#too much work to little not-work ugh

[puppyeared]

its so hard to watch time pass when things like careers and assignments exist. what do you mean im supposed to take that seriously

#I have an assignment that was due a week ago and I really really dont want to do it. I have to but i dont want to #im probably making it worse because my brain has built a wall around it so now i can’t do literally anything else until thats done. but #because I don’t want to do it I’m just kinda stuck. turns out this is what they meant when they said emotional regulation is part of #exec dysfunction.. I’ll have a thought like if I get a little bit of it done now i can get it over with. I can just submit something #and then not even 5 minutes later itll be like ugh but I have to draw all the assets out. I have to write things and make spreads ugh #and its just flopping between those two things. i hate it when ppl are like well how much time do you need to work on one thing #because BOY id love to know too. I’d love to know exactly when my brain wants to cooperate with me and work around that but I cant #even my period can’t decide when it wants to punch me in the stomach. which is kinda funny in the grand scheme of things but still #its so weird im just lying on my bed thinking abt all this like damn.. the time will pass anyways no matter what I decide to do.. damn…. #if I submit that assignment now and take the L I literally won’t die. it’ll just be a deduction on an assignment nobody will ask me about #I know this but I’m still stressing myself about it so my thoughts aren’t really connecting to my body. weird #maybe its because Im having a hard time looking forward to things. theres definitely a lot I should be living for but I don’t really feel #a strong attachment to it I guess? it’s been like this for a while with holidays and meeting with friends so I just don’t #I kinda figured its because im pretty passionless and its more like passing interest. but it’s not very fun when it feels like I’m going to #be living distraction to distraction for the next 70 years or so lol #idk it kind of feels like slowly bleeding out. which is funny because I actually did experience blood loss this week #had a 30 minute nosebleed and literally could not stand. also it felt like someone was pinching the back of my brain which was interesting #yapping #does this count as vent #vent #Ive just been making an oc carrd and contemplate changing my blog header for the past 3 days honestly

[mlobsters]

supernatural s1e16 shadow (w. eric kripke)

aka the first time i had a full-tilt meltdown over this show.

#supernatural #eric kripke #spn 1x16 #sam and dean #sam winchester #dean winchester #mygifs #spngifs #sam and dean mush #how to feel about your brother #like watching soon to be exes-the relationship is clearly over and one flaying themselves open showing their squishy insides #trying to make it work but the other is gently shutting them down and saying it's over #wholly lost my shit about this. late enough in s1 where we know this is A LOT of (too much?) emotional vulnerabilty for dean #but also way too early in any show's run to expect this level of emotional vulnerability and guts being strewn about #truly threw me for a loop. but it certainly set the stage for where they would go with sam and dean over the years #Dean's little eyebrow raise to the “I'd do anything for you” and sad half smile “could be” just punch me in the gut #and that sweet open expression talking about being together and a family again. ugh. such a rarity to see that on him #and Sam's “i don't want them to be” absolutely crushing. in the kindest manner. #but by the end dean's got his walls back up. oh my heart.

[covertblizzard]

jaykyle au where they're theatre kids in the same school but they're not the actors jason's the scriptwriter/director and kyle is the prop manager (i don't know the official terms sorry) and they'd probably do an amazing job on the backstage setting if they could stop arguing for 5 whole seconds about their artistic visions and ideas and how "this would obviously work better this way"

#jason todd #kyle rayner #jaykyle #mypost #dc thoughts #vp of the club: maybe we should find some other people to do the job if they can't get along? #pres of the club: no they're both talented af and i want this to be raving success just knock their heads tgt and tell them to play nice or #i'll make them wear the get along shirt again #WAIT ONE SEC DONNA'S THE PRES and overseer she's pissed bcos kyle played the same role last year and he was chill then #wally's vp no 1 and backstage manager and he's thinking of kicking kyle out #dick's vp no 2 and main lead and he's thinking of kicking jason out bcos it's embarrassing and annoying to work with your younger siblings #kon helps kyle with props and bart is one of the actors and kon is jealous af about it he grumbles a little #roy is the fight scene choreographer #i'm trying to think of something for garth but the only thing that comes to mind i'm not sure are fitting enough #actor manager? weapon manager? oooh maybe pet manager if they have animals... human and pet manager???? hr department but including animals #ooooh maybe pet manager if they have animals #raven can play bart's love interest (in play) maybe (wally doesn't like it and neither does gar for very different reasons) #eddie deals with the contraptions they build for this bubble machines smoke machines lowering and raising anything mechanical #rose and cass helps with the weapons stuff they keep fighting too and roy is TIRED #connor plays the villain he didn't mean to or want to but he got dragged into it and he's really hot and gunned in for next years main lead #he doesnt want this #steph and mia are hair makeup costume department but bart and kon love to hangout and help too #jennie-lynn and bart are in-charge of socials #tim pops up a lot because so many of his friends (and brothers) are here and when he does he helps steph and mia #damian too pops up to help with pet management and sometimes prop art #this is much to dicks annoyance jason is already here can his little brothers LEAVE HIM ALONE SOMETIMES UGH #damian (taking cues from talia and bruce loverenemies dynamic and wanting an artist in-law): we should set jason and kyle up #dick: no / tim: hmm / dick: NO #i want to add the yj girls (cassie cissie greta anita) but i know too little about them right now but imagine they're there and the roles #are to be determined

[plulp]

JORDAN PLEASE DONT WEAR SO MANY CLOTHES. PPLEQASE

#my art #dol #jordan the pious #PLEASE TAKE THEM OFF PPLEASE #MONK HABITS AARE SO ......... 😰 #i had to LOOK UP THE PIECES OF A MONKS HABIT and MANIPULATE IT to not look like. THAT. #had to look up what a cross looked like too. sorry god #anyways. i think jordan would look cute in a braid and also have a mole #because its cute too #ugh.......... finally able to get this out of my head though #been trying to work on it for the past few days but i just couldnt get it right #for some reason i thought jordan had green eyes? i was wrong though. #its still a little off for me but i genuinely think its because theyre wearing too much clothes #i need to draw jordan without the cowl sometime. i hate the cowl. take that thing off #well. such is the fate of a freak such as i #i might make a poll to ask who you all want me to draw next because ive basically drawn all my favorite characters #besides leighton i really love him <- sicko who does the GET BLACKMAILED thing just so i can cheat save and fuck him repeatedly #anyways hope you all like this one #EDIT: SORRY LOOKED AT IT AND NOTICED A CRITICAL ERROR #UP NOW.

[thefanciestborrower]

You know I wonder what it would be like to be eaten by a pred who’s also a musician. We talk about preds singing with prey in their stomachs which is great, but what about playing an instrument? As a violist I can’t help but wonder what it would be like for someone resting inside while I fiddle. Would they be able to feel the vibrations of the instrument at all since it’s on my body? And would the sound carry clearly or be all muffled and almost tingly? And what about larger instruments like a cello or bass. Certainly you’d be able to feel the rumble of the strings through the pred’s body because they’re so big and deep. Or how about some brass and woodwinds! Your pred would be breathing in unique patterns and I’m sure their heart would get quite loud, not to mention how cool a trumpet or French horn would sound from inside. And preds who play piano! The way you sit at the bench means the prey will be quite close to the instrument, and would most definitely be able to hear all the unique little breathing cues and rock with the swaying all musicians tend to do. I just don’t see many musician preds and you know what we gotta fix that because the possibilities are endless

#like where are my artsy preds #my silly little fiddle players and pianists who spend too much time running that one scale #musician hands alone feel so different from most people’s because of our fingertip calluses and incredible grip strength #I just...ugh we thinking thoughts today #soft vore #safe vore #this is probably #g/t vore #or #halfsize vore #tbh #but I say it can work with any type

[rustyreveries]

doctors say he’s got chronic sleepy boy syndrome, and there is no cure 😔

this is based on a lil daydream-turned-roleplay with my salad bot on character ai. i love snatching sal from his universe via magic portal and watching him adjust to modern society (he is not having a very fun time but he’s doing his best). does this count as an AU? maybe. but i only made it so i could fulfill my selfshipping needs, so…. yeah.

since i hc sal as aquatic, his body can’t naturally regulate its internal temperature like everyone else, so he gets very chilly at night. i think it’d be cute if he wore a hat & some leg warmers to help keep him warm. and ofc i wrap him up in some blankets burrito-style so he’s extra cozy <3

#sorry i wrote a bunch. i try not to do that but i got a bit too excited lol #i just REALLY like nonhuman characters; canon and headcanon. they're easier for me to relate to and fall in love with... #also i'm obsessed with how i drew his feet this time 😭😭 they're so adorable... little fish paws... ugh. i love him #salad fingers #david firth #my art #i figured out how to do a white outline on procreate and i've been going crazy w/ it. it's so fun #anyway.. in the rp he wasn't the one to choose his outfit. he let me do it which i am very glad #he's very unsure of himself but i get it. i literally took him out of his natural habitat and placed him in a new enviroment #but he's getting used to it i think. i hope he is cuz i wanna do more silly stuff with him #hhh i really need to do my work now i have a bunch of tests to do grrrr. #life sucks so much rn i hate everything. why can't i just live in my daydreams </3

[annamaryllis]

I would like to know exactly how luke asking annabeth to run away with him went down.

#annabeth🥺 #it's sad to think about how it'll be so much harder for annabeth to unpack and heal from that relationship bc he's dead #it's hard enough to come to terms with someone you love/held in high esteem hurting you so deeply #but she's also grieving him too so it's even harder to hold him accountable to herself and recognizing the good and the bad #she may struggle to not romanticize the memory of him #sorting through what about their relationship was pure and genuine and what was fueled by other stuff #both of their trauma really played into it in some of the worst ways... #but to even recognize how her trauma played into it she'd have to identify what her trauma even is and how it's affected her life #it's really complex and difficult work #and bc he's gone she'll never get to question him on stuff like what he was thinking at certain points and why #so certain things will never get the best closure #ugh it's all so fucked up #MAYBE SOMETHING WE COULD HAVE EXPLORED IN HOO RICHARD???? BUT NO #and it would have been perfect too bc she'd also be dealing with issues caused by both of her parents triggered by the MoA quest #like her mother's conditional love #and trauma from her mortal family #and her fear of spiders relates to both of these things bc it's a phobia that's passed down from her mom's actions #so she's being punished for something she's not responsible for and also being burdened with a quest simply for being her mother's daughter #and it also represents her mortal family's neglect bc they ignored her needs and all that... #AND THEN the only person she's received actually pure and good unconditional love from was snatched from her for 6 months #and the MoA quest could have been a way to confront some of these fears and wounds...so she's a little stronger by tartarus which #should bring out the best in her and the worst in percy #and then he can work through some stuff too down there #HoO could have been a journey for them where they're undone and then healed #bc at the end of everything they have the medicine to literally everything which is real love (which they have for each other intensely) #the rant I could go on about this...I have so many thoughts about what HoO should have been. maybe one day #annabeth chase #luke castellan #✏️

[everendbsart]

remembers I have an art tumblr every 2 months

#and i drew this so long ago too! #i draw so much but i never think to post any of it...maybe one day i will get into the habit... #sidenote literally the first time i've ever used that zipper csp brush though i've had it for probably over a year now #bruabba #bruno bucciarati #leone abbacchio #jjba #jojos bizarre adventure #golden wind #ANYWAY this is just a stupid little thing - i was thinking about bucciarati probably usually working late into the night #and maybe he doesn't want to wake anyone up or maybe he's just too tired or lazy to use the doors to get to abbacchios room #ugh i'm tag rambling #catch me tag rambling #youre so queuete #my art tag 💘

[rexscanonwife]

Good morning everypony...I don't think I can try to deny it anymore. Utonium is my wife now 💖🫶💖🫶💖

#jane journals #🔬 starkissed scientist 🔬 #self insert talk #SIIIIIGHHHH #the only thing keeping him off the f/o list is that i dont have an official tag 😭😭 #like what differentiates a crush and an f/o for me is having 1 a fully designed s/i and 2 an official tag #BUT UGH GOD I JUST SAVED A TON OF STUFF TO THE DRAFTS #HOW THE FUCK IS HE SO CUTE #GOOFY ASS OLD MAN AUTISTIC KING ALSO ASEXUAL(?) #i like him so MUCH im gonna be a MOTHER to those little girls too 😭😭🙏🙏🙏 #i cant wait to watch more and probably rewatch the movie soon #siiigh #but right now i am at work #gotta be here till 3 then the bus ride home then maybe. nap #then other stuff i gotta do #BUT I WANNA DRAW SOON

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#theres gotta be. like there has to be something wrong with my head #ugh. not wrong. wrong is a bad word. just. i should not b this hard to get my brain to focus on literally anything that matters #its just so frustrating. im doing the best i ever have. and yet i still cant focus. wtf else can i do? #god dammit. all i wanna do is listen to garbage and draw and draw and draw my shitty little scribbles #maybe my head jsut wasnt built for what im trying to do with it #so idk how tf im supposed to get thru the next 4 years of my phd. or wtf im gonna do after #maybe i should just have just started working at a lab when i graduated. just be a lab manager for thr rest of my life #i dunno. i dunno what to do. how to make my head work. it shouldnt be this hard. my dad can just do things he doesnt want to and im like #HOW??? Im too much like my mom. especially now that im way less anxious. she was a procrastinater and a messy disaster #ay. im just frustrated and feeling guilty abt the lack ot work getting done. i just wanna get back into thr lab #unrelated

[thegirlwholied]

retcons. they're a writing tool. they're not fundamentally a bad tool. though I greet them more often with an "ugh, retcon" than a "nice, retcon"-

and that's often because they're overwrites. sometimes carelessly so, the 'didn't pay enough attention to what came before'/'guess I changed it' route. And sometimes retcons are the 'that's not the story I want to tell now or I can do better than that' route.

Andor is doing the second type of retcon, and interestingly so, because there wasn't a whole lot there to retcon *and yet* they are managing to do that.

When Rogue One came out, Disney dropped a bunch of expanded universe material. The NEW expanded universe, because they'd already ditched the old one, to avoid conflicts; this new one could be consistent (ha, ha, ha).

In those 2016 detail books we got the facts on Cassian Andor's backstory: from the planet Fest (clearly carefully chosen for its old EU history), father killed during a protest against militarization on Imperial Academy planet Carida (another world with EU history), involved with a Separatist cell from age 6 on...

Anddd anyone who'd read those extended materials knew Andor the show was ditching that backstory within seconds of him dropping the name 'Kenari' in context that was immediately clear it was his home planet. I appreciated at least getting a nod to the backstory we had since 2016 with dropping that his 'cover story' planet was Fest. They definitely were aware and chose not to go that route. And that's OK! they have a story they want to tell, they're digging into some interesting themes and meanings and...

Well. Either way it's a retcon. A minor one that 97% of the audience will never notice or care about. And yes they're still keeping to the spirit of that key line in Rogue One-

"I've been in this fight since I was six years old"

- clearly the mining disaster on Kenari presumably happened when Cassian was six years old. So his childhood was ruined by the Empire then and he's been resisting them ever since, it's not that it renders it untrue it's just-

it's just that he's pulling a moral high ground with that line over Jyn whose life was also ruined by the Empire at eight years old and was raised as a child soldier by Saw Gerrera, a character whose very name is designed to evoke guerilla warfare...?

I mean a Cassian who's already been in prison and is scrapping by and sticking it to the Imperials all he can, drawing those character parallels between them even closer then are we, but the whole crux of that (excellently written & filmed I'm still not over it) argument hinges on Cassian's relationship with/committment to the Rebellion above all else. The show's retcon has just... shortened that relationship. By quite quite a bit.

And there is now some unintentional irony, from this retcon, if Jyn was actually (via Saw's cell) part of the Rebellion longer than Cassian.

...it's fine, it's fine, tbh watch them retcon Jyn's backstory soon enough, it's a very minor retcon and maybe future episodes will reveal Cassian has been doing more actual rebelling than it seems and... nonetheless. Ugh retcon.

#andor #andor spoilers #cassian andor #rogue one #does no one else think kenari sounds a little too much like kenobi #I'm not saying fest is a great name but goddammit it was a planet that existed #i really don't understand why so many of the Disney movies/shows (except Mandalorian to a degree but even Rogue One my beloved did this) #refuse to use and build on old EU planet names #there's a frigging galaxy map #there's decades of source material #and every fan fic writer out there seems capable of doing research and crafting creatively off those details #yet it's mostly just been new planet after new planet #i do like that they name dropped Wobani in Andor #I'm not saying i dislike the show! #the choice to retcon feels a bit dismissive of the work of the writers who put together all those Rogue One books and those who bought? #it's by no means exclusive to this show this kind of thing happens all the time #my writing philosophy is just more 'work with what you have' vs 'this is a round peg and i want a square hole so let's make it a square' #that sounds harsher than i mean it to- sometimes the square hole is the better hole! #but just #ugh retcon

[abyssalhuntersnerd]

Chuzenji, Gladiia's official artist has posted a new illustration!

Source and please check them out on Twitter!

#arknights #gladiia #gladiia arknights #AAAAAAA CHUZENJIIIIII #SHE LOOKS AMAZING #The little belt buckles look like the ones spalter has ಥ⌣ಥ #AND THE PINS!? HELLO!??!!!! #God these girls they really love each other a lot they are the biggest dorks #for each other oh my god I can't also this skin description is so cool too and not depressing #maybe they will be able to go back soon... but gosh 10/10 #the animations too? ugh to die for #SHE STILL HAS HER HAT TOO #anyways can't really scream about it too much I've got work now so ADIÓS #official media

[zephyrfuse]

anyway team sour, the fact that 15% of us managed to secure that many conch shells and that many battles shouldn't go unwarranted we worked 300% to rival the other two teams my god

#shosh #like god how much effort did it take from sour to get a third of the total conch shells lol #we did work 300% and we still couldn't secure anything but pro 😭💥 #there's just too little of us UGH

[ythmir-writes]

accurate depiction of me reading Rio's anniversary story hehehe

#ikemen prince #rio ortiz #ive already skewed certain sentences about swords and fighting to fit my narrative hehe #too bad there was no chev appearance #that would have made me feral #silvio popping up did make me laugh #ahhh yesss the only way to love a sibling is to make sure #you annoy them as much as possible #all the damn time #their little meet up in the epilogue is such a funny scene #as an aside my jaws are so tense from work ugh #but reading rio's story and epilogue lightened me up so much #all the damn love in this world for this man

[cavsthighs]

finally watched petes film? thingy. many thoughts

#elite sport obviously drives everyone a bit mental by age 30 but its clear why it drove him specifically out of it the way that it did #he basically lives in his own head 😭 the scrapbook..... 16 yr old petey was writing the type of shit dave b would be proud of LIKE #'i was way too deep.... maybe i should have been having more fun' ☹️ #its funny bc then g and luke are specifically. special about it too 😭 they have a little too much 'fun' and it isnt even really fun is it #ugh ugh im gonna be late for work if i dont go now but god. so many thoughts bouncing around my brain

[biteapple]

REALLY wish wendy's wasnt the default food i wanted to eat. i ate it daily for like. years. it was so bad. and now when im hungry im like fuuuuuck

#i by all means SHOULD hate it for how much and the time period in my life which i ate it in. but its like. soooo good to me #its like the best to me. ugh. #it was just really easy to grab and tasty when you worked construction and always driving around places #and i lived RIGHT next to one for a period of time too #i sooooo wish one was in the plaza near me. they have a ton of fast food places in this plaza but no wendys #it would be dangerous for me tho lol #the other food i wish i could have is halal guys. THAT was fucking good eats #they have a place called halal bros here and it scratches the itch a little but its not the same #in this period of my life tho it was usually the only meal i ate a day was just the wendys meal tho. and then i would go home and sleep