#to get a gauranteed paycheck otherwise its only commishion and i didnt work on saturday so i dont think theres another check coming

[gaydemigod]

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#one of my best friends just got some amazing news about her career #and i want to be happy for her #i really do #but like im stuck in a scam job mlm scheme bullshit that paid me $185 for a full week of work #i cant stop crying because they tried to transfer me to a different client and with them i have to work basically 60hrs a week #to get a gauranteed paycheck otherwise its only commishion and i didnt work on saturday so i dont think theres another check coming #and kinda feels like a slap in the face that shes getting an oppurtunity thats even better than she expected #and to top it all off i crashed my fucking car yesterday #and its really funny /s cause she just totalled her car last week but i wouldnt be surprised if her parents bought her a new one #just like the last time she totalled a car #and i really do mean brand new #meanwhile my car's 15 years old and now has a big crack in the front bumper and i dont know when or of ill ever be able to fix or replace it #and it came with the smell of someone elses BO #but i just feel like a terrible friend because she told me the news and i just started sobbing #i feel so selfish that i cant even pretend to be happy for her