#took awhile but it’s fine

[deanthe]

JUST CAN'T

i finally bought bomb rush cyberfunk the other night and i've been having a blast!!

#controls took awhile to get used to because i've never played this kind of game before #but in the end everything's fine and i'l having a ball and a blast now #a couple balls and a couple blasts #bomb rush cyberfunk #bomb rush crew #brc #brc red #brc faux #hideki naganuma

[tenkotenkotenkotenkotenko]

"Dragon's Breath" can refer to both the dragon tribes' affinity for elemental magic, and to the firearms commonly used by members of the Pendragon family

#It took awhile because I forgot I am ASS at drawing guns #it came out fine but it took me awhile to get the lineart how I liked #oc art #my ocs #dragon girl

[literallyfault]

i have so many things to say but at the same time i am speechless. i've been sobbing and crying for the whole day straight. i have never thought a day would happen when i would feel this way because of a person i have never even known in real live the only regret i will have is that i didn't have a chance to meet him in person and just say "thank you. for inspiration. for dreams. for everything". i wish i did discover them much earlier but alas.

Reita, my dearest, may you rest in peace 💔 you will rock forever 🔥

#i am still in denial #it took me a whole day to proceed #literally the first thing i saw in the morning was “hey your favorite person have passed away” #literally yesterday i got so many gazette interactions for the first time in awhile and wanted to get back into a fandom oh dear #i didnt suspect anything yesterday when i saw his tweet like awww rei-chan is feeling nostalgic it seems me too NOW IT IS SO SUSPICIOUS #he was a reason i got into vk #he was a reason i finally started learning japanese #he was a reason i wanted to move to japan just to see their lives more often #i wish i did visit at least one #i literally started listening to them a month later they were in a world tour in 2019 #its been five years and it's finally seemed like lives are getting back but oh boi my dream of seeing them all together is none existent #i hope other members are fine #ruki is the main concern honestly he lost two closest friend so recently #i dont wanna speculate but i just hope everyone on is gonna be okay #and i know reita would be so angry with all of us being so sad because of him but it is so hard to comprehend #i still have so many things to say #reita #the gazette #れいた #ガゼット #visual kei #vkei #v系 #ヴィジュアル系

[introvert-celeste]

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#vent #sorry this is my last vent for the night #but sirius has almost all the signs of a cat at the end of its life #i can't deal with this I can't #i want him to come home even if he dies soon after I just want him here #I was just thinking about everything in hindsight and it feels so terribly obvious #it's too much #he was FINE a few days ago #like yes he's had increasing problems for awhile but I really took a drastic turn for the worse #one day he was eating and drinking normally and being his normal amount of active #and the next day he's like this

[ninjastar107]

ive spent so much time worrying about whether a concept makes sense or not that I forget the reason why I make them in the first place.

It doesnt matter if its odd or weird if it's made for fun, especially if it's made for oneself.

#That and well. If you have something haunting your brain for awhile it will make sense eventually haha #This is how I felt about Proj. Arcadia for a long time. It took awhile to get it to a state where it made sense. I still feel as though it #Is percieved as 'weird' though which is fine.

[n1ghtpers0n15]

HOLY HECK I FINALLY FINISHED MY GOOFY SMAUGUST-TIE COMIC THINGY

Poor Gigi stumbled into the wrong place, (how, I do not know) and into the wrong person, luckily someone else caught her first.

It a goofy comic but I’m proud of the colors, especially all their faces ✨

I knew it would take a bit but YEEEESHE, was fun to finish up tho :}

#probably took awhile cuz I kept focusin on tiny details that no one would notice #whoops #Nate will b fine with Gigi’s existence #…eventually #……did ya know some turtles could hiss? #I didn’t for awhile until I heard one recently #n1ghtpers0n15 #night 0’clock draws #digital art #oc #digital drawing #nathaniel flint #artist of tumblr #captain nathaniel flint #artist on tumblr #comic #treasure planet oc #gigi #smaugest #smaugust #captain flint #billy bones #Dragon versions #dragon billy #dragon Nathaniel #treasure planet #dragon #g/t #pirates #my art

[floral-hex]

This is, I think, my 3rd night on buspirone and I have to say I hate it so far. I’ll be fine before taking it, then after about an hour I get hit with a huge wave of anxiety. Granted, I’m supposed to start out taking it before bed but toooo beee fair I think that’s because it makes a lot of people drowsy (and I am actually in bed, if that counts for anything). I’m so on edge and anxious. If the side effects don’t get better in a couple of days, I’ll call the doctor, I guess. Disappointing.

#last night’s anxiety was so shitty #it kept me up all night and made me feel so hopeless #I had to take a klonopin to relax after awhile #and I only have a couple of those left until my next refill later this week #and I shouldn’t even need to take them! I took one to counteract the anxiety from an anxiety med! that’s bullshit! #now my head hurts and I feel on edge #and I’m 99% sure it’s the buspirone because I’ve been doing mostly fine up until I take the pill at night #I have my first therapy session on Wednesday so I guess while I’m trauma dumping I’ll ask their opinion on if I should keep taking it #god I just feel like everything is dying. I can feel the end of everything coming. It’s all fading away from me and I can’t stop it. #this sucks bro #ughhh #text

[rosicheeks]

Why not pierce your ears now?

😂

#Hahahhaha wanna hear my pierced ear story?? #ok ok #so I grew up always wanting my ears pierced #but my parents wouldn’t let me until my 16th birthday #so my 16th birthday came and I instantly got my ears pierced #it’s a little more difficult for me because I’m allergic to nickle #rosie fun fact 😂 #nickle is the only thing that I’m allergic to (that I know of) #so when I got my ears pierced it went fine and everything #unfortunately had to pay for the more expensive earrings and all that fun stuff #but it was fine #I took care of them did everything that the person told me to #then after awhile I finally took them out cause I wanted to change them #and whenever I would take it out overnight they would start to close up #so I eventually started piercing the hole over and over again whenever I wanted a new earring in #I mean to be fair it was awhile ago and I was a young teenager #and also now that I’m thinking about it idk why I didn’t just leave the earrings in overnight? #I think cause I wanted them to breathe cause they were hurting? #idk it was a long time ago #so I did get my ears pierced #I really wanted a few tbh #but after that I gave up #also didn’t want to pay for the more expensive earrings #I’m sure it’s better now cause I feel like it’s a common issue for people but idk maybe I’m wrong #I just know I needed to get like official gold or sterling silver earrings or something #and I just wanted to buy the cheap shitty ones but I couldn’t 😔 #maybe one day I’ll try to pierce them again #but I think I’d rather use my money for a tattoo instead idk #I really want tattoos 😤😤 #ask

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

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#took two adderall and i feel like im gonna die a little #dont take meds that arent yours kids #bur my coworker gives me some of his Adderall occasionally while we're at work #it helps the day go by faster and gets the restaurant hella clean #last time he only gave me one at a time #but today he gave me two and one extra for later or tomorrow #and for awhile it was great. ive gotten so much cleaning done #but then i noticed im breathing super hard and my chest feels a little funky #and i feel kinda feverish but maybe thats just because i was around hot stuff for awhile. and a bit shaky #like im sure itll be fine once it works its way out of my system #but uh. until then i feel like today wont be ideal #tbh i feel great mentally tho. im having a great time cleaning. and the day has gone by soooo quickly #i just gotta ignore the feeling of imminent death

[pollen]

:(

#i'm so so sad lately. i don't feel like there is any way out of it but there is. i just can't see it now #and that's ok! it just means i need to spend more time knowing myself in this feeling #it'll be fine. i know this. i'm also sad however because i have extensor tendonitis UGH i haaaaaate overuse injuries #i took 3 days off doing anything on my feet really just so it could rest and um. back to square one after my workout today #i didn't even do anything crazy in the gym. but i can't keep like. walking at a 15% incline at a brisk pace for 70 minutes #every other day and not expect it to continue to bother me #so i'm gonna like. idk. cycle and elliptical and rowing machine my way into a healthy foot again #and i have to wonder if just walking with no incline at all might be good for awhile after it's not bugging me anymore #ough i just love when my cardio makes me sweat so much i can't hold onto anything #and i don't want to run and aggravate it smh..... recumbent bike here i come #see i'm not sad anymore i started thinking about cardio

[picturesofashe]

A spot to think, to relax, and bask in the beauty of Ishgard.

#FFXIV #if lost please return to ishgard #ashern vee #that tower took less time to climb than making these shots #also getting used to doing stuff like this! takes awhile but i think i'm getting the hang of it #anyway #Ashern likes to perch in spots and just #sit there awhile and let his thoughts churn #let his mind sort through and process recent events #if he has time to #although sometimes his mind just goes blank and he stares out with an empty head #which is fine #sometimes ya just don't wanna think

[empressofthelibrary]

1A and/or 2A for Jason and mirrorverse Bailey

I like that you're broken, Broken like me Maybe that makes me a fool I like that you're lonely, Lonely like me I could be lonely with you...

These two were supposed to be a plot device and a private joke to myself, and now I'm having emotions about them??? Illegal

#making this Their Song is absolutely cheating because i heard it for the first time on a friend's Jason playlist but i don't care #and Jason's arm absolutely doesn't fit with Bailey's wing there but shhhhhh it's fine #anyway i'm gonna have to start tagging for these two #we've wound up with this weird angsty journey from coworkers-with-benefits to Morticia-and-Gomez-level married #and i think this is where it starts to pivot -- nightmares are rarer when they're together though neither will admit it #but they still happen once in awhile #also Jason gets his hair colored in to illustrate that *this* version of him never died and took a swim #which ironically was 'mainline' Bailey's second clue that something had gone terribly terribly wrong

[scoreplings]

almost four months out from ending a ten year long friendship / three year long relationship. seven years of saying we’d live together our whole lives and planning the house we’d move into together. where we’d build our life together. and that life isn’t going to exist now. and it sucks. and it hurts. but i am doing better now than i have in years. and its bittersweet because of that pain. but its still good. i have people in my life who love me. i have family, and friends, and a boyfriend i love so much it makes me feel crazy. and i’m about to move across the country and get a chance for as fresh of a start as i could ask for. anyone who’s hurting or hopeless or heartbroken i want you to know things do get better. you do get over it. you do keep on living. you find people and things that make you happy and you move on. you’ve got better things coming for you ❤️

#i am stupid in love and i was thinking today #like what if that guy was it for me yknow? what if he was my soul mate what if the fact we were together so long means we were meant to be #together forever and ive made a terrible mistake and i should have tried harder #but yknow what? #1) he never tried for me. it was always me reaching out to fix things no matter who’s ‘fault’ an issue was. and i dont want to do that for #the rest of my life. #and 2) so what! i was not happy with him. i was miserable to the point of sucidality while i was with him. if that’s my soulmate then i dont #want one! #and of course getting him out of my life hasn’t fixed everything. #i am still depressed sometimes. #but a year ago i was having daily anxiety attacks and physically self harming and making plans to kill myself #now the last time i had an anxiety attack was about a week ago. and i cant remember the one before that #ive been suicidal once that i can remember in the past two weeks and i had no plan and took no action toward it. #just last a few hours until i calmed down and ive been fine since. #its. really incredible. #how good for me cutting him out was. even if it made me miserable for awhile #i dont think i’ll be ‘over’ him for a long time. but i am at the very least able to say with certainty its a good thing hes out of my life #sorry for being cringe anyway. goodnight i love you

[dadizz]

Im so sad my phone cant handle pikmin bloom :(

Truly like the only reason id go on long walks

Maybe ill start listening to podcasts again lol

#my one from before tumbled off my desk #it hit a piece of metal and my screen broke a little on the edge #it was fine for awhile but the bottom half would s t r o b e white light and then it broke worse and my inputs went in wrong #then the entire screen started going pure white #and i gave up #it took like a week to stop getting jumpscared by alarms #my rambles

[catboysalmon]

I lost my fucking aspect bracelet

#FUCKFUCKFUCK #its fine. normal #i can make a new one!!!! #it only took FUCKING FOREVER #and the other one has been curling up weird for awhile #listen ive been overdue to remake them but i dont. wanna #aliens can talk

[jimgandolfini]

when my coworkers were roasting the old man and my director said “he actually can have a good sense of humor sometimes” and my coworker scoffed “[the old man]? when?”

she was so right for that except I just sat there like they don’t know that he’s actually (surprisingly) so funny when he wants to [redacted]

#I too was so shocked to find out he got jokes #it’s genuinely so weird that he is so funny though took awhile to get used to/accept tbh 😂 #so many times​ I have lol’d and then been like wow cannot believe he just said something that was legitimately humorous that made me lol #his work persona is so finely honed with privacy and indifference and impulsiveness and dismissal and unreasonable commands #he really be so different 🤔