#to quote my mom when we watched the special together

[tuiccim]

Though I Have Never Read It (Part 9)

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Female!Reader

Word Count: 2348

Warnings: Angst, so much angst. I'm so sorry.

A/N: Special thanks to my hype princess & beta reader @whisperlullaby.

Though I Have Never Read It Masterlist

"U-us?" You ask, confused. 

“Yeah, us. I, we, I- God! I’ve been trying to figure out how to talk to you about this for weeks,” Mark says. 

“About us?” You clarify.

“Yes,” Mark nods but seems to be at a loss for words. 

“What about us? You know you can talk to me about anything,” you reassure him. 

“After things ended with the woman I was seeing, Laura, I got to thinking. She knew about Eva from the beginning but then she decided she didn’t want that. To be a stepmom. She said she didn’t know if she could love Eva, love a child that isn’t hers. And it made me think, what if I can’t find someone that can love her?” Mark pauses. 

“You will, Mark. It just has to be the right person,” you put a hand on his arm. 

“It does and, so I thought, why can’t that right person be you?”

You stare at him absolutely stunned before finally finding your voice, “What?”

Mark takes a deep breath and then launches into his reasoning, “You love Eva and we’re great friends. Maybe we’re missing this great thing that’s right in front of us? Maybe we could be a family and along the way we could fall in love? We’ve always seen each other as friends. Off-limits in a way but if we tried, it could be great. You’re practically Eva’s mother anyway or the closest thing she has to one. We could do this together. Am I making any sense?”

“I understand what you are saying but… Mark, you’ve been through a lot lately. Your first relationship and breakup since you were widowed and then all this with Eva. Your emotions are running high.”

“I know it seems like that but I’ve thought about this a lot. I think all of this gave me clarity. We would be great together. We are great together. We get along, we work really well together with parenting, we’re comfortable together. We don’t have to jump right into anything. We could start spending a little more time together. Go on a few family outings and then a date. It felt weird when I first started thinking about it but it makes sense. Doesn’t it?”

“I’m… a little thrown, honestly,” you admit. 

“I know, I’m sorry but… will you at least consider it? We could be a family. A real family,” Mark says softly. 

“We are a real family. It’s little and broken but still good,” you quote one of Eva’s favorite movies, trying desperately to relieve some of the tension between you.

“Okay, Stitch,” Mark laughs, “but will you think about it? Really think about it? Please?”

“I… Okay, yeah, I’ll think about it,” you whisper.

“I think we could be really good together. Seriously, you’re my best friend. We tell each other practically everything. You love Eva. We could make this work. I think- I think this could be great. For all of us. Eva would be so happy. We could be happy together, the three of us as a family. I’d make you happy,” Mark looks at you in a way he hasn’t before. It makes you feel nervous and scared and so many things but you can’t think of it now as Eva walks in with a sweet smile asking for breakfast. 

“What would you like, Eva Diva?” You distract yourself from the conversation that you knew would weigh on you for hours. 

“Toast!”

“Toast? You got it! How about some eggs, too?” You smile. 

Eva’s face lights up with an idea, “French toast?”

“I’ll get out the bread,” Mark winks at both of you. 

“Will you help me crack the eggs?” You ask Eva as you join Mark in the kitchen. 

–

A few hours later, you left their apartment with Mark walking you to the door and asking one last time, “You’ll think about it, right?”

You nodded, answering quietly, “Yeah, I will.”

“Have dinner with me Saturday. I’ll get my mom to watch Eva. We can talk about it then. No pressure, just to talk. Okay?” Mark looks at you expectantly. 

“Yeah, okay. I’ll see you Saturday,” you agree. 

As you were driving home, your mind ran through the exchange with Mark over and over again. You had never thought of Mark that way. As he had said, it was off-limits, unthinkable because he was your best friend’s husband and you would never betray her by even considering it. He was also right that it made sense. You would love nothing more than to have Eva be yours legally. As it stands, you have no real right to her. If Mark did ever end up remarrying and his new wife decided she didn’t want you around, you had no recourse to seek visitation. It could turn the situation ugly and that was your greatest fear. 

As you pull into your parking spot at the compound, you realize you don’t even remember the drive. You had driven by rote, your mind consumed with the dilemma at hand. You laid your head back on your seat and imagined your best friend in the seat next to you. The two of you had often had your “car talks” when you could tell each other anything and you knew it would never leave the confines of that space. 

“What should I do?” you ask. 

“What does your heart say?” She looks at you with a smirk. 

You scoff laughingly, “I hate it when you ask that.”

“Because it’s not an answer,” she smiles knowingly. 

“Exactly. You answer my question with a question. It’s the worst,” you pause for a moment before asking her, “Would you hate me?”

“For loving my family?”

“No…” you stare at her, knowing she understands your question. 

“I could never hate you,” she reassures. 

“It feels strange, wrong to even think about it. As if I’m trying to take your place, take over your life,” you feel tears shimmer in your eyes. 

“Are you?” She asks softly. 

“No… I don’t know. Maybe there was always that little bit of envy. You had a good man and a real life and I was this shadow of a person under everyone else’s control.”

“You weren’t a shadow. I saw you.”

“You saved my life and then lost your own.”

“It was worth it. I brought Eva into this world.”

“She’s amazing. She’s so like you. I love her so much,” you tell her.

“And I love you. No matter what. You’re-”

A knock on your car window makes your head pop up. The presence of your best friend melting away and you stare up at Bucky for a moment before reaching for the door, “Uh, hey.”

“Hey. Are you okay, doll?” He asks.

“Just a lot on my mind,” you say as you exit your vehicle and grab your bag. 

“Let me carry that for you,” he takes the bag from you.

“Thanks, Bucky,” you give him a small smile. 

“How is Eva?” He asks as he walks with you to your room. 

“Almost fully recovered. She still tires out easily but she’s back to her normal self for the most part. She’s a fighter, like her mom was,” your voice breaks a little as you enter your room. 

“Doll?” Bucky looks at you curiously as he sets your bag down. 

“I’m sorry. I just-” you break down in tears and Bucky is to you in a second. You wrap your arms around his neck as sobs wrack your body. Everything converged on you at once, your fear of losing Eva, the grief of your best friend’s death, the fear and uncertainty surrounding Mark’s request, your feelings for Bucky, and your own insecurities. You cried more than you had in years and through it all, Bucky held you. 

“It’s okay. I got you, doll,” Bucky whispers reassurances as you cling to him. 

“I don’t know what to do. I don’t know what to do,” you release the words shakily. 

“About what? Talk to me,” Bucky rubs your back. 

“I don’t- Everyth- Eva and Mark and everything. I can’t…” You stop, scared you’re going to start hyperventilating. You felt panicked. Everything was pressing down on you and you felt heavy, so you held onto Bucky. He was your lifeline in that moment. 

“You’re overwhelmed, doll. The last few weeks, the last few months have been a lot for you. Let’s get some food and then maybe an early bedtime would be a good idea. What do you think?”

You nod against his shoulder, “Will you-” You stop yourself from asking him to stay with you. You know how unfair it is, but his presence comforted you. It felt wrong to ask him to be there for you as you are considering whether to give up a chance to be with him in order to be with Mark. If Bucky even wanted to be with you like that. God, you were so confused and torn and sad. Maybe you should tell him, ask his advice, and find out how he feels. He was one of the few people who knew about your full past. He had become your closest friend and confidante over these last few weeks. 

Then, as if reading your mind, he answers your unspoken question. “I’ll stay with you as long as you want. I’m here for you. I’ll always be here for you,” he whispers. 

Those sweet, perfect whispered words should have given you all the comfort in the world but they shatter you. Your heart feels like it’s burning a hole through your chest and the tears start all over as all the confusion crashes down on your head again. 

“Doll? Did I say something wrong?” He asks, pulling back to look into your face. 

“No, no, it’s me. I’m wrong,” you pull away from him. Bucky lets you go, allowing you space, and waits. You put your head in your hands and turn away. Your mind is going too fast, the thoughts are crowding in. You don’t know what to think or feel. “I don’t know what to do,” you cry. 

“Talk to me. Please, doll,” Bucky takes a step closer to you.

“I don’t know what to do,” you repeat the words as if stuck on a loop. 

“You talk to me. That’s what you do. Look at me, doll,” Bucky moves around you to look in your face. “Talk to me.”

“I don’t know if I should. It’s not fair. It’s not fair to you. You-, I-, do you…” you look into his eyes before shaking your head, “I can’t.”

“You can,” Bucky watches as you shake your head, “You can, you can, doll. Whatever it is, I’m here for you. You can tell me.” He cups your face in his hands, forcing you to look him in the eye. 

You stare at him, covering his hands with your own, and it calms you. You had told Bucky about everything else. You had told him how weak you once were and shown how strong you had become. It wasn’t fair to him but…

“Mark,” you whisper. 

“Mark? What did he do? Did he hurt you?” Bucky looks over you as if expecting to find some mark or bruise. 

“No, no, he would never. He… he wants to be a family.”

The color drains from Bucky’s face as he takes in the meaning of your words, “What?” 

“He’s scared he’ll never find someone who can love Eva. He wants us to be a family and…” you trail off. 

“And?” Bucky prompts. 

“He said, what if we’re missing out on this great thing that’s right in front of us? We could be together and be happy and… I’d be Eva’s mom,” you looked up at him with all of the confusion and fear showing on your face. “But would I be betraying her mom? Am I doing that just by thinking about it? Is that really a relationship that could be happy when it’s based on the love of a child rather than loving each other? Mark said maybe we’d fall in love along the way. But we’ve had six years as friends, wouldn’t those feelings have surfaced if they were there? Or was it just so off-limits we’ve never let ourselves go there before? He wants to go to dinner Saturday night to talk about it. I don’t know what to do.”

You lay your forehead on Bucky’s chest. If it was possible, you would have heard his heart breaking as he held you there. He felt it shattering into pieces too tiny to ever be put back together. He was in love with you, head over heels, beyond sense, in love with you. He had planned to tell you that night, before Mark called about Eva’s seizure. Maybe that was his sign that he wasn’t supposed to. Maybe he was supposed to let you go. Maybe you were only ever meant to be a night of comfort. His past was just the past and you were just meant to be a part of it. You were his sign that he could let go and move on. All he knows is he can’t fail you now and so he takes a deep breath, puts his own feelings aside, and asks the question that may turn his heart to dust, “What is your heart telling you?”

You squeeze your eyes shut tighter, staving off the onslaught of tears you feel coming to choke you. It was as if you were hearing your best friend speaking through him. You give him the only answer you can, “I don’t know. I’m just too overwhelmed right now. I can’t think straight.”

Bucky blinks rapidly, trying to keep his emotions at bay, “Of course you are. Let’s get you some food and then you need to rest. Everything will be clearer in the morning.”

“Thank you, Bucky.”

“Of course, doll. I’m here for you. Whatever you need,” he kisses the top of your head wishing he could make it all better. For both of you.

Part 10

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[cherish--these--times]

Important information. SLEEPLESS IN SEATTLE. UPDATING AS I WATCH THE MOVIE ALONG BEAR WITH ME. The film they watched at the hotel is You've Got Mail, this is Sam and Rebecca's story. When they messaged each other not knowing who the other person was. Ted said Sleepless in Seattle was far superior. This is the one where airports play a significant part and it's about a man who lost his wife and has a son finding love again with the woman he never knew until the last second would be the one. He first sees her in an airport and is knocked sideways. By all accounts the last of Ted we will see will be in an airport based on previous seasons with first and last shot being a character’s face in the same location.

Also Rebecca mentioning she has a private jet and the thing with airports; SUSP AS HELL.

Keeley assumed the moment Rebecca spent with Dutch Guy was "Magic" This is also a quote from Sleepless in Seattle. Turns out it was Gezellig instead. But this is definitely where we're going. And that'll either be Dutch Guy or Ted. Both fit the man who lost their partner and have a kid formula. Definitely not Sam. But Ted tripped over the Red String of Fate, has the matchbook, loves Kenny Rogers, bakes the biscuits who are home to her, she carries his army man everywhere she goes. She hasn't been struck by lightning yet which to me means it's not Dutch Guy; Ted is leaving which means her world is about to be turned upside down. I keep the faith. i don't care.

AND there's a tear in Meg Ryan's wedding dress and she says oh no it's a sign to which her mum says "You don't believe in signs!" And Rebecca doesn't really believe in signs either! All the signs have been pointing to different people except the obvious one! They're there so she can see something about herself she completely missed.

FUCK MY LIFE. It's about making wishes!! Tom Hanks' son in the film wishes for his father to find a new wife!! His son is worried about his dad!!!

The psychiatrist on the radio is called Dr. Fieldstone FUUUUUUCK MEEEEE. IT WAS RIGHT THERE ALL ALONG.

Sam and Annie speak the same words at the same time in two different places, soulmatism right there!

Annie thought Sam sounded "Nice" on the radio and Ted is one of the "nicest" humans Rebecca has ever met!!

Quote from a guy : "This is fate, she's divorced and you need a new wife." (not talking about Annie here, it's another woman) "What is that thing when everything intersects?" To which Sam replies: "The Bermuda TRIANGLE."

One woman who writes to Sam after he was on the radio lives in OKLAHOMA!

Dr. Fieldstone tells Sam she can tell he is a good dad just like Beard told Ted!!

One woman says on the radio: "Why do you want to be with someone who doesn't love you?" (Michelle, anyone?)

"Sam, tell me what was so special about your wife?" "It was a million tiny little things then when you added them all up it just meant we were supposed to be together. I knew it the very first time I touched her it was like coming home, only to no home I had ever known!"

Annie asking a friend: "But when you met her (his wife), did you believe she was the only person for you? That in some mystical, cosmic way, it was fated?"

Sam's friend about relationships:

"Things are different, now. First, you have to be friends. You have to like each other."

Annie talks to her best friend about the concept of DESTINY.

Annie hires a private detective to run a background check on Sam!! Ted wanted Rebecca to do it with Dr. Jacob!

Wonderful addition by @doctorbeverlycrusher : Rebecca’s mom said a couple times that when she loves something, she loves it forever. The main song from Sleepless in Seattle, When I Fall in Love, starts with the lyric “When I fall in love, it will be forever”.

ANNIE MUNCHES ON SUNFLOWER SEEDS ON THE PLANE.

Sam's son to his dad: "Jessica says you and Annie never got together in that life, and your hearts are like puzzles with parts out of them and when you get together the puzzle's complete. The reason I know this and you don't is that I'm younger and purer so I'm more in touch with cosmic forces."

There's even a mention of Horticulture!

We spotted the word Rainbow in the pub game, the romcommunism episode was called Rainbow. Let me leave you with the quote from Ted again.

"Now, it may not work out how you think it will or how you hope it does, but believe me, it will all work out. Exactly as it's supposed to."

I might be setting myself up for disappointment but the writers are building every step up to the cliff egde, baby!

Thank you for coming to my Ted Lasso Talk

#tedbecca #ted x rebecca #ted lasso spoilers #ted lasso speculation #i trust in the eyebrows

[karin-gespenst]

my thoughts immediately after watching the 2023 Christmas Special

Can we please keep Geoffrey? He's delightful and thoughtful and the first sibling of any of the Nonnatuns to appear since Sister Evangelina's brother!

I chuckled when they lampshaded the fact that Colette could have moved into Nonnatus house years ago. Chummy got to live there with her child as well, but that was so long ago, back in the old Nonnatus house before they had to knock it down.

I was going to make a comment about unsurprisingly predictable surprise triplets, just before they turned out to be quadruplets, which did surprise me, a little.

But I am surprised that the research-loving show-off doctor did not x-ray Brenda in month 5 or 6. Or maybe listen for more than half a minute with the pinard? can you not notice the difference between 2 heartbeats and 4? Did not everyone and their mom get to palpate poor Brenda's belly? They even let Tim have a go just because he was there.

Sister Monica Joan's depression rang very familiar. When my grandmother neared 90, she complained about having to grow so old. That remark from Sister Monica Joan back when Nancy was new could have been a quote from my gran: "Child, I have seen everything."

If Judy Parfitt is contemplating leaving her role, I'm sure we'd all applaud her for sticking around for so long and inspiring a ton of request for a prequel series about the beginnings of the order in Poplar.

Does Heidi have a plan where she wants to go with the story of May and her mother? the parcel gave an idea about the difficulties with fostering and adoption in a constellation like theirs. Shelagh making an effort to make the gift from Esther suitable for May is symbolic for the care she gives her, taking what is there and adapting it to what May needs. It is also fine with me to show that even a privileged and educated family like the Turners can only do so much in a system that made Esther have to leave May at an orphanage in the first place. The message I'm taking away is that the real need is to try make sure children can stay in their families and communities whenever possible and that communities and families have the means to raise their children.

Did anyone ever take a closer look at the differences between the kind of pastoral care Cyril gives in comparison to Tom ? I'd be interested in reading it, but my knowledge of the goings on in church at that time is nonexistent. Of course, comparing a curate who is pastoraling full time with someone who has a different day job will be mismatched, but there are more distinctions to be found.

Phyllis did not come home refreshed from the refresher course. And the enema discussion is a treat!

The idea with the illuminated baby Jesus will absolutely be stolen should anyone ever make me put together a nativity display.

More thoughts are sure to come, now I'm curious about yours!

#call the midwife #call the midwife spoilers

[magentagalaxies]

hi @liliana-von-k, thanks for the follow! i have answered this question before but i love talking about kids in the hall and my "origin story" with them so i'm happy to tell it again (jsyk it will be a long post bc i always have to tell the full story bc i love it so much)

basically my parents have both been kith fans since the 90s, so even before i had seen any of the show itself there were certain kith quotes that were just part of my family's vocabulary. the first sketch i watched was "these are the daves i know" when i was like 8 years old and i became obsessed with that song. i watched a few other sketches/the first few episodes from season one but i didn't truly get into kith until after their documentary "comedy punks" was released

see, my mom is a big documentary person so she was like "oh hey there's a new kids in the hall documentary! do you want to watch it?" and i just kind of shrugged and was like sure i'll be in the room while it's on, probably working on my own stuff or scrolling on my phone. but like not even five minutes in i was hooked. while i'd always enjoyed kids in the hall's comedy, something about hearing the very personal histories of how the troupe came together and survived for all these years was so affecting. i think it was scott specifically that really signaled to me that this show was something special, and the part where bruce talked about comforting scott while he had cancer by telling him how the rest of the troupe would die first was so powerful. honestly no individual movie has changed my life more than comedy punks did specifically bc it gave me that push to get into kith and approached it from such a human perspective, which definitely informed my approach to the rest of their work and them as people. i remember watching comedy punks for the first time and getting this strange feeling i couldn't pin down yet that was like this is important, not just referring to the show or the troupe, but like this feeling that i had just crossed a turning point in my life, and i remember feeling this pull towards toronto which seemed frivolous at the time but has been so heavily solidified as i'm now planning to move there in just over a year.

so i bingewatched all of the kids in the hall tv show in summer 2022, as well as brain candy, death comes to town, the amazon season, etc. basically as much kith stuff as i could find. but i needed more. so i started getting into side projects, which brought me to "mouth congress" (a queer-punk band scott thompson and paul bellini had in the early 80s that they've recently started putting out new music with again). i found a youtube channel with a bunch of recent live performance clips of the band and each video had like less than 10 views. so since i didn't have anyone to infodump about kith with irl (aside from my very patient mother lol) i started commenting on every video, complimenting the performances and pretending i was talking to a friend, confident no one would actually see it

after 2 weeks of this, turns out someone did see it. PAUL BELLINI HIMSELF. this led to a whole back-and-forth which eventually ended up with him emailing me a copy of the unreleased mouth congress documentary, i emailed back asking if he'd be interested in meeting on zoom (since i am a queer comedy writer myself so both he and scott are my biggest comedy inspirations), and yeah bellini is a delightful person to talk to and we very quickly became friends. i ended up offering to run mouth congress's social media, which can be found on both tumblr and instagram as @mouthcongress and posts both vintage videos from the 80s/90s and recent live clips. they're currently working on an album of entirely new material written in the past 2 years which is going to be released soon (we don't have a specific release date but the recording is completed and they've started filming music videos for it!! but i'm getting ahead of myself lmao)

a few months pass and mouth congress is set to perform at a new year's eve show at a local club in toronto. i'd never been to toronto before, never even left the united states, but paul says it would be so great to have me there and by some miracle my parents say yes to making the trip (they still can't believe this is happening either, since they were kith fans first!). the trip is wonderful, i immediately fall in love with the city, i get lunch with paul irl for the first time and get to have my very first face-to-face conversation with my number one comedy inspiration scott thompson. it's honestly a little awkward but in an adorable funny way. i also have my first legal drink at that show (bc canadian drinking age is lower than the us), specifically saying i want to have my first drink with buddy cole, which both scott and paul are very into

it's actually only a couple weeks until i'm in toronto again, because scott is debuting a new buddy cole show consisting of monologues that were all censored by amazon that he pitched during the revival season. this is my first time traveling a long distance without my family which my mom is anxious about so paul bellini lets me have him as my emergency contact. the show is amazing, i get to stay for the afterparty, and while i'm there i casually mention that i'm surprised no one has made a buddy cole documentary yet. like, this character has such a rich history even beyond the kids in the hall (which i can infodump about all day lmao) and is such an important staple of queer comedy that doesn't get the attention he deserves. the kith documentary is great, but where's my buddy cole documentary? paul accepts my pitch (that i didn't even realize i was pitching), passes along the idea to scott, and yeah now i'm legit directing a film with my number one comedy heroes and i haven't even graduated college yet. what the fuck. i expected this to be the type of thing i accomplish over 20 years into my career, not at twenty!! so yeah that's how the buddy cole documentary started. i'm still in preproduction on it but we're launching an indiegogo crowdfunding campaign for it in the next 2 weeks bc this has evolved into a full feature-length film with some incredible celebrity interviewees, both kith and otherwise.

anyway a few months later it's announced bruce mcculloch is bringing his one-man-show to the city i go to school in. not only that, but his theater is literally 2 blocks from campus. i ask paul if he'd give me bruce's contact so i can set up an interview for my school's newspaper, paul gives me bruce's assistant's email, and i set up a 30-minute zoom two weeks before bruce will be in town. the conversation honestly goes bizarrely well. like it's honestly surreal how close bruce and i got after only knowing each other for a half hour? he's such an easy person to talk to and literally by the end of that conversation he was already calling himself my mentor, asking about my comedy, and offering to let me meet him backstage after his show. which is exactly what i did, launching yet another incredible friendship-slash-mentorship with one of the kids in the hall.

bruce eventually signed on to executive produce the buddy cole documentary (alongside paul bellini), i've been up to toronto in january, april, june, august, and october this year (so essentially every 2 months, though it was slightly offset by going twice in january) and i'm planning on going up in december, every time not only do i find time to meet up with scott, paul, and bruce but they all deliberately try to reserve as much "jess time" as they can because i have a unique and powerful friendship with each of them, every time i finish a new creative project paul has to see it bc he loves how ambitious i am, i repeatedly wake up to texts scott sends me at 3am about the documentary and how excited he is to have me on tour with him to film it next year, bruce thinks it's hilarious he used to think i was "shy" bc i've gotten so comfortable going on infodumps and tangents about things i'm passionate about, and the three of them all feel like extended family. best of all, i actually have plans to graduate from college a semester early so that i can use the money (and time) i've saved to find a place in toronto and start making even more connections with the comedy community up there (also for the record: no i have not met mark, kevin, or dave yet. i know kevin is aware of my existence from bruce giving me a shoutout at a show they both did but that's about it. but i know i will interview all of them for my documentary)

so anyway that's how i got into kids in the hall. i know only the first 2 paragraphs answer your question, but at this point my love for this show has become so so intertwined with my relationships to bruce and scott and paul as humans that i don't really consider getting into kids in the hall and getting to know the kids in the hall as separate things in my life.

(also if you have any follow-up questions on anything mentioned feel free to reply or dm me, this goes for everyone else too!)

#as always i hope talking about knowing some of the kith irl doesn't come across as bragging bc that's absolutely not my intention #bc i do very much feel like a very lucky kith tumblr nerd and my favorite thing is connecting the kith to this part of their audience #hosting little digital screenings of hard-to-find kith media or passing along questions etc #this is exemplified with my ''kids in the archive'' series which you should check out if you haven't already #but yeah this is a very (and i mean VERY) brief summary of how this all unfolded #bc like. yes this all kind of happened over a year and a half. but it was a very eventful year and a half #if you scroll far enough in some of my kith-related tags you can find posts from in-the-moment before i knew some of them #or when i was still coming up with the concept for the buddy cole doc or something like that #which is very interesting to see. this blog is like a living kith journal lmao #also: the bruce interview article was never written bc i actually lied about writing for the school paper lmaooo #but for the anniversary i might write a transcript and/or see if i can post the audio bc i did record it #i haven't relistened to it since the day (march 6th) so it'll be so cool going back and listening to myself being starstruck #compared to now where i see bruce as ''just some guy (complimentary)''

[ithillyienseowyn]

See I've been thinking about this for quite a bit now in the midst of everyone trying to divide and conquer what version of The Little Mermaid is the 'best one' {TM} and then I think to just how linear and straight forward the animated actually is {not hating, far from it, and its something I definitely caught in the midst of my whole let me go prove my x y and z to everyone's a b c and d mentality}.

And I've been thinking about HOW and WHY the LA feels like such a gut wrench all consuming feeling, {mind you its all I've thought about for a whole half month}.

And I think its because they took care to expand so much of the story that wasn't just your standard animation and musical by pulling bits from the original HCA story, as well as pulling the whole bit of Ariel's mom dying from Ariel's Beginning and taking bits and pieces from Return to the Sea, add on to how AUTHENTIC the romance actually feels without being the straight forward linear beat for beat that the animated one is. Like they really took that and decided yeah no Ariel and Eric will still have that linear from the animated but we are going to really LEAN INTO the whole fact that they are actually strangers to acquaintances to friends to lovers. I'm kissing the ground for them making them friends in between literally everything but I think because that whole aspect rocked me so hard was because of how those two really just became besties on set as filming progressed. Which makes the whole bit with them saying goodnight even more insane because yeah dude realized he's in love but it had the whole vibe of {oh shit... I'm in love with my best friend?} and that's not even adding in the fact that you could actually FEEL everything Ariel and Eric were feeling as the relationship progressed... like this movie and Rob Marshall really said YOU THE AUDIENCE DONT JUST GET TO WATCH A SIMPLE DYNAMIC BETWEEN TWO YOUNGSTERS GROW YOU GET TO BE THE THIRD WHEEL TO THIS ROMANTIC JOURNEY NO NOTES. {Not to bring this up again but....the whole suddenness of how he grabs for her hand during the Kiss the Girl scene rocked me so hard the moment it happened that it literally nearly took me out.} That's why when they have the extra time separated after the battle with Ursula it just gets you in the most UNEXPECTED WAY and makes you see all the obstacles that are against them. In hindsight they could've made it so basic by not constantly throwing things at the both of them. But they deliberately chose not to so...

All that being said it really makes me think on just how much those two actually go through this whole entire movie because god the ending and them finally together and reunited feels so EARNED and DESERVED.

And I know it shouldn't shock me but I'm still thrown by the fact that out of all the disney live actions this movie is the longest out of all the live action runtimes.

I really don't want people thinking that I'm discrediting the classic when I say this but the difference to me is that yes I loved the animation as a kid but I also had a myriad of other Ren Era classics that I loved a tad bit more, it really depended on the day but sit me down with any of those era films and I will quote half of the movie {if not the whole thing} so this live action being one of my fave faves from the tip of the Ren Era is this weird euphoric feeling?

This movie is so special to me :') :')

#misc #text #tlm text #my feelings and thoughts on #this specific movie oscillate every 10 minutes #i spent 908% of watching this wishing they would kiss like 7-10 times during all the close calls they had

[tetsunabouquet]

Do you think autistic people could pull off a John Wick? To be honest we don't see a lot autistic people in action or adventure movies.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=v00zKyXbfD4&pp=ygUVSm9obiBXaWNrIGZpZ2h0IHNjZW5l

No. I don't think most of us would survive in an action movie, because we're sensory overloaded very easily so guns and explosives wouldn't be our best friend. Just that scene that you sent me the link of, if I am thinking about the sounds like the few gun shots, the many times glass broke but even the bone crunching sound of jamming a knife into a skull paired with the anxiety levels of such a scenario, then honestly I'd pass.

In my language, we actually have this particular phrase, 'Well, with you I couldn't win a war', about someone who's incompetent either in general, or for a specific task because they do not have the required skillset. My mom once used this phrase on someone and when I asked her in all seriousness if one could actually win a war with me at the forefront, she said and I quote, "Well, you'd probably run into the enemy fire in a panic attack, so no one is winning with you either."

* An adventure type of movie is a VERY different case, however. Other then the fact that the overall plots do not have to involve weapons that easily set us off, for adventure type of movies usually there is a wider array of skillset needed, hence why you have so many tropes in those particular story like the hero, the healer, the comedic side kick who's the glue keeping the team together, etc. Autism comes with drawbacks but benefits too, and you could easily create an autistic character who's specialized themselves in a skill needed for the team in the adventure stories. I do seem to spot a tiny bit of a rise of making the nerd character in these groups autistic, but that's not without its flaws either. Like, personally I am kinda bummed adventure/fantasy/sci-fi is making us the scientific-kind of genius whenever we do get an autistic character. So many people with autism also are genius with their hands, just look at Leonardo DaVinci who people deem to have possibly been autistic. Where's the jack-of-all-trades kind of autistic character who fills in the slot of whatever the team needs right now? Like the one who builds the camp, builds weapons, helps out medically- that kind of genius. At best, we get someone who creates weapons on top of being a science nerd and I'm kind of tired that we're constantly being sent to the tech-savvy genius corner (not just in stories, but also in real life when it comes to how autism-friendly job spaces are usually tech related). Our 'talent' comes in so many more shapes and forms then just being good with tech. Where is a character like the one from the Good Doctor in an adventure type story fullfilling the healer role? I really hope we're getting to see characters like that some day (and well-written because if the character is as insulting as that Sia movie then I'd rather prefer no representation at all).

#autism #action #adventure #movies #sensory overload #neurodivergent #please not another tech savvy genius #autism in media

[l13bg0tt]

@ronald-speirs tag game

Favorite place in the world you’ve visited?

Ooooh probably somewhere in the Kananaskis region, maybe Barrier Lake. That's where my mom and I like to go paddleboarding 🫶🏻

Something you’re proud of yourself for?

I think I'll have to say how much I got my act together school-wise this year. Last school year I really struggled mentally, I was very close to dropping out. I was dealing with throwing up from my anxiety almost every day.

My favourite professor actually just recommended me for grad school which I am very proud of! (i had his class this school year lol) It has made me change up my life plans for the next couple of years but I am honoured that he thinks highly of me, so I must do it... Nothing feels as good as academic validation 😭

Favorite books?

The Long Walk by Richard Bachman (Stephen King's pseudonym) and With The Old Breed by Eugene Sledge <3

Something that makes your heart happy when thinking about it?

this is hard lol the first thing that came to mind after daydreaming about being w my special girl was piglets

Favorite thing about your culture?

Yikes... hockey..? wait no, not rn... Terry Fox perhaps?

When did you join the HBO War fandom? What was the first show you watched?

Joined the fandom this year! First show was Band of Brothers.

Have you read any of Easy Company’s books? If so, which ones were your favorite?

So far I have only read Sledge and the start of Leckie's!! My mom got me Webster's for my birthday and it only recently came in the mail, so I'll be starting that this weekend.

Favorite HBO War character and your favorite moment with them?

how dare you ask me this. i suppose luz... i love him in the background of every scene but the major scenes that come to mind are "got a penny" duh, "ooooklahoma" and the way he be looking in episode 8

Do you make content for any fandoms, if so; what sort of content?

I make historical war content on tiktok (huge hiatus while I attempt to get my degree lol) @506thpir and might bring some of it over here

Favorite actor/actress and your favorite film of theirs?

ugh it used to be Woody Harrelson until he pulled some conspiracy theorist BS so I suppose Miles Teller in Whiplash (or the Spectacular Now lol)

Favorite quote/s that you wish to share with others?

Unfortunately I'm not like that... I don't have one. I can actually only remember "You miss 100% of the shots you don't take." - Wayne Gretzky 🤣 (no NOT Michael Scott)

Random fact your mutuals/followers don’t know about you?

Ich habe in der High Schule Deutsch gelernt und spreche immer noch ein bisschen. Ich versuche Spanisch für meinen Liebling zu lernen 🙈

If you’re a writer, do you need a beta reader (say yes so I can be your beta reader 🤭)?

omg we are nowhere near ready but if that day comes i will let you know

Three things that make you smile?

animals

my silly lil crush

people wearing cool outfits

Any nicknames you like?

cammy

List some people you love to see around on tumblr!

@liptonwashere @executethyself35 @mutantmanifesto @footprintsinthesxnd @ronald-speirs @malarkgirlypop @land-sh @cody-helix02 and soooo many more I forgot to edit this part before publishing the draft 😭

What would you do during a zombie apocalypse?

Everything I could to keep my loved ones safe lol sorry boring

Favorite movie?

I'll just go with She's the Man for the sake of brevity

Do you like horror movies?

yuh but i really prefer it when they're actually decent

#tag game #mutuals

[https-hunter]

top five moments for Isaac from cbs ghosts?

Omg I love Isaac so so much. He’s so funny, my mom and I absolutely adore him

The nisaac confession scene. I’m a big fan of nisaac, I really am. Kicking my legs and giggling every time those two are on screen together, truly. Tbh my thoughts on nisaac are a ramble for another post. But that was a big step for him!! When he calls him & Nigel “buddies” and you can see the pain in his face! And his confession is so simple, a mere three words, but it has so much impact. I applaud Brandon Scott Jones for his portrayal as Isaac, it’s really incredible to watch

The nisaac proposal scene. Similar to number one, I absolutely adore this interaction. Again, this is a huge move for Isaac, and I absolutely adore watching him take those baby steps into accepting himself. This scene was just so beautiful. I mean, Isaac doesn’t even say the words “will you marry me?”, but we all know what the gesture meant. They’re so special to me. I look forward to seeing Isaac’s character develop in future seasons and I can’t wait to see their wedding :)

His interaction with George, the Farnsbys’ Puritan ghost. Everything about this is so perfect. Isaac’s facial expressions, the obscene things George is saying, just all of it. My mom and I watched the show for the first time together, and we often quote “have you read the Iliad?” and “what did you say about an oily lad??” to each other. I honestly don’t get why a lot of people hate cbs ghosts because this is peak comedy right here

When he tried to seduce Hetty. I should’ve included this in my Hetty post, but that whole scene is comedic gold. The way Hetty is giggling about her nape and Isaac just…pretends to fall asleep. My mom and I also quote this scene a lot, it may be one of the best things to come out of TV, ever

“That was gasp-worthy!” I love this silly dramatic man. Tbh his reactions to things are what I look for in a lot of scenes. The way that he gasps, and then gasps again just to make a point never fails to make me smile

#i have so many thoughts about his character #I’d like to study him under a microscope #I have many more that are just funny little quotes from him #ghosts #cbs ghosts #ghosts cbs #isaac higgintoot #asks #ask #inbox

[airenyah]

so i was tagged by @lurkingteapot to list my 9 favorite tv shows. i find it difficult to define "favorite" so i'm just gonna list a whole bunch of current faves, past faves, and other series that stuck with me or have a special place in my heart for whatever reason.

tagging @magsimags @newyearknwwme @swabianhotpocket @killiru @gaym3bo1 @ranchthoughts @gillianthecat @feralmuskyscentedhoepran @telomeke – feel free to ignore this if you've been tagged already or if you don't feel like participating <3

here are mine in alphabetical order (bc i really CAN'T do a ranking):

(details under the cut)

bad buddy series:

you've seen the state of my blog for the past 1.5 years. i'm not even gonna elaborate

galavant:

I MISS GALAVANT EVERY SINGLE DAY. it was gone too soon, even if the renewal for a second season was a huge surprise (forever sad we couldn't get a 3rd season).

please this series is so funny and entertaining and just iconic. the dialogue is SOOOO quotable and the songs are so funny and amazing!!!!!!!!!! (i mean hello it's alan menken!!!!!)

it's got badass ladies, a pathetic little meow meow king, A DRAGON (i super believe in tad cooper <333), an army of gays, pirates who are the lords of the sea (except for the part with the sea), a knight in shinging armour who is some over-muscled chauvinistic self-indulgent egotistic stingy prissy narcisissy jackass in a caaaaaaan, and so much more

PLEASE IF YOU LOVE DISNEY MOVIES AND MUSICALS AND FOURTH WALL BREAKS DO YOURSELF A FAVOUR AND GO WATCH THIS LITTLE GEM OF A SERIES. PLEASE. it's my favorite thing ever <333333333

fun fact: the title of my blog which goes "oh poop, i got gravy on my tummy flowers!" is a quote from this series

moonlight chicken:

this is one of the 3 series that i've rated as a 10/10 on mydramalist, so i HAD to include it and well. it's just. i don't know how to put it into words

this series and the characters just feel so real. i like how every single character has their own baggage to carry and how they all come together and influence each other. and i really like that this isn't your standard fluffy romance story. actually, one of my favorite things in this series is how the break-up between alan and wen is a major plot line. and i like how messy it all is, how long it takes them to actually draw the line. again, it just feels so real.

not to mention there's a deaf character!!!! please heart and li ming were just so wholesome 🥺🥺🥺 and li ming's relationship with his uncle was just so endearing

once again i am begging gmmtv:

FIRSTMIX MAIN COUPLE SERIES WHEN????

can we please, PLEASE, have another series with earth and fourth as an uncle/nephew duo?? fuck romantic actor pairs, give me familial ones!! you've already let fourth keep the same mother* two series in a row, let him keep the uncle too!!!! *(on that note: i ADORE lookwa. i don't fuck but she's a milf)

orphan black:

i'm not sure i ever actually finished this series (i think i'm still missing the final season??) but i just HAD to include it bc tatiana maslany, okay. tatiana maslany. that's it, that's all i'm gonna say

skam (norsk):

you had to be there

supernatural:

og followers will remember when this was still a spn blog. yes, this show makes the list. once a spn blog, always a spn blog*. free me.

*fun fact: this started as a spn blog and that's something that's actually still visible in my tagging system. spn is the only show where i don't tag episodes as #series abbreviation 1.01 but i tag the ep by the number itself without specifying the series

the brightest star in the sky:

during the pandemic my mom came to me and said "you need to watch this series. the male lead reminds me so much of your brother". i watched it with her. she was right. the male lead is exactly like my little brother. to the point where there was this one scene where the male lead was criticizing the female lead's outfit and my mom and i laughed and went "[brother] would totally say this too" and only a few days later my brother and i had a conversation about clothing over lunch and my brother said almost exactly the same thing as the male lead in that one scene and i looked at my mom in surprise and went "did you tell him about that scene????" as my mom was cracking up and shaking her head that no, she had not.

although, when i say the male lead is exactly like my brother, that's a lie. in fact, he's a mix of both my brother and an old friend of ours who was always like a second little brother to me (the two of them actually had similar personalities when they were teens)

and the female lead reminds me of a female friend that was also in the friend group with us (and who is one of my brother's best friends)

in fact, the dynamic between the male lead and the female lead reminds me very much of the dynamic between my brother and said female friend

all in all, the main characters are just very familiar to me and remind me of people i adore and that's why this series has a special place in my heart. (even if i constantly want to punch zheng boxu. sibling love <3)

theory of love:

ok i know this is kind of a controversial one, bc people seem to either love it or hate it BUT. just know that this series and especially the khaithird plot was made for me, and me personally <3

this series came to me at exactly the right time. it was like a mirror to my own life at the time and brought a lot of catharthis. i was going through a "break-up" with my own personal irl-khai back then and this series helped me deal with that, helped me get over him, and reconfirmed to me over and over again that i had taken the right decisions.

theory of love is also the thai drama that i've seen the most amount of times (i've watched the khaithird plot 27x that i've counted as of july 2nd, 2023) (though by now bbs is a close second with 22 full watches that i've counted as of july 2nd, 2023 and it might surpass theory of love at some point now that my personal irl-khai is no longer relevant in my life in any way. you know what that is!! growth!!!! the day bbs surpasses tol is the day i really, truly AM well and over my irl-khai)

you're beautiful:

ok. ok. hear me out. this is a kdrama from 2009, right?? but i didn't watch it until november 2021 where i'd had quite a day and in the evening was super exhausted and just wanted a zero-braincell show to watch and this happened to be on netflix and looked like the perfect thing for my state

little did i know it was gonna be a million-braincell show for me.

basically, i ended up being really entertained by it, saw that there were remakes, decided to check those out too and well. it got my little actor brain going. i started analyzing the acting (comparing esp the og korean version with the taiwanese remake) and it turned into this whole thing where i wrote pages and pages of notes in a google doc. i learned a lot through that and luckily we had camera acting classes at drama school during that period, so it was perfect timing. i suddenly understood so many things and what an effect it can have on the viewer if you do (or don't do) something a certain way

(oh and then a year later i inflicted this series on a uni friend of mine and it turned into this whole acting analysis project after i'd mentioned about something about acting and went "wait, i have THE perfect example for what i mean where you can see it first-hand." we had a great time and then binged the entire series during semester break. i'm planning on getting her into thai ql too, but unfortunately we're both super busy and don't really have time to watch series together)

honorary mentions:

ever night: i watched only the first season, though. and it's been a while since i saw it (3 years ago during lockdown) and so i don't remember the plot very well but... beautiful cinematography. loveable characters. fantastic acting. also the special effects when the main character did those "spells" (forgot what it was called) looked so cool??????

why r u: that was my first thai bl. the one that pulled me into the world of thai drama. considering how i'm mostly a thai drama blog now and the rebranding started with this series i couldn't not mention it, could i

my school president: it has to make the list just for episode 6 alone (gun desperately wanting to know which person from the music club tinn likes but being terrified ask and deep down knowing the answer already anyway but not feeling ready to hear it???? ooooooof that's so me-coded). anyway, all in all it's just a very sweet and wholesome drama and i'm still listening to a bunch of the songs a lot

the fosters: i was obsessed with this back in 2015. i stopped watching it shortly before the jonnor break-up bc i was busy at the time and when i saw the spoilers about the break-up i couldn't be bothered to catch up. but yeah, i was really into it for a while as well

andi mack: i've made multiple gifsets of that show. i don't gif a lot so yeah. considering that i bothered to sit down and make gifs for this, i think andi mack deserves an honorary mention. i wasn't suuper obsessed with it but i did quite like watching it

merlin (bbc): it's just very entertaining ok and the characters are fun to watch and have fun dynamics

#i can't believe i actually managed to NOT have all 9 of them be thai dramas???? wow #in fact only 1/3 of them are thai dramas #also i love how 2/3 of those thai dramas are p'aof dramas dfkjgkdfg like on brand for me isn't it #tag game

[trans-xianxian]

sage! also orchid and mahonia. btw do you have a chenqing keychain charm or am I thinking of someone else?

sage ⇢ what ‘medium’ of art (poetry, music, fiction, paintings, statues etc.) is the most touching to you? why do you think that is?:

I think that music is the kind of art that touches my soul the most, tho visual art is probably what inspires my Own visual art the most and writing like poetry and stories in any form can have profound lasting affects myself as a person (like there's characters that I will just always take with me forever and who helped me through times in my life as silly as that sounds) and writing is one of the ways I am most easily able to get things out of me and express specific emotions and experiences but there's nothing that makes me feel quite like music does and there's nothing that connects me to other ppl like music does. music is one of the things that connects me most to one of my best friends and is such a special cornerstone of our relationship. there is nothing in the world like creating music w other ppl even if you are just singing in the kitchen with your best friend. there's that one quote abt humans always making music and how in the bad times we will be singing about the bad times and like yeah. Yeah. my mom always played a lot of music growing up and my dad used to play the guitar w me and my sister sang me to sleep when I was little so I just think it's always been a big part of my life and I think choir is one of the only reasons I got through middle school lmao. anyway there's just nothing like hearing a song and it filling your whole body hope this helps

orchid ⇢ what’s a song you consider to be perfect?:

CANDY BY THE BLASTING COMPANY it is such a beautiful song both lyrically, instrumentally, and melody wise. I still get chills every time I listen to it and everyone I've ever shown it to regardless of their usual music taste has thought it was beautiful. the ending especially makes me akshmcuakshyaijsj. its also really fun and lovely to sing! their other song old summer reckoning is very beautiful as well (it reminds me of wei wuxian and wen qing lmao). they're the band that did the music for over the garden wall if you ever watched it!

mahonia ⇢ what place, thing, activity inspires you most and how do you express yourself when it does?:

well obviously stories inspire me to make things.. I make my little drawings and I write my little posts about my favorite little guys. but one of the driving forces for me to make art Not related to media is just experiencing a strong emotion esp about a specific experience or person and I like to express it w poetry and visual art and combining those two things when I can. I made this piece after one of my rats died (I was having an already terrible week but I don't remember why lmao) and after coming to the vet with me my best friend came back to my apartment and helped me clean my disgusting room and washed all of my dishes for me and it was just such a profound act of love I had to get it out of my body. I have another poem I wrote that I haven't made art for yet after my dad took care of me after top surgery. I guess rlly what inspires me most is love for other ppl and things as cheesy as that sounds

also yes I do have a chenqing keychain!! it's a tiny replica of the flute and then I got a Different keychain that was the little charm on it and put them together hehe

#LONG ANSWERS TONIGHT I SUPPOSE you just can't ask me abt art without me exploding sorry #ask #mewts

[sluttyapplesforyou]

Today's trial was... interesting. I'm not going to lie when I say that I feel like the witness, iO Tillett Wright, was lying. This isn't because I'm firmly on Johnny Depp's side, although I most definitely am.

I watched the entire testimony recording, and at first he seemed to be somewhat genuine. Forgetful, sure, but mostly genuine, like someone who is recounting a childhood memory almost. They know what happened, but it is a bit foggy. However, the further we went, the more I believed he was lying.

For starters, he was almost like Amber, in a way. He kept moving, his face was constantly in a thinking expression, and he was moving his upper body a whole lot. Secondly, he kept moving his eyes. They would go up, to the side, to the floor, and focus on the walls nearly the entire time. Anytime he met the camera head on, it was only for a few seconds at most. Like Amber, it felt like he was recounting a story, yes, and one that had nuggets of truth, however it felt as though he was replacing the important truths with his and Amber's own perspectives.

He also took long pauses for words, would ramble on things that didn't need to be included into the testimony, and looked like, just as Amber seemed to be doing, looking for a believable lie to use against him while also not making it seem like he was lying about it.

Personally, I think he sprinkled in the truth about him being kind, however it seems like they kept reiterating that it's only when he's sober, or saying that Johnny calls his fans sucker fishes, even though we have video evidence that shows he cares, makes time, and loves his fans, and they seem to be trying to use Marylin Manson against him. I don't know much about Marylin Manson other than many of his girlfriends say that he is abusive and that he is a musician, however I don't look into that stuff currently, so I have no opinion on him as of right now, and I don't think that it can really be evidence, especially since I haven't seen much about him and Johnny being friends as of right now.

Thirdly, the next thing that helped me to believe 100% that he was lying was Johnny's facial expression and eyes. He looked sad, betrayed even, and unbelieving. He looked like someone who found out their friend group had been making sick, twisted rumors about them behind their back and telling them to the whole school. Something I'm not exactly sure about is also how much he was "quoting" or speaking on behalf of Johnny. If anyone knows the answer to this, please comment, but wouldn't that be hearsay? Or was this a special case?

It really seemed like he and Amber were both looking for sympathy from the jury, in a way. Me and my mom also thought that it was a bit weird that he couldn't recall the general dates of meeting Johnny Depp, it seems like something you'd remember, unless, of course, you're around him all the time, so much so that it blurs together

Lastly, it seems like every story someone on Amber's side says is "Johnny did cocaine, alcohol, ecstasy, etc. all the time." Wouldn't that kill him? If anyone knows, I'd love a answer! Google isn't really helpful in that regard.

As of right now, I'm extremely excited to hear Camille Vasquez cross examine him, he just doesn't seem truthful, especially with how much he was rambling on. (Nearly every single person on Johnny's side, himself included, are clear, concise, and give proper answers, with minimal amounts of stuttering, and answers, while slow, seemed like the honest truth, and not rehearsed or thought up on the spot, unlike Amber and Tillett's testimonies).

#justice for johnny depp #johnny depp is innocent #amber heard is a liar #amber heard is an abuser #johnny depp #amber heard is trash #amber turd #anti amber heard #fuck amber heard #johnny depp is a victim #i stand with johnny depp #johnny depp is a survivor #pro johnny depp #iO Tillett Wright #tw amber heard #amber heard

[whatsabriard]

Watch With Me: Hart to Hart 1x01

Episode Title: Pilot Original Air Date: 8-25-1979 Important Notes: This 2-hour Pilot episode did a great job of setting the series up, and introducing the viewer to Jennifer and Jonathan and the entity that is their powerhouse marriage. However, the show's internal canon was all over the place especially re: the early years of their marriage. So scenes discussing Jennifer's family and wedding should be taken with a grain of salt because they will all be ret-conned by the end of the series. This episode is the only time we hear the Hart's special song - Now, by the Carpenters - and the only episode missing its iconic theme song. (Mark Snow, I could kiss you on your mouth for that theme song.)

Quote of the Ep (tie): "If I rolled over right now and tried to make love to you, would you call the police?" Only if I thought you needed help.

"This is going to be your first time, isn't it?" To be fair, not exactly.

Right off the bat, they try to insinuate that Jonathan is not very involved with running Hart Industries, something that will change drastically. I mean, Deanne has been his secretary for a month and has never seen him?

"They found the missing Rembrandt" - were they trying to Thomas Crown this?

Jonathan might want to take Jennifer's mother out for her birthday - the mom that has been dead since Jennifer was a child. Oopsie.

They call the spa where they blackmail people "The Golden Goose" lmao. Smooth.

Jennifer is doing a series of articles on the nature of macho. She does intensive research - she's known for it. GASP.

I have no idea what Max was making in the blender with raw eggs and a dash of whiskey? And Jonathan gave it to Freeway? why god.

PS Freeway's actor's name was Charlie and he was 12 when the series ended. He's a Löwchen and my ass is on a waiting list for one with a friend in San Diego who just started in the breed a few years ago.

I have to warn you. I don't watch this show for plot. That would be stupid of me and you.

A Health Farm. what a weird concept. So 70s/80s.

Jill St John dressed as a baby during "regression therapy". Future wife of Robert Wagner, too, 11 years down the road.

"Shouldn't she be in school?" Jonathan Hart is a sarcastic little bitch sometimes.

18 minutes into the episode and we get our first look at Jennifer, racing to the Golden Goose in her Mercedes convertible which apparently does not have its signature "Hart" license plate.

"Even as a child I was all thumbs." It must have been painful for you to handle a yo-yo. Guess what. Jennifer is also a sarcastic little bitch sometimes.

Doing an enemies-to-lovers mini arc was pretty inspired. Do it tonight, bungalow 10. They wanted the viewer to believe Jennifer was an assassin.

This chick is teaching water aerobics in heels.

"Templeton, you got nerves."

His real name is Jonathan Hart - IT SEEMS HE FANCIES HIMSELF A DETECTIVE AS WELL.

He showed up for an undercover stint with his clothing custom made for his persona. That attention to detail is what makes Mr Hart better than your average mega-rich wanna-be detective.

"Apologize? You? Whatever for?" *smack*

Only the bravest men wear a white onesie. It's the confidence that pulls it off.

This lady smuggled alcohol into her room in her perfume bottles.

"This is going to cost me money?" LOL omg

One of the first scenes RJ and Stef filmed together was the long scene in bed. They nailed it. Chemistry everywhere all over the place.

"Your feet are cold." Compared to who, your fulsome friend? "She threw me out." No taste broad.

Like ok it's nice that they're all touchy and kissy in bed and stuff but the most important thing is that they talk. They really like each other. They're best friends. (*cough*cobert*cough*ihaveatype*cough*)

IRRIDESCENT NYLONS AND A UNITARD.

on this blog we try not to discuss natalie wood and the whole..you know...thing. but she has a cameo in this episode and it would be irresponsible not to mention it. we're like 2 years from The Incident, anyway.

Sylvia is wearing a bathing suit that has a hood? FASHION.

Stefanie Powers did her own hair and makeup for this show. So.

"How goes our first day?" This has all been one day? Jesus.

Jennifer's at a health farm doing exercising all day and she's laying in bed doing sit-ups. Psycho.

Then again, Max brought burgers for dinner so.

In this entire ass office of books for these supposed psychiatrists and they just happen to have a book by Jennifer.

ding dong sylvia is dead.

this episode has the first, last and only time Jennifer threatens to withhold sex as a way to control Jonathan. It's also one of the very few times they bicker, which was never a good look for them. The only other time was at the end of season five when the powers that be wanted one of them to cheat on the other, those absolute FUCKERS.

"You're thinking that if you kiss me I'll get all mushy."

"OK, what the hell. Let's stay. So we'll die together. Max will probably bury us."

JONATHAN. WE'RE GETTING OUT OF HERE RIGHT AWAY OR I SWEAR TO GO I'M BECOMING A NUN.

An entire scene of Jennifer and Jonathan "fighting" while flirting with each other.

award winning acting work by Jennifer, who can actually cry on cue.

i want ya'll to know that this is the first of many times that Jennifer is hypnotized on this show. she's getting drowsy...very drowsy. i'm p sure jonathan is only hypnotized once.

I have seen this episode a LOT but I do not remember why jonathan is putting masking tape under his jacket. wtf is that. he also put a wad of cash in the glove box. i told you i don't pay attention to plot.

Jennifer under hypnosis is talking about how much she loves jonathan and they have that love theme playing under it. So sad that we never hear it again.

oh. he's putting the tape on the glass to cut the window and get into the office. derp.

jonathan is using a stethoscope to get into a safe-locked door. that's almost as brilliant as dr mike using an apple corer for Brian's brain surgery.

these bad guys have this whole hypnotism set-up to get their marks to drive over the cliff by the flashing yellow lights. Meaning they've done this more than once and nobody got suspicious? Everyone is just like "guess people like to die there" and went on with their business?

this entire fight scene with the amazon warrior in purple and jennifer is all "hey stop messing around and get in the car we gotta GO."

they're at a poker game in the middle east. there are camels.

this DOG though. i love him.

at the end they're detouring into Africa about a sabotaged diamond mine, hinting that they purposely get involved in their cases. Fortunately for all of us, they end up just stumbling on them most of the time which is way more fun. and insane.

anyway, as per usual the episode ends with making out. a fine tradition.

the end.

Important unimportant detail: Jonathan Hart Towers is also the location of the office of Remington Steele. So I firmly believe that at some point Jennifer wrote a piece about Laura Holt and her firm, specifically years later when she can spill the tea about Remington Steele not even existing and that she had to make him up to get work.

Important unimportant detail #2: my mom's friends used to jokingly call her jennifer hart in the 80s. they were not wrong.

it tickles me beyond all that is holy.

#hart to hart #jennifer hart #jonathan hart #watch with me #stefanie powers #rj wagner #80s tv #nostalgic tv #life ruiners the original recipe

[mrlnsfrt]

Becoming Great

I did an online search on how to become great and was overwhelmed by the number of resources that came up. I can’t say that I was surprised, there is a huge market for self-improvement. There are countless books, or you can just go to youtube and watch the summary of those books. Or watch a video of people who claim to have read many of those books and see which ones they recommend. There must be a lot of money to be made by teaching people how to improve in different areas of life. To be honest I have watched quite a few of those youtube videos with the book review and summaries. I have also listened to several of those books in audio, read some, and read even more articles and blog posts on productivity, creativity, fitness, marriage advice, tips on how to raise children, and the list goes on.

There is a lot of good advice out there. I am not putting down the self-help category, though there are a number of scams you need to be aware of, just like in any area of life. Though I am tempted to share some of my personal tips for success I would rather focus on a bit of advice shared by the greatest leader who ever walked on earth. His advice on leadership and success is both simple and complex, practical and profound. This is a topic I continue to study, and though I do not know it all I invite you to join me on this journey and we can learn together.

Context

In Matthew 18:1 the disciples ask Jesus who is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven. Jesus answers by calling a child to Himself and saying that whoever humbles himself as that little child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven. (Matthew 18:1-4)

In Matthew 19:18 the rich young ruler approaches Jesus with questions regarding eternal life. Jesus’ answer causes the disciples to ask even more questions and eventually the discussion ends with Jesus saying that many who are first will be last and the last first. (Matthew 19:30)

This brings us to Matthew 20 which begins with the parable of the workers in the vineyard where the workers who worked all day and the ones who were hired at the end of the day and only worked for one hour receive the same reward.

Jesus Predicts His Death and Resurrection

I will pick up the story with Matthew 20:17 where Jesus predicts His death and resurrection.

17 Now Jesus, going up to Jerusalem, took the twelve disciples aside on the road and said to them, 18 “Behold, we are going up to Jerusalem, and the Son of Man will be betrayed to the chief priests and to the scribes; and they will condemn Him to death, 19 and deliver Him to the Gentiles to mock and to scourge and to crucify. And the third day He will rise again.” - Matthew 20:17-19 NKJV

In other words, Jesus says to His disciples,

I’m going to be betrayed, and condemned to death, and mocked, and scourged, and crucified… But I will rise again on the third day!

I expected His disciples to be concerned, to ask questions, and to offer Jesus words of encouragement. But it seems like they were not listening, they were not paying attention. The words of Jesus that did not support their preconceived notions seem to be ignored. Good thing we don’t behave in a similar manner today, or do we? Quoting Jesus when it is convenient and supports our agenda, but ignoring the other things He said that challenge our life choices.

Have mom ask Him

20 Then the mother of Zebedee’s sons came to Him with her sons, kneeling down and asking something from Him. - Matthew 20:20 NKJV

If you’re wondering who the sons of Zebedee were Matthew 4:21; 10:2 tell us that they were James and John. So James and John thought it would be a good idea to have their mother come and ask Jesus for something. I say this because when Jesus responds He does so using the second-person plural addressing James and John and not their mother. In my mind I imagine two grown men wanting to ask Jesus for a special favor but asking their mother to ask for them. Maybe they thought it would increase their chances. This also provides us with an insight that there were women following Jesus though they are not often explicitly mentioned.

You don’t know what you ask

21 And He said to her, “What do you wish?”

She said to Him, “Grant that these two sons of mine may sit, one on Your right hand and the other on the left, in Your kingdom.”

22 But Jesus answered and said, “You do not know what you ask. Are you able to drink the cup that I am about to drink, and be baptized with the baptism that I am baptized with?”

They said to Him, “We are able.

23 So He said to them, “You will indeed drink My cup, and be baptized with the baptism that I am baptized with; but to sit on My right hand and on My left is not Mine to give, but it is for those for whom it is prepared by My Father.” - Matthew 20:21-23NKJV

When Jesus says to the mother of Zebedee’s sons “what do you wish?” this is an incredible opportunity! She knows what she will ask for, and asks for honor and glory, and prestige for her boys. She wants Jesus to give her boys the highest positions of power next to Him in His kingdom.

Just as a reminder, Jesus had just finished talking about how He will be betrayed, condemned to death, mocked, scourged, and crucified. Yet James and John completely ignore this bit of information. Probably because the thoughts that are filling their minds are thoughts of power and authority and greatness. It is fascinating how selfish thoughts can keep us from hearing the full message Jesus has for us.

Does your theology, your understanding of God, make room for all the messy and difficult parts or do you just hold on to your favorite parts and ignore the others?

When asked about power and glory Jesus immediately answers by talking about trials He will face and whether they are willing and capable to face them as well. They say they are able but they clearly don’t know what they are talking about. Later they will abandon Jesus and flee. Eventually, they will, to a degree, be persecuted and suffer for their faith in and faithfulness to Jesus. But positions of honor in the kingdom of heaven do not work in this way, they are not given to those who have their mother petition Jesus on their behalf.

I see this as an example of a request we should not make to God. We should not ask for power, authority, or prestige whether on earth or in heaven. This request reveals that we are not listening to the message Jesus has for us. We are not concerned with His kingdom and His values but rather our own. The mother asked for a high position for her boys in the kingdom of Jesus, but that demonstrated their desire to build up their own kingdom. They were not interested in serving Jesus so much as they were interested in the power they would gain as a result of serving Jesus. James and John were really concerned about their own kingdom and Jesus was a way to get honor for themselves.

We must resist the temptation to see Jesus as a means to our own selfish ends. We must be about His business, His agenda, and His values, not our own disguised as a godly pursuit.

How to become great!

24 And when the ten heard it, they were greatly displeased with the two brothers. 25 But Jesus called them to Himself and said, “You know that the rulers of the Gentiles lord it over them, and those who are great exercise authority over them. 26 Yet it shall not be so among you; but whoever desires to become great among you, let him be your servant. 27 And whoever desires to be first among you, let him be your slave— 28 just as the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve, and to give His life a ransom for many.” - Matthew 20:24-28 NKJV

When the other disciples find out what just happened they are not happy. James and John just used their mother to try to get ahead. How dare they!? And to use their mother! How could they?

Perhaps all the disciples are now thinking about how to position themselves in order to gain an advantage over the others, how to get ahead, how to get promoted, and how to gain power and authority. In religion, in the church, there is constantly a danger, a temptation, to seek power and authority and glory, but to disguise it as godliness. People can use Jesus, the Bible, and religion, as a means of controlling people. Abuses of power happen too often.

So how do we prevent it from happening here? How can we avoid leaders using their position simply to control others? How do we avoid having power-hungry leaders?

I do not have all the answers. But I strongly believe that when you remove the Bible from the people the church can become just as corrupt and oppressive as any secular government, or company, or hierarchy. The only solution I see to this problem is the study of the Bible and a willingness to be judged by it and to submit to it. The temptation and the human tendency to twist scriptures to our own benefit and to support our personal agenda will always exist. But my hope is that there will always be enough sincere godly people honestly and sincerely studying and seeking God to hold those in power accountable and keep them in check.

We must allow Jesus to teach us how to lead, and this is what He had to say to His disciples regarding greatness.

25 But Jesus called them to Himself and said, “You know that the rulers of the Gentiles lord it over them, and those who are great exercise authority over them. 26 Yet it shall not be so among you; but whoever desires to become great among you, let him be your servant. 27 And whoever desires to be first among you, let him be your slave— 28 just as the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve, and to give His life a ransom for many.” - Matthew 20:25-28 NKJV

In the world, those who are great exercise authority over others. But it will not be so among you. You are to be different. Whoever wants to be great should become your servant. Your role as a leader is to serve those you are leading and serve those around you. Don’t think of leadership as gaining authority, rather consider it a responsibility. Jesus said whoever desires to be first should be a slave. A slave places the will of the master above his own. A slave does the will of the master and refrains from doing what is outside the will of the master.

Sharing this troubles me. Because I can see how some will abuse this. I can see how this would make followers of God vulnerable to abuse. Jesus did say “And whoever desires to be first among you, let him be your slave.” And I can see people using this to take advantage of others. One safety measure I see in this is that the way Jesus said it, you are always the one freely choosing to become the servant, it is never the other forcing you to serve them. Meaning no one gets to tell you to serve them. Jesus lays out service as the path to greatness, but you are invited to serve and you must freely choose to do so.

I also look at this in light of everything else Jesus said and the Bible teaches, and there is also dignity for human life and mutual love that stems from God keeps people from abusing or taking advantage of this principle. I am still working out all the implications of this, but ultimately Jesus is my example.

Jesus came to serve and even to sacrifice Himself. Yet he was not controlled by those around Him.

So I challenge you to have the attitude and heart of a servant, but this does not mean becoming a doormat for someone else or an enabler for someone else’s sinful tendencies.

Jesus as my example

just as the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve, and to give His life a ransom for many.” - Matthew 20:28NKJV

Jesus did serve and suffer and sacrificed Himself. But He did so for our salvation. Jesus did not sacrifice Hismelf for our comfort, or for our selfish whims. Jesus sacrificed Himself to bring us salvation because there was no other way (Matthew 26:39). We could not save ourselves. The only way for our salvation is through Jesus and He had to die for our sins (1 Peter 2:23-25; Titus 2:14).

When we serve, we should serve in order to save, to help those who otherwise could not help themselves. We are called to sacrifice for others, for their benefit. But this does not mean their whim, their selfishness, or laziness. We need wisdom from God to know the best way to help and the strength and wisdom to do so. Not to facilitate someone else to continue to live a life indulging in sin that is ultimately a self-destructive life.

As I said. This is a complex topic and I am still figuring out healthy boundaries and applications. But just because I have yet to iron out all the implications it does not deny the principle of service. Just because this is a hard teaching it does not mean that I will ignore it. I choose to wrestle with it. I will likely make mistakes but I would rather make them trying to serve those around me.

Case study

29 Now as they went out of Jericho, a great multitude followed Him. 30 And behold, two blind men sitting by the road, when they heard that Jesus was passing by, cried out, saying, “Have mercy on us, O Lord, Son of David!”

31 Then the multitude warned them that they should be quiet; but they cried out all the more, saying, “Have mercy on us, O Lord, Son of David!” - Matthew 20:29-31 NKJV

Jesus is leaving Jericho and a great multitude is following Him. Two bling beggars begin to cry out for Jesus to have mercy on them. They refer to Jesus as Lord and Son of David, which meant they believed He was the Messiah. The multitude saw this as an interference in the incredibly important mission of Jesus. Surely Jesus’ time was of great value and He should not allow Himself to be stopped by a couple of blind beggars. Surely they were not worth Jesus’ time and power. The multitude believed it would be a waste for Jesus to stop to minister to these poor blind men.

32 So Jesus stood still and called them, and said, “What do you want Me to do for you?” - Matthew 20:32NKJV

This is essentially what Jesus said to the mother of James and John. This question (What do you want me to do for you?” could have been understood as special treatment for the mother of two disciples of Jesus, yet He extends the same kindness to poor blind beggars on the side of the road. But Jesus did not give her sons what she had asked for. So maybe this will be bad news for the poor bind men.

33 They said to Him, “Lord, that our eyes may be opened.” - Matthew 20:33 NKJV

The blind men did not ask for glory and honor. They did not ask for power. They asked to be cured, to be set free from blindness. They asked for something only Jesus could do for them.

34 So Jesus had compassion and touched their eyes. And immediately their eyes received sight, and they followed Him. - Matthew 20:33-34NKJV

Did you notice what Jesus just did?

He stopped and served these two poor blind beggars. Jesus just demonstrated the principle he was describing to His disciples. Jesus shows us what it means to be a servant. He was willing to stop and care for two men that no one else cared for. Jesus had compassion for those who were suffering and He helped them.

I like the way Craig Blomberg puts it,

“Jesus’ entire thrust is on enabling and empowering others rather than wielding power for oneself.” - Craig Blomberg, Matthew, vol. 22, The New American Commentary (Nashville: Broadman & Holman Publishers, 1992), 308.

Another quote that captures this principle well is found in the book the Desire of Ages, chapter 71.

“Jesus, the served of all, came to be the servant of all. And because He ministered to all, He will again be served and honored by all. And those who would partake of His divine attributes, and share with Him the joy of seeing souls redeemed, must follow His example of unselfish ministry.” - Ellen Gould White, The Desire of Ages, vol. 3, Conflict of the Ages Series (Pacific Press Publishing Association, 1898), 651.

Though I do not have all the answers I believe a few things are very clear. Jesus gave us the example of service and He invites us to follow His example for according to Him this is the path to greatness in His kingdom.

#service #Humility #New Testament #Jesus

[malewifebillcage]

I wish I had a dad to sit down and watch Val Kilmer movies with. I just finished watching Willow and would’ve loved to have a dad who’d converse with me about the time it came out etc.

My dad was absent. I missed out on so much. You’re lucky. Enjoy those moments for me.

hi anon, i’m sorry it took me four days(?) to answer this ask, i hope you’re reading this right now ❤️

i was really touched to see this in my inbox the other day. i don’t quite know how to put it into words, but it means a lot to me that other people can appreciate our relationship, i guess. i count myself lucky every day to have him, and i treasure every moment we spend together when i’m living at home. moving away for college was a drag at first, but i visit as often as i can manage.

needless to say, i’m sorry for everything you missed out on growing up, and that you had to watch willow alone. there are plenty of things a mom or a close group of friends are good for, and i hope you were able to enjoy those to the fullest, but i know what moments you’re talking about. i wish i could share them with you.

that said, you sent this ask to me at just the right time, because my dad and i watched willow together yesterday night! :’) it was his first time watching and technically mine too, since i watched it a long time ago when i was a kid and barely remembered it. of course, my dad absolutely LOVED it. he would not stop asking about where val kilmer was until he showed up in the cage and then he instantly fell in love with madmartigan and his deranged ways. he thought the crossdressing scene was peak comedy and i think he’ll be quoting madmartigan’s poetry for months. he wouldn’t stop talking about how much he loved the special effects either: “this is what movies used to look like back when they were good” this, “they don’t make ‘em like this anymore” that, etc. LOL

it really was a great movie all in all! rated 10/10 and dad-approved ✔️ and now that we’ve watched it he wants to show me tombstone as well so i feel the need to ask, my cinephilic friend, have you seen it? he claims it’s an absolute must-watch but my mom says it sucks and started shitting on it so i need an unbiased opinion LMFAO

i hope i hear from you again! feel free to send another ask or dm me if you have more to say, and have a wonderful evening 🥰

#ask #reply #anon ask #should i start tagging these as dadblogging or something LMAO #i did not expect the positive reception i’ve been getting from my followers #i guess val kilmer dad struck a chord with my target audience jdsfksjfs

[unfoldingmoments]

물다섯 스물하나

Quotes from Kdrama Twenty Five Twenty One  물다섯 스물하나

Every tragedy in life is a comedy if you see it from afar.

That means we have to life as if we’re seeing ourselves from afar.

It was only a month ago when I was told that the times we live in took my dream away.

Then recently, I heard that the times had given me an opportunity.

So if you think about it there’s no such thing as a pure tragedy or comedy.

Still, I hope the road ahead of us is filled with more comedy.

I don’t get disappointed when my dreams don’t come true. I’m used to losing & failing.

That’s called having a mental fortitude. Everyone wants to be as strong-minded as you. They don’t want to be scared of losing and failing. Sometimes I wish I could take it from you. I think that explains why I miss you when I feel mentally weak.

You’re by far the most experienced fencer when it comes to losing. Those loses were blocks to build yourself stairs leading up. Think about it. Now you’ve got the highest staircase. Take your time to climb it and take whatever you want.

Why do you root for me? Even my mom doesn’t.

Because you give me hope.

And I want more from you.

And it makes me want do well.

What part of me makes you feel like that?

I don’t know but

When you try hard, it makes me want to try hard too.

When you accomplish something, it makes me want to accomplish something.

You make other people do well, not just yourself.

I praise you for it.

That’s why I root for you.

So, take it all.

I’m going to take in all of your support.

And let’s become great together.

You are one of a kind.

--

Yi Jin School Broadcasting: The college entrance exam is coming up. Hang in there. You can do it. But can we really do it? Sometimes, saying that we can do something can be more discouraging. We haven’t learned about a world in which you don’t have to do well and can fail. Still, let’s do the most we can. Let’s do our best. But I still hope that even if we fail, we’ll be strong enough to get back again. We have the strength to get back up again. So let’s be as frustrated as we want when things are tough. Let be as sad as we want. And let’s get back up together. Even if we’re not together, let’s get back up together. I’ll be your strength to help you back up again.

Hee Do to Yi Jin:

Yi-jin, it’s me. Hee-do. I’m sad that you disappeared, but I don’t resent you. Just as you rooted for me without reason, It’s my turn to root for you. Wherever you are, I’ll make sure my support reaches you. I’ll take care of everything. See you then. Yi Jin to Hee Do : I’ve missed you But I saw you because you showed yourself to me So, I got to smile today. Did Full House volume 14 come out yet? It did I’ll show up before volume 15 comes out. Wait for me, Hee-Do.

At times you’re sad as if the whole world’s turned its back on you. But other times, you laugh your guts out. Our friendships are always excessive, We’re helpless in the face of love, And our failures are passionate. Anxiety, grief, jokes, and smiles come together to form a strange and irregular shape. Perhaps we’re currently standing at the centre of our youths. I know how much your growing pains hurt. I understand.

Yi Jin Talks To Hee Do’s Mom :

Was becoming a reporter always your dream?

My dream? I am not sure. I don’t think not living your dream means you’ve failed at life.

And I don’t think living your dream means you’ve succeeded either.

I simply want to do well at my job right now.

That’s my current dream.

May I ask What is your dream?

My news being fun to watch. That’s my dream.

More fun than LBS & KBY News?

No. My competition is not LBS & KBY News.

It’s everything that people not watching my news are doing.

Movies, dramas, books, chatting online, drinking, talking with friends…

All of them are my competitions.

I want them to watch my news more than any of that.

I want them to stop what they’re doing and turn on the TV.

Proposal to Yu Rim:

I’d like to say something I’ve been preparing for a while I wanted to be special to many people. I wanted attention. That was the most important. However, I’ve found something more important. If I can become special to just one person, I’d want nothing more. Ko Yu Rim I like you Will you go out with me?

Life is long and fireworks are short. I feel like the entire world is blessing our new beginning. Life is precious.

Let’s love with no regret while we’re alive. I couldn’t reached you because I supported you You always lead me to do what’s right and to a good place You lead this world the we live in to a much better place. That’s who you are. So don’t hurt too much. Hang in there. I love you in every way. Me too.

Prêts, Allez!, Attaque, Touche

Older Hee Do to her daughter: I know that Min-chat is reading my diary. I’ve decided to let her. My diary from those days is filled with just love and friendship. A time when friendship and love were all that mattered in life. A time like that lasts only for a moment. I hope Min-chat experiences such passion as well. A rowdy friendship and passionate love. Because those brief moments are what your long life shine. Sadly. I lost the next diary that Min-chae is looking for.

Hee Do’s Mom love advice: You said I had scarred you for life for not going to your dad’s funeral, right? It’s unacceptable for your mom, but it’s okay for your boyfriend? How is that the same thing? Yi-jin maybe busy, but I’m at the training at the centre too. It’s just hard for us to coordinate, that’s all. Exactly, I’m asking if that’s okay. Waiting, missing each other, and being disappointed. What I did to you your entire life. One person is always sorry and the other always gives up. Are you really okay with a relationship like that? Yes. I’m okay with it.

NY EVE 2001

You have no idea how much I think about you.

I’m never going to know.

They must be starting the count down.

Happy NY, Yi Jin.

You too.

Do you have a New Year’s wish?

What it is?

I want that.

What?

A couple’s plan?

If you get that, couples can talk on the phone for free.

We talk all the time

Ok, let’s go tomorrow.

Anniversary letter Yi Jin to Hee Do:

Hee-do. If you’re waiting at the end of my misery, all of that misery was worthwhile. Compared to the days we have ahead of us, 600 days is just an instant. Thank you, sorry, and I love you. I know I’ll be next to you, but I’m too shy to say it.

Yi-jin.

9/11 Reporter to Yi Jin: I’ve been a reporter for 20 years, but I’ve never seen hell like this. I thought I had seen many deaths, but this is like another level of hell.

What’s keeping you here?

If this is hell, I believe I need to tell people that this is hell.

If I let enough people know, perhaps we’ll be able to prevent something like this from happening again.

That hope is what’s keeping me here.

You’re like me when I was young.

Hope, doest that exists? The world keeps creating more and more serious problems and mocks me.

Don’t get your hopes up.

I miss my family in Korea. What am I doing here?

This place is pure hell and I have a nightmare every night.

The guy who was a reporter for 20 years says no mater how hard a reporter tries there is no hope in this world.

Everything you feel right now is probably you growing as a person.

Hang in there.

Grow up.

I don’t want to call these emotions “growth”

My support isn’t reaching him anymore.

I’m still sending you my support.

But the more I do, the farther apart we grow.

Don’t you just want to quit cos everyone has been grieving over this for long time.

I don’t know about that, it’s the career I chose, it’s my place to work. So I just do my job, you do yours, That’s how life goes on.

—

Break up:

Y: Are we doing the right thing?

H: yes, we are

I’ve thought about it for six months.

Y: You’ve been thinking without me.

You’ve been thinking by yourself.

H: I know

What have you been doing for 6 months?

What were you doing while we were growing apart?

You pretended not to know.

H: No I didn’t

I just didn’t have anything to say.

H: Why not? Y: I didn’t want to drag you into what I was going through.

H: Is that all?

Y: “Is that all?” Hee Do, I’m sorry if I upset you.

But there I was, doing my best to hang in there.

Dead bodies were recovered from the site every single day.

I met with bereaved families and survivors..

Every day I met people who were suffering.

The city was like a living hell.

Another terrorist attack could happen anytime.

It broke me down.

I missed you, but I couldn’t go to see you.

People were dying before my eyes.

Being able to even miss someone felt like a luxury.

Everything was new to me.

And frankly, your support was burdensome.

I couldn’t cheer up no matter what.

But you were rooting for me,

So I wanted to show you that I could do well.

I didn’t want to complain.

H: Weren’t you listening to me at all?

I said I was going share everything that’s yours.

Everything, including your sadness, frustration, and happiness.

When you went AWOL because of You Rim going to Russia,

I said it right here as we wiped the graffiti off the wall.

Y: How could I, when that doesn’t change anything?

I’d done it if I could solve my issues

by sharing them with you and making you worry with me.

But that’s not it!

Two people will have to struggle instead of one.

Is that what you want?

Is it?

Do you think I could have chosen to bring you down with me?

H: You’re right

And that’s why we are breaking up.

Can’t you see?

We’re lovers only during the good times,

and a burden to each other in the bad times.

Don’t hurt yourself!

I’m protecting an athlete

Our relationship should have stopped at that level.

I could root for you even when you disappeared without a word…

And I could reach you even though we were apart.

Then I wanted to have you.

But now that I have, we have all these problems.

I think.. we shouldn’t have been in this kind of love.

We didn’t know how but we went ahead with it anyway.

Y: Don’t jump to conclusions.

We were fine before I went to the US.

H: Is that what you really think?

Maybe I’m the one with issues.

When mom didn’t show up for Dad’s funeral, there was a news flash.

“So when there’s a news flash she will even skip her husband’s funeral.”

I had to teach myself things like that. Because my mom never explained.

Yet here I am, dating someone like her.

Waiting, then being let down, and eventually giving up.

That’s what I have been doing all my life.

And you’re making me do that again.

I don’t want that for my future, Yi-Jin.

Y: Don’t you have any room to try and understand me?

H: You’re not trying to understand me either.

Understand Is that too much to ask for?

Did you ever really love me?

Y: Watch what you say.

H: You once said you liked me for being reckless!

Y: Alright.

Let’s end this. I guess that’s right.

What more can we do when you’re disappointed in me?

You better not regret it though.

H: Is that a promise? Forget it if that’s your advice.

Y: Hee do, really?

H: I guess so

I guess this Is how we end.

I should go.

Y: Hee-do…

Na hee do!

Hee do keep walking and not turning back.

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Yijin Read Hee Do’s Diary

We couldn’t find the time to see each other again this week. Darn it, Boot camp! A surprise in the middle of the night. We got matching travel bags at the night market. It’s going to be our first trip together, just the two of us. I’m looking forward to it. Please give me the strength to not be emotionally exhausted. I’m alone again on our anniversary. But I’m fine. We understand each other. I can’t tell since when, but you sound more genuine In your apologies than when you say you love me. I know how much pain you’re growing up, Yi Jin. Cheer up. My support isn’t reaching him anymore.

I didn’t mean to say those things. What I really wanted to tell you wasn’t anything like that at all.

Yi Jin to newbies:

I’m doing my best, but the results aren’t great. I get told off every day. In some moments, we’re always doing our best.. But all of that is just practice. That sounds too sad. It is.

Na Hee Do:

My old diary found its way back to me, Bringing back past regrets that I had forgotten about. The moment of our break up haunted me and I had wished to have it altered. I’ve kept you standing here for too long, Yi-jin This is what I really wanted to say, Yi Jin You comforted me just by being there. I grew up alone and I was lonely. You held me in a warm embrace.

Yi Jin: You held me get back on my feet During the hardest time in my life If it wasn’t for you, I wouldn’t be where I am now.

Na Hee Do: At times when I didn’t believe in myself. I believe in you who believed in me. That made things possible.

Yi Jin: You made me smile. With you.. I felt like I was on top of the world even when I had nothing.

Na Hee Do: That’s right At times the world seemed complete because we were together.

Yi Jin: Right I now know what perfect happiness is.

Na Hee Do:

I learned what love is, thanks to you. Now I know what a breakup is.

Yi Jin: You will have no idea How much your love has.. brightened up my life. Thank you for everything.

Na Hee do: Thank you. I have loved you with all my heart. Goodbye Yi Jin

Yi Jin: Goodbye Na Hee Do

Na Hee Do: Today you should be the first to go.

Older Na Hee Do:

Back then, I believed I could have everything. There were so many things I wanted to have. I had thought love and friendship were mine to have for a brief moment. Looking back, every day was a practice. The moment when I dared to say Everything would last forever. I loved living in that illusion. Right, there was still one thing that we could have.

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#i also have two kids in daycare so we are down to paying minimum payments on our loans

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

I'm going to write here because it's my anonymous safe space.

I am fucking tired. I forgot how trying these first few weeks with a new baby can be. He is wonderful and I love him, but he is on a nocturnal schedule and I am losing my mind. I got 90 minutes of sleep last night. My husband goes back to work today after his 2 weeks of paternity leave. I felt those cold fingers of PPD creeping in last night as I tried and failed for the 6th time to get him down to sleep in his bassinet. I'm medicated after my first pregnancy when PPD hit me hard, so I haven't felt it much, but last night it was fierce. There is just something about being alone and frustrated at 4:00 am that causes the tears to flow.

Motherhood is hard.

Here's a picture of those sweet cheeks to keep me on check. Because he really is wondeful.... ❤

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39 notes - Posted January 20, 2022

#4

Tina Goldstein Month 2022: Day 7

Favorite Tina quote

Today I'm going with the moment she realized how wonderful Newts creatures could be... Swooping Evil to the rescue!

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Tina: "What is that thing?"

Newt: "Swooping Evil."

Tina: "Well, I love it!"

40 notes - Posted August 7, 2022

#3

Tina Goldstein Month 2022: Day 10

Favorite Tina moment of all time

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Reuniting with Newt in FB3. I can't tell you how glad I was to see these two together again. I love them- their banter, their friendship, and their budding romance. She looks stunning and both actors absolutely nailed this scene. It wasn't much, but that little bit we got was gold.

62 notes - Posted August 10, 2022

#2

Oh also 14 on a bruise because you know me and my hurt/comfort :)

Touch, pt. 1

After the wedding, a simple touch from Newt leads to just a little bit more.

Post-Secrets of Dumbledore cuteness.

/OS/

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“What– Tina?”

“Hmm?” Tina hummed as she turned to look at Newt, the low light of the case making his ruddy hair shine in that special way that reminded her of sunsets on rooftops and Paris sunrises. He was watching her, not with the smile that she expected, but with a look of concern. The smile she had been wearing since their long-awaited reunion in front of Kowalksi’s Quality Baked Goods hours earlier slowly melted from her face.

“What happened, Tina?” His eyes had been drawn to her upper back, the bruise there that had been covered by the higher neckline of her dress and the waves of her hair must look far worse than she thought. She had just pulled her hair out of her eyes with a ribbon while working with the creatures. She hadn’t been thinking.

“Oh. Oh, nothing. It’s just–” She paused, her eyes connecting with his. Deep brown to blue-green. “Work.” She shrugged. “I got hit by a stunner the other day. It’s fine.”

He said nothing as he stepped closer, closing the distance between them. The rapidly growing baby niffler in her lap continued playing with her locket unchecked. She had discarded her coat as soon as she had entered the warmer climate of the case, but as his breath brushed the skin of her arm, goosebumps flared across her skin and she shivered.

He moved slowly, tentatively, and raised his hand to touch her before his mind caught up with his body and he realized how intimate a gesture it was. She felt, more than saw, his eyes swing to her face as if to ask permission. She nodded her head ever so slightly.

Gently, his fingertips brushed her skin. She felt the tenderness and care in his touch and her eyes closed. The feeling of being touched, almost caressed, felt so foreign after months away from all of the people she loved. It was unfamiliar but so wanted, and she shivered as the sensation of touch fizzled down her spine, igniting every nerve ending. Her awareness was heightened, and she suddenly felt the unevenness of the tabletop where she had hopped up to sit, the humidity in the air, the shift of her dress as it stretched across her skin. She bit her lip and gripped the edge of the table with the hand that was not holding onto the niffler in her lap.

“Does it hurt?” he asked, unaware of the effect he was having on her. Or maybe he knew. He was observant sometimes– especially with her, it seemed. His thumb swiped across the darkened skin, now stained ugly shades of yellow and brown.

She shook her head. “No. Not anymore.” She turned her head to look at him, his face only inches from her own, and she looked up into his eyes. They were bright and concerned, but his expression also seemed a little…daring? Bold? She swallowed. “I honestly forgot it was there. It’s–” His fingers slid down her spine softly, sliding easily over the satin of her ice blue dress. “It’s almost two weeks old, so…”

“Hmm,” he hummed in acknowledgment. His eyes, which had held her gaze for far longer than he usually did, finally glanced down to momentarily settle on her lips. Could this be it? She had wondered if he would kiss her tonight. She was certainly open to the idea and she was pretty positive now that he wanted to as much as she wanted him to. She had wondered several times that night if that moment would finally be it, but nothing had seemed right. Not at the wedding. Not in front of all of those people.

His fingertips traveled down further, further, until he splayed his hand flat against her waist. It was warm and solid and she found that even with this one little touch, even without kissing him, she was already wanting more. She would always want more of him. She knew that already.

She turned toward him slightly, making herself open to him, so that they were face to face now. His breathing hitched a little. He was nervous. The corners of her mouth twitched into an encouraging smile as he came closer, inches from her now. She reached out to find his other hand and he readily gripped her lightly as she made contact. Her fingers twisted just so, sliding between his so that their palms met.

He leaned close to her, months of anticipation, want, and worry finally coming together in finale. She felt his breath wash over her features as her eyes fluttered closed. He hesitated for just a moment before he was there, his nose brushing against hers and his lips finally meeting her own.

It was soft and sweet and perfect. Tina smiled as he leaned in for a second quick kiss and she felt his mouth quirk into a grin in response. How had they never done this before now? How had they ever not known? How had there ever been a hint of misunderstanding or miscommunication when they had this? This one moment with unpracticed kisses and soft, breathy laughter felt like they were finally in sync. They finally knew that their feelings were reciprocated and it was beautiful.

He captured her lips in a longer kiss, the hand against her waist slowly, slowly inched up her spine. She tightened her grip on his hand and silently cursed the sleeping niffler that was still sitting in her lap, preventing her from pulling him closer. She could have cried as he skirted the skin at the neckline of her dress, just over her healing injury, showing care even amid their kisses. His fingers tugged at the ribbon holding her hair off her neck, letting it fall free. He slid his fingers into the silky waves, and she had a feeling that he had been wanting to do that for quite some time.

Then they heard them, voices coming closer, and Tina felt Newt stiffen and then his shoulders fall a little in disappointment. She leaned in and captured one more quick kiss before he pulled away. Her eyes opened and he was so close, so very close. He was everything and everywhere right now and she loved it. She squeezed his hand and leaned forward just slightly to whisper into his ear.

“Later.”

She pulled away and watched a grin spread across his face. He leaned forward to press a kiss lightly against her hairline as he heard his brother start calling for him.

“Hey, Newt! Newt!”

“Theseus…” Newt called back, still grinning at Tina who couldn’t help but smile widely back at him.

“We’ve got to– oh.” He came through the doorway to the bowtruckle habitat, Lally at his side, his eyes soft and glazed after an evening of Firewhiskey and laughter with friends. “Oh, I, uh…”

Lally took over, swatting Theseus lightly in the chest with a familiarity that struck Tina as interesting and highly amusing. “We are going to head upstairs. Pop one more bottle of champagne before the evening is over.” She smiled apologetically at them as she tilted her head toward the little shed, “Care to join us?”

“Yes, I think so.” Tina replied, hopping off of the table with ease and cradling the sleeping baby in her hand. “Let me just get this little guy put away for the night.”

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74 notes - Posted April 25, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Okay, but really...Newt and Lally fangirling over each other is the best ever. I want them to be best friends. They could just sit and nerd out with each other for hours.

Tina can come too. Obviously. For reasons. 😍

388 notes - Posted April 16, 2022

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