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sunshine-theseus · 4 months

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Bia | Kyra Cooney-Cross x Reader

Words: 2.8k Summary: you create your own boots and meet the most beautiful girl - sorry I also used this to info dump about the necessity for boots designed specifically for women to lower injury risks Warnings: none i think. lemme know if there are any requested by - @hottiedogs375 i hope you enjoy, it's probably not my best :( definitely not as good as pequeña i think

My family was more of a cricket family than a football one. I wasn’t really fond of either, the shouting was always too much, and the food was somehow sloppy yet rock hard at the same time. Even when we watched at home. The living room would be full of sweaty angry men, sometimes my mum and sister would join if our team was actually doing well. Meanwhile you’d find me in my room at the very back corner of the attic, my room, with headphones on to block out the noise, usually designing something.

Despite the cricket background, I found myself intrigued by the design of women’s football kits. In my design and technology class in year 13, I fell down a research rabbit hole on football boots for women. It was then I discovered the lack of adaptation for the shoe. Women often just wear smaller sizes of boots designed for men, which has been one of the factors in the increase in injuries in the women’s game and I’d decided I wanted to fix that.

That’s how I found myself in front of a crowd, made up of possible brand ambassadors and sponsors, as well as a range of women’s athletes from across the world, pitching my idea.

“And that’s why brands like Bia are important to the growth of women’s football. The shape of the boot, the length of studs, the sole support, they’re all contributing factors to how players perform. When women footballers use the men’s boots, which is basically the only option, they aren’t going to grow used to the details designed for male anatomy. It’s causing stress on not only their feet but every ligament, every bone, every piece of them is suffering because they have to try and adapt to things they can’t possibly adapt to.” I felt like the closing of my speech was rather strong, especially as I watched players and possible sponsors stand to clap. The noise echoes throughout the auditorium and a happiness bubbles within me.

“Thank you for providing me this opportunity. Please, if anyone has any questions.” I gesture to the stand-up microphone in the middle aisle, and people rush to line up.

“What made you intent on creating a boot specifically for women, risking money and time on something people have tried to do before? Something you knew wasn’t guaranteed to work?”

“I know it’s funny, but my family was not a football one, so I didn’t grow up knowing much about the game. But in my a-levels design and technology class, we had to research an issue prevalent in an existing design, and I for some reason was just drawn to the idea that women don’t even get the choice of having a boot made for them. I found it unfair and uncaring. Everyone expects women to play at the same level as men yet won’t provide them with the necessary equipment to do so without them having to risk, quite possibly their career. And I couldn’t just move on after the class, I knew that I had to do something about it. So I’ve spent the past 3 years perfecting the design and building the brand, to be here in front of you all today.” Another round of applause is heard throughout the room before the next person steps up.

She’s a footballer, that I know. Young, no older than 21, my age. And very very pretty.

“This question probably isn’t quite as important as that one but, what made you pick the name Bia? It just seems like an interesting name.” people chuckle at the question, and the (newly discovered) Australian shyly looks around.

“No, I love this question. Bia is the Greek goddess of force and raw energy. She’s actually Nike’s sister, the goddess of victory and very obviously the brand. I think Bia resembles a lot of things within female athletes. They have this driving force and unbelieve power that they bring, and it just felt so right.”

“That’s sick. Can I also quickly ask, sorry, are these boots made for every female athlete? Like can someone in track and field use these or are they just for footballers?” the girl smiles brightly after her question, and I have to remember not to lose focus.

“While the primary focus is obviously footballers, I have researched the compatibility of boots between sports and yes, a professional sprinter like Sharika Jackson can use them just as well as you or Alexia Putellas could. And of course as the brand grows we’ll be able to develop even further and broaden our research further in creating boots fit for anyone.”

Questions carry on for a while, then I disappear behind the curtain that’s suspended behind me, rushing to remove my microphone. Eventually I slide out the side door and reach the separate room booked for ‘mingling’ after the panel.

Between talking to rich people desperate to make it seem like they care about others, and athletes who are very eager to know everything they can about the shoe, I try to keep an eye out for the nameless Australian. Every time I think I’ve spotted her; it seems she disappears. Bodies keep moving and she seems to be one of them.

Then I bump into someone. We both go stumbling but she catches me just before I head for the floor.

“I am so sorry I wasn’t looking where I was going.” And there she was, the girl I’d been looking for.

“No, no need to apologise. I’m Y/n.” I give her a hand to shake.

“Kyra.” There’s a pause before she continues.

“I’m a big fan of your boot. It’s truly incredible.” It’s hard not to blush and sputter out random sounds at her praise.

“Thank you. I’m really hoping this function works out.”

“Well I was thinking, when it does, if you need ‘a face of Bia’…”

“Oh my god yes that would be amazing. Seriously you have no idea how cool that would be.”

We talk for quite some time, and she sticks by my side when someone else comes to talk and ask question. When it’s time to go home we exchange numbers and that’s the first and last time I see her for a while.

5 months later is the next time I see Kyra in person. We’d both been travelling a lot, me for sponsors, ambassadors, and athletes, her for work. I’d expected to meet with her a few more times before we kick started the ‘face of Bia’ photoshoots, but as the fates had it, we found ourselves in a large warehouse, photo equipment, and many boxes of my shoes filling the space.

It suddenly all started to feel very real, and that made me nervous. So I packed myself into a small room in the corner as I tried to calm down, hoping the isolation and quiet would help me feel better.

Not even 2 minutes in, someone is following and taking a seat next to me.

“You right?” the voice is familiar and smooth.

“Yeah, yeah of course I am. It’s not like the biggest thing I’ve ever worked for in my life is basically in its final stage of release in the next room and I’m freaking out about it. What if they aren’t actually good? What if th-”

“I’m going to stop you right there. You sent me a pair 2 months ago, and I told you I would test them before saying anything, and I did just that. I took them to training. Ran on the pitch, walked, kicked the ball, passed, made risky moves. And what did I tell you after that?”

“‘These are the best fucking shoes ever.’ But what if they aren’t?”

“Listen Y/n, how many other athletes, not just me or footballers, did you send a pair to for testing?”

“Like 43. Basically every one that came to the panel plus some more.”

“How many told you they were good?”

“43.”

“Exactly. So we’re going to go out there together, you’re gonna tell the photographer what you want to see, every opinion, every change, anything, and we’re going to finalise your fucking dream.” Kyra picks me up without me even agreeing, and basically carries me out to the set up.

Ali Kreiger, despite her recent retirement, was currently being photographed. She’d been the one to reach out to me when she heard from, someone, and wanted to be an ambassador. I probably screamed so loud my neighbours thought I was getting murdered that day.

“They’re going to want a couple photos of you too probably. Either with the shoes or with one or all of us. Okay?” Kyra rubs a hand up and down my back as I take it all in.

I nod vigorously and try to shake my hands to get rid of the remaining nerves, eventually taking a seat next to the photographer, Eve. She asks for my input on every shot and manages to carry out my vision without fail every single time. As players filter in and out, I begin to truly relax and allow myself to take in the moment.

Zimmorlei Farquharson and Poppy Boltz, two AFLW players for the Brisbane Lions, were being photographed together when Kyra slid into the spare chair next to me. She didn’t say anything but when I looked over, I had to quickly look away again. Her outfit wasn’t something out of the ordinary, a loose cropped top and bike shorts, plus the sage green boots she was promoting. But the strip of skin that was exposed between her shirt and shorts was enticing and it was hard not to stare at the way her muscles contracted every time she moved in the seat.

I’m certain she caught me staring.

As she stands to take over the Australian Football players, Kyra leans over and whispers in my ear. It takes me a moment to process her words and by then she’s already under the lights.

“Good thing we’re taking some pictures. They’ll last longer.” To say I was stumped was a rather big understatement. Was she flirting with me?

I don’t get to think about it too much, Kyra looking my way every time she changed position or began to play around with the ball provided.

Not long after, I’m asked to join all the girls in front of the camera for a few shots. I knew it was coming but my heart still dropped into my stomach, and I choked on my breath. As expected, it’s Kyra who grabs my hand and instructs me to breathe slowly. Her thumb runs over the back of my hand and the motion begins to sooth me.

I take a place in front of the camera and the group of athletes. I’m not quite sure how to stand, but Kyra takes the space behind me, resting an arm over my shoulder and the other around my waist. It forces me to lean back naturally and as the girls around us take a stance, Eve continues to shoot.

“You and Kyra have a lot of chemistry by the looks of it, and she’s who you’re most comfortable with. Use that. Make it natural. The girls around you will adapt.” I expect the comment from Eve, but it’s Ali who puts a hand on my shoulder and reassures me.

With that instruction, and a nod from Eve, Kyra jumps on my back. It’s a pose that helps with showing off the boot and making me laugh. She then jumps off and takes my hands, turning me to face her as she dips. I rush to catch her as she falls, our faces a hair width apart.

Before I can think, I close the gap. My lips press hard against her’s as the camera shutter repeatedly goes off, but I don’t think anything of it. Until I pull away.

I almost drop her once my thoughts catch up to me.

“I am so sorry. What the fuck did I just do?” the rest of the girls had already walked away, so it was just us.

“Nothing you should regret or feel bad for.” Kyra stands right in front of me, our lips basically touching again.

“And maybe you should do it again.” I pause for a moment before leaning back down, kissing her again.

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It takes three more weeks for the official brand release. After years of designing, making, spending every cent I had on these boots, Bia was officially the first woman specific sports boot.

Kyra’s first Arsenal game wearing them was the day of the release. She ended up talking about them in post-match interview after being asked “how were you excelling so well in the midfield today?” Not only was Bia’s sale numbers skyrocketing and the media account blowing up, so was my own.

I’d of course attended the match, excited to see them as an officially released boot. Someone had spotted me in the crowd and tweeted about it, talking about ‘the creator of that new boot brand is watching Kyra rep them for the first time live’. Someone else had caught me hugging Kyra on the pitch after the game and giving her a kiss on the cheek.

The rumours could only be expected. They also couldn’t be denied. Not without lying.

“I’m so proud of you.” The smooth Australian accent almost lulls me to sleep as we rest in Kyra’s bed, the sheets hiding our bare skin.

Her fingers trace shapes on my hip as she holds me, and I kiss along her collar bones and neck.

“And also very, very grateful for your genius brain creating those boots. Not only for helping my game play, but for bringing you to me.”

“I’m also grateful for my genius brain bringing us together.” I tease before softly kissing her.

It’d been impossible to escape her charm after our kiss at the photoshoot, so naturally we went on a date. And another, before she asked me to be her girlfriend. Eve sent me those photos just in case we wanted them in the brand release post. They currently sat in my hard drive, but it was very tempting to post a couple.

Kyra wanted a moment of privacy before the world knew, but I knew it didn’t matter whether it was out or a secret, as long as I had her.

A new power couple is on the rise in the world of Women’s Football. Creator of new women’s sports boots brand Bia, Y/n L/n, spotted with girlfriend, Arsenal and Matildas midfielder Kyra Cooney-Cross at a café in North London this morning before the London Derby. The couple confirmed their relationship mere days ago with photos of the lovebirds kissing from L/n’s brand shoot.

I laugh at the article as Kyra pulls into the Emirates parking, hand in mine. I’d become rather acquainted with her teammates and they begged me to come to the London Derby on the weekend. I couldn’t refuse when my girlfriend pulled out the puppy dog eyes and promised to ban me from any sort of affection, specifically kisses, for the week.

“You better win. I have a bet going with Niamh that you’ll beat her and I cannot lose a bet against her again.” Kyra chuckles and leaves with a kiss, sending me into the friends and family section of the stands.

It was nerve wracking going alone, but it was for Kyra and that was all I cared about. Supporting her like she supported me.

Kyra doesn’t start, which had been expected. Despite it, the girls were playing well and were up 3-1 at half-time. No yellow cards for either team had most people shocked though. The derby was known to be rough and physical, yet it seemed things were rather calm for the situation at hand.

There’s a substitute at half-time that puts Kyra back on the pitch. I blow a kiss when she looks my way as she jogs out and she pretends to catch it and place it on her cheek. Both of us are unaware of the interaction being caught on the big screen while people wait for the countdown.

It’s when extra time is announced that everyone in the stadium knows Arsenal have won the game. The Chelsea players look tired and defeated and the Arsenal girls don’t look much different, apart from the massive smiles that grace each one of their faces. The final whistle blows, and the crowd erupts in deafening cheers for the gunners, and I can’t help joining in.

After congratulating the blues on their performance and huddling with her own teammates, Kyra comes running for me. The guard on the other side of the barrier grows wary when I stand, clearly about to jump it, but Kyra gives him the okay and grabs me by the waist, helping me join her on the pitch.

“I’m so fucking proud of you.” I whisper as she stands on her tippy toes.

Her arms wrap tightly around my neck and mine go around her waist as she pulls me in for a kiss. It’s deep and passionate and the crowd around us cheers, some of the girls joining in.

“We’re both kinda killing it aren’t we?” I let out a laugh as she hops on my back, pointing me in the direction of her Matilda’s teammates, even Sam, who are grouped in the middle of the field.

She sprinkles kisses around my face as they talk between each other and I’ve never felt more content.

Fuck cricket, football is the sport for me.

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tamelee · 4 months

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Hello Tamelee! Do you have any advice to give to beginners regarding drawing? Maybe some exercices that helped you to make progress? I’ve seen that you learn to draw all on your own, and that’s really impressing (and inspiring)!! ❤️

Hi!! 🧡 thankyou so much (ノ・∀・)ノ♥︎ Ah yes of course!!! I wanted to make this earlier but I waited until I finished a few drawings to see if I could come up with more tips and find out what really helps for me.

✍️;

I did learn to draw by myself, but I watched a lot of speed video’s for guidance ^^ I used to slow them down a lot and really tried to study what artists that I liked did, but I wouldn’t recommend this for beginners. Especially when you don’t really know the program and you won’t understand why they do what they do.

I used to copy the greyscale method even though I knew nothing about color so I heavily relied on values only which made everything look very muddy.

It’s actually only recently that I’m understanding the things that I do and I feel like my anatomy/coloring is improving slowly because of it.

So, first, I’d highly recommend to instead of copying only as a study method, (like faces for example) to understand why things are the way they are. If you know how planes of a face work, it’s much easier to remember why a certain perspective is like that, when something feels off and how to fix it or how to lay down shadows. The ‘Asaro head’ is a favorite for many, the free version you can find HERE a video on the topic is HERE and learning how to shade is explained very well HERE. Sinix Design has a great video that goes beyond that and it may help you for different kind of faces which you can find HERE. If you're more interested in Anime faces (though the planes work the same), you can find and manipulate 3D models for free HERE or HERE that you can use as a reference. Of course you should always make it your own but they can help with perspective. In fact, you can find many different kinds of models on Sketchfab. Your character holding a cup and you aren't sure how to draw it in that angle? Find one, manipulate it, screenshot and study the perspectives ^^ (I don't recommend tracing or copying.)

Learn about environmental lighting and color temperatures instead of value's (light and dark) only!!! Trust me, the earlier you learn this, the better >*chants* color temperature, color temperature, color temp-

Anatomy is interesting. A lot of tutorials recommend you use photo's to learn it, but it confused me a lot. Pictures aren't always clear enough to see how the body parts are connected and I always thought it was a bit pointless to learn muscles, but it really isn't. I'm not sure how to explain it well, but a picture is often too complicated and you have to narrow it down to find its foundation. I personally think it's helpful to find an artist you like and look how they do anatomy if they have shared any sketches.

Not sure if that makes any sense xD but what I'm trying to say is that for me, looking at pictures alone didn't help me understand much of anything else at all and in some cases made it even more confusing. Clothing makes much more sense in drawings when they're simplified, but this also depends on style!

You can use a napkin around you finger and bend it to get a quick fold reference for a sleeve or something!

Studying the body means... well, studying the body. Naked, in underwear or swimwear. You can find many free references! But there are special anatomy reference packs that are being sold like these.

I don't really do drawing exercises because my ADD just won't allow me to. My motivation immediately drops to zero. So I can't say which ones are very helpful but always feel free to try anything you want and see what works for you! But if there's anything you should exercise always... it's your hands.

Trust me on that one. The pain for ignoring your pain is a consequence you don't want ;-; and sometimes it even leaves you unable to draw for a long time. Avoid issues with carpel tunnel or RSI as much as possible. There are many video's but you could use THIS ONE for example.

I do practice though with everything new that I create. I always try to learn something.

I think the thing that helped me a lot in the beginning was by getting the habit to save everything that I liked. An expression in a movie? I saved it. Favorite art styles? I saved them. Naruto looked particularly adorable in that panel? Saved. Sasuke's hair spikes flawlessly there? Saved it.

If you're quickly overwhelmed though (like me lol) then it's not a good idea to save a bunch of screenshots in a folder because you'll have no idea what to even look for. If you do this then try to keep things as organized as possible so you actually have some use for it and even narrow it down as much as you like. Some panels for Naruto and Sasuke for example I have saved in several folders like 'expressions', 'manga style' or 'outfit' for example. I don't want to spend too much time looking for things, because unlike some of you think, I don't have that much patience xD

INVEST IN EXTERNAL SSD('s) and BACK UP REGULARLY!! Like, everyday if you can, but at least 3x a week. Once a week at THE VERY LEAST. You'll thank yourself one day. Save your art-files so you have access to full versions always but post smaller files if you're drawing in large 300DPI (or more) files. Whatever program you use you can learn to reduce sizes, you don't need to save every layer always when you've finished a drawing, but in Photoshop for example you can 'merge layers 'duplicate all visible layers' as a copy and put it in a progress folder in case you ever need it, like so;

Some other things that helped me a lot also was to create my own short keys to flip the canvas and making the current layer I'm working on visible or not. Personally I have the flipping on 'command+§' and layer visibility on 'command+1'. If you're working with Windows you can switch command key or pick anything else you think would be easy! Flipping your canvas horizontally helps a lot to find mistakes and layer visibility.... I don't really see anyone talking about it, but when I'm rendering over a sketch and get lost in it, I often use this short-key to see if I'm not overdoing it or losing the original perspective which can easily happen!

I hope some of these are helpful, I can't really think of much more right now, but feel free to ask anyway if there is anything in particular! 🌷

#asktamelee #art tips #art resources #art talk

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bosskie · 18 days

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2 Years Ol' Blog 'n' 3D Molluck Stuff

Man, having this blog has been a ride... I posted my first post here on 1st April 2022 and created this blog/account a few days before. During this whole time, my mental health issues have affected my blog and I was about to delete it before I even posted anything but I still decided to give it a try since I already got some followers; it felt supportive. I was surprised to have such a warm welcoming here and it still warms my heart. I still had some moments when I had to hide all my posts since I just couldn't stand my own stuff. Sometimes, it still comes to my mind but I'm doing my best to try to learn to at least tolerate my own creations. I feel sorry for being like this but only if it was easy to get rid of self-hatred... I also just tend to only see all my mistakes I have made when I look at my stuff, all the things I should learn...

But I try to be positive here, even I just tend to see darkness when I think about my own future. I just don't believe in myself... Originally, I didn't wanna be personal here but it just happened when one anon asked me if I had more art to show... I didn't since I have hidden all my old art. I have been on Tumblr for 10+ years but never posted anything until I created this blog. What brought me here was the active Oddworld community, the lovely people here. Even I think dim things about myself like every day, I do appreciate your support! Even I have my own difficulties with believing in that I have any talent/skills, compliments are light to my own dark image of myself.

I'll talk more later on this post but now, I'll show some 3D Molluck stuff and well, talk about Molluck... I show first my first Molluck sculpt I did improve today (yesterday):

I would still say that this is a WIP since well, there do is stuff to improve and do but yeah, I think that it would be wiser to let this be now and redo this since this is done in such an amateur way... There is no way to animate this since its geometry is a nightmare... I was able to rig this a bit when it wasn't so detailed, test out animating it but then, it became impossible. But well, the truth is that I do have still made animations with this despite of that... Frankly, the reason why I created this sculpt was my thirst for Molluck, how much I wish I was able to be with him... But this has helped me out multiple times with my drawings too!

I'm still not totally sure about some things of his anatomy but I have been doing my best to figure it out. I also realize that this sculpt makes Molluck look a bit more muscular/bigger than he is (see his neck and head size) but I have tried my best with fixing this situation since he did look even more bulky back then... The difference ain't too big but well, I do can create my own version of him too! I also see that this ain't 100 % correct when it comes to his face too but I tried my best. I'm still a beginner with 3D stuff, so I didn't use the best methods to do this either... I also feel like I just learned new things about his head when I compared this to the SoulStorm model recently... So yeah, this sculpt is a mixture of SoulStorm model, good ol' concept art of Gluk anatomy and my own adjustments. I only say SoulStorm model because it's based on New 'n' Tasty model, so he probably looks like the same under the suit but yes, that naked Molluck model has been my main reference for his body. The biggest change I have done compared to that has been his hands since I love his hand in that concept art! They are just the best hands, the most beautiful hands I know... But well, his whole body is the most beautiful body, at least for me!

Yeah, I think that I have made it quite clear how much I would love to have him... I already have said it but, he is my only desire... I cannot help myself with that Molluck is 'a perfect man' for me... No one else has felt right for me, there was always something off... But frankly, even I have seen multiple people being thirsty for Molluck, I have seen no one else wanting him like I do... None of that 'spicy' Molluck art I have seen reminds me of mine. It's just interesting how differently I see him since in the others' 'spicy art' Molluck has similar vibe and role... I don't really want Molluck because I have a thirst for him; I only have a thirst for him because I love him and for me, it's about sharing and giving love! I truly wish to make him feel good and loved. I have decided that I don't post my NSFW Molluck content but some cropped stuff but I could still post some suggestive things, though like I have said, I see him from a different perspective than the ones I have seen, with what I mean that he is 'the receiver'. I have just never seen him in this role by the others. I guess that this can explain why I have said that for me, he already has 'the stuff', no need for 'the usual additions'. His body also just feels more 'elegant' when there is no such a thing. This is just my preference, you can have yours. But it's just interesting to see how my way to imagine/see Molluck differs from the others. Though yes, I do remember when that one Molluck ask blog was still active and at least one person asked if Molluck liked things in his ass... Might have been just harassment or no one has just published such a content...

Frankly, I do actually prefer his back view instead of his front view, even I have been drawing it more... It's just that I'm unsure of how to handle nudity here... I don't wanna post his ass in front of the people who don't wanna see it... Nudity is natural for me but I just don't wanna make anyone feel uncomfortable because of my naked Molluck stuff... I just adore his body, so gotta draw it... Man, I would just keep talking how much I love his different body parts but I save you from that...

So, yeah, let's move on! I have already shown this one but I feel like reposting it now:

This is my stylized, simple Molluck model from last summer (2023). It's close to be finished since it's meant to be simple but some details are missing. You might wonder what's this style: Back then, I was inspired by Osamu Sato and his old video game graphics, so I wanted to create something similar to his style. I would like to try to rig this and then try to create more 3D models. Man, I would like to do so much 3D stuff... Oh, and yeah, it would be fun to make a naked version of him with this style too! I just have so much Molluck art ideas inside my head...

Oh, and yeah, I have been thinking for a longer time if I should show this or not but this feels like the right place to do it. So yes, I have created like a year ago a Molluck sim for The Sims 2. I know that it can look odd but he cannot look much better without doing own mods... I don't know how to mod these games but would like to learn it.

But yeah, I pretty muchly abused the face sliders here and did my own textures but also found a cigar for him. I did improve his face over time since I also needed to see how it works in the game. I also needed to lift his face after I found the cigar to place it into his mouth. It's basically only possible to create him to The Sims 2 like this because of the Body Shop is such a great tool and it actually lets you to use those face sliders without a limit: just edit the sim over and over again. Though yes, there is a tool to paint your sim's textures in The Sims 1 but it's such a pain to use... Oh, and you might notice those little dots: I just love to add his nevi to him, like you might have noticed from my drawings!

And yeah, my only reason for creating this Molluck sim was my self-insert stuff, even I do prefer him like he is, not as 'an anthro'... I just crave for this Gluk every day... Well, the good thing is that I'm able to create stuff about him, so I get some help even I know that I'll never get him... Also, even I recently said that marriage feels odd, it has now started to make some sense to me... I mean, I have started to feel alright about it. Maybe it's that my feeling of Molluck being 'the one' for me is getting stronger and stronger or it's a sign of my healing since I have just felt like it's better that no one is bound to me... Maybe it's the both. But despite of this, I still value the friendship the most since it's the strongest relationship type, so when the relationship is based on it, it's stronger than mere romance ect. I don't know if it sounds odd or not but for the first time, I actually feel good about marrying Molluck.

But yeah, this has already been a long post but just wanna say some stuff related to my blog:

I have multiple reasons why I tend to turn reblogs off and it's only for my own mental health, not that I had anything against you. Sometimes, I just kinda hate to see myself posting so actively, so I don't really like to see my stuff on someone else's blog either... I have never really known what to think about reblogs... Also, I don't like some technical things related to them, so it also makes me prefer to have them off. Maybe there somewhere my feeling of that I'm just ruining everything, also this community, affects this too... It's at least one big reason why I don't really interact here, even I would like to.

The truth is that I have never pressed the like button here, even I would have liked to, and it's just because of me feeling like it's better that I'm invisible. I tend to feel ashamed of myself, think that I'm a failure... It's not easy for me to be open and relaxed but I just wish to talk about Molluck so much that this happens... I do have other things in my life too but it's much more difficult for me to talk about them... I just feel like that if I didn't have Molluck, I wouldn't post any content right now, would have disappeared from the Internet. It's like extremely difficult for me to create an online imago, 'sell myself', build a portfolio... It has felt like this is gonna be my doom... My own self-hatred... But I'm still trying my best and going to make a big investment to this stuff this year, so that I can create better 3D stuff and use Unreal Engine. It's just for my future, otherwise I wouldn't feel ready to do it. I'm just trying to believe in myself, even it feels so difficult... I just wanna be honest about what I'm going thru since it affects my content a lot.

I have already written so much, so it's probably the best to end this post. But before that, I do wanna thank for all your support and your understanding, patience... I thought that I would probably be left all alone again after I open up about the hell I have inside my mind, that probably no one actually wants me to be here, like I'm used to think, but I have been wrong. It really touches me that I have been welcomed here and despite of everything, you still wish to support me. It's just about to make me cry, especially when, frankly, suicidal thoughts are quite common for me, been for over a decade. It's just like something daily... I'm so used to it. But something always just tells me not to do it, even I have thought about it like over a thousand times, if not thousands of times... Sometimes, I just think that I should be Molluck's next meat product but in my imagination, he still tells me that he would only lose money if he did that because I'm priceless.

I don't expect that people really read my stuff but I do really appreciate all the time you spend on my stuff since time is valuable! I just kinda need to write this stuff to here since I spend like almost all of my time alone and there somewhere I also wish that all this writing could help the others who also deal with similar mental health problems. I often feel like no healing has actually happened but I see from little things that slow healing is happening, like that I feel now alright about marrying Molluck and it only happened like a few days ago. I'm just starting to find happiness thru Molluck but he alone hasn't still helped me to heal. Even my mind keeps telling me it's a waste to support me and I have difficulties with receiving compliments, all support is still helping me.

Sometimes, I still think about this anon's words from about two years ago: 'I am cheering you and Molluck on and toasting to your brilliance.' The other compliments I have also gotten do also echo inside my head from time to time but I just wanted to say that I would have never imagined something like this to be said to me and these words do really mean a lot to me still. Toasting also just sounded fitting for this anniversary, so even this feels difficult for me, because I suffer from this severe self-hatred, I wish to toast to myself, for keeping going, even it has been so difficult, felt so tempting to end this all... But I wouldn't have still made it this far alone, so thanks for my family, all the lovely people who have supported me thru my life but also OWI for creating Molluck( and Oddworld)! It just feels like a miracle that I'm still here.

~ Much love!

#molluck #oddworld molluck #molluck the glukkon #art like a bosskie #oddworld

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Kilindi Matako, kid

Reposting this bc Tumblr censored it for “mature theme” Wtf

Can’t believe it’s been almost a year since I drew her! Here's the oldest attempt if you want to see baby artist cringe (x). Here's an ideation a few months ago (i think? What is time anyway) (x). I love our fish girl to bits 🩵

Thanks to the wonderful and generous @maulieber for art advice, I have tried my best to fix some anatomy issues. They are still there post fix, but lessons are lessons and l'm letting it go.

Kilindi's marking inspiration, I guess 😂

#kilindi matako #kilindi #maul #the wrath of darth maul #star wars #nautolan #star wars fanart #digital illustration #art #character design #darth maul

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Progress Update!

As promised, here is a progress update on DemonVN! This is just a general update of what I've done (or, at least, can remember doing...) over the past month or so.

GENERAL/MISCELLANEOUS STUFF

Character Sprites: I completely re-did all of Mordred and the Demon's sprites! They now have about 70-80 sprites between them, which is probably way too many, honestly.

^mordred and the demon reaction to this distressing count

Along with them, I finally attempted a Lillie sprite redraw, and am in the process of fixing the anatomy of Catherine and Mr. Li (there are. Issues). I will show those all off in the next progress report, probably.

Item Sprites: with the addition of a few new item sprites, I believe that these are 100% complete, minus any last-minute additions! great news: demonvn now has feet in it

Mordred’s Journal Extras (Glossary, Journal Entries): I decided to add these in as a fun extra thing for the game! The glossary covers in-game terms, and Mordred's journal entries detail some of his experiences moving to his new town. They're still in the process of being worked on, but we're getting there!

INTRODUCTION

In which Mordred tries to capture a demon, epically fails, and then gets himself possessed (shown above).

This section continues to be in development hell. Do not ask me how finished it is because I WILL start crying. The good news, though, is that I fully finished the section where Mordred has an evil monologue about much he wants to kill all his classmates! That doesn't seem like a lot, but it did involve a cg that took me way too long to draw for how simple it is + multiple new Mordred sprites.

I also am currently working on revising some of the opening backgrounds a little bit! They're almost done.

Anyway, all the rest of my progress has been tearing my hair out trying and failing to write some sections of this, so let's move on!

MIDDLE SECTION

In which Mordred is forced to search for a demon at his high school homecoming dance.

This middle section is currently a MESS of half-written/mostly written stuff that needs to be fully cobbled together, but the good news is that it IS getting written. Shout out to Stephanie and Catherine for having the worst sections by FAR to write... You would think they would be easy, but nope!!!!!

I have implemented a lot of the items, at the very least! Some of the writing around their use/getting them is missing, but they ARE there.

Also, other good news: the DJ booth background + Mr. Li's section is all basically done! He has a shocking amount of dialogue, actually, considering you can get him to comment on all five students in the game. I also drew up some expressions for him, but more need to be added :^)

^Mr. Li pushed to his breaking point (looks mildly annoyed) after hearing Mordred verbally reenact a “i was born in the wrong generation” youtube music comment

Most of Rusty's writing is also complete!! Very happy with how he's being presented :^) Now I just need to work on those sprites...

^Who’s this mysterious stranger with such a good taste in media...? Just kidding. It’s Rusty.

CLIMAX

In which multiple different characters all come together at once in the stupidest way imaginable.

So, I can't really get into the details of the progress I made without spoiling stuff, but I did do some writing for this section! I made some changes to how I wanted the endgame to go, which have in turn changed certain parts of this section. Overall, I'm happy with how it's coming along! Cannot wait for the inevitable [REDACTED] call-out post as a result of their actions here

ENDGAME

In which Mordred must deal with the consequences of his actions.

This outline for this section has been fully drafted, finally!!! who knew that changing it so that [REDACTED] would solve all the problems I was having with this + in various other sections. However, it is - for the most part - unwritten. Here's a section of the outline though

Along with this, I started work on one of the endgame backgrounds + I drew some of the items I needed for this section! Obviously, though, I can't show them off.....

EPILOGUE

Hopefully self-explanatory, given the name.

I did a little bit of writing for this, but for the most part, I've left it alone. It will be completed at some other time...

IN CONCLUSION...

Demonvn is currently at a whopping 35,000 words long (oh geez), and I would not be surprised if it was upwards of 40-45,000 by the time I get finished writing and editing everything. I remember when I thought it would be 1500-2000 max...

At the moment, my development is still slow, but it's being going at a steady pace at least! I still have no release date plans, and I don't think I will officially announce any until I am actually forcing people to beta test it.

Anyway, I'll put out another progress report on August 1! Lots of little things I need to work on before then, but my big goal is to finish at least ONE of the main sections. Who knows what that will be. Until then, I'll try to stay quiet on what I'm doing, but we'll see how well I can stick with that.

Anyway, talk to you guys later!

#my ocs #demonvn #wip #gamedev #EDIT: ADDED TWO MORE SCREENSHOTS

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myhatisblue · 4 months

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lore.

I think Mills would have to do a lot of studying on anatomy. Knowing how everything worked would make altering flesh while maintaining function.

I think that would also make the physical contact thing provide more information that he doesn't actually want. Since he'd be capable of actually processing what he's seeing. At least in terms of knowing something wasn't standard in terms of text book examples. Leading to moral issues of if he should or shouldn't let someone know they need to go see a doc if he realizes it. I don't think he could bring himself to personally intervene in that kinda thing.

It's a flood of information when someone makes contact, all leading to the same realization, that the thing touching him is trapped in a form it doesn't fit. And something pulls at him to just fix the problem. No matter how hard he tries to shake it, it's an instinct he can't escape.

That's why he couldn't really help people who needed it, he's not able to get past the fear of going too far. That once that kinda step is taken there won't be any coming back, he won't be him anymore.

Now I don't think he'd enjoy studying that kinda stuff, but likely after seeing it makes things easier he'd pretty much have to slog through it.

For some reason I think it would be really funny if he knew someone they were pregnant before they did. And how awkward that conversation would be.

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Hey sorry if this is weird but, how does Edgeshot replacing Bakugo's heart actually work? Please explain this to me like I'm a five year old because my brain refuses to figure out the logistics

I wasn't sure if you meant the event itself or everything surrounding it, like what Edgeshot is actually doing or what the logic of this whole event is, so I tried everything I could to try and explain this.

Trust me, the concept of Edgeshot doing something like this is pretty confusing. Let's try and ignore some of the character issues here, like how Edgeshot has no connection to Bakugou and is such a background character that he is literally two-dimensional, making any emotion this scene is trying to have fall pretty flat even with that slapdashedly put-together flashback. "Foldabody" hasn't had many showings. Edgeshot has been able to flatten and fold himself before, but nowhere near to this degree, making it seem like it comes out of nowhere. This is no helped by that stupid stinger of Edgeshot saying he'd "become Bakugou's heart" muddling things even further. Let me be clear that is not what is literally happening. What I believe the manga is going for is that Edgeshot is basically using his own body as stitching to fix up Bakugou. He cleans himself with a bubble from Wash and enters the body. Using his knowledge of human anatomy and himself as a needle and thread, he attempts to tie everything back together.

However, explaining all of this doesn't actually help it make sense. There's the bubble, which has a whole list of problems. Like how that should have been destroyed beforehand in the massive fight, it's something Edgeshot conveniently has on him and would barely even matter with the amount of other prep work required for surgery this complex. And I don't care how much knowledge of anatomy you have, you don't suddenly become a surgeon when trying to pull this off. However, none of that really matters in the face of Bakugou's injury. Bakugou was stabbed in the chest by a pretty sizable spike. Something like that should have destroyed his heart. Even if there were any remains, I don't think you'd be able to do anything about them. You can't stitch a heart back together from mincemeat. Maybe the idea is that Edgeshot is somehow giving up his flesh as a way to heal Bakugou or that he's so small that he's able to fix Bakugou on a scale where it actually matters, but that remains to be seen. All in all, even when trying to explain this, it only makes things more confusing.

#My Hero Academia #Quirks #Edgeshot #Shinya Kamihara #Foldabody #Katsuki Bakugou #MHA Meta

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A tip on getting past a focus on perfection.

For some people, when they look down at their art they will see problems everywhere and try and fix every little thing that looks odd to them. This can be considered art blindness, it is caused when an artist has been staring at a drawing long enough that even if it looks good they will only see the flaws in it. I have always had a major issue with this and have had a tendency to even feel the need to make even my own watermark absolutely perfect. A way I've been trying to push through art blindness is drawing on paper with pen and nothing else. This may seem like it could be silly however with pen it forces you to work with your mistakes instead of merely erasing and trying again, it causes you to need to use a different sketch book or piece of paper if you wanna make a minor change. Because of that fact it allows you to figure out how to focus on how to improve your drawing and to work with the mistake instead of around it; or in other words it forces you to trust the process. Here are some examples of things I drew utilizing this art exercise. A lot of these will later be made digital and I will color them in. These are far from perfect and I can definitely see some flaws especially in anatomy however this gave me a chance to actually finish some drawings and try to work on improving any mistakes I made and learn from them so I can try and avoid them in the future. This technique can be very infuriating but your end product whether just a sketch, doodle, or finished piece of art shows you put effort into improving and whoever tries I'm proud of. Even if someone rages or quits before finishing the drawing I am also proud of you for atleast trying. Those who don't have motivation to do it but are thinking about doing it? I am also proud of you. If anyone utilizes this exercise be sure to respond to this post or at me in your post. <3

#art problems #artists on tumblr #art tips #art help #art advice #digital artist #traditional drawing #traditional art #digital art #art practice #drawing tips #art hacks #advice for artists #beginner artist #art exercise #Art praise #pen art #pen drawing #pen sketch

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What Is The Orgasm Gap? & How To Fix It - xoNecole: Women's Interest, Love, Wellness, Beauty

Kiarra SylvesterJan. 18, 2021 05:07PM EST

Women, in general, tend to disassociate during sex (myself included) and I hate that for us. But here's the thing: the year was 1960-something when white women are preaching, striving for sexual liberation, and coining terms like "the orgasm gap". Black women, we (our ancestors) were putting the same energy into the civil rights movement. The priorities were different and understandably so. Yet, I say all of this to say: the undoing and desire to close the orgasm gap began late for us, when in reality we needed a head start because so much of our sexuality has been colonized to begin with.

And, it shows! It shows in how we as Black women view sex and our sexualities, how we discuss it, and how we feel about it. For so long, sex was seen as something men do to us. So much so that I recall a time where so many women would rather not masturbate because her pleasure was intended to stroke the ego of men. The thing is, the orgasm gap that we face tells a different story in regards to the pleasure we're receiving in our sex lives. No, the orgams gap isn't specific to Black women, but much like the pay gap I imagine that this (the orgasm gap) too disproportionately impacts us.

But let me back up. What is the orgasm gap? The orgasm gap refers to the prioritization of the cis-het man's orgasm in the bedroom. It's the centering of pleasure around the patriarchy for any number of reasons, whether it be miseducation or willful "ill[CLIlT]eracy."

In a nutshell: it is the disproportionate rate of men to women receiving orgasms in the bedroom.

Though everyone's body is different and not all women are capable of having an orgasm, we should be able to enjoy the pleasure that comes along with a partner who tries their best to get us there. The biggest issue for an able-bodied clitoris is education, i.e. our grossly lacking understanding of our anatomy.

With over 5,000 nerves in the clitoris, it simply shouldn't be this hard for women to receive an orgasm. But men have to be able to find it, first. The best way to remedy this is a healthier sex education for all -- sex-positive sex education in our homes and in the school system. But because I'm in the business of talking about Black women specifically, I want to talk about some ways to close the orgasm gap specifically tailored towards us.

1.Unlearn Shame and Colonial Sex Idealogies

Those who enslaved Blacks were very intentional about the language they used around our sexuality, demonizing us with derogatory language that condoned the sexual mistreatment of Black women and men. They made it appear that because we were "animals" we had an insatiable sex drive that condoned white men raping us and a false narrative that Black men couldn't be trusted to not sexually harm white women. Black women were bred as if they were cows in a barnyard and then once slavery ended, they created the narrative that all we do is lay up and have children. This also brought into play respectability politics in an attempt to move us from this narrative and create more opportunities in a white world for Black people. So now when we show any natural human sexuality, we as Black women are hypersexualized and that breeds internalized hate.

Unlearn all of that because that's the real white shit -- not sucking dick, not anal, not masturbation. To further understand what it is that you're unlearning, research the contradictions and exploitation that colonizers have created around oursexuality while they are out here living their best lives.

2.Get Familiar with Your Actual Sexuality

Start unpacking after you've done some educating! How do you actually feel about sex as it related to you? Your sexuality. Who do you want to be when it comes to your sexuality...when society isn't dictating? Why do you judge those (especially women) who display their sexuality differently than you? How often have you encountered the reality of the orgasm gap? It might be helpful to journal through this.

3.Explore Your Body

You cannot help your partner understand what you like if you don't know what you like. Try masturbating manually and with a toy while viewing ethical porn or reading an erotic novel. Touch your breasts, use lubricant, set the mood.

Genuinely have sex with yourself so that you can truly innerstand what gets you to your orgasm.

Are you in the majority where you require a combination of clioral and vaginal stimulation? What trauma do you have around your sexuality, from this lifetime and others, from your personal experiences and from those of your ancestors (our bodies hold that too)?

4.Educate Yourself

Based on what you found in your research, browse the internet or connect with others in order to figure out ways to bridge the gaps in your pleasure, making for one less statistic of the orgasm gap. Goop has a great resource entitled the "14 Best Books About Sex That are Worth the Read" and is a great place to start.

5.Communicate and Consent

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Be sure to talk to your partners before you all have sex (not necessarily right before) and after. See what's working and what's not. Try to communicate your sexual trauma so that your partner doesn't accidentally trigger you in any way. After all, if you can't even relax during sex, an orgasm becomes that much more difficult to attain. DO NOT be afraid to say what didn't please you.

The ancient African-American proverb "a closed mouth doesn't get fed" will never not be relevant. And also make sure you're open and honest about the kinks that you may need integrated in order to feel sexually fulfilled.

These discussions will make sure you're sexually compatible with your partner and that your partner is willing and ready to do what it takes to ensure you both have a pleasurable experience.

6.Educate Those in Your Life

From your sexual partners to your children, make sure you're teaching everything from the anatomy and how it works, to the ways in which most porn should not be the pleasure map that is pulled from.

Are you a member of our insiders squad? Join us in the xoTribe Members Community today!

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AH AH AH AH HOMESTUCK POSTING! cower in fear. anyways, ive never really liked jane's pesterquest sprites. ive seen a lot of ppl get sorta defensive about it, cause shes chubby, but thats, like, evil why i dont like her sprite. its got some, lile, genuinely messed up anatomy and shading, and i wanted to fix some of that and make her look less offputting. obvs im not the best with shading but i sill tried my best to fix up some of the issues with this sprite

#homestuck #artists on tumblr #art #autumn's abominations #jane crocker #pesterquest #friendsim #mspfa #i am a huge jane fan so her sprite makes me a little upset

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hi, sassy!! hope your day is going great, for the ask game: 1, 33, 44 and 48 please

Hey thanks for asking!

What’s the last recipe you tried?

The last recipe I tried was my brother in law's green beans at Thanksgiving! He cooks them with garlic, bacon, and some other spices I don't remember and they are bomb as fuck.

Who or what are you missing right now?

This is probably a bit too deep and sad, but I'm missing the "me" from this summer. I was happy, healthy, doing really well mentally. I miss her. I miss that feeling. My health is kinda crap now and I'm exhausted from all the things I've had to deal with the last 3 months.

An artwork that makes you feel things.

I've always loved The Birth of Venus, by Sandro Botticelli 1486. The colors, the anatomy, the overall style. I just think it's really beautiful and makes me feel happy.

What’s different now from last year?

So much. This time last year my parents and husband had covid, and it was disasterous. I was also much worse off with my own health issues that are now somewhat fixed. But overall, what's different from a year ago is me as a person. I've really matured since last year. I also have these wonderful friends and mutuals now from here on tumblr. I have this amazing blog where I post this cool story people love! So it's not all bad, just very different.

#ask game #not obey me

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Software Pūmanawa Object Creation

In this post I will illustrate my process of creating an object in Adobe illustrator 2024 using the skills I have learnt over the past week. I've got to admit this was not a simple process, and I probably did not choose the best object- or animal. In whch i chose to create a cat.

First things first I set up my workspace, bringing out the swatches, gradient and layers tool. I also toggled the control bar at the top of the screen. For my file settings I had it set to pixels and RGB.

Then I begun laying down simple shapes, trying to get a rough understanding of where I wanted to place parts of the cat. I started by using the ellipse tool, creating a circular shape for the head. Next I used the rectangle tool and adjusted the shapes to my liking.

The next thing I did was place additional points on the circle using the + key. I used these points to drag out fur and a muzzle for the cat. I used rougly 3-4 different points around the head for this process.

My next stage was to begin shaping the body and tail of the cat, I rounded it out and created a tail that curves around the body. I did this by using the pen tool and creating some anchor points.

The next step was to try and make some sort of front legs, this, as you can see, did not go very well. it was incredibly difficult and it was very very fustrating. However, I still had to persavere. I created this first front leg using the pen tool.

The next thing I had to do, was create a second front leg. I did this by duplicating the first let and deleting the segments that werent visible from the perspective.

My next two steps were the creation of the Eyes and nose, and the hind leg. The hind leg was the difficult part, trying to get it to sit correctly. The easy part was the eye, I used the ellipse tool once more and then used the gradient tool selecting the second gradient option and then dragging the green up from the swatches. The nose I later changed but it was also fairly simple, just using the pen tool.

A quick short step was just adding the white shine to the eye, all that was nessacary was using the Ellipse tool again but having the stroke and fill set to white. This however is where it went down hill.

You might look at this and go 'hey! thats not the same cat!' its because it isnt, excluding the head. I ran into an issue where when i went to fill the body there was a giant invisible white square, I tried for ages to fix this but only ran into more issues. One of the ways I tried to fix the problem was entirely redoing the body, which is why the shape changed so drastically. After googling and searching for solutions and finding naught I decided on just making the cat white, which wasnt my plan but it was the only thing I could think of. As for the coloring I added an inner ear and redid the nose, setting the stroke and line to two diffrent pinks, one dark and one slightly lighter.

My last and final step was adding some sort of shadow, as the body is nearly fully incolorable I went for adding a shadow to the bottom of the cat and the front leg. You can actually see a bit of the problem square on the front leg shadow. It is incredibly fustrating. This above is the final version of my design. Though not entirely happy with the outcome ( because of the coloring issues ) Its cute enough and i think it demonstrates my learning. I also seperated what I could into layers.

Overall, the most difficult and slowest part was definitly the coloring process I chose the cat because I like cats and know their general anatomy, but I think id choose maybe a building or something next time. I definitly need more practice with the pen tool as its still a bit difficult to wrap my head around.

#adobe illustrator 2024

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Unit 3 Reflective Journal - Lim Lin Year 1 Production Arts for Screen

This unit introduced us to storyboarding and previsualization. The same script was given to everyone, and we had to break it down and create quick thumbnails for each scene. For my storyboard, I wanted to go for a more comedic tone for most scenes.

After the first rough sketches, I noticed many issues with perspective and staging in the shots drawn. Moreover, when looking at things from afar, many of the shots looked staged or repetitive. A bigger issue was the 180-degree rule which I struggled with, making some panels hard to follow.

For the tutorials, we were given quick exercises to draw different frames from various films in minutes using Photoshop. The horizon line and perspective were important to place subject matter in the frames correctly, and the goal for these exercises was to draw fast and to not go into detail. As I am slow at drawing, I struggled to do the first few exercises as the thumbnails were not clear enough and kept redrawing parts, then ended up not having enough time to finish.

The next week, we focused on figure drawing. Emphasis was placed on gestures rather than the anatomy of the models shown on the screen. We were reminded frequently to draw with the line of action and avoid focusing too much on the muscles. Using the line of action, a figure can be drawn faster and quicker with energy and movement.

The drawing gets built up with structure and form and supported by paying attention to the areas of tension and structure of the form. An advice that helped me a lot was the guideline that the angle of the shoulders and hips should be the opposite of each other, though there were some photographs which had the angles hard to identify. Drawing from the feet upwards also helped me balance the figure more but it is still hard to achieve.

We also did another gesture drawing exercise traditionally using charcoal. Using a physically larger canvas gave me a clearer idea of how to make poses look less rigid.

After more practice, I began to work on the storyboard drafts. By drawing on larger spaces on the paper, I was able to draw the panels clear enough to trace on Photoshop.

For the first scene, to make the monologue less repetitive, made the camera zoom in and out of Ash more often. However, the part where he puts down the spade and picks up the arm seems out of place. For the final animatic, two more panels are added in between to create a better flow.

On paper, the walking shot from his point of view seemed okay but after adding it to premiere pro I realised the timing was too short so I added another panel of him walking to slow the pace down to create suspense. For the last few shots of this scene, I wanted to make the angles more dynamic. The scene of him dropping the arm out of fear is titled to show his shock and fear, and the part where he runs into the house is shot from a wide high vantage point to make him appear smaller as if overwhelmed by the environment.

The next scene has more comedic lines and mainly focused on the two character's dialogue so the compositions are flatter and closer shots are used to focus on their upper body language and facial expressions.

The exception of this was the point when Ash desperately pleads Bex to take him seriously as she seems indifferent towards the morbid idea that a dead body is in their garden.

The scene ends with Ash dashing out of the house to show Bex what he discovered.

For the third scene, I already started on the animatic and cleaned the previous scenes digitally, so I did not have time to fix the rough storyboards on paper and instead worked on the remaining panels on Photoshop. As such, I also included the formatted storyboard for the last scene in this blog.

I tried using as many dynamic angles as possible as well as sharp shapes with the spade. I didn’t really use many references from other films for this unit but did so for the last scene as I needed to learn how to create suspense and action. Because the story is mainly lighthearted, I decided to use implied violence. Thus, the part where Bex hits Ash with the spade was referenced from this scene in American Psycho.

I thought this worked well with the storyboard as it follows a similar context of an oblivious person not aware of the murder setup of the more dominant figure, in my case Ash and Bex respectively.

For the hand-in, we were given a brief introduction to premiere pro as it will be the video editing software used for the animatic and previs. The main thing to keep in mind was the organisation of files as it is easy to lose media when transferring files across devices, which I experienced multiple times because of wrong file locations.

The Previs is to be made using blender as there are several things to take note of for the process to be done quickly. The shots made in 3D are meant to be throwaway art that is easy to make, so we were told to keep things simple and only model what is visible. What should be focused on is the shot's composition, clarity and timing. Like premiere pro, it is also good practice to make collections and to keep things in groups. Every single shot is a separate blender file, and the timeline is the number of frames in each shot.

For most scenes, I used a focal range between 35-15mm for more dynamic angles. I also used the sapling tree gen addon for the leaves, which helped a lot to make the lighting more effective for the setting of a garden.

The result looked like this when comparing the previs with the animatic for scene 1. To create the establishing shot, I used after effects and blender keyframes then imported the video files back into premiere pro.

Animatic: https://artslondon-my.sharepoint.com/:v:/g/personal/l_lin0320231_arts_ac_uk/EY_ypRbvIwFBki4taSGtOaIBNeLFT2Ro5l1go4EiA1VqNg?e=9amh7F

Previs: https://artslondon-my.sharepoint.com/:v:/g/personal/l_lin0320231_arts_ac_uk/EemLgbhE-29NlVcD5_AGvS0Bhi1cmr7oJtFlUNFCGOR07Q?e=SW38pW

In case the OneDrive links won’t open, I have also uploaded them below on this blog.

Overall, If I had managed my time better, I would have wanted to use more references and created character designs to distinguish the two figures better. On the other hand, I felt that this unit helped me to address a big problem in my work which is my drawing speed and clarity which I think had improved over the month. I hope I would be able to work more efficiently in future animation units.

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Not Going Through This Kind of Relationship Again

I didn't want to write a rant like this. But after the actions of these individuals, I think it's time I shed some light on them.

WARNING

A lot of these screenshots contain some incredibly smutty comments.

I used to be in a server on Discord operated by KendraEevee. Looking back, I only joined this server because the owner seemed like a nice person. But after I joined, I was met with some unwarranted skepticism by an arrogant guy named Jon. I thought he was a bit stuck-up. But that didn't stop me from visiting the server from time to time.

As time passed, however, I got tired of some of the things the other users in the server did. They get mad about shows like Teen Titans GO when it mocks nostalgic fanboys like them who can't take the fact that Teen Titans GO is a self-parody and state that "cartoons from the 80s and 90s will ALWAYS be better." They also shamelessly show off their immense lust by sharing risqué artwork in channels that are appropriately labeled as being for all ages. There would be points where members would role-play in the same channel and say questionable things.

Even with all this, I continued to visit the server. It wasn't until Thursday night when my relationship with both the moderator and her server took a sudden decline.

While looking through the servers I was in, Kendra sent me a message asking if she could share some artwork I made for her on her server. (She was one of the people I planned to make Christmas gifts for this year.)

I wanted to respond. But I couldn't since I had a final exam to take. When I tried to talk to her the next morning, I discovered that I was mentioned in an art channel. That's when I saw that she uploaded the art piece without my consent or knowledge.

This was uploaded a minute after she asked for my permission. Not only that, but someone else butted in and shared some artwork he made with an AI art program right when Kendra shared mine.

Yes. These are actual messages that were on the channel.

My artwork was re-uploaded without my consent. But it didn't matter anyway because it was tossed to the side by some furries who don't know how to keep their thoughts to themselves. And that's what I hate the most about this server. The people there are not only AGES older than I am, but they're also perverted, condescending, and aimless. I thought the people here were nice. But after the things I saw, I don't want to see them again. (That also goes for Kendra.)

Whenever I talk about how awful my life is, they have the nerve to say that they care for me and that they love me. But whenever I upload anything, they brush it off or call my work amateurish. At least I work hard to make sure my drawing abilities are on a somewhat professional level. Meanwhile, Kendra's artwork continues to look like this:

The anatomy is poor, the background and set pieces are so basic, a child could draw them, and the angles for the characters are incredibly off, given the view of the chair. There's a lot of issues in Kendra's art that have yet to be fixed. (Like focusing too much on sexual undertones to the point that the art piece could be labeled as pornographic.) Yet, people like the ones in her server think this stuff is as good as the Mona Lisa.

We all know her female characters never wear anything under their clothes. (Seriously, if they wore bras, you'd never be able to see the shape of each breast.)

#personal #rant

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