fucking proud?

#ask box #ask #rant #tw ra/pe

[toto-dreamer]

Shera and that one scene in the second episode

Shitty title I know, but this is just something I wanted to point out. Shera has a lot of religious symbolism (esp in the final season with Horde Prime) but the Horde itself and Adora leaving that horde resonated so much with me as someone that had to leave their old church behind.

I spent most of my life believing in the whole church rhetoric and built a lot of my identity around someone who's a 'good Christian girl', who doesn't like boys (though it turns out that was just because i was a raging aromantic) and wears skirts above the knee and gossip. Childish and naive, I know, but it was so important to me for the teachers to look at me and say "that's a good kid". And I was lonely, but I turned that loneliness into scorn because instead of confronting the fact that if I let go of this desire for approval I could have had friends and childhood, I looked down on the girls who were just being girls because obviously me being on my own is a show of strength, and I was better for doing so.

Then in seventh grade I realized that when I think a lot of the bible is bullshit it is okay if I think it's bullshit. It is mighty acceptable for me to question why God hardened pharaoh's heart, why he cast lucifer down instead of doing literally anything else, and why he made such terrible fucking decisions. And it was a mighty wild revelation for me. because who fucking knew that the dress code was bad, that not wanting to spread the good word is okay, that the church was really fucking homophobic and transphobic and lowkey sexist too I mean-

And so I tell my friend and I do this whole rant, and their response--

Because unlike me, they didn't give a fuck about the teacher's approval. Because while I was dying inside and out trying to match not just my teacher's and god's standards they were growing up and figuring out that adults are full of shit. And that hurt.

And obviously, the circumstances are different. The parallels are not 1:1. But when I just rewatched this scene yesterday and it hit me like a fucking sack of bricks and i need to post everything I think on the internet cause that's just how I cope, apparently

#religious bashing #kinda #shera rants #she ra reboot #religion #christianity bashing #vent #tw: religious trauma #all the queers i've ever shipped

[lady-hestia-rose]

Persona 5 vs. Milgram: How One Story Succeeded at Portraying Teenage Sexuality Where the Other Failed

tw: child abuse, child ra**, sexuality and sexualization, abortion, s**cide

(Note: I am not personally a victim of abuse or ra**, so if I say something stupid here, please let me know. I am always open to criticism and I don't want to be an asshole.)

rare moment of @lady-hestia-rose having original thoughts and not just reblogging everything

So this year I discovered both Persona 5 and Milgram, and I love both of them sososo much. I've infodumped about both of them for hours and overanalyzed the writing and symbolism both stories use to no end. Persona 5 Royal is probably my favorite piece of media I've ever seen. Milgram has brought me and my best friend closer together as we rant about our murderer blorbos and how well-written they all are together.

However, playing Persona, to me, is like the video game equivalent of watching a Shakespeare play. It's a masterclass narrative, very entertaining, and full of depth and symbolism to analyze, but it also has a bunch of misogyny that can really sour the mood sometimes. This seems to be a problem that the Persona series has had for a while judging from my experience playing P4 and what I've heard about other games, but in 5 it's like eating the most rich, satisfying cake you've ever had and then finding out some jackass poured pebbles into it. The way Persona 5 treats its female characters is by far my biggest problem with the game, with one problematic aspect in particular being its sexualization of the high school female cast, particularly Ann Takamaki.

Ann's storyline is mostly focused around her looks and how her appearance affects the way people treat her. At first, this plotline is taken in a promising direction. Because of her Caucasian ancestry, Ann faces slut-shaming and fetishization from most of her peers at school. In addition, Ann, along with many other girls in the school, is targeted by her abusive gym teacher, Kamoshida. It's not entirely clear how far his advances went with Ann specifically, but she is shown to face sexual harassment and coercion from Kamoshida onscreen, and Ann's best friend Shiho attempts suicide after being all but stated outright to have been raped by Kamoshida. So Ann is a victim of sexual abuse and a witness of her friend's abuse as well. There are plenty of interesting and thoughtful angles you could take with this story. You could show her reconnecting with Shiho and bonding over their shared trauma, with them going through the healing process together. You could show her being initially distrustful of the other Phantom Thieves until their bond grows stronger and she is able to feel safe around them. You could give her an arc about reclaiming her sexuality and taking back this part of herself that was used to hurt her.

What does the game do?

Barely fucking anything.

Ann gets little to no character development post-Kamoshida. Instead, her Confidant storyline is about her modeling career, with only one conversation where she sees Shiho again even acknowledging her past trauma. The game also continues to make her the Ms. Fanservice of the team, with constant gross jokes about her "hot bod" and the male characters being pervy around her. She keeps getting put in skimpy outfits and having to use her sex appeal to seduce enemies, as if the previous storyline never even happened.

For obvious reasons, I am very uncomfortable with any storyline that sexualizes minors, even if it's for a reason that serves the story. This is a general rule I apply to most media I consume. I'm considering completely skipping the Dancing in Starlight spinoff game because of the content I've heard it contains. And it's not just something I apply to Persona. I stopped listening to the song "Romeo and CInderella" by doriko despite really liking it musically because I was very uncomfortable with the story of the song. It's a problem I run into a lot when consuming Japanese media. However, I was thinking about this stuff a couple days ago, and I realized something. There is one specific piece of media I really like that shows a minor with sexual imagery that actually doesn't make me sick to my stomach. That is the song "Tear Drop" from DECO*27's music project Milgram.

(Note for Milgram fans: This part is based entirely off my interpretation of the offical English translation of the lyrics. I have not watched the voice dramas.)

"Tear Drop" is about a 17-year-old girl named Kashiki Yuno. The music video has several shots of her wearing lingerie, and the song approaches themes of innocence, sexuality, and relationships. Not only do I like the song, it's arguably my favorite song in the entirety of Milgram (although Backdraft also puts up a good fight for that title).

(Note from the future: I have been corrected. Yuno is actually 18.)

Why is it that I like "Tear Drop" despite depictions of sexualized teenagers usually making me uncomfortable? What sets apart Yuno's story from Ann's that makes it work?

(Note: I'm about to discuss a controversial aspect of Japanese culture as a mostly uninformed American. I may be about to say something stupid. If you're more knowledgeable about this subject than I am and you notice me saying something stupid, I am so sorry. Please tell me.)

In Yuno's first song, "Umbilical," it was heavily implied that she was involved in the Japanese enjo kōsai industry, which is often translated as "compensated dating." Taking the definition from Wikipedia (the most scholarly of sources), it is "the practice of older men giving money and/or luxury gifts to attractive young women for sexual favors." The song also implies that Yuno's "murder" (the premise of Milgram is that all of the prisoners the songs are about have killed someone) was an abortion.

So, Yuno was raped. I think that's quite clear. If you're a minor and you have sex with an adult, you were raped. No further clarification needed. Hopefully I don't need to argue that Yuno's abortion was justified either.

After the release of "Umbilical," Yuno was overwhelmingly voted innocent by Milgram's official poll. She garnered a huge amount of sympathy from everybody in the audience, and people expressed their sympathy for Yuno quite often. However, this rhetoric often took on quite a patronizing tone, like calling her "poor baby" or regretting that the circumstances of her life "forced" her into compensated dating to make ends meet (which, from what I understand, isn't quite how enjo kōsai works, but that's another discussion for someone who knows more about this stuff than me).

In Milgram, the prisoners canonically can hear what the audience is saying about them. And Yuno was not pleased.

"Tear Drop" seems to be almost entirely addressed towards the audience. In the image above, we see Yuno removing the metaphorical rose-colored lens from the audience to see the real her. The lyrics call out everyone who infantilized and looked down upon her, drawing similarities between the people she dated and the viewers. Here are some examples from the English translated lyrics: "'Poor naive little girl'? So off the mark, what's it to you? It's just absurd"

"Don't weigh me measure me against your morality Just shut it, will you? You know it all Feeling magnanimous? INNOCENT? I'm so not that Just shut it, will you? You know it all" "Caressing me with your 'Good girl' Who needs your self-righteous pardon?

I'm the one who chose, let you and you and you all in Happy or sad? Why decide? Where'd you get your half-baked sense of justice So nauseating...so creepy...will you please disappear"

Yuno is sick of everyone else making judgements about her and trampling over her own desires and wishes, and in this song she gives the middle finger to everyone who did so.

Generally, I am against portraying sexualized minors in media. However, I think it's important to realize that teenagers are not completely sexless beings. They have their own wants and desires, they want to be sexy, and it is important for them to have their own safe sexual exploration. And like it or not, sex has undoubtedly affected Yuno's life as a rape survivor. And unlike Persona with Ann, Milgram has the respect to not just pretend this part of Yuno's life never happened and allows her to be sexual on her own terms, instead of just pandering to the male gaze.

I grew up in the LDS Church. While I have not gone through anything on her level, I see parts of my own story in Yuno as someone whose sexuality was used to hurt me and who has coped with the trauma by redefining my sexuality as my own. I find "Tear Drop" incredibly inspiring, and I think that's what sets Milgram apart from Persona in its approach to teenage sexuality.

This is the second-to-final shot of Tear Drop. Her face is full of relief, with her clutching the jacket like a comforting blanket. Not everything she has faced is fixed now, and her teenage naivety is still clear in many of the lyrics. One song didn't melt all her trauma away. But she's getting there. She's making progress one step at a time. The final shot of the song is her pulling the jacket in, covering more of her body as she rests.

In Persona 5, Ann's sexuality is used to objectify her. In Milgram, Yuno's sexuality is used to empower her. That's what makes the difference.

#persona 5 #milgram #persona 5 analysis #p5 analysis #milgram analysis #analysis #media analysis #ann takamaki #kashiki yuno #p5 ann #milgram yuno

[sardonic-sprite]

Ok ok so @quotidian-oblivion has been (lovingly) pestering me to make something of my/our comment thread on "bane" where we were talking about the whole "Ra's wants tim's babies" thing, and what if that actually happened, so here it is 😂 (tw for referenced rape)

So obviously this could only happen if Cass didn't save Tim from Ra's's half-sister so. Hella angst

Poor Cass is devastated that she was too late to stop it. She blames herself, even tho everyone tells it her its no one's fault but Ra's and his sister. She becomes ridiculously protective of tim in response, even well beyond the time she forgives herself

Dick clings to Tim for an entire day when he finds out, trying not to feel rain on his skin, promising it'll be ok someday, that he's there, he'll do anything he can. He's guilty too, wishing he'd been in better contact, gone with Tim, done anything that could have spared him Dick’s nightmares

Damian’s world has shattered. Grandfather... does not want Damian. As his heir. He wants a previously nonexistent child. DRAKE's child. And he has stooped to the lowest low to get it. The carefully built family around Damian is in mourning for something he doesn't fully understand, and Drake now flinches when Damian, in what was supposed to be a peace offering, calls him "Timothy"

Steph and Tim make up as friends when she comes to support him with the shock of knowing that he has (will have, bc they are NOT leaving it with Ra's) a child now that he was not ready for. She doesn't touch him once while she's there, stays at arm's length, and that, Tim thinks, is what makes the visit feel as comforting as a hug

Jason is horrorstruck and breaks out of the rage/aggression and channels it towards hunting down League assassins bc what the fuck how DARE ra's? Tim was fucking 17 and Jason does not care how powerful this bastard is, he's going the FUCK down because NOBODY messes with Jason's baby brother but Jason himself

Barbara is ranting about how Ra's cant even know the genetics are going to fucking WORK how he wants them to, but breaks off abruptly as Tim's eyes well up, changing to enumerating all the baby things she's ordered and telling the dumb science jokes on the onesies because she NEEDS to see Tim laugh

Alfred LOOKS composed but every night he grips that shotgun real tight and has to remind himself that these kids need him, he can't risk himself for vengeance, what matters is Master Tim and the new little master or miss to be. He asks Tim privately if he'd like to choose a room to be the child's nursery. Tim doesnt know, but that's ok, dear boy, that's ok.

Bruce comes home and instead of the joy of reunion (or well, after it) has to struggle not to cry bc God his poor little boy... Damian was a shock too but at least Bruce and Talia loved each other. At least Bruce fucking consented. At least bruce was a goddamn adult. He doesnt think he will ever be rid of the guilt that Tim only found his way to Ra's by looking for Bruce

And Tim himself...

He can't go underground, at all. He redesigns his costume so that he can only unfasten it with a biometric lock, and doesn't tell anyone where it is except Alfred (medical emergencies). Some days, he can't look the girls in the eyes. Some days, he can't look at them at all, not without memories of things he isn't supposed to have seen or. Or felt. He's kidnapped as Red Robin once and chained to the wall, and he dissociates until someone (Jason this time, and who'd have believed THAT a year ago?) comes to save him. He can't get a good night's sleep anymore, not that he ever could but still

He feels paralyzed. There is no putting this off, no playing for time, nothing. They were able to confirm that Ra's's sister IS pregnant, and he knows damn well it's his, and nature waits for no one. In less than nine months now there's going to be a squalling, breathing, tiny, fragile, entire child, and unless he steps in, Ra's is going to raise it. Which means torturing it into a killer.

Every part of Tim screams NO

So they use those months to plan. How do they get in, how do they get out, WHEN is this supposed to happen because they can't well kidnap the child from the delivery room, the poor thing has to be in some kind of stable health, they need to KNOW these things, and thats when Bruce gets a call

Because Talia is fucking livid. She knows Ra's is an asshole, that's why she got Damian to Bruce, but this was a whole new low, her goddamn AUNT pregnant by her teenage non consenting STEPSON? She can't stop that any more than the others now, but she knows what she CAN stop: another tiny child being twisted and corrupted by this absolute monster. They need a spy, right? Well they got one

So there y'are, Q, the horribly angsty beginnings of this Dad!Tim AU. It doesn’t look pretty right now, but it will slowly get happier bc babies are adorable, dammit.

Edit: Part 2

#sprite wrote #somewhat #Q made me #tim drake #jason todd #barbara gordon #bruce wayne #talia al ghul #damian wayne #dick grayson #cassandra wayne #alfred pennyworth #stephanie brown #ra's al ghul #ra's al ghul's sister #red robin comics #referenced rape #dad!tim au

[spop-romanticizes-abuse]

going off of @/anti-spop 's post, i really want to talk about how much i hate it when people act like abuse between siblings isn't really abuse. people see how catra treated adora back in the horde and act like it was all done in good humor, when it was not. same with zuko and azula, people often just laugh it off as a joke.

“zuko knows that azula is a liar but he still believes the stuff she says” yeah because that's how abuse and manipulation works!! knowing that a person is toxic doesn't always mean that you believe it a 100%. abusers can make you trust them or question yourself, that's the whole point. zuko wasn't being stupid and i hate that people think he was.

i don't talk about my personal life very often here, but i do want to mention some parts of it so i'll just put it under the read more, if you don't want to read my vent.

i'm someone who grew up with an abusive sibling (mostly verbal abuse, but abuse regardless) and it took me such a long time to even admit that i was being abused because of how often people treated it as just silly bickering between siblings.

i was called worthless and the r slur (or its equivalent in my language), my sister constantly tried to control and criticize everything i did, and she would never apologize when she did something wrong. she constantly justified her actions and got mad at me when i didn't forgive her immediately.

when i first watched spop, it was really hard to sit through because catra reminded me so much of my own sister. not the physical abuse part (although there were a few instances when she hurt me physically) but mostly the way catra kept weaponizing adora's insecurities against her.

i just wish people took sibling abuse more seriously. it's not always just silly banter, sometimes it really is toxic. at the end of the day, pretty much anyone can be abusive. anyone can be abused. just because they're your sibling doesn't mean you should suffer from their toxicity in silence.

#people are beginning to talk about abuse more these days but i still have yet to see people talking about sibling abuse #i wish more people talked about it #because i still feel like i'm the one being overdramatic #i cut ties with my sister btw but from our family events i know that she still hasn't changed #she's as toxic as ever but i'm glad i dont give her a chance to abuse me anymore #spop critical #spop salt #spop criticism #spop discourse #spop #she ra #anti spop #anti catradora #tw abuse #long post #rant

[angelpuns]

*blow the trumpets or smth* RANTING ANON IS NO LONGER AN ANON!!! (plus tw for blood)

(tw for blood again) plus another ver of that :3

there is no reason for this reveal, its just for fun lol

PFFFF OMG THESE ARE SO SO SO CUTE-

Aahahahaha why are you covered in blood tho-

RA....RA what crime did you commit-

[eclipse15]

(same anon as possible scramble or shutdown program) first I want to thank you for the info!

tw for detailed description of (possible) ritual abuse and/or mind control, religious abuse (Catholic)

I also wanted to say that I'm not sure if the church I was in was a cult. for example, they didn't have a name, it was just "church of (town I grew up in)" which is the official name for all churches in my city so mine didn't have a "cult name". it also didn't rely on touch abuse (like physical and sexual abuse that involve physical contact) but did rely on manipulation tactics, guilt tripping, instilling fear, and being punished with heavy prayers and chanting in the case of "sin".

I remember being forced to confess my "sins" in public, and being forced to admit "sins" that I didn't commit, like the priest would repetively ask me to confess my sins and when I didn't have any to say because I didn't do anything "wrong" he would still force me to say something so he could force me to pray my sins away.

it wasn't an everyday thing; I was forced to go to church 1-2 times a week so I don't know if this counts in the "repetitive" for RAMCOA. my family was also involved in this (and a family member still is, though not to the same degree as before, for various reasons), would bring me to church against my will and attend religion classes against my will, make me pray everyday, telling me God or Jesus or another religious figure hates me and I must repent to them or I will burn in hell. I was often physically cornered when I would dare to "speak up", like saying that I didn't like the way I was being treated.

I was rarely, if ever, beaten for speaking up/going against what I was told. and I don't recall ever being sexually abuse, at least through contact, though I was abused through verbal and psychological sexual abuse.

I really don't know if this counts towards RA/MC. I have some behaviours that I know are typical to programs (like the scramble/shutdown I mentioned earlier) but wouldn't know about other types of programs. I know you made a list of common terms but I forgot which is which so. I'll go re-read it.

sorry for the rant also I'm sorry it contains information so detailed. it took a really long time typing it all out because my thoughts kept going all over the place

TW FOR RAMC GENERAL TALK (NO OA TALK)

First, I’d look more into the programmed traits that you might have and see if they aren’t extreme dissociative traits in your case. I’m not saying you never experienced RAMC, but I like for people to be sure. Also, if you can, try communicating with the parts that have these programmed traits. See if they have the general programmed characteristics, such as:

Holding beliefs that align with the behaviors that are programmed traits (eg. a prayer alter believing in the church they pray to very adamantly)

Believing the programmed trait(s) is natural, an essential part of their being, or even morally right

Getting defensive, mad, and otherwise upset when you seemingly question the program(s)

The first one is the most important thing, if the part(s) doesn’t check it than they don’t have the program you’re thinking they do, if they have any program at all.

As for the RA, what you are describing sounds like it would at least be spiritual abuse if it’s not ritual abuse. Spiritual abuse is not to the extent RA is, however it still hurts the victim spiritually. Things such as religious trauma tie into this. Either way it’s abuse.

Hope this helped!

#🌼 #tw ramcoa #ramcoa #tw tbmc #tbmc #did alter #did osdd #osddid #hc did #polyfragmented #polyfrag #polyfrag system #actually mentally ill #endos dni

[healerelowen]

I must rant. Rant about bug. 

Tw for talk of bug, beware

I love bugs! I’ve always found them to be very interesting! What was even better when I was a kid is that it was mainly me and my older brother who were interested in them, but my sisters? Nope, unless it was like butterflies or ladybugs. Though my little sister was always fascinated by the praying mantis, they kinda scared me as a kid. 

I remember my older brother’s favorite was the rolly polly, and I also liked them though they weren’t my favorite. My favorite as a kid were dragonflies! I saw them around my house from time to time and every time my family went camping in the mountains we always saw this blue dragonfly. We named him Blue. We also took walks around a pond near a fish hatchery and during the summer we’d see a bunch of dragonflies. Red ones, blue ones, orange ones and all sorts of different colors! 

Though another bug my older brother and I really liked was bumble bees. I still like them since, you know, my second name is Bee. Before anyone asks, yes this was because of Bumble Bee from Transformers, in my older brother’s case anyway. I liked them because they were pollinators, they were helping us and our environment. I always had a deep respect for them because of that. Which is kinda why when one summer, when I accidentally stepped on one I was crying my eyes out but not because it hurt (It did but I could care less), but because I was scared that I killed the bee by mistake. The bee was fine by the way, only half the stinger went into my foot, I saw it fly away some time later when I went back outside.     

Though nowadays, my favorite bugs are moths. I adore moths! My personal favorite species is the Geometer moths. While my favorite moths specifically are the Madagascar Comet Moth, Giant Silk Luna Moth, and the Brown Geometer Moth. I love their colors, their wing patterns, and just how unique they are compared to other insects. It’s a shame that they tend to get thrown under the bus because of two species of moths that eat clothes, like not all of them eat clothes. Sure, some of them eat crops and garden plants, but they don’t eat clothes. If anything, most just eat plants around the environment, they have a wide variety of food. Especially since a good lot of them migrate from place to place, like I think the Polyphemus Moth does that during colder months, they go down south. 

But also, most moths are also pollinators. Yeah, since they spend a lot of time around leaves and plants, they gather a lot of pollen on them so when they go flying around they spread pollen like bees and even some wasps do! This is very effective since some moths that live in the U.S. can travel from one side of the country all the way to the other and back again. They’re very interesting creatures and I like to study them in my spare time. I also love trying to catch moths because I want to like, hold them in my hands and just let them crawl on me. One that was stuck in my mom’s car landed on my leg once, it was small and had a light brown color to it. 

Now here’s a kicker, I also like spiders. Not all spiders, but I do like some spiders. Specifically the jumping spider, because they are tiny and so fucking adorable. I mean, have you seen them? (I mean probably, they’re a very common species of spider) They are so cute and I love them. They also help with pests like earwigs and mosquitos. This is very helpful for me because I’m allergic to mosquito bites, so less mosquitos for me and more food for the jumping spider. Also, peacock jumping spiders, the ones that have the bright reds, blues and oranges? They do a little dance to find partners, a little dance! If that isn’t cute I don’t know what is, because they’re just little guys doing their thing and it’s so adorable. 

My older brother had a jumping spider living in his room when we were kids. We named him Spidey and one day while me, my older brother, and a friend were sitting in his room a massive earwig came out of nowhere, and I ran out of the room and into the kitchen where my mom was. I then hear my older brother and our friend exclaim, “Spidey!” Turns out, Spidey had came out and straight up unalived the earwig right then and there. I was impressed really. 

Anyway, if you want I can talk more about bugs if any if you want to hear more. Have a good rest of your day/night friends!   

#tw bug mention #rant post #healer elowen

[chabby4memes]

I'm doing this again, mainly because I really want to.

You can call me Russell or Ceylon, the rest of the names I'm willing to except are on my Pronouns.page;

I'm willing to have discussions about things in my dm's so don't think I don't!

I enjoy many forms of media, but really am enjoying Pjsekai, Arknights, D4DJ, Blue Archive and Bandori rn. My favourites are N25, VBS and RAS, but I really like Peaky Pkey and Merm4id.

I also really like Vocaloid, my favourites are Tensei Ringo, Bug, Villain- etc. My favourite producer is Pinocchio-P.

While I will still post art here, I'll also post it on my alt @peppermintblitz-wreckage.

Please be patient with me, especially with tw warnings, sometimes I struggle to notice them- especially with body-horror and eyestrain, so please try to understand. I also have a fair bit of a taste for the Morbid- especially in some media I consume.

I am also prone to severe depressed episodes, so I may vent worrying things, please don't try to pay too much head to them, I'll try not to vent as to not worry people.

I'm open to art trades and such.

Please don't discuss discourse or drama with me, like asking me my opinion on politics, I don't really understand it too much and the other two mods, Camellia and Mint, may not want to talk about it- also please don't talk about dsmp or Genshin to me, you can love it on your own, but please don't rant about to me. I don't know most of you well enough to listen to things I genuinely dislike.

Also, please don't interact if you are or support necrophilia, pedophiles or zoophiles, it's disgusting.

[0desiderium0]

what kind of god would instruct you to do that to a child?

why, he is your god of course. he is our god and we do not question him.

#laken speaks #wolfteeth #headstone #tw religious themes #tw religion #tw religious trauma #tw god mention #tw #traumacore #cw religion #cw #tw RA rant

[blazethecheeto]

100 Followers Q & A!! 🎉🎉

Link to Pt. 2: https://blaze5681.tumblr.com/post/682070345418784768/100-followers-q-a-continued

I have officially reached 100 followers!! 🥳🥳🥳 Although I know that isn't a lot compared to people with like 100000 followers or whatever, I'm happy with what I have 🤗

I got lots of questions for my Q & A so thanks to my mutuals and some anons for these questions! I'm excited to answer them and for you to get to know me more.

Alright without further ado, let's get into the first question :D

This is such a great question!! So for me, I need a fantasy or very cool, interesting plot. I love intricate lore and stories so I need that and maybe some magic too for me to become interested. I also want lots of beautiful and emotional scenes, with characters that have development and are awesome enough for me to get attached to them. If I'm not attached to the characters, I'm probably not going o be interested in the show.

For ships, I just found out I have a pattern in most of my ships- oof. Cute, optimistic side character cinnamon roll who's hopelessly pining for the emo dark, angwy, main character with trauma. Like it's all my ships in a nutshell. Kazper, Scorptra, Entrapdak, Huntdric, Caitvi, and more I can't think of right now haha!

I ask myself this every day Anon, thank you for that. Well it's not really any of your business but... I identify as an ON FIRE GARBAGE CAN-

I am non binary, I sometimes refer myself to genderfluid bc my gender be switching every day, and I'm a bi aegosexual hooman.

Although it probably isn't permanent, and sexuality is fluid, this isn't permanent. But it's true to me for now, and that's good :D

THE ENTHUSIASM IS UNCANNY- well 🎶here is a list of my faVoUriTe tHinGs 🎶

Colour: Orange!

Animal: CAT

Outfit: uhh, I don't really pay much attention to my wardrobe, but I guess this really awesome hoodie I got:

Movie: I'm saving that for another person who asked that question :)

Tv Show: This is so hard bc there are so many amazing ones. For now, it's the Owl House. Truly some of the greatest humor, animation, and characters in a show I've seen.

...uh-

Well I can answer that to an extent? I guess? I look like what I put in many of my picrews. I'm Vietnamese, and have black, shoulder length hair with an orange streak in the front. I'm pretty short too.

Finally, a normal anon question. There actually is a story behind it! I always called myself Blaze. It was always my username when I first started playing video games, and when I started making accounts. I don't know, I've always liked fire and the name sounded very cool to me.

Once I have the courage to come out, I would definitely pick Blaze as my new name as well :) It's so cool and many people already call me it so why not?

Well Anon, I am so glad you like The Price of a Heart but you see, I have this stupid thing called PROCRASTINATION. Lol I'm like over here staring a blank doc sinking in my chair waiting for it to write itself. Um, my schedule has collapsed onto itself and then exploded into flames so now a new chapter could come out in a week or in like 2 weeks, who knows. Thanks for enjoying my fic tho, it means a lot :)

Okay, you're gonna laugh, but lately, I've actually been discovering and re-listening to Equestria Girls music. I used to love those movies as a kid and I just decided to listen to some songs again then I found myself just jamming out to songs titled 'Rainbow Rocks' like wHAT-

(But seriously, those songs are fire, especially Under Our Spell and Unleash the Magic 🤩)

..And damn it only 10 images are allowed on this post. So I'll continue in another post! Hope you enjoyed Part 1.

I'll tag the people that asked me questions here: @lilisouless @reyraccoon @all the anons lol I don't know who you are

#Q & A #100 followers #WOO! #my mutuals #blaze rants #mine #personal! #tw: long post #grishaverse #gif/pic post #Equestria Girls #owl house #kazper #scorptra #entrapdak #caitvi #she ra #marvel #The Price of a Heart