#trying to survive

[a-menina-luz]

#please help #emergency #urgent #donations #please donate #help #please #family problems #ill health #old age #retirement #trying to get by #trying to survive #gofundme

[celtic-crossbow]

Mental health stuff below

My mental health is taking a beating today. It’s one of those “I have no idea what’s wrong but everything is wrong” days. I only want to sleep and cry to avoid the black hole that is slowly sucking away any semblance of desire to keep moving on.

These days are the worst because I don’t know what to do to feel even a little better and I wouldn’t be able to summon the energy to do it anyway.

So I will likely not be posting anything new— incorrect quotes or otherwise. I have tried to reply to comments but if I miss yours, I’m really sorry and please don’t think it means that it wasn’t appreciated.

Take care. I’ll try to as well.

💙Murda

#murda thoughts #bad mental health day #personal shit #trying to survive #i still love you all #please be patient with me

[ptsdeaddx]

I’m gonna be 25 soon and that’s wild to me because I tried to 🪓🪓 myself so many times from 12-18 I never planned on making it this far..

Now I just wondering the adult world in a trance

#personal vent #random thoughts #i am not mentally well #mental illness #mental health awareness #needed to share #sharing my thoughts #doing my best #trying to survive #life is strange #what am i doing #how to adult #what the fuck

[a-love-more-less]

#help #please help #emergency #old age #ill health #family problems #please #retirement #urgent #donations #please donate #gofundme #trying to survive #trying to get by

[almondteeth]

I’m posting so much just to go ghost again in a few days 😭🫶🏼

#girly stuff #2014 revival #2014 tumblr #girl blogger #hozier #modeling #tumblr girls #early 2000s #girls girls girls #girl blogging #this is what makes us girls #i’m just a girl #trying to survive #self love #me and my girls

[lewmagoo]

i have had an incredibly draining day 😪

#my boss made me cry #and then a trip i’ve been planning for over a year fell through #and i’m trying to get my name out on the title of my car so i own it for once and for all #but that’s been a nightmare in and of itself #and then my grandma’s health is just deteriorating so badly #and we don’t want to put her in a nursing home #and at this moment we can’t bc she’ll lose everything #they’ll take her house and her property and everything #bc american healthcare is a joke #plus she’d end up going to a place where they’d neglect her bc nursing homes are shit #so that means either me or my mom will have to live with her full time #which isn’t for another several months #anyway i’m just venting #and stressed #trying to survive

[sleuthy-scientist]

This phone edit is celebrating one of my most favourite friendships on the Criminal Minds. Emily and JJ are one of the best examples of a healthy and loyal friendship depicted on t.v.. They truly show how supportive and caring women should be towards one another.

How good friends should build each other up, have each other backs, and show up for each other when it matters. It shouldn't be filled with dramatic fights, toxic betrayals, and destroying one another.

I based it off of their conversation on the jet to Paris, when JJ travels with Emily while she's still recovering. The two discuss Doyle, and how Emily should get a tattoo to commemorate surviving her trauma with Doyle. JJ throws out the idea of a Phonenix to represent transformation, and Emily is more receptive to the idea of a Blackbird.

They then go on to discuss JJ's work as DOD Liaison at the Pentagon. Emily immediately sussed out she knows a bullshit cover story when she hears one. And JJ gives Emily an abridged version of the truth of her role in the task force in Afghanistan. Which later leads to her kidnapping and own transformative survival story, which Emily helps save her from.

Anyway it probably needs a little more tweaking before it's perfect, but I figured I'd once again share this with people who would actually enjoy it and understand the meaning of the symbolism behind it.

#criminal minds #emily prentiss #empathy #jj #jennifer jareau #transformation #friendship #trauma #tattooinspiration #trying to survive

[exhaustedwerewolf]

slowly catching up with hfthw and I already know this is going to live rent free in my head ://

#something something spending my childhood closeted and severely mentally ill and finally being out and actually capable of feeling #happiness only for my body to turn against me and to feel lost trying to navigate life as an adult when I spent every year before it just #trying to survive #wwolf.txt #hello from the hallowoods #hfthw #hfth

[pr3ttym3ssy]

WIP

Hey Guys!

Just wanted to drop a little snippet of what I'm working on. I'm alitle rusty cause I haven't touched my Word Doc in a little over two years (since covid hit and shit hit the fans), let alone gotten completely over my relentless and bitchy writer's block. Please be gentle.

Also, just want to say that I'm glad it's canon that you can hear people in the upside down. Just sucks they can't hear you. For sake of my headcanon, I made it so time stopped the year Billy came to Hawkins and not when Will got possessed like in the show.

......

Billy is battered and bruised and at his wits end. He’s never really fully practiced his religion, but prayer has been his only saving grace lately. It’s what’s been keeping him going, keeping him sane. If this damned place exists, who’s he to say that there isn’t a greater power out there. He’s survived this long, by some God given miracle. He kisses his medallion and goes about his continuous routine. He has no sense of time here, so he does what is best and listens to his body for cues to tell time. When he’s hungry he’ll search for edible food to eat, although its scarce; he’s had some luck. When he’s tired, he’ll hunker down and rest in a somewhat safe place. Although at times feels like a difficult task, with this place trying to kill him at every second he’s not on guard. Regardless of the circumstances, he’s managed.

On occasion he will go to his house on Old Cherry and just sit idle in his living room. He doesn’t recall when he first hears it, but he’s sitting in this place’s replica of his room. He’s looking through his records and reading his worn out and grimy copy of Metal Edge magazine. He knows the words to every article, had reread them several times for lack of better things to do here. Survive the damn bats, hunt for edible food, read the magazines like a routine. It’s all old news, things he already knows about his favorite bands, but he can’t wish for something else to take up his time. The mere thought of him actually wishing for something he can’t have would set him into an existential crisis. It would remind him that no matter what he does, his situation will not change. He’s stuck in this backwards version of Hawkins, as a constant reminder of how much he hates this place. When he hears the whimpering and soft gasps of someone crying. “Billy, please help me”, he almost believes he's probably lost it. Sanity completely slipped and he’s hearing shit now.

It’s Max - and she’s crying, and he can hear her. “Max!?” Where is she? She’s in the room, he hears the echoes of her voice and her soft gasping breaths. But he can’t see her. “Billy. I miss you so much. Everything is wrong, nothing is the same anymore since you’ve left”. But he hasn’t left, not really. He wants so much to tell her that, disparity singing in his veins like an itch. “Max! Max, please I’m here. Jesus! Max, I can hear you. Can you hear me?!”. Her crying doesn’t seize, and his nerves are shot into a frenzy. He runs his fingers through his matted curls. Lost on what to do, how to reach her. 

“Hah – I’d bet anything that you’d probably tell me to stop my crying if you were here.” No, Billy thinks. Given the chance he would never tell her that again. He would come up to her and embrace her tightly. He would let her tears run and be soaked in him because he misses her. He would then give her shit about it, but he wouldn’t mean it. “Max! Please, please tell me you can hear me. Tell me what to do!.” He figures this isn’t a fever dream anymore. It’s really her. It’s Max and she’s on the other side. He has to figure a way to get to her. Get her to acknowledge him, even if he’s not physically there in front of her.

It's quiet for a minute and he figures that she must have left already. “Max! Maxine!? – shit!” he frantically rubs his hands against his face. Her soft cries have stopped, and who knows when and if she’ll be back. He hears a knocking sound and the common screech of his bedroom door he told himself time after time needed some oiling. He hears another voice, someone else is in the room with Max now. Clear and softly calling for her. “Max? Hey kid. You alright?”. Holy shit, it’s Steve. He’d know that voice anywhere. The very same voice that haunts his daydreams since he first heard him utter a word in his direction. That’s definitely Steve’s soft baritone probably pulling Max from her downward spiral.

....

I hope you like it, I'm determined to continue this to its completion. I'm a mom so sometimes it's hard to find the time, but I will finish. My hyper fixation has my brain on Harringrove rot 24/7.

#pr3ttym3ssy writes #harringrove #max mayfield #steve harrington #billy is alive #trying to survive #billy hargrove #steve x billy

[livingd34dgrl]

abigail hobbs brain rot sorry, but i’m like tormented by the tragedy of her existence, i think about her all the time, my silly lil gal, we should’ve gotten more of her character, ESPECIALLY the time gap where she was hidden away-like what they did in s3 showing how they faked her murder-how do they keep the show going without answering me on my questions? how close did she attempt to get to hannibal to stay alive? did she know they were planning to run away? did she get comforted with the thought of a new life, far from her old one? do you think the reason she was able to sleep in that stupid house was because of the comfort that maybe-just maybe, she could live a life? she was far from being will or hannibal, she wouldn’t have survived even if will left with them, her death was at every twist and corner-and i think the worst part is she knew-god she knew and walked right into the role she was supposed to play when death came knocking-how do i recover from that? how do i recover seeing her grasping for any end that doesn’t involve her dying, shaking and gasping for air on a kitchen floor???

#she’s the most important thing ever to me #JUST-HER TRAGEDY IS THE MOST MOVING FOR ME #AT LEAST WILL WAS AXTUALLY JUST A MURDERER #SHE WAS JUST A SCARED GIRL #TRYING TO SURVIVE #SHE DIDNT ASK FOR THIS #AND EVEN WHEN SHE THINKS SHE FINDS COMFORT ITS ALL JUST A BIG L I E #i’d drag hannibal back up that cliff on every rock just to kick him right back down again #i love him but i would not hesitate to break every bone in his body because of this #abigail deserved a life omfg #sobbing again #hannibal #long long rants

[iminlovewithpercyjackson]

straight faced and i do what i can, yeah i keep it on lock, but on the inside, i’m in a riptide, trying to keep my head up

#colony house #trying to survive #becca's music tag

[thedragonoftthewest]

Hey, I'm new to Tumblr and I don't want to die on my first day lmao

#trying to survive

[bottom-slut-unionizer]

*pours out some whiskey*

For the gay cowboys.

#literally gonna cry thinking about it #like these men #loved each other #so much #just the thought of a couple of dudes #trying to survive #out in the sun #in the wild west #and through all the pain #the loss #the bloodshed #the heat #the grossness #and the grueling challenges of life #through ALL of that #they still had each other #they still LOVED each other #and that love is so beautiful #just knowing that there were men who loved one another so deeply warms my heart #maybe just maybe #their love was so strong #the wild west didnt seem as wild when they were by each others side

[mendesxruel]

been a while since ive shared a breakdown on here lskakajsk

#trying to survive

[tina-dark-coffee]

April 11 2024

Hello.🖤

I don’t know what Tumblr will be for me, but I needed something different. I’ve been going through the toughest depression and I feel all alone. So I felt that if I write ✍️ and share my favorite things here, it might help me a little.

Something else that helps me relax 😌..is Nature 🌿

#sorry for being depressing #nature #trying to survive

[sleepless-in-starbucks]

guy who's stuck in a timeloop for so long he stops wanting to leave it. guy who started out trying to escape but slowly grew used to and became comforted by the familiarity of the repeating day. guy who is no longer who he was before the timeloop. guy who is offered a way out and violently refuses it because he can't leave, doesn't want to leave. guy who escapes the timeloop by chance or force or accident and doesn't know how to live anymore. guy who keeps going through motions that don't match the situation and keeps having conversations that aren't actually occurring. guy who panics every time he realizes he can't predict the next instant. guy who left the timeloop but still lives with it.

#the cryptid speaks #time loop #ik there's been talk of the trope '[x] never left the timeloop' but what about [x] who never Wanted to leave the timeloop #like astronauts who come back to earth and keep trying to let go of things midair #former timelooper who is still expecting to know your next sentence; to predict the next major event; to survive everything