#to be frank it’s most likely sexism

[wishcamper]

Nesta, Interrupted: gendered perceptions of alcoholism in ACOSF

CW: addiction, sexual assault, gendered violence.

Creds: I’m a licensed counselor with a degree specialization in treating addiction. I have career experience with multiple modes of mental health, trauma, and substance use treatment in women-specific carceral, institutional, and healthcare settings. And I know anyone can come on the internet and say that, but I pinky promise.

The short version:

ACOSF stigmatizes alcoholism in line with cultural standards.

Western culture feels differently about female and male alcoholics due to systemic sexism, and thus treats them differently.

Women’s experience of alcoholism is often compounded by or even a result of systemic factors and intersectional identity.

Nesta’s treatment in ACOSF, while repugnant, is in many ways very accurate of attitudes today.

(I’ll be using “women/men” and “male/female” to denote cis afab and amab people. Little research exists on the experiences of queer, nonbinary and gender expansive considerations in addiction and recovery, which is a fuckin’ shame. Studies are also largely conducted with white participants due to enormous barriers to treatment for Black, Indigenous, and people of color, so this convo is inherently incomplete where it neglects those intersections.)

Okay, first things first: ACOSF is a book that stigmatizes alcoholism. I will not be taking questions.

The number one thing to understand is that in America, land of Miss Sarah, we are very bad at addiction treatment (tx). Why? Because our culture hates addicts has as stigma around addiction. And female alcoholics bear a very specific set of stigmas based in their identity.

In Susanna Kaysen’s memoir Girl, Interrupted , Kaysen’s character is institutionalized following a non-fatal suicide attempt. When evaluated, she’s diagnosed with borderline personality disorder, that bastion of diagnoses perfect for people (75% of whom are female-identified) who don’t fit into our polite definition of functioning. As the book unfolds, she reflects on how (white) women are often pathologized when they buck against systems of oppression that create the dysfunction in them in the first place. That is not to say other women in the institution are not genuinely in need of help, nor that mental illness in women is always from a systemic wound. But it’s crucial in the treatment of female addiction and mental health disorders to considered the systemic factors of gendered violence and patriarchy, and the attitudes we hold about women who struggle with drinking.

Think about female alcoholics in media. If she’s young, she’s a loose, reckless sl*t looking for trouble and deserving of the reality check when she finds it (Amy Schumer in Trainwreck, Lindsay Lohan in general). Or if the woman are older, they are discarded, or gross, or pathetic, or evil like anyone Faye Dunaway played or Eminem’s mom in 8 Mile (deep cut lol). Men are afforded a much larger spectrum of experiences and struggles - Ernest Hemingway, Leaving Las Vegas, Sideways, the dude from A Star is Born, Frank from Shameless (brilliant), frat boys, blue collar workers, introspective tortured artists, fucking IRON MAN. I could go on forever, but I hope that illustrates the depth and diversity of male-centric stories of alcoholism not often afforded to women.

One of the most empathetic and accurate portrayals of female alcoholism, in my opinion, is in the show Sharp Objects (the book, too, but actually witnessing it makes a difference). We see Amy Adams’ Camille swig vodka from an Evian bottle while fending off vicious, veiled attacks from her verbally and emotionally abusive mother and experiencing flashbacks of teenage sexual assault. We watch her struggle to find emotional safety in her conservative hometown, both wanting to fit in and get out in order to survive. We GET why she drinks and I have trouble blaming her for it even as she wreaks havoc on herself and others. We can see her clawing just to make it out alive, and alcohol is the tool she’s using to do it, for better or worse.

Which is where Nesta enters the chat. When we get our first glimpse of her alcohol use is ACOFAS, it’s portrayed as something everyone knows about but that she’s still mostly keeping it together - her dress is clean, her hair is neatly braided, she doesn’t need a chaperone to show up to a family event. The deterioration between ACOFAS and ACOSF is alarming, and we know that alcoholism is a progressive condition so that tends to happen. Was there a particular trigger? That’s hard to say. Solstice certainly didn’t help, especially with the pressures to perform and conform to the standards of the Inner Circle aka the people in power. I imagine seeing her sisters bouncey and reveling in the world that stole them and killed their father was probably.. tough, to say the least. The barge party seems to be a turning point as well, though this one is more confusing to me. But given the child abuse, extreme poverty, sexual assault, kidnapping, bodily violation, witnessing her father’s murder, almost dying, WAR - and that’s not even to mention essentially becoming a refugee - it would be amazing if she DIDN’T drink. She 100% has complex trauma, and is looking for ways to cope.

No one with full capacity dreams of becoming an addict when they grow up. Addiction, in my professional and personal experience, is largely a strategy for coping with a deeper wound. People don’t drink to feel bad. They drink to feel good, and to survive. Nesta herself is drinking to survive, but it’s having the unfortunate side effect of killing her at the same time. As she slides into active addiction, the thought of her own death may even be comforting, and alcohol in that way is her friend. (There's some interesting research right now framing addiction as an attachment disorder, but I don't know enough to speak on it much.)

So she obviously needs help. That’s not a debate. What is a debate is how the IC should best go about intervening. A variation on the Johnson method is used in ACOSF (the one from the show Intervention) and appears to be successful only because they threaten her if she doesn’t comply. This method has mixed data to support it, and while it’s very good at getting people into tx, there is a higher relapse rate for those who receive it (1). The “family” gathers and tells her the ways she’s hurt them and tell her the consequences if she doesn’t seek the help they’re offering. And again, so many of their reason are the effects on THEM, how she’s making THEM look, not her pain.

The IC’s ignorance and dismissal of her alcoholism in ACOSF is frankly mystifying. Why do they intervene on all the drinking and sexing, anyway? It seems like they’ve been fine enough with it up to this point. But now it's gone too far, not because of her illness but because she is embarrassing them. And I don’t know about you, but between Cassian apparently fucking half of Velaris and Mor’s heavily documented emotional drinking, that’s hard to square. It makes it feel much more likely that they don’t like the way she is coping, that she is not fitting into their picture of who she’s supposed to be. This picture is inherently gendered, because Prythian society and those who live in it have explicit and implicit expectations of gender roles, whether they’ll admit it or not. Cassian and Mor are playing their roles well; Nesta is not.

That leads me to believe it is NOT all about her, but the systemic and internal factors influencing their perception of her and the ways she’s struggling. It’s distasteful to them for her, a female, to be deteriorating this publicly, despite the fact that her very identity makes it harder for her to function in the patriarchy of Prythian. We hear almost exclusively about sexual violence against women, aside from 2 male characters. Past or present assault of women is a major plot point on multiple occasions (Mor, Gwyn, Nesta, Emerie, Rhysands mom and sister, the lady of autumn, Cassians mom, Azriels mom, I could go on). But something about the way Nesta is contending with that is unacceptable, and I believe it’s because she’s not trying to cover up her dysfunction. In prythian, we keep these things hidden- Mor’s assault is never processed in full, Azriel’s mom seems to be alone at Rosehall, priestesses are literally hidden inside a mountain for centuries. Women process trauma alone and in the dark, but Nesta is in the light and she is loud. She is refusing to hide her problems, and the IC don’t like that, whether they realize it or not.

So why don’t the IC understand this? Like I said earlier, as a culture we hate addicts, or what they stand for, in very much the same way I think we hate people experiencing homelessness. We convince ourselves it was a series of bad choices that led someone where they are, choices we would never make because we are smart, smarter than them. We believe are more in control than that. We can prevent bad things from happening to us because we are good, because we are better than whoever it’s happening to. But the reality is almost ALL of us are one hospital stay away from homelessness, just as all of us are one trauma away from addiction. And with female addicts, we have another layer of expecting women to only struggle nicely and quietly, or to go away. Intersectional factors are at play here, too: white women are much more likely to have alcoholism attributed to mental health and trauma factors, where people of color often suffer the same addiction being more associated with crime. You can imagine how that plays out differently.

So what is the effect of all this? Gendered expectations lead to not only external stigma around addiction and tx, but also to internalized stigma which can limit willingness to seek tx. (2) Many social forces encourage women to drink and discourage them from telling anyone. Factors such as poverty, family planning, access to education, racial discrimination, and location can make services harder to access. Internally, women are more likely to enter treatment with less confidence in their ability to succeed, but report more strengths and more potential to grow recovery strengths during and following tx. For men, the pattern is reversed (3). And women have more successful tx episodes overall when gendered considerations are a part of the design and implementation of services (4). For Nesta, the effect is that she’s forced into treatment and copes by having hate sex with her ex and changing herself to conform to her family’s expectations while the House and the Valkyrie’s actually take care of her. I do not see how Sarah drew the line from there to recovery, I truly don’t. If anything, she recovers in spite of the ICs intervention, not because of it.

In summary, Nesta Archeron deserved better. Nesta deserved the same compassion the book gives to men who are struggling, and it’s a reflection of not just the book’s culture but the author’s culture that she doesn’t get it. Female alcoholics are worthy of treatment that integrates their identities, as those identities are often essential factors contributing to their addiction. What's shown in ACOSF is a reality many women live, and they shouldn't have to.

Barry Loneck, James A. Garrett & Steven M Banks (1996) The Johnson Intervention and Relapse During Outpatient Treatment, The American Journal of Drug and Alcohol Abuse, 22:3, 363-375, DOI: 10.3109/00952999609001665

Groshkova T, Best D, White W. The Assessment of Recovery Capital: Properties and psychometrics of a measure of addiction recovery strengths. Drug Alcohol Rev. 2013;32(2):187–94.

Best D, Vanderplasschen W, Nisic M. Measuring capital in active addiction and recovery: the development of the strengths and barriers recovery scale (SABRS). Subst Abuse Treat, Prev Policy. 2020;15(1):1–8.

Polak, K., Haug, N.A., Drachenberg, H.E. et al. Gender Considerations in Addiction: Implications for Treatment. Curr Treat Options Psych 2, 326–338 (2015). https://doi.org/10.1007/s40501-015-0054-5

#nesta archeron #pro nesta #alcoholism #mental health #sexism #acotar #acosf #stigma #rehabilitation #prythian university #sjm critical

[hadeantaiga]

Preface: Everything in "quotes" in this post denotes language I am using that other people use, but which I do not necessarily agree with. So do not quote me here and claim I agree with some of this rhetoric - because I don't. But I can't talk about this rhetoric and language without using it, thus, "quotes".

Let's be frank - the vitriol aimed at trans afab people is because a lot of people believe that being an "adult human female" or a "female woman" is the ideologically "pure" gender, and it's the social-justice "approved" gender. It's the "most oppressed" you can be, since you're female and a woman. In a contradiction, this also gives you "afab privilege", according to some trans people.

This belief system manifests in anger and aggression and oppression towards trans afab people in a lot of ways.

Radfems, TERFs, and gender-criticals hate trans afab people because we are "betraying" our femaleness/womanhood. Radfems hate maleness, manhood, and masculinity, and revere femaleness, womanhood and femininity, so of course they hate an afab person who is "abandoning" those ideals for the "other side".

But trans people hate us, too. Even other afab trans people. People often agree with radfems that anything associated with maleness, manhood, or masculinity affords you "male privilege", therefore, masculine afab people must have some sort of privilege that non-masculine people do not have. This hatred also manifests in what I can only describe as jealousy or envy. People who are jealous that masculine trans afab people "get the best of both worlds" - we get to "cling to womanhood/femaleness" and "benefit from 'afab privilege;" while simultaneously "benefiting from 'male privilege'".

And you know what this is? You know what it's called when you revere femaleness/womanhood and put it up on a pedestal and act like it's "more pure" and "better" than maleness? And then use that as a weapon to attack people who are being afab in the "wrong way"?

It's sexism and misogyny, aimed directly at trans afab people.

#ftm #trans #transgender #trans masc #trans man #transmasc #nonbinary #genderqueer #transmasc feminism #intersectional feminism #sexism #misogyny #transphobia

[romanarose]

Inner Youth

No Outbreak!Joel x fem!reader

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Summery: You lead an extremely shelters childhood and youth, homeschooled and not allowed to partake in a lot of things other people your age had. This has left you disconnected from your generations. Maybe that's why you like older men.

Or

Joel watched Mean Girls with you.

Warnings: Brief mentions of religious trauma and family issues stemming from that. Mentions of homophibia and sexism.

Immersibility: Reader is fem and afab.

A/N: I was homeschool v strict most of my life so this is personal lol

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Texas didn't often have snow, but that's climate change for you. Another thing you were taught growing up wasn't real. The snow in Texas certainly didn't help anything, no matter how many times you tried to explain to the old men at the cafe that this was actually a sign of climate change, no one listened to you. Your family certainly didn't, the first time you'd admitted you believed it was real and they called you a dirty commie. You weren't entirely sure what communism had to do with climate change, but you leaned not to question it. They didn't even want you going to college in the first place but that movie secured that you would get no support as long as you were in a "liberal indoctrination school."

Joel listened to you, though.

You'd met him while waiting tables at the cafe he often went to for lunch. Sometimes he was alone, sometimes with his brother, sometimes with his daughter, who you later learned was about your age. That's why Joel was hesitant to date you, he didn't want to be a creep.

You were hesitant to date him too, not thinking that an older, southern man was going to mesh well with your own ideals. Addmittedly, you put him in a box with all the old, southern men you grew up around. Quickly, however, you learned he was not like them.

Firstly, Joel respected women. It was shocking to you how proud he was when he told you on an early date that his daughter got into a STEM masters program. You had gone for teaching, something that placated your family because they thought you would homeschool your children just like they had homeschooled you. A masters degree was out of the question, and STEM was for men.

Another sign was when he mentioned a few of his friends and casually said "Tess, Bill and his husband Frank". Later, you'd learned one of his daughter's friends that Joel had largely taken in, Ellie, was also gay, and none of this seemed to phase Joel at all. When it came to meeting your friend who was non-binary, Joel admitted he didn't really understand being trans or gender but was willing to learn. Most importantly, however, was the fact that it didn't matter if he got it or not, he called them what they wanted to be called, and treated them with respect.

That was the thing with Joel. You learned he was a young, and even before then he was busy taking care of his younger brother after his mom dad and his dad was a useless alcohalic. Joel didn't have time to form opinions on a lot of things. All he knew was to just be kind, and go from there. When Sarah and Ellie grew up and went to college, Joel suddenly had more time to spend with men his age, and was frankly disgusted.

Hadn't those words fallen out of vogue?

Why were they talking about women like that when they were married?

You disowned your son for wearing a skirt?

It wasn't until Tommy introduced him to Tess, and through Tess Bill and Frank that he found a group of people who thought more like him. They didn't have to get it to not be a dick.

So, you and Joel made a good couple.

It was easy with him. You didn't fight, you talked things through like adults, he didn't accuse you of being hysterical or downplay your feelings, he just listened. The way you grew up made you angry and defensive, and when you explained more of this to him, he understood better.

Nights like this were your favorites. You and Joel had been making your way through several shws you thought you'd both like. Shows like Succession, Breaking Bad, Narcos, but this movie was his idea.

Lights were off, central heating was off, you and Joel using a space heater instead to heat the bedroom under a pile of covers. Texas was not equipped to handle much snow, so you were doing your part to not overwhelm the cities electricity, lest there be blackouts. You still had your own apartment, but this was a great excuse to stay with Joel most nights. Besides, he lived near the school you taught at so he drove you to work and picked you up every day. It was all so domestic.

Ellie and Sarah had visited this weekend, Sarah making a movie reference Ellie and Joel laughed at, but you didn't. This was a common occurrence. Shows and movies allowed in your home were pretty minimal, and despite the last 5 years to catch up, you still could never fully 'get' pop culture references around you. You had accepted the fact you would always be a little on the outside of your generation, especially with other girls.

When they realized you hadn't seen it, Ellie's eyes were wide as she asked, 'Really?!' and you saw Sarah subtly nudge her. Ellie meant to harm, but had less of a filter than Sarah did.

So, when Joel and you settled on the bed, you resting your head on Joel's plump belly, Joel asked if you wanted to watch Mean Girls.

"Phht, you don't wanna watch Mean Girl, Joel-y"

You knew he loved you because he lets you call him Joel-y. "Yes I do!" You feel his belly bounce with laughter under you. "It's a good movie, Used to watch it with Sarah all the time."

You're glad he convinced you, because when Regina George got hit with a bus, you laughed so hard you farted.

"I never knew how many memes came from this movie. Get in loser, we're going shoping, raise your hand if you've ever been personally victimized,"

"You go Glen Coco."

"Yeah" You giggle with a smile, an arm wrapped around the swell of his stomach like you might hold a teddy. "It's frick'n funny" All these years out of it, you still can't bring yourself to say fuck. You noticed Joel doesn't say it either. Whether it's from his southern baptist upbringing or because he knows you won't say it, you aren't sure. Ellie and Tommy certainly have no problem.

"We can keep doing this, y'know." Joel says and the movie credits roll, his hand stoking your hair.

You begin to drift off, mumbling sleepily. "Do what?"

"Watch movies and shows you missed out on. Even the girlie ones."

You cran your head to look up at him. "Hm?"

"I mean," Joel moved you off him for a moment, making you pout, but it was only long enough to turn off the tv and settle into a sleeping position. "That Sarah and Ellie are your age, I know at least the big movies and shows the kids were into."

"Joel..." You shake your head. "I love you, but you don't wanna sit around watching shitty teen movies from the 2000's with me."

He kissed the crown of your head. "And you and Frank didn't want to watch doomsday preppers with me and Bill for 5 hours but we did. I'd sit through all of Glee if it meant you felt less left out. I just want you to be happy."

Smiling, you nuzzled in against his softness, feeling safe and warm and cared for in Joel's grasp. "I mean... I wouldn't complain if you wanted to watch The Notebook..."

"The Notebook it is, baby. Now, get some sleep. First day back at school tomorrow."

You groan dramatically just to feel his chuckle again. "Those kids are lucky I love them."

"They sure are."

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This was supossed to be a quick thing but then there was a long backstory and now i wanna write more XD maybe scenes of Joel recreating memories that reader never got from being homeschooled or sheltered.

I had a similar idea last year with Benny Miller actually haha.

Anway, my usual tag list BUT tagging a few people I thought may also enjoy

@fandxmslxt69 @runa-falls @k-ra @whatthefishh @ahookedheroespureheart @mikaelak @littlenosoul @stevenandmarcslove @pikapuff-316 @del-ightfulling @faretheeoscar @harriedandharassed @my-secret-shame-but-fanfiction @campingwiththecharmings @ramblers-lets-get-ramblin @milly-louise @casa-boiardi @joeldjarin @mrs-oharaxx @pedge-page @ninebluehearts

#Joel miller #jole miller x reader #tlou #tlou fanfiction #joel fanfiction #joel miller x reader fluff #fluff #tlou fluff #the last of us #tlou hbo #caretaker joel #dad joel #joel miller x you #fem reader #joel the last of us #no outbreak!joel miller #no outbreak au #joel miller fluff #cw religous trauma

[fireinthefireproofvault]

Who Would Each M*A*S*H Character Play in DnD?

Got inspired by my mutual @spacemanxpaninis & after much discussion here’s our M*A*S*H version of her HH post 😌

Hawkeye chooses a Tiefling character and plays the ‘what, just because I look like this?’ card anytime he gets blamed for things. Makes a bard partially so Trapper doesn’t have to and partially because he’s against unnecessary killing. In fact, he loves the roleplaying so much and is only in favor of killing really bad NPCs, so he gets mad if people (Frank) try to play the mission-driven murder hobo. Even mischief like personal sidequests to seduce NPCs often end up benefiting the party with information or rewards, so they can’t be too mad at him, especially when he plays amazing support as a mostly nonviolent character.

Trapper leaves the campaign early, but man was he good at roleplaying. The DM has to stop him from actually reenacting things in real life especially if they’re indecent. Almost refuses to call Hawkeye’s character by his name, just ‘handsome devil’ variations (Klink wants what they have fr). His character was an elf rogue; he was almost a bard but he wanted to be able to do more than support, i.e. become the main character if he wanted. His character was great with female and kid NPCs alike, almost all of them liking him unless they were stern authority types, especially because he was good at finding legitimate ways around them,

Ignoring the pressure to fill Trapper’s shoes, BJ plays the character he wants to play, an air genasi former sailor named Blow Jibhandler. He knows. Of course he knows. Despite his character’s name and background, Blow has a wife and child back home and his main motivation is defending his wife’s honor. Raves a lot about how his daughter inherited his powers and is already creating storms at such a young age. Is immediately thick as thieves with Hawkeye’s bard, claiming he remembers him from some old tavern by the sea and helping him write songs and vicious mockery insults.

Margaret decides she wants to let loose, so she goes with barbarian, but she doesn’t feel that’s any reason to sacrifice beauty or brains, making the character a very well-read elf whose ways got her kicked out of being a footsoldier and has her hating being a cog in some old man’s machine. Uses her character’s frustration at the idiots surrounding her and that same feeling from real life as motivation for her battle rage. That and sexism, too. Anytime an NPC is sexist to her they only make her more powerful. Pushes Frank out of the way to just become the tank herself if he won’t do it.

Frank also leaves early. Doesn’t like how infrequently his character gets the spotlight or gets teased by Hawkeye’s character. Wants to be a traditional hero, so he goes for a human paladin but never takes the chance to be the tank unless the others make him. Makes the generic white guy warrior with dead wife backstory.

Charles goes for a wizard upon learning they’re the most traditionally educated, flaunting fake wizard school credentials any chance he can get, especially if he thinks it’ll get him in places (it doesn’t always). The phrase ‘otherworldly grace’ is all it takes for him to choose an elf even though the others complain they’ve got elves already. For a guy who acted like roleplay was beneath him, he’s gotten so interested in not only his fake credentials but also being able to step in with the perfect spell at any given time. Also bantering in character with Hawkeye and BJ’s characters.

Radar wants a familiar so bad, choosing druid for a chance at having animal friends. They���re versatile, too. As far as race goes he’s content “just being a regular human” especially when Hawkeye and BJ tease him about playing a halfling. His character in particular somehow passes every single perception and investigation check. He doesn’t like fighting so most of his moves in combat are holding enemies down, healing the others, or just letting his familiar do it as long as it’ll be safe. It’s technically not canon but they let him make it be a bunny rabbit.

Klinger decides his bard cross-dresses too as a form of protest for how his people are treated, having chosen a goblin so he can be shrewd and do the voice. He loves doing voices best and will absolutely demonstrate dance moves his character does. The type of bard that seduces NPCs of any gender to kill them, but not without the satisfaction of revealing to male ones that he was a dude the whole time. His little goblin is really loving and loyal to all the other characters and really isn’t afraid to stick out his neck for them.

Father Mulcahy obviously chooses cleric, commenting on both the obvious choice and the irony of being a healer amidst all the doctors and nurses. An Aasimar seems too on-the-nose and he wants his character to be down-to earth, so he sticks with a human who’s trying, and usually failing, to reign everyone else in. Plays a very combat-heavy cleric that absolutely bashes in the faces of evildoers who don’t heed his message, causing some of the other players to tease the Father that ‘thou shalt not kill’ and all. The good cleric is an uncle, so he’s also great with child NPCs, even if he’s awkward around women.

Nurse Kellye has a sense of humor, so her ranger is a halfling from a far-off island who’s an expert with both her twin swords and a bow and arrows. Loves both rushing in and quickly picking off enemies, so a joke about ‘sic-ing Kellye on ‘em’ emerges. Just like Margaret’s character, she doesn’t take any bullshit from NPCs, especially male ones.

Colonel Potter, of course, is the DM and he spends most of his time done with all the players’ utter horse hockey.

#m*a*s*h #mash #dungeons and dragons #dnd #hawkeye pierce #trapper john mcintyre #bj hunnicutt #margaret houlihan #frank burns #charles emerson winchester iii #radar o'reilly #max klinger #father mulcahy #francis mulcahy #nurse kellye #colonel potter

[alpaca-clouds]

Wishy-Washy Cyberpunk

It's punk-o-clock, and today I wanna whine a bit about Cyberpunk and (if you have followed this blog for a while) the loss of many of the punk ideas.

Now, let me be fair. A ton of the old Cyberpunk stuff was not super punk either. Like, sure, it was defined by this idea of "capitalism bad, I gotta fight capitalism", but outside of it... I mean, there is tons of sexism and racism in a lot of Cyberpunk media - old and new - as well as that "rugged individualism" so typical of western media, and to be frank... That's not very punk.

But I really gotta say: I feel that for the last ten years Cyberpunk has gotten a ton more popular than it had been before and with that... Well, things have happened, that usually happen when things become pupular. They get turned into the most mainstream-friendly version of themselves, loosing basically anything about them that ever was unique or... you know... critical of anything.

That is not to say that no more good cyberpunk gets published - but more that the more mainstream titles pushed to the public are just not really Cyberpunk in many regards. Because they still have all that racism and sexism and what not. And even in the cases where they try to be more this often gets messed up through big companies. (There are a ton of good punk ideas in Cyberpunk 2077, but those get really lost in the noise of it being too much of a Triple-A game.)

Maybe it is just bitterness over this book, but I kinda feel that it started with Ready Player One. A book that had a really good premise, but never did anything with it, instead opting to just go nostalgia-wank for... how many pages was it? With the ultimate moral being "Capitalism is good actually, if it works in my favor."

And not to go all feminist on you, but... I think one of the big issues is, that a ton of the big mainstream cyberpunk stuff is currently written by white, cishet, abled, middle and upper class men. Aka the kind of people who most profit from the current system - and do not have the kinda anger they would need to rage against it. Or, to put it more bluntly: They are the least punk people around.

I did a quick dip into good reads and what not and had to admit that... this really is in general a thing. It seems that around 2010 there was a big dip in marginalized folks writing (or rather getting published with) Cyberpunk - and a big take-up in those named cishet, abled, white, upperclass men writing/getting published with it. At least percentually - and especially when it came to outright marketing the stuff as Cyberpunk.

Like, there was still a lot of good stuff happening in regards to self-published and indie-publishing... But the big publishers? They kinda went into the wrong direction.

Cyberpunk is a super interesting genre. And it just... deserves better than this, frankly.

#cyberpunk #vent post #feminism #feminist art #cyberpunk fiction #science fiction #scifi

[time-to-yar-har]

So I've been talking about my Knowledge White AU with people on a few different servers and thought that I would share some of that info with ya'll:

Sanji:

Sanji will, of course, be different in this AU than in canon. For staters Sanji will be less girl crazy and less hostile toward men. Like he will still be polite to women, but not simping levels. While being kind of cold/rude to men he doesn't know well and neutral and/or polite to men that he knows very well like friends and found family.

Sanji would also be more willing to actually fight women too, but would go out of his way to end the fight with as little damage as possible to his female opponent.

Though Sanji still bickers with Zoro because that shit is iconic (and they are an old married couple). With Goji repeatedly asking if they're flirting or something (for the lolz).

Goji would help with Sanji with his self-esteem by continuedly pointing out that Sanji is just normal, not weak. Along with how impressive Sanji's combat progress is.

When Sanji sees how annoyed Judge is at Goji calling him by his full name (after he and Goji meet up with their family again), he does the same as middle finger to their sperm donor. Sanji also does the same thing to the rest of his brothers, as in calling them by their full names. (Which also annoy Ichiji, Niji and Yonji.)

Goji:

While Goji does help Sanji with his self-esteam, he would start to think that he (along with Ichiji, Niji, and Yonji) are broken because they don't have a heart like everyone else.

Emotions, like many other things, is something that Goji wants to figure out and understand. So he does so by pretending to have those emotions and doing his best to act appropriately depending on the situation. (And the emotions that Goji has the most problems with are fear, kindness, compassion, empathy, sympathy, and pity. (Basically the emotions that make it easy to connect with and understand others.))

One of the ways that Goji tries to better understand emotions is by getting his hands on as much information about psychology as possible. And while it doesn't help him much with understand emotions, it does help him with better understanding people.

Goji's personality is a deadpan genki archetype. He acts friendly, playful and energetic, but in a more laidback way. Yet he can be a passionate dork when curious about something and wanting to learn about it. Though he will be more like the megane-kun archetype at first before taking on a genki persona later on.

Goji will be butting heads with Zeff over his sexism and calling the old pirate out on it. Because logically, sexism doesn't really make sense to Goji because there are plenty of examples of women being just as good as, or better, than men.

When Goji learns about nicknames he starts to insist that those he's close to call him by his nickname and also gives nicknames to the people he's close to (in order to help breed familiarity and get people to get attached to him). His said nickname is Go-Go. Which kind of helps him hide from Judge because his insistence of the Straw Hats calling him Go-Go has made the World Government think that's his name. (That annoys Goji because that's a nickname and only the people he's close to can call him that, and he's sure as heck is not close to anyone in the marines.)

Goji tends to give nicknames based on a person's name. Like his nickname for Sanji is San-San. The other nicknames he has for people (that I've figured out so far) is: Patty=Uncle Pat Robin=Ro-Ro Franky=Frank Chopper=Choppy Zoro=Zo-Zo Nami=Mi-Mi Luffy=Lue Usopp=Uso

Though if Goji doesn't like someone he calls them by their full name. (Since usually using a person's full name=being distant with said person.) This means that when he (and Sanji) meet up with his family again, he calls Judge "Vinsmoke Judge" instead of "father". (And as you would imagine, this annoys the hell out of Judge.) Though since he's on better terms with his brother than Sanji, he just calls them by their given names.

Since Goji wasn't sure if Judge would let him go or not, he faked his death. He also dyed his hair to same shade of blond as Sanji's hair to better blend in. And when he joins the Star Hats, he makes sure that half or all of his face is covered to better help hide his identity (though usually its the top half of his face covered by goggles similar to a ski goggles/glasses) to make sure that Judge doesn't think that he's still alive.

Goji would totally be BFFs with Robin and probably ask her how to read ancient languages/poneglyphs. Yet whether she's willing to teach him in another thing entirely.

#One Piece #AU #Knowledge White AU #VInsmoke Sanji #Black Leg Sanji #Vinsmoke Goji #Text post #long post #yeah I know that there's more info about Goji than Sanji #but this AU is about Goji being a part of Sanji's life #also not much is known about Goji since Oda mostly sketched an idea for him and didn't go into detail about him #so I'm going into detail myself #gotta make sure he's a whole ass character and all

[metanarrates]

I’m genuinely curious about your Barbie take! Iv only ever seen woman and queer people praise it so I’m interested in what you have to say about it. I don’t think Barbie is a revelationary movie by any means but it’s fun and pink and makes me smile to see people all come together to celebrate femininity. That doesn’t mean that it should be free from criticism if it needs it though!

to reiterate once again, i have not seen the movie, but I don't see anything wrong with like... fun pink silly stuff. (im always critical of Celebrating Femininity given that uh. im a masc genderweird lesbian and those types of things always forget that we exist. also im constantly critical of the hyperconsumerism necessary TO celebrate mainstream femininity as well as the really obvious implicit cisgenderness + whiteness...) overall, though, I do like a good silly summer blockbuster. i can have fun seeing some sparkly pink decadence presented.

the problem here isn't in it being a fun and pink lighthearted movie. that's all basically fine. however I do think any work that is created with the explicit goal of Being Feminist is obligated to examine how patriarchy functions, where it comes from, and how it's enforced, and especially how that enforcement falls unequally on certain bodies. now, i'm not saying every feminist work has to be broad scope - it really, really doesn't. but to posit that patriarchy comes from the insecurities of men, and that patriarchy can be introduced with no violence and reversed with no lasting effects? i don't care that it's a summer blockbuster version of patriarchy. i feel like that's an incredibly ridiculous take from a work that people are legitimately hailing as THE feminist work of the year.

like... okay I would still find all this an issue even if it wasn't created and marketed as feminist, to be honest with you. i don't have any patience for stuff that isn't frank about the function of patriarchy as an inherently violent system. but if the barbie movie can simultaneously be a Fun Summer Blockbuster (and thus shielded from criticism) AND A Feminist Work, then I'm gonna be depressed at the state of mainstream feminism. like damn is this where we're at culturally? is this weird reductive nonsense genuinely what people see as feminist? is a glorified commercial from a megacorporation really going to be treated as unworthy of serious critique because it is too blockbuster to be critiqued for its feminism and too feminist to be critiqued on its other problems?

also why does it sound like sexism is presented as a series of interpersonal conflicts in this movie because that maybe the most privileged idea of sexism that could exist

#narrates #barbie movie #<- making a tag so people can filter out me bitching #to be clear anon im not irritated with you. i do appreciate you giving me a genuine chance to explain my criticisms #im just generally frustrated with the state of mainstream feminism

[theinvisiblemuseum]

how about......people demanding wlw rep then never actually engaging with it because the only thing they care about is woke points☕

this really was the wrong day for me to rb this game because i'm seriously genuinely going to be a major cunt about it and i dgaf. that's your warning.

so. here's what i think. in very general terms.

if you don't want to read below the cut (valid) here's all i'll say: stop, actually. i don't want need or care about the megaviral wlw fanfictions of your dreams, because that's not how i choose to engage with fandoms. i already make and engage with the kind of content i want to see which (surprise!) includes a lot of wlw content, but i don't see the need to force moral superiority down people's throats over it. i don't give two shits if anyone other than me is making wlw content. this is fanfiction. fanart. etc. people are allowed to write or engage with whatever they want, HOWEVER if you're throwing a fit over not having enough wlw content and can't name a woman off the top of ur head, that seems like a you problem, idk. basically i choose to actively NOT engage with the type of people screaming crying and pissing themselves over content that already exists that they can't be bothered to look for because appearances and #feminism are all that matters.

if you're here, i'm going to get more cunty, not sorry, you were warned.

the demand for wlw rep is absolutely just dog whistling to seem holier than thou, and like, whatever, most of this shit originates on twitter and tiktok and i've never listened to a word a twitter or tiktok user has said and i won't start now so on the whole i can just put my metaphorical headphones on and tune it out and keep doing my thing, yk? but when it permeates my little den of horror and my brain starts scratching itself, well, i find that sometimes i need to be an asshole and sometimes is right now.

it's not actually a fandom sexism/misogyny issue it's an issue of wanting validation to enjoy certain things, because those things are only cool if the hivemind says so, right? i'm no political expert but i know enough to know that cultlike thought patterns don't lead anywhere good. i've seen zombie movies. i live in america. LOL.

i always joke about how i'd rather die than have my favorite ships become popular (i.e. pandalily, bartydora, lilycissa, etc) but the reason i say that is because a. it breeds discourse that i don't care about, and b. i don't want a bunch of people engaging with content they're not actually interested in just to seem woke or stay on top of trends. it just makes things worse for the people who actually enjoy it.

and while i have your attention, and while i'm being a bitch, wanna know one of the big reasons i think people are crying and whining about the 'lack of wlw rep'? they want other people to care so they don't have to. of course, they don't realize other people already dooooo care, because they're too terrified to sort by anything other than hits on ao3, but that's neither here nor there. no, what they want is for some big strong heavenly god to bite the bullet and characterize these women that, let's be frank, are names on a page and nothing more, so they don't have to. so they can keep on keeping on with the characters they DO care about and toss something around every once and a while about (insert megaviral wlw fic that doesn't exist) to avoid claims of sexism & lesbophobia. AND AS A DISCLAIMER! i don't think people should feel the need to care about a bunch of random characters if they don't want to. once again, this is fanfiction. do whatever the fuck you want. i promise it makes things so much more fun and chill. just because i wanna characterize the shit out of pandora fucking lovegood, i'd never demand anyone else does, and that's the crux of it, isn't it?

this is why it also bugs me when i see posts like 'omg i don't even care who the ship is, i just love sapphics!' or smth along those lines because like, yeah, i love women and i love when women fuck each other and love each other, but i'm not just gonna care about a ship because it's two women. if i did, i'd be more than happy with the pg spoonfed #girlcore sapphic representation in mass media, because half the time it's just two white girls named rachel and brookleighanna whose only defining character traits are that they're gay. nothing more. and sorry, but i'd rather have no wlw content than that. i can't enjoy a ship if i haven't rotated them to hell and back like a rotisserie chicken in my silly little head, often before i've even consumed any content about them. that's the fun of it! i sent like 12 voice messages about a ship i don't even care about that much one time just because i took a shower and had a lot of thoughts. does that mean i'm going to attempt to make them a cornerstone of the Fandom As A Whole and be treated like a celebrity over it? fuck no. i'm just here because i like to have fun and talk to people about characters we all enjoy and create so much lore in my head that only 2 people will ever know about simply because i'm passionate about it and that passion is really enjoyable to me. fandom is a community to me, not a hierarchy, like tiktok or twitter would have you believe, and i think that's what this whole conversation about wlw rep is missing right from the jump. (ta da! i circled back to the point at hand in the end. my tangent had a point!)

yeah so that's my two cents. lol.

#organ donations #yizyaz #if you read all this sorry #or you're welcome #take your pick

[sweetbillwriting]

In Another Universe (Love Just Happens)

I'm Sorry - Part 5

Description: In another universe didn't Bill become an actor and Aurora Lou didn't get her record deal but as soulmates they meet also in this universe but have other struggles.

Setting: This story is set in a parallel universe to my story Love Just Happens about Bill Skarsgård and my original character Aurora Lou.

Characters: Bill and Aurora is the same characters but because they have other experiences are they a bit different from the original story.

Warnings: 18+, age difference, ageism, cheating, jealousy, talk about weight, sexism, mentions about sexual abuse.

Bill really tried to not look at Aurora. He pretended she wasn't there and gave the reading all his attention. He actually succeeded quite well even if he could hear her giggle sometimes. When he heard it, it spread like a warm feeling in his chest that was both pleasant and painful. He didn't know how he could control himself for three days but he succeeded and if someone had noticed him staring at Aurora the first day it was forgotten now because he was his normal professional self.

“We want to thank you for these days and we will see each other in a month. I guess Bill will be even thinner then and Aurora even more beautiful,” said the showrunner Frank, another one that Bill had talked to, and gave them both a smirk. Bill gave him a small smile while he heard Aurora giggle. He wondered what she thought about the fact that her looks always came up as a subject, it had happened several times and he had noticed some of the cast had reacted too. Another thing everyone also had reacted to was that Aurora's acting skills were mediocre, to be kind. None of the actors gave their all, it was just a reading, but she didn't even seem to know where in the line the emphasis should be. Everyone probably thought it, she was just there as the pretty face.

“But Aurora, you had something to say,” continued Frank and all eyes suddenly were on her. She smiled and stood up. She looked a bit nervous but tried to hide it by putting her hands on her hips.

“Well, if you are still in New York tomorrow I have arranged a night for us at this club I worked at. Everything is already paid for and it will just be a fun time!” She said, like she was the best kind of seller. She wore a short beige plaid skirt, a black crop top and the lace adorned stockings she used to wear.

“A burlesque club,” said the showrunner that always sexualized her and wiggled his brows. Aurora smiled sweetly. Bill strained to smile because he knew he couldn't go, it wouldn't be right. He looked at the other actors and saw some think it was fun but others looked uncomfortable.

“You don't need to come, I will not take offense,” said Aurora with a smile but Bill could see so well that she would take offense. He could still read her but also knew how sensitive she was. Several people started to say they would come, mostly the guys.

“Me too,” he heard himself say with a smile. Aurora looked at him with an unreadable expression but she looked at him straight in the eyes. Bill regretted at once he had said it but he also wanted to be a part of it, especially when he heard even the women say they would come. Most of the production and the cast would be there.

Aurora smiled relieved while looking at them all.

“Nine o’clock, I’ll send the address to you all and then all that’s left is to show up.”

×××

Bill stood and waited at the car that would pick him up while playing with his phone. He had just said goodbye to two of the producers. He pulled his bomber jacket closer to his body. It was the end of August but it had already started to get colder. He looked at political articles, American, Swedish, shifting fast between them so his inner monologue was a mix between the two languages. He jerked when suddenly a motorcycle hummed to his left. Curiously he looked up and saw the red sporty motorcycle. He gave it a long look until he realized it was Miles sitting on it with Aurora standing next to him. He looked away quickly. He shouldn't look at them, he didn't care, even if he thought the bike was quite ugly. If he had one… If he could drive one, he would have had something more classic, maybe a cruiser model. Easy Rider style. He heard Aurora's giggle again and lowered his eyes down to the ground. Couldn't the car just come?

He stood with his head low for a while but looked up when the motorcycle drove away. He took a deep breath relieved. He knew he must get used to having her around but right then and there it was still so new. He looked around, searching for the car but instead he saw beige plaid. Aurora's skirt. She wore just a white cardigan over her outfit and it looked cold. That feeling of protectiveness he had always felt by being with her woke up again like it had just been asleep in his chest. He looked at her checking her lipstick in the phone camera. He had his moment now. Carefully he started to walk towards her but on purpose he dragged his feet a bit when he came closer so she would hear him and not get startled by his presence. She looked up at him but looked away fast with pursed lips.

“Hey…” he said nervously and dragged his sweaty hands over his hips. He waited for an answer for a few seconds but when it had been silent a bit too long he understood she wouldn't give him anything.

“Emm… It's nice to see you. Have you cut your hair?” He dragged a hand over his face. He sounded stupid as hell. He broke her heart and here he started with talking about her hair. He took a deep breath and took a step to the side so he could see the profile of her face.

“Lou… I'm so sorry… What I did to you… It was-”

“Shut up.”

Aurora turned to him and looked up at him with a hard look. Even if she was so short, Bill felt instant respect.

“Don't start with that bullshit again. Don't come to me here and try to be some fucking good guy.”

Aurora looked away again and Bill dragged his hand awkwardly over his neck. He hadn't thought she would be happy but he wasn't prepared for the anger either.

“Okay… Ehh… Ehh… We must make this work somehow…”

Aurora was quiet and crossed her arms. He could see she was cold with her way of standing with her shoulders pulled up to her ears.

“We will work together, have scenes together. Make it seem like we like each other…” Bill continued. He watched her in silence until he heard a car. It was his ride and he sighed. It was nice to be able to flee but he needed to talk to her. He gave a little wave to the car but then looked at the empty parking lot. They were alone, he couldn't just leave her there alone.

“Do you have a ride?” He asked her thoughtfully. This was the first thing he said she reacted in a different way to. She looked around a little and played with her nails nervously.

“My friend should come, but he hasn't answered for a while…”

Bill nodded a little and tried to wave away the thought of what gender she had said.

“Are you going into the city?” He gave his car a look just so the driver should wait. Aurora looked at Bill now but then looked down.

“Yeah…”

“You can go with me if you want? I’ll just drop you off where you want.. Nothing else. We don't need to talk or anything…”

Aurora looked up at his kind eyes and sighed deeply. It was obvious she wanted to be angry and keep distance but didn't want to be alone either. She nodded a little and together they walked to the car.

They sat in silence together in the backseat. Aurora looked out of the window while Bill looked down at his sneakers.

“Will you come tomorrow?” She suddenly said and Bill looked up at her.

“Emm… I don't need to?” He said and looked down in his lap.

“It's okay… You should be there. As the lead and all…”

Bill looked at her and finally got to look into her Bambi eyes. He felt his heart beat hard and he smiled a little.

“Thanks…”

The driver drove up to her hotel and Bill gave it a look.

“You don't live in New York anymore?”

She shook her head while taking off her seatbelt.

“I moved home to L.A. again.”

Bill nodded but could feel hundreds of questions push around in his throat. He couldn't ask her but the curiosity really wanted to take over, but also have an excuse to keep her by his side.

“Thanks for the ride,” she said with a strained smile and walked out from the car. She closed the door before Bill had the chance to answer.

He sat with his mouth open, looking at her go towards the entrance of the hotel. The short skirts movement and the shine of her dark hair. He made a sound of frustration and threw his head back.

“Your ex?” Said the driver and looked back at him amused in the rearview mirror. Bill looked back at him with furrowed brows and nodded a little as a reflex. He couldn't at all understand how the driver could know that.

×××

A burlesque show was much more than sexy dancing, all sorts of performers stood on the stage but with costumes and arrangements with vintage aesthetics. The group from the series were 26 people that sat around several round tables in deep red velvet chairs. Bill looked around at everyone enjoying the night Aurora fixed for them. They had probably not believed it would be so fun and liberating to see girls taking off their clothes. Or some were probably prepared for it being the night of a lifetime.

Bill wasn't surprised Aurora had succeeded to fix a magical night full of decadence and playfulness. While he talked with one of his co-stars, a woman his own age, about her background as a stunt double the audience started to scream.

“Lou! Get that ass up on stage!”

“Lou!”

All eyes were suddenly on Aurora. She sat with Miles and Dan, the man playing her father. Her hair laid in perfect ‘40s waves and was dressed in a black corset dress with a short voluminous skirt.

A man jumped up on stage. Bill recognized him as the bartender from the last time he was there but now the man was without a shirt and showed off his many old school tattoos.

“Aurora?” He said in the mic and waved with his hand towards her. “You owe me this!”

Everyone around the table looked at her and the showrunner Frank began to applaud and shout with the other men.

“No! I'm here with my colleagues!” She shouted back to the tattooed guy. Bill looked at her curiously. He could see that she didn't want to do it but was probably prepared for it to happen.

“Come on, Lou!” Said Frank and got some of the other men to start to cheer too. Aurora rolled her eyes jokingly but walked up on stage.

“You know, she didn't audition for her role…” whispered the guy next to him. His name was Tucker and he would play a cop. The woman next to Bill, Nathalie, leaned forward to hear what Tucker said.

“Really? I don't think any of us are surprised… She seems to be new with acting…”

Bill swallowed hard. He sat in the middle so he couldn't pretend like he didn't hear.

“Frank really likes her if you get what I mean… I checked up what she has done before and she has just been in like music videos and been a background singer…”

Bill wanted to say something because what Tucker accused her of she would never do. He felt his ears heat from anger. She had such awful experiences but got accused of such things just by getting some attention.

The music started and Aurora began to sing a pop song arranged into a jazzier tune. Everyone became quiet, her talent did that to people and Bill noticed he even held his breath. She danced sexily but in a more modest way than she had done when she worked there. Bill looked at her hypnotized. He just saw her and forgot about everything else. Her smiles and flirty ways made him remember all the playful moments with her. Her doe eyed looks made him remember all intimate conversations and her voice gave him the warm feeling in his chest only she could give him. He was still in love with her. He missed everything with her, her kindness, her calmness, her optimism, her fire.

When the song had ended and she walked off from the scene he looked between her and his wedding rings. They were a bit loose because he had started to diet for the role. They were easy to take off and he often chose to not wear them because he felt he would drop them.

Everyone praised Aurora and she smiled a bit embarrassed. Bill just smiled towards her. Their eyes met for a few seconds and he smiled bigger.

It didn't matter if she wanted him or not, like he had thought before. His feelings weren't right to have when he was married to another woman and made the decision while looking at Aurora playing with her pearl choker. He would start the process to divorce from his wife when he came back to Sweden. It was bad timing but he had kept up the charade way too long.

×××

New York’s nightlife had woken up and people walked past Bill on their way to crowded clubs. He took a smoke with the director but also two other men who had been sitting next to them. It was nice coming out, for fresh air he often said, but he mostly thought it was easier socialwise to talk over a smoke than sitting in a club.

They talked about the president, the political climate in Sweden but also the club. One of the other men had worked there a few years back as a security guard and had nostalgic feelings for the place.

“And there is this place’s only real superstar, Lou!” He shouted when she came up from the stairs from the club.

“Johnny!” She screamed and threw herself around his neck with a bright smile. Bill could see she was intoxicated. Johnny lifted her up in his arms but put her down when the hug was over. Bill had looked down at the ground awkwardly but realized when he looked up that Miles was with her and got help to light his cigarette by their director.

“Do you want one?” Asked Johnny and reached out his cigarette pack towards Aurora.

“No, no. But thank you,” she said in a flirtatious way that made Johnny and the other guys smirk while Bill took a deep drag on his cigarette.

“You were great up there,” said Johnny to her and laid an arm around her waist and the other agreed. Bill smiled but looked down at the ground.

“Thank you, but it feels like I interrupted something, you can continue,” she said and smiled a bit awkwardly. All of the men made sounds like they weren’t talking about anything special and Aurora looked a bit uncomfortable. Bill looked up at her and realized she probably thought they didn't want to share it with her but in reality they had all forgotten what they talked about when such a beautiful woman stood with them.

“How are you, Bill?” He heard her say while he stood in deep thoughts.

“Hm?” He looked at her and could feel his mouth get dry and the butterflies in his stomach break free from their cocoons.

“Are you okay?” She asked kindly but he could see that she was intoxicated by her eyes but also in the way she moved her shoulders. The other looked at them interested, especially because Bill was the only one with rings on his finger. The director looked at him with big eyes and a playful smile. It was obvious the showrunner had told him about his and Aurora's history.

“I'm good… How are you?”

“I'm fine… Did you like my performance?” She asked with a giggle. Bill smirked a little and got lost in her big eyes. He was also a bit intoxicated and his eyes started to greedily take her in.

“You were amazing…”

Aurora giggled and dragged her fingers over her collarbone. The others had seen it as some sort of entertainment but then the director had signaled them all to move away so Bill and Aurora could be alone. The two of them didn't really see a difference because they were already so lost in each other that for them, there wasn't anyone around. Bill leaned against the brick wall while continuing to look at her and he could see she did everything to be attractive in his eyes. She played with her hair, pouted her lips and moved sensually. Bill just gave her his hooded gaze with a teasing smile. He laid his hand on her waist and pulled her closer to his body. She pushed him away but with a smile so Bill believed she just wanted to tease. He didn't think longer than that, even if the gold from his rings shone from the streetlights.

“I know you want me…” said Aurora teasingly and Bill licked his lips, preparing them for kisses. “But you even have your rings on. You will never ever come close to me again….” She said but with the same teasing smile. Bill smiled back at first, not really understanding what she said but also because the blood from his brain had started to travel to his groin. When he registered what she said, and understood, his smile dropped fast.

“Lou…” his hands hugged her waist but she just put her finger over his lips. She knew so well what power she had over him and used it well. She let her finger drag down from his lips to his chest and moved sensually from side to side in his hands. He took his chance to touch her waist and hips and she let him but after a while she took a hold of his hands and looked up at him again.

“This filming will be a hell for you. Because, maybe you never loved me… But this…” she dragged a finger over the imprint from his erection, “I reaaally have power over. You're just like any other man after all,” she said and then let him go. Bill looked down at her with a beating heart. He couldn't even say what he was feeling because he hadn't expected this at all. She continued to stand just in front of him, checking her lipstick in her phone camera and corrected her tits in the corset bodice. Bill was horny, he wanted to push his cock against her and play with her tits but her words said no so sharply. She would never forgive him.

“I'm sorry…” he said again desperately. He sounded pathetic and several people around them could hear him grovel.

I'm sorry Lou…” she looked up at him from her phone and smiled condescendingly. Bill looked at her face closely. He could see the hurt feelings in her eyes, how her lips moved by holding her emotion in check.

“That's sweet of you but I don't see any reason to forgive you,” she said and gave his rings a glance. Bill nodded a little and swallowed dryly. It wasn't like she didn't have reason to feel that way. She shook her head to herself when Bill stood quiet.

“You never even answered my texts… You just disappeared to Sweden…” she whispered so no one else would hear and looked at him with glossy eyes. Bill furrowed his brows in confusion.

“What texts?”

Aurora laughed unamused.

“I really didn't think you were this ignorant… Such an asshole…” She moved away from him and to everyone's surprise she just walked away from the club on high heels and left them all there, even if it was her night. Bill looked after her with big eyes. His heart was still beating hard in his chest but now in the rhythm of anxiety. He was an asshole. Just the biggest asshole. What texts did she talk about? He didn't believe he had forgotten anything of their break up, all of it felt like it was carved into his intestines.

People surrounding him looked at him but everyone with different faces. Shock, curiosity, amusement but also distaste. Everyone seemed to have heard them and soon everyone connected to the series would know that he had an affair with Aurora and broke her heart. He closed his eyes for a few seconds before going down the stairs to get his jacket. This was a catastrophe and it didn't feel like he could save this. He should have just kept that proposal he gave Aurora their first night, he should have just married her at once, then this mess never would have happened.

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#bill skarsgård #fan fiction #bill skarsgard #writing #bill skarsgård writing #story #bill skarsgård fanfiction #fiction

[leovaldezdefender]

do you think Leo is a misogynist

nope and i'm not just saying that because he's my favourite character. calling leo a misogynist is just objectively ridiculous; the most "misogynistic" behaviour he ever exhibits is flirting awkwardly and thinking of himself as a casanova but even then when he gets put in his place it's not like he gets angry or violent or even all that upset. it's clear that his flirty behaviour is just another coping mechanism that can manifest negatively like, say, his bullying frank. he's best friends with piper, is intimidated by annabeth, and becomes close with hazel and reyna. all characters with which he has completely normal and meaningful interactions with. frankly i don't get at all how people see him as some raging misogynist—the most he has is a minor sexism problem that is typical of most teenage boys, one that even percy has.

tldr; no. nothing leo does is ever that serious.

#leo valdez #heroes of olympus #this is an ask with suspiciously good timing considering what i saw on twitter today #which i think ill post about actually. just to be a hater. #anyway yeah nothing leo does in hoo is ever bad enough to be classified as misogynistic #the most his behaviour does is slightly aggravate the girls #and he doesnt have any inherent discriminatory beliefs about women #compare that to for example sylva1n—another character i love who is most definitely more of a misogynist #HIS actions actually result in far more serious consequences compared to just annoying girls slightly #(the women he dates actually get emotionally toyed with and hurt) #and HE actually has beliefs about women that are hurtful (though he admits that its nonsensical) #but those beliefs influence his actions and how he treats women around him #now leo? doesnt do either of those things. of course because its not the point of his character like it is to sylva1n's #so consequently its just not something about leos character to. yknow. worry about. #like i said: at most he's just got a case of the teenage boy flirt combined with “whoa strong women exist?” #but the idea that he actually hates women is. laughable lmao. #ricks not capable of writing that kind of protagonist #anyway anon i am SO sorry for this rant. holy shit. #i even threw a fire emblem character into the mix im sorry fksjsks #in my defense you asked me about LEO VALDEZ and also im a sylva1n liker so i have lots of thoughts about misogyny in characters #but yknow apologies are due anyway 🙏 forgive me #ask #thanks for the ask :] #riordanverse #meta

[pluckyredhead]

Hey no problem if you're not into it anymore/it's too much work, but I adore your writing (for DC and daredevil) and you seem to genuinely enjoy and read a lot of comics and have good taste. So I was wondering if you had any recs for daredevil comics? Thanks either way!!

Aw, thank you so much!

I do in fact have Daredevil recs! They are buried somewhere in my Daredevil tag, though, so here they are again, in chronological order:

Start with Frank Miller. I know he sucks as a human being, but this is where Daredevil really becomes the character he is today, so if you're looking for something that resembles the show, this is where to start. Miller started as the artist on the book with #158 (the 1964 series), then took over writing as well with #169, and stayed on the book through #191. This will take you through the introduction and death of Elektra and Matt and Frank's first meeting.

Then skip to Born Again, by Miller and David Mazzucchelli (#227-231). Some people will have you start here, but I think it works better if you've read some earlier DD for context. There's obviously a gap in between when Miller left and when he came back, but that's the Denny O'Neil run it sucks (I'm so sorry, Denny) so I advise skipping it. Born Again admittedly goes off the rails towards the end but the early issues are some of the best Daredevil comics ever (and certainly the most famous), and Mazzucchelli's art is breathtaking.

(Side note: many people will recommend Miller and John Romita, Jr.'s Man Without Fear. I do not. I do not recommend anything by Miller post-Born Again.)

Then jump to Brian Michael Bendis and Alex Maleev, starting with #16 (the 1998 series). Bendis sometimes irks me as a writer and the early 2000s sexism of both writing and art are infuriating, but the slow burn of this story, the characterization, the depiction of Matt in a disaster spiral of his own making that he is refusing to acknowledge...chef's kiss. This is another one where, if you like the show, you should read this run.

This is immediately followed by the Ed Brubaker and Michael Lark run. Only read the first arc, Devil in Cell Block D. It's one of my all-time favorite Daredevil stories. The book goes completely off the rails after that, don't bother.

Then we jump to THE WAID RUN!!! These comics are nothing like the show - they are MUCH lighter in tone - but they are absolute perfection, and actually deal with Matt's depression head-on. Plus, so much of the run is about how much he loves Foggy. And Kirsten!!! THE BEST!!! Also, the art - Paolo Rivera at first and then the incomparable Chris Samnee for the bulk of it - is sublime. You'll want to read the 2011 series in its entirety, followed by the 2014 series (Marvel canceled all of their books and restarted them in 2014 for dumb reasons, it's exactly the same book).

Finally, I've really been enjoying the current run, which started in 2018. Peak Disaster Matt, full marks.

I am a big proponent of reading in order, but if you can only pick one, I say go for Waid/Rivera/Samnee. My favorite Daredevil comics of all time, you will not be disappointed.

#daredevil #comics recs #i have so many asks for recs in my inbox #i'm working on it y'all #this list is just at my fingertips because i've rattled it off so many times

[nightcrawlerzincorporated]

I like to think I know my Sunny lore; but I've seen people say that the roller rink ep creates so many plotholes. You're my local most-knowledgeable-seeming tumblr blog so I'm burdening you with this cause a google search does nothing for me:

What are some of the plotholes?

only thing I can think of is Dee being sweet because its confirmed she was also a bitch in high school. I feel like most of the other things can co-exist! Am I missing something?

I'm so glad you see me as knowledgeable about Sunny lore <3 I rewatched Roller Rink before answering this and this is my reading:

Dee's characterization is definitely the part of the episode that people tend to dislike the most. As you said, it feels off that she's consistently described throughout the show has having been awful since high school (making Cricket eat dog poop, acting superior and snippy towards her only female friend, Ingrid, setting her college roommate on fire, just off the top of my head) but then in Roller Rink she's all sunshine and positive energy. I understand it's meant to be meta commentary on how Dee was originally characterized as "the nice one", but even in season 1 she's only marginally kinder and more self-aware than the guys. Exaggeration can be a great tool in comedy, but the exaggeration of Dee's kindness is so over the top in Roller Rink the commentary gets lost. It feels like it's commenting on a version of Dee that never really existed. If they wanted to comment on the sexism that led to the one woman main character initially being written to be nicer than the men, they should have actually had the guys act sexist towards her, imo. Maybe when Mac makes his "Dee's nuts" joke, instead of having Dee respond "I don't like crude humor" and walk away, they could have had her laugh, then had Mac make fun of her for being "unladylike" for laughing, so she shuts down and lies about not liking crude jokes before walking away. I can so easily imagine a version of this episode where Dee is trying so hard to be "the nice one", be the stereotypical girly-girl (maybe as a persona to keep all the new friends she's finally managed to make), but in the end she can't do it and explodes, revealing her true colors as just as much of an asshole as the rest of the gang. Like why does she become mean after hitting her head as if her personality flaws are all caused by a physical brain condition instead of just revealing that it was always a part of her, just a part she used to try and ignore. They could have even still had her smack her head, only instead of turning mean right away, maybe Charlie lets slip that she hurt herself because he loosened her skates and she goes off on him, too angry to keep the persona. The way it's portrayed as the guys being super nice to her before she hits her head also feels so off--as if the sexist way they treat her is her own fault and if she was just nicer to them they'd be nicer to her. Yuck! I understand it's Mac, Dennis, and Charlie telling the story and that they would want to portray themselves as kind, but they could have at least put in a line from Dee when it cuts back to the present about how they were never that nice to her so it isn't so muddled. They could have done the same basic idea while actually making sense with the lore, been more aligned with what actually happened meta-textually, and shown how constantly saying women are inherently kinder and more moral than men is sexist in of itself and forces women into shallow boxes of banality instead of seeing them as human. But it feels like all that the actual episode is saying is, "Isn't it funny that we initially created this character to be nice and now she's mean lol things sure are different now!" It's so toothless and messy. Sorry for the rant, I ended up having a lot of thoughts about Dee while rewatching!

To get back to plotholes, the other big thing I've seen people talk about is the way Dennis acts around Frank. But to me that part makes more sense. Yes, Frank treated Dennis and Dee cruelly in their childhood and was severely neglectful, but that's the exact reason why I think young-Dennis would try so hard to impress him and be kind to him. Dennis wants desperately to have a good relationship with his father, and he sees Frank letting him come work for him as his chance to win his father's love and approval, so he's overcompensating. I think a lot of people take his line, "I'm starting to think my dad's a bad man" very literally and say "How could he have just realized how bad Frank is after a lifetime of mistreatment?" But it's pretty common for abused kids to justify the way their parents treat them as normal, and it makes sense to me that a (probably extremely triggering) event like Frank having sex right in front of Dennis would push Dennis into accepting the harsh truths he's been trying to ignore about how shitty Frank actually is. Him finally allowing himself to accept that Frank is a shitty dad and a bad person because of an extreme event isn't the same as retconning Frank's past abuse and painting it all as this one incident, as I've seen some people argue. I mean, even Mac, who is all about family, is almost immediately like, "Well, you never have to see him again if you don't want to" when Dennis vaguely says something bad happened, which to me makes it seems like the way Frank treats him is something they've talked about before. And the way Dennis instantly agrees that no-contact is a good idea also makes it seem more like a "straw that broke the camel's back" situation than the show trying to say this is the only bad thing Frank has done to Dennis. And I really like the way it ties together Dennis agreeing to buy the bar with him deciding to go no-contact with Frank. He wanted the bar in the first place to be able to gain independence from Frank and move on from his childhood, only to have Frank show up one day in 2006 and buy the bar out from under him anyway. Oof! I do wish they would have involved Dee in some way, since it's implied in season 2 they were both no-contact with Frank by 2006, but I also think Dee is overall more willing to accept how abusive their parents were than Dennis is, so it makes sense she wouldn't need a big final reason like he does.

I don't think people typically have any issues with the Mac and Charlie bits, plothole wise, at least that I've seen. Watching through I didn't notice anything about them that stuck out to me.

I hope that answered your question! If there's anything I missed that people consider a plothole in the episode, let me know! I love discussing sunny episodes in-depth any chance I get and I love hearing other people's thoughts!

#ask #anonymous #the gang buys a roller rink #iasip #⭐️

[variousqueerthings]

on Hawkeye and Charles and “Going Too Far”

So I remember back in... I want to say season 2 or 3... Hawkeye and Trapper recorded Margaret and Frank without their knowing and broadcast it over the camp -- I can’t remember the exact context, but it was deeply personal (and I believe sexual too), and Margaret was humiliated

and I think that’s the first time we get a clear, canon indication (and not just personal feelings) that sometimes Hawkeye goes too far. We even get the “I was too busy going too far” line

I feel like right now Hawkeye is going... very far. And it’s not necessarily something the show itself is doing (I think) to foreshadow a careening off the cliff type of thing, though I do choose to read it in that direction, because eventually he will, I’m sure....

first we had the episode where he crashes the peace-talks, still wearing his bloodied surgery clothes, as an impulsive reaction to finding out that he won’t be allowed to go home when he thought he would. and he very much doesn’t face any punishment for that (not in the moral sense, but I was really wondering how the military would react to that... interesting that it was treated as a non-issue, and I’ll get back to that in a bit)

and now we’ve had the episode in which Charles goes non-verbal (Charles goes non-verbal!!!!!) because he’s feeling... very very similar feelings to Hawkeye’s in above-mentioned episode. He’s watching his life slip away from him, the life he wanted to lead, in favour of something he never consented to do, in a place he never consented to be in

and when BJ and Hawkeye needle him, because they both -- but honestly I think especially Hawkeye and BJ follows his lead (because when Hawkeye wasn’t there BJ and Charles briefly found some common ground....) -- have a tendency to mark people down as “Good and therefore their feelings are worth respecting” or “Bad and therefore their feelings are not worth respecting”

so when Charles does something that is entirely within his right and totally inoffensive -- goes non-verbal, because he’s done with everything -- they take it as a personal challenge from someone they don’t quite see as Good/A Person, rather than as an expression of someone wishing to have his boundaries respected

and they absolutely go too far. messing with Charles like they do is probably the worst thing either of them has done on the show so far (I think... I’d need to watch back to the first three seasons, because some of the stuff against Margaret was quite nasty -- although the animosity there had a different, deeper flavour to the general “we just don’t get on” happening with Charles, it was still rooted in sexism a lot of the time)

I think the episode places the right with Charles, but it doesn’t quite respect the weight his feelings either -- he’s angry and the episode says “that’s fair, and now you got your own back, the end (until next time),” but if we’re doing some deeper analysis into how it might actually feel for him, I think you can easily read some deep loneliness (he’s disliked by everyone, even though he often does try), alienation (for all some of his stuff is snobbishness, he genuinely doesn’t have much of anything in common with most people here and he gets shut out when he tries to bond with what he’s got to bond with... awkwardly enough maybe he actually does have a lot in common with Hawkeye, but neither of them are ready for that acknowledgement), and overwhelm in a situation he’s completely unequipped for -- and a lot of all of that is so autistic coded, it may as well just be canon (NON VERBAL!???)

and then he’s not even allowed the decency of being left alone

I wonder how this dynamic will continue, because I’m 99% sure that they’ll be friends eventually, and also that this won’t be referred to again, but there definitely is some work that Hawkeye and BJ need to do to meet Charles halfway, because taking away Charles’ “Charles-ness” in order for him to be friends with them would flatten his character... so I’m interested in how that will happen

Charles isn’t Frank Burns. When Hawkeye and BJ mess with him the tone is much nastier, because Charles -- while he’s not always a saint and did a couple of things in season 6 (although I think only early on) -- isn’t actually someone who has any power over them in return, nor does he -- these days -- tend to abuse what power he has. At worst he’s standoffish and cares overly much about rich-people “propriety,” but it’s not actually anything that can do anything to anyone here

also I think this is very in-character for Hawkeye, in the sense that it’s got precedence -- indulging (and not being given any reason to consider the repercussions of) his unhealthier manic impulsiveness, in both of these episodes, is something we’ve seen happen before

and it not being recognised as unhealthy behaviour/in the second example bullying (in the same way as Charles isn’t being recognised on his own terms either) because of the exact opposite (but same) reason to Charles -- “oh that’s just Hawkeye, he’s like that sometimes and then you reel him in again and laugh about it.” Again, not necessarily what the show is intending, but hey, he’s recently been told that he won’t be able to go home, it fits very nicely with how one might expect him to act out

and unfortunately Charles feels like he’s in the crossfires of Hawkeye’s own issues -- makes you wonder who the antagonist is (well, neither of them, but it’s complicated)

#im watching MASH #charles winchester #hawkeye pierce #bj hunnicutt #MASH #we skipped the double-episode and will go back to it because it didn't fit with how we were watching today #dare I say it.... bj is a jock (I think that's actually been a thing from the start but I'm feeling it more in s6+7 than in 4+5) #anyway bj is a jock and that's why I read him as so willing to go along with anything Really Really Stupid #but maybe also.... especially Hawkeye's stupid #i use *manic* very much on purpose with hawkeye because thats how he gets when the mood takes him #and im always thinking about the manic-depressive 'joke' #hawkeye and being fae and being a trickster and being puck and being neurodivergent.... should write something about that

[jjelly-donutzz]

Never Let It Be Said That Figuring Out Your Gender Identity Was a Picnic

TW for brief mention of CSA. sexism, high-control religion/cult mention

I saw and reblogged a comment on Twitter/X about a week or so back that said: "reclaiming your femininity for yourself and not for others after being raised in a traditional household." And the more I think about it, the more I realize about myself.

I thought I was comfortable as "Frank", and I do still feel somewhat comfortable as Frank, but I think I feel more comfortable as a "Sage" or a "Julie" or a "Nina". I think I'd so convinced myself that I hated being feminine due to my upbringing as an AFAB Jehovah's Witness (which is notoriously sexist, among other things), that I felt more comfortable presenting more masculinely and thought I was more of a man.

And I think I realized why. Again, I was born and raised as a Jehovah's Witness. It's a pretty sexist environment, and it's a close-minded environment, which makes it fucking shocking that I (foolishly) took the holy dunk, and they let me considering how outspoken I can be (sometimes. Frankly, I can also be a complete fucking coward too, but that's a story for another time.) Anyway, women can't have positions of power in the organization, they can't be an elder or a circuit overseer. No, the three things that they can be are a preacher (door-to-door proselytizing), a wife, and/or a baby-maker. Even if the sisters' achievements and courage outshined the men, the men would still take the spotlight while the ladies got second thanks, or no thanks at all.

And I think that's why I identified so strongly as a masculine-presenting person. I felt like no one could take me seriously, but I guess I thought that, if I were a man, people would take me more seriously. But that brings me to another realization: who does take me seriously? People outside the organization, of course!! They don't think I'm a total numpty.

Who doesn't take me seriously? The organization. Hell, they did nothing when I was SA'ed as a child by one of the elders in the congregation thanks to their stupid two-witness rule.

Truth be told, I think I do like being feminine, but I don't like what it entails when I'm in the organization. I threw out all of my skirts and dresses to donate later because I don't like them. Most of them were for going to the meetings/attending on Zoom (but on Zoom, no one has to know that you're actually wearing pants, or no pants at all XD), and the other stuff Mom bought me was because she was living vicariously through me because, as she said to me when we were talking about the stuff I was throwing out, I'm younger and prettier and thinner than her and she wanted me to wear the things she wanted to wear but can't because she's heavyset, even if it fucked with my mental health and I hated it. This is nothing against my mother, though. Low self-esteem is a bitch, and she at least acknowledged that what she did was fucked up and apologized for it, and she's more or less accepting of my journey to reclaim my femininity (though she doesn't know that it's also a part of my journey to leave the Jehovah's Witnesses).

I think a lot of my gender identity was tied to what I hated about the organization and myself, but now that I'm taking steps to leave the Jehovah's Witnesses, I'm properly able to think about myself, who I am, what I want to be.

I will always find comfort in the fact that I found comfort being Frank for a time, but I think it's time to put him in the backseat in favor of my true self: Julie (yes, I named myself after two of my favorite characters from the Welcome Home project, hahaha). I want to be more comfortable with myself. I want to find out what makes me comfortable, what makes me happy, what makes me, well, Julie, and I want to discard who I was when I was a Jehovah's Witness, or rather, who I made myself as when I was with them because of what they wanted me to be.

It's going to take some time, both to figure myself out and to leave, but once I do, I'm sure I'll be a lot more happy, more confident, and that I'll find it in my heart to love myself and the world more instead of living in fear.

#lgbtqia #lgbt pride #agender #genderfluid #gender confusion #christian faith #closeted #questioning #trans man #afab problems #genderqueer #pimo #physically in mentally out #jehovah's witnesses #jw #demigirl

[princesssarisa]

Character ask: Theodore "Laurie" Laurence (Little Women)

Tagged by anonymous

Favorite thing about them: His fundamental goodness and likability. He's warm, caring, and devoted, first as a friend and ultimately as a husband and father too, and he's lively, fun-loving, artistic, and enjoyable to be with. It's no wonder that he's been the first literary crush of countless young girls over the years. Personally, I also find his flaws and mistakes relatable and his coming-of-age arc engaging. I'm sure other readers, both male and female, would feel the same way if they would stop reducing him to "the dreamy boy next door."

Least favorite thing about them: His immaturity throughout so much of the story: the way he pranks Meg with fake love letters, his unwillingness to go to college and the trouble he constantly gets into while there, his moments of casual boyish sexism regarding girls who aren't the Marches, and of course, his passionate yet childish marriage proposal to Jo and his "you'll be sorry" attitude and months of sulking after she refuses. Fortunately, he matures by the end.

Three things I have in common with them:

*I'm fun-loving.

*I can be overemotional and lazy.

*I love music.

Three things I don't have in common with them:

*I'm not good at composing music – I've tried, but I don't just lack genius, I lack talent.

*I don't play pranks.

*I'm female.

Favorite line:

From his conversation with Jo after he comes home from Europe, when she talks about being lonely:

“You never shall be again. Amy and I can’t get on without you, so you must come and teach ‘the children’ to keep house, and go halves in everything, just as we used to do, and let us pet you, and all be blissfully happy and friendly together.”

brOTP: The whole March family, but especially Jo.

OTP: Amy.

nOTP: Jo; I love them as friends, but they wouldn't have worked as a couple.

Random headcanon: Mr. Laurence's late granddaughter was Laurie's sister, not a cousin. She was his older sister, who died only a few years after they came to live with their grandfather, and Laurie was too little at the time to remember her very well anymore. But having lost her is partly why he latches on to the March girls as surrogate sisters, just like the loss of his parents makes him latch on to Marmee as a surrogate mother.

Unpopular opinion: He's just as dimensional and well-developed a character as the March sisters and he goes through just as much personal growth as they do. To reduce him to his role as a love interest and to treat him as just a prize for the most "deserving" March sister to win does an enormous disservice both to the sisters and to him.

Song I associate with them: His introductory song from the 2005 musical, "Take a Chance on Me" (not to be confused with the ABBA song of the same name).

Favorite pictures of them:

These illustrations by Frank T. Merrill.

These illustrations by Jessie Wilcox Smith.

Douglass Montgomery in the 1933 film.

Christian Bale in the 1994 film.

Jonah Hauer-King in the 2017 miniseries:

Timothée Chalamet in the 2019 film:

@littlewomenchannel

#character ask #little women #laurie laurence #ask game #fictional characters #louisa may alcott #fictional character ask

[sarahreadstoomanycomics]

Now onto the what many consider the Unholy Grail of Bad DC….thoughts on All Star Batman and Robin by Frank Miller? Are there things you might give a pass about it (like say Jim Lee’s artwork) or even said things you can pass aren’t enough to redeem it at all?

Honestly don't get mad I know this is a lot of people's most hated DC comic but for me it also falls into the so awful it's hilarious category. Like Batman Odyssey I couldn't believe the things that were actually being written and Frank Miller's dialogue in it is so bad the way his Batman talked I just couldn't. I am not forgiving any of the atrocious writing it like the sexism or Bruce clearly just kidnapping and abusing Dick. I just honestly was laughing when reading it. Also it shouldn't even be called All Star Batman and Robin it should be called crazy man kidnaps and abuses a child while he has the pettiest of conflicts with other superheroes. But yes the Jim Lee art is gorgeous like this is still one of my favorite panels of Dick ever drawn but it's unfortunately from that series.

#honestly why i didn't include it in my post #cause it falls into the omg i cannot believe this is actually a comic that exists category for me #who approved this and why #but if it's anyone's most hated comic i totally get it and i think other than the artwork is all but irredeemable writing wise