#trolleybuses are driving with position lights off

[teddybasmanov]

I guess @morgansplace (who's a demonic tempter for that) tagged me in the musical ships thing, which means it's time to explain like half my Gavin/Freelancer playlist (and try to remember other couples exist...) Tagging @cottagecorexboy @teasandcardigans @lostinanothersmemories no pressure, of course.

Gavin/Freelancer:

"New People" by Splean - one of my main Gavin/Freelancer songs, because it's about sex (explicitly straight sex, but we'll ignore it), life, death and seeming immortality. "The trolleybuses are driving with position lights off / People are making new people at nights"

"Wet Gleam of Our Eyes" by Alexander Bashlachev (or a badly recorded version by "Night Snipers" that I like so much more) - another one about sex, but this time more about love that's definitely somewhere there and not being used to it but learning together. "I probably love you, / But I'll stay silent about it, / And I'll just tell you that / I want you." (Wrote a whole fic for it.)

"ringtone" by Night Snipers - sweet domesticity, that no one expected, and letting go and letting yourself have it. "It’s about warmth and skin molecules / Of two, agree - you won’t regret it / Make my voice the ringtone of dawn / I know your smell, I remember how it is / Hair, tenderness, pillows and moans / Make my voice the ringtone of morning." - you know, something that stated the first time he stayed the night?

"Tsoi" by Night Snipers - right before the cost song for them explained here. "When silence is no longer gold but dynamite / And my heart is like a bomb in my chest, and not just hurts, / And tears in the morning, and treacherously a hundred times a day, / I will burn out fast."

"What More Can I Say?" from "Falsettos" - right after the confession song for which I also wrote a whole fic. "If I said I love him, / You might think my words come cheap. / Let's just say / I'm glad he's mine awake, / Asleep."

"My Heart" by Splean - a fun song about an accidental meeting that brings together two people who fit together so well and love each other not despite but because they're simple and flawed. Partly incorporated in this fic. "And for exactly a thousand years we wake up together / Even if we fell asleep in different places / We start making coffee to Elvis Presley / Coffee boiled over to “Propellerheads”, ah!"

"Being Alive" from "Company" - a song that so perfectly encapsulates the first season of Gavin/Freelancer - literally everything there fits. Of course, already in a fic. "Someone to crowd you with love / Someone to force you to care / Someone to make you come through / Who'll always be there / As frightened as you / Of being alive"

"Looking for You" from "31st of June" - their iconic (in my head) Imperium soulmates song about finding each other through anything and everything. "We wait for love all the time, like a miracle / We are waiting for one, the only one, like a miracle, / Although it should, it should burn without a trace. / Tell me how could we find out / Find out when we met, / That you are mine and I am yours love and destiny?"

"My Love" by Splean - their iconic cottagecore!witch!AU (that might not be that much of an AU at this point) song about loving a witch and learning magic. "Only pines and amber resin know / How bodies entwine in tall grasses. / My love, / You are my Love. / Ask a flute of dry reeds, / What a muddy river hides at its bottom, / My love."

"Wait for Me and I'll Return" by Leonid Utesov - their Inversion song explained here. "Wait for me and I will come back, / Out of spite for all deaths. / Those who did not wait for me, let them / Say: “Lucky”. / Do not understand those who did not wait for me, / How in the middle of fire / With your waiting / You saved me / How I survived, will know / Only you and I - / You just knew how to wait / Like no one else."

(That's not all of them, of course, but these are the main ones, I suppose.)

Lasko/Freelancer:

"Here's to the Losers" by Frank Sinatra - I guess it's kind of self-explanatory - they're too unfortunate people who find happiness in each other. "Here's to those who love not too wisely, know not wisely, but too well / To the girl who sighs with envy when she hears that wedding bell / To the guy who'd throw a party if he knew someone to call / Here's to the losers, bless them all"

"A Song about a Boy in Love" from "Carnival Night" - this is just a sweet little thing about a guy who's too shy and stuttery to confess but he still manages to. "I don't know how to start / All in all... Meaning... So to say / No, this isn't working again."

Avior/Starlight:

“Wings” by Nautilus Pompilius - metaphorically about hiding visible trauma and literally about Avior's fall. Explained here. "I see you are afraid of open windows / and upper floors. / And if a fire starts tomorrow / and the whole building will be in flames, / We will die without these wings / which I liked."

"I Want to Be with You" by Nautilus Pompilius - about torturously painful separation and doing anything to be with the other. Explained here. "Your name has changed long ago / Eyes have lost their colour forever / The drunk doctor told me - you are no more / The firefighter gave me a certificate that your house burned down"

"He was Older than Her" by Time Machine - a song about trying to prevent inevitable tragedy with flying themes. Explained here. "He suffered when it was dark outside the window, / He did not sleep, he locked the window at night. / He sobbed, drank bitter tea in the kitchen / At the hour when she flew at night. / And then, in the morning, she swore, / That yesterday was the last time. / He forgave, but at night it’s dark outside the window, / And she flew away anyway."

"Breath" by Nautilus Pompilius - another song about trying to prevent inevitable tragedy and save the other by sacrificing yourself even if for just a few moments. "I’m trying to forget how to breathe / So that I can give you at least for a minute / That gas that we did not know how to appreciate / But you sleep and you don’t know"

Regulus/Charge:

"Where are You?" by Pilot - a song of loneliness and desperation of both of them before finally coming together. About the charge crying themselves to sleep and being alone even when surrounded by people. About Regulus hiding from the cruel world. "Where are you when I can’t get warm / In a cold bed with black and white dreams? / Where are you when I walk alone / In crowded apartments, walk-through yards?"

#redacted asmr #redacted audio #song takes #? #somewhat #this is something #oops #nothing new though #odd collection of couples I know

[teddybasmanov]

Come sink into me and let me breathe you in I'll be your gravity, you be my oxygen

“Follow You“ by “Bring Me the Horizon“

#quotes #song lyrics #love quotes #bring me the horizon #the song in full doesn't really work #I'm not that obsessed #I do think of them a lot obviously #but I'm trying not to show it #well #the self insert character sure doesn't #but this part feels pretty right #the feeling of being together #of needing each other #I know I'm sappy #this song as is also isn't theirs #it was from a bunch of songs #which were either zuko's or loki's #depending on my mood #trolleybuses are driving with position lights off

[teddybasmanov]

If I say I love him You might think my words come cheap Let's just say, I'm glad he's mine Awake, asleep

“What More Can I Say?“ from “Falsettos“

#quote #love quote #song lyrics #falsettos #what more can i say #I have a feeling this song will be the other one I'll be slowly posting piece by piece #because it just FEELS #that's also how things are #without any daydreaming #but again - still the end of february #it's so funny how I say no daydreaming #as if any of this is real #I mean #for my silly monkey brain it is #I always thought how awkward it is #to be afraid to tell the person you are already in some kind of non platonic relationship #that you love them because you are afraid it will scare them away #but now I think I understand #trolleybuses are driving with position lights off

[teddybasmanov]

Something in your eyes Was so inviting Something in your smile Was so exciting Something in my heart told me I must have you

"Strangers in The Night" by Frank Sinatra

#quote #song lyrics #love quote #frank sinatra #who's being sappy as hell? #that's right I am #fun fact #I think I've never actually heard this song before #and it's so nice #and it's literally strangers to lovers #and it just feels so right #from both sides #I don't even know who of the two it fits better #also it feels like a very danceable song #and hell do I want to dance with them #a warm embracing dance #trolleybuses are driving with position lights off

[teddybasmanov]

I was taught Never brag or shout Still it's hot Just like how you read about And also caring And never too uncouth

"What More Can I Say" from "Falsettos"

#quote #song lyrics #love quote #falsettos #what more can i say #this song also seems to be over #I've posted almost everything #never too uncouth #seemed like such improbable thing in the beginning #and like such a natural one now #also caring #caring caring caring #goodness I can't #trolleybuses are driving with position lights off

[teddybasmanov]

I remember tears streaming down your face when I said I'll never let you go When all those shadows almost killed your light I remember you said don't leave me here alone But all that's dead and gone and passed tonight

"Safe & Sound" by Taylor Swift

#quotes #love quote #song lyrics #safe and sound #okay #in my defence I've just now found out that it's taylor swift #I've only heard a cover #in an absolutely wonderful drarry amv #me pretending to have a musical taste aside #this just literally happened #like literally almost word for word #from their pov #the piece of media before last one #was this #also when they say #i'm not going anywhere #I start crying like on cue #trolleybuses are driving with position lights off

[teddybasmanov]

At the touch of your hand- At the sound of your voice- At the moment your eyes meet mine I am out of my mind- I am out of control- Full of feelings I can't define!

“Dangerous Game“ from “Jekyll and Hyde“

#quote #song lyrics #jekyll and hyde #jekyll and hyde musical #dangerous game #love quote #don't worry #nothing else from that song makes sense #in connection to them #they are a wonderful person #maybe not at the first sight #but they'd never hurt me #(oh my god I white those words and punch all my trust issues in the back of my head) #but this part does make a lot of sense #I probably can define those feelings #but I don't want to #because it feels like if I do it's something serious #and if it's something serious there's something had to be done #or something is wrong #trolleybuses are driving with position lights off

[teddybasmanov]

Somebody need me too much Somebody know me too well Somebody pull me up short And put me through hell And give me support For being alive

"Bein Alive" from "Company"

#quote #song lyrics #love quote #being alive #company #okay #at about one a.m. #a few days ago #I said screw this #I'm going to write a songfic for this song #because I just can't #and you can't stop me #and gods those three months were hell #the best hell imaginable #but still #trolleybuses are driving with position lights off

[teddybasmanov]

Can you tell I have been revised? It's so swell Damn it, even I'm surprised We laugh, we fumble We take it day by day What more can I say?

“What More Can I Sat“ from “Falsettos“

#quotes #song lyrics #love quote #falsettos #what more can i say #oh my goodness #the bad thing happened #on 27 march #and it wasn't that bad at all #they are alive #everyone is alive #and mostly well #and they are still with the self-insert character #and the ending was so sweet #and they were so protective #and caring #I don't remember being that happy #in a very long time #trolleybuses are driving with position lights off

[teddybasmanov]

Put your lips next to mine, dear Won't you kiss me once, baby? Just a kiss goodnight, maybe You and I will fall in love

"Put Your Head on My Shoulder" by Paul Anka

#quote #song lyrics #love quote #paul anka #so we got my father a smartphone for his birthday #and he got deezer there #and now there's a slightly different playlist of old songs #this is one of them #and #it's just so sweet #and i don't know #playful #trolleybuses are driving with position lights off

[teddybasmanov]

You're like a song that I ain't ready to stop I got nothing but you on my mind

“Grace“ by Lewis Capaldi

#quote #song lyrics #love quote #grace #lewis capaldi #this a little bit of cheating #because this song is technically #in my head about my high school programming teacher #no nothing happened #I just had a huge crush on him my senior year #but this quote works so well with the previous one #and in general with me constantly posting song lyrics #and associating everything with them #trolleybuses are driving with position lights off

[teddybasmanov]

Tamed, what are you waiting for? Do you want me to be domesticated To be wrong in everything How much can this continue?

“A Night Without“ by “Night Snipers“

#quotes #song lyrics #love quote #so apprently night snieprs had a new album in #like july and i completely missed it #well here we go I guess #this is one of my favourite types of songs #the one in which almost not a single line makes any kind of proper sense #but just feels #also if you thing it's something like a night wtihout you #you are wrong #it's a night without a declaration of war #also this part works partly because I'm still waiting for some kind of catch #as if this absolutely great person cannot be with me just because #oh gosh please tell i'm not that guy #who's so self-conscious that he thinks that if someone is with him without a catch they are either also not good enough or not truthfull #but that's probably because I still want something like this to be the bad thing and not someone to hurt them #trolleybuses are driving with position lights off

[teddybasmanov]

- Leave me - Love me - Don't be a fool - Want me - Feed me - No one so cruel and Cheap

“The Thrill of First Love“ from “Falsettos“

#quotes #love quote #song lyrics #falsettos #the thrill of first love #a bit out of line don't you think? #yeah because that's how in the very beginning I thought stuff can be #this is a kind of relationship I anticipated #not perfect but pretty fun #right now it seems almost impossible #and don't get me wrong what we got now is a million times better #but since it is the bad thing which we are being promised for all that time #will feel so much worse #on the other topic #I debated with myself if I shall post this as quote or as a chat #as you can see I decided to go with quote #still not sure though #trolleybuses are driving with position lights off

[teddybasmanov]

What of the fact that the connections are trampled and what of the fact that the wires are silent And what of the fact that all the songs are like one another, and that one is like you. It seems as if it is crowded in my underworld, but it's too late to stitch a wound edge to edge And I divide all the occurrences in life into what happened before and after you. Spring, spring.

“Spring“ by “Night Snipers“

#quote #song lyrics #love quote #the funny fact is that #for you it's already spring #and for me it still isn't #but I can almost feel the spring fever in the air #(or just normal fever because of the side effect of covid vaccination but never mind) #all the songs are indeed like you #and if what I think is going to happen #is going to happen somewhere around the time this is posted #I'll sure as hell divide all my life into before and after #if I bloody survive it #seriously this content creator just know so well what buttons to press in my brain to make me overwhelmed #they can do it so easily that I'm kind of happy they are a good person and they don't know me #also this is again poetry which doesn't make any sense but sounds good #and you can always overthink it to make sense #trolleybuses are driving with position lights off

[teddybasmanov]

It's been hot Also very sweet And I'm not usually indiscreet But when he sparkles The earth begins to sway What more can I say?

“What More Can I Say?“ from “Falsettos“

#quotes #song lyrics #falsettos #love quote #yes falsettos is kind of their musical #probably because a lot of what marvin says whizzer I can say about them #just one more time #they are so hot and sexy #but also so sweet towards me #so so bloody sweet #even thinking about it right now I'm crying #want to hold their hands #so badly #trolleybuses are driving with position lights off

[teddybasmanov]

If you have opened up, don't you dare regret anything. Let the sky be one third closer to me. Let there be the sun and it's better to burn out on it, Than suffocate.

“Google“ by “Night Snipers“

#qutoes #song lyrics #love quotes #there was a part in which they opened up a lot #which was unusual for them #and I actually don't want them to ever regret it #better trust each other and then suffer from it #than not trust and always hide stuff the other one #mutual trust #and communication #totally my kink #trolleybuses are driving with position lights off