#this makes me ache

[candlebel]

Amo al robopayaso. xd

#candlebell art #fan art #Sundrop #❤ #I tried my hardest to make it look like his surface is soft silicone but that's insane sdfghsgsh #took me over a year to finish due to bad mental health. I wished to finish and show it on 2023. it was aching not being able to #I posted some WiPs with dates yesterday too if anyone's interested #it's not a 3D model; what the heck

[maudiemoods]

WAAAAAUAGRGGG!!

I love them so so so much!! AURGG!!

#AUGRGRGRG!! #I LOVE THEM!! the ruined version of them makes my heart ache #i need to care for them and kiss them #i need to do arts and crafts with sun (he will kick me in yhe face) #moondrop #maudiemoods art tag #security breach moondrop #fnaf security breach #sundrop #security breach sundrop #help wanted 2 #help wanted spoilers #help wanted 2 spoilers #i tagged it! so don't come at me bc i didn't put all this under a read more pleeeasse <3

[yrsonpurpose]

🥺

#rwrb #rwrbedit #red white and royal blue #alex x henry #firstprince #userninz #userveronika #chrissiewatts #usernuria #usersteen #userclara #mine* #alex being nervous but henry looking at him with these open and accepting big doe eyes #makes me insane #he's just a baby fr #something something alex's frenetic energy and henry's aching sureness :((( #idk i just loved these moments #there's a little worry in henry's face about what alex is about to say but there's no judgement there #he gives him the time and the space to say what he needs to say #and alex knows he's safe to say it

[thefrogdalorian]

Din Djarin & Grogu + Chapter 17: The Apostate

#din djarin #grogu #the mandalorian #pedro pascal #swedit #din edits #my edits #my gifs #grogu sneaking under the bandolier.... putting his claw on it... din pushing his head down when he flies up... I LOVE THEM SO MUCH #my chest aches i was decaying today but making these gifs made me feel better as cheesy as it sounds

[theaviatorthatcouldnotfly]

1.05 | 3.02

#ITS THE WAY THEY BOTH LEAN INTO THE TOUCH THAT DOES IT FOR ME #they’re so in love it makes my chest ache #young royals #yr s3 spoilers #edvin ryding #omar rudberg #prince wilhelm #simon eriksson #wilmon #lisa ambjörn #yr parallels #avi’s gifs

[grumpyoldhag]

"isn't my brother cool?"

#undertale #papyrus #sans #undertale papyrus #undertale sans #skelebros #fanart #their brotherly love makes me feel feels #seriously #they are the best #my heart aches for them in a weird manner

[konigsblog]

ghost putting a gun to the back of your head while you suck him off.

#someone hold me back from writing this 😵‍💫 #you cannot tell me this isn't something simon would do #like please he so would #and he'd make sure you were slobbering and drooling and making a total mess from the pressure #just so he could praise and degrade you for every little mistake #your cheeks would be bruised and aching by the end of it from being smacked #and don't forget about a sore head from him smacking the gun against your head :( #okay im rambling ill stfu now 🫣 #simon ghost riley #simon riley #ghost simon riley #mw2 ghost #cod ghost #ghost #ghost call of duty

[for-tymora]

A bit of an older comic (that I've been keeping in the back pocket), but I'd like to share! Maeve (my Tav) had a rocky start with a certain special companion. They didn't get along for most of Act 1, as Mae was frustrated with Astarion's more uncouth behaviors, and Astarion thought she was an irritating little goody-two-shoes.

They've both grown, though, and learned their lesson now;

(I am Astarion-pilled now, truly.)

#baldur's gate #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #bg3 astarion #astarion #tav #bg3 tav #baldurs gate #tavstarion #when i first made this comic i didnt even know about his backstory because I had been sparing myself from spoilers #and then everything just started laying itself out and i ache for him now #he makes me cry #my art #maeve

[nephriteknight]

something the crane wives does that always makes me lose my shit is changing lyrics between choruses, often recontextualizing the earlier lines

like in I Talk In My Sleep, the first chorus ends with a long drawn out "I" which could just be vocalizing, the second is "I won't say" and the last "I will finally say" and then for the first time resolves to "that I am not okay"

I think my favorite example is in Nobody, we get the line "nobody ever loved me" in a bunch of variations--on its own, as "nobody ever loved me like she loves me", and then "nobody ever loved me so she tells me"

in Steady, Steady, "i am ready to be the one" turns into "i am ready to run" and "you know when you're ready" turns into "we weren't ready"

something about it just hits so hard I eat this shit up

#the crane wives #going to see them tonight!!! can you tell im excited #also just the line “I can take forever but for worse I can't condone / most of our for goods just make me ache to be alone” just kills me #didnt fit with this post but i had to bring it up

[sophsicle]

the thing about me is i can only stand fluff if there is unbearable pain before or after. like happiness means nothing to me if no one had to bleed for it. had to pay for it.

#i need to ache #this is a simple fact about me #what good is a tiny lil guy if he doesn't make me want to tear out my heart and howl #soph rambles

[stray-but-okay]

He’s the main attraction

#stray kids #skz #seo changbin #binnie #changbin #MAXIDENT Trailer MAKING FILM #he is everything to me yall ngl #he was SO happy during this whole video it made my heart ache #also seungmin trying to take a bite in the back like alrite mood homie

[vamptits]

hey listen to this normal track

#BEGGING you to listen to the whole thing without skipping ahead for maximum emotional impact. PLEASE. #gerard way #my chemical romance #mcr #<- relevant #i was literally in bed listening to millions and this came to me and did so much damage i had to make it real. #i gave myself a stomach ache making this #talks

[dangoulains-devotion]

this room was built for one chair only,

i'm not empty, i'm just lonely

#arknights #muelsyse #arknights muelsyse #lone trail #my art #<- i am moonlight elegy on twt #anyway WHEW i went out of my comfort zone TWICE here... #i never draw backgrounds (you can tell) and i never draw flowers (you can tell) #but they're meant to be lilies... symbolising loneliness and sadness.... hehehe #i'll be honest i came out of lone trail like eh mumu's alright. not my favourite but i don't dislike her #and then she ends up being the first one i draw from the relevant characters. standing man emoji #i got insp for this while listening to ho'olheyak's theme too btw L O L #also i know there's details missing from her outfit but consider. deciphering and drawing arknights designs is sometimes a ball ache #gorgeous to look at. but don't make me do it or i'll scream and throw up

[kaltacore]

no but essek's abnormal behaviours in the last arc and especially in episode 140 are my roman empire. which is ironic because aeor is something of a roman empire itself. but in all seriousness, it was the episode that made me realise i love essek and his development so much and it kinda summarised it even before caleb's epilogue.

and i mean the "it's not fair" scene specifically. it's like, an epitome of his whole character progression from a person who put An Objectively Important Goal above all else without hesitation to someone who can't help but care for people around even more than his goal, no matter how big and relevant it is.

the mighty nein - and he alongside them - pretty much saved the world and freed an ancient city from thousand-year-long suffering. they defeated nine extremely powerful menacing entities who managed to stay out of everyone's sight for years and were so close to achieving their goal and dooming exandria in the process. they did the impossible and became heroes and somehow, they survived, even though they had bidden farewells a couple of hours ago because they had already understood what they had been facing. and nevertheless. they made it.

and none of them was celebrating.

mighty nein are basically essek's only friends. he knew them to be very unusual people, to put it lightly, loud and stubborn and completely inescapable once they consider you to be one of their own. and they showed him so much kindness and put so much faith in him, they were here playing the most atrocious music ever and digging clay in his backyard for a spell they invented just to help one of theirs and asking him if he could bring them pastries the day after they found out he was lying to them and had started a war. they were chaotic and weird and sometimes unbearable but most importantly they were carrying so much hope with them all this time - a hope they could end the war, a hope they could stop the angel of irons cult, a hope they could get better, a hope he could get better, and now, finally, that they could save their lost friend.

and that hope shattered, just like that, the moments after they'd already made the impossible. they saved so many souls - and then could not get back just that one.

for essek "my intentions were never good they were important" thelyss it just. shouldn't have mattered. they won. it could have been worse. people die and when they die they rarely come back. they should've been happy everyone else barely made it alive.

but for some reason, mighty nein being so defeated after they saved the world exposed him to that overwhelming feeling of injustice and unfairness. and i mean, there were many things essek considered to be unfair, but when i watched his first appearance and his interactions with mighty nein later on til their reunion in aeor arc, i wouldn't dare to guess that one of the things on that list would be something that personal. and personal not even to him.

the thing is, essek didn't even know who that guy was. why mighty nein cared about him so much. he had an idea, i guess, that he was their friend once, or someone in that body was. it was also a person who wanted to unleash a terrifying horrific aberration onto the material plane. it was a person very dedicated to killing essek and his friends - and they still didn't take any pleasure in fighting him. essek didn't feel strongly about lucien or molly, because he never knew them.

i don't think he mourned his death and failed resurrection. he mourned mighty nein's hope, the one they put in him when they had no reason to, the one they offered yasha in the cathedral and the one they kept after the spell for veth failed and the one they carried til the very end because they wanted it to reach molly. they had saved people with this hope. they had saved nations. they had saved the world. but they ended up feeling like it hadn't even been worth anything.

how desperate would it feel, witnessing people who for some reason always saw good in you when they absolutely shouldn't, who made literal miracles out of nothing, who ended wars and fought gods and tricked the hags and freed cities from horrors beyond anyone's comprehension purely because they thought it was the right thing to do and also loved their friends this much, silently crying over a dead body they couldn't bring back to life? how desperate would it feel to realise that with all your knowledge about time you dedicated your life to and threw away any principles for, you can't undo this? no one can. some things are left to fate alone and this time it wasn't kind to them. no matter how much good they did, they still got slapped in the face.

and it was, i think, such a genuine moment of empathy. like, essek is the character who prefers to put up a facade and act distant and self-composed but this time he just. walked away unable to watch this. the could only say to fjord that it wasn't fair. even when he was caught off guard in nicodranas he was able to explain himself and his motives to an extent even though he was a nervous wreck whose extra important plan went to hell the second the only people he cared about appeared. this time he had nothing to elaborate on. it just wasn't fair. it wasn't fair his friends didn't get what they wanted the most. it wasn't fair he couldn't do anything to make it right.

it is such a sad and beautiful and even cathartic scene because it is about person who started a war that destroyed so many lives - and then met this ragtag group of weirdos who saw a lonely stand-offish guy and said "hey, let's be friends!" and didn't even wait for him to answer. he saw them being serious and calculated and he saw them being ridiculous and extremely stupid, he saw their mistrust to outsiders and their loyalty to each other, he made spells with them and paid a visit to their hot tub, he ate their stale pastries and drank their hot chocolate mixed with whiskey, he was welcomed amongst them and in their wonderful home, both in xhorhas before they even found out what he had done and in the tower when they already knew - and then, he saw them mourning their loss, defeated and helpless, and he, a person who believed there were things more important than whole nations, let alone just one life, couldn't help but share the pain they felt. a pure display of compassion from someone who detached himself from it, who didn't believe he could grow into a better person capable of it again, but became one nonetheless without even realising it

#sorry. i cannot shut up about this. this scene stuck with me the moment i saw it and i just couldn't get it out of my head #i mean. i liked essek well enough. i just got attached to other characters more. but then 'it's not fair' happened and it sealed the deal #it was just. so beautiful. so sincere. so important for a character who just started to learn how to care about people #his reaction wasn't intentional. it didn't change anything. but it showed how humane he had become. how deeply he cared #mighty nein are no joke pal #they're gonna make you feel all these unknown emotions like sympathy and love and affection even when they're incredibly painful #essek experiencing closeness and attachment in all their forms. as something beautiful and something aching. is so important to me #they saved him because they had good hearts! and these good hearts sparked so much joy around them! #but if a good heart grants you an ability to experience joy so profoundly. it makes everything else feel like that #you get it. i hope you get it. anyway e140 did so much psychic damage on me i probably will never recover #in a good way mostly <3 but yeah. yeah. it makes me feel a little insane #the mighty nein #essek thelyss #critical role