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#this made me so sad what the hell
merryweathart · 8 months
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the soundtrack... threw me off guard
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nullafic-ninjago · 2 months
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"I'm sorry I let you down mom..."
Thinking about Cole and Lilly recently, waagghhh love how much of a mommas boy cole is sob sob
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hella1975 · 3 months
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girls will say they’re tough shit until 7 by catfish and the bottlemen comes on
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cinnamon-phrog · 19 days
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A mutual reblogged a pr*ship post and their dni is now neutral. Unfallowed. Bolcked.
#see if i joke i don't CHOKE. on my tears. because this just keeps happening#i'm so scared to interact with mutuals for this exact reason#most i've made have either left me. became toxic over minor differences or become a degenerate.#which is sad because i really enjoyed this friend and all those friends before they or i cut ties#but this kind of shit is unforgivable to me. i've had bad experiences with a friend turning out to be a pr*shipper#everyone flocked to me to fix their traumas but i had talked to that person often. it hurt a lot. they harassed people who harassed them#i was only 15. and i was threatened but what the hell is a sheltered kid SUPPOSED to do back. i wasn't taught shit#people in their fucking 20's were trauma dumping to me in dms and sadly still go to me when they catch wind of this person-#'i need support' you need to get offline. please. just block and ignore. i'm tired.#i should not have had to be babysitting adults and older teens when i didn't know what half those words were at the time.#months ago i did something stupid when i was at my limit and mirrored the pettiness i saw. i was told i would drive someone to suicide.#over saying the person was a bit mean and bringing up some posts i thought they made#i did apologise when i got it wrong. but got threatened with the person possibly killing themselves in my inbox.#this person and the pr*ship person were famously at eachothers' throats#i do not stand by the pr*ship persons' actions. their opinions on the other person were honestly right though. the only thing i agree with.#once again i complain about proshits and gatekeeps. the two are almost as bad as eachother to me#or at least two awful sides that have affected me and my ability to make friends online.#so that's what this remined me of.
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skunkes · 7 months
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ghilegab · 2 months
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Golly
Is there anything more frustrating than wanting to draw, needing to draw, but being completely unable to just
Start?
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annamaggs16 · 3 months
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BH are not learning their lesson. Accepting power from an outside source isn’t what makes you stronger and more durable, if anything it makes you vulnerable to being controlled by it. It isn’t your power to control and it never will be.
I genuinely believe if Fearne wasn’t a wildfire Druid but one of ice powers she never would’ve been considered. Or if Orym was fire ashari instead of air, they would’ve been looking at him. Bells Hells picked the person that made the most thematic sense. They didn’t want Fearne to take it, they wanted fire to be with fire.
Them pointing at her and making her feel bad about “running away” and “not accepting her fate” is gross. They didn’t believe Fearne was strong enough to stand on her own two feet. They didn’t believe her fire would be able to burn bright enough. There wasn’t a single person who said to her she could say “no” to “refuse” or that she didn’t need it. They bared the weight of the world’s fate on her shoulders and she crumbled under the pressure with no one in her corner to genuinely support her.
Now everything she does will be primordial corruption instead of it being just Fearne. Can you really say she’s the one accomplishing it or is the primordial Titan she’s a vessel for now is?
Also, this whole “mates” idea is disgusting. If the Empress and Emperor really wanted to be together they would’ve been in the same vessel: Ashton. And yeah, it likely should’ve killed them. But perhaps “accepting too much power could consume/ruin you” would’ve been too hard of a narrative to tell right now.
This feels too rewardy without thinking of the consequences. And I really hope there are consequences other than just in mechanics because primordial power is a force stronger than them both and equivalent to the gods. Primordial power tried to DESTROY humanity and the gods, why would they choose to do anything different after waking up from a nap and seeing how much time they’ve been forcibly put to sleep?? Especially now since they have physical bodies they can force control over.
Bells Hells lacks self esteem and confidence in themselves to get the job done, the job that they aren’t even convinced they want to do. And instead of researching and speaking with the gods they are going to every other power first and just hoping it’ll make them feel better about themselves. How do you think by adding MORE variables you have to fight to control is going to make your odds better? You aren’t even considering the power that is actively threatened? I’m really starting to firmly believe they’re gonna fail or let the gods die because they’re all too selfish and shallow to think about how what they’re doing is going to effect the world.
How is waking up the primordials and Delilah going to look like….oh wait, we already know because Delilah rose a Titan to stomp toward Vasselheim city. Vax was more or less destined for his fate, but by the gods and look how that turned out. Why would primordial power be any different, why wouldn’t Fearne & Ashton die because of primordial power akin to the way Vax died: accepting a high power which ultimately consumed them whether for the better or worse.
#critical role#cr discourse#fearne calloway#rip Fearne’s arc of learning independent strength and writing her own destiny#rip celestial Aasimar Ashton or even human Ashton where they could’ve made their own choices instead of being a product of someone else’s#you would think this entire party is made up of warlocks because everyone is giving in to power without questioning it#and they have the audacity to say religious folks like FCG are ridiculous for their blind faith and refusing to question high power#it’s sad because Fearne really was the most self assured in who she was and everyone made her doubt herself#and Orym. her best friend. said barely anything to her through this entire thing: fetching the spark. Whitestone. Feywild.#all because he doesn’t think he matches in power to the rest of them#this campaign continues to sacrifice character focus for Plot Plot Plot#it’s been 3 months in game and it’s astonishing to see how much these strangers have made each other worse#and will continue to do so because of all of their shit they aren’t actually willing to face and get help with#bells hells don’t want to be better versions of themselves. they want to be more powerful versions. they’re just like Ludinus Da’Leth#and in their March ‘to do what they believe is right & better’ they’re going to make the worse & wrong choice#selfish shallow damaged broken people can not choose what is right for the world because they can’t see through their pile of trauma#and make a decision with a level head and not emotional influenced ‘don’t wanna save gods who don’t love me’ bs#can’t even say Orym was ever the moral compass#because if you have morals that are so loose and frequently walked all over—#—did you ever have any strong morals worth fighting for to begin with?#he didn’t say anything when they started killing people in Bassuras. he doesn’t say anything when it comes to power#he is the most relatable bells hells to the world. he knows more than anyone of them how power can make people better or worse#and he isn’t SAYING ANYTHING. he isn’t speaking up for the normals who live life with 0 influence of power#and isn’t that the people they’re supposedly doing this for? for the little guys and underdogs—#—who and looked over and undermined by the people in power making all the decisions and choices for them.#and now bells hells is becoming EXACTLY like that and THAT is the real disappointment with all of them#bells hells#critical role spoilers#c3e80 spoilers#c3e80
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go-learn-esperanto · 8 months
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Oh my fucking gods...
I'm reading this fic (and I didn't read any tags because it was a recommendation and I usually like to do those blind) and like... I was so happy because it was one of the nicest Fics of this kind I've ever read. Romance? Top notch. Very sweet!!!
Then this godsdamn fic run me over with a truck. Like, what, how??? Imagine a graph, the title is "how happy I'm feeling reading this", it goes up, up, it goes a little bit flat as I get a bit worried but not too much, conflict is normal in a story, than if fucking plummets into the core of the earth.
Who let this happen? Author how could you destroy me like this???????
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naneki-maid · 6 months
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I really try not to pick sides when it comes to Kikyo and Kagome in regards to Inuyasha because I’ve always felt that depending on the time period, one or the other makes a good match for Inuyasha. Like in the past Kikyo was Inuyasha’s first love—and he was her last and only love. Inuyasha was young, reckless and bent on becoming a full demon. But before Kikyo dies, she helps to remedy that obsession and at the same time begins to help Inuyasha become a better demon.
In the future, Kagome helps Inuyasha understand humans better, this in return helps him to become more compassionate towards them. His willingness to help others is solely influenced by Kagome—going off on missions that are not specifically related to finding the jewel shards and Naraku are all choices that past-Inuyasha would have surely hesitated with. Thanks to the experiences that they’ve shared together, both Inuyasha and Kagome have grown significantly (physically and mentally) since season 1. Which is why it’s so annoying that a lot of the times whenever Kikyo appears, Kagome reverts into this annoyingly jealous child, which she technically is.
The tragedy of Kikyo’s death and her forced return sometimes makes it hard to hold her accountable for the decisions she makes. As a priestess, she’s helpful when she chooses to be, but it’s really annoying that every time the three of them meet up it turns into a novela, suddenly Kikyo and Kagome can’t stand to breath the same air.
Anyways, I’m nearing the end of season 6 and I’m not saying Kikyo should have stayed dead, because I know she still has a part to play in defeating Naraku, but just maybe Inuyasha and Kagome were all the better for it?
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xxalphaclownxx · 2 months
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oh god i’ve spent too much time on tumblr
like, i fr just said to myself out loud that nemma should be real
BRO?? NEMMA IS REAL??? WHATS WRONG WITH ME???
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heartlocks · 6 months
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to anyone dealing with ptsd, has there been anything that has helped relieve some of the symptoms?
#im emotionally stuck due to the constant reliving of what happened#i get these weirdly intense flashbacks where i can remember the how the fabric of the couch looked like up close#and how they felt. and how everything looked. the way the colored lights hit the room a certain way#i think i did myself a disservice by thinking i was soooo in love that i didn’t want to forget any details lmao#now i can remember everything like a photograph and sometimes i find myself back in my old apartment and the fear floods my chest#and i can’t breathe and my stomach starts turning it’s terrible. i really felt like i was in hell#i stopped smoking ouid 3 weeks ago bc whenever these flashbacks would happen the high would make them HD and it would send me into a loop#but now i think weed was the thing keeping me above water… it’s been a rough 3 weeks. but before i start smoking again#i wanted to ask if anyone found something else that made it a little easier#it’s been months since our break up and i really want to move on. i’ve tried to meet other people but i’m terrified of men#and i find myself unable to connect with anyone…#i’ve been physically better which i am so grateful for because being unhealthy was my biggest reason i was so depressed#i’ve been doing therapy but i talk about the same thing with her every week. i’m tired of it#i think i’m still in disbelief that they did that to me. i never thought they’d be capable of hurting someone so badly.#i can’t get over the fact that he r***** me for months while i was disabled and pretended not to know what he was doing was bad#i realized he knew when he tried to make it look like i was crazy. that made me really sad. i think i was hoping he was clueless so#i could still believe he was a good person… or at least the man i fell in love with. i was willing to forgive him once he apologized…#when he tried to make it seem like i was going insane the blindfold came off and i saw him for who he really was#like no wonder i was so scared of u dude… no wonder i kept having panic attacks anytime we were together and i couldn’t sleep next to u#i’ve been afraid to admit that shit broke me as a person. i don’t think i’ll ever be the same. i can’t function.#plus knowing i stayed for her bc i was worried for her and didn’t want her to experience the same thing without someone there bc i realized#how good he was at gaslighting and lying. only to find out she was waiting for an excuse to get rid of me… she wanted me gone…#i went thru all that for nothing…#and i still don’t understand why each time i tried to leave for my own good- to get medical help and support they begged me to stay!!! why#brain vomit
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bylertruther · 1 year
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when will said it was "strange knowing who it was this whole time" and "he's hurt, he's hurting, but he's still alive" was he not talking about henry? am i insane? did i misinterpret that scene? why are we acting like will is connected to anyone other than henry bro what is Happening 😭
that was henry that shaped the mind flayer into that spider-like form and it was henry that used it to possess will and it was henry's thoughts that will was experiencing against his will and it's henry that he's still feeling because the connection/"vecna's curse" hasn't been broken. they physically extracted the mind flayer from will's body, yes, but his connection to henry was never broken. henry can't exercise complete and total control over people without the mind flayer's power, which is why will has free will over his body but his mind remains connected to henry.
the characters, and by extension the viewers, thought it was the mind flayer behind everything, because they didn't know what season four revealed to us.
henry wanted to control will's mind and body—a complete and entire violation of everything will is. that was Not the mind flayer, and they tell us that more than once. with all love and respect what are some of you on about because you're starting to make me feel like my memory is genuinely broken or something lmao like i thought.... the big reveal was that it's always been henry? they literally say that? eleven, henry, and will all confirm it? the mind flayer was not a separate entity acting alone... thus will has beef with henry most of all because henry's violation of his mind and body is still ongoing... Where Are You Guys Getting Your Information From 😭 hELP
will's rape—because that's what possession is, he never consented to having his mind and body controlled by anyone else—is an important part of stranger things; both to the general plot and will's character. to say that will only has beef with the mind flayer and not henry is reducing what henry did to him and reassigning blame that very much falls on henry's shoulders. henry was controlling the mind flayer and henry is the one still in will's mind. henry used the mind flayer to have control over will. henry and will are connected. the show literally tells us that over and over again. when you decide to needlessly reassign blame, not only are you misunderstanding and misconstruing the plot, but you're also... not understanding what happened to will at all. like, what really happened to him and how that's used in the show.
henry very likely was the one that kidnapped will. henry is the one that will has a psychic connection to. henry is the one that raped will / possessed him if you prefer that term instead and used the mind flayer to do it. henry is the one that will still knows like the back of his hand, because henry is the one that's still in his head. it's not the mind flayer. it's henry. please stop saying that will doesn't have more than enough reason to want to kill his ass. please!!!
#rape tw#rape mention#triggering myself on main like a fucking dumbass but the worms in my brain are holding on to this one n gnawing at it#am i insane am i genuinely having memory problems am i the weird one#eleven and will can both kill his ass but don't act like henry isn't the one that ruined his life i'm—#i feel very strongly abt this bc i just feel like you Can't reassign blame in rape cases u have to see it for what it is#they're literally fake but. please don't try to absolve bad people like that#they're characters not people i know but. please don't do that lol. henry is a bad guy for many reasons and eleven and will BOTH have#reasons to merc his ass. we can say that it's okay we're not taking anything away from eleven by acknowledging the plot and the#actions that the characters have made like i promise u no one is forgetting eleven who is literally the biggest character on the show#it doesn't matter but also it Does matter to me bc we don't always see rape victims on tv shows or movies that are treated like will#and it just makes me sad when like. stuff that happens in real life (abusers getting off scot free) happens in fiction. bc its like ok cool#not even in the fictional world can there be justice huh lmao cool cool cool very cool and awesome and great love it#actually no im gonna say it bro yes henry tried to kill eleven twice but like. he literally raped will. so yeah i think will deserves the#final blow bro idc. idc idc idc will has to live with that for the rest of his life he has to remember what it felt like and what all he#did under henry's control like. he deserves it. let him maul his ass let him fireball him to the pits of hell idc idc everyone else go home
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navree · 10 months
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You briefly talked about this one time - what are your thoughts on Maegor and Aenys? Do you think Maegor actually cared about his brother? You would think that that care would carry down to his neices and nephews but once Aenys was dead, he was wiping them all out. What made Aenys different that Maegor actually accepted him instead of trying to immediately remove him from the throne like Visenya wanted him too?
My thoughts on Maegor and Aenys can honestly be boiled down to a crowd in the Coliseum of my mind chanting "sons of the dragon! sons of the dragon! sons of the dragon!" on repeat but I will endeavor to go into more depth.
I actually have gone more in depth on Maegor and Aenys's relationship here and elaborated far more on it here, but my view on them is that it's the quintessential tragedy, it was doomed to fail. Maegor and Aenys's relationship was always going to be tainted by forces outside their control, even from before they were born. Aenys was the son of the favored wife while Maegor was the son of the one Aegon couldn't even stand by the time he was born; Aenys's mental breakdown was always going to stunt his interpersonal relationships other than the one with his father and the one with Quicksilver as he recovered; five years isn't an insurmountable age difference but it's significant in that early childhood development phase. All of this, the circumstances under which Maegor was born and the relationships their parents had with each other and the conflagration of situations that was the First Dornish War and how it affected the family, all of it basically doomed the relationship from the getgo. My view of it was that they were never going to be truly brotherly, not in the way that we see from the modern Starks or Orys and Aegon. But, as I mentioned in those prior responses, I don't think it was all bad. Aenys put a lot of trust and value in Maegor, and Maegor seemed to respect that and respected Aenys's kingship and wanted it to go well. I also find it incredibly important that Maegor accepted his banishment, because we know what happens when Quicksilver and Balerion go head to head. He would have made easy work of his brother and he probably knew that, but instead he accepted Aenys's word as law, left and stayed away until he was recalled by his mother only after Aenys died. That, to me, does speak to the fact that Maegor cared about him. Some of it might be transference, with Aenys as Aegon's clear favorite and Aegon having gone without giving Maegor any of what he might have craved from him (the throne, his approval, his affection, I theorized a lot more on Aegon and Maegor's fractured relationship in that first ask about humanizing him) Maegor might have turned to his older brother in hopes of getting some taste of what he wanted from his father with the only version of his father he has. It's also possible that, once Maegor was a bit older, three to four, Aenys had recovered enough from his ordeals to try and interact with him and be a good brother, in spite of not being raised in the same location. Aenys seems like the type to have wanted to try and do right by his kid brother, if the olive branches he extended to Maegor during his reign when they were both adults is any indication. So even if they weren't close in childhood, Maegor's memories of Aenys when he was a child might have been of someone earnestly trying with him, trying to be good and supportive to someone who doesn't seem to have had much of a support system in the family beyond his mother.
And it should be interesting to note, Maegor does seem to have extended some care towards his nieces and nephews initially. While he did usurp Aegon the Uncrowned, he didn't immediately go after him, he actually let him live unmolested for up to a year, considering that he took the throne in 42 AC and the Battle Beneath God's Eye occured in 43 AC. It was Aegon attempting to muster armies and take back his crown that led to his death, not Maegor taking the throne, for all we know, though it's unlikely, if Aegon had gone into exile the way that Maegor himself had, he might never have died. And while Alyssa and Viserys and Jaehaerys and Alysanne were absolutely hostages, there's no record that they were ever treated badly, not even Viserys who was residing in King's Landing. While I'm sure being a political hostage with the uncle who killed your brother and was slowly becoming more and more mentally unhinged wasn't a picnic, there's no evidence that Maegor ever did anything to Viserys or had anything done to him, and that Viserys didn't live any life other than a comfortable one as a blood relative to the crown. And by the time Visenya died and Alyssa fled with Jaehaerys and Alysanne, Maegor's mental state was already dangerous (this was post coma/Tyana magic interference that may or may not have helped exacerbate him into a crazy person) and that's probably why he responded as badly as he did and had the poor kid tortured to death. Maegor's cruelty to his family can be directly linked to how badly he was doing from a mental perspective, so it's entirely possible that he started out without any intentions to hurt Aenys's kids, because they were Aenys's kids, but as he descended into tyranny and madness, that was one of the core elements of him that was stripped away until only The Cruel remained.
I think a huge part of what made Aenys different, to Maegor at least, really is just that familial connection. Visenya didn't have any connection to Aenys beyond the fact that he was Rhaenys and Aegon's child, and that doesn't do much for her (even though I do think she loved them both, especially Rhaenys, it's just that the whole Dornish War thing and the rift probably turned any potential affection for her nephew into pure apathy. Not to get into Visenya conjectures and whatnot, but that Downton Abbey quote after Matthew dies where Mary says "with Matthew's death, all the softness he found in me seems to have dried up" is soooooo Visenya/Rhaenys coded, that's exactly how I imagined Visenya eventually went after Hellholt. Leave me here to die.) so she was more willing to be harsh and critical of him, especially when compared to the child of her own body and her own direct lineage. But for Maegor, that's his brother. A connection to his father, and someone he had a relationship with in his own right. He seems to have cared enough about that, perhaps even loved Aenys enough, that it really meant something to him, and that he didn't want to directly steal his own brother's birthright in spite of how bad he felt Aenys was at it or not. He could have felt grateful, moved even, by the trust Aenys was putting in him as a brother by giving him Blackfyre and making him Hand and trusting him to secure his reign, and wanted to live up to that trust, prove worthy of it. Their relationship wasn't ever fully reconcilable, in my mind, due to the circumstances it came about it that were entirely out of their control, but it feels like they really tried, on both sides, to bridge that gap as much as they were emotionally able.
TL;DR I think that it was doomed from minute one, but neither of them entirely let it just go into that good night and they probably did have best intentions with each other, even Maegor, considering that he accepted Aenys's rule and helped him and he does seem to have tried to be good to Aenys's kids before he went completely doolally. Probably best summed up as "there was some kind of love there, but love isn't always enough".
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jujutsustraycats · 6 months
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BUNGOU STRAY DOGS REALLY DECIDED TO BE LIKE "i'mma murder your delulu asses and then heal it all at once" LIKE HELLO? YOU YOSANO OR SMTH??
Edit: Ignore the tags about the episode thing, this apparently is the finale for season 5. But still. I'm worried about the further plot.
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grollow · 7 months
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:3cc Fic authors self rec! When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you've written, then pass on to at least five other writers. Let’s spread the self-love❤
sdfgkjndsjkg :cri:
Um. Um.
In order -
Aloud, I Pray For Calmer Seas (one-shot)
Red Sky at Morning (longfic, wip)
White and Gray (longfic, complete)
mourning (one-shot)
Symbiosis (one-shot)
Thank you! It's hard to recommend any of my own works because I am instinctively shy but I do think all five of these are really good.
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melissa-titanium · 6 months
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group oroject im on with two people i wanna befriend really bad is almost over. sits down pat;ethically
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