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skinnypaleangryperson · 2 months
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Tumblr has made me so jaded and bitter. I desperately need an app to share a unique personalities and creativity, not a place where people just consume and don't care about anything but consumption and politics and arguments about various other superficial vapid things that don't matter like every other app.
Or even just a personality, I would take that too. The world could be so bright and interesting and my mental issues with clear up like anything if I could just meet people that I spiritually connected with, which happens maybe every once every blue moon but it's only those blue moons that keep me going.
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khascoil · 4 days
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Everchange
AU where the Sun does not go supernova but the Nomai are still dead. Approximately 100 years after the newest astronaut takes for space, Hearthians have technologically progressed to better stability. Not as much wood is used these days, but trees are still a staple of every Hearthian trace, easily terraforming every planet to their liking.
Almost concurrently, the solar system itself has calmed down into a cool temperament. The Twins' sand has been compressed into sandstone by Hearthian colonists and used as simple building materials. Timber Hearth now has every inch of its surface populated by Hearthians, and ghost matter has finally evaporated fully away. The Attlerock is now a forested moon and thriving. Brittle Hollow has been put back together somewhat, and Hollow's Lantern has dried up, now becoming an outpost colony with trees dotting the surface and buildings inside the volcanoes. Giant's Deep's cyclones are much rarer than they were 100 years ago, and the hurricane at the pole is long gone, the waters are calmer now, and the current is weaker. Dark Bramble is withering away and freezing up, the anglerfish have died off and the fog is sparser, the holes of the seeds are closing up. The Interloper is no longer a fixture of the solar system, it got flung out ages ago and is off to deep space. The Quantum Moon is the only body that hasn't changed beyond its purpose, it's hard to settle there, but some Hearthians manage.
The Hearthians make ample use of Nomai technology, with the Vessel having been extracted from Dark Bramble since the Hatchling found the Eye, and it now rests comfortably in orbit around the Sun. The Stranger is left alone, for the Hatchling took its secret to the grave to give those weary travelers their long deserved peace.
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my vibrator broke so i bought a new one but then that one broke too AND i just ran out of weed this is the worst day of my life it's so hard being a woman
the fucking horrors bro
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sofastuffing · 10 days
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started as a sketch for a collab with irls and then I went a bit overboard
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venomgaia · 1 year
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the golden death
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i love markiplier
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reginrokkr · 4 months
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𝐂𝐗𝐗𝐗𝐈. On another note, I have discovered something interesting. Before (I forgot how long it's been since then lol) I talked about Dain representing hope in two ways, one in his title as Twilight Sword —twilight can also be seen as the fall of something, but assuming that by his color palette he's to represent the blue hour, it also represents the previous moment to the rise of the sun, thus the coming of light— and another is his similarities with the Inteyvat.
He's a man full of rising against the odds: despite the curse he's still somehow sane, despite the corruption he doesn't have the breath of a monster, despite identifying himself as a Khaenri'ahn he isn't following the Abyss Order's steps, despite being a "dreg" for not being chosen by the gods and thus not holding a Vision, his strength is indisputable...
And to the previous two, I want to add a third one that is directly tied to his artwork, which depicts big black hole at his back (most likely related to his burst, as it is customary with other characters' artwork): the concept of light emerging from a black hole despite the fact that not even light can escape a black hole. What the theory says about this is that past the event horizon, only that which exceeds the speed of light —the highest speed of all— can escape the massive gravitational pull of the black hole.
However, there are elements such as light echoes or relativistic jets that give the impression of light escaping the black hole. The truth behind this is that, while they are technically in the black hole, the particles that cause this light are close to the event horizon but not past is so that they wouldn't be able to come out from it. Nevertheless, that doesn't mean that there isn't a gravitational pull there either. Anything that stays at that point can either fall or stay there and have its energy shine through.
I think that this could be another beautiful metaphor of what Dain is if we think of the black hole as the toxic and death-precipitating Abyss (I do this distinction because I'm one to think that in earlier times it wasn't that way, something more of a neutral ground instead) and he himself as that light that, "against all odds", escapes the black hole-Abyss even though it shouldn't be that way.
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messy-does-cosmology · 3 months
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so funny how my entire early teens was just me getting secretly obsessed with otherwise boring or embarassing pieces of media because I just had the most massive crushes on some actress in them
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royalberryriku · 4 months
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It's gonna be 39C (102.2f) and we don't have an aircon fuckkk I hate Australian summers. Especially since, at least here, it's humid af as well.
#personal#vent#it's 29C today and I'm barely able to function im gonna die tomorrow#plan is to wake up at the asscrack of dawn and go somewhere that does have aircon all day#we can't even fix it ourselves because it's not our house and we don't have permission to like come on#like the mall or something#or the supermarket#just turning around in the frozen food department like a rotisserie chicken to be cooled down instead of heated#There's some places i can sit down and vibe that have at least some aircon#better than none#also fuck our real estate for refusing to fix stuff because it costs them money and they want to “”wait“” to be able to pay it#it's fucking summer and we're quite literally toast while they want to save more for christmas#like bruh#y'all are already rich as fuck at least pay off the investment of SHELTER YOU PROVIDE FOR VERY HIGH PRICES#when honestly shelter should be free but damn gotta buy that extra fucking ham or toy train set lest it spoil christmas#like damn imagine having a low key Christmas to save money while actually paying your bills it's almost like thats always us and for what#so y'all can complain you have it hard that we pay for your shit then act surprised you gotta maintain the thing we pay for??#asshats probably don't even look at their electricity bill and ration the damn aircon and fans as if using too much means losing them ffs#anyway fuck the rich and this system that is centred around making basic shelter a commodity#rent is such a fucking scam and buying is like owning a black hole to throw your living expenses into if you dare to own your own shelter#housing should be free and this cabalistic capitalist system is a fucking nightmare#anyway back to the og point lol#it's fucking hot and i want winter back#Australian winters are so mild and great its like spring in other countries i think#spring here is also a nightmare of rain heatwaves and cold fighting in a parking lot so it's not nice here#but winter??#nice and cool and mild#wish it was always less than 23C all the time that'd be amazing#i don't remember what that is in fahrenheit but yeah
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westernsunshine · 6 months
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Sorry but if your tall range is defined as “5’7 and over” I don’t think this is going to work
#i am JUST trying to find a pair of sweatpants that fit my body as a woman who is 6’1 (and most of that is; unfortunately; leg)#AND i need high rise so men’s sweatpants don’t tend to work for me. they’re either too tight around the waist#or they fit fine but i have to hike them up such that i end up with a few inches of ankle exposed#and look. i don’t care if my pyjamas are short on me. i’ve made peace with that fact but it’s fine because i will be in bed and no one will#see me. and honestly most of the time i wear shorts to bed anyway#but with sweatpants i’m going to probably leave the house in them and at the very least be out of bed#and i don’t want my ankles exposed!! it looks ridiculous#my kingdom for a pair of sweats that start at the top of my hips and end at my feet#but seriously. 5’7. 5’7 is your idea of tall. iiii#swear to god the only place i’ve ever found trousers long enough for me just on the rack is america lol. if anything ever happens#to my grey sweats with the university insignia on them idk what i’ll do#i also have a couple of pairs from am*zon but they were SO overpriced and one of them has a giant hole on the inside thigh 😐 and i’ve only#had them for like… 18 months? at the most? other than that i do love them. i like that they’re super comfortable but the material doesn’t#look like sweatpants (partly because they’re black) so i can wear them to legitimate places and not worry that people think i’m a slob#i mean they don’t read as like smart trousers or jeans but they don’t read as sweats either. they just look like a generic black trouser#i would not care at this stage though if i was blatantly wearing joggers or sweats. i just need a big pant#i got out of the habit of wearing jeans/anything tight during my very long knee recovery in which i either wore shorts; sweats#or festival pants the whole time to accomodate for a brace; movement of the knee; icing the knee; etc#and now it’s like. i CAN wear jeans but i prefer not to. i don’t like leggings; i feel all exposed and nasty. plus i lost some weight during#this process because i lost my appetite and some of my favourite jeans are now super baggy on me#I NEED BIG PANTS. professional stuff is fine because i can just wear a dress and tights but like.. i’m not putting on tights just to be#at home lol. who does that#long tall sally you are my last hope#personal
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windstrider2017 · 7 months
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Does anyone else feel weird deleting old playlists even if you haven't listened to them in ages and just scroll past them to get to the stuff you actually do listen to now? It's weird. I probably should delete some of the old shit off my mp3 player if I haven't listened to it in ages and it's just clogging up space.
It just feels kind of weird because it's like, all these songs and playlists are kind of a record of different times in my life and help me remember stuff.
#as for some of the older shit i actually do still listen to#as well as some of the more recent stuff too actually (namely shitloads of metal haha)#it's pretty cool to be able to listen to it at such a different period in my life#there's been several big chunks of my life that have basically been Depression Central (tm)#so it's nice to listen to some of these (good and rockin tbh) songs and be in a better place now#i mean. freshman year i was pretty screwed up in the head. some stuff was good but some was Yikes. i was depressed and shit#now here i am as a 5th year senior listening to some of these ratt songs and stuff and being actually. good for once#like actually good and not just fucking deluding myself while actually being a barely-held-together flaming trainwreck#and last year i was briefly sort of okay after several weeks had passed after wil died#but when it came down to it i was still struggling with some serious issues and shitty habits even after i'd got out of the worst of my fun#not to mention still struggling with grief#then i got horribly sick and was just super depressed between being sick asf and getting sort of left behind and forced to deal with smth#that scary and awful when i just wanted to call uncle and gtfo. and my class load sucked and i hated a lot of it#that whole fall and winter and spring and part of the summer. what a fucking mess#last winter i was listening to metallica and motorhead on repeat trying to feel something decent#and to also have some sort of outlet for the black fucking hole of anger and depression i was stuck in#i wasn't 'i basically just want to fucking die if it wasn't for my dogs' like i was junior year#but i was pretty bad off. i was basically trying just to feel smth besides Bad and to escape the crap i was stuck in#like. that year (and years) basically stretched into one big long shitty depressing nightmare. felt like i'd never escape it#every day i rotted away at my desk day and night bc i had this sisyphean pile of schoolwork to do#i had no life and barely any friends. last year besides tater music was basically one of the only things i could bring myself to give af ab#i got super unhealthy and out of it and honestly lost a lot of my will to try anymore or give a shit about much. just try to survive#now i've finally escaped that mess and i'm burying it like a cat kicking litter or dirt onto its crap.#even given such a short period to do it my self-imposed rehab is working amazingly well. i'm proud. mostly just relieved#my schedule is no longer a mess. my diet is way healthier. i actually have a life now. there's color in my skin#like ik a big part of it is bc stuff is finally not a stupid MESS rn but yknow what i'm taking it and running with it#i finally have an actual chance to fix my shit and be normal and live and not just burn out and rot away? good. i'm Taking it.#i'm not gonna talk abt this much more bc i don't want to get sucked into that awful period of time. and i'm on screens less now too#but yeah. it's nice to be able to listen to music i like and think about how things have changed for the better#i mean. it's just crazy. i have a life now. i have a tan from the sun. i don't just rot at my desk. i have renewed faith in life and shit
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gayspock · 2 years
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myparents said they're thinking of leaving the house to me if they do manage to buy a new place to live instead of selling it which. is insane bc in many ways its like. i know thats such a privilege and i didnt ever think that theyd ever be able to do sth like that. but also oh god. pleasedont give this place to me. oh god...
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🐐 THE G.O.A.T. WITH A GOAT 🐐
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sisterdivinium · 10 months
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It's interesting to stroll around Fanlore reading discussions that took place in 2007 talking about the fractured nature of fandom on LJ and people interacting without having enough context (as in commenting on a post they did not read by a user they do not know) when you're living in 2023 and people distribute likes without reading anything or commenting; when there's supposedly "drama" of unknown origins happening in more than one website at the same time because there's no real "home base" for fandom activity anymore; and we're all carrying on with our lives reblogging things without even looking at previous notes and reactions to that same post even if out of simple curiosity...
#what gets me is the lack of discussion. i don't expect anyone to approach things in a more ~intellectual manner no#but i guess i expect a little more than what i see. i'd *like* to see a little more. more than just personal unfounded opinion#idk i have the distinct feeling that we're all screaming into the void only louder and louder and louder#(you will never convince me that twitter is a good place for discussion because it just isn't. it wasn't made for that#it doesn't support it. its very quick structure is part of why so many people have long recognised it as toxic social media)#(it's talking over one another in fragments. if you agree on there all is peachy but if you don't then lol good luck)#anyway. again. i do know tumblr isn't exactly proper for any of this either; the dashboard isn't designed for it#but it's not like i can convince anyone to switch to a slower and more text/reflection-based platform either now can i#i think about migrating every day but then i'd REALLY be screaming into the void#silly blabbering#i'm allowing myself to post this on this blog because it isn't strictly WN related but also it is. i hate twitter fandom lol#(also if you're wondering yes i did read that one for the bakhtin. in this house we love and support bakhtinian studies)#(just in case my last little essay on wn didn't clue you in regarding that lol)#ALSO i love the fact that the post (the actual post. if you click the link and follow through to the original post. which you should)#links to another post that goes to another post (i love these link black holes) where the author voices things i feel too lol#about crafting extensive essays and the expectation regarding their response#i sometimes think that LJ fandom is what made me choose my degree#why am i seeing myself through someone else's words written in 2006 ksjdfhksdjjhksdgjsd#and yeah yeah we should respond to other people too -- but how when no one is writing the sort of thing you want to/can reply to?#i'm not interested in the colour of beatrice's knickers (not that anyone has talked of that... afaik... but you get what i mean)
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nomaishuttle · 9 months
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prev post well i scrolled once and realized it IS a moshi monster huge win for the moshi monster artstyle recognizers of the world
#verrry exciting. i never actualy got suepr into moshi monsters (didnt know there was an online game until last year) but i had the ds game#the carnival one. n rly loved it#and i hate a katsuma plush who was legit my favorite toy id take him with me everywhere. theres even this frankly very scary book i wrote#and illustrated (bc that used 2 be my favorite thjng t do.. i would staple paper together and judt write things like i had one abt natural#disasters explainjng them bc i loveddd natural disasters basicslly)#but anywyas. i wrote one abt katsuma listing all of katsumas favorite things n stuff. katsumas favorite food was STRAWBERRIES and he loved#hide and seek#speaking od hide and seek one time i was playing hide and seek with him u see. which means i was finding places to hide him#and then pretending to find him. and atp was when we livd in my grans house#so there was a pool table downstairs. andwell. i shoved him into one of the pool table holes#so imagine my shock and horror when i pulled him out and he was absolurely covered in like..black dust.#luckily there was a bathroom in the basement (my grandpa built it it was called the loo#) so i went in there and just. run water over him#and then wrapped him in a towel. and then tried to sneak past my.mom upstairs#bc she was on the couch and inws trying to get to my room. so i wrapped katsuma in a human sized towel and like. quickly ran up the atairs#and past my mom. and she was like. looking at the comically large bundle of towels in my hands. like Everything ok. and i was lke YES. and#ran to my room. idk why i was convinced id be in trouble if she found out i ..#got a toy dirty? n tried to wash it? but it ws very funny. thats my 2 biggest katsuma memories but i loved that guy. i took him 2 the#playgrounds we went to (my mom hd a fun game wed do where we would go to a new playground and then wed rate the playground based on certain#features like what all things it had how much fun we had how long we wanted tonsray etc. so whenever we were like trying to kill time in a#new town or something like rhat wed go and she always had th clipboard on her. so we would do that :]] and i liked to take katsuma and push#katsuma on the swings and down the slides and things of that nature
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robyn-goodfellowe · 1 year
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lost hope in a moment of need, locked down in a pattern that’s got me running round running round running round running round over and over and over and over agaaaiin
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