#traumatic childhoods

[chronicallyonlinesworld]

#bpd stuff #bpd #actually bpd #bpd feels #bpd life #bpd blog #actually traumatized #childhood trauma

[recoverr]

you're not a monster. you're you. you're flawed, yes, but you're also incredibly alive. just human. real. capable of great things, capable of change and growth, too. don't define yourself by the inner critic lashing out at you. you're not your worst moments.

#mental health #recovery #self care #self love #positivity #reminders #healing #be kind to yourself #trauma recovery #cptsd recovery #post traumatic stress disorder #complex ptsd #childhood trauma #trauma #mine.

[neuroticboyfriend]

As an adult still living with their abusive parent, I often find that affirmations meant to empower me are unhelpful at best. They often feel like they're overstating the amount of agency I have as an adult; I've spent my entire life being abused. It's all I know and I have a lifetime of conditioning and nervous system damage to show for it.

All that doesn't just go away now that I'm older than 18, and neither do the material circumstances that keep me here. Even though I have more legal rights and have grown since I was younger, I am still not in control by the very nature of being the victim in an abusive relationship. So, for those who relate, here are some affirmations that might hit different:

My abuser does not have my best interests in mind, even if they think they do.

I am my own person; my mind and body belong to me.

My feelings are justified, and I deserve to feel and express them.

I am doing what I need to survive, and that is all I need to do.

I am doing my best given the knowledge, resources, and support I have.

I am the only person who can decide what is best for me.

My situation is unfair and wrong. I deserve to be happy and safe.

I do not have to engage in toxic positivity; that will only hurt me.

As long as I am alive, there is something good in this life for me - no matter how small.

I have inherent rights just because I exist.

I shouldn't have to deal with this on my own; I deserve support and protection.

Everything I need is something I deserve. Everything I deserve is something I need.

If any of these don't resonate, feel free to discard them. Everyone finds comfort and empowerment differently.

#softspoonie #disabled #disability #trauma #trauma survival #affirmations #trauma survivor #trauma victim #abuse survival #abuse survivor #abuse victim #abuse #child abuse #survivor #childhood trauma #traumatized #trauma recovery #cptsd #ptsd #mental health #mental health support #mental health tips #healing #recovery #complex ptsd #c ptsd #c-ptsd #mental illness #mentally ill

[bipolarmango]

Wild things I have learnt in therapy:

When a child cries, parents are supposed to comfort them, not punish them

Parents are, in fact, supposed to want to spend time with their children

Children too have a right to privacy, meaning parents are not allowed to read their diaries etc and then punish them for the thoughts they found about

Children are allowed to be upset and cry

Children don't have to earn the love and attention from their parents by performing various things

Children are not supposed to be scared of going home and/or their parents

Children are not supposed to be physically abused and even a little bit of hitting is actually physical abuse

Parents are not supposed to expect that children are mentally as mature as other adults

Children are not supposed to be told that they're an accident, a burden, or something the parents regret

Children are not supposed to be scared and ashamed of themselves or feel like failures because of their parents

#childhood ptsd #complex post traumatic stress disorder #childhood trauma #actually mentally ill #ptsd #living with ptsd #ptsd problems #complex ptsd #ptsd recovery

[riversidekid]

#not mine #bpd #borderline personality disorder #actually borderline #borderline #bpd rage #ocd #bpd thoughts #bpd things #mental illness #anger issues #trauma #traumatized #childhood trauma #art

[manincaffeine]

Has anyone else just straight up not been happy since they were 12

#desiblr #desi tumblr #txt post #txt #trauma #childhood #traumatic childhood #dark academia #light academia #life quotes #adhd #bpd thoughts #spilled thoughts #writers on tumblr

[sentientsky]

hmmmmgrhhf thinking bout crowley and childhood trauma and abandonment and rage again

#me (a traumatized queer with mommy issues): wow this show is so fucking relatable. why isn’t it getting more attention in the media?? #sorry for the pixelly quality it is one in the morning and I cannot find better resolution images #good omens #crowley #ineffable husbands #good omens 2 #aziraphale #aziracrow #go2 #ineffable lovers #ineffable wives #good omens season 2 #on childhood trauma #gomens #gomens 2 #tw: mention of trauma #david tennant #aziraphale x crowley #crowley x aziraphale #on rage #angel!crowley #anthony j crowley

[taxinealkaloids]

horrible children who are. so so mean to each other

#tlt #the locked tomb #my art #precanon griddlehark dynamic is SO funny. the way they are just no-holds-barred absolutely AWFUL to each other. #the fact that harrow made fun of gideon for saying 'i love you' over her dead mother's grave so gideon nearly choked her to death #and then when gideon recalls this story in gtn she's just like 'yeah lol we were wild kids' #also remember when gideon responded to harrow being kind of bossy with 'your parents must have been so relieved to die' like #imagine saying that knowing full well her parents killed themselves in front of her when she was ten!!!! insane!! #there's no sense of going 'too far' between them. they casually hit what would be considered by most ppl to be 'too far' and then keep going #anyway i don't usually go in for characters-being-kids-together stuff but i will admit that childhood gid+harrow #following each other around absolutely terrorizing each other because they're desperate for each other's attention but also full of #hatred and vitriol #does compel me #like...2 very lonely very traumatized children with only each other for company. what will they do? ENDLESSLY TORTURE EACH OTHER!!! #and yet they are each other's emotional support person. its so good.

[tryingtogetaway]

me when i realize that the media i consume during bad times that makes me feel seen and understood is also making me wrongly believe that refusing to let anyone in is a reasonable coping skill, fueling my self-hatred, and worsening my ability to be vulnerable with the people i care about:

#i had to stop listening to car seat headrest when i decided i wanted to get better #vulnerability #fleabag #bojack horseman #normal people #a little life #phoebe bridgers #car seat headrest #csh #sharp objects #skins #euphoria #coping #coping mechanism #childhood trauma #actually traumatized #bpd #actually bpd #bpd stuff #bpd problems #actually borderline #anxious attachment #attachment issues #cptsd thoughts #just cptsd things #actually cptsd #ptsd #actually ptsd #actually autistic #traumatized autistic

[int3r3st1ng]

Has this been done? Is it correct?

#anthony lockwood #lucy carlyle #locklyle #lockwood and co #lockwood & co #l&co #traumatized characters #childhood trauma #locknation

[screaming-heart]

when you’re healing, you will fuck up. maybe you’ll relapse, maybe you’ll do something you know is gonna hurt you, maybe you’ll deprive yourself of something you need, whatever. but healing isn’t linear, its wibbly wobbly and weird. you’re not terrible for messing up, you’re not terrible for not being ready to move forward, you’re not terrible for not being perfect. you still deserve healing, and you still deserve respect.

#osdd system #actually did #dissociative identity disorder #trauma shit #trauma #The Colony Talks #childhood trauma #DID System #actually osdd #actually traumatized

[thexspiral]

Parts of PTSD that no one talks about

Not knowing who to be angry at.

Being angry with yourself for letting it happen even if there was no way to stop it.

Crying and not knowing why.

Flashbacks where nothing bad is happening but it feels bad.

Denying that it ever even happened because your brain doesn't want to process it.

Wanting to go back to it so it feels "bad enough."

Intentionally triggering yourself to feel like your suffering is real.

Being angry all the time at every little thing.

Getting triggered by minor things and then being treated poorly because of your reaction to said trigger.

Hating change.

Being scared to sleep because you know you'll have nightmares.

Struggling to find hobbies that you enjoy.

Feeling like you're barely human.

Struggling to be positive about anything at all.

Feeling like you may be manipulating people around you into liking you.

Feeling like no one believes you because you barely even believe yourself.

Treating your past self as a "dead" version of you and feeling like a completely different person.

Being tired all the time, both physically and mentally.

Feeling like if you talk about it, your safety will be at risk.

Feeling the need to hide your trauma from everyone, including professionals there to help them.

Being paranoid everyone is going to hurt you.

Being physically incapable of talking about it.

Feeling like you're stuck reliving your trauma.

Having to skip classes or work days because of flashbacks.

Mourning your past self.

Wanting to hurt others so they feel what you feel.

Wondering why it had to be you and it wasn't someone else.

Chronic pain.

Clinging to "safe people."

Not being able to find a solid sense of identity.

Forcing yourself to be around people who trigger you for the sake of politeness.

#actually traumatized #trauma #childhood trauma #ptsd #complex ptsd #actually ptsd #did #actually did #system #dissociative identity disorder #mental health #actually mentally ill #psychology #awareness #osdd #actually osdd #osdd system #osddid #cptsd #actually cptsd #post traumatic stress disorder #complex post traumatic stress disorder #complex trauma

[l0sing-mymind]

i wish the things that happened to me never happened

6/12/23

#bpd vent #actually bpd #vent #bpd problems #ventcore #venting #bipolar disorder #actually traumatized #trauma survivor #trauma #childhood trauma

[fffrost]

Get rekt

#tomas vrbada #this is genuinely all the art I had time for this week #other than commissions #shout out to commissioners #anyway GOD I miss drawing #bi Han #Tomas snapping out the sick moves #hashtag childhood trauma #hashtag still getting traumatized #I’m so tired good night #mk #fffrost art #fffrost doodle #meme ig #mk1 #mk1 sub zero

[guess-who-relapsed]

#sa survivor #csa survivor #trauma memes #actually traumatized #hypersexual #sex repulsed #actually dissociative #childhood trauma #actually borderline #actually bpd #bpd vent