#though also relieved

[kasiobite03]

the empty frame in bobbys castle tower is a metaphor for jaiden and roiers family. they shared a house a bed items son, roier showed her his basement, melissa, his betrayal scars, and his home that was meant to be a community house. and jaiden couldnt fully believe she wasnt taking too much when it was her house! it was her base too! she moved out of the home she was building to move in with roier but she still felt like an intruder to her own home! she saw it as a temporary home for until she could move out and build her own base. but she still cared for and accepted every part of roier. and roier loved jaiden back too! when they died in that airship, he cleared out the dungeon and gave jaiden armor and spirit orbs and when jaiden accepted his anger and blame it just fizzled out. jaiden understands. so then roier left a empty frame at the bottom of the tower for jaiden to fill whenever she came back and they laughed and joked while tucking bobby in and jaiden said i bet you a hundred million dollars we'll see bobby tomorrow and roier said are you sure and it was a joke and then tomorrow came and jaiden was an hour too late. and then roier joked and laughed and when jaiden came and he had to break the news he couldn't anymore. because with jaiden roier can let down the jokes and with roier jaiden can be sure he has her back and support and when jaiden fell off the edge roier jumped down to join her before she could even say anything and they had pvp lessons together and a heart to heart as the sun rised and in the end the community house lays abandoned and bobby fields is filled with copies of the best day they had together and the attic is never looked at again and the top floor of bobbys tower isnt either.

#o'-|-< #im missing some things and my words are toomany but JAIDEENNNNNROIERERRRR AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #I dont want to write it like Oh jaiden has to do all the emotional work for ro because shes a girl that NOT their dynamic at all. #i dont know how to write my feelings about jaiden and roier. but this is close enough #bc they were both so lonely youknow? and for a long time j felt like she had only ro and a few acquaintances #it wasnt until after bobby died that she opened up to the rest of the server and even then she faced some issues #(all cubito btw all rol. incase that wasnt clear :P) #and like with ro he only showed his true basement to those he trusted. which was j bobby and eventually cb. #and he showed melissa to his friends but the ones who reacted positively were j who hyped her up and cb who also hyped her up even though s #he doesnt actually know yet lol #they looked for ingridents for absurd amount of time... j was so confident in ro she was so relieved when he appeared with sl attacked #and the rose fields. the best day on the server for jaiden was adventuring with bobby and roier and taking pictures with gifts. #and they both loved her so much. remember how bobby caught every hummingbird around bc j said she liked them #the pizzas in the cabin #Im so chill. :D #kb.jaiden #kb.roier

[chiprewington]

i'm in my "i want to hold him" phase

#toontown #corporate clash #corporateclash #chip revvington #toontowncorporateclash #toontown corporate clash #ttcc #chainsaw consultant #perry winkles #my art #<- putting that there because edited models #selfship bullshit yet again #perry is WAY too small to properly hold him. can barely even fit eir arms around his shoulders. ey dont care. #i need to talk more in-depth about these two though i just keep posting the sappy stuff #the sappy stuff is good but i need to talk about the whole qpr slowburn eventually!!!!!! #but also. but also. chip as a giant ~9000lb 11ft 7in steel machine needs to be held so gently and told everything's okay and he's safe and- #relieve him at least slightly of the dark cloud hanging over his mind. #let him feel relief told in a heavy sigh expelled from his neck vents. #he's in control and that's what's important. #he'd probably chuckle to himself. how did he get here with a critter of all things? #and yet he still sits there feeling comforted and loved #god i want to hear him chuckle. it'd be such a deep and bassy sound. it'd be adorable. #idk. something something roger and jessica but traumatized that's my favorite summary of these two #🍒

[designernishiki]

kiryu sitting haruka down for a really important talk and looking nervous but deeply serious about it and when he finally speaks he gives an honest and vulnerable admission that upon much self reflection, as unlikely as it may seem, as shocking as it may come, he is, in fact, gay, and he hopes this doesn’t make her feel any distress or discomfort in-part due to the implication that he likely didn’t have romantic feelings for her mom, he did care very very much for her regardless of labels, and so on and so on. and she lets him give this lengthy emotional confession that goes on for like twenty minutes before he finally goes dead silent anxiously anticipating her response. and she’s just like. uncle kaz I really appreciate you opening up to me like this and I’m really proud of you for accepting yourself for who you are. but me and every other kid at morning glory figured this out like 10 years ago

#he’s shaking he’s on the verge of tears and she’s just sitting there like. should I act shocked? this clearly means so much to him but #i feel like saying ‘uncle kaz. its not that subtle. you were a bachelor taking care of a bunch of adoptive kids with no interest #in women whatsoever for years. i already know. most people close to you already suspected.’ is a bit anticlimactic #I think about this a lot #cause realistically she would probably be the first person to open up to about it #unless he miraculously put together through Obvious Context Clues that daigo and mine were a Thing (probably YEARS after the fact though) #and then went and asked daigo about it. which would be hilariously awkward and id pay money to see it #he’s so bad at reading the room and like. getting social cues. I feel like he’d finally get a moment where he’s alone with daigo in his #office and would strike right as daigo’s about to make casual conversation like #‘so how have you b–‘ ‘daigo-san do you like men’ #with his typical stoic intense look on his face. poor daigo that’d be mildly terrifying. also the funniest thing he could possibly do #kiryu #haruka #rambling #kazuma kiryu #haruka sawamura #yakuza #amusing follow-up to the initial idea with haruka. he eventually calms down and is relieved and whatnot and says to her kinda casually #‘I’m not sure if I’m ready to tell anyone else. except maybe majima. I’ve been able to trust him for decades with just about anything and I #know he’d never be judgmental–‘ and haruka’s sitting there like. oh god do I have to tell him. someone’s gotta tell him.

[ante--meridiem]

To socialise or not to socialise, that is the question.

#Looked at two places I could move out to & they are complete opposite vibes in terms of socialableness #Both have roommates ofc but one gives me a lot more of my own space & it seems like I would barely have to interact with them at all #So I'd be left pretty much completely alone. Which is usually the dream #And ngl knowing the other people there would keep to themselves & have no interest in knowing me is especially relieving #Given the whole thing that pushed me to move out in the first place #The other has extremely small & cozy vibes. Owner's stuff all over the place #By cozy I do mean cluttered #The girl I met with there (not the person I'd be renting from) gave me a tour for five-ten mins #And then the next 30 mins-60 mins we spent chatting over tea #Someone more sociable than me might call it instant bestie vibes #Which. Has been something I've kind of very much been missing/yearning for irl I will admit #& from the sound of it the person subletting has the same vibes with her #She says he's 'interesting' and 'I'd like him' #From the combination of her description and the clutter I'm getting eccentric professor vibes #Which is generally a good vibe to me #But I am even more skittish of renting from someone t #Too sociable #After prev landlord #Though I want to trust othet tenant's vibe check. Because it might actually be very nice to have some kind of real life friends #It's also a very different kind of sociable than prev landlord #She was 'chatty and gets you to open up easily' sociable & it sounds like the other guy will be approximately the same #& also 'repeatedly assures you can ask her to stop if she's being too much' sociable. Which is always a relief #Meanwhile prev landlord was 'wants to know why you're not relaxed & tells you you should be without doing anything to help you be' sociable #'gets very pushy about finding time to talk/hang out' sociable #'teases you for being awkward' sociable #None of which were the real issue with him of course. But they didn't help & I can't help but see them as red flags in retrospect #I'm currently leaning towards 'to socialise' because it was a very cosy vibe & I do feel starved of irl friendship just a bit #But it could either be very good or very bad #& I don't want to risk very bad again #Anyway. This has been missives from a pizza shop I ducked into to charge my phone before I go back to being lost in a snowstorm

[thecedarchronicle]

I played through the new beginning of the game and I have to say it's much better than I was afraid it was going to be. I like the angle of MC first discovering another side of Jorvik through the Moon Circle, it feels like a good introduction. Especially since it happens right after you create the first connection with the canonical soul steed!

Except - what's the deal with seeing the Soul Riders right out the gate? I understand wanting to introduce your new players to the main characters as soon as possible, and maybe I am put off since I'm already familiar with them, but it just seems way off. Why is Lisa taking complete beginner classes at Moorland when she's already learning under Herman at Jorvik Stables? Why are all five of them so keen on befriending this random kid? I'm glad they didn't introduce more NPCs to immediately abandon but it doesn't feel like the right fit. Also, am I missing something? Why is Maya the instructor? Isn't she a stable girl trying to save up to start taking riding classes?

I'll be clear I don't want this to sound like I'm bashing on SSE. I really really like the new start of the game. I think it's a much gentler introduction and in general a way better tutorial. I actually feel like I know why the MC is here and what's going on, and as a result immediately feel way more grounded in the story. I just think their choice of characters did them a disservice.

I'm no professional writer, but I think it would have been really cool if Maya was the student learning with us. She could even be the person sharing the cabin with MC. Give MC and Maya a chance to bond as the "newbies" and become friends during the first day, and you immediately have a good reason as to why the MC would be invited into the Soul Riders' group.

Maybe the next day, after having a strange dream, Alex comes and visits Maya, and when you approach them to start the day, you overhear snippets of the conversation they didn't really intend for you to hear --- something about Dark Riders following Anne to France, and hopefully she's safe, or that Lisa just got back from tour, but she's not responding to any of Alex or Lisa's texts, asking Maya maybe Lisa's done with all the magic and danger?

Or maybe MC mentions something they see in their dream that Maya recognizes. MC overhears Maya mentioning it to Alex and realizes these two girls know way more than they let on, and later MC follows them to eavesdrop and gets the drop on the two of them + Linda saying some really incriminating stuff about the druids and Aideen, and once they realize MC is there, they finally give an explanation. It would give MC some more agency in the story, too. Instead of being told to "go here with me and you'll be given answers" MC decides to explore the underbelly of this place themselves.

Although. A really cool thing. Would be if you advanced along the main story to get to the druids and they admit to you that Fripp or whoever sensed a huge energy shift and realized someone of huge power had arrived on the island, and you find out that the entire first couple of days on Jorvik all five of them were just doing this huge undercover operation on you to figure out what your deal was. Because if I was a new player and wasn't familiar with SSO's brand of storytelling I would have been so suspicious of them the entire time.

#sorry for the long post i had a few thoughts #all in all i really like it though! #i was worried over the pictures i saw of the dream sequence but i am relieved it was a dream and not like. the apocalypse happening #it was a really sick sequence too #SSE really really outdid themselves #and erissa's idles look SO cool! #also seeing justin + anne without her scars was so cute #ssoblr #star stable

[deathtodickens]

Pete: Shameful.

Helena: Say another word, Peter.

Pete: I have four for you: Full. Of. Shame. Wait...

Helena: Everyday he finds new and exciting ways to annoy me.

Myka: I told you to think long and hard about it before you ever came back.

Helena: Let's just say I had my reason and leave it at that.

Pete, laughing: Long and hard.

Claudia: Can we not encourage him so early in the morning. I'd like to be able to keep my breakfast down today.

Pete: H.G. is the one who keeps setting her room on fire, like we don't already know she never sleeps in there anyway.

Myka: Whatever you think you know, you don't.

Pete: Mykes, even if the walls weren't as thin as they are, you have broken the Univille noise ordinance every single night since that woman has been back.

Abigail appears.

Myka: I swear to god, Pete.

Steve: Every single night.

Claudia: The walls are so very thin.

Abigail: And the warehouse echoes.

Abigail pats Myka's and Helena's heads, then reaches for a bagel.

Myka: Abigail!

Abigail: What? I thought we were sharing.

Myka: Helena?

Helena: I take it as quite the compliment, actually.

Helena proudly sips her coffee.

Myka: Oh my god. Goodbye to all of you and especially you, person who is definitely not sleeping in my room tonight.

Myka leaves, glaring at Helena.

Helena: What did I do?

Abigail sits in Myka's chair.

Pete: Think you burned your room down a little too soon this time.

Abigail: Nonsense. She just did it for the chase.

Everyone looks at Helena.

Abigail: Are you not going to chase her?

Helena: As though I am some desperate scoundrel who so longs for intimacy that I'd allow myself to be lured in by acts of emotional manipulation?

Claudia: Right, no. Of course not. You? Hah!

Steve: That's definitely not a lie. Sarcasm font.

Claudia: Don't say sarcasm font.

Steve: Why not? It's funny.

Claudia: We all know it's sarcasm.

Abigail: Your loss, boss.

Pete: Shameful.

Everyone goes back to what they were doing.

Helena taps her fingers against the wood of the table nervously.

Helena: For the record.

Helena stands.

Helena: I dislike all of you.

Helena leaves.

Steve: She was definitely not lying that time.

Claudia: Ah, she'll get over it as soon as she sees Myka's gorgeous greens.

Abigail: If anybody's curious to know, the floor here is also thin.

Pete: Swabs in, ma'boys.

Everyone reaches into their pockets and pulls out ear buds, ear plugs and cotton swabs. Shoves those into their ears. And returns to their breakfast.

Their newspapers.

Their minding of ones own business.

#bering and wells #warehouse 13 #dickens draws #i need to spend less time doom scrolling on twitter #also more time getting my little stress relieving hobbies in order because wooooooo boy the stress is really stressin ya friend #in good news i've written two chapters of ages and only have one left before i can finally move on to the next era of ages #i had to get iron infusions because of my severely low iron and i'm saying that's helping my brain BRAIN but i'm not saying it's not helpin #still waiting to get my car back though #rip skelena

[chaos-has-theories]

Do u remember when u said this bc I remember when u said this. Jenna being cerys and marcias kid is so fucking funny and I'm beyond a little bit obsessed w the idea ngl ahfudjdidj,, they invent a spell to find out who ur parents r (mostly for the benefit of the ya kids) and they're testing it on ppl who's parents they obviously know and then. Jennas closest living relative is marcia. Oh shit. Sorry for this I was just scrolling through the discord bc I'm rlly bored and I found this and I can't stop thinking abt it. I don't think it would change anything especially if it's later in the series I just think it would be rlly funny

I do remember and I was so right for this

gszajskgaj imagine this in an au where Sep never finds out he's a Heap and Jenna never finds out she isn't. He invents the spell secretly hoping to find out he's actually related to Marcia and instead they get each other's parents

#tzey don't even have time to be jeaöous or anything #sep: instant siblings? #Jenna: INSTANT SIBLINGS #don't worry about what would have happened to get them there shhhhh #also don't worry about transfem Marcia originally being an excuse to give her extra angst about being unable to keep any of her family #septimus heap #I do have an au where this could plausibly happen. It's the ml au though #Jenna (panicking about her secret identity as the princess being found out) no no we don't need to test it I'm sure you did it right #Sep (staring at Jenna's results) um #Jenna (relieved) oh dear apparently something did go wrong! hahahahaha (terrified) #Sep (slowly) but... you do look more like Marcia than any of your other family... #anyway #sep.jpeg

[sportsthoughts]

feeling Mentally Strong this afternoon so going to brave watching/giffing some of last night's game

#also a little personal update as I've told loads of you about this/moaned about it in tags for a while and you've all been so supportive #v relieved to say after 3 (hellish) years of prep mr sp passed his week long assessment last week and starts his new job soon #very exciting for him career wise. and me sanity wise because even though we still need to move house this summer we don't need to relocate #and because we'll be Considerably Less Poor!!! #only downside is he has to go away for 6 weeks straight may-june to train which is far more time away than usual and I may go mad #esp if we don't make the you know whats and I have no hockey to keep me entertained #but very good news overall and thanks to my lovely friends & mutuals here who have been extremely supportive in my time of monster stress #hilariously he's had to go back to work this weekend even earlier than usual as penance for leaving so it's hockey afternoon for me :)

[shrikeseams]

Related to my baseline assumption that Feanor eloped is my suspicion that Fingolfin was kiiiiinda a bridezilla. Not too bad! But very high-strung and a touch demanding. Not unreasonable, just... prone to freaking out.

#Tolkien #Mostly borne of insecurity but I could also see Finwe being high strung about his weddings #I think Indis was a very chill bride #And Miriel poured all her anxieties and perfectionisms into the wedding clothes etc #Anarie was glad Fingolfin was being a little difficult #Because it meant she could be nitpicky without seeming unreasonable #(Nerdanel sat though one (1) of her dress fittings and left SO relieved that Feanor agreed re:elopement) #Qqq #San shoots the breeze

[indulgnc]

continued first allergy livetweet:…

… ok so its mostly calmed down but my nose was tickling so much for the next hour and i had to talk to people and kept almost hitching.??

like i said i literally. rubbed my fingers w pollen on my nose on purpose to see if im actually allergic and. guess i am it sure felt like it (my eyes and nose felt so weird) but i didn’t actually sneeze

but. i remembered. ive been taking a low dose of an antihistamine (atarax) for anxiety. i…. wonder how it would go without taking that.

i did induce once in the bathroom and. i couldnt stifle it agh and the itch is just worse now

um. anyway. locust tree pollen. will have to keep that one in mind.

#i feel… really really embarrassed and shy but also really cute. #ahaha …. #also i know this is a new allergy . bc i used to have this tree in my backyard and it did nothing #so i guess i developed it…. #blushing literally typing this. im serious this is the first time ive ever been allergic to something its so foreign.?? #this is like the fics troupes i always write. what the hell. #that sneeze felt so relieving though wat fhe fuck

[captain-lovelace]

Benedictine monk named Brother Daftmonk

#It’s world of Warcraft apparently. Relieved because I was like what kind of fucked up AI generated list is this #Brother Pandemonium rules as a name though #I wanted Catholic monk names for my future cat. Also

[elvhendis]

Went to my therapist partially in hopes of getting an autism assessment but he was like eh and sent me home with an adhd questionnaire instead 😳 not something I'd seriously considered up until this point but uh maybe?

#he was like #you're giving the vibes #I actually don't know how experienced he is with autism though #i have a feeling that he thinks of autism more in the more outdated way idk #also not trying to fish for a diagnosis but I would feel so relieved if there was a reason for me feeling so out of place all the time #i told him I feel like I'm acting out a different personality in front of every person I meet and how I hate it #because people never get to know the real me and Idk how to turn it off #and he just replied: well to me that just seems like you're able to adjust really well to people! #well... you could see it that way... but it's not intentional and I hate it 😭 #personal

[titsthedamnseason]

we really got robbed of seeing charlie’s reaction to the outcome of the fizzle ceo competition ☹️

#i bet he would’ve been proud of luna as one of the only people to recognize her true strengths!!! they are such buddies #also relieved for himself. he can stay jobless just like his uncle ryke! #well i did discover in my reread of dlu that apparently part of his jet setting around the world is to volunteer with the red cross. #so i guess that’s nice? #i wonder if people in the addicted verse get mad about charlie’s carbon emissions the way people hate on taylor 💀 #i just know charlie’s carbon footprint is disastrous lmao #king ben prefers flying commercial though 🫡 #mine #like us series

[wayfinderships]

GOOD MORNING GAMERS! DUNGEON MESHI ANIME TODAY!! I GOT TO SEE MY GUY ANIMATED!!!

#pan rambles #Feels so good to see him animated and hearing his voice and- #Also I'm. so so relieved they were normal about Marcille when she was on those vines #I got worried for a sec but thankfully it's all good #Back to Laios though! gjdbgkdnfk THERE HE IIIIS #I'll probably rewatch the episode a bit later but yeah-sfjsnfkdj #f/o: 🍖

[alicesbread]

Spoilers for Mrs de Winter by Susan Hill!

Okay but this book has so much fucking fic material. Like. Imagine Ich finding out she's pregnant AFTER Maxim dies. And having to raise the fucking kid all by herself UNLESS someone comes her way and helps her with that (cough cough Danny maybe?) And having to restart her life for like the third time. Damn.

#would be kind of depressing but also #i feel like after some time she would actually feel somehow relieved #like she wouldn't have to worry about making him angry anymore and wouldn't have that much tension anymore #though it's very possible that the roumors of Maxim being the killer become stronger after he commits #unless they make it seem like an accident #anyway yeah give me preg widow narrator danvich fic or give me death #when I'm done with mama's boy ya'll know what's coming #crying bc my girl Bee won't be there to see her nephew though #rebecca #daphne du maurier #rebecca das musical #mrs danvers #ich #mrs de winter #maxim de winter #susan hill #fanfiction

[meme-loving-stuck]

i remember being brought up christian like, almost concerned that i never felt a connection to any of the shit they were talkin about,

and when i was younger i was like "oh no! am i bad for not feeling connected to god?? is it bad i feel like my dead mom doesnt talk to me or watch over me?? am i horrible for pretending?????"

but turns out i just had Autism Powers that made me immune to it and i was able to completely sever myself from the idea of being Christian at the ripe old age of like 13. and it was such a HUGE comfort to see that there were all these other beliefs and spiritual sort of things that other people chose to believe in and didnt necessarily treat their beliefs as COLD HARD UNDENIABLE FACT the way christians treat the existence of god & heaven & hell

like now that i am older i know i was in fact traumatized by the culturally catholic beliefs my family held & forced on us all, but i am really immensely grateful that my child self looked at all the other aspects of christianity that would horrify most other children into behaving/conforming, and basically just went, "okay, source?"

and that was the end of that

#BLOGGING LOUDLY #okay source sounds so cringe ik but like #i really couldnt buy into any of it after a certain point #even though i almost found comfort in it! the idea of prayer was very much that for me the way it is for many ppl #i just literally could not believe something that didnt have proof i could see or touch #and when i was a bit older i did get hit with the 'well you cant SEE gravity but you believe in that' #but again immediately i was like... you can still prove gravity though. i learned it in seventh grade. LMAO #i dont know part of me is relieved i didnt feel the painful separation or conflict that so many others feel #but i am still kind of sad i couldnt just. be that way. and find a home somewhere #and that nothing else has really stood out to me except like non theistic satanism which also sounds. edgy teen boy #like it is a legitimate belief system and i feel closely aligned to it! but im still just kinda meh about using the label ... hrmm #perhaps need to look into the various kinds of satanism again #i tend to stay away from pagan stuff but its also something i found interesting #my partner seems very interested in becoming a jew despite not really... ever having been exposed to judaism or jewish cultures #but id like to learn more about it too i have many resources just kinda sitting.... #idk i guess i started thinking about this bc actually studying other religions etc could be very fulfilling but i just....eh....