#this is too much for me god fucking dammit

[ziorite]

IN ANOTHER LIFE IS A VERY STRONG CONTENDER FOR TOP SEASON 6 EPISODE BECAUSE OH MY GOD THE CHARACTER INSIGHT WE GET HERE ??? FUCK they did not go easy on us.

sure didn’t fucking go easy on maddie either absolutely devastating line from jennifer love hewitt god they did not have to do that.

bobby “dad-ing evan buckley the way he deserves since 2018” nash ladies and gents

they definitely don’t lean into the buck/eddie dynamic for eddie the way they did for buck when eddie was shot, but i think that has a lot to do with the fact that buck is very much a heart-on-his-sleeve type. eddie is all about repression and compartmentalization and putting things away so that he can focus on right now, but here we see all of that break free for a moment and it hurts just that much more when you take into account the expressions on eddie’s face at the end of last episode and here.

OKAY OKAY Y’ALL IM SAYING IT RIGHT NOW I FUCKING CALLED IT AS SOON AS MADDIE DIDN’T KNOW WHO BUCK WAS REFERRING TO I KNEW THAT IT WAS GONNA BE FUCKING DOUG AND I WAS RIGHT

are we ever gonna fucking get to learn why his name is chimney or did they just draw house parts/appliances out of a hat at the beginning of the show and just roll with it

SICKENING sequence thanks ! i’m going to go eat drywall about this oh my GOD when you realize that this is how buck thinks about himself and what his deepest fears tell him ?? i can’t believe this is the same fuckboy i hated at the beginning of season one they need to stop hurting him that is my BOY. PLEASE.

anyways shoutout to camerawork and editing for the way the dream world subtly gets loopier and loopier— at first it’s all filmed normally, but then you get these unsteady front on camera angles, everything starts to get more and more saturated, and then any outside backgrounds are overexposed into nothingness. cinema baby, cinema. in another life supremacy tbh i think it outweighs in a flash for me, surprisingly. only complaint is that fox was too nice to the han and buckley parents let them work for forgiveness a little harder dammit.

#911 #911 abc #911 show #evan buck buckely #buck buckley #evan buckley #eddie diaz #edmundo diaz #edmundo eddie diaz #buddie #maddie buckley #jennifer love hewitt #bobby nash #doug kendall #howard han #howard chimney han #chimney han

[projectbluearcadia]

Now, Children, Fight Nicely

Green, crystal-like shards of magic shatter into the air, and Lucifer, in full demon form, bolts inside Barbatos' room, his expression twisted into a snarl as his foot comes flying into Barbatos' face at full force. The impact slams Barbatos into the opposite wall, his hair sprinkled with rocky debris. Blood dribbles from his mouth.

Lucifer: WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU DOSE HER WITH?!

Barbatos: ...

Lucifer: DO YOU THINK I WON'T FUCKING KILL YOU, BARBATOS!? AFTER DOING THAT TO HER?!

Barbatos: I anticipated that, and quite frankly, I'd rather it was you who did it. It seems fitting.

Tears start to streak down Lucifer's face.

Lucifer: How dare you... How dare you welcome death?! If you really feel so horrible about poisoning the love of my life that you came prepared to die for it, how could you do it at all?!

Barbatos: There are... futures that I'd rather not see. For her suffering, for yours, and for my lord's. Futures where she kills Lord Diavolo. Futures where the Devildom perishes in a sea of turmoil. And... futures where she dies at your hands.

Lucifer grits his teeth angrily.

Lucifer: You're fucking stupid for a person that can see the strands of time! I don't care if it's one possibility out of five billion! Step in and change it, you son of a bitch!

Barbatos: I can't.

Lucifer: WHY NOT?!

Barbatos: Ever since I was infected, I haven't been able to use that ability well, and it's been getting worse. I'm... at the point where I can't do much of anything.

Lucifer's expression shifts through several shades of frustration, and he grips his hands in his hair and screams in anger and despair. Moments later, Diavolo arrives in his nightclothes, disheveled but alert.

Diavolo: ...Barbatos, I am quickly becoming incredibly upset with you, and you have about five seconds to explain to me why you never mentioned what I heard from the hallway.

Barbatos: I apologize, my lord; I intended to solve this quietly, but I'm afraid... some things were simply beyond me...

Lucifer: God! Dammit! You're just like her! You always keep everything to yourself and it costs you everything!

Hello, Mr. Pot?

Lucifer's hair falls from his fingertips alongside his distraught tears. He crumples to the ground, picking up Annelie's head and letting his quiet sobs wrack his body.

Lucifer: Oh, Annelie... I'm so sorry... I'm so, so, so... hic... sorry... I promised, but I failed to protect you again, and now you're like this... I'm sorry... Please... I'll save you, so... Please don't die... please don't die... not again.... please...

I... can smell his tears, but I can't wipe them away... I hate this. He doesn't deserve this. Why am I always so...

Diavolo: Lucifer, stop blaming yourself. This isn't your fault. We'll find a solution... okay?

Diavolo looks like he's on the edge of tears himself as he squeezes his friend's shoulder.

That's an empty condolence and he knows it. Barbatos is too smart. I hate this.

Lucifer: ...is it going to be enough? What if she...?

I... hate this. I curse it. Future be damned; I curse it. This powerless self... I curse it and curse it with everything I have.

A black mist wisps around Annelie's body, sinking into her skin, and Barbatos, Diavolo and Lucifer all collectively wince. Diavolo sinks to one knee, gritting his teeth. Annelie's fingers twitch, and Lucifer latches onto them desperately, watching her face. Her black eyes open to reveal that her irises have turned a radioactive shade of hot pink, punctuated by serpentine pupils. Almost immediately, she grabs hold of Lucifer and hugs him tightly.

Annelie: I'm fine... I'm fine.

#me and my edgelord ass #i seriously hate the word edgy tho #tw drugs #obey me lucifer #obey me shall we date #fanfiction #shameless self indulgence #obey me! #obey me angst #obey me #obey me diavolo #obey me barbatos #om! barbatos #om! diavolo #LuciAnne

[dykedearest]

wishing someone would be there for me when im not feeling well, to hold me and tell me they love me as im sniffling and curled up in bed and sealing it all with a forehead kiss before going to get my medicine

#domestic bliss #domesticity #lgbtq #wlw #sapphic #sapphic yearning #nblw #god fucking dammit is this too much to ask for #in sickness and in health fr #i want this so bad you don’t understand it this is tearing me apart from inside

[burnchurch1s]

me trying to figure out if im aromantic like:

#aromantic #aromantic asexual #already established asexual #me: *22 y/o* #also me: ‘am i genderqueer or nonbinary?’ #‘multiple gender or absence of gender?’ #‘aromantic or romantic?’ #‘do i want a romantic relationship or a platonic relationship?’ #what is the difference between a romantic and a platonic relationship? #is wanting to live w someone and have pets w them and plan dates and activities together w/out kissing or sex romantic or platonic love? #you think youre done w coming out n then u have a sexuality crisis again #i cant have THREE coming outs via a picture i took at pride and posted on fb in june! #threes just too much and my mither would never get it #romantic love #platonic love #asexual #god fucking dammit #genderqueer #nonbinary #he/they #they/them #unsure #is wanting to be masculine inherently wanting to be male? #like? no #but is it nonbinary or genderqueer #gay crisis

[astranauticus]

i'm not even done with the new rwd episode but. spoilers ahead

anyway funny thing. i wasn't like, super on board with the professionals when i was first binging through the first 3 seasons and especially once we got to season 3 i tunnel visioned on VR-LA and MR-SN super hard (as is probably extremely obvious from my art) but like. 4.5?? the exchange they had??? the fucking breakup scene???? yeah. yeah i get it now. i have no idea why or what changed but i have now Gotten It at the worst possible timing. what the hell

#rolling with difficulty #usually i don't tag my rambles but just this once i'm gonna do it i want to share my sadness onto other people #im like too sad to finish rhe rest of the episode but too mad to go to sleep so i'm just sitting here stewing #genuinely i have no idea what made it click for me but like #honestly every part of that conversation hit me like a truck #maxim saying it's rare for adventurers to voluntarily leave that life for 'something greater' - ouch???? #like it's so fuckin targeted dear god but also yeah. yeah he would think that huh #vr-la saying he's here as a friend extending a curtesy and maxim immediately being like 'your flattery is unnecessary' like fuck man #'if you wish to avail of my friendship *or something more* i'm afraid that's no longer possible' there's so many layers of what the fuck #'you of all people asking for change' i honestly laughed cuz that's just a good line but also godfuckin dammit #and like just... all of what VR-LA said before he left. like the way neither of them are willing to make enough of a change to get out of th #this unstoppable force vs immovable object situation they're in #they're so like. perfectly in opposition. and it tickles my brain but also DAMN this conversation is painful #god. i hate this /pos #like YES I GET IT NOW BUT ALSO WHY *NOW* #angry and in pain #i guess to some extent it's also like #i've been in that situation where you and a good friend realise your lives are going in irreconcilably different directions #and you want to keep them in your life but it's just not possible with the way you want to live your life and they want to live theirs #and it HURTS and there's NOTHING you can do about it which makes it HURT SO MUCH MORE #fuck. what the hell #especially when the things they'd need to change would also be GOOD for them like maxim embracing change and accepting risks #and VR-LA learing some self-preservation #but at the same time it's like yeah of course they're gonna push each other away rather than change the way they view their lives #i mean both are painful but one of thems clearly easier than the other #i mean speaking from experience one is in fact clearly easier than the other

[dokitm-arch]

me, dusting off the blog after yet another 50 years of vanishing with a pack of caprisun: so, i’ve been rewatching most of d/anganr/onpa content and have the three games which i plan to replay because ahaha, gotta love myself being enabled by SOMEONE to play ‘em, again...you know who you are and i’m only reminded by the utter guilt and misery my girl, mikan, has to go through after waking up from her vegetative state in neo world program. having to accept the harsh reality of the horrible actions she’s done in the name of “love” for junko, which was never real. having to come to a horrible realization that SHE pushed nanami to her death....SHE brought her closest friends, the first friends she ever had, to watch their representative, who brought them together, get killed and succumb to despair. having to finally see the damage mikan has done to her ACTUAL LOVE this applies for any ship i have with her be betrayed by her after abandoning them for junko’s “love”... it’ll destroy her. completely, utterly destroy her with so much guilt...and she’s already mentally unwell, to begin with. it’s those awful realizations that have mikan initially distance herself, fully, from everybody. for the first time, mikan feels completely undeserving of any attention she’s craved for so long... for the first time, she feels undeserving of forgiveness. 

it is only by the unconditional support from everybody that mikan does find her own footing, no matter how much time it took because they’ve all had an understanding, and come out of her miserable state just enough to at least redeem herself by saving the survivors of the final killing game, in hope arc. while mikan’ll never be able to get rid of these awful feelings nor thoughts, not even the grim reality of being unable to bear children due to removing her own womb in replacement of junko’s, she now knows they all have each other and she has done a contributable part in saving kirigiri’s life as well as everybody’s reputation by pinning the blame for what happened to future foundation on the remnants of despair. in her eyes, she is forgiven by those she’s come to rescue and it’s this reassurance that will keep her marching to an unforeseeable future. 

tl;dr: pluto feels for d/anganr/onpa for the 139192992992929292929th time all over again, thx 4 coming 2 my TED talk.

#👹 ` ⟪ ooc. ⟫ / SHUT UP PLUTO. #👹 ` ⟪ headcanons. ⟫ / ABOUT A MUSE. #👹 ` ⟪ ch. mikan tsumiki ⟫ / ULTIMATE NURSE. #gore mention / #infertility mention / #pregnancy mention / #ask to tag #so anyway how are u all doing? im doing just DESPAIRING #:") #why did i allow myself to get back into the old roots GOD FUCKING DAMMIT WHO ALLOWED ME TO DO THIS #i just. love mikan so much? shes def my fave sdr2 chara with fuyu being second and hajime third #i mean i love them all but mikan just? struck out so much to me for some reason? shes just so interesting and her character backstory is jus #just too gruesome. man... the shit she had to go through like i do not blame her for being the way she has become. she was a victim #to unfortunate and traumatizing circumstances #me signing adoption papers: #like i am mondo stan 1 first and foremost BUT I AM ALSO A MIKAN STAN 1 AND U CAN FIGHT ME IN THE PARKING LOT #there is more than just flashing pantsu while tripping .... there is way way more :pensive:

[fingors]

C — The Way It’s Written — Ranks & Bytes

This is part 2 in a series of posts about the C programing language, part 1 (and series details) can be found here

Well everyone, I hope you kept your copy of the free version of the standard from last time, 'cause that thing isn't going away any time soon. To give a quick rundown on what this part is going to cover, it's going to cover the rank of integer types, and it's going to go over the definition of a byte in the language and some of its consequences.

Rank

The “integer conversion rank” (6.3.1.1 p1, page 37) is a scale (or ranking) of all the integer types from _Bool to unsigned long long (and possibly implementation defined types). The definition effectively states that all integers have some rank, that the signed and unsigned version of a type have the same rank (and char’s rank equals that of its signed and unsigned versions), that a type with a greater precision (number of bits) will always have a greater rank than a lower one, and that even if two types have the same representation (ie. same width) one will always have a greater rank. It also gives us an outline of the rank of the fundamental (called the “standard integer types” in the document) integer types: _Bool, char, short, int, long, and long long, and it also handily gives us the info that any implementation defined types (such as say __int64) has a rank less than a corresponding standard type with the same rank (such as (possibly) long long). It also states that any implementation defined types with the same precision have some ranking between each other, this is important because it establishes a total order (any integer type’s rank is either less than or greater than any other type).

So what’s the deal with ranks? Well notice the full title contains “conversion”, ranks are very important for determining integer type promotion. Any type who’s precision (and as such rank) is less than an int will be transformed into an int (if its value would fit, unsigned int otherwise) when performing an arithmetic operation (add, sub, mul, div), a shift operation, a ‘sign’ operation (negation (- operator) or the + operator), or when passed “certain argument expressions” (usually var arg functions). Note this is simply a promotion in width only, the values contained within remain completely unchanged. What this means is that adding a char to a char will in fact actually become the addition of an int and an int.

Ranks are also very important for another conversion, arithmetic operations on differing types (6.3.1.8 p1, page 39). Firstly if one of the types in the expression is a floating point type long double, double, or float) then the other type is promoted to that floating point type (you don’t want to lose the fractional part just cause you added an int after all), but after that is where rank becomes important. If the types are the same nothing happens and the expression goes on as usual, but if the types differ then the type with the lower rank is promoted to the type with the higher rank (usually, there’s a caveat about precision that basically boils down to “if promoting it would cause signed data loss, then promote both types to an unsigned version”). What’s all this mean? Well it basically means that given any two types (say int and unsigned long long) any operation between them will cause the lower rank type to become the higher rank type (here the int becomes an unsigned long long).

These results are all bound to the definition of conversion (6.3.1.3, page 38). Long story short on that if you convert a signed type to an unsigned type then the value stored will have 2n (where n is the value bit width of the new type) added to it over and over until the result falls within range of the new type, however if you convert an unsigned type to a signed type and the value can not fit within the signed type its up to the implementation what happens (since its implementation defined it must be documented somewhere). Conversion also comes into play in a few other places, like assigning values of one type to another (ex. char to int) or passing arguments to functions (ex. passing an int value to a function expecting long).

Byte(s)

Ok this one is going to be a lot simpler (and more fundamental) than ranks, I’ve only put it after type introduction and ranks because it's easier to understand that way (at least for me, sorry if you find it otherwise).

Alright let’s get the big things out of the way first, a byte is simply defined as “addressable unit of data storage large enough to hold any member of the basic character set of the execution environment” (3.6, page 4), which just means it can hold all of the basic ASCII (printable) characters excluding ‘`’ (the backtick), ‘$’ and ‘@’ as well as some control characters like new lines and such. The other big thing is that a byte is at least 8 bits (5.2.4.2.1 p1, page 20), but can be more (there have been systems with 9 bit bytes before), and also that a char (and signed and unsigned versions) are exactly one byte, no more, no less.

The other thing is that any (non-bitfield) object (an object in C is defined in section 3 and is simply the value contained within some memory location) is composed of n continuous bytes (6.2.6.1 p4, page 34), meaning that the total width of the object in bytes is n multiplied by the number of bits in a byte. It also goes on to detail that any objects with the same bit pattern (except for floating point NaN values) will compare as equal, however not all objects that compare equal need to have the same bit pattern (ex. negative 0 and ‘normal’ 0).

Further down (6.2.6.2) we learn that any integer type (except unsigned char which is only value bits) can be divided into value bits (bits that contribute to the actual value of the number) and padding bits (bits that are just there to make the integer fill the full width of a n bytes), and that there need not be any padding bits. As expected an unsigned type can store any value between 0 and 2v-1, where v is the number of value bits, and a signed type can store between (at least) -2v-1 and 2v-1-1 (due to needing a sign bit).

All other objects have n bytes contained within them, however their usage of the bits will differ greatly depending on their use, for example floating point types need to divide their bits between sign, exponent, and mantissa, and structs use their bytes to hold other types and objects.

Conclusion

So that’s it, that’s ranks and bytes in the C programming language. Ranks determine how integer types combine together, and bytes make up every object in the language and determine their value.

Thank you for reading, once again I stayed up late to write this, except it's even worse since I have something critical tomorrow. If you have any comments, concerns, or ways to improve this series drop them in the replies.

#C #C Programming #C programming language #Computer Science #ISO #IEC #C The Way It's Written #fingors speaks #God dammit man i was hoping to be able to cover bitfields in here but that would be too fucking much #AND i still don't even have ptrdiff_t or size_t explained or even mentioned #I was expecting those fuckers to be brought up and settled in the FIRST post #At this rate we won't get to them for another hot minute #(Sorry for excluding bitfields Julia but I doubt you'll even see this one) #Thanks for reading everyone #I love you #If you actually followed me because of this series #congrats #and uh i hope you enjoy the other inane shit i post on my blog

[what-even-is-sleep]

Maybe it’s like every semester I’m supposed to have a horrible friendship emotional break

#rant #hmm how to describe #like all the things that happen in TV shows about high schoolers is happening to me now?? #like: friend group conspired behind my back to hang out w/ out me and I overheard them in the middle of doing so #then: person I was in a friends with benefits sitch with leads me on hella (giving me their jacket #cuddling etc) then we have a convo and they don’t tell me if they like me romantically or not #and then the next time I see them they say that they kissed our mutual friend (who I introduced them to) instead of saying we weren’t #a thing #and now!!: friends I thought I was chill with making plans in front of me to hang out (asking each other when they’re free and glancing #my way but not acknowledging me or asking me) #and!!!: the one person I really thought I connected with and that it wasn’t messy with says that they think I’m more into this friendship #than they are!!! and saying (nicely) that my energy is too much and insinuating that we should hang out less!!! #wow!!!! #I’m just!!!!!!!! having a great time here #sobbing my fucking eyes out. #this fucking shit after a traumatizing ass summer too #GOD #I THOUGHT WE WERE PAST THIS HIGH SCHOOL BULLSHIT GOD FUCKING DAMMIT #CANT PEOPLE JUST BE FUCKING HONEST WHEN I DIRECTLY CHECK IN GOD FUCKING DAMNIT #mypost #personal

[ink-livi]

I'm trying to pack for my trip I leave for on wednesday and I can't find my goDDAMN SKIRT THAT I WAS SO EXCITED TO WEAR

IVE ALREADY BEEN ON THE VERGE OF SNAPPING ALL WEEK AND THIS IS FR ABOUT TO BE THE LAST STRAW LMFAO

#liv talks #i talk too much #<- gonna use that for dumb personal bs me thinks #BUT ANYWAYS IM MAD #I HAD CUTE OUTFITS PLANNED BUT I NEED THAT SKIRT #WHERE IS IT IM FUCKING. FOAMING AT THE MOUTH #me moving into my own place has been a fucking NIGHTMARE for my shit going missing i swear to god #looking at my family that has always stolen my shit they didnt like me having #AAAA #i will legit just go buy another one if i have to but i shouldnt have to 😭😭 #just lemme have my cute white skirt dammit #this year has been a fucking NIGHTMARE LOL

[jankwritten]

HEY!

HEY

fucking H E Y

the fact that I am

TWENTY YEARS OLD

AND SOMEHOW THINK THAT IF I DON'T

HEAL THE WORLD

WRITE A BESTSELLING BOOK

BECOME PEAK FIT AND EAT PERFECTLY HEALTHY

AND SO FORTH

BY THE TIME I'M TWENTY FIVE I'LL

LITERALLY FUCKING DIE

IS HEINOUS!!!!! I'M BARELY NOT A TEENAGER!!!!!!

WHO TOLD ME THOSE LIES AND

WHY THE FUCK DID I BELIEVE THEM

*ahem*

#scream into the void time fellas do it with me now #not pjo #not fandom #vent post #personal post #can you tell that i just discovered i can change the size and color and font of my posts :D #BUT ALSO I'M SO RIGHT WHO THE FUCK TOLD ME THAT I HAD TO HAVE THIS SHIT SORTED BY 20 #i choose to blame my parents who constantly make jokes about how when i write a bestselling book they can retire off my money #(as a joke. they both have GREAT retirement plans and only want me to write a book because they know i love writing) #BUT STILL!!!!!!!! #god dammit #so anyway i'm experiencing too much and i'm gonna go make popcorn abt it

[pizzapizzadickz]

.

#diary #personal #got fucking dammit my throat is sore and i wanna fucking stop this vocal stim cuz it strains my voice. #but i just fucking keep on doing it. ugh. its so just. annoying after a while. ugh. #sometimes i just get into one specific stim a lot and ill do it so much but stop in a while. but sometimes its too much #idk i just wanna chill but it be hard bc i keep fucking squeeking ;-; #first world problems man. the squeak™️ #and whats about as bad is i wanna bit on my cheeks and thats also annoying bc i *should* get some gum #BUT I WANNA SETTLE DOWN AND SLEEP FFS #...god i just need something to bite or chew on ffs. and doing it to myself isnt a good idea lmao #seriously this is so annoying. like ive *sorta* burnt out or something so im just super stimmy lately. #AND LIKE AGAINST BETTER JUDGEMENT IVE BEEN WATCHING NEURODIVERGENT TIKTOKS #AND LIKE THIS IS A PROBLEM BC IT MAKES ME STIM MORE FFS #...a while back i was watching sweet anita who has tics and because she has a popping tic it makes my stim MUCH WORSE. #bc i have the same fucking stim as her tic #IM DYING HERE SOMEONE BRING ME WATER UGH #like. i can cover them up and i dont stim in public or whatever. but at home in my room? its free real-estate. #(yes i just pictured that meme) but seriously tho it gets tiring and annoying after a while when youve spent HOURS or DAYS #just fucking stimming. like. i dont mind stiming. but this is too much. send help. what do do when stim too much. #...and i know this is bc i mask a lot and burn out a lot.... i know i did this to myself leave me alone. #UGHHHHHH FUCK.

[opheliaoversteers]

My husband’s job’s medical staff told him he’s on mandatory quarantine/sick leave for five days, and his job keeps scheduling him for the week like….. can y’all communicate

#i know that’s too much to ask of govt jobs but fuck #JUST LET ME BABY HIM FOR A WEEK GOD DAMMIT #stop interrupting my babying with calls

[asteralien]

i'm always wanting desperately to write about angels but gomens2 is making me borderline rabid

#its incredibly not fair that i've had miracle and absinthe and rain bopping around upstairs for like. god. close to 10 years #and i STILL dont have a good story for them #the whole concept is just so complicated and needs so much research #and that's if i even want to write it as originally conceived #which i don't think i do bc it's just so........idk i no longer feel comfortable doing anything with it even with another decade of researc #but if i get rid of even the base concept then WHAT do i have left #besides a couple half-feral angels and wholly feral teenager #[shaking my brain] LET ME WRITE ANGELS DAMMIT #mythtakes #AND THEN there's heaven + hell which i absolutely cannot write anymore #on account of coming up with it back before i had a firm grasp on cultural appropriation whoopsy fucking daisy #but i'm also very attached to THEIR whole fallen angel/demon type concept too and it's just #it's all just very not fair and i hate past!me for having such good character concepts in such badly ill-conceived ways #and why were all the most egregious examples my angel stories. WHY