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GUMUSSERVI |JJK|

BestFriend!Jungkook x Reader Genre: Fluff, Friends to Lovers Warning: Swearing, readers!insecurities of not being enough :( Note: HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JEONGGUKIE - OUR PRETTY LITTLE(not so little - fine) BUN <3

(n)Gumusservi (Turkish) - moonlight shining on the water

The sound of the ocean and the sight of tiny waves crashing onto the shore transport you to a different world. Your mind drifted softly, giving itself a brief feeling of nirvana with the surrounding nature. The clear sky was even bluer than the other days, reminding you of the unforgettable summer skies. The burning feeling of the legs buried in the sand brings you the best mood and the sun-kissed arms, now a bit sunburned, must be hidden under the umbrella. People were laughing around you, and kids playing volleyball near the place where you were. Is this what they call heaven? The place where everyone is happy.

The rays of light reflected from the rippling water made the scenery even more beautiful. You were just happy, with pathetic hope that it would last forever. From under your dreamy eyes, you found yourself observing people having fun in the water, or sitting on the shore playing with the sand like children. And that worry-free childish feeling always clung to you when you somehow did get away at least for a moment to the sandy beaches. Your problems seemed to disappear with the echo of the waves hitting the shore. These sea waves are washing away all the bad memories that could somehow appear in your mind from time to time. The sound of the wind blowing away your hair and soothing your slightly sunburned skin was like heavenly relief on warmer days like today.

The quiet sounds of tropical melodies were playing from afar but you still could hear it despite the loud people around. But most of the time, these loud sounds make you pissed off immediately, here - when your palms gently brush the grains of sand under your fingers, nothing seems to ruin such a moment.

Your gaze fell on the group of kids and teenagers on a small court made of sand. They weakly ran around to bounce the ball that ended up falling on the ground and made them burst into laughter or maybe some of them were even redder with anger because of the lost point. It made you chuckle, mainly because your friends were there too and one of them especially didn’t like to lose in such games. He was always like that, some could call him self-absorbed but some others could call him simply ambitious. Even If he drives you mad sometimes, especially while whiny screaming to your ear when he loses, you cannot hate him. You simply cannot.

But now another yell was heard from the court and you were sure that the loud ass they were, the whole beach could hear far away from there. Especially shouts of the biggest nervous rabbit of all.

After some minutes of watching the kids playing around, you get back into your book. The couple was just about to kiss when the awful taste of sand reached your tongue and cold drops of water met your heated-up legs. You were ready to throw your hands and start to yell for stopping you in such a romantic moment till you actually met your gaze with a boy. His smiling face even if it didn't exactly ease your anger, as you send one of your looks that if it could kill he would be dead for sure, made you calmer a bit. You would regret all of it later when a giggle left his lips.

“Sorry, I wasn't meant to” he sent you another adorable smile and lay down next to you.

His wet, slightly cold skin met with yours and goosebumps covered your body. Yet you couldn’t even be upset at him for a minute more because of his persona. Always enchanting you with shiny eyes. But he looked down at your skin, fingers brushing the small bulges and his eyes changed into worried ones. But you nudged him gently and your gazes met so he could meet a reassuring smile. He knew it was okay. It's nothing bad. And he lay down gently, but with hand still, so close your body.

“Kids tire you out?” The question broke the silence, and a small chuckle made you look at his peaceful face, looking at you with adoration like he usually does. As one of your best friends.

“Nah, I just wanted to spend some time with you”

“How romantic” he snorted at your sarcasm and stuck his head under the cover of your book to be with his head and wet hair on your thighs. Jungkook's eyes were now closed, pretending to completely relax when you bumped him slightly with the hardcover of the book to meet his confused sight. “Are you joking right now?” you said, being almost sure that hell ignored you but to your surprise, words leaving his mouth

“Not even a bit, my dear” A big smile could be seen by everyone around which just makes your eyelids come closer together.

“Remind me to kill you another time” you huffed, getting back to the lecture.

“You couldn't, your love for me is too big”

And he was right but nobody knows about it. What were you supposed to do anyway? These feelings clung to you two years ago when you and boy just met. Back then you didn't know how close both of you would become. And how… enchantingly he will behave with you. Sometimes, it was too hard for you. Too hard not to wish for more.

He was just different, stunning from afar and close. His often loud personality and infectious laugh only added to it. But he could also stay quiet if it's needed and give you support along with the peace you truly need. He could make you feel better without even talking. His presence was enough. His aura was making you more than happy.

Recollections of the time you spent together with him popped up before your eyes, and the sound of his laughing echoed happily in your ears. Cute pouting when he loses in some stupid game or adorable nose scrunches he made while smiling charm you to this point that sometimes you couldn't bear. Even while eating, you could see by his face if it was good or not.

Face filled with confusion?

Damn, food is good.

And it was so adorable for you. He was so adorable to you. But also…he was just too beautiful for you. Inside and outside. But you were under his spell and there was no one to break the weird feeling that grew up inside your chest.

“Are you there, dear? I'm worried.” you glanced down, finding his nut-brown eyes peering into your face, making your face flush red, which fortunately could be explained by sunlight

“I am, Jungkook”

“Excuse me? Where is ‘Koo’ or ‘Googie’ or ‘Bun’, should I be mad?”

You did not answer, just brushed his hair gently with your fingers making him hum quietly, and shut up just for a second. And yeah, it was enough for you anyway. Anytime when you could only stare at him was enough…

But do you think he will just shut up? REALLY Did you think it was over? Don’t you know Jeon Jeongguk long enough?

“Did you know that sharks have their own underwater café?” you sighed, brushing his hair faster hoping it would do something - like stop him from talking - but nah, there is no way. He only begins again.

“Oh my God, not again your trivia about nothing and everything” you huffed already, couldn't focus on your book

“Yah! Don't be rude just one more time” He grunted, hitting your leg lightly.

“I didn't even try” you took hand from his hair to flip the page but he quickly took it back, making you give up on the lecture and pay attention to him. So with a hand buried in his hair, you have to quietly stare at him and listen.

“Then look and listen to me.”

Perfect.

Like that, you ended up hearing about the scientists who discovered an area in a remote part of the Pacific Ocean where typically coastal great white sharks will migrate to in the winter. And this place they call White Shark Café.

While he was talking with his eyes closed, you were just stunned by his flawless beauty. The light of the sun on his skin made you even more amazed. The euphoric feeling went down your spine every time the small grin showed on his face while talking about nothing. This makes you calm, he makes you calm, and lucky. You felt just lucky to have him by your side.

And sometimes, it is just comforting to see his face. You don't have to talk, you don't have to spend a lot of time together, you don't even need to be close. Just a small smile on his face. Little dimples showing on his cheeks. Even while he squints his eyes because he's concentrating on something or can't see something can make you chuckle. And you never do it because you're making fun of him. You just realize with each passing moment how a relaxed state comes over your tired shoulders just by seeing him. How you want to smile again, and how your breath can get deeper and not so shallow because of constant anxiety.

You ask yourself often, how just looking into someone's eyes can make you cry at the same time so burning happily inside your chest. How it is that you feel so safe only by looking. Moles here and there make you connect them with eyes, looking for constellations, and even if there aren't too many of them sometimes, the one becomes the only shining star you're longing to see every time.

Oh, how much you wanted to squish his cheeks. 'Cause every time he squishes them when lazily puts hands on just out of the tiredness, your heart pounds like crazy. When he pouts lips while thinking about something, and you sometimes find the courage to admire his facial expressions, he covers red ears with hands because he's embarrassed, making you adorably smile.

He just…makes you a different person. Sometimes you'd say a happy one, even if you don't really can stay in this state of mind for long. So when another smile, upper cheeks puffing cutely, and eyes dancing, lit up from time to time, your heart bursts with a warm feeling.

How much only one joyful grimace can bring you comfort and hope…hope that everything, in the end, will be fine and you will be loved.

He just brings out the best of you. No matter how much you’ll try to pretend that he annoys you like hell when sometimes the one and only thing you want is for him to disappear. He`ll stay, making you fall even more. And now you couldn't stop yourself, as hand brushes his cheek gently which made him open his eyes and again look into yours. They were shining just like the sun and the stars.

“Everything kay?” He asked, melting your heart even more but you just hummed and quickly looked away to avoid the embarrassing situation that you put yourself in.

And at first, you thought it worked but when he came up, you knew that you were in trouble because when Jeon Jeongguk is worried, you cannot stop him from trying to get to the real reason for your behavior. Firstly he scanned all your face, especially your eyes from which he could often tell what was really going on inside, that is why you were so afraid to look him in the eye for longer than some seconds. Secondly, when he found even a bit of worry in your eyes, his fingers gently grasped your hand and locked it in a tight embrace. That's how it's ending right now, makes you even more awkward but at the same time your heart happily singed ballads inside your chest.

“What's going on with you two today?” Jimin's voice startled you, forcing you to violently pull your hand away from Jungkook and pretend like nothing happened. And for a few seconds, you felt like you could not breathe.

As much as you wished for your feelings for Jeongguk to be mutual. At the same time, you didn't want anyone to realize any sooner than he did that your heart could beat so fast just for him. This time, the dark-haired man's hand still gently caressing your skin failed to bring peace to you. Still, a tightness of insecurity and a kind of sadness clung to you and you couldn't get rid of it.

You knew you had to escape.

So you picked yourself up from the sand, gave Seokjin- your closest friend right after Jungkook - a knowing look, and explained to everyone that you're going to take some more sun and check the water. So you walked down the beach, closer to the sea trying to calm your fast-beating heart. The sound of waves calmed you a bit but this strange feeling still clung to you.

And for a longer while you just stood there watching the horizon. Chilly water from time to time gets to your legs making you shiver slightly. Feet buried in the sand after a while, as the sea waves were soaking the ground under your weight. Crushed shell fragments that slightly irritate your toes, the sound of smashing waves somehow soothes you. You could see how the sea was kissing the shorelines, and your heart somehow stung painfully. Because when will be the right time for you? When you will be truly happy and honest with him. You will tell that his presence is picking up all the messed-up pieces.

“Okay, listen here girl,” a Sudden voice made your shoulders jump, and hands went to your chest as heart started pounding faster 'cause of fear “If you don't tell him today, I'll, and I don't give a shit about your no.”

Have I said nobody knows about your feelings? Well, there’s Jin. This type of best friend who took his nose everywhere he could and sometimes you really loved it about him. But it's only sometimes.

“That's not so easy Seokjin,” you mumbled, facing him with a hard expression painted on your face.

“Listen, I cannot stand your painful face anytime you fight with yourself being close to him. That hurt me as hell y/n. You're my best friend and I don't want to see you like this.” His hands landed on your shoulders to shake you stronger as if that would somehow change your thinking here and now ”Also believe me, I'd love to punch Jimin for today! How he could stop in such a moment! Girl, you know how JK looked at you! Why don't you see that he's into you too,” he huffed, splashing water on you with his leg but you groaned

“I'm not enough okay? That's it,” you murmured, dropping his hands to look at the horizon where small clouds floated slowly and carelessly across the blue sky.

“Yes, you are God damn! You're more than enough and you know it. C'mon, girl…” he punched your arm gently with a laugh but it wasn't funny for you. Not this time, when you don't know what to do anymore.

The silence fell between both of you with your eyes fixed on the swaying water and the rays reflecting within it. This sense of being pathetic and useless once again gripped your body. Is it going to be like that? The words will be never said and the emotions will hide inside until they tear you apart. You hated bottling feelings up, but what could you do? You didn't want to end this friendship. But how much you have to go through to be truly happy without a doubt.

“Sorry for the disturbance. We're going back to the hotel.” The different tones of Jungkook's voice made you confused as he came for a second to spit some words out of his mouth.

Is he really mad at you now?

Or just because you have to get back to our rooms?

Yet you didn't say anything, and as he disappeared you looked sadly at Jin with a sigh and quietly walked back to the hotel, wondering if you should end it all.

-*-

Your body slumped on the bed with your head poked under the pillow was supposed to bring some peace as one girl from the group of yours you shared a room with left, asking beforehand if you were also going. But you didn't even bother to ask where, you just threw a short negative burp so that she simply disappeared behind the door slamming it behind her. You were hoping for a moment, a longer moment of peace. Maybe hoping for your head to start working and helping you to start figuring out what to do about the whole Jungkook situation, which seemed to drag on endlessly

“Hey y/n, are you coming?” Jin's head peeked out of the door and greeted you with a gentle smile but you groaned, knowing that your peace was gone. But still, you ignored him at first, pressing the pillow against your head even harder

“Where and why?” you said as he started to poke you in the back, as your face was buried into the mattress. A muffled voice of yours could be barely heard by a boy. But he heard and poked your back stronger now, it was almost like irritating pinching.

“To see the sunset? C'mon, everyone is coming,” he said with a whiny voice, but you only groaned again, pressing your face deeper into the mattress.

“Have fun then” you mumbled and just for a second, you thought he was gone but the cold hands gripped onto your ankles and dragged you out of bed with a loud bang. “What the fuck Seokjin!”

You looked at him with a furious look as you lay on the ground and rubbed the sore spot from the falling down. After the situation on the beach, you in no way wanted to leave the room at least until the next day.

When you all returned to the hotel, after changing into fresh clothes and taking a moment to get wrapped up, most of the group decided that it would be an ideal idea to go out on the town. And yes, usually soaking up new cultures and exploring new places was one of your favorite activities on any tour, but this time Jungkook's heavy gaze on your back was…foreign, filling you with uncertainty.

And you really tried to speak up. But every attempt you made to start a conversation while walking next to him ended with him shrugging his shoulders or silently grunting. And you tried also to show him anything you found funny or interesting to be ignored again. As everyone laughed, trying on all sorts of ridiculous hats or headbands on their heads, or just in general - having fun - you stood at one side of the street booth with souvenirs and the boy at the other. Both with grave faces, as it was hard for you to smile when you knew Jeongguk was angry with you. You still didn't know why, but it brought such a heavy weight to your chest that it really felt like crying.

And when you finally returned to the room, single tears actually flew down your cheeks. Tears of anger mixed with confusion. Because, after all, you are both adults, so why can't you talk like ones?

“Jin, leave me alone. I don't want to,” you whined, wanting to get back on the mattress but his hands grabbed you right away as you stood up from the floor.

“And do you think I care? Nope! Get your ass up, we have a boyfriend to catch.”

“I hate you with my whole heart” you hissed and rubbed down the hurting leg.

“Mutually” he winked and pulled you out of the hotel room. This time, less aggressive.

The sky over the sea began to take on colors of pink and red. Small clouds floated, creating different shapes bewildering you every moment and making you realize how much you loved sunsets. Feeling a little squishy sand under your feet again could work a miracle for your running head. The smell was fresh, and even the fire smoke that was floating in the air couldn't change that. The salty fragrance still softly tickles your nostrils. It was almost like your dream heaven. Almost.

From a distance, you could see a bonfire burning on the beach, around which most of your friends were already sitting, but your gaze, as always, rested on only one of them. He seemed different, a bit dim, and his smile did not adorn his face as it usually did. This made you worry. But you could do nothing, even if you wanted to do something so much. Because inside you knew that it was all your fault.

When you came near the fireplace, Jin immediately pulled you hard and took you to sit next to Jungkook but it only made your stomach flip because of nervousness that he may simply leave. That he won't hold your hand anymore, and his warmth is not going to wrap you in comfort. But he didn't leave. His arm was touching yours, and his skin felt as warm as you imagined it to be. A faint scent of his cologne mixed with usual cotton soothed you a bit, but you still knew he was mad.

And you still wondered why.

Both of you barely spoke as the sun was still up. Other people were laughing, singing, and drinking. And maybe he was mad, and maybe he was mad at you…but he almost always knew when you were god damn anxious about something, and this time he also knew. As you were sitting down, observing, your leg was bouncing nervously for a while, and as your and the boy's leg was so close, he could feel even the slightest moves of it. His hand quickly found its way to your tight. And the gentle touches of Jungkook's fingers on your exposed leg, make pleasant goosebumps. How he almost unnoticeably traces lines on your skin. Cool down the nervousness, and tossing fires inside you. With one touch he says that he is right next to you. For you.

Oh, how you loved him.

And as the sun was gone, instead appeared his good friend - the moon, which was now reflected in the surface of the calm sea. Moonlight was amazing, always making you marvel at it while holding a breath. Shining on the water makes you plunge into melancholy. The view was breathtaking, forcing you to get up from the sand and come closer to the sea. Away from the lights, away from other people. Just you, and the moon reflecting in the sea. And you knew that Jungkook would follow you.

“In Turkey, they call it Gumusservi, and it has no translation in English. In English, it's just moonlight shining on the water…but Gumusservi hits differently, don't you think?” Bright light fell on Jungkook's face, highlighting all his details. You could admire it for a minute. His outlined jaw and perfectly shaped lips didn't allow you to take your eyes off him. The small tip of his nose, on which the bright light coming from the moon was reflected, looked like the perfect place where your lips would want to be now. So that you could see it wrinkle gently right away when he got shy.

But it didn't happen as his face turned in your direction as he felt your stare. Now the only thing you saw was his shimmering eyes. He was shining.

“It sounds beautiful. Magically.” you couldn't stop yourself this time from looking into his eyes as he sat down next to you on the sand. His hand again brushed your skin and a smile danced on your lips on its own “I'm sorry” you gasped out, taking your eyes from him.

“Huh? For what” he glanced with confusion so you left a deep sigh

“I actually don't know…I mean, you're mad and I don't…” confusion took over you as he held your hand to leave a small peck on it

“I'm not mad. I can't be mad at you, more like myself. I should be the one saying sorry, for ignoring you and being a dumb ass…” he laughed miserably and looked at the ocean.

“Koo I…shit, I need to tell you something.” you felt lost in words but you knew it was your moment. The moment when everything ends or begins. “So yeah, um…”

“Hey, calm down. Your breathing became swallowed” he was much closer than before as his arm gently wrapped around your waist and guided you to put your head on his shoulder as he brushed circles on your hip

“Let me tell you first, please” his arm was still on your waist but you looked him in the eye as he nodded for you to speak “I'm sorry anyway”

“Y/N…” “I'm sorry that I was unable to show what I really feel. Unable to express how, how much I care about you and not just as a friend. Little do you know how deeply I want to be enough for you.” you felt his fingers press harder on your skin.

“ Huh, enough for me?” Now you couldn't look at him, it was hard for you to breathe ”Look at me, dear. You’re more than I ever wanted in my life.” your eyes widened, as his fingers brushed your jaw to make you look at him.

“Koo…”

“Y/N, you're the only person who really accepts all sides of my personality, and with whom I feel safe and loved. Your presence always made my heart beat faster. And shit, I tried to ignore it. Because I thought it’s not what you want. That you prefer someone who's smarter, calmer, and more like you. I mean, we`re completely opposite but still, I fell.”

“I-I didn’t know you like me… I just thought you liked me as a friend. Nothing more. Just look at me, I'm no one besides you but still, I dreamed about us,” you laughed to yourself “Hoping that the connection between us will be even stronger than it is. And I'm sorry, I'm sorry if I made you feel somehow worse. I’ve never wanted to make the person I love hurt in any way. I’m in love with you so fucking deeply and I'm terrified of this. Because I don’t know…ugh, how…to express what It feels when you’re next to me. How warm it feels to hold your hand or just be near you.”

“I don’t want your apologies, the only thing I want right now is to hold you. Are you okay with that?”

“More than okay” he smiled, and his soft lips pecked your forehead making your heart dance happily inside

"Okay guys, what the fuck with you" your eyes widened hearing Jimin’s voice behind your back but it was a second as a rushing Jin raced towards the blond boy to knock him over onto the sand, roll him a bit, and rub his face trying to shut him up.

"I said I will beat your ass and I will," Jin said, tugging on the already slightly tipsy Jimin to lead him away from the two of you.

You and Jungkook exchanged surprised glances, only to burst out laughing in a moment while still staying in each other's embrace.

The next moment between the two of you was silent. But it was this silence you adored so much. When he was giving you small signs that he's right next to you and will follow as long as he can.

He was so whipped for you since day one, and he often got mad when you refused his affection right in front of friends. Because he wanted to show that he is yours and he wishes you to be his as well. But he understood you, knew that you're not so much of a touchy person…especially in front of people. But when both of you spend time alone you never push his hand, always brushing softly his fingers with yours…making him go crazy.

He was crazy over you.

"I can't believe it's happening" your head snapped at his sudden voice, so you could another time adore his face from so close.

"What you mean Koo?

"You, like damn…You’re perfect to me in any way and don’t you even dare think differently." you laughed as he whined trying to hide in the crook of your neck "You’re the love of my life y/n and nobody can change it" He added.

You sighed brushing hair falling on his face, same as him still couldn't believe it was really happening. That you really can hold him so close, that his hand embraces you so safely, and that he really loves you back.

"I'm so glad," you said, making him lift his chin with a hum and look at your face, brushing your jaw softly with his nose "That you chose me" he chuckled, as if he couldn't believe you just said that

"How could I not? We’ll walk this path together Y/n, learning how to love each other even more. Because you’re my light, without which I wouldn’t be able to see the right direction." You smiled, feeling how your heart filled with warmth another time. Like almost every time with him.

And when the moon was shining so bright, changing water into enchanting silver, your dreamy eyes were watching him. Your private source of light and happiness you have been longing for so long.

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