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antianakin · 3 months
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A question, if I may? Do you think Anakin, as he was when he first joined the Jedi Order in TPM, was doomed to fail as a Jedi, so to speak? In-universe, not out-of-universe meta. At that point, do you think it could have gone either way for him, in that he was still capable of becoming a Jedi? And may I be cheeky and ask for full details of why you think that, one way or another?
I've written a post about this before because my answer to this kind-of encapsulates my primary interpretation of Anakin as a character.
In case people don't want to click the link, I'll rehash it a little below.
I think Anakin never would've been a good Jedi because by the time you reach him in TPM, he's already the kind of person whose values and desires don't match up with the Jedi lifestyle. This doesn't make him a bad PERSON, at all, and he's entirely capable of getting a lot of good out of the Jedi's teachings. I think that Anakin was capable of really being able to HEAL through Jedi training, but that if he had been able to really learn from them the way he should've, he would've left the Order voluntarily eventually out of recognition that this life ISN'T WHAT HE REALLY WANTS. Anakin doesn't WANT to be as limited as the Jedi are forced to be by making themselves answer to the Senate and the Chancellor. Anakin DOES want to be able to prioritize the people he personally cares about (in the more normal way that people tend to do, not the genocidal way he does in canon).
And all of this is FINE. Honestly, I think this is the ultimate good outcome for Anakin, to spend enough time with the Jedi to allow their teachings to heal him from his past and give him control over himself to the point that he can pursue the life he really wants in a healthy way. I think Anakin was always capable of being an incredible person and the character we see in TPM is entirely capable of going either way on that, but no, he'd never make a good Jedi.
I also think that if Anakin had been found a much YOUNGER age, like 3 or younger, he'd have been perfectly capable of being a good Jedi. It would remove his attachment to Shmi and the way they had to live their lives, it would allow him to have a better foundation of Jedi philosophies, and it would help him to really see the JEDI as his family rather than constantly searching for a "real" family beyond them. This interpretation comes straight from Lucas himself, who has said that if Anakin had been found at a much younger age, he'd have been fine with being a Jedi, but that being found late was, in many ways, his first stumbling block towards darkness. And that's no one's FAULT, obviously (aside from perhaps the slavers who took Shmi), but it doesn't make it any less true.
Let me know if you want more details on my personal interpretation of this!
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acaesic · 1 month
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im drawing some sixft art rn and im actually really happy with it so far i hope you guys like it :)
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franken-loser · 9 days
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I drew Henry and Victor as pin-ups from my pin-ups card deck🤭🤭
Blood and (non explicitly sexual) nudity
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tigergendermoved · 6 months
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Remembering the toxic hellscape that was 2015-2019ish SU fandom and just how much hate the show got is really insane when you rewatch the show after it's been a while. Like the show is good what the hell were any of these people talking about
#do NOT quote me on those numbers i pulled them straight out of my ass#like the ending was rushed and the diamonds didnt get to be fully developed but liek#the whole reason that was the case is there was an entire 6th season planned#and then the show got axed early because rebecca sugar and crew refused the back down on the rupphire wedding.#and even rushedness aside like the point of the show was never that you should hug fascists and forgive people no matter what#the diamond were rose's (and his) dysfunctional family whose personal suffering became the basis for the cruelty of gem society#bismuth in The Real World would have been right to want to kill the diamonds as a force of revolution#but the point of the show is that even the most complicated people are still people who can change. even if you dont forgive them#even steven quartz universe the most loving boy in the world very obviously does not like being around the diamonds. but that is how it is#it was a children's show that emphasized compassion and communication and family as themes. of course steven didnt kill the diamonds lol#i really fully believe the stevenbomb format (which was not the crew's choice or fault) cooked peoples' brains#you had months between major arcs so every wrongdoing by a character had months to be warped and misinterpreted and so no resolution could#ever satisfy fans who were festering with their own opinions for way too long#like these arcs looking back are not that long and they resolve in fairly reasonable manners but they took fuckin forever in real time to#wrap up#and ppl on the internet with no other hobbies than arguing made the fandom suck to be in and gave su a bad name#even if you dont like steven universe i think the amount of vitriol thrown at the show is/was fucking INSANE for what it is lmaooo#people were so so jolly to accuse rebecca sugar (a jewish lady) of being a fascist/fash sympathizer and paint every writing shortcoming or#morally dubious character action as a sign of pure fuckin evil#ok that was a long ass fuckin rant in the tags i am so sorry i'm just kind of opinionated on this matter as i am all matters#i've been rewatching su with my dad lately and this very normal and well paced and fun watchthrough experience has been illuminating#just how insane and uncalled for the hellish discourse sphere around su was/is#i say was/is i have no idea what su discourse is like nowadays. i'm too scareds to look in the su crit tag
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piosplayhouse · 2 years
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Desperately printing out moshang pictures to show to mdzs and tgcf mains and shouting PLEASE LOOK AT MY BOYS! THEYRE A CANONICAL MAIN MXTX COUPLE TOO JUST LIKE HUALIAN WANGXIAN BINGQIU I SWEAR while they cross the street trying to avoid me
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quarklynx · 2 months
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A seemingly never ending story full of riveting arcs and hooks that continuously built on one another time and time again, and it ends like that??? With a god damn cliffhanger???!?! Im gonna combust
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everytime i take a tiny triangle out of the cake i made my brother comes in and cuts off a trapezium, making the cut a single clean line. it would be vaguely funny but like i made the thing and like could he not eat it all without leaving some for me
#rant#i guess#it really fucking annoys me how i have to cut off my share in everything that comes in this house ever#like always stay on alert for your food and stash away your share or its gonna be gone by morning#i dont even know why its making me frustrated enough to cry#its just. nice good food has always been a treat and motivator for me and my brother has a habit of always grabbing my share too#it sounds so silly out of context but like. ive had a lifetime of going through a bad tiring day with nothing to look forward to but#a nap and something i like to eat. and always opening the fridge to an empty container#or worse the box is there but then i get in bed with a book and open the damn thing to find half a spoonful inside.#it would be annoying once or twice but its just. all the fucking time.#i hate this survivalistic shit#its not long before i move out thank god but still#he always did it when i was young and my mom hardly ever said anything#like now if i want i can get myself some treats but when i was younger i didnt have much choice.#i havent had the time to bake in two years and prep plus baking the layer cake took two days. i put so much work in it.#and he ate half of it by the time i came back from fucking peeing. i cant even say anything because he gets fucking angry and aggressive#at the drop of a hat so im. crying in my room about it. look my feelings are not as drownable and consuming now. i generally dont#let things like that affect me too much. but i feel so young again and like the entire world is so unfair. i don't know#writing my feelings out on a tumblr blog is so much better than journalling they should recommend this shit in therapy
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cybersteal · 1 month
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tagged by the fantastic @katsigian thank you bb! 😘
Questionnaire + 5 songs!
Songs:
Pulling from Vice's playlist - he (like me tbh) has a bit of an eclectic taste in music, so beware potential genre-whiplash if you do actually listen to them is all I'm sayin' coz I pulled these suckers at random.
All Of Nothing by The Birthday Massacre
Something Else by Childish Japes & Dave Vives
Willow Tree by Twin Wild
Heart Of Darkness by Grim Salvo & Sect Unit
When You Can't Dream At Night by Dayshell
These are all songs he would belt out while cruising NC with the windows of his car down.
Questions:
Three ships you like: Corvo/Outsider (Dishonored), John Silver/James Flint (Black Sails), Nathan Drake/Elena Fisher (Uncharted). These are ships I've actually crawled through pages upon pages of fic to get my fixes of.
First ship ever: Uhhh probably Rick/Evie from The Mummy. That movie is my comfort film.
Last song you heard: Coruja by Far From Alaska.
Favourite childhood book: All of these very pivotal in my mental and emotional development so they're all being mentioned - The Deltora series, The Song of the Lioness series, aaaaaaaand Tomorrow When The War Began series.
Currently reading: I don't actually read things other than fic, anymore 😅
Currently watching: Sons of Anarchy. I'm very late to this party, but I'm getting a lot of inspiration for Nomad shenanigans (like finding the guy who cut you off on the road just to beat him up - Vice would 1000% do that) and Charlie Hunnam is...basically as close as I'll get to a faceclaim for him, so. It's not that bad of a show either, honestly.
Currently craving: TTEOKBOKKI. Been craving this for years, ever since my fave Korean restaurant in my city closed during lockdown. God, I would [REDACTED] for a massively heaped dish of that rn.
Taglist: who the hell hasn't been tagged yet...sorry in advance if you've already been pinged for this, and there's no pressure to do it if you don't want to.......but I am curious 👀👀
@astarionhistears @cyberpunkmenace @totentnz @breezypunk @luvwich @aldecaldhos @nightcxty @hazellblogs @klept0kid
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widevibratobitch · 5 months
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so i am singing that vitellia in the end... but at what fucking cost.
'you gotta sing this softer'
'what'
'this is mozart'
'this is vitellia'
'this is mozart'
'im singing about how much i hate this mf and want him dead before the end of the day'
'this is mozart'
'i wanna murder a guy'
'this is mozart'
'...'
'softer. gentle. mozart'
'...ok'
#they're killing me here#i already bargained for ONE (1) note in chest (thank you so so much that i am ALLOWED to sing an A3 in chest voice <333) and now THIS#THIS is why people hate mozart. fuck you.#i recorded that rehearsal and the first version sounds SO MUCH BETTER. after i did what she asked me to do its just. so fucking boring.#i hate it here#i love this duet so much but frfr im not sure i wanna do it if i have to do it on their terms.#also like sorry to be a bitch but you're a pianist girl. just stick to your stuff and let me take care of mine.#just because you're playing this like you're constipated because tHiS iS mOzArT doesnt mean the rest of us dont care either.#its possible i never will get the chance to sing the entire vitellia so i want to do justice. as much as im able. to this one chance i get#it took me A Long While to deal with the fact that i wont be able to bark that 'indegno' and 'regno' like i always envisioned.#but like. ok. whatever. i can still make it Entertaining. THIS however. no. no fucking way.#and its not even about me being a big-headed know-it-all who thinks she's better than everyone because. lol and lmao clearly im Not#but this is about having a fucking SOUL. its about actually taking the libretto into consideration too. its about trying to figure out#WHY mozart wrote it the way he did. like sorry but this is another fiordiligi case where its CLEAR that the amplitudes the crazy jumps#are there FOR A REASON. the reason is HE WANTED A CONTRAST. some fucking EMOTION. he sure as hell didnt want it to be Soft And Gentle.#i know it because i talked to him and he told me im right about everything as always and you can eat shit girl bye#grrrrrrrr im so angry#i knos i sound so arrogant here but please. please i just want to make this music fun and enjoyable. i just dont want it to be boring#please understand my vision im begging you
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traumacure · 5 months
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"don't ask yourself what you deserve, ask yourself what you want!" bold of you to assume i even pretend to know the answer to either of those questions
#great advice for people for whom self esteem is the only issue! however i have many many many more things wrong with me 👍👍#''what do i want?'' is a question i feel even less equipped to answer than ''what do i deserve?''#at least for the question of what i deserve my self-loathing is happy to offer some potential-if-profoundly-unhelpful answers#but when i ask myself what i want i just don't know anymore. i used to think i did but now i have no clue#i only want the most vague things. happiness. fulfillment. peace. etc. and i have no idea what will bring me them#every step i took was wrong for so long i don't even trust in my ability to pursue my own happiness or know what i want anymore#i made myself so much more miserable & burned so many bridges in my feeble pursuit of some intangible ''better'' i was certain existed#but i don't even know that i believe in 'better' anymore. i want to but every attempt at getting there somehow just makes things even worse#i guess that's the answer isn't it? i'm too scared to want anything so i want for nothing at all#i want to be satisfied not through the fulfillment of my desires but through their total eradication within me#<- no wait i hit the nail on the head that's it that's why i'm so fucked up lately. i don't even want to want anymore i just think i do#i moan about missing desire but deep down i am still too scared to let it take hold of my heart again. i am scared to know what i want#because i am scared to want anything at all#i've been wrong about what i wanted more times than i've been right & i'm scared of being wrong again#i'm just as scared of being right about what i want for once only to realize it's completely & entirely out of reach#💙.txt#vent#👤#🕳#❌
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lab-gr0wn-lambs · 1 year
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Steven Universe.. hit different and I don’t really understand why? Thinking about any of my other old hypefixations, I smile. But Steven Universe just makes me a deeply uncomfortable kind of sad that latches onto my brain like a leech and doesn’t let go for many hours. And I have no idea what it did to deserve that lmao
#I guess this show was a much more massive part of my life than I realized?#it's not my favourite show but I think it's. part of me now#if I'd watched it all in one hit for the first time now I'd think ''woag that was awesome'' and proceed to be normal about it#I had a hard time being normal about things I really liked as a kid and 'cause this show went on for so long and I followed it religiously-#for the ENTIRE time it was airing-#I think it became a permanent resident in my brain along with the emotional state I was in when I started watching it#when I think of Steven Universe I'm flooded with all the ways my childhood self took it way too seriously#I think about things I just MADE UP about the show through theories and implied backstory- all the deeper things that never even happened#and it gives me this unscratchable itch. this weird sense of longing#wughfgdh anyways#my ears ache from getting weirdly choked up about this lmao#just did a shortened rewatch of the whole show through watching Scoot's reaction videos#and like#bruh#the show is y'know. REALLY GOOD. But not THAT good jesus christ#nothing is THAT good#it's kinda cool that I used to have such deep emotions about literally everything but man I'm glad I'm not 13 anymore bahah#mannnnnn I really set this show up for failure by expecting it to reach this impossible unachievable level of depth#and then being kinda bummed when it didn't#it's a CARTOON Cas. a reallly fucking good one just the way it is. calm down child#anyways might draw Greg because he's the goat#steven universe#rant#(?)
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boycattj · 7 months
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i think i wanna become a marine biologist .
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pepprs · 6 months
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ok i survived yom kippur. but it took every single scrap of strength in my body and i’m not completely better yet
#purrs#food#ask to tag#got my period thursday… bad cramps friday and saturday to the point where i had to go home early saturday (we were working lol 🤪)…. woke up#sunday with a. headache that got worse and worse throughout the day… 5-6 hours into the fast was in agony and felt like i was going to ****#so i… broke the fast and ate something at like 1am. then woke up in agony at 5am and then again at 9am and had a breakdown / fight with my#mom and then spend the whole rest of the fast deathly nauseous and my head hurting worse than ever. broke the fast an hour before everyone#else did (only ate a tiny bit) and then during the fast breaking dinner i started freaking out bc eating wasn’t making my head hurt less so#my grandpa told me to go lie down with a heating pad on my head and i did and slept for like 2 hours and it helped. finally feel better but#my head still hurts faintly and im scared it’ll come back. also i didn’t do my homework and missed class today to fast so im fucked#ive had headaches like this before but this is the worst one in a LONG time. it wasn’t a migraine bc those are in one specific spot iirc but#this was like… my ENTIRE face and the source of the pain migrated from my jaw to my temple to the bridge of my nose to the back of my head#etc etc and it kept moving around and was so sharp i didn’t even have the strength to open my eyes or walk around. and i think it was making#me interpret hunger as nausea. also i took my temperature bc i was flashing hot and cold and was like 2 degrees under normal body temp and#felt so weak and shaky and had body aches too. lol 😍 hpefully the worst of it is over but my head still hurts a little and im so scared itll#happen again. that was by far my worst fasting experience ever#delete later
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the-casbah-way · 6 months
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Surely Dexter knows what’s up now… right?
Also does anyone comment on Octavius’ appearance at the meeting that takes place at the end of the latest chapter??
dexter is certainly starting to uhhhh suspect something or other. i’m hoping that will come up in a later chapter (if i have enough time to fit it in that is). and i don’t think anyone would say anything at the meeting. dexter is definitely staring at octavius the entire time because he is like ‘my brother in christ you did NOT look like that half an hour ago’ but he doesn’t say anything. octavius is always a bit of a mess at work (this man takes naps under his desk on his lunch break and drinks fifty thousand cups of coffee a day and shows up late because he can’t drag himself out of bed in the morning) so i doubt kahmunrah, lance or attila would notice much to be honest, or at least care enough to say anything. they’re used to octavius constantly looking like he’s just woken up from a three year hibernation at this point
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thesunshineriptide · 2 years
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Thinkin about making a twst animatic of the octatrio (mostly the twins) to blood by my chemical romance. This has lead to me making a gif that I’m honestly p proud of so uh. Here’s “send you roses when they think you need to smile” ✨
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bluejaybytes · 8 months
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Actually if I'm talking about Pokemon today. Everyone please look at and admire my newest daughter.
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She took me ~200+ hours and 21,810 encounters. I was closer to triple odds than double. I've been hunting this goddamn Skarmory for well over a year at this point. I nearly failed the battle. I have never felt more simultaneous stress and relief in my entire life
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