#though it was completely unintentionally

[randomminty]

Just a buncha cynthias

#some of these look out of character but eh #pokemon #art tag #champion cynthia #i draw cynthia so much shes so fun to draw. illl never know how her hair works that wont stop me #ive started watching a bunch of the pokemon anime even though i never liked it before. MAN i was missing out #i mostly just tuned in to see it butched my fav characters but thats the completely wrong mindset to watch it in #ive been watching as somewhat separate to the games and its so much fun #and the dub…… its good but so unintentionally funny #i didnt care abt alain but after seeing him go MEGA EVAAAOLVE like 5 times in the mega special i adore him #if i dont see miarin in the anime again ill cry i miss her #last thing about the anime for now i forgot they kept lances old va for journeys #im used to his pokemas and generations voice which is p different so that was funny. leons journeys va is so good too #ANYWAYS CYNTHIA. cried when i saw her again in journeys. shes so cool

[crimeronan]

one thing about me is that there will always be a very sad guy who's doomed by the narrative & there will always be the familial polycule or whatever so desperately trying to save them & the family n polycule's actions will always have world-rending consequences which either make things better or worse depending on where my mental health is at during the time of writing. this is something you must understand about every heart project i have ever worked on or become attached to since the dawn of time.

#gansey. hennessy. luz. hunter. psii. sollux. signless. darius's mentor. devin. I Love My Doomed Guys. #If They Arent Doomed Enough In Their Canon I Will AU Them Into Misery My Damn Self #every novel-length project i've ever completed has unintentionally had the same formula #there are four guys. one is dying faster than the others who are also dying. #you gotta save the splintering wreck of a person. you can't save them in a way that matters. you still have to try. #the original fiction quartet. wwaitsoatl. princess luz AU. soulmate verse. trc vampire AU. bota. toag. and so on. #the princess AU is arguably an outlier bc it's two (or three counting amity) core cast members #and then the fourth guy is belos or raine or camila or somebody else depending on the installation. #everything else though. Four Guys. Four Guys Whose Lives Are In The Shitter Forever. Or Something #four is all you need!! to get a really really really fucked up story going!!

[rivalkieran]

pondering what pokemon I want florian to trade to kieran…

#solis.txt #Ive seen alot of ppl do another applin or luvdisc bc. yeah. but I dont think florian would have the awareness to even think about doing #something like that. she’d probably do something even gayer completely unintentionally though #(florian voice) Sorry for holding off the trade for so long I had to go analyze your current team and battle style so I could pick out #-a perfect new team member and took the time to find one with optimal ivs and nature ^_^ haha

[unusualshrimp]

hmm gender thoughts

#the people who made pronouns page have another website right #and one of the options there is you can pin your gender on a gradient that goes hypermasculine -> androgynous -> hyperfeminine #and it's like a linear gradient and i hate that SO MUCH. this is hostile architecture for Me Specifically #[disclaimer that if you find that type of thing helpful that's completely fine] #but anyway my gender is like. im a guy but not in a trans guy way #and im a girl but NOT in a cis girl way and i call myself girl in my head a lot but i am a bit Sensitive about how other people use it? #and im always thinking too hard about ''are they acknowledging my 5D chess gender or subconsciously saying it because of my appearance'' #if someone called me androgynous or whatever im stabbing them though. idk that just feels so... gender neutral? and im not gender neutral #do ya feel me. #i feel a bit silly typing all this but ah this is the transgender website i think u all would understand me #im a guy like. you know the weird guy who shows up overdressed to casual events but he looks nice so its fine really #and also like. guy who always wears black and looks cool [the cool might just be in my head but thats fine] #and. i might have to think harder abt how i feel regarding Girl ™. i dont want to discard it because i do love doing my own thing with it #but also like being perceived as a cis girl (intentionally or unintentionally) makes me want to jump out of my body. lol. anyway #this is all so sucks honestly my favourite gender is just creature. #you see a thing so weird you just go '' oh god what is that'' and not gender. although i do like the flavour of it/its that is so niceys... #like yeas i want to be a scary looking thing (unattainable) but also.... what if i was jus a lil creature. #and i sat at your door and made 🥺 faces until u let me in and then i sat cosy near your fireplace for a bit... thatd be nice #i dont want to worry about gender anymore i want headpats....................... #oh jesus uhh #long post #<- for the tags

[coiled-dragon]

That feel when a creative block has been smashed to pieces like you can feel it literally crumble.......

GOD WHAT A FEELING

#shout out to my datemate who said something so simple that completely derailed my negativity hyperfocus #I was so hellbent on this One negative idea and I unintentionally let it consume me... #Its wild how it happens #no one even told me that I was doing something wrong #My brain just. Decided it was #until someone was like 'but youre not though'

[chiropteracupola]

new treasure island fic new treasure island fic (read it here)

#em writes stuff #treasure island #doctor livesey #squire trelawney #tried to do this one as a speedwriting challenge and Couldn't #then immediately after finishing this ended up doing it successfully and completely unintentionally on some other thing #Anyway. sliding this out into the world even though I'm still ambivalent about it. #I do like writing little bits of cuteness and seasonality for these two even if I do wish I had it in me at the moment to give them more #maybe the difference here is that their partnership is never up to the turn of the narrative in the way it is for the other usual suspects #...and okay yeah the selkie au's got a bit more of a plot to it I'm just still figuring out What that plot is #Someone Is Nattering On Again! instead of continuing I shall simply direct you to Click The Link :]

[angorwhosebabyisthis]

wiggles at Things What There Are to Reblog When My Brain Allows Me to Route My Mental Energy in That Direction

#whosebaby talks #my brain has been laser focused on Specific Subjects to devote all its computing power to and complete crickets on near everything else #but By God the Time Approaches #in the meantime i've just been a combination of navel-gazing and dissecting Setrákus What the Hell is Wrong With--Oh Oof. Still Though #LL has a lot of issues with derailing and replacing characters' personalities and where they realistically built from #but setrákus is fascinating because he has VERY strong continuity of character right from the start of what we see of his life #the writers did a really REALLY good job of 'he was such a shy quiet boy what happened for him to end up this way' #probably to some degree unintentionally; but it has a massive *amount* of intentionality to it #compared to a lot of others; at least it vibes that way to me #it helps that like clockwork almost every single fucked up thing he does and builds his life around #is a combination of trying to process his issues by retraumatizing himself #and directly replicating what happened or was done to him or what he thought was wrong; while trying to rebel by doing the Exact Opposite #the things he says and does are all *incredibly* revealing once you know the basic patterns to look for #it's refreshing and really fascinating to take apart #anyway yeah my brain has been pretty much entirely fixated on that or philosophy stuff or recovering from back injury stuff lmao #LL tag

[shayneysides]

🫵🏾 DEAR EVAN HANSEN ENJOYER 🫵🏾

NOOOO NOOOOO NO NO I PROMISE THAT WAS JUST FROM 7TH GRADE I PROMISE.....!!!!!!!

that was the year i had to sing dear evan hansen songs in my school choir. it was a dark time

#i did watch the movie though. greatest movie of all time. genuinely hilarious. completely unintentionally but so so funny

[seilon]

still absolutely reeling from the fact that I unintentionally tricked another trans guy into thinking I was cis, like totally threw him off my trail, literally just by having the name kevin. because why the fuck would anyone name themselves kevin on purpose

#kibumblabs #that’s SO FUCKING FUNNY #like I LEGIT. BAMBOOZLED HIM #i have completely unintentionally come up with the most genius trans stealth strategy possible #though in all honesty it is pretty wild to me that apparently I pass that well regardless either way #like including my voice and all #it was both a hilarious moment and a flattering one #also. look it’s. It’s a long story why my name is kevin okay it’s from 8th grade don’t question it leave me alone #if I could change it I would have but now that’s what I’m known as so I’m in too deep #though now it’s been somewhat redeemed I guess by. this

[causalitylinked]

^ My face upon realizing Ryuto Tsukishima is actually an autistic-coded character after re-watching his character episodes and with how I portray him, it actually makes a whole lot of sense for him to be neurodivergent... especially when I re-read his interactions with Rae’s Sonia. Plus, he’s canonically called a ‘savant’ and I have unknowingly written instances where he was able to effortlessly ‘mask’ ( aka act in ways others might consider “normal” in order to be accepted by them ).

Also, come to think of it, the reason I feel so strongly about Ryuto being more understanding/kinder to neurodivergent people is likely because he happens to be autistic himself...

#█ ▓『 ✦ ⸂ •• OUT OF SPOONS — ⧼ livi please shut up. ⧽ 』 #┕━ ❛ ❀. muse »» ʀʏᴜᴛᴏ ᴛꜱᴜᴋɪꜱʜɪᴍᴀ〡𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗿𝗲 𝗶𝘀𝗻'𝘁 𝗮𝗻𝘆𝗼𝗻𝗲 𝗺𝗼𝗿𝗲 𝗰𝗮𝗽𝗮𝗯𝗹𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝗻 𝗶. #┕━ ❛ ❀. about »» ʀʏᴜᴛᴏ〡𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗱𝘂𝘁𝘆 𝗼𝗳 𝗹𝗲𝗮𝗱𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗹𝗲𝘀𝘀 𝗽𝗿𝗶𝘃𝗶𝗹𝗲𝗴𝗲𝗱 𝗳𝗮𝗹𝗹𝘀 𝗼𝗻 𝗺𝗲. #┕━ ❛ ❀. headcanons »» ʀʏᴜᴛᴏ〡𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘀𝗵𝗼𝘂𝗹𝗱 𝗰𝗼𝗻𝘀𝗶𝗱𝗲𝗿 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿𝘀𝗲𝗹𝘃𝗲𝘀 𝗳𝗼𝗿𝘁𝘂𝗻𝗮𝘁𝗲 𝘁𝗼 𝗵𝗮𝘃𝗲 𝗺𝗲. #[ IT ALL MAKES COMPLETE SENSE TO ME NOW ] #[ like... his bluntless?? his lack of bad intentions? and his difficulty to get along with other people despite wanting ] #[ to better communicate with them? ] #[ not to mention his introversion/hatred of being the center of attention? ] #[ ALL THIS TIME... i have written yet another autistic character ] #[ COMPLETELY UNINTENTIONALLY TOO ] #[ and now my mind is completely blown ] #[ interestingly enough though i don't think others would notice he is autistic ] #[ because he doesn't really fit what society would think of when they envision a man on the spectrum ] #[ because ryuto isn't low functioning is physically appealing and is more likely to help others than be helped himself ] #[ why the more i think about it ] #[ the more ryuto being sensitive to noises/attention becomes feasible to me FOR IT WOULD EXPLAIN WHY HE WAS SO UNWILLING TO ENTER ] #[ THAT ITALIAN RESTAURANT WITH SONIA ] #[ and made kobato essentially pick up the food ] #[ what's more... she has trouble understanding ryuto too ] #[ SO I CAN'T UNSEE THIS EPIPHANY ]

[loverlylight]

My worrying about my unintended weight loss vs my realizing it's 5 in the evening and I haven't eaten anything all day fight

#my mind is an odd place #honestly though I've lost like 15 pounds in two months completely unintentionally #and part of me is like hm. probably related to how stressed I am. wanna keep an eye on that #and the other part of me is like I am remembering why I put on weight to help deal with my dysphoria #anyway it's not my fault I've been nauseous all day #I've managed to eat a little bit and it's okay so far so that's good

[datastate]

how do i write the fact that mr. chidouin is enabling kai’s self-destructive tendencies/the pedestal he places the chidouins on when mr. chidouin isn’t there (i could’ve written the manipulation outright even if kai didn’t recognize it in his own dialogue) and the fic is from kai’s pov (where he thinks of them as no less than his salvation and for the longest time didn’t notice it because he was too taken aback by the fact he was offered kindness and compassion at all in the first place...)

#like i think. i've done okay. but i just really do want to hammer home that even though kai thinks highly of them #and although mr. chidouin does have moments where he is genuinely kind/fond of kai. that kai is being emotionally manipulated ! #a normal person would not reaffirm your fears that you're too encased in ''sin'' (which is initially an asunaro concept #embedded in his mindset and a primary source of his conflict when he first is assigned to the chidouins) #they would be careful. sure. but they wouldn't completely bar you from interacting with the family in a normal way... #just. he orchestrates the whole thing where kai is unintentionally harming sara because he wasn't offered an alternative #or he was - but there was subtle pressure kai didn't recognize as intentional to not take it because he'd hurt her #alongside asunaro's eye and all it's just....ugh. it's so convoluted. #i know how it works in my mind from an objective and personal standpoint but it's so hard to get across #that someone is being abused when they themselves are 1) being treated better than they initially were #& 2) they cannot recognize abuse because regardless of any genuine love that was present prior #they haven't been offered a stable environment to actually recognize that this still is Off.... #explodes. i'm rambling. hello. how is your day #i'll figure this out before i post the fic ofc but -_-;; #jestersvaguely #yttdposting #abuse mention #father abuse mention

[homunculus-argument]

If you know anyone who seems really chill to the point of being virtually indestructible, like nothing could ever bother them in any way, could get hit by a train and just shake it off and be totally fine, laughing it off as soon as they've dusted themselves off and stopped bleeding, but who occasionally just randomly falls apart to complete fucking smithereens with seemingly no cause nor warning, only to get back up again a few minutes/hours/days later like "ok yeah I'm fine again that was weird lmao", and you've ever wondered what the fuck is up with that:

They are actually not ok and most likely are not ok at any point. The whole "hardiest person you know who just collapses randomly sometimes" thing isn't a deliberately constructed façade, as a matter of fact it might be something that they actually personally believe themselves to be. But in reality this is somebody who's either unintentionally learned or has been deliberately trained to hide negative emotions and mask symptoms at all costs, as the #1 priority that goes over any other survival needs.

So even though it may look like they go from 1 to 100 completely at random and unpredictably, and then swing right back again to being totally fine, you have no way of knowing how long they've been at 95% before the last line of defense broke down and the system collapsed. And once they flip back up, odds are that they just managed to scrape their shit back together again just enough to get their backup masking systems running. The "check engine" light never turned on because the wire was clipped years ago.

If this is you, this is your callout to seek some sort of help. I'm telling on everyone in this room including myself.

[owlphibiansprite]

i am so obsessed with that part in the miraculous theme song / episode intro where the singer representing ladybug & the singer representing chat noir sing "lady du coeur" at the same time, THAT HARMONY breaks my heart in the strangest way possible every time i hear it and i think that half second is a huge reason why i'm obsessed with miraculous ladybug for some odd reason (even though i started watching it ironically).

but in the most recent season it got removed from the episode intro :(

#i think i have so much to say on this series actually #like i literally don't really understand why i'm so obsessed with it #even though it's kind of awkward & strange at times #and like that weird intro with the badly edited background that stayed the same for all the seasons is so so so endearing to me #maybe it's because it's one of the only few things i don't watch in english? (as in without english subtitles cuz like if i am #if i am watching something in a language i don't understand with english subtitles (they're mostly english because out of the languages i #speak english uses the least words usually) then i am ultimately watching it “in english” because my perception of what the characters #are saying and the translated puns and jokes is filtered into my brain via english even if f.e. i would understand certain things in #japanese it'd still be mostly morphed into english in my head) #ANYWAYS #(u can tell i am very unintentionally high lol) #i actually started watching miraculous because i thought the adrien/marinette thing would be resolved within a few episodes and #i kind of just wanted to see how they would react to discovering each others' identities yet LO AND BEHOLD here we are five seasons #later... #and i accidentally fell in love with the series while waiting for the “inevitable” to happen #probably a smart business move from the creatives #man i really don't know why i am so obsessed with them #maybe it's because it feels far away from my reality since i was watching the french version of some obscure shady website #actually does anyone have a chronological complete list of all the series/movies miraculous has? like an overview of the miraculous cinemat #c universe? #i might make a separate post for that #so anyways goobye for now #if you are still here reading my tags i'd like to bid you a good night but also what the hell are you still doing here inside my head #shoo - go drink some water and give yourself a nice pat on the shoulder for making it this far #not like this far in my post tags but this far in life #wherever you are you deserve a nice pat on the shoulder for staying alive and being alive and surviving this horrible world #except if you're nazi scum in which case i sincerely hope you sternly reflect your life #you do not get a pat on the shoulder because this horrible world is definitely not made any less horrible by your beliefs #anyways what was i talking about? #anyone else felt elated at that solarpunk ending of season 5???? (wait was it s5 or s6)

[thatevilenby]

Why do so many people refuse to be normal about queer people who are attracted to men? The sheer amount of times I've expressed attraction to men only to be met with shit like "oh so you're a masochist" like do you think that's cute? It's just fuckin homophobia and it's even worse when it comes from other queer people.

Attraction to men is not painful, it's not suffering. And I refuse to be shamed into hiding my attraction by a community where I was told I'd be accepted for it.

#completely unrelated to my normal yakuza posting #cw homophobia #there's plenty of reasons to have complicated feelings about your attraction to men and yes a lot of men are shitty #but guess what? that doesn't give you the right to go after other queer people who are attracted to men and who want to show others that yo #can just like men without it being a big deal and without it being this complicated painful thing #though in addition its also worth noting how your expressing this disgust about the people you're attracted to can hurt other queer people #even unintentionally

[ooccoo]

Oh no the book from the perspective of an annoying teenager has prose written in the voice of an annoying teenager

#i guess its annoying. its not unintentionally annoying though #htn has a completely different voice bc its from the perspective of a different character #this is a positive thing lol