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snoozu · 1 year
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something special, and beautiful
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indigodawns · 1 month
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#these are just some thoughts re: friendship as a result of tonight that i need to jot down somewhere but#realising that i really do have a strict and set idea of Good Friend(ship) and what that entails to me#and id written people off bc i wasn't yk ~receiving love or friendship the way id prefer and i was angry with them for that/hurt about it#did i communicate that to them though? nooo. was i fully right in that? also no. like just bc i felt unheard didn't fully mean#that they were doing something wrong. they were trying in their own way (and sometimes they weren't really or it just wasn't nice)#but that's about how we match and how we communicate right? this is so silly that's so basic but it never fully clicked for me like this#i was blaming them for stuff and building up resentment without ever expressing that (and i still haven't yk dhshsjd)#and i think where i went ~wrong was in thinking that bc i felt that way they weren't ~giving me what i need#when it's like... but did i pick up on the ways in which they DID appreciate me and show me love etc? did i give them ANYTHING to work with?#(ok yes occasionally but also... tangent but i was watching a variety show and they were teasing woozi about how#he gives interviewers/hosts literally nothing to work with. like no extra information for them to ask about or tease him for or anything#and i was like ohhhhhh. yeah i do do that sometimes with friends and it's genuinely smth i don't really know how to do like#giving casual information (but not too much and not too little???) so they can then ask questions etc. so then if im like ughh#they never ask (the right) questions or show interest (or let me talk but that's a different thing dhsjdjd) it's like...#well do i give them the chance to? much to think about thank you woozi)#anyways where was i dhsjsnsnsjns idk but it's soooo annoying that i haven't figured this all out yet#but im slowly letting go off a bunch of resentment that has truly no business being here and im trying to self reflect and all that#and im honestly doing so shit some days but others days it's? finding stuff that matters to me on a deeper level ig?#and all of it really does pale in the face of multiple genocides and it's. but yk. if i want to keep fighting#i need to build a strong foundation and sort my shit out as well and be present so im really really trying#and beating my stupid stupid depression and brain with a stick until i get there
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hylianane · 7 months
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i really dont like using my blog to vent or complain cause idk thats not what social media is about to me its just a space to be silly about the things i like. that being said. im just gonna do a mini vent in the tags abt smth that isnt even half as serious as im making it sound
#Listen. i found live action Zoro jarringly serious and edgy at times. Very juvenile. But its very telling to me that the ppl complaining-#-the loudest abt his characterization and scenes with luffy are the same zosan shippers constantly putting him down in their works#genuinely every other fic is filled to the brim with characters constantly talking down to him like a toddler and mocking him#and even telling Sanji shit like omg youre so brave for being in love with him it must be so difficult#and suddenly as a reader Im not rooting for the relationship im rooting for Zoro to get better friends#so like are you guys SURE opla zoro is this edgy oc or does it seem that way bc you flanderize him just as much in the opposite direction#taking his goofy scenes and exaggerating them to make him seem barely functional#when in the anime he IS competent and people trust him and find him very cool when he drops badass lines all of the sudden#sometimes he even actively tries to be cool and edgy. its not rare or unheard of. we were all there when he started posing in the wax#its the execution of these traits in the LA that seem juvenile and jarring and OOC but lets not pretend like the guy youd find-#-on ao3 is better written or accurate to animanga zoro at all. the criticism itself is valid but from some zosan guys it sounds silly#youll notice casual or non shipper fans tend to rlly like LA Zoro and thats because fanon can truly TRULY be a disease#i’ve had this opinion of fanon zoro for a while but just seeing him pitted against opla zoro really brought back my unhappiness with him#if i had to pick between the two of them…
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shatterthefragments · 11 days
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With the shittiest filleting I’ve ever done I made salmon with asparagus and hollandaise (I’m going to wait until dad’s not sick and has more of an appetite again before making lemon caper sauce salmon) and it’s really good :) (even though I left the salmon in the oven for longer bc I was still needing to whisk the hollandaise)
I got the brown free range eggs (still on sale thankfully) specifically to make hollandaise with 😌
Now to. Devour the flesh that remains on the bones (mum will Eviscerate the poor fish to make sure there are no bones so this part’s for me!) (the plate shown is mum’s bc she’s still on the phone and I’m nearly finished my plate portion)
Ah yes and now that I have a bunch of egg whites (and some uh. Mixed egg oops. I’ll probably try to make meringues or marshmallows or something?)
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br1ghtestlight · 10 months
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no matter how popular they are or how many views they get object shows will ALWAYS be underrated bcuz of the crazy amount of work put into every single episode, like there is no amount of attention object shows (as a genre of entertainment or specific shows) could get to justify the amount they put into the world vs their returns ESPECIALLY bfdi which is both crazy popular and yet somehow underappreciated and unawknowledged
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t-he-art-of-beauty · 2 years
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Gates threatening to take his dreams away and let him live, out of love, but it’s the most inconceivable, cruel thing to Flint, who would rather die in firey battle, and Flint kills Gates for it. “I didn’t want this, I didn’t want this.” I wanted love, again, and someone to believe in the raging inferno that drives me, again, but you put yourself in between me and his memory instead.
(somehow living people are rarely as powerful motivators as dead ones. they might be enablers, but rarely reasons. they can argue for themselves. they can exist as grey areas, the entire complexity of life is still moving in their faces. when a person doesn’t have their own agenda anymore their grave becomes fertile soil for any ambition we want to carry into battle. they become the black to the white or the white to the black and they can’t even object, can’t check in, can’t ground you into realizing what you are doing.)
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for him. for his memory. he would have wanted it. funny how Gates’ death must become another mark on the wall of sunk cost fallacy. just like every death flint carries on his shoulders. It all has to have been worth for something. They needed to die for something. I killed someone for something.
for something.
for someone.
for someone
for another one
and then there’s Silver. “Take it from me. There is always a way.” And Flint, still grieving for the man he hoped would share his dreams in a way similar to Thomas, sees light. Sees another one. Another enabler. Stupidly hopes Silver can take that place. Little does he know Silver will eventually end the chain. Little does he know Silver will turn the
someone
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all of them
All this will be for nothing. We will have been for nothing.
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(All of them will be for nothing. I will have done this to them for nothing. I will suffer all this guilt for nothing.)
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[image descriptions
image 1: screenshot from season 1, episode 8. close-up: flint holding gates head after he killed him. only his eyes are visible, looking to the side in sorrow, regret, confusion.
image 2: screenshot of text in a screenplay font: to exalt her memory with battles. and victories.
image 3: flint in season 4, episode 10, a closeup on flint, bald head, read beard, blood in his face, a pleading face full of conflicted emotions and desperation staring right into the camera]
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gg-collective · 5 months
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I don't particularly mean this in a "comparing my experiences to headmates'" way, but I have noticed how odd I feel next to our other introjects. The grand majority, if not all, of them are from hyperfixations/special interests-- things which we collectively have a lot of knowledge on. While I am from a series that we read the first book of, skimmed the second, and don't have any access to the third. I don't even particularly consider myself a fictive, despite that being, in all technicality, what I am. To top it off, I am not sure that my source would even be considered "popular" media-- at least, not with systems, as far as I have noticed. It is all a bit confusing, especially as someone who misses people I hardly remember. To feel connected to a life (or, lives), source trauma, and people I only have vague memories of is so... odd-feeling
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amandabe11man · 2 years
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good evening, it’s once again “being mad that son goku spared vegeta but not raditz”-hours
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thedarkestgreys · 2 years
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y’alls enthusiasm for my writing is unmatched by any fandom I’ve written for prior to Fexi and I really fucking appreciate all of you for it 🥰🥰🥺🥺
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nightskied · 1 year
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sat here thinking about that episode of sp.n with the genie where dean realizes it's a delusion and nothing is real and tears himself away from all of it because it's not real, and how nell wasn't able to see past the predatory mechanism of the house and fell prey to it so fully that, when she realized, it was too late
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gemstarstarlight · 2 years
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So…an insane thing happened to me???
I had dinner with my parents. And it was actually wonderful???
I was bracing myself for an impact of conservativism and criticism. Or, at best, meaningless shallow conversation about safe topics while I flinched quietly at all the random critiques of society. But it wasn’t like that at all.
When I mentioned that they were being too negative (!!!!), they respected my boundary and asked me questions about it. Open questions, not driving questions to promote an ideology. Genuine questions and genuine attempts to understand.
It ended up with my parents finally understanding my stance on ADHD (it’s a chemical imbalance, not a moral failing), and most importantly, my dad understood it.
I’ve spoken about my struggles with ADHD before, but my parents have always worried about it being a label to use as a crutch, or to be boxed into a group. But that’s not it at all, and finally, my dad (who has worse ADHD than I do) got it.
Most importantly, he recognized that he did have it, and was actually interested in how I talked about it and how healing it was to figure out I had it.
We talked. We laughed. We cried a little.
And I went from
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skinnysparkledog · 7 months
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it's amazing what a change in hairstyle will do to a man (i asked my mother to give me bangs... i look kinda cute for once <3)
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sar-soor · 8 months
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remember when i started reading pjo fic and swore to myself i would never attempt to write it look at us now
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mythvoiced · 9 months
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-. i'm losing my MIND this is so fking funny IT'S REALLY NOT it shouldn't be this funny, but i don't usually watch wim.bledon and i really wanted to this year because i got curious about how al.ex.ander z.ve.rev plays, right, wanted to see him live, MY GUY IS JUST NOT GETTING TO PLAY
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sp11bound · 1 year
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this is a little reminder that you’re loved and appreciated, you mean so much to so many people who adore you and admire you 💕
i know that i am very late to posting this, and i hope you will forgive me, but this meant so much to me when i first saw it, and it means just as much now. 🥹 thank you for taking the time to say something so kind, it mAKES MY HEART MELT AWAY
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goldlightsaber · 1 year
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I had a dream Noah Centineo was my full-on boyfriend….there was a cute flirting stage where neither of us were certain of the others’ feelings….waking up was pain.
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