#this isnt physical im just so MAD

[ratgingi]

woe characters inspired by some of my cats be upon ye. info on them in my tags lol

#dialtown oc #jack dlc #twerpys head is a sledgehammer bc the cat theyre based on was born in a wall lmao #he works at the petstore with outis bc i got said cat frm the local petstore #lilys head is a fluffy couch pillow thing and she works at an animal shelter bc thats where i got the cat shes based on #twerpy is genderfluid bc we make jokes that my cat twerpy is genderfluid a lot #also i feel like shed be aroace if she were a person. its just the vibes yk #lily isnt labeled as anything shes just vibin #the 2 are part of a big sorta found family type shit that consists of chars based on my other 3 cats i just didnt feel like drawin more rn #twerpy is really mean and stuck up but is secretly super sweet it just takes them a long time to warm up enough to someone n show it #shes also secretly incredible at like. comforting people and helping them out. but again only shows it for people hes warmed up enough to #lily is super confident and full of herself and spoiled. she thinks shes super fuckin smart but she is very much Not /lh #she loves attention though and gets her feelings hurt super easy #also shes Huge on physical affection. she loves giving people hugs and holding hands and shit #like. shell be like oh im so fuckin hot and cool literally no ones on my level and of ur like eh idk that fit isnt really that good on u #she will start Crying. and get mad that youre being mean to her for no reason while sobbing #and probably will hug onto you while doing it #twerpy also gives really good hugs but they Hate being touched. so if it willingly touches you then youre incredibly lucky special #also lily loves sitting in peoples laps #if youre friends with her she is far more likely to sit on your lap instead of any chair in the room nd thats just smth youll have 2 deal w #dlc wiki

[southernvampire]

uterus has been yeeterused

#so i had a hysterectomy about two weeks ago and it's insane how much better i feel not only physically but mentally #i havent felt this in tune with my body since i was a kid #i finally feel like im on the path to how i want my body to be like and i never understood just how much i was affected by #both gender dysphoria and physical disease (endometriosis) until i got almost everything removed in there #im solidly sure im nonbinary now instead of having conflicting feelings about it #i feel much better about expressing my strange femininity and being perceived as feminine #i feel more spiritual too?? idk how to describe it #im just confused a little about why this had such a big impact on me since yeah it did give me dysphoria to a degree but i didnt think it #was THAT bad #i feel more in tune with my child self; like i feel like a grown up version of my 9 year old self and more confident #my mind is much calmer and i just feel so present and one with my body. i finally feel like i could meditate comfortably withouf wanting to #escape my mind or body?? idk idk it's so so weird #anyway im also in much less pain despite not being able to do much of anything and still healing from surgery #and i know that having this done isnt a cure but god i hope i get lucky and that the endo doesnt come back anyway #it's amazing to be able to love my body instead of being mad at it because it causes me pain and does things that i dont want it to #idk if that's a fully healthy mindset or not but that #that's what's been going on in my life so far

[wallyrudolophwest]

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#im so stressed about nothing its like a ball of anxiety is choking me out #all i wanna do is scream and scream about how stressed and anxious i am #how its not a big deal im just going to visit my dad #but ill be away from home for 3 days #i dont want to be away from home ever #and if i bring it up again my family will be annoyed with me or tell me again that i dont have to if i dont want to #but if i dont go i wont see my dad cause he definitely isnt welcome here #its obligation and it can go fuck itself #and i cant physically talk about antthing else either??? #my husband tried to tlk to me about other stuff and i just get so mad cause why arent we talking about how stressed i am #why arent we talking about my anxiety about leaving the house #i dont want to guess what fictional archer would win in a fight #i CANT #im so angry #and i want to cry #and i wish i could just let it go #i wish i could let it go #why am i so qnxious im not even GOING anywhere except my dads house

[bizarreandjarring]

OK so i live in the US and let's say that i hypothetically work for a certain four letter german grocery chain that likes to value efficiency. now i get a lot of customers who like to tell me about how they don't understand why nobody wants to work these days, and why is everywhere understaffed, people are so lazy and don't want to work. while i stand there doing 3 jobs for the pay of one and slowly having my humanity melted away

so we recently put in self checkouts and now i have a whole new set of complaints (from exactly the same crowd) who tell me they hate the self checkout and wish it wasn't there and how its making the service worse etc etc. and incredibly, multiple people have complained to me after going through self checkout "why would i want to use this machine i have to do so much more work, i should be getting paid to check out my own groceries. it's like why are you making me do it i don't want to work at the grocery store"

#:)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) #sorry for venting in the tags but |:) i am having such a brilliant time #im not kidding when i say that this job is actually ruining my sense of humanity #its like i know it isnt the worst job you can possibly have or anything and the pay is decent #but they run the store so barebones to save money and 'keep prices down' that it is incredibly physically exhausting #and you geniunely end up doing the workload of two people #and then i get vitriol from customers all day that the prices have gone up #as if i can do a fucking thing about it #but they dont treat me like im a fucking human being im just a service to be rendered to them #dont get me wrong a few people every day will be nice enough #but i s2g most of the customers #i could be sucking them silly all while checking out their groceries and giving them a discount and they'd still be mad at me #vent #it is hard not to be fucked up in the head after receiving that kind of attitude for 20+ hours a week for 10 months #i mean i've done customer service for years but this store is on another level of how much is expected of employees

[nuclearnyx]

very bummed and sad because i saw a listing for a job that would be PERFECT for me..............if i was able-bodied enough to do it 🙃

#its for an arts program coordinator person and itd involve doing classes for kids-teens (and some adults) #and while teaching isnt endgame for me i still feel like i could be really happy doing this for a bit #they want someone with experience in a variety of media and like UHH i literally do mixed media professionally #BUT im actually doing WORSE physically lately #like ive had two instances of pre syncope while sitting down in a chair (my feet were PURPLE it was wild) #and im just...........so frustrated because i have more to offer and im stuck in bed/couch all the time #im just mad and sad about it all.

[berniecranes]

I just wish my art could look exactly how I want it to lol. Like idc abt if anyone else likes it I just want to like it and it be everything I want it to be. 😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨

#imagine if i could draw consistently enough to try to grow and develop #this isnt a good excuse i know #but its so frustrating not being able to physically create when you want to #my art it turning out bad and i become sad and mad and frustrated bc i cannot put the time into fixing bc my wrist is already zapping at me #or my thumb is throbbing then i get sad and depressed bc if i cannot even draw for an hour how can this still be my dream career #uM YEAH 😳😳😳 art is rough for me and on top of that struggle #im not skilled enough to fix whag i dont like!! #yeah sorry rant over #just max ramblin'

[gaytoddhoward]

why do my legs hurt so bad ? literally i just stand around for like 8 hours a day & now my knees hurt so bad that im having trouble falling asleep ? bitchass

#im so mad bc at work i was like #focusing the pain on different parts of my body? #bc ignoring it wasnt working #& then i thought 'im delusional' bc like. yeah sure im just physically moving my pain from my hips to my feet sure thats real & makes sense #and then i experienced pain throughout the entirety of my legs so ig i should never doubt myself bc that sucked shit #anyways its just my knees now & once again ignoring it isnt helpibg as much as i would like #its helping a bit but like. ough #help ? lol

[n0ct0urn1quet]

@fuckshitassbitchcockballs :] is my favorite fuckging emoji . did i ever mention that

#its just so. yknow what i mean #its like ! :] !! yknow wh at i ean #the emoji ever #ANYWAYS #girl hlelp im lisetning to mgr music and yearning. SIGH #BIIIIIG SIGH. VIOLENTLY COUGHS. ETC ETC AND SO ON BASICALLY WHAT IM SAYING IS You should come snugle me :] #rite now!!!!!!!!!! #now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #lean ur hed on my shoulder and we wil share earbuds and snugle by the window in the beanbag chair listening 2 music #and we wil hol hans an jus snugly #I MEAN I KNOW MGR MUSIC ISNT RLY LIKE LOWKEY. IT ISNT THE MUSIC UW OULD LISTEN TO WHILE DOING SOMEThin calm #but like sitll. ykonw. itd be nice methinks #comfy cossy snugly etc etc....... and so on ! #god also by the way i have back pain like never before i am literally postured like a shrimp. please rub my back im askings o nicely #massag my back it hurts So Bad . Help #SDBJHBKJKLJBKLGBLKG #and my neck too i slept weird so my neck is lal just . bent crooked etc #I Am In Physical Pain Okay Please Giv Me Snugls And Kisys And Also Back And Neck Rubs And Also Play With My Hair Pls #also im so mad i wish there was a discord emoji for :] and i REFUSE to use any of the actual emojis i dont trust them #the only face emojis i trust are the flushed emoji pensive emoji and weary emoji #and also neutral face slight smile and slight frown . That Is It #but ALAS so sad for me there is no :] emoji . life RUINED. sosad for me honestly #n e ways i am kising u directl y on the mouth and (not so) subtly hinting that u should make a gaypost too maybe sometime maybe #i do not care if ur bad at words !!!!!!!!!! i am too 90% of my gaypostss r just me rambling!!!!!!!!! it is oka!!!!!!!!!!!!! #jus say words bro i do it all tha dam time !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! awawawa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #also i m trying so fucking hard to draw raiden im trying so hard. having to use ur art a s a reference but drawing is hard #doing aggies with u is fun because Hehe I Get To Watch U Drawe And Copy How U Draw Things >:) #(i am gjoking i dont do either of those if u tell me not 2 watch u I Do Not Watch U Draw so is oke) #but yeah <33333333333333333333333 drawing is hard im touch starved and i jUST want to snugl u that is al #<3

[goofnuggetkarlaa]

honestly so tired of my mom never fucking listening to me

#the nugget speaks #long tags #its like she just assumes whatever she wants and cuts me off #and doesnt let me explain myself #no mom im NOT mad at you for being poor cause im a greedy bitch #im mad that you offer to buy me a phone and then get mad at me later when i tell you what phone i want #and you get upset that its too expensive #when you never told me you dont physically have that much money #like fr tho why is this my fault #you were the idiot assuming i could still get a reasonable phone for $100 #sorry that the cheapest thing out there that isnt a pos is like $600 before sales #even with that being 200 off for black friday #400 is apparently still way too much for her #and yeah i get it thats a lot of money for me too #but i didnt realize you meant you dont even have that much #why are you offering to get me a new phone then gd #so fucking pissed

[todayisafridaynight]

Okay why the fuck is like a dragon 60 bucks on download like TF!?!

i hate to be the one to tell you this but games nowadays are like sixty bucks

#snap chats #even bordering on $70... inflation's finally catchin up to videogames.. #i guess what you mean is 'this isn't a physical copy so why is it so expensive' #which. yea </3 #i cant even be wholly mad when. just from what we've seen so far. the game's going to be well worth the price point #like i'll be cross if a game like the sims or ACNH is 60 and they have to add in content well after the release date #EVEN MAKING THOSE ADDITIONS DLC MIND YOU #rgg- so far- has been pretty fair about dlc yk its usually just costumes or fun extra bits behind dlc #sins kaito files but from what i heard it's a great dlc #i try not to bootlick yk. im a stingy bastard i feel pain spending money #but this prob the one time i aint gonna be upset about a game's price point like The Price Is Right lmao #buuuuut again the main issue here prob isnt The Cost Of Videogame its The Cost Of The License Of The Game #unless you're doing steam style but semantics POINT IS #uhhhhhh idk. physical copy gang rise up

[buppydoll]

annoying ass teen boy highschoolers talking abt being “shouldered” (someone walks past u and their shoulder hits urs) like oh im so sorry u and 8 other idiots are blocking the entire pathway just standing around dumb cunts

#i need to stop being so mad all the time but. #highschoolers suck so much. and are so annoying its so hard #like im trying to get to my classes GET OUT OF THE FUCKING WAY! U STOPPED RIGHT INFRONT OF ME! NEXT TO ALL UR STUPID FRIENDS MAKING A LINE #BLOCKING THE ENTIRE GODDAMN SPACE. IM GONNA PUSH THRU U ASSHOLES #i try not to be so violent w guys but oughhh i cant deal w it every day Sometimes i just expldoe #this particular instance doesnt actually bother me its just the cishet boys here in gen that piss me off increasingly every fucking week #makes me sad bc this school rly isnt that bad but fucking. 85% of the students are ignorant racist assholes and it fucking sucks #not to mention incredibly ableist and transphobic its really hard not to physically fight ppl i hear use the r slur like its a fucking joke

[wabblebees]

anyone happen to have that r/Ritalin screenshot handy lmao

#u know the one. ''does it count as recreational use if im not having fun'' #i need it for. reasons #<-aka my sleep-deprived dumbass cant remember if i took my meds already today (bc. sleep deprived.) #and now im sitting playing the game of ''can i not focus bc im exhausted'' or ''can i not focus bc im rawdoggin today'' #my body's so mad abt how tired i am that the caffeine i Know is in my system (bc of the a Physical Reminder on my desk) isnt helping AT ALL #so im stuck between ''heyo dude yr hearts already beating kinda fast lol u probly shouldnt fuck with it anymore'' #& ''fUck me ive got class in a 1/2hr & after that Another (Worse!) class & after THAT. Four Hours of rehearsal. before i can sleep again #so like ofc yr anxious abt all that jazz but like. u gotta find SOMETHIN to keep u moving until u can finally collapse in bed yk.'' #jic i DID manage to take my meds when i think i mightve (11? 10:30??) im gonna wait until 2:30 (when class starts) to take them ''again'' #but immmMM. Not Pleased #i hate that meds to help my brainfuckery require me battling seven layers of Other brainfuckery in order to actually take them. i hate it. #im worried ill fall asleep in class or be super weird+twitchy bc i feel VERY super weird+twitchy & maybe its just that i need to put more #food in my me (which im fixing rn dw ikik) #but. UGH #i hate it here #gonna give it 15 to see if the food helps & then if it DOES it might be time for More Caffeine Baybee!! bc stabilized insides=More Wake Up! #orrrrr?? who knows. i sure dont lmfao #bee speaks

[satansappendix]

Also love how I was fighting for my all night with intense nausea and stomach pain, literally up all night going to the bathroom to try to vomit, but when it comes time to wake up for work at 7am and I know I can't go my mom comes in and is like all angry that I dont feel good? Like she thinks I'm lying because I don't want to go to work? Which I don't really do? I'm just sick bro then I rush to the bathroom and finally throw up after hours of nausea and then she believes me Like she thought me getting up like every hour to go the bathroom was me staying up late for funsies and me needing to call out today was because I didn't want to face the consequences of my actions Like no! I was literally trying to throw up all night so maybe I could feel better in the morning and go to work because I know there's no one to really do my job today! Like I'm one of three people trained at our store to do it and one of the others is on vacation, I was trying to not call out but I have been sick all fucking night so I couldn't go in But she didn't believe me until she heard me throw up and saw me white as a ghost Idk it just bothers me Im not lying I feel awful its just a nice little cherry on top that she got all mad at me

#just grrr #also sorry if this is tmi but when i threw up it went kind of up my nose so thats really gross #im having a bad time :/ #gonna try to sleep because ive been up like all night from nausea #idk if ill be able to but im going to try #also idk it just feels like i cant go to my mom with any of my problems #like she literally got mad that i was faking illness till i frew up and if i ever go to her about mental stuff the same thing happens #but there isnt any physical proof im sick mentally most of the time #idk irs just hard i dont feel like i can talk to her about my problems even if thwy are really bad like if the world is too mucc #idk #im just going through it #soap spoilers

[lettuce-seize-the-day]

watching glee and crying for some reason? actually a lot of reasons

#shut up hanna #for one. how much i love performing and how much i miss it rn #for two. how scared i am if i have what it takes to do this or not #and if ill even get to find out. or if i am gonna actually be permanently disabled from my injury #and im crying about how unfair that is that i may not even get to fight and find out if i have what it takes #bc i think i do. but not if i have a physical disability. i cant do the schedule of a professional theatre person #with a brain injury! thats what we found out here #and im PISSED OFF crying that im at a dance intensive at the biggest dance festival in the country #and i have barely taken classes. classes that are FREE FOR ME. #and when i do go i have to sit out for half. for the fun half. #bc its like. the second half of class just when i start to not feel well is also when they start doing the intense combos #and im SO MAD bc i KNOW i could kill it and get SO MUCH BETTER doing it!!! #but i can't because i cant turn and i cant jump and i cant whip my head around and i cant throw my body on the floor #and i can't dance that close to other ppl in an intense combo bc its not safe bc my coordination and reaction time is still off #i am devastated and im pissed off bc ive fought so hard and worked so hard to get here and i cant do it. like Literally cant #and im crying bc idk if ill ever have this kind of opportunity again. and im supposed to be networking and im just #that girl that barely comes to class and has to sit out when she does. great impression. #its so unfair. its so unfair. how hard ive worked and how i had to fight and save to get here #and being here with these rich kids whose parents paid for dance lessons their whole life and they get to be dance majors #and their parents pay their summer tuition here. or they have a full scholarship that isnt a workstudy bc theyre good enough bc they had it #and the agony i went to get here next to them. just to not be able to participate. im just so upset its so so so fucking unfair #and i know lifes not fair but jesus christ like. why did god give me this passion and drive just to smack me down a million times #im sad and im PISSED and im scared. mostly im just scared. #also. im crying bc my head hurts. ive always been an ally for disabled ppl but i never Got it until now #and i still fully dont bc i can still do so much and i have a chance of full recovery. but i am disabled now and indefinitely #and it. fucking. sucks. so. bad. and everyone forgets and everyone gets annoyed and frustrated like it's something theyre dealing with #all these years wanting nothing more than to dance and i couldnt and now ive worked to get here and in the room. and now im injured #anyway yeah im fucking sobbing i feel like a burden and a disappointment to everyone and i hate being stuck like this #and you know what?? im probably depressed bc im not dancing!!! and i dont talk to or see anyone anymore!! and i dont have my cat #so. why am i even still here. the answer is that my airbnb is nonrefundable and i still want to take whatever class i can

[moonlitsnail]

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#valid #work posting lol #i called out again. this is the second time this week that ive just needed to not be at work #i went on wednesday but it sucked so badly i was like crying bc my mental health tanked so i said i felt bad and went home #and i felt so guilty abt leaving but like. was crying at work any way to be? i dont think so #yesterday i had to leave a lil early for a drs appt (which they knew abt so nbd) and today i am not feeling it so im calling out again #ive told myself all week 'this appt is gonna make ur arm unusable for a few days which is a valid excuse to call out' #BUT ALSO ISNT LITERALLY CRYING AT WORK BC U FEEL SO SHITTY A VALID REASON?? #ive just been fucked up abt it recently bc this job is so physically and mentally taxing on me and its SO ANNOYING and im mad abt it #bc like!! ok trauma dumping time: my mental health was a fucking joke to my mom growing up and so i have a rlly hard time taking it serious #bc im like 'its all in my head right? so just deal!!' bc thats what ive always done!! and lemme tell u!! it stops working!! #and so when it comes to calling out of work the only reason in my mind is physical illness BUT MOM NEVER VALIDATED THAT EITHER #so instead! when i feel physically bad! i convince myself that im just being dramatic and that its not that bad and then i wind up going l #or i literally call out exactly when my shift starts which i know is not appreciated. #idk im sick of typing this is like time 3 ive tried to get my thoughts in order and im done im gonna go doom scroll reddit or smthn #point is: i dont take my health and wellbeing serious bc mom glorified not giving a fuck abt urself but i do give a fuck #so its rlly frustrating bc half of me says 'bottle it up u can push thru' and the other half says 'good god SAY SOMETHING!!' #and the most it amounts to is calling out every now and then feigning illness and feeling guilty bc i could be working #fucking stupid

[h0ck3yl0v3r]

sparks fly

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lh43 x childhood!bestfriend

warnings: none?!?!

she missed him, and he missed her. with hockey season starting he was a mess. they had gotten paired together for a project in their english class. it was awkward, none of them knowing what to say.

The way you move is like a full-on rainstorm

And I'm a house of cards

they sat in class trying to figure out the topic they should research about. still no words spoken, luke couldn’t help but admire her as she worked. the way her hair kept falling in front of her face, and how she bit the top of her pen from nerves, and the way her eyes were so beautiful.

And you stood there in front of me

Just close enough to touch

Close enough to hope you couldn't see

What I was thinking of

after an hour right before class ended, the two finally found a topic to research on. they settled on how miscommunication can affect ones life. ironic isnt it he thought.

“hey y/n” luke said trying to catch up the girl in a hurry to get back to her dorm.

“what do you want luke.” she said turning to look at the youngest hughes.

“i was wondering if maybe you’d wanna meet after my game, you don’t have to go to it but i figured itd be best if we talk and clear the air since we got paired together.” he said in one breath looking down at her looking for a response.

“okay.” thats all she said. “okay, ill text you after the game, bye y/n.” he said softly, “bye luke” she whispered softly watching him leave.

Drop everything now

Meet me in the pouring rain

Kiss me on the sidewalk

Take away the pain

tonight was a big game, the game against msu. yost was packed, luke was in the locker rooms trying to prepare himself for the game but all he could think about was the one girl who truly made him happy that he hurt. as for her, she was finding her way through yost being dragged out of her dorm by her roommate who was dating one of the players.

as the team skated out for warm ups all the girl could think about was when she’d always attend lukes games, how cute he was in his element, how passionate and focused he is once he hits the ice. she couldnt help but notice how the lighting brought out his green eyes, and how his small smile still has a hold on her.

'Cause I see sparks fly whenever you smile

Get me with those green eyes, baby, as the lights go down

Give me something that'll haunt me when you're not around

the game ended well, umich winning and luke scoring a hat trick, during his third goal in the third period he finally saw you, pointing at you during his celly. your heart melted at that, almost forgetting entirely about why you were mad at him.

My mind forgets to remind me

You're a bad idea

luke quickly finished changing back into his normal attire as you waited for him outside the locker rooms.

once he came out he gave you a small smile which you did the same back.

“care to go for a little walk m’lady?” he said and you couldn’t help but laugh and nod.

you guys walked in a comfortable silence before taking a break on a bench near his dorm.

“congrats by the way, you did amazing tonight.” you said looking up at him a d he smiled whispering a soft thank you.

“i know i said i wanted to talk to clear the air because of the project but it’s more than that.” he said and you nodded for him to continue “im sorry for everything, truly. i miss you so much it physically hurts and i know its not fair the way i treated you, i don’t expect you to forgive me but i just want you to hear my side of the story. i pushed you away because i thought you deserved someone better, someone who could be there all the time, and to have someone you wont have to worry about having to leave one day and do long distance. but in reality i did it to protect myself, because im in love with you, and i didnt want to have to face losing my best friend, or the heartbreak of when i have to leave for the pro’s but i realize now all i want is you, my whole life, its been you.” his voice cracking and leg bouncing from anxiety. you placed your hand on his knee softly rubbing it to comfort him. “lu, i thought you didn’t like me because you became so distant and went after so many other girls, so i never said anything to protect myself, i was so in love with you, the night i left i had cried to quinny, i thought i never had a chance so i pushed myself away too. but im still so in love with you, no matter how much i try to push it away” you said softly as he cupped your face caressing it softly, “i thought you knew, i gave so many hints” and you looked at him confused, “remember all times in high school when guys tried to hit on you and i immediately scared him away, or whenever id call you after a bad game, or when all i ever wanted was to be with you so i came over for like three days, holding your hand or cuddling watching movies that it came to a point my mom had to drag me back home. i thought you knew.” he said tears now falling softly down both of your faces. “im so sorry lu, i never picked up on any of that, i thought it was just because we were best friends.” he wiped your tears away “we were always more than best friends, so much for miscommunication huh? we better get an A on that project” he joked and you couldn’t help but crack a smile and laugh. and as the clouds began crying too, for the first time luke hughes kissed you. the most soft passionate kiss ever. “i love you.” he said pulling away resting his forehead on yours “i love you luke hughes.”

And the sparks fly

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