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serendipitous-magic · 2 years
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You know what, fine, I’ll say something about it. Because as an author and a librarian, I feel pretty damn qualified to.
If we expunged every single creative work on earth that had any kind of harmful or hurtful content at all, there would be nothing left.
Nothing.
There’s not a single thing on earth that isn’t problematic in some way.
Before you jump into rage mode, what I’m not saying is “Whatever, people can do whatever they want in art and it doesn’t matter!” Because… obviously not. (Just look at me ranting about how Joss Whedon treats women in his works. But don’t get me started there.)
No one is out here saying “antisemitism is fine” or “racism is fine” or “homophobia is fine” or what-have-you. Similarly, no one is out here saying “it’s unnecessary to hold authors and other artists accountable if they’re shitty.”
What I am saying is, yes, books and other works of art have harmful content in them. Pretty much always. Give Tumblr 10 minutes and I guarantee you they could find something problematic in Blues Clues. However, the internet has cultivated something really unhelpful where these echo chambers build, and everything ever is either black or white. No gray.
I.e.: purity culture.
If something isn’t absolutely irreproachable in every way, it’s heinous.
Except it’s not.
(Let’s make a disclaimer: there ARE works and artists that are just total pieces of shit. Say, Might is Right by “Ragnar Redbeard” (nice Asshole L.A.R.P. name, Arthur Desmond). We can pretty reasonably toss that whole crock of bullshit and the bull that produced it. We’re talking about normal literature here, not like… literal Nazi screed.)
If we forbade anyone from ever participating in or enjoying things with harmful tropes or stereotypes, well, goodbye literally every 80s movie and everything before it. Goodbye like 99.9999% of movies, actually. Goodbye every classic book ever. Goodbye Stranger Things. Goodbye Batman. Goodbye Holy Bible (that’s a WHOLE other can of worms). Goodbye… literally all media, ever. We’d lose all of it. Especially the stuff from like… any past decade. Is that all useless? Is there nothing good or useful about any of it? Of course there is! Because nothing is 100% good or 100% evil. (Again, we’re not talking about Nazi screed or the like, that’s a different ballpark all together.) So are we saying that a work with both good and bad in it, even if it’s mostly good, is absolutely useless and evil? It just doesn’t work when you try to apply it to real life situations outside of a Philosophy 101 classroom.
And furthermore, what I’m also saying is, people are perfectly capable of reading (or watching, or whatever) a work that has societally hurtful elements in it, and using their brain, and saying “hm yeah that’s a pretty outdated harmful stereotype,” or, for example, “the fuck, Rowling.” And then moving on. It doesn’t mean the reader agrees with the sentiment expressed there. You could even - gasp! - read a work with harmful stereotypes and enjoy the work as a whole without enjoying or agreeing with those stereotypes. And that really, really shouldn’t be a controversial statement.
To assume that people aren’t capable of reading or even enjoying an entire work without agreeing with or supporting *every single theme and message in that work* is frankly ridiculous. We’re not toddlers. We have rational thinking. It’s honestly kind of insulting to humans in general when you assume they’re not smart enough to form their own opinions and recognize when something doesn’t line up with their morals or ethics.
Furthermore, if people only EVER read and enjoyed things that met someone’s (say, your) standard of what’s 100% good and pure, those people would have a pretty anemic set of morals and ethics. Because guess what? People need to be exposed to ideas they don’t agree with in order to figure out “hm, I don’t agree with this.”
The sterilization of media will only ever lead to a morally and ethically stunted population.
This is why we don’t take Republican propaganda off the shelves at the library. Yeah, it’s bad! But if people are never given the chance to interface with these harmful ideas, they’ll never actually form their own opinion - or even form the ABILITY to form their own opinion. Morality is a *skill*, not an inherent trait. Take away any chance to exercise it, and you’ll end up with pretty weak morals, even if they’re the “good” ones.
Going on a witch hunt for people who enjoy fiction that has problematic elements is useless. Especially because it shuts down conversation. It shuts down the possibility of any growth. If two people had a conversation like “oh hey I see you’re reading Brave New World, there was some fucked up shit in there,” and they had a discussion about what parts of it were societally harmful and what parts of it were thought provoking or impactful or whatever, they both come away with a better understanding of their own morals, the literature, and the wider world. That would never happen if the conversation stopped at “You’re not allowed to like Brave New World because there’s some fucked up shit in there.”
And finally, refusing to participate in Harry Potter fandom won’t affect Rowling in literally any way. She’s already richer than the dreams of avarice. Same with, like, Marvel. If this was, say, one woman doing online publishing through Amazon, and she turned out to be kind of a gross terf, then sure, don’t buy her stuff, don’t encourage her by applauding her books or whatever. But that’s not the situation. And even if it was - see above.
If an individual chooses not to participate in a fandom because they don’t agree with the creator’s ethics or morals, great! You do you. However, it is not your place to demand that everyone else make the same choice that you do.
Punishing people for enjoying Harry Potter, and demanding that they banish it from their lives entirely, does not affect Rowling being a terf, or whatever else. If people want to fight racism, transphobia, antisemitism, homophobia, etc. in media (or outside of media), good news, there’s a ton of ways to do that. But getting pissed off because people still enjoy a fandom that’s like 98% not those things is… not gonna do shit except make people upset. Yeah, it sucks that the 2% of grossness is there. And we shouldn’t ignore it. It deserves to be acknowledged and held to task. But pitching out the entire series and the entire huge fandom surrounding it is a child’s way of dealing with this. And it won’t have any meaningful or lasting effect on the actual core issues.
TL;DR: You’re right, harmful shit like racism in media *should* be held accountable and scrutinized and fought - but the way to do that is not to expunge the whole work from the earth. People are thinking, intelligent creatures. We can enjoy a work without supporting each and every single theme and message in it. And if people *don’t* have the maturity to do that, they probably don’t have the maturity to safely navigate the internet alone.
There’s a LOT more that could be said here but frankly I’m tired of typing.
Inbox person, I probably sound mad and/or intense, and it’s not directed at you. It seems like you come from a place of confusion or hurt, and this isn’t an attack on you. It is, rather, a very tired and frustrated response to the increasing purity culture witch-hunt the internet has been staging (and yes, I know you disagree with that phrase being used here). You happened to trigger thoughts on a much larger topic. I’m not answering your asks because I don’t want to seem like it’s a “fight,” and I don’t want to potentially enable anyone to come bother you. But please give this some thought. I doubt I’ll convince you because this is a VERY hot topic for many people, with emotions running very high around it, and opinions are pretty polarized. But I’ll be happy if I can introduce an alternative perspective, at least.
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just-antithings · 2 years
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Tbh after reading this ask i think the real reason antis wanna act like fics having tags for dark themes and nsfw topcis can also be traumatizing is the biggest tell that anti rhetoric is concern trolling. cuz like as an ex anti with weird triggers i think it's pretty insulting to claim. i know triggers can be different for everyone. but if you're genuinely that triggered by tw's which are literally there for you to protect your mental health, you might just need to take a break from social media altogether. you can't just expect the internet to stop making fics that require those kind of tw's. that's such an impossible task that it can't possibly be a good self defense mechanism to rely on. it's just wasting everyone's time with useless new drama. y'all won't be able to get court systems to agree with you on this, at least not ones that don't have an issue with giving republicans too much legislature power. it's been proven everytime both with the recent tumblr ios ban AND with the recent earn it act. so that's what got me thinking about the real reason antis are pushing this anti nuance argument about tw culture. i think the real reason they're bitching about problematic tw's existing period is they actually hate how tw's have ruined one of the earlier days of their community's arguments. that it was too easy to stumble upon fucked up fanfics on accident. that's their actual issue with more and more content creators getting on bad with using tw's for their dark fic or whump fic content. they hate that it weakens one of their first major arguments they relied on to paint proshippers as malicious and exploitative predators. they just don't wanna say that outright on tumblr publicly. cuz they realize that'd make a lot of people who only pretend to side with antis to avoid being harassed realize they're being ridiculous and just refusing to learn how to take responsibility for their own browsing habits. like i don't wanna say these people are inherently pretending to have this trigger but it's absolutely not a healthy one that should be kept. they need to confront that with a therapist and fic it that way instead of making it be the problems of authors exploring dark topics in their fics for whatever reason. i just don't like seeing these antis tokenize victims like me with genuinely weird and thus hard to navigate triggers in order to push this honestly asinine idea that they can use their poorly managed trauma to make people stop making fics that require such tw's. especially when you and other blogs have exposed that these people DO often go out of their way to look up triggering fan content. especially going out of their way to look up triggering 18+ content. and have the nerve to call the 18+ creator a bad person for not letting minors peruse their blogs for receipts. that's another reason a part of me is highly doubting that this claim that these people are genuinely triggered by certain tw's even though i don't wanna risk ableism by saying the trigger isn't real outright, but i do still wish they'd stop tokenizing people like me to justify this kind of impossible to achieve faux progressive activism please and thanks. plus again i'm irritated by how these people refuse to take accountability for how pushing stances like this to become the mainstream enables republican politicians. much more so than any proship anti censorship stance does. its just annoyingly hypocritical and involves a lot of intellectual dishonesty imo. sorry for the long ask i just have a lot of thoughts about this recent issue.
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gazelessmenagerie · 1 year
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What was the first muse that you’ve written? Do you ship someone’s muses on your dash? What’s something you find weird on here?
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1. Captain Kuro from One Piece. A real piece of work he is but I loved his entire debut from start to finish. He was calculative and maybe its because I love cats but lmfao, fucking black cat themed mastermind. But the cool thing I loved most was that even when the protags showed up to beat his ass, instead of cowering away like those typical ‘ masterminds that don’t fight for crap bc they’re weak in actuality ’ Kuro fucking squared tf UP. He just flat out kept his eye on the prize to kill those pesky protags and it was only through the power of Protagonist to beat him in spite of his ruthless attacks and overall Asshole(tm)-ism to kill his own men in a berserk attack bc he deemed them as useless when they failed to carry out his plan. He lost but I liked the juxtaposition between what the meaning of piracy is for him vs the meaning of piracy the protag carries ( bc fucking friendship and all that jazz. )
Something about him just clicked in my mind and though that was my first intro to the tumblr scene, its safe to say I fucking sucked horribly the first time around but I learned and developed him to be the cunning, cold menace he is today.
Frankly I’ve been thinking about migrating him to here bc I am too damn lazy to log in to his Account.
2. Lmfasojg lowkey I’ve been reading your Hit/Cyn stuff bc gd, I’m just a whore for monster bf / gf things. And just seeing your thoughts on their developments, tribulations and stuff. Another thing I’ve been eyeing is Santana / Mariah bc that ship was very fucking cute and I wish there was more content for it. It’s fun to just read through what people write with ships or relations on dash for me.
3. I’d have to say the high levels of policing that everyone seems to have adopted nowadays. I mean back in the day, if you didn’t like something; you just scrolled on and/or blacklisted it. Not my business what other people do unless it’s actively harming someone irl. Or if you find it necessary to block someone, you have right to without others going ‘ oh its dividing the rpc / blocking makes things wierd ‘ etc etc. like? Nah. if I don’t vibe with someone; I’m blocking / soft blocking them bc I don’t want to interact with them. If I see their url with mutuals, I just blacklist the url and be done with it. Oh what I write is deemed problamatic due to tropes of hero/villain or whatever dumb bullshit people are crying about now? Fuck off man. What I write isn’t your damn issue. Block me, unfollow me, do whatever than sending me useless shit bc you can’t curate your own online experiences.
That’s pretty much the brunt of it. Does it make me an asshole? Eh, maybe but we’re all assholes in our own ways man. It’s just a matter of doing what makes you feel content/happy in this hellsite.
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josiebelladonna · 1 year
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of all the social networks, i think facebook is the one i have the most dysfunctional relationship with. it’s the one i’ve taken the most breaks from, and the one that i wish i could just delete already, and yet i can’t seem to bring myself to pull the plug. i came really close a couple of times, like really close: i was there at the deletion page, but there was something that stopped me from doing it.
i want to rid of it. i want to wake up tomorrow and see it gone forever and instagram its own independent thing, just like how i want to wake up tomorrow and see tiktok gone forever as well.
what’s stopping me, you ask? my dad is on there. so is alex. and my aunt chris. and teababe. and xana.
i don’t give a single fuck about the rest of it, though. the people i’ve on my friends list are either: complete depressive pathetic trash, right-wing nutjobs who don’t listen, people in their 40s/50s/60s who are your typical run-of-the-mill boomers/gen xers or they have empty nest syndrome, people my age who are already entering their quarter-life/”oh fuck i’m turning 30 soon” crisis (been there, done that, can’t help ya) and i look at them and think “it’s 2023. what are you guys even still doing here?”, ai apologists, or just really, really, really boring people, and what’s weird is i didn’t really start taking notice of these traits until about a couple of years ago when the pandemic first hit. there’s only like a few people visible to me who actually strike me as happy or genuinely content with life. i see a lot of people on there who give off this vibe of missing something from their lives the memes are trash or glurge-y or the most cringe bullshit i’ve ever seen or just the same shit i’ve seen and heard a thousand times before on tumblr... what, 10 years ago? jesus. there are so many people on there i just punk the shit out of because they need to be challenged and offended because they have a terrible attitude (like, kristin: “ugh, pop music sucks” | me: “some of it does, but some of it’s actually kind of decent, i don’t make the rules #kristinisthenewkaren #apologiestoanyonenamedkristinwhoisntlikethatatall” - fun fact, i have never seen that woman laugh. not a giggle, not a teehee, never went “HA!”. she’s very pretentious, too: besides being a massive loser stuck in the past and an absolute fucking piece of shit i, i mean, a ~pro-life feminist~ who’s way too much of that for her own good to the point of believing in the theory of evolution but heaven forbid science proves 100 times over that it’s okay to have an abortion, she’s one of those people you look at and you think, “do you even have any hobbies or pets or books or... a sense of childlike wonder? because when you’re not at work, or bragging, you’re navel-gazing pretty much. at least I have hobbies and a dog and a cat, and i’m always wanting to read stuff, too.” yeah. you need to be punk’d, and by a woman no less). i’ve called that place a toilet before, and i’ll really call it that now. also, the groups suck, and it almost doesn’t matter what the subject of said group is now.
i should’ve left 7 years ago when it all started going downhill with the orange running for el presidente.
but i didn’t, though. because i have people i care about on there. otherwise, yeah, i would’ve deleted in 2016. all i can say is that site just needs to die. we need to let it die on its own. it’s old and stodgy and useless and clinical and censors everything and everyone often for no reason (i know it has with me).
the other thing that kills me about it? it’s the one account i have with my real name on it. i’m mostly faceless on instagram (mostly; i’ve shown my face and my name on there before but i’m known as simply badmotorartist and hannah-bal lecter on there), but it’s the one place i’m most myself on - next to tumblr of course - because i can’t do it anymore on facebook.
it’s this really weird conundrum of having people i care about on there but i feel so restricted and it also brings out the hellraiser in me, and yet i’m more “myself” in places where they’re nowhere to be found and my rebellious streak is put to good use. or in alex’s case, lurking and 99% of the time, i forget he’s there. he’s a very quiet one - you know, typical triple scorpio man, he moves very silently until he’s ready to pounce. but this also happened to me with chris all the time; and i get that with joey and eric, too, i forget they’re looking at me all the time. i think that sets me apart, aside from the art, is that i just don’t even think about it, like, “oh my god, chris cornell is following me” or “oh my god, alex skolnick is watching me”, i don’t think about that sort of thing. it surprises me when it’s brought to my attention, like “holy shit, really?” or when it happens initially, but i don’t ruminate on it, mainly because this is the internet. unless you’re sitting behind a paywall or you jimmy with your settings to where you’re left out of a simple search, you’re out in the open and you can be found. there’s something very comforting about that, too.
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newyorkcitywater · 2 years
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Hey can I ask you for advice? I've been having a hard time dealing with wasted time bc from 16 to 24 I did fuck all like literally did nothing at all. I got into college at 17 but was so lost and hated everything that I dropped out of classes and deferred semesters and I did that so much that I don't think I actually finished one class through so is pretty much like I dropped out by 17 and all this time I couldn't get a job so I've been living and been supported by my parents this whole time like literally for 8 years I've done absolutely fuck all and it's mortifying. Its like every attempt I did to move forward, be it changing majors or applying to jobs, leaded nowhere. I keep thinking about people who had to work to survive, people who had to push through college even if they hated it and I just feel like the most useless shitshow ever and I'm terrified of what other people will think about me when they learn just how stuck I've been for the past 8 years. Like it's been hell, you know? I live in an abusive home and yet I stayed. I could've tried harder, I didn't. I cannot ignore that people will look at me and think I'm a spoiled privileged asshole and I'm just so humiliated by this I don't even know what to do
okay. i'm not sure if this ask was originally intended for me, but i'm going to use this time to establish that i'm an eighteen-year-old with internet access and a tumblr account i made in seventh grade. i haven't started college yet, i haven't solidified my major, i have no background and absolutely ZERO qualifications that would help me answer something like this, so please don't ask me for advice and tell me stuff like this especially if we're not friendly and you're on anon. i don't know jackshit about what to do and it's weird for both of us.
more to the point, i'm really sorry this is going on for you anon, and i don't know what to say other than the fact that people will probably be sympathetic. i'm really not the person to ask about this.
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I could piss and moan for a long time and I've wanted to but for now let me just say that in terms of my own personal engagement with this game, I am so fed up and frustrated with it. It's format or whatever the fuck it's called is just not for me. It's killing my buzz and taking the enjoyment out of it. :/
I would need to pull 300 times if I want to redeem both Halloween Cater and Halloween Vil, both cards I really reeeeeeeeeeeeealllllly wanted. And LMFAOOOOOOO that's not going to happen. I can't even do 150 for just one of them. I wonder how many hundreds of dollars (lbr) that'd be to pull on nothing but paid gems. Which is ridiculous.... I'm dumb and don't math well so I don't feel like trying to figure it out.
I laughed when I saw the What's Coming at the end of Dec. I knew that shit was going to happen and all his cards were more or less going to bunch up in a short amount of time. Two in one month, oof. They love doing that, greedy af. After yet another banner with garbage-ass pulls there's no way I can pull on his dorm uniform, so that's great. I'm actually really pretty fucking salty about it. I've amassed enough cosmic shit to fully level up three ssr cosmic spells and have enough perfumes to uncap him 3 times, but alas. I was wrong a few months ago and still no Tamashina-Mina event but I don't see how they can keep delaying it and at this point I'm going to assume I need 200 pulls again to get Leona's card, so yeah. After that I'm going to be left with peanuts. Fun. The anni banner is apparently giving out 30 free pulls but I'm not excited about it. Anytime they've given out free pulls I've gotten nothing but crap so I don't expect any luck there whatsoever.
Completely unrelated but it's so annoying how everyone just assumes you use other sites, or I guess people mostly think of the internet as endless apps now. That's weird to me, it used to just be websites but now every goddamn site has an app and that's what people primarily use. But yeah, people will just link to shit on other sites for everything and that's useless to me. I can't see it or engage with it because I don't and won't (I outright refuse) to get accounts there. I get why they do it, the vast majority of people have no problem signing up and using these places so I'm the odd one out. It's literally what everyone uses, even pretty much all the official sources for anything and everything ever so I miss out on a lot.
Oh, a few days ago now when I opened up two separate tabs, tumblr's layout briefly (and I mean briefly) went back the original design it used to have. I got excited and thought that in addition to getting rid of live they had gotten rid of the cluttered mess it is now. Wonder what that was about......
EDIT: Really hate how the fucking "keep reading" doesn't work like it used it either. Ugh.
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coughloop · 2 years
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vent/rant post about fash/cryptofash/reactionaries on tumblr under the cut dont reblog
im really frustrated with how things have gone down in the last week and im gonna ramble a lot, also im gonna use fash/cryptofash/reactionary and maybe some other terms pretty interchangeably cause they all feel like umbrella terms for the type of people im talking about.
I know we're all getting tired of blocking the same cryptofash accounts that keep remaking over and over again, as well as new ones that find their ways into the periphery of popular posters and have suddenly shoot into popularity until they post something super racist. And a lot of the time it feels so useless and futile, like half the time they have a backup ready to go and the other half just remake in under 24 hours. and like, what does it even do? its not fighting any real world issues, i have no idea what the social effect of having super racist people 3 degrees of separation from everyone on the site actually means, but I know I really fucking dont like it, I know it makes me super uncomfortable to see a mutuals reblog from someone who constantly reblogs and interacts with people that fantasize about beating up trans people on the street.
and now that people like me and some others are getting more and more savvy about noticing cryptofash blogs, it becomes harder and harder to not see how many people i follow that keep me 3 degrees of separation from them.
take ukrainianbimbo for example. they constantly reblog from terfs, transphobes, racists, misogynists and anti-Semites AS WELL as trans people, Jewish people, and people of colour. i blocked them from following me months ago after spending 30 seconds on their blog and recognizing multiple well known tumblr reactionaries. when they noticed i had blocked them and made a couple posts about how easy it is to not follow and reblog from fascists they went on a posting spree whining about how they dont check who they reblog from and why should it be their responsibility. wah wah wah, shut up. anyway, last week they got properly called out for this behaviour and badgrapple came to their defense, going on the dumbest tirade ive ever seen about how theyre sick of fake callouts for people who havent done anything wrong (tell that to your friend ukrainianbimbo who's reaction to being labelled an anti-Semite and a fascist was to triple down on telling a trans jewish woman that she was ugly and should kill herself (both of these things are very untrue shout out Agent, you dont deserve that at all)) and now both of them are going out of their way to interact with more bigots seemingly as a protest for being repressed over hanging with those types in the first place. Fuck off.
All of this then led into people i respect making random vagueposts like "feel like fash is a word being thrown around way too liberally on tumblr these days" and like, yeah, in a way i guess it is, but also people are acting like fascists! crypto fascists specifically because theyre never completely open about their beliefs. fash is shorter and less confusing however (thanks cryptocurrency for that) so thats what people genuinely call them. Why is that a bad thing? If you're posting things that people look at and say "woah dude, you sound like a fascist", maybe thats on you for doing things that other fascists on this site do, not on them for using the "wrong word" for it.
on top of all this though, people HAVE started making up unchecked callouts about people, like Declan smokeweedinbong, who was unfairly called a fascist by someone because declan responded to a comment on his post he didnt background check, thats totally unfair to declan but fuck the reaction from a lot of my mutuals was REALLY WEIRD. people didnt start posting in defense of declan, who again, did nothing wrong but not pay as much attention to a random person as he could have (ive done that too i get it!), but instead people started beating the "cancel culture has gone to far" drum, fucking again. why is that your response?? defend your friends, please! but why is it people who dont want to be exposed to racists and transphobes and anti-Semites ultimately receiving the pushback? its so dumb!
so now half the time i see someone getting an anon about reblogging from a fash, they respond positively but why do they always get follow up anons like "thats dumb who cares, i never look at who i reblog from" like maybe you fucking should?? shut up! people are so fucking stupid on anon it blows me away soemtimes.
i really have no idea where im going with all this, i just really needed to get this frustration of my chest. thanks for reading my run on sentences if you did, and sorry for being somewhat incoherent, i just am so fucking tired of all this, and it doesnt even mean anything. whatever
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finalbarbiegirl · 3 years
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Top ten reasons I hate Instagram with a burning fucking passion but only uses it to make sure my edits actually get seen
Doesn’t let you put in pronouns that you want and the only ones that are available is the most common ones so what’s the fucking point
Won’t let me put lesbian as my category of my account
STORIES MY FUCKING BEHATED. DIE.
You can only share posts on your story and not on your account like tumblr which makes people who dont wanna create anything and just want to look at shit (and instagram is the best place to find content) pretty much useless
SO MANY USELESS NOTFICATIONS JUST SHUT UP
The culture on there where you have to be a model or have the worst fucking comedy on the planet
Everything on there is like meant for consumption meanwhile on here it’s like no one gives a fuck you’re on tumblr.
The culture on there is so different and weird and just y i k e s
Some of the biggest content on there is just posts stolen from tumblr like get your own content
SO MUCH CONTENT STEALING JESUS CHRIST
One reason I don’t hate instagram
at least it’s not twitter
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ais-n · 3 years
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hello!! i just spent the past month or so reading all the icos books, scrolling through your account, and reading the notes you posted about the sequel on patreon. i’m absolutely amazed by this series and these characters, i don’t have words for how good of a time i had delving into this story. i started off loving hsin immediately and although it took me some time to warm up to boyd, he ended up being one of my absolute favorite characters that i’ve ever had the pleasure of knowing. i really think boyd and hsin and their story, along with the stories of all the other amazing characters associated with them, will stick with me for a long time. anyway sorry for the long message, but i just wanted to express my gratitude for these books—they helped me out a lot mentally after everything post-2020 haha. i did have a sort of question though!! how did boyd deal with the loss of one of his eyes? did he train with hsin to help adapt? how did he deal with the insecurities and frustrations that came with that loss?
Just in case - **ICOS SPOILERS / FADE SPOILERS** :)
Hi! Aww that's awesome! I'm so happy you enjoyed the series :) And that you were able to find all the content on it right away too. It's also really cool how things shifted for you over the course of the series - because that means it did its job with showing character progression :) I mean, not that it matters if people end up liking all the characters or not - but if you start feeling one way and end another, that's awesome because it means there was character development that resonated with you in anyone and that's one of my favorite things when I'M reading a book, so it's one of my favorite things for if anyone ever reads anything I'm involved in writing. So that made me really happy to hear, thank you <3
I'm gonna put my answer behind a cut just in case for spoilers :) Hopefully this thing doesn't disallow you from clicking the Read More link which once in awhile tumblr does.
Spoilers behind cut :D
Regarding his eye, it was obviously in many ways pretty life-changing for him. Even though Boyd and Hsin by that point were much better about communicating, and Boyd would want to lean on Hsin whenever needed, although I haven't written out anything from those time periods (so it may change when/if I actually do, as sometimes the characters do things I'm not expecting) -- I have a feeling Boyd tried to kind of hide as much of the downside as he could from Hsin. Not because he didn't trust Hsin - he did, unequivocally - but rather because Hsin had seemed so regretful and seemed to have guilt/worry when Boyd first woke up and learned he lost his eye. He didn't want Hsin blaming himself for it, and if Hsin saw it upsetting him too much he would have probably worried about how Hsin felt.
It did take him time to figure out some things - his depth perception was fucked, and he couldn't fight quite the way he initially had learned because of that, along with other things. He would have let Hsin see him relearning things when necessary because that's inevitable, but he would have tried to play off anything much deeper if possible. He would have wanted to see if he could handle things on his own first (in typical Boyd style) just so he could spare Hsin extra stress. He felt like Hsin had already lost so much; it didn't feel fair to pile anything further on him.
So Hsin would have helped with some stuff when needed, and obviously I'm sure they talked about things as needed too. It's not like the topic was taboo or Boyd was super sensitive to it. As much as it sucked, it was also just a thing he had to accept. So in some ways, he kind of just rolled with it the way he'd had to learn to roll with so much else in his life.
Where it really was most frustrating and upsetting for him was the way it affected his ability to work. Even though he felt and was fully capable of many things, certain jobs just would not hire someone with one eye, period. Their rules didn't allow it, or they just chose not to, or so on. Because they had to stay on the downlow, he already had limited options in the first place, and that made it worse. Then on top of that, having an eyepatch made him more memorable. Once he eventually got his glass eye, it helped a bit with that, but he'd always had an unusual eye color so without contacts and different hair color and all that, if someone were looking for him they could still potentially track him down. Hsin was also incredibly memorable so it was a worry for him as well. Especially when you put those two together.
I don't think we ever talked about it but in my personal opinion, I would guess that they probably talked about their plans for the different cities/countries they were in, whether one or both of them would stand out more, what sorts of income they could get, what sorts of things they could do, what sort of places they could live incognito, and so on.
I have always had in my mind that there was a period of time especially early on when Boyd was still healing and getting used to things, where he (as usual) tried to push himself a little too far a little too fast but Hsin stopped him because he knew how Boyd is and he knew if he was firm, Boyd would actually listen.
So for a time, Hsin was the main person going out to do things, get money, etc. There were hours Boyd would be alone wherever they were staying, and during that time all those doubts and frustrations and anger and insecurity and fear would come in. For awhile, I think he probably even drank when he was alone. Never to an addictive level or anything; just the actions of a man who felt depressed.
I'm sure some of his demons leapt on that--telling him shit like he wasn't ever going to have more worth than he did when he was used by Cyclone, or the Agency - shit like, maybe you're never going to be anything more than a valentine/whore for money in the future anyway. If people won't see you as anything other than the parts of you, and now the parts of you that are missing more than the parts that are there, maybe it's useless to think there's anything more of value in your life. That sort of negative thought process that you know isn't true but still buries its tendrils deep inside and twists.
The thing is, Boyd never really had much to call his own his whole life that people didn't attribute to others around him - one of the only things he had was his art. And losing an eye didn't make it impossible to do art, but in that beginning stage, it just felt extra awful to have lost something so integral to the one thing he had that was his alone, that hadn't been used and abused and destroyed by other powers in his life - it felt like maybe that just went to show he didn't have value other than what others assigned to him. Which is how the valentine stuff probably came to mind - through a bit of depression and also practicality, because he knew he could make money doing that if they needed it, even though it was the absolute last thing in his life he would ever want to do. But then the guilt would come in about not being able to do enough on his own, not pulling his weight, etc etc, and then the fear associated with all of these topics, and that's how the depression would have slid in and spiraled him down.
I always imagined that Hsin recognized how depressed Boyd was, even though Boyd tried to hide it, and eventually they would have had some sort of conversation about it all.
In my mind, somehow through that and any following conversations or actions or etc, Hsin was able to remind Boyd of all the things he could do still, rather than focusing on the things he couldn't. He would have reminded him that it was bullshit to think he had no value, and as for getting denied different jobs, it didn't matter - they were in this together, they'd figure it out together. He would have been able to remind Boyd to stop taking all the shit on himself and share the burden. And that Hsin didn't give a shit about any of that stuff - Hsin saw Boyd for who he was, and he loved him for that, and nothing would ever change that. Boyd would have probably told Hsin at that point he was afraid of Hsin blaming himself when it never had been his blame to begin with, and he never wanted to hurt Hsin, and etc. I imagine he told him that, but am not sure.
Either way, it would have reignited Boyd's stubborn streak and determination, and he would have been reminded of how much they could do together as a team. And how much they loved each other. And fuck the world, who cared what other people thought? He could do whatever the hell he wanted. He'd figure it out. He always had.
From then, he would have started working on things again - figuring out ways to fight that relied more on touch so his blind spot and depth perception were less of an issue (Hsin would have helped a lot with this), and he would have started painting and drawing again. It went from his offtime from Hsin being something dark and depressing to something largely productive. Obviously everyone still has bad days, but at least he was generally on the up. And they did eventually figure out jobs he could work too, or things he could do, so he wasn't just spending all his time alone when Hsin wasn't around. And so Hsin didn't have to have any pressure on him to do things alone.
I don't remember if I ever answered this question before and if I did, it's possible my answer was a little different. I often think about parts we didn't write down and I feel like I have an idea of how it would go, but until I actually write something down I never know for sure. We never planned for Afterimage, for example - but when we went to write past Evenfall, it became clear that was a thing that was going to happen, and so it did, and then things from that affected other things into Interludes, Fade, 1/27, etc.
So it's possible if ever any of these time periods are written down that maybe my view of what I think would happen ends up being completely incorrect or off. But right now, generally speaking, I imagine it went something like this.
Sorry for the long rambly reply!
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People are pretty crazy over there lol that's why I have a twt acc just to get some wholesome fanart and twitter fic au 😂
the term "crazy" is honestly too generous for the naruto fandom over there tbh😩😩
Im gonna make a longass rant because gAHH i just--- I need to vent for a sec xD
So like, here are a list of things i fucking hate over there
Sakura vs. Hinata discourse (whY????)
SHIPWARS HOLY SHIT
people are too sensitive 😣
they complain A LOT
some of them are too comfortable with using slurs, (even though theyre non black) 😐
CANCEL CULTURE EXISTS?¿ FOR SOME GODDAMN REASON (instead of educating someone privately, they just take screenshots and post it everywhere, humiliating the account owner in the process)
DISCOURSE AFTER DISCOURSE AAAAAA
Blocking people doesnt do shit because they always make it back to your timeline if one of your mutuals qrted it. I mean, at least here on tumblr you get to filter out the anti posts with the anti tag but like over there, they just pop on your timeline regardless and ruin your whole day. (there was this one dude that accused Hinata of guilt tripping Naruto into turning feral 😐)
cyber bullying is heavily mormalized there, i can understand why some ppl wish to defend their fav and then have a a HEALTHY debate but to the point of calling someone a dumb bitch for disagreeing with your opinion is petty as fuck
some off them have this "woke and edgy" aura "i'm better than you, youre wrong, im right." "im the anime judge so i know whats a good show and what isnt" (this can be seen everywhere actually, but you can find more of them on twitter :DD)
you get #cancelled for having a different opinion
The death threats O_O (D!3, K¥S)
---shit like that isn't funny at all.
Legal GROWN adults fighting with minors 😆 Im not even kidding. There are fans who are like in their mid 20s and quarrel with minors over drawings AHAHAHA
shipping sasunaru and sasuhina is somewhat illegal?¿¿¿?? (I shit you not, one of my mutuals and i were just making up headcanons about sasuke and hinata being besties and there were like 5-10 people *coughs ss shippers* who jumped in our conversation and spammed us with shit like "ohh but sasuke doesnt know hinata, sasuke doesnt care abt hinata, sasuhina makes no sense" I JUST--- I GAH-- I JSHDAKHF
if you make fun of sasuke being gay, they *coughs ss shippers cough* will spam you with "SASUKE IS STRAIGHT! SASUKE WAS INTIMATE WITH SAKURA! SASUKE AND SAKURA RE MARRIED! SASUKE AND SAKURA FUCKED!" and then spam you with some manga panels
not to generalize an entire fandom but the ss fandom over there is a bit.... rabid
Shipping Sasuke with anyone except Sakura is a crime 😃
there was that jacksepticeye incident where he tweeted abt being 31 episodes in and he made fun of sakura being useless and sakura stans were not having it. They started spamming him with spoilers about the show and everything on anitwt just spiraled downward from there O-O
I love Hinata, I really do but some of her fans have this desire to always shove her in the spotlight and overhype her a bit too much "Hinata is the real heroine of the show!" "Hinata can beat Sakura!" "Hinata can beat Tsunade!" "Hinata shouldve been the female mc not Sakura!"
Now, you must be wondering "But Char, if you hate Narutwt that much, why wont you just deactivate and leave?"
--Well, to be frank, I use twitter as a platform to share my fanart (since I get a lot of clout there hehe~) And in spite of the cesspool, there are still some really chill people over there that i interact with so meh. Plus there are some awesome twitter aus too. I try not to waste too much of my time there to perserve my sanity but its still somewhat enjoyable. But over all, its a shit storm over there--just, just don't do it 😔 save yourself
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fol-de-lol · 3 years
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200 years ago, I was tagged by @slow-burn-sally and you all know how much I like talking about myself.
your name and then what you would have named yourself 
Alexander, it’s what I named myself (I’ve changed my name three times!)
astrological sign (sun/moon/rising if you know them) 
scorpio.
when did you join tumblr and why? 
2017, because I was already following several blogs by just having them bookmarked and having an account seemed a bit easier.
top 5 fandoms 
Jonathan Strange & Mr Norrell, The Ladies of Grace Adieu… Wolfstar. Buffy? John Heffernan?
top 5 favorite films 
The Wicker Man, Velvet Goldmine, Shelter, The Rocky Horror Picture Show, The Secret Garden.
go to song when you wanna Feel something 
Second Skin by The Chameleons
what’s your religion or faith if you have one? 
I don’t articulate it but you can just take a peek at my main.
a song that makes you feel seen 
maybe… I don’t know… Second Skin????
if you could have any career 
author, village witch or some person who sits in a basement and organizes things without much human interaction. oh, or a parapsychologist and/or being involved in some sort of RSME-related academia.
do you have a type? 
John Heffernan. or boys in general. I don’t think I have a type? boyfriend has very soft hair, very brown eyes and smells very nice, so maybe that’s my type.
what does your heart/soul yearn for 
right now? I honestly can’t think of a single thing that would make me happier.
if you had to describe yourself in 5 words 
tired, quiet, loud, weird, boring
favorite subjects in school 
I loved the courses on occulture. and ethics!
where does your soul feel most at home 
a decidious forest somewhere where I know there are no humans.
top 5 fictional characters: 
but this is SO DIFFICULT! Dickon from The Secret Garden. Eliot from the Magicians. John from Jonathan Strange & Mr Norrell. Lemon from Hart of Dixie. Tara from Buffy.
top 3 moments in a show that made you ugly cry 
10’s regeneration and everything leading up to it (DONNA, WILF), Rose disappearing, The Body (pretty much entire episode?)
the earth, the sun, the moon or the stars 
earth.
favorite kind of weather 
late spring when things are actually green and it’s warm and it’s sunny but not too hot yet and very little wind! or a hot summer NIGHT. (night is important because there must be some relief.)
top 3 characters you kin with 
Hank Moody (useless drunk who means well but fails a lot and is really sick of trying), Sketch (weird stalker who’s very sad and lonely) and Eliot (sad gay who just wants to look hot, have fancy drinks and fuck pretty boys.)
favorite medium of art 
anything detailed and black and white does it for me. (though I like all mediums really, it very much depends on the subject)
introvert/extrovert/ambivert 
amphibian.
a favorite literary quote 
”because if you give it wings it wants to fly away” I don’t even know where it’s from but it’s some queer YA and it’s stuck with me for 15+ years (in various ways).
some of your favorite books: 
I posted some shelfies in the discord, isn’t that enough? oh, y’all can be my goodreads friend if you want to.
if you could live anywhere in the world where would it be? 
further south. not too hot, but hot enough to grow almonds and lemons.
if you could live in any time in history when would it be? 
now, for the exact same reasons  @slow-burn-sally mentioned. MEDICINE! TECHNOLOGY! welfare.
if you could play any instrument masterfully 
piano!
if you have one, what mythological god or goddess do you feel a connection to 
: )
and lastly, favorite recent selfie in your camera roll 
NO.
tagging anyone who wants to do it. please tag me so I can read your answers because I Will Miss It.
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mineofilms · 3 years
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2020… My Life… Everything Else Is Just Blurry…
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Where to begin… I have been a type 2 diabetic since 2013. I got diabetes from excessive partying/drinking, originally. I continued to behave like this till June 2020. Granted, I wasn’t going as hard, in general, over the years, but each year and hardship I found myself going back to those old vices more frequently.
When the pandemic struck SWFL my drinking went up about 400%. No joke. I trained 4 days on and drank the other 3 days, hard. I did that from March to late June.
I caught Covid-19 around June 26th. By July 11th I needed to be hospitalized for Diabetic Ketoacidosis (where the body produces excess blood acids; ketones. This occurs when there isn't enough insulin in the body. It can be triggered by infection or other illness.) & Pancreatitis (inflammation of the pancreas. It happens when digestive enzymes start digesting the pancreas itself.) I was in ICU for 36 hours and in the hospital for 5 days. I lost 21 lbs over that time.
3 days after I got home from the hospital, Macular Edema (blood vessels in the retina burst and bleed into the eyes), set in. That took about a month to heal only for Diabetic Retinopathy (those same blood vessels that burst heal and are inflamed).
Usually requires anti-inflammatory shots into the eye ball and laser surgery to burn away some of the excess scar tissue. These cost thousands of dollars without insurance, which I do not have. I have read that they can heal on their own, but it takes about 8-12 months. I am in month 4.
However, I actually cannot confirm if that statement about them healing on their own is actually true or not. Some notes in journals say yes while other, more creditable sites, say no. One must get treatment.
Now let me be clear that Covid-19 did not cause my Diabetic Ketoacidosis & Pancreatitis. My lack of proper care for my diabetes caused these. I was already in the yellow and when I got Covid-19 it just put me in the RED. I now, at this point, required medical care or I would die. Those are the facts about me getting Covid-19, my Diabetic Ketoacidosis & Pancreatitis…
Flash-Forward to now… I got my blood sugars down to near normal (high) levels. This means my blood sugar is still high, but for me, I used to walk around at 400. 500-600 is diabetic coma. 80-120 is considered normal. I walk around between 130-230, currently, fasted.
I have not had a drink since June 26th. I will never drink again. I can’t.
1) Alcohol has thoroughly ruined my adult life in all sorts of areas besides this. It got me sick to begin with among, other, things.
2) If I drink I could be back in the hospital with Diabetic Ketoacidosis & Pancreatitis, again.
3) I made a deal with GOD. If I have to live through this (I prayed to die that night) that I would never drink again.
What kind of dick lies to GOD lol? A decade ago I would have… I hated everything about the concept of GOD. Now, I have come to terms that if there is or there isn’t; it doesn’t matter. I value me, my beliefs. Why not carry myself with that respect. I do not need to tell or share my beliefs with others. I care not for such things.
I am solely worried about my mental, physical, emotional, sexual and spiritual health.
I did not quit drinking because of addiction issues or any of that business. I made the choice because if I didn’t my pancreas would fail and I would be dead in a few months. That is how bad my pancreas was… I do not see myself as someone that is doing all this for attention. I have barely even made mention of this whole story on my social media. I have told people in direct messages, but I do not post everything that is happening in my life on social media.
Granted this Tumblr account is considered social media, but I do not use it for that purpose. It is strictly for my BLOG entries. I do not follow people on Tumblr. I post, get my URL and share it that way. Its not in your face on Facebook or anything, but one can click the link and go read about the crazy things in my head.
Taking care of my mental, physical, emotional, sexual and spiritual health is a full time job in and of itself. Now, currently I cannot work. I can only drive during the day. I cannot see well enough to drive at night.
I have other medical issues stemming from this and it is quite the laundry list. However, I think I gave you all enough to think about.
I am back in great shape now. Since I quit drinking and got back from the hospital I went from 119 to 163 lbs. I have not been this big since 2012. Right before I believe my Diabetic State started. My strength is coming back with a vengeance too. I am putting up more weight than I have in nearly a decade.
I have had to make serious and big changes to EVERYTHING in my life.
My computer is now changed from dual 22 inch monitors to one 46 inch monitor. I have to make changes like this just to see well enough to do some things on the computer.
I am still very blind. My vision has decent days and some days I cannot see much of anything. I cannot see my phone without a magnifying glass. I just got my eyes looked at several times cause my power keeps shifting and now my current glasses setup does not exactly help much. My computer glasses are ok for this, but my normal bifocals are pretty useless.
However; I do feel like I can write a little bit more now. I have a few blogs I want to write and then go right back into the novel. This might be the only realistic possibility of me being able to work to earn my keep. Normal 9-5, Monday-Friday are out of the question, indefinitely.
Not only am I not well enough for the grind, physically. My mental health is very questionable. I have had issues for years now. I have had about 20 jobs in 15 years. I have done a real number on my mental health over the years. Always trying to do more, work harder than the next person so I can make that “good money” that some always throw in my face. I did the work. I put in the time, but only to be messed with. Yes, I have that sort of mental issue.
One tries to mess with me. Mess with the positive shit I am doing. I lose my head pretty quick. I have repeatedly demonstrated over the course of my life that I have no restraint at all when it comes to that feeling of being seriously fucked with and have them look at you like; “What are you gonna do about it?”
Well that is it… I always do something about it. Even when I know I shouldn’t. It is my worst impulsive trait that I cannot get a handle on. Ever since I was a kid. I wanna say. It started when I was 11 or so.
I have made huge strides in changing my life, my thinking and how I fit into the scheme of things. I have become more an introvert than an extrovert. Even before the pandemic I was going out less and less. Doing things less and less. It got to a point to where I only went out when I could drink and/or the band was playing. I was already becoming less social. So this is nothing overly drastic about that UNLESS you count Facebook activity.
I have not advertised much on my Facebook and for good reasons… I posted about my 6 months of sobriety and the responses I got were all about, pressing on and “the struggle.”
I pulled it down. There was no struggle here. I am not a keep on keepin’ on mannnnnn… Type of Personality… No… I quit drinking so I can live another 10-15, hopefully more, years.  I just went through a friend dying from literally drinking himself to death. I know what people go through with their addiction struggles. I have my own reservations about how I feel about said subject matter.
Needless to say I did not appreciate how people view me on Facebook. I no longer post blogs their either. I post here on tumblr and put a link on my Facebook if anyone wants to read. That is about it.
I know people do not read more than a handful of sentences that ends with a weird hashtag or snapchat handle. I get it. It is also my fault because I have not told the Facebook wall/timeline of my mental and medical conditions and struggles. I reserve those conversations to be personal.
So if you want to know stuff, then let us get personal. Pretty much that simple. I do not do FAKE FRIENDS…
I try to be transparent. In the past it was easy, but now everyone has an opinion that they call facts. I do not know how many people I blocked on Facebook for being so damn ignorant or attention seeking.
I know I do not do attention seeking things. When I write it is with intention to say something. I would say 1600+ words on these subjects merits a little more than “attention seeking” behavior…
Things are looking up. I have done soooooooooo much. With so very little and make it look like I have a lot and that everything is fine. No. God Damnit… Everything is not fine. I am kicking ass trying to make something fine but not everything. Everything will never be FINE… Not ever. However, I can strive for it. I can continue to put in that work and just ignore the dumb shit. Which I am becoming pretty good at. I am still me. I am still blunt. If I rough feathers that is just my way of getting those people away from me.
Goodbye 2020… You will never be forgotten and your mark has definitely been left…
2020… My Life… Everything Else Is Just Blurry… By David-Angelo Mineo Words 1,738  12/30/2020
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tigerkirby215 · 4 years
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I can’t make builds so let’s talk about the latest UA
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I can’t make builds right now so let’s talk about Feats. I’m honestly a big fan of feats but I do think that ASIs are a little too strong by comparison in 5e. I feel like in order to compete with ASIs in 5e a Feat needs to do one of two things:
Offer new unique abilities that provide a large boost to your character’s capabilities so that taking them is worth sacrificing an ASI. (Feats like Crossbow Expert, Great Weapon Master, Warcaster, etc.)
(Half Feats) Provide a nice bonus to reward you for slower progression, or for having an uneven ability score to increase. (NOT ATHLETE, but feats like Linguist, Resilient, and the racial feats from Xanathar’s)
For the most part feats do accomplish these two concepts well but there are some feats that are laughably weak (Keen Mind, Weapon Master) while others are way too good. (Lucky.) I think that Feats should remain as options for players who want to build a specific build. They shouldn’t be the “best” choice but rather they should be inherently optional for those who want the power boost they provide.
With that in mind we got an Unearthed Arcana for Feats, and since I want to do more on this Tumblr than just make League of Legends builds I figured I’d throw my thoughts out into the wind.
Artificer Initiate
The main strength of this feat by far is that the spells are added to your spell list. This means that Artificer Initiate is a very easy way for just about any spellcaster to get access to Bless and Cure Wounds / Healing Word. These spells are fairly independent of their spellcasting modifier so getting both of them as a Wizard, Sorcerer, or even Warlock can be good in a pinch.
Other than that the ability to cast spells with tools is nice but ultimately pointless. It’s good if you’re playing an Artificer / Wizard multiclass but Artificers can already cast spells through their infusions. Ultimately this feature of the feat would work better if there were more Intelligence casters in 5e.
It’s a very fun feat for roleplay and has good utility, but I don’t think anyone’s going to be begging to get this feat.
4 / 5
Chef
How the mighty Gourmand and the “mighty” Song of Rest have fallen. Okay let me start with the obvious: the “treats” you can make are complete fucking trash. They’re laughably underwhelming and serve more as a ribbon ability than anything.
As for the Song of Rest-esque effect Song of Rest was already a grossly underwhelming ability for Bards. It’s really sad that it was so underwhelming they flat out gave it to everyone (at the cost of a feat) but I don’t think that harms the Bard class too much.
Just overall the feat really doesn’t live up to the fantasy of being a cook. Two underwhelming abilities for the price of an ASI? No thanks.
2 / 5
Crusher
“Hi I’m playing a Champion Fighter with a Warhammer!” The utility of this feat starts and ends with the critical hit modifier which I’m gonna be honest is insanely overpowered.
“But what about moving people? My Monk can now push people off cliffs!” Have you ever played a Minotaur? To be fair you probably haven’t. Pushing people around will hardly ever be useful. There’s perhaps niche utility in pushing someone away so you can run without provoking opportunity attacks but the Mobile feat does this so much better while also giving you additional movement.
Perhaps the only niche use of this feat is that it can increase your DEX, making it a good Half Feat for Monks that isn’t fucking Athlete.
1 / 5
Eldritch Adept
I really like this feat. It’s kinda become a running gag on this account that I really like sticking Warlock levels into things, and while it isn’t just for the invocations that’s definitely a big part of it. There’s a lot of really cool invocations that you can grab to make your character mildly magical without messing them up by multiclassing. To name all the invocations you can get as a non-Warlock:
Armor of Shadows is, has, and always will be the invocation you take more for character flavor than for practicality. Reddit has been theorycrafting how to break this feat with an Abjuration Wizard but I think that’s a bit too niche.
Beast Speech is really cute conceptually but will rarely be useful. I can guarantee that every single Druid and Ranger is going to hoover up Eldritch Adept just to talk to their animal companion though! (This would’ve been a nice feat to put in my Kindred build if it had existed at the time.)
Beguiling Influence... take Skilled instead. Maybe some niche use for the Half-Elf Rogue who wants proficiency in literally every skill in the game.
Devil’s Sight! This is the main Invocation people are going to be looking for! Magical Darkness is incredibly hard to use effectively and this invocation is pretty much the only way to make it not completely useless?
Eldritch Sight: at-will Detect Magic is never a bad thing but it always suffered from opportunity cost. This makes it available for Bards.
Eyes of the Rune Keeper: just get the Comprehend Languages spell tbh. It’s a ritual after all.
Fiendish Vigor is alright. Decent on an Eldritch Knight as a backup Second Wind.
Gaze of Two Minds is far, FAR too situational to be useful.
Mask of Many Faces is a god-tier invocation for Arcane Tricksters. It ticks me off that you can’t take this feat as a non-caster for a regular Rogue to gain access to this.
Misty Visions depends on what your DM lets you get away with using Minor Illusion for.
Thief of Five Fates: just get Bane from another source.
It kinda bumbs me out that this feat is restricted to just magic users, and I feel like that part of the spell could be removed. Also kinda bumbs me out that you can’t blow two feats to get Agonizing Eldritch Blast (Magic Initiate [Warlock] + Eldritch Adept) but I sort of understand why that’s a thing. But invocations are the perfect example of something worth losing an ASI for.
5 / 5
Fey Touched
Here’s the first feat that I think is a little too good. Let’s get the elephant out of the room first: Fey Teleportation. The differences between the two feats are as follows:
Misty Step from Fey Teleportation comes back on a short rest.
Fey Teleportation is locked by race.
Fey Touched gives you two spells.
Fey Touched lets you add the spells to your spell list.
Oh and let’s talk about some of the spells that are in the Enchantment / Divination school: Bless, Command, Detect Magic, Dissonant Whispers, Heroism, Hex, Hunter's Mark, Identify, and Sleep. (Just to name the notable choices.)
This feat should’ve been a full feat (no ASI.) Adding both Misty Step and Hex to your spell list as a Cleric or Paladin is more than enough to make this feat OP. If Artificer Initiate is a full feat than this should be too.
5 / 5 - OP award for being OP
Fighting Initiate
This should be a half feat. Actually: this should be merged with Weapon Master. I personally already Homebrew the Weapon Master Feat to do this along with the effects of Weapon Master (+3 weapons, +STR or DEX.)
If this was done as an eratta to Weapon Master (instead of its own feat) the feat could be taken by Wizards who want a way to defend themselves, Rogues who want more options Scimitars cough while also honing their own skills, or Barbarians who just finally want a fighting style. I’m glad something like this is finally being considered but please just buff Weapon Master instead.
4 / 5
Gunner
Crossbow expert for guns. A lot of people interpret this as a silent endorsement of guns in D&D or a hint at a potential official gunslinger (sub)class but really I just think Jeremy Crawford got sick of people asking him “does Crossbow Expert work with guns?” on Twitter.
gun / 5
Metamagic Adept
IE the feat that’s making Reddit throw a hissy fit. Does this suddenly make the Sorcerer class useless? Well excluding the fact that Sorcerers get way more sorcery points, metamagic options, and the ability to turn their spell slots into Sorcery points (and vice-versa)? Put bluntly your options are:
Make (Charisma Mod) creatures succeed their saving throw for your spell. (Rarely going to be used unless you’re already a Charisma caster.)
Double the range of your spell. (Maybe useful for a Cleric to extend the range of Cure Wounds idk.)
Reroll (Charisma Mod) damage die. (Kinda useful for spells that roll few dice.)
Double the duration of your spell. (Perhaps some niche use with certain spells.)
Can’t use Heightened Spell
Can cast one spell / cantrip as a Bonus Action. (One use of a bonus action spell isn’t really worth a whole feat.)
Cast 2 spells without verbal or somatic components. (Can’t be counterspelled!)
Make a spell of first or second level hit two targets. (Actually has some niche use for certain spells. Particularly nice to get extra value out of healing spells.)
(UA)
Change the damage type of a spell. (Maybe useful for Tempest Clerics? But barely.)
Ignore cover. (Very rarely useful.)
Reroll a spell attack once. (Kinda meh; might be useful if you have a very big attack roll spell but you probably won’t.)
I think the main thing Reddit is upset about is two uses of Subtle Spell for a Wizard but... if your player took anti-counter spell insurance instead of an ASI let them have it? Chances are you’re way too counter spell-obsessed if the Wizard casting a good spell once and awhile ruins your game.
As for the feat itself? The two that rely on your Charisma mod are hard to use for that exact reason. Beyond that there are some interesting ones beyond “anti-counter spell insurance” but I feel like two Sorcery points to use on metamagics isn’t enough. Probably a testament to how underwhelming the Sorcerer class is as a whole.
3 / 5
Piercer
It’s Savage Attacker and Brutal Critical combined in one half feat. I guess if you’re using Piercing weapons but I can’t shake the feeling that Savage Attacker would be the better option.
One interesting thing to note is that essentially all ranged weapons do piercing damage, and this feat doesn’t have a melee limitation like Savage Attacker. This could be a good feat for a bow fighter to do more reliable damage.
The irony though is that even though this is essentially just Savage Attacker I’m forced to say it’s overpowered since it provides more utility than Savage Attacker (assuming you don’t use weapons that don’t do piercing damage) as a half feat. This isn’t really a testament to this feat being overpowered, but rather that Savage Attacker should honestly probably be a half feat as well.
2 / 5
Poisoner
This is how poisons should work! It’s perfect for someone who wants it, and it looks well-balanced overall. The gold cost, action economy, and CON save requirements makes this feat fair for the DM.
It’s interesting that this feat allows you to ignore resistance to poison but not immunity. Poison was one of the elements Elemental Adept couldn’t affect which was part of the reason that Green Draconic Sorcerer was so bad (among the zillion and one other problems with Poison damage.) Overall this feat is really awesome but it’s held back by poison damage as a whole in 5e. Basically if this was for any other damage type than poison it would be great (which makes me wonder what this feat would be like with flaming poison.)
4 / 5
Practiced Expert
This is basically a slightly worse version of the Prodigy feat but it’s a half-feat and it’s for all races instead of just for humans and half-races... honestly  Prodigy is such a shit feat that I see no issue with this. I already let non-humans take Prodigy in my campaigns. My only real complaint is that this feat proves that Prodigy (as well as the Skilled feat) should probably be half feats.
4 / 5
Shadow Touched
Darkness is very hard to use without abilities to see through it (Devil’s Sight.) But other than that what can you get? Disguise Self? Just take Eldritch Adept instead for unlimited Disguise Self. There are very few low-level Illusion / Necromancy spells when compared to Divination / Enchantment. There are some midway decent ones (Inflict Wounds) but is it really worth it to lose an ASI for Darkness and Inflict Wounds? Put bluntly: no. Maybe some niche use for Darkness spam Warlocks to get an extra “spell slot” but it’s still underwhelming.
2 / 5
Shield Training
It’s nice to be able to grab a shield as a caster who likely has their off-hand open anyways. It’s also nice for a fighter to be able to “chance stances” and drop their AC in exchange for harder hits. The only part that bugs me about this feat is that the fantasy of an arcane caster using a shield as a focus is weird to me. I feel like there should at least be some sort of gold cost to convert a shield into a “not-quite Ruby of the War Mage” that can be used as an Arcane Focus.
3 / 5
Slasher
This feel like the best of the damage feats since it actually lets you do some unique stuff. Being able to slow enemies (without fucking Sentinel) lets melee fighters keep their allies safe, and giving allies disadvantage to hit you allows you to be a lot sturdier.
The sad truth is that this is probably the most underwhelming of the damage feats though. It’s very hard to use this feat as anything other than a Swashbuckler Rogue, and in order to get Slashing damage as a Rogue (Scimitar) you’d need to blow another feat or do some multiclassing. Slows in melee range are largely useless, and the crit is unreliable. I really want this feat to be better.
4 / 5
Tandem Tactician
Here’s the one feat I honestly have a big problem with. I don’t think being able to Help as a Bonus Action makes this feat OP. (It’s nice for anyone to be able to gain access to a useful Bonus Action without multiclassing.) But the problem lies in the fact that this feat lets you affect two people with the Help action. This makes the ability to give two melee allies (such as your Rogue) Advantage even more broken. People can already testify to how strong Mastermind Rogue is for its action economy increase.
And the best part? This feat still fails at giving Bonus Action Economy to “everyone” since backline characters can’t use the 10 foot range Help. I’d much rather this feat be given 30 feet, and Mastermind Rogue given an eratta to have its ability reach 60 feet or something idk.
1 / 5 - OP and dumb award for being OP and dumb
Tracker
“LOL RANGER IS OFFICIALLY USELESS NOW XDDDD” Jokes aside Hunter’s Mark and tracking abilities is good value for a half feat. Magic Initiate (Warlock) or Fey Touched are still probably better than this feat, but if you need the Survival skill then this is helpful.
4 / 5
FINAL RATINGS
Favorite Feat: Eldritch Adept
Least Favorite Feat: Crusher
Most OP Feat: Tandem Tactician
Weakest Feat: Shadow Touched / Chef
Overall this Unearthed Arcana excites me because I’ve always liked Feats and thought that they were cool. In my opinion it’s much more interesting to create a character with unique abilities over one that’s just traditionally strong. A lot of these feats need revision but I hope that practically all of these get published so we can make some truly unique characters with them.
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autisticandroids · 4 years
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1. “who’s your celebrity crush?”
i don’t really have one? celebrity fandom in general is not my scene. I guess i would say that michelle yeoh is talented and sexy in everything. like, i know nothing about her as a person but i enjoy watching her act and i think she’s really attractive, so..... michelle yeoh?
4. “ do you think its ok to separate the artist from the art?“
yeah. this is a weird, complicated question, but broadly yeah. i think the context of art should probably be acknowledged, but that goes way beyond who made it. it includes things like what kind of society was it made in, who was it made for, what was it influenced by, what impact did it have. and i also think it’s not immoral to ignore any of those things. i think good analysis - good as in skillful, not good as in morally correct - should take them into account, even if all “taking them into account” means is acknowledging that one is intentionally recontextualizing the work, or ignoring something about its context. an analysis of art that completely ignores broader context is more likely to be a poor analysis, especially if there is significant space of time and culture between the creation of the art and the analysis being done.
however, because this is tumblr, i think the question being asked here is more along the lines of “is it wrong to enjoy hp lovecraft’s work even though he was a racist” or “is it wrong to like harry potter even though jkr has turned out to be a terf” and the answer to those questions is “no.” like it’s pretty categorically “no.” if you’re concerned about this, and the original creator is still alive, you can take steps to keep your money from going to them, but their art doesn’t have cooties on it. it probably has some of their bigoted ideas but like. most, nay, all art carries within it bigoted ideas. art was made in the context of society and society is bigoted. there is probably bigotry that we don’t understand in those 30,000 year old cave paintings in france. 
29.  “ what quote or inspirational setting do you think is bs?”
i find this question kind of confusing. but i’m also not really one for inspirational quotes. i think a lot of them are pretty sounding nonsense, and a lot of others are true but mainly useless platitudes. but i’m also not generally the target audience for things like inspirational quotes; i’m very much a glass half empty type and we’re not big on inspiration, in general. 
i guess one that i used to see every day on a poster at my high school that always struck me as wise, but then i thought about it and i decided it wasn’t, was that einstein quote. madness is doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different result, or something like that. because when i thought about it, well. have you ever tried to open a jar, and then handed it to someone else, and they got it first try? i do this all the time, both as the hander and the handee. it works because the first person genuinely does manage to loosen the jar, but not before they tire out their hands too much to get it all the way. the correct solution to the jar problem IS in fact to try the same thing over and over until it works, because every attempt loosens it just a little bit. that’s what i always think of when i see that quote.
39. “describe your aesthetic”
oh man. oh no. this is actually quite hard, y’know. my personal aesthetic? the aesthetic of things i like to look at? how i wish i could dress, sans bodily constraints? what i wish my house looked like? what i wish my life story looked like? the kinds of stories i like to read?
i guess i’ll give you a list of things i like in a very aesthetic way, that reveal a few of my disconnected aesthetic sensibilities.
coloring books where you can color in complex, retrofuturistic cityscapes devoid of inhabitants
Alice (1988) dir. Jan Švankmajer
stories with a lot of intrigue and diplomacy
the like, sexy overalls romper outfit that the android girl wears in star trek tos “what are little girls made of?”
a floor length wine red dress that i own that looks like a ballgown and makes me look like a fancy heiress, but is actually made of t-shirt fabric, so it’s so soft that i’ve slept in it before, and so stretchy that i could theoretically use it as a tent.
stories where some sort of murder or attempted murder is used as a subtext proxy for being gay
the romulan uniforms in star trek tng
the experience of watching lost before they started ever trying to (poorly) explain the mysteries
The Rise and Fall of Ziggy Stardust and the Spiders from Mars (1972)
oldtimey stories about “scientists” who are actually just rich guys who do experiments in their attic, which is actually all a scientist really WAS at the time, going Too Far and blaspheming against god. even better if their punishment doesn’t stick and they don’t stop
the part in tinker tailor soldier spy where ann says “i cough when there are things i can’t say,” or rather the fact that she says it
stories about absolute, poisonous obsession 
my memory of being seven years old watching the scene in the fellowship of the ring where galadriel almost takes the ring, where instead of just going all green and her hair blowing around, galadriel’s face becomes an empty white china masquerade mask, and her body turns to living, swirling ribbons in a whirlwind twelve feet tall
the little doll i made out of my night vale angels headcanon when i was sixteen, and the drawing i based it on
the mere concept of alia, from dune
the bits inside the witches, from madoka magica, where the animation gets all fucked up and stop motiony
stories about absolute loyalty and devotion, whether that’s to a person or a belief system
like everything visual about Mirrormask but especially this scene
the whole like, old fashioned cold war style underground bunkers where science goes too far aesthetic that scp wiki has going on
the first episode or maybe two of this anime, but none of the subsequent episodes, which all suck shit tragically
abandoned buildings, and the impression that if one were to go deep enough into one, one would find a secret inside, like a portal to another world, or a very nonhuman inhabitant
this is a list of some things. i guess
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violexides · 4 years
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Slavmaeda- My (Hopefully Only) Statement
Note: The times listed here are mostly in EST. If it is in another time, it will state in parentheses. The other time will usually be Polish time.
Another Note: @slavmaedasaga exists, now, for all the posts. I don’t know who made it.
Possible Blackened-
Fir (aka Firanka)
Sunflower
Marshpy
Daniel
Jago
People who follow Sunflower / Marshpy / Fir / Jago
Gay Nagito Komaeda 
Experiencecarrots
Slavmaedasaga
Monokuma File- At an unspecified time this morning, Sunflower received an anon, posting “Slavmaeda rights” continuously until hitting the character limit. At 9:12 AM, Firanka confirms to receiving a similar ask. At 9:17 AM, Fir announces the case to a public discord server, “Danganronpa 2: Tropical Despair”. At 3:50 PM (POLISH TIME), Marshpy receives this ask. At 10:13 AM (or six minutes later, according to Fir), Jago receives a Slavmaeda rights ask. Then, everything went to hell.
TRUTH BULLETS
Alternate Anons: Other anons during this initial period of time were sending Sunflower asks.
“Fir”: One of these anons, not sent by Fir, uses her nickname.
Marshpy’s Account: She states to not having enough bastard energies, as well as her identity as “not Slavic” as proof of her innocence.
See: Marshpy’s Confession.
Marshpy’s Confession: Marshpy admits to sending the asks that went to sunflower and Fir, but none others.
She says she thought it would be funny.
Jago’s Account: [Jago’s] main line of defense is the website & the fact [Jago is] managing a group RP at the same time, [Jago] didnt even have tumblr opened until the situation started.
Jago proves in a screenshot that the first time she opened tumblr was at 10:12 AM.
Sunflower’s Account: She was typing up a character analysis, talking on a server, and answering other posts. Therefore, she did not have time to post these.
Worth noting that later, she would mark the times she was on/off tumblr.
Fir’s Account: She claims to being “confused the entire time”, which she admits herself is a weak alibi. She also states which specific anons she sent sunflower, none of these being the Slavmaeda posts.
See: Fir’s Confession.
Typing Patterns: The first ask was the same set of three “Slavmaeda rights” copy pasted, meaning that every third “Slavmaeda rights”, starting from the first one, had a capital S.
The second was in this same pattern.
The third was in all caps.
The forth had alternating letter capitalization.
Note: After this point, so many asks were coming in that it is hard to establish which typing patterns were used. However, it is worth saying that there were different typing and capitalization patterns.
Notes (Kind of useless but I typed it so whatever): As of typing this, Jago’s post received no notes.
Marshpy’s only received Sunflower and Fir’s declarations of innocence.
Sunflower’s posts received scattered notes.
Fir’s received an unspecified number of notes.
Sunflower’s posts, later, were reblogged frequently by the account “slavmaedasaga”
Daniel’s Account: Daniel is a bastard.
They have no tumblr account, so they can’t leave notes.
Anons can be sent without a tumblr account.
See: Daniel’s Confession.
Jago’s Website: “[It’s] not finished and navigation still is wonky but I can show if I need to prove [I’m] not really paying attention to tumblr rn”
It’s a really dope website not going to lie.
Just. Well done, Jago.
However, this could have been an alibi, planned, as Jago has been watching but suspiciously not contributing much.
Class Trial Rules: Only the first blackened gets punished.
This has nothing to do with anything.
We aren’t a class so technically it’s not a class trial.
But this is still an interesting point, motivation wise.
RickRolling Part One: Daniel is a bastard and a Mikan Kinne.
Deleted Message: Fir paraphrases it as “[trial participants] haven’t noticed something.”
This was deleted.
Daniel sent it.
Threat: “The Slavmaeda Revolution will continue without you” was sent to Marshpy at 10:31 AM.
Daniel claims this was not them.
Fir’s Confession: Fir claims to have sent the Slavmaeda asks to Jago and Marshpy, but did not send the Slavmaeda Revolution asks.
Rickrolling Ask: Someone copy and pastes the lyrics to “Never Gonna Give You Up” and sends it to Fir. After maybe a minute, she receives another Slavmaeda Rights ask.
This Slavmaeda Rights has the same typing patterns as Marshpy’s, except it cuts itself off at the end with a dash.
Threat Redux: Sunflower receives an ask that says “the slavmaeda nation shall remain eternal”
Gay-Nagito-Komaeda’s Account: They just follow Fir and are confused.
They’re innocent it’s just worth noting.
They later joined the Tropical Despair Discord Server.
Sunflower’s Ask: “slavmaeda is inevitable. succumb.”
10:55 AM.
Unsettling Truth: There is no way to track this, because, while certain asks have to have been sent by people in the server contextually, there could be people following Sunflower sending her asks, Fir sending her asks, etc.
Re: The Unsettling Truth: “Slavmaeda has already infiltrated your little trial. You are not safe there. Submit to the revolution.”
10:58 AM
Sunflower’s New Ask: The same Slavemaeda Rights that came with the Rickroll Fir received.
Sunflower’s Time Off Tumblr: 11:07 AM-11:09
11:20 AM-
Other Shit: “Rick rolling is the Slavmaeda National Anthem” (11:09 AM) (Fir)
Slavmaeda Rights (Robyn) (11:11 AM)
“Slavmaeda Slavmaeda Slavmaeda Slavmaeda” (Fir) (11:13) (not an anon, sent as daniel)
Daniel’s Confession: This fucking Mikan Kinnie.
Sent “a lot of [fir’s asks]” and “sent the revolution one to marshpy”
Experiencecarrots: “slavmaeda is the only alibi :)”
I’m gonna be honest, nobody on this server claims to be carrots.
So I have no fucking clue what is going on.
By the way, [I] is Sunflower.
THOUGHTS BEFORE POSTING:
It’s so fucking hard to track so I’m not sure if this is even accurate. This is the most information I’ve got. I’m also tired, so I haven’t looked through this in too much depth. But I think this is correct.
HANGMAN’S GAMBIT
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r e v o l u t i o n
WHITE NOISE
Lyrics to Never Gonna Give You Up
EDIT ONE - The server this is on is Danganronpa 2: Tropical Despair. 
EDIT TWO - Ignore the Hangman’s Gambit and White Noise, I got carried away.
EDIT THREE - Experiencecarrots confirms to not be on the server. I sort of figured because I think we were mutuals long before this happened, but at the same time, I’m confused as all hell.
EDIT FOUR - Maybe the real culprits were the friends we made along the way.
EDIT FIVE - Carrot’s Account (via tumblr): “Hey hey hey! I only liked the post because I refresh my feed every 2 seconds and like whatever’s there. And I follow pretty much anyone I find, so ha. Also thanks for letting me be a suspect, quite the honor if I say so myself :)” This is regarding claims of being suspicious due to being the first likes on posts, as well as following slavmaedasaga.
EDIT SIX - Gay Nagito Komaeda’s Confession: They sent Fir the rickroll ask, which was incredibly coincidental, considering that they were not in the Tropical Despair Server at the time they sent it, nor at the time Daniel rickrolled us. That was pure fucking luck. Holy shit.
EDIT SEVEN - slavmaedasaga is, most likely, on Tropical Despair. They updated the rickroll post with, in the tags, “komaeda”, meaning that they knew that it was Gay Nagito Komaeda. HOWEVER, I am aware that I updated my post with this information. We have no actual timestamps of who did what exactly, but it was within minutes of each other. My personal thoughts are that this is a person on the server, but I’m not certain.
EDIT EIGHT - slavmaedasaga claims to be a single person. It is worth considering that they could not be, but I have a feeling like they are a single person. 
EDIT NINE - Daniel knows who slavmaedasaga is. It’s probably Daniel, isn’t it. We should have seen that coming. (But I will hold my suspicions until they say it themself.)
EDIT TEN - I want to make a public apology for mistreating my spaghetti. I understand that, in the light of recent allegations regarding slavmaeda and the trial ongoing to find the blackened, it may have appeared as if I have been so caught up in the information that I forgot to treat my spaghetti with care. I assure you in the future that I will never hurt my spaghetti again. 
EDIT ELEVEN - There is now a tumblr blog called “slavmaeda rights”, which is entirely focused on slavmaeda rights. I’m losing my mind.
EDIT TWELVE - Slavmaedarights deleted their post that had “Slavmaeda rights” over and over.
EDIT THIRTEEN - Worth clarifying. There are technically two “og Slavmaeda” people. One is Fir, who started all of this by mentioning the concept of slavmaeda. The other is Marshpy.
EDIT FOURTEEN - Slavmaedasaga is in Tropical Despair. We raised suspicions in this server (More specifically, Gay Komaeda Nagito did) that they were the same as slavmaedarights. They very quickly made a post denying this. Therefore, they have to have been in the server. 
EDIT FIFTEEN - Slavmaedarights posted again (just slavmaeda rights over and over) then deleted it. I never saw this with my two eyes. Marshpy and Gay Nagito Komaeda are eye witnesses. Some of the “S”s in rights were capitalized, according to Marshpy, which is vital to consider. Marshpy claims that there is no isolated S in this post, but she isn’t certain. Also worth considering. A deviation from a familiar pattern, which is interesting. 
EDIT SIXTEEN - TWO CRUCIAL BITS OF INFO! The description of Slavmaedasaga is “Hope” in Bulgarian. Also, Daniel bluffed when they said, in the Tropical Despair server, that they knew who “Saga” is. They just wanted clout. This is important info-- we have no leads on Slavmaedasaga. But we do know that it was likely not Daniel. Daniel accuses Marshpy. who knows. 
EDIT SEVENTEEN - Marshpy was shopping when "Saga” started, and Daniel sent a cryptic smiley face. They claim they were wrong about accusing Marshpy. 
EDIT EIGHTEEN - SLVRights = Damien. They aren’t the same person as SLVSaga. Daniel has shown evidence that they only have one blog. I’m getting funky anons. One anon is the same person, sending theories. There are some others. The theory anon also called me sun, which isn’t explicitly odd but I guess you can consider it. Not sure what else to say. 
EDIT NINETEEN - Haven’t been updating this enough. I’m getting a lot of messages and asks. “Beg. Beg for the answers. Slavmaeda is an unforgiving god. -Damien” was posted, then deleted, on the SLVRights blog in binary. I have an anon in binary. I’m inclined to believe they aren’t the same person. Someone on the server, not related on the tumblr side but helpful on the server side, has a theory. They have yet to say. I have a new ask.
EDIT TWENTY - Firanka wanted me to say that a lot of Tropical Despair people are having wifi issues. I highly doubt this is relevant. Damien posted something. I won’t type it here, because it is long, but I’ll see if I can reblog it. If not, I’ll write a transcript. Thanks for sticking with me. 
EDIT TWENTY ONE - A lot has gone on. Worth saying, I turned off my anonymous asks. Nothing happened. As in like, nobody sent any asks. One of my friends did as a test. I kept it like that for a while. But, as Daniel put it, cryptid hints are better than no hints. 
EDIT TWENTY TWO - Further clarification, for those lost. According to present information, Binary, Saga, and Damien are all separate people. That is as far as we know. I don’t know everyone who did this, so I apologize if I leave certain people out, but Daniel, Nebby, Firanka (there is still suspicion), Glitter (on server), and I have shown screenshots proving we only have our one blog. There are likely loopholes, but... worth considering.
EDIT TWENTY THREE - New stuff surfacing. I’m worried people are getting anxious because of some of this. If you are, please prioritize yourself. Like, literally, even if you’re a huge part of this, if you’re getting stressed? Take a breather. Stay safe. Alright? Not to be the mom of this situation. But it’s important. Take care of yourself. I’m leaving this pinned, but as it winds down, i’m probably gonna unpin this post. But, still here if you ever want to figure stuff out. 
EDIT TWENTY FOUR - Approaching 400 posts. That’s interesting. Also, the suspect list on here isn’t updated. Updated information is in the edits alone. I haven’t even looked at the truth bullets since posting.
EDIT TWENTY FIVE - “Binary” was run by @experiencecarrots. We don’t know who Saga or Damien (now going by just “B”) is. But. Most of this has settled down.
EDIT TWENTY SIX - “Saga” was @firankamipinska. Still waiting for B.
EDIT TWENTY SEVEN - No closer to finding out B. A new day has started. Slavmaedanation has been created. They “declared war” against B. 
EDIT TWENTY EIGHT - @gayer-nagito-komeada was Rights. To be honest. I don’t know how we didn’t see that one coming. But. There you go. They’re Damien/B/Rights. Now it’s just Nation to figure out. 
EDIT TWENTY NINE - Nation is @firankamipinska. I’m not really surprised, probably because she told me she was Nation. Nation was essentially supposed to figure out who Damien was. I was too tired to give much of a shit. I woke up at 7 yesterday. I had no fucking spoons. Zero. 
FINAL EDIT - Four blogs, a discord server, a channel in a discord server, and many friends were made through the Slavmaeda experience. Thank you all for embarking on this crazy ass experience with us. I can’t believe that the day after my birthday, I helped create a meme. Have a nice day. 
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kngcrw · 5 years
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WOW, OKAY. so straight off the bat i just want to say thank you so so so much; i left the tumblr rp community around 3 years ago after countless bad experiences that left me feeling pretty useless & shitty and i swore to myself i wouldn’t return. but then i began reading the asoiaf books and rewatched the show in preparation for the new season and jon snow just appeared before me in a shroud of light like “fuckin write me u coward” and i was like …. ok. i didn’t think i would last a day tbh. honestly i have fuckin terrible anxiety and i literally could not find the courage to message a single person but then all these lovely people started messaging me and like…. this was two months and 400 followers ago now and i have made some amazing friends that like, i genuinely could not imagine my life without. i wouldn’t even want to. so here’s a post to celebrate all you lovely gorgeous little fucks (and also me but i do that everyday so)
THE USUAL SHITS:
@win-cr-die: ughhhhh, i suppose i kind of have to start with you. sharna, i hate writing about you on tumblr and i must say that. you’re not a ‘tumblr’ friend; you are literally my irl best friend (fuck me i need to get new friends). honestly, i say i don’t believe in fate (me: i don’t believe in fate. me at 3am: so anyway me n the guy i like sold the same amount of popcorn so like. soulmates?>>??) but the fact that we both happened to make an account on the same day is just fate. like, there’s no two ways about it. i have never found someone who gets my writing flowing quite the way that you do (i say as 2242 of ur threads sit in my drafts). i have never found someone that gets ME flowing the way you do, like i start talking to you and suddenly you’ve got 30 minutes of footage that is me just spilling absolute irrelevant shit. you are the most beautiful, wonderful, talented person that i have ever met and you get me in a way that almost no one in my life ever has before. i don’t know if i believe in ‘soulmates’ so to speak, but whenever i talk to you (when you’re not annoying the fuck out of me anyway) i can’t help but just feel this magnetic pull between us. i am so so so so grateful to have you in my life. thank you for existing man, i love you so much.
@hermothersdaughtxr: do you ever just meet someone and instantly feel like you have known them all your life? because i definitely feel that way with you, marty stew. honestly nicole you make me laugh so fucking much and you’re so kind and talented and wonderful and amazing and oH MY GOD I STAN. you my fuckin cinnamon apple. and i am very glad i met you (jonsa) but oh my god no i love you okay and i will love u forever x
@northernxking: she is the mother i’ve never had, she is the sister everybody would want, she is the friend everybody deserves. i don’t know a better person. honestly dj not to be dramatic but you are my KING THOT. there have been several occasions where i genuinely thought i was going to wee at the things you have said. you are one of my fav people to talk to just because you give off such fucking POSITIVE vibes, like literally you are sunlight n u can bathe me in ur warmth x and honestly, i don’t know where i’d be as a jon player without ur robb. you are an amazing writer and an even more amazing person, brothercousin.
@agirlofwinterfell: the arya to my jon, the love of my life. britney, you are incredible. you are so talented and so so fucking knowledgeable and you always make me cry with your au ideas. i have so much respect in my heart for you that i can’t even put it into words. i respect how much pure, devoted love you have for your muse and i respect you as an entire person in general; you are so kind and welcoming and thoughtful and i just love you to bits little sister.
@hakune / @kingwholost: lMFAO i just got so confused trying to find ur multi i didn’t know what was happening. anyway, alice, my lil sugar pie. the logan to my jake. it’s everyday bro. honestly omg messages from you literally NEVER fail to  brighten up my day. you are an actual ray of sunshine in my life and your mind IS SO POWERFUL, I AM SHOOK. ur a beautiful amazing lil thing and u have the cutest fucking most smart cat in the world (i mean other than me) & i just love you to pieces. keep doin what u do xx
@lghtbrnger: nan omg first of all thank u so much for streaming the guy who didn’t like musicals on movie night because i have rewatched it twice since and i am OBSESSED. honestly ur just an angel and you always make me smile and ur so funny and ur such a beautifully brilliant arya and i just wanna smoosh u in the face oki
@thcbull: Whoa there! did someone say chy? honestly hello i love you and i support you and i think u r genuinely amazing and i just iesjdkfhgkusjfdxch, you are such a fuckin qUALITY gendry and just a fuckin qUALITY person all around and i guess just thanks for being the lil star you are?? i love u bitch. i ain’t ever gonna stop lovin’ you, bitch.
@wildleng: o m g lexa i havent even known u long and we are yet to really get into writing because of my dumbass muse but yOU ARE A LIL BUTTERCUP and you are so cute and funny and i am so glad to have an ygritte who loves n respects jongritte as much as you do. you are a fucking incredible ygritte writer, like i can hear her so clearly in your writing and you just embody her perfectly and i am so so so thankful that you wanna write with me at all so like. thank you???????? so much????????
@dracaesanguinem && @bonfierhearts I AM TRASH AND I LOVE YOU QUEENS SO MUCH I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU
THE CRU (aka the amazing fucks who i love on the daily and have a very special place in my heart and are just bloody brilliant ):
@loyalservants | @ofwintcrfell | @thesellsword / @thedolorous | @serbriennecftarth  | @fightsbck  / @stagnot | @strklings | @silentshadcw | @foreignaccent | @fiercebark | @omenofstorms | @astormofagirl | @ofjordayne | @littlealinabolton / @redjackettm | @mombeavty | @zaldrczes | @xneedlepoint | @wolfqueennamedstark | @ascruelascunning | @hefzyisback | @sanscreginc | @exilekniight
PPL I ADMIRE FROM AFAR (it might be that we havent rly spoken much cause im dumb and scared of anything that moves but i see u on my dash on the regular and think fUCK ME THIS IS  Q U A L I T Y  n u deserve to kno u are quality ):
@crwninglry | @boltxnbastard | @reekcd | @wineinthewidow | @naathborn | @estoires | @ashccra | @bearchiild |  @cthlicdevil | @killthebxy | @onceporcelain | @blodistridi | @northwarg | @hesquired​ | @cursedslayer​ | @perzyr​ | @lyspider​ | @unsulliied​ | @northeir​
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