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goldlockets-and-redwine · 1 month

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You're The Worst | Chapter 1

Pairing: Touya Todoroki x Reader

Word Count: 875 words

Summary: Paw's and Claw's has a fun staff. However, the nosy bad boy, Touya, loves to pick on you. What will happen when he notices the array of bruises hidden under your sweatshirts? Maybe he isn't so bad after all.

Author's Note: So, this fic idea has been in my mind for a while. I hope everyone likes it. This will be a multi-chapter fic as I don't have a ton of time to write. Oof. Please be patient with me. Also, I inserted my cat Thomas because it's almost been a year since he passed, and I think of him every day. I know. So self-indulgent.

TW: Domestic Violence (Not from Touya), Fem!Reader, Violence in general (There will be a fight, not in this chapter though.), drinking, smoking, cursing. Let me know if I missed anything!

“That looks like shit.”

Good god, I wish he would just shut up. This is the third time today he’s butted into my work.

“No, it looks great Touya. You’re just an ass with shit handwriting. Jealous much?” We looked over my work. The sign looked great honestly. I really outdid myself this time. In delicate script it read “Tom” adorned with little hearts around the name. I put up the sign on Tom’s’ kennel, a large grey and white cat sitting at the farthest possible corner of the kennel away from the door. “Do you have his bio?”

“Of course, what am I? Incompetent?” He made quick work of putting up his bio underneath the name card I made. He typed his up like normal. I gazed sadly at the big tom cat sitting in the cage. “Hey doll, he’ll get adopted. You always get too attached.”

I grimaced at the pet name. He always looks for a way under my skin. However, he took it upon himself to never call me by name. I need to come up with my own for him. Maybe he’ll leave me alone if I come up with something heinous.

“Some of us have hearts, jackass.” Wait, that one fits. Still not original enough. I glanced at him to see him already staring at me. If looks could kill. You would think working in a shelter there would be nice coworkers here. Everyone else was nice. Not this guy. His intimidating look didn’t help his case. Tattoos were everywhere but the one on his face gets the most frowns from potential adopters. The row of flames over his left brow. Wait is that… “Touya, did you redye your hair? You should do a better job of not getting that shit on your skin. You look insane.”

“Why you lookin’ at me so hard? Like what you see?” My face was already showing my irritation before, but now I could feel it twist in disgust.

“No. The hair dye stains are really not doing it for me.” I do a swift 180 degrees and make my way out of the cat room and into the lobby once more. “Hey Toga! Any new applications come in?” Her face lit up as she looked up at me. Her sharp canines stuck out as she smiled.

“(Y/N)! We had one come in for Mochi!” She was practically jumping out of her chair. “Dabi! Come and look at the place!” Touya leaned over the counter and looked down above the monitor as I walked around the desk. It was a beautiful house in suburbia with a huge fenced in back yard. “Mochi will love it, don’t ya think?”

“He’ll love it little vamp.” I said. My eyes hovered over the screen to notice the time. “You should head out. It’s 5:30! You know the boss won’t be happy about you staying over too much.”

Toga pouted, but I was right. Tomura gets so pressed when she stays over. It must be that big brother dynamic. She got up to gather her things for the evening and shut down the computer. “He’ll be fine, but I’ll tell him you guys said hi!” With that she gave me a big hug and skipped towards the door and out to the parking lot. Touya turned and stared at me as soon as he had locked the door. Without saying a word I got to work cleaning the lobby. Working with animals was messy and there was a mix of dog and cat hair being swept up. I heard Touya’s heavy boots moving towards the hallway leading to the dog kennels. I instantly relaxed and continued my chores, completely blocking out my thoughts.

“Doll,” My body was on autopilot as I put away the cleaning supplies. “Don’t ignore me doll. It’s time to bail.” I quickly finished putting things up and grabbed my bag. Both our footsteps synced as we made our way to the door. Touya held the door open. “Ladies first.” I could hear the cockiness in his voice. He wasn’t going to get a reaction out of me so late in the day. My car’s taillights blinked as I unlocked it. Today was a hot one. The evening sun was shining on me. I pushed up the sleeves to my sweater and was nearly to my car when I heard Touya’s deep voice closer to me than expected. “That’s a nasty bruise.”

The sweaters I wore for the last 6 months were to avoid these questions. It was no secret Kai, my boyfriend, wasn’t the best guy. His record was a mile long. No one would know he mistreated me, however. Kai made a good show of being a loving boyfriend while also being a piece of shit in every other aspect of his life. He won me over with gifts and treated me like a princess. He said I was his perfect girl. Do men treat perfect girls like this?

“Mind your business.”

Touya’s eyes narrowed. “I’m not a dumbass, (y/n).” With that he got in his black 5.0 mustang and pulled out of the parking lot leaving me standing next to my car.

#touya todoroki #dabi #dabi x reader #touya x reader #bnha touya todoroki #mha touya #todoroki touya

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candycandy00 · 7 months

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The League of Villains Halloween Horror Anthology Sign Up

This is the sign up post for the first annual League of Villains Halloween Horror Anthology!

The deadline to sign up for this event is September 30th! Please keep that in mind!

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What it is:

The anthology will be various fanfics and fanart of League of Villains members reimagined as horror creatures/icons/characters, to be posted throughout October of this year. I thought it would be a fun way to get us all in the spooky Halloween mood.

This is an adults-only event! Please do not sign up unless you have your age listed in your bio or pinned post! Minors do not interact!

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Rules:

You can make fanfic or fanart, or both! But each piece must feature a League of Villains member (past or present, but only one per piece) as a horror creature/icon/character, such as a vampire or a masked killer. They have to be the source of the horror, so no zombie fics where the character is fighting zombies. If you pick zombie as your horror creature, the character you pick has to be a zombie.

Multiple people can claim each character, so if we get 30 Dabi fics, so be it. However, only one person can claim each horror icon for the medium you chose. So if someone already signed up for one of the characters as a vampire in a fic, you can’t sign up for a character (even a different one) as a vampire in a fic. You can sign up for a vampire in a fanart, provided no one else has. I will do these on a first come, first serve basis. So the first person to claim a given creature will get it. If a lot of people sign up and I feel like we’re legitimately running out of horror tropes, I might bend this rule a bit. Also! You can be specific to differentiate between creatures. Like an undead pirate is different from a regular zombie, and so on.

Fanfics can be X Reader or not. They can be NSFW/smut, or not. That’s up to you! If you choose Toga as your character, only write/draw SFW pieces for her, as she is a minor. It doesn’t matter if you age her up. You don’t have to make your piece horror, but it’s encouraged. This is a Halloween anthology after all. At the very least, a spooky vibe should be present, even if your piece is overall light hearted. Likewise, you don’t have to set the story on or around Halloween, but it would be nice to have some works that do so.

You can post your piece any time in October. From the first day of the month to the last. Ideally, the pieces will be spread out a bit throughout the month, but I’m not assigning anyone specific days. Just post it whenever you want in October.

If you sign up, but decide to drop out, that’s fine! This is a zero pressure event. You don’t even have to explain why. All I ask is that you send me a message or Ask letting me know so that I can remove you from the sign up list. Someone else might have wanted to write about the creature you chose, but couldn’t because you picked it.

When you post your piece, use the tag #lovhalloweenhorror. Feel free to use the tag before then! Use it to talk about the piece you’re working on, use it to post sketches or previews! Heck, use it even if you just plan to enjoy the fan works! Use it to talk about things you’d like to see/read as a viewer. Anything goes! Let’s build up some excitement!

As works begin to be posted in October, I’ll create a Masterlist post to list all of them in one convenient place. If you post your piece and you don’t see it added to the list within a day or so, send me a message to let me know in case I missed it.

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How to Sign up:

If you’d like to sign up to create a piece for this event, send me an Ask or a direct message with the following information:

Fanart or Fanfic?

Character?

Horror Creature?

That’s it! Please send a separate message for each piece you plan to make.

As people sign up, I’ll list them in this post so everyone can know what’s been claimed. Please be patient with me. I might be slow!

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The List:

Fanfiction:

@missrosegold - Dabi - Demon

@candycandy00 - Shigaraki - Scarecrow

@jabberwocky-92 - Shigaraki - God of Decay

@scary-grace - Shigaraki - Ghost/Wraith

@spicymeatball1992 - Shigaraki - Incubus

@jabberwocky-92 - Dabi - Grim Reaper

@gamergirlghost - Toga - Vampire

@doumadono - Dabi - Merman

@doumadono - Toga - Rusalka

@red-as-mars - Dabi - Charro Negro

@candycandy00 - Mr. Compress - Mad Scientist

Fanart:

@sammystep - Twice - Dr. Frankenstein

@fleetwoodmoth - Dabi - Fire Atronach

@selinearts - Toga - Demon

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Ideas/Inspiration:

If you’re having trouble deciding on a horror creature/icon/character, here’s a list of some to give you some ideas! Obviously, what you pick doesn’t have to come from this list, and in fact I’m looking forward to seeing all the different ideas I never thought of. You can even create your own creature! This is just a list of some possibilities.

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Feel free to reblog this! Let’s get as many people involved as possible!

#shigaraki x reader #dabi x reader #shiragaki #dabi #touya x reader #league of villains #lov #dabi smut #shigaraki smut #mr. compress x reader #twice x reader #toga himiko #shigaraki tomura #todoroki touya #my hero academia #lovhalloweenhorror

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shadowspromise · 1 year

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Really love your head Canons so much.

May i request shigaraki wirh an s/o. But dabi flirts with the s/o. Basically jealous shigaraki and what He will do. Also shigaraki and his s/o keeping their relationship a secret?

Shigaraki would be so jealous. He considers himself lucky that he was even able to date you, and he’s a little insecure that you might be more attracted to Dabi than him.

Tomura knows that you love him and that Dabi is just messing around, but he still gets so nervous and yells at Dabi.

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D: “Hey Y/N, cute shirt. Bet you’d look cuter without it.”

S: “Dabi, I will punt your ass across the room if you don’t fuck off.”

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Tomura will stay as close to you as possible and won’t let Dabi be alone with you. He trusts you 100% that you won’t do anything, but he knows that Dabi would absolutely pull some shit.

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For the secret relationship part, I think it would be very easy for Shigaraki to act normal around everyone. He would speak to you just like how he speaks to everyone else, and treat you no differently. However, when the two of you are alone he’s so clingy and apologizing for not giving you any attention.

The league all find out in different ways that you two are dating.

Toga blackmails it out of you.

Dabi breaks down the door while you two are cuddling.

Spinner found the two of you with each other’s initials in your video game bios.

Compress caught you two holding hands when you thought nobody was looking.

Kurogiri just knew because he’d never seen Shigaraki act so nice to anyone besides you.

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kimyoonmiauthor · 5 months

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Worldbuilding: !@#$ the terfs, be more creative with gender and bio sex than a binary system.

9.5 times out of ten the majority of gender systems I read in US books are really, really uncreative, and I do mean that because manga, has more creative gender systems than a lot of US books. I love you Melanie Rawn, but still, the inversion as good as it was in the uncompleted Ruins of Ambrai, still was largely a European system because it was largely a commentary on the European system. (Yes, I did understand that.)

And the US tends to, very much accuse other countries of having uncreative gender systems that are absolutely rigid, say the US to Japan. (Though the usually [white] understanding of Japanese gender is usually abysmal... but that's a whole paper and a half there.)

When building a gender system, be more creative! You have this other fake culture. You can do whatever the heck you feel like. Say, the Barbie Movie, which hilariously the alt-right USian detested, though it still was a commentary on mostly US gender norms.

Can't we loosen this up a little? You have literal aliens and you can't imagine a more creative sex and gender system than the binary? Oh really? Humans aren't even binary on either. I'm going to give cultural examples.

Introduction

Bugis have 5 genders.

BTW, someone got so mad when I pointed out the page they cited said that Bugis recognized 5 genders, they went on a youtube rant about it. lol Deal. BTW, people put a lot of emphasis on Bissu like how people hyperfocus on trans women in the US because masculinity is that fragile. Albanian is complicated.

Some countries/ethnicities have 3.

India has a 3 gender system in Northern India. Women, men, Hijra

I mean this list:

Some countries don’t even define the two gender system the same way (Europeans are sooo uptight. Loosen up.)

For example, a Korean man wearing pink--no problem. No one flips the hell out when a man in Korea wears a hanbok with a chima and a jeogori. They are like cool. He can do as he likes. Even baksu wear chima in religious ceremonies. They believe it gives them extra powers.

The whole pants. are. for. men. and. women. only. wear. skirts.

Oh c'mon...

Pants were invented for horseback riding--like the heel.

So let's get this mind-numbingly straight (pun somewhat intended here) Men, are men because of horses. (haha, yes, Barbie reference), thus have to wear pants. But are absolutely effing forbidden from wearing heels, which are also associated with what? Horseback riding. Hmmm...

And men still wear dresses and skirts, but they call it by other names.

Judicial robes for sale, and look, a man is wearing them.

But--But that's soo different from a dress...

https://www.net-a-porter.com/en-jp/shop/product/la-doublej/clothing/maxi-dresses/muumuu-printed-silk-twill-maxi-dress/38063312420399795

This is a dress because as Webster's Dictionary says:

: an outer garment (as for a woman or girl) usually consisting of a one-piece bodice and skirt

Yes, it's worn by a woman. I couldn't find another definition.

But men also wear sarongs. And bath towels, and kilts all of which look suspiciously like skirts. And togas. Which shows how fragile the definition is that you need to narrow the definition that much.

And freaking for those religious, God on the Sistine Chapel, by suspected maybe gay Michelangelo, has a vaccuum sealed butt on the Sistine chapel wearing a pink dress.

C'mon, we can be more creative than this, surely. I mean, if you look at this super rigid gender system, does it make any sense at all? OK, I'm NB and all, but seriously, I look at it and go, WTF happened to you?

You get so uptight about men wearing lace, stocking, high heels, dresses, pink but forget so quickly that less than 200 years ago, no one gave a damn, and if a man didn't wear those things, he couldn't make it in high society.

I mean...

Lafayette, wearing pink, heels, stockings, lace (his collar), and a wig. Give me a break here.

And gender definitions change over time...

Just about 100 years back, in order to be out and gay, it was thought your entire gender was different. There was nothing like a butch gay man. You were considered part female, in fact. And no one in the 19th century would have taken exception to that. It didn't change until much later in Europe.

But also Europe imperialized the world with gender expectations, leading to a rise of violence against third gender communities.

What was one of the first three rules of culture I posted? Culture changes. Koreans like to say, even in ten years the Mountains and rivers change. So gender can and will also change in definitions becoming more rigid, more fluid, recategorized, etc over time.

So given all of these things... let's rethink gender.

Gender doesn't have to be Defined by Sex Assigned at Birth

A lot of Human cultures assign gender this way. Born one way, raise them that way, hope it works out.

But you have a whole FANTASY WORLD and you can see, humans don't make a lot of logical sense when it comes to gender. I mean heels are for women, and men should never wear them, except when they are attached to boots, but the boots better not be too high , or you're *gasp* gay is the European "logic" system. And only what? 50 or so years ago, women were finally allowed to wear pants.

So you don't have to do it by genitals. You could do it by hair color. Gender affirming care would be changing your hair color, or horns, or whatever tickles your fancy. You could, say have a cephlapod species with smaller males that can present female part of the time, and based on their texture of their skin, that's their gender.

You could do it by color--the species has actually blue, dark blue, green, yellow, etc skin colors and they can change them at any moment and the one they tend towards, well, that's their gender.

You could also make it so you automatically need a polycule for the species to work out and reproduce. And thus there might be, say a 6 gender system. 2 possible genders for the three adults there.

C'mon. Nature is creative and sometimes has an all female species. Look at Mourning geckos. There are so few males, and they are sometimes called a lesbian species of gecko.

Even then, you have intersex, and not all intersex people are infertile.

Terfs only think it's wrong to "go against nature" when it has to do with gender presentation. Nothing else. But they have no, no problem with assigning a sex to an intersex child without their consent. That's culture taking over for nature. And how that is shaped, or not shaped, absolutely belongs in world building.

If your men aren't horseback riding, and your women aren't either, then dresses for all are fine. Deal with it.

I think it would be entertaining to see an alien species determine the gender of the child by holding up paint swatches to the child's say eyes and then saying, "Yep, a girl."

Or even well, the birther stayed in # temp rooms, for # amount of days, Oh, this is the expected sex of the child. But the gender, well, we will determine that by these [arbitrary] factors.

But seriously, you can define gender and sex however, you want. Is medical/magic intervention necessary or not? Who gets to determine it?

Next step is to find the rules for how gender is expressed in an idealized world.

Do you constantly call all of your girls and tell them they can grow up to be a princess? But tell all your boys they are going to grow up to be doctors and lawyers?

This is what Social Scientists would call socialization.

For this, I would suggest you make a spreadsheet and then put down arbitrary lists of things the "ideal" gender would wear. So for the US, Pink is for girls. Blue is for boys. How they should act. And finally, how they are taught.

It's so ubiquitous that even feminists often trip up and see a baby in a pink dress with lace and automatically pick up a doll. (I'm just saying, maybe think that one over a bit.)

Make a list for each column. And then for the individual characters figure out how they DON'T fit those norms and then terrorize them with it...

What do you threaten the privileged group with if they come out of line?

For men in the US, for example, you go with homophobia. "That's gay."

Because the threat of being gay is sooo outlandish. *eyeroll* It's an threat to everything masculine.

I'll go over this in more detail later in the series, but you need things to discipline the privileged group and the disadvantage group(s). What's the threat if you become this other group? Death? Social ridicule? Financial loss? Being outcast?

Or, do you get rewarded and become a shaman, a healer, or a celebrated hero for being able to not fit in? (This also is possible).

Cultural justifications

Cultural justifications for this are different from the actual historical reasons or the facts.

The historical reason that pink and blue switched was because dyes became more readily available for both and they felt like it.

Blue used to be more rare, and thus considered "virginal" because blue is rare in nature, but under industrialization as people became more and more disconnected from nature, and blue dyes became available, the idea of this became more diluted, and the switch was from blue to pink.

That's not what the cultural justifications were for this thought originally. The thought was that blue was a more "delicate" color, clearly more suited to women.

Because, if you have forgotten (yes a joke coming), humans constantly get amnesia on where things come from. Constantly. We've lost information in your own lifetime. You were born 2 seconds ago? Well, I hate to tell you, we've lost information in that 2 seconds.

So, when they can't remember the reason, Humans make up a reason to go with it, that's often frivolous and silly. Something that feels, what? Natural to them. Though remember the rule, Nature gives no fucks. So find and make up a logical reason for the cultural item and then find a stupid reason that people are willing to double down on it and there you go, that's culture. So say your species of aliens, the ones that are temperature linked to sex, link Iunno, gender to horn size. Bigger horns mean a certain class of gender. The original reason might be that bigger horned females are better at digging nests back when they were a pastoral society, thus better able to have larger clutches of children. But they've now reached the stars, so they completely forgot why and now just say that bigger horns are simply sexier because reasons. Or it could have flipped that smaller horns are in more demand, because big horns get in the way of industrial tasks, but no one says that. And now the bigger horned females, are considered a lower gender than the smaller horned females, who then raise all of the eggs.

See, the justification doesn't even have to follow any sort of logic. It's what they tell everyone to make them feel better.

And truthfully, a lot of culture is built this way. The reason you tell everyone isn't really the actual truth. I mean I did a whole series on Story Structure, and the justifications versus the reasons why it was made that way don't even close to match. People blindly parrot what other people tell them if it will help them succeed. (BTW, not saying I'm not guilty of this, I absolutely am.)

So I think this gives you a good basis to free yourself up for a larger system and be more creative with your gender definitions. Because absolutely both gender and sex are defined by culture, but in different ways.

You have effing demons, and you can come up with a more creative gender categories? You have unicorns and you don't have more creative gender categories. And you have kracken climbing buildings, but you can't imagine a third sex category for them when it absolutely exists in nature. C'mon. Hit me with your most creative and free yourself of your own culture's definitions of gender.

What if you nuked the entire Male/female/NB system. What would that look like? How would you justify it on two fronts? Blow that system out of the water and rework it. What would the Sexual orientation work like with a 3 sexes, 2 gender for each each system?

What stupid prohibitions would you put in for such a system?

#writing advice #worldbuilding #gender #be more creative with gender please

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nekonepostojan · 2 months

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Falilo je tu dosta toga.

Makar još jedna šetnja Kalemegdanom,

Malo duže filozofiranje Nemanjinom,

I još poneki sastanak na Savskom.

Ne bi bilo previše ni da je bio poljubac u čelo više,

I da si me malo češće držao za ruku.

Bilo je premalo priznanja,

A previše lažnih junaka,

Ponosnih ludaka,

Koji beže od ljubavi.

Nedostaje i ona zakazana,

A nikada neispijena,

Kafa,

Da mi ispričaš još nešto o sebi,

Jer i pored svega,

Toliko malo znam o tebi.

I taj jedan kasni poziv,

Jer noću su ljudi iskreniji,

Pa bi možda priznao,

I konačno rekao,

Da smo ipak pogrešili.

I moglo bi se sve ovo nadoknaditi,

Ali u našoj priči, već odavno falimo mi.

Čak i u kafeteriji,

Kažu odavno nas nisu zajedno videli.

I znaš, fali mi deo mene koji si poneo sa sobom.

Ako i sebi fališ ti,

Javi mi.

Kod mene te previše ima.

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elvedinhasanagic · 2 months

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Hadžija Mehmed, pripovjedao nam je, kao djeci o ljubavi svojoj. Kaže: “Tužan sam bio. Na život ljut. Držalo me dugo tako, dok nisam se sjetio riječi našeg Poslanika, Muhammeda, a.s.: ‘Čovjek će biti s onim koga voli’. Tad, kao da me zovnu iz daljine i to mi rekao. Znam, djeco, da će nas ovaj život sve preteći i da će nas jednoga dana u mezar strpati, i da toga dana tek počinje pravi život. To me smiruje, da ću tog jednog dana, s onim koga sam kroz život volio biti tu, sa mnom. Iako kroz život nije…”

Nije dugo prošlo, Mehmed je otišao tamo gdje je i planirao i za šta se spremao. Na sastanak sa Voljenom svoga života.

E. HASANAGIĆ; Na putu ka vječnosti

#citati #ljubav #balkan #tekstovi #balkancitat #ljubavni citati #statusi #zivot #ljubavni tekstovi

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deusvervewrites · 4 months

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Spark of Genius AU: and so started a giant rivalry/crush between two biotech sparks. May God help us all.

I'll be honest, I'm like 95% sure that Sparks flirt exclusively in crimes against nature and/or god. So, like, once Spark!Toga's got Garaki's notes and gets used to bio-engineering and used to her own Madness Place, she'd find other Sparks Sparkiness to be very cute.

#asks #spark of genius au

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normalniljudi · 1 year

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Ne znam zašto sam mislio da mi je s vremenom oprostila, ali sam poželeo da od nje lično čujem kako je i šta oseća.

Čekala me u kafiću doterana najlepše, onako kako se središ samo za čoveka kojem treba da pokažeš koga je imao i izgubio.

Od onog neprijatnog početka kada ne znaš da započneš razgovor, jer ti srce tuče ko ludo, pa sve do onog osećaja kad se setiš koliko si toga prošao s njom.

Možeš da se opustiš, to je ona.

Nismo se doticali teških tema, kako porodica, kako na poslu, kako su ti drugarice, da li me mrze još uvek?

Svaki put kad se nasmejala, imao sam osećaj da je sve po starom, sve je u redu,srećan sam, neka potraje.

Pričali smo satima, konobar je kašljanjem dao do znanja da smo poslednji gosti.

Onako džentlmenski sam joj otvorio vrata, naravno da je dobacila da me poznaje i da zna da je ovo čist znak ulizivanja.

Nedostajala mi je i njena ironija.

Šetali smo beskrajno.

Sve vreme sam se pitao da li je ona uzbuđena kao ja, ali se ne vidi, dobro krije od mene.

Onda smo došli do kraja.

Zapalila je cigaru, ispustila dim:

" Ti si čovek koji me je obeležio. Mesecima posle nas nisam mogla da se smirim. Tražila sam na njoj u čemu je bolja od mene. Da li je zgodnija, da li je zabavnija, da li joj je manje stalo do tebe, pa ti je bila zanimljiva? I onda sam došla sebi.

Nisam ja bila kriva ni za šta.

Ti si taj koji je bio nezahvalan i sebičan.

I još uvek si.

Došao si nakon toliko vremena da mi pokažeš da si se promenio, da mi ponovo doneseš nemir u život, budeš dobar sedmicu , dve i opet sve po starom.

Čim neko drugi nazove, ja sam na drugom mestu. Ja sam pronašla nekoga kome sam uvek na prvom mestu.

Nekoga zbog koga se ne pitam da li sam dosadna, da li previše volim.

Opustila sam se.

Srećna sam.

Tebi isto to želim, ali ne sa mnom, ja sam te prerasla."

Cigara je izgorela i ja sam tada shvatio da je sve ono što je nekada osećala za mene takođe izgorelo i nestalo u vremenu dok sam ja lutao okolo i tražio opravdanja zašto sam bio takav kreten prema njoj.

Poljubila me u obraz i okrenula leđa dok sam ja stajao gledajući kako se ona moja devojčica pretvorila u prelepu pametnu ženu koju nikada više neću čuti kako se smeje zbog mene.

#poezija #balkanski citati #ljubav #aesthetic

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pisac-u-tami · 9 months

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Veceras sam otisao prosetati, i u jednom trenutku mi je zazvonio telefon.

-Halo, tko je? Ne dobivam odgovor, tisina sa druge strane, jos uvijek dobro poznata.

Par minuta smo sutili.

-Ja sam, znam da sam ja posljednja osoba koju zelis cuti, ali morala sam te nazvati, zeljela sam te zamoliti da mi oprostis kako sam otisla od tebe.

-U redu je, bila si mlada, zeljela si prozivjeti zivot, razumijem sada, trebalo mi je deset godina da shvatim zasto si otisla bez rijeci, ali nisam ljut, bar ne vise.

-U pravu si, bila sam mlada i mislila sam kako se ne trebam vezati za nekoga tako brzo pa sam otisla. Nisam se mogla pozdraviti, ili objasniti, jer kada bih te vidjela ili cula tvoj glas nikada ne bih mogla otici.

-Cesto sam pitao o tebi, ali ni tvoja prijateljica nije znala gdje si, ili mi nije zeljela reci, zaista sada i vise nije vazno, nadam se kako si nasla sve ono sto si trazila.

-Udala sam se, prije 2 godine nije on los, dao mi je srce na dlanu, mnogo me voli ali me nikada nije gledao kao ti. A ti? Da li si se ozenio?

-Jesam, ali smo se ubrzo i razveli, nije nam islo. Od toga su prosle 3 godine, a sada sam se smirio, nasao djevojku, trudna je. Zamisli za par mjeseci cu postati otac. Dobit cemo kcerku.

-Uvijek sam znala kako ces se ostvariti u toj ulozi, mada sam nekada mislila da ce to biti samnom, da li znate kako ce se vasa kcerka zvati?

-Zvat ce se Ivana.

Znas nekada je plan bio da ima sve tvoje, i da te zove mama ali nista nije islo kako smo planirali.

-Jos uvijek mozemo pobjeci, ti i ja, kao nekada. Sto kazes?

-Ne mozemo Ivana, godine su ucinile svoje. Vrijeme nas nije cekalo, kasno je.

-Volim te.

-Volim i ja tebe Ivana, ali sada moramo prekinuti.

Ig: Pisac_u_tami_

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disidentas · 11 days

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Stajao sam u vozu koji je putovao ka lokaciji gde treba sa njom da se nadjem. Razmisljao sam, razmisljao sam o tome da li cu se dokazati i pokazati da zasluzujem njenu paznju. Bio sam jako nervozan kada sam izasao napolje, vetar sa zapada mi je lagano zabacivao kosu dok sam palio svoju cigaretu. Udahnuo sam duboku, rekavsi sebi, da ce sve proci kako treba i da nema razloga da se brinem. Naravno lagao sam se, morao sam i dalje da pruzim jako veliki trud i rad kako bih ja, kao osoba, kao ljudsko bice, dopao njoj. U 8 sati posle podne smo imali dogovoreno, dosao sam malo ranije, cisto da cistim zrakom prikupim jos vise samopouzdanja i snage kako bih predstavio sebe u najboljem svetlu. Dok je sat otkucavao tapkao sam desnom nogom u mestu, naprezao sam svoj misic na nozi samo kako bih pronasao svoju antistresnu pozu sto mi nije islo uopste. Vreme je teklo tako sporo da sam mogao svaki svoj treptaj da osetim, moj tempo disanja je totalno usporio, kuce je sporije kucalo, moje ruke su se znojile i hladile u isto vreme, povecana unutrasnja temeperatura dala je nagovestaj moje nervoze, koja je sve vise dolazila do izrazaja. Onda, u jednom trenutku, okrenuo sam glavu prema ulici i ugledao nju. Koracala je brzo prema meni, i ja prema njoj. Sto smo se vise pribrizavali to smo nas tempo hodanja prilagodjavali nasoj kataklizmi koja je polako dolazi do reakcije. Zagrlio sam je , tako jako i osecajno kao da nikada u zivotu nisam pre toga grlio osobu, kao da je za mene ovo sve prvi put, kao da nikada nisam pre osetio tako opojan miris kose, njene kose. Osecaj koji sam imao u sebi kada je dosla mogu uporediti samo sa cistom i velikom euforijom, koja se neopisivo stvorila u meni, kao ti neki leptirici u stomaku koje osetite kada ste uzbudjeni. Verujem da tako zaljubljeni ljudi pricaju o svojim partnerima. Da, zajedno smo, ali sticicemo do toga vec jednom, sada da se vratimo na nas prvi susret. Odmah smo krenuli da pricamo kao da se znamo desetina godina, osetio sam odmah neku dusevnu povezanost sa njom. Njena energija me je kupovala iz minut u minut, njen glas mi je nacinio osecaj penicilina bolesnom, potpuno me je smirio. Nisam mogao da verujem da cu ikada, u skorije vreme, naici na osobu koja je tako smirivala buku u mojoj glavi, koja je moje demone sa ramena zamenila sa andjelima njenog srca, koja je moje prazne suze popunila srecnom i osmesima. Poceo sam opet da budem nervozan, porucio sam odmah casu dobrog vina kako bi me malo opustilo, ali ni posle cetvre case ja nisam mogao da se poptuno osetim zbog mog osecaja u podsvesti kako moram ostaviti dobar utisak. Kako klinacki od mene mislio sam. Sedeli smo u basti restorana koji je bio prepun, gledajuci nju sva ta buka gubila je smisao, mojih problema vise nije bilo, mir, spokojnost i samozadovoljstvo su prvi put posle duzeg vremena prevladali u glavi. Zavoleo sam to, prvog momenta sa njom. Svaki sledeci momenat me je samo jos vise kupovao, sve dok se mozda prerano i glupo ali nisam zaljubio. Posle dugogodisnje borbe sa vise mentalnih bolesti konacno mogu da kazem da postajem bolji, jer sam uspeo da pored nje pocnem da volim sebe i nju. Ona je moj medikament koji uspostavlja jasnu granicu i ucestalost mog Seratonina i Dopemina. Moja hemija, moja reakcija, moja umetnost ljudskog stvaranja i povezanosti. TO BE CONTINUED...

-mvD ("Ona" Part 1 )

#citat #citati #quote #quotes #srpski #deppresive #poetry #poezija #serbia #ljubavni #tekst #ljubav #sastanak #meeting #meet #first #love

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candycandy00 · 8 months

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The League of Villains Halloween Horror Anthology Sign Up

This is the sign up post for the first annual League of Villains Halloween Horror Anthology!

The deadline to sign up for this event is September 30th! Please keep that in mind!

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What it is:

This is an adults-only event! Please do not sign up unless you have your age listed in your bio or pinned post! Minors do not interact!

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Rules:

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How to Sign up:

If you’d like to sign up to create a piece for this event, send me an Ask or a direct message with the following information:

Fanart or Fanfic?

Character?

Horror Creature?

That’s it! Please send a separate message for each piece you plan to make.

As people sign up, I’ll list them in this post so everyone can know what’s been claimed. Please be patient with me. I might be slow!

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The List:

Fanfiction:

@missrosegold - Dabi - Demon

@candycandy00 - Shigaraki - Scarecrow

@jabberwocky-92 - Shigaraki - God of Decay

@scary-grace - Shigaraki - Ghost/Wraith

@spicymeatball1992 - Shigaraki - Incubus

@jabberwocky-92 - Dabi - Grim Reaper

@gamergirlghost - Toga - Vampire

@doumadono - Dabi - Merman

@doumadono - Toga - Rusalka

Fanart:

@sammystep - Twice - Dr. Frankenstein

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Ideas/Inspiration:

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Feel free to reblog this! Let’s get as many people involved as possible!

#dabi x reader #shigaraki x reader #shigaraki #dabi #league of villains #lov #mr compress x reader #league of villains fanfiction

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