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#this is taken directly from the notes app LMAO
milf-harrington · 10 months
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For the made-up fic title prompt:
"Just another normal doomsday"
Just Another Normal Doomsday
Hawkins, 1987.
"I'm just saying, punk rock gay sex is different to hippy gay sex."
"How?"
Robin shrugged, stirring her straw through her milkshake before lifting the whole cup to her mouth to drink it. "It's sexier."
She was sitting with her legs crossed underneath her, back leaning against the bus window so she could face where he was sitting across the aisle. The bus was pleasantly dim, but watery sunlight streamed through a gap on her side and bathed her face in blue shadows while her hair lit up with bronze at the ends.
Steve snorted, leaning sideways with one leg stretched over the aisle, muddy sneaker propped up on the edge of Robin's bench. A cardboard tray filled with chips was nestled in his lap, the corners darkened with grease and grainy with salt.
"You're just saying that because your parents are hippies."
From Steve's backpack, their walkie (one they shared, with masking tape scribbled over in colourful markers stuck to the back, their names written in each others handwriting) crackled to life, codes carried out in a cloud of static that made them both sigh in unison.
Robin burped, dropping her empty milkshake cup back into the bag their food had come in. "No," She protested, milk lining her upper lip before she wiped it away. "I'm saying it because it's true."
"They're both gay!"
"But being punk rock is gayer!"
He flicked a chip crumb at her when she reached for her bag, watching it dodge her flailing attempts at a block and get stuck in her hair. "I'm telling Eddie you called him gay."
She blinked at him, face scrunched up in the same expression she used to give him whenever he opened his mouth at Scoops. "Eddie is gay, and I'm telling him that you called him punk rock-"
Something outside shrieked, high and rattling like broken glass against a sheet of metal. They shared a look like the ones they used to share at Family Video, when customers were being unreasonable and they couldn't say anything about it or they'd get fired.
Steve leaned down to grab his bat from the floor, wiping the grease off of his hands onto his jeans as Robin stood and stretched. There was still a deep purple bruise tucked into the inner corner of her eye from a demo-bat attack on patrol a few days ago, and Steve felt the matching one on his shoulder twinge when he hauled the nail-bat over it.
"He won't do anything," He told her, stepping in front to take the lead as they moved towards the front of the bus. The windows were still sloppily boarded up from a night that felt like a hundred years ago, just Steve and a bunch of kids who were in over their head. "I call him punk all the time, I think he's grown immune to it."
They stopped at the door, Robin squeezing past to stand on the other side, where the controls were. They stayed quiet, peering through the dirty glass to get a grasp of the how many and where. Dustin's code said three, but they'd been wrong before.
"Yeah, but if he hears you've been spreading that around?" Robin whispered, reaching behind her to wrap bandaged fingers around the lever. She whistled low, mostly breath, and Steve rolled his eyes. "You won't have to worry about demodogs, is all I'm saying."
"Yeah, yeah." He muttered, tightening his grip on the bat as the door shuttered open and a gust of warm air hit his face.
He crept outside, second-hand work boots crunching lightly on the gravel as he listened to Robin hurry up the ladder to the roof. She was going to yell directions and throw molotov cocktails while he did the actual hard shit. Technically the lookout part was supposed to be Eddie's job, and Robin was meant to be at Steve's back with her axe, but apparently they were at a crucial stage of the campaign and he "couldn't miss it".
Part of Steve hoped he'd get eaten, if only to get his boyfriend to reorganise his priorities a bit.
A half hour later, Steve leaned against the side of the bus, sweaty and panting while Robin offered him her water-bottle. She reeked of cheap alcohol and the sharp smell of burning, glittering shards of glass caught in her fringe. Gore dripped from the nails in his bat, and one of the dogs had gotten a good swipe at his shin, but he remained mostly un-grievously-injured. He still hurt everywhere though, body complaining about all the diving over and around and behind random bits of junk and machinery.
"Metal gay sex is probably gayer than punk rock gay sex." He decided, and Robin hummed thoughtfully.
"You'd know."
He shrugged, tilting his head with an ehh. "I've never slept with a punk so I can't be sure, but you've met Eddie."
"I have indeed. Speaking of- are we having dinner at Wayne's tonight?"
Steve groaned - not in complaint, it's just that his everything hurt and he'd forgotten about their dinner plans - and ran a hand through his hair. It was greasy and damp with sweat and monster blood. Overhead, a flock of demobats shrieked and weaved among each other, not bothering with the two of them as they headed off towards the quarry.
"Yeah, I said we'd pick up mince for that chuck-in he makes, but that was before the butcher got eaten this morning and I don't think Melvald's is open today."
Robin sighed, scooping up her bag and shrugging it over her shoulder. She held out a hand, fingers spread and wiggling expectantly, and he grinned as he clasped their hands together.
The headed off towards the tracks, a short-cut to the trailer park, and swung their hands back and forth between them.
"I could make that pasta my mum taught me?" Robin offered. "Pretty sure the Munson's will have all of that."
He groaned, this time in delight, and swung their hands a bit higher like a kid on the swings excited to touch the clouds. "God yes, please."
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teetle-time · 3 months
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Time Is All We Have
A Doctor Who x Rise of the TMNT Xover interest check/story prologue because i'm losing all control of my life lmao
Quick mini-primer for where in both timelines we are:
Non-teetle fixaters, you can just watch the first few minutes of the Rise movie. Bad future timeline shenanigans wahoo! You should probably also get a feel for the regular present timeline from the show if you can, though we won't be directly interacting with it for a quite a bit. Because Reasons. :)
Non-Who fixaters, we're rolling with David Tennant Doctor The First and the companion named Martha Jones. The name similarity to the Casey Joneses makes me giggle, especially now that I've watched through the (REDACTED) episodes where she ends up with some more Caseys parallels. Those haven't happened yet for her though lmao. Frankly, she's only had a few episodes'-worth of adventures with the Doctor by this point. :)
anyway. shoutout to my brother purpletango for having this idea. i believe what i hurriedly jotted down in my notepad app went like this:
the rise movie begins, mikey gets ready to send junior back in time- -and something goes wrong. welp, the gateway's there now. may as well use it. junior gets yeeted through (and my brain is now adding the idea of leo realizing something's up and going with him) and junior (and maybe leo) land…in the TARDIS. now they gotta get back to earth (hoping they're at least in the right dimension) to find the key and stop the krang. NO PRESSURE LMFAO
with a lil tweaking to the premise that just sorta happened as i was writing, i'm now at 26k words of combined fic and notes. it has been 2.5 weeks. i am nowhere near done. help lmao
gonna be doing something a bit funky with the tardis here just to get the ball rolling. idk if it's a canon thing that can happen but if it's not then shshshshshshsh just pretend with me. take my hand
Almost exactly twelve hours prior to the moment he died, when the rest of what remained of the Resistance had been asleep and it had only been the turtles awake to keep watch, Michelangelo had looked to his big brother and said, "We can't beat them, can we?"
Last night, Leonardo had swallowed and given a slight shake of his head. "We can't."
"They've even stolen the night sky from us somehow," Michelangelo had said, lifting his gaze to the cloudless, crimson sky. "Look, there's no stars anymore."
"When did that happen?" Leonardo had asked under his breath. "We still had at least a handful last I checked…"
"Sometime since the last time we had enough peace and quiet at night to actually look up. I'd say…in the past few weeks?" Michelangelo had suggested.
There had been silence for a long moment after that, broken only by the quiet, deep breathing of the few who were left, as well as the shifting of Michelangelo's cloak as he scooted a bit closer to his brother.
Between the two of them, Leonardo and Michelangelo had enough organic fingers and toes to count everyone else who'd survived the past twenty-odd years. Then again, with only two toes on each foot, three fingers on each hand, and three organic hands left to use…well. Less than twenty wasn't exactly an army.
Casey had shifted in his sleep, eventually, mumbling something incoherent the way his mother always had.
Leonardo had swallowed.
Michelangelo had pulled his gaze back down to Earth and looked at him.
"The Krang won't give us the mercy of dying," Leonardo had said grimly. "Not if they can help it."
"They won't," Michelangelo had agreed.
"The others chose to fight with us. Humans, yokai, and mutants. Even Todd. Never would've expected him of all yokai to be so kickass, back in the day. But…this is all Casey's ever known," Leonardo had continued.
"It is."
There had been a shifting in the shadows off in the distance, then, and while it had turned out to be easily taken care of, it had still put a pause on the brothers' conversation for a bit.
When they'd gotten back, but before they'd woken the others and gotten moving again, Leonardo had nailed Michelangelo with a solemn look. "We can't avoid this forever, but Casey…"
"I know you're not talking about that thing we talked about never talking about," Michelangelo had said, raising the ridges of his brows for a deadpan look and a wry smile.
Leonardo had jabbed an elbow into his plastron with a thick snicker…but he hadn't denied it.
Michelangelo had sobered up, then. "Oh."
"Do you think you can do it?" Leonardo had asked as he'd knelt to shake April awake, pausing before he did to meet Michelangelo's eyes.
"I know I can," Michelangelo had said, remaining quiet about how 'it' would very likely be the end of him.
They'd both already known as much.
"When?"
"I-I don't know. When things look bleakest," Leonardo had tried. "If it comes down to us. If it's just you and somebody else. If…if it's just you."
Michelangelo had nodded, then put a hand on his brother's carapace. "The Krang'll get front-row seats to Earth's very own home-grown sun. And that's a Doctor Delicate Touch guarantee."
"Wouldn't expect anything less, little man," Leonardo had chuckled. "Give 'em a light show that'll have 'em running scared."
"I can fly, Leo. And 'little man' was always Raph's thing," Michelangelo had snickered, reaching down to wake Casey. "Hey, Casey, we gotta get moving. Mind waking up and reminding your sensei that I win all height contests forever, no take-backs?"
The noise had begun rousing the others, and Leonardo had scoffed. "Turning my own student against me, Mikey? Low blow."
"Nah," April had said from where she lay. "This is a low blow."
She had snapped an arm out to smack Leonardo's shin, and the rest of the survivors had woken to quiet laughter.
It had been nice.
The last moment of calm within the storm.
In the present, Michelangelo winced as the mystic energies swirling through him reached a crescendo, but still pushed further, digging his fingers into the fabric of reality and wrenching it apart.
With Leonardo wounded, everyone else outnumbered, and Krang closing in on all sides, it was definitely pretty bleak.
There was no better time to make a time gateway than when there was no time left, after all.
His heart pounded in his tympana, loudly enough he almost could have sworn it echoed, a thud-thud-thud-thud that wanted to shake him to the core.
For a moment, with the Krang bearing down on him, his brother, and his nephew, it felt like he was losing his grip.
Casey's voice managed to overpower the thud-thud-thud-thud: "Master Michelangelo, no! You're gonna-!"
He knew.
How could he not, with light cracking his skin and his scales into little flakes of dust on the wind?
But Casey…he was the future.
The best of all of them.
As long as Casey would be okay, Michelangelo could do anything. Would do anything.
He turned his head back over his shoulder for one last look.
Casey looked horrified.
Leonardo looked resigned.
There was no one else left.
(He didn't want to go.)
Michelangelo smiled and gave his family a cheeky little wink, then turned his attention to the time gateway in front of him, threw his arms out to his sides with one last heave-!
-and like Earth's very own home-grown supernova, like the very last star in the universe, he imploded into golden light.
Leonardo felt himself shatter inside as Mikey disintegrated and the time gate stabilized, but the Krang were still closing in.
"Casey, when you're done saving the world, do me a favor," he said, putting a hand on the kid's shoulder.
Casey looked up at him with wide eyes. "Sensei, don't-!"
Leonardo just smiled sadly and shifted his grip from comforting to more of a ready to throw.
He ignored the fire in his side and the trickle of blood down his plastron as he hurled Casey into the gateway. "Grab a slice-!"
"NO!"
Casey's scream was the only warning Leonardo had before the wrist-strapped grapple (standard issue, at least before Donnie had gone out with a bang) streaked back out of the portal, latched onto Leonardo's good shoulder, and yanked him off his feet.
"Whoawhoawhoawhoawhoa-!"
The deafening thrum of a Krang laser and a flash of heat at his back told Leonardo exactly how he should have died, but the sensations vanished just as quickly as they'd appeared, leaving only the golden light of Michelangelo's ninpo and the silhouette a few yards away that told Leonardo where Casey was.
Leo almost let himself go limp in the rushing mass of energy as it faded from golden-orange to something more bluish-gray.
Almost.
Instead, however, he grit his teeth against the way his wound flared up and started swimming for Casey.
The light around them grew brighter with no signs of stopping.
By the time Leo reached the kid, he had to screw his eyes shut to avoid going blind.
He managed to grab Casey's hand, then wrap himself protectively around him-
-and then some kind of metal grating slammed against his carapace, his head snapped back, and he knew only darkness.
The Doctor blinked at the sudden sound of beeping. "Oh? That doesn't sound right."
"Doctor? What is it?" asked Martha.
"I'm getting an alert," said he, darting over to one of the TARDIS' monitors for a look. "An alert that there's a lifeform catapulting through the timestream almost completely unprotected- two! Two lifeforms!"
Martha blinked. "What? How did that happen?"
"I don't know, but if we want to find out, we'd best get them onboard before whatever shielding they do have is eroded away." The Doctor studied the monitor for a moment more, then slid around the console and started throwing the appropriate levers and flicking the appropriate switches. "I need to focus on getting close- would you mind peeking out the doors to make sure my aim isn't off?"
"On it!"
The Doctor grinned, then turned his focus back to steering. "Aaalright then! They ought to be coming up just ahead, maybe a smidge to our left-!"
"I see them!" Martha called. "One of them- one looks human!"
The Doctor blinked, then looked up. "Only the one?"
Martha nodded, not tearing her eyes from the window. "The other looks almost like a turtle! Except, well, it's person-sized!"
"Curiouser and curiouser," the Doctor mused. Then, looking back down at the console, "Well, I think the simplest course of action would be to just…scoop them up!"
Martha glanced his way in confusion. "What, just open the door and grab 'em?"
"Exactly. You'll want to be quick and precise," the Doctor recommended. "Good to know we're on the same page."
After a moment to process what he'd said, Martha nodded slowly. "…right."
The Doctor carefully piloted the TARDIS close, and as he watched the energy readings of the two lifeforms get close enough, he heard Martha open the door, then yelp in surprise as something hard hit the metal flooring with a clang.
"Sensei?!" squawked the thick and emotional voice of a pubescent human boy.
"Oh, my," said the Doctor, skirting the edge of the console as he jogged over for a look.
Immediately, he could tell that whatever the circumstances were that had led to the two strangers being catapulted into the timestream, they had not been pretty. Between the apocalyptic fashion and weaponry, the fact that the turtle had seemingly been curled around the boy until losing consciousness, and the sight of tear tracks on the boy's face…well, a billboard would have been less obvious.
The boy glanced between the Doctor and Martha, wide eyes quickly shifting into suspicion as he slid off "Sensei's" plastron and placed himself between the turtle and the Doctor. "Who are you? What do you want with us? Are you with the Krang?"
Huh. He sounded American.
"Krang?" asked Martha, turning to him. "Doctor, what's a Krang?"
The Doctor frowned, mulling the word over. "Krang? Krang, Krang, KrangKrangKrang… Can't say I recognize the name. Bit of a shocker, really, and somewhat worrisome."
The boy's face spasmed, confusion clearly welling up, but the door chose to remind them all that it was still open by letting a tannish cloak drift through and land next to the two newcomers.
The sight of the cloak made the boy's eyes moisten further.
Oh, dear.
"Martha, could you get the door?" asked the Doctor, shifting his voice into something a little softer as he knelt next to the two strangers.
"Oh, uh- you got it."
As Martha did exactly that, the Doctor met the boy's eyes. "I'm the Doctor. Behind you is Martha, and this is the TARDIS. I don't know what it is you're running from, whatever this 'Krang' business is, but I promise you, you're safe here."
The boy's suspicion slowly lessened, the tension in his shoulders loosening some- though, notably, nowhere near completely. "And…what's a tardis?"
"My spaceship," said the Doctor modestly. "'S how I get around. What I want to know is, how did a humanoid teenager and a turtleman with a robotic arm end up hurtling through the timestream all on their lonesome?"
At that, the boy's gaze flickered to the cloak on the ground, and his jaw hardened in that way jaws tended to do when the only other option was to sob.
"…I see," said the Doctor quietly. "While I'd like to know the specifics, pushing this sort of thing never really seems to work out well. So I won't."
"You-" The boy's voice cracked, and he tried again. "You said you were a doctor?"
"The Doctor," corrected he.
"Though I've been training as one for quite some time, myself!" Martha reminded.
The boy visibly warred with himself for a moment, then grit his teeth and pulled slightly away from the turtle's side, revealing a nasty gash that had gone clean through his shell. "Help him. Please."
Martha gasped. "Oh, God-!"
The Doctor's eyes flew wide, but then he nodded firmly. "We'll do everything we can."
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eudociaocdump · 1 year
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I have so many thoughts yall I am spiraling. Ok.
1. It is hard for me to organize my thoughts for this fic because I dont remember some of the things I write. Like I will look through a notebook and be like holy shit what a great idea who wrote that cuz I surely don't remember doing it.
2. I am looking through more acotar meta and I am gonna tag some people becaue I am in awe of the work they put into these theories and organising them and I just love everything they write, I gotta give credit becaue they keep me motivated to write and work despite life in general being difficult.
@flowerflamestars @offtorivendell @wingedblooms @nikethestatue @silverlinedeyes
3. Chaotic thoughts, may change bc I found a lot of interesting theories, but thoughts right now DIRECTLY from my notes app lmao:
Ooohhhhhh okay creepy creatures are from the connection to dusk. Night is darkness, full of stars, dusk is the covering. The sun setting and shifting. The change into darkness and from that it grew its particular type of magic. ....after being taken over the divide btwn velaris and nightmares court. The land drew back its power. The old gods were angry and so many fae were trapped away after they scattered. So i think it would be cool if hyberns anchient family were from dusk and that is why he hates prythian. Fae fled and rhysands anchient anceston followed them this trapping fae into the prison and creating the nightmare court. The unbalancing of power led to the middle being created!!!!! Now this would have happened millenia ago so basically when thw courts were young thats why carver is so old
Maybe morrigan can know things similar to seers, they can only know past and present tho, they give themselves to the deep magic of the land and can see truths. Maybe morrigan doesnt like the feeling of not being herself and leaning into that power...we know night IC didnt want nesta using her powers maybe they encouraged morrigan to not use them....azriel hears shadows because in his dispair the deep magics heard him. He was trapped like the dusk fae and they lended him rhe power of shadowsinging.
..elain and him are connected via that tog thing what is the name like they can share powers?
AAAAAHHHHHH SHE IS LOST IN THE WATERS OF THE WORLD AND SEEING PASTPREDENTFUTURE AND DUSK KNOWS IT AND SEES HER AAAAAHHHH - about elain
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hello-yue-here · 3 years
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THANK YOU
get ready for some water tribe sib goodness oh yeaaahhhhh
a short little one shot idea about katara and sokka reminiscing their childhood as old people in the SWT. sokka lives a long and healthy life fuck LOK this man LIVES. thank you.
however: hes old as shit and yes this fic is him and katara on his deathbed because while i love old man sokka i also thirst for whump and angst soooooooooooooooo
katara and sokka are chatting. sokka is lying in his bed and katara is sitting nearby in a chair, mindlessly doing something like weaving or eating or reading or carving idk but shes fiddling with something.
sokka brings up the gaang
“hey katara? do you remember when i got stuck in a hole?”
“and toph had to bust you out so you wouldnt get mauled by a sabertooth moose lion? yes i remember.”
“there was a baby moose lion too. foofoo cuddly poops.”
“you never told me that part”
“i knew youd make fun of the name”
“you got me there. why do you bring this up?”
“afterwards i remember thinking about how much i cared for you all. how important your friendships were to me”
“i didnt know that either”
“i never got to say it. aang started earthbending before i got all sentimental”
sokka takes a deep breath causing katara to look over
“sokka?”
“i wish i said it.”
“said what?”
“i wish i said how much i loved you all more. i should have said it that day. i shouldve said it every day.”
“sokka we all knew you loved us”
sokka begins to smile
“whats got you so happy?”
“because i cant wait to see them again. i cant wait to tell them now”
he closes his eyes and katara drops whatever is in her hands and rushes towards the bed
“sokka? sokka?”
katara holds his hand and cries
“tell our friends i love them too sokka”
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highsviolets · 4 years
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of hyperdrives & hands: engineer!reader x obi-wan
summary: you’re fixing the hyperdrive on the Negotiator when a mysterious being pays you a visit.
word count: I honestly have no idea bc i wrote this whole thing on my notes app in the car lmao. (sorry if the formatting is weird/there are typos!!)
rating: G. but also, this is basically a love letter to Ewan McGregor’s gorgeous hands.
A/N: fulfilling a request for the lovely @aty-cgca7! ily, chasity! I hope it’s everything you were looking for 💖 also I know nothing about engineering or computers or hyperdrives so don’t come for me y’all 😂
of hyperdrives & hands, a fic by corellians-only
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Brow furrowed in concentration, you squint in the hazy light. Reaching up to your forehead with your left hand, you slide your fingers across the surface of your skin, batting away renegade wisps of hair that had fallen away from your bun.
Maker, but it was warm down here, in the maw of this behemoth ship. You curse softly to yourself as a bead of sweat hovered perilously close to your eyelash, threatening to obscure your vision as you strain to locate the loose wire that had sent you onto the Negotiator in the first place. Hadn’t your father always warned your that space was cold? When you told him you had joined the Civilian Engineer Corps to help with the war effort, he had even cracked a joke about adding extra layers to your uniform.
You frown. Clearly, accomplished pilot though he was, you father had never been in the hyperdrive control center of a Republic Venator-class Star Destroyer.
Catching your distraction, you shake your head. No. You needed to focus. Now was not the time to question your father’s supposed space travel wisdom. There’s a job to be done. Hyperdrives did not fix themselves.
There she is. Rather than simply becoming disconnected, the wire had split in two, snapping under the pressure from the processing core directly above the unit. This was going to be more complicated than you thought.
For a few hours, the only sounds that filled the room were soft snip of wirecutters and the gentle thrum of the engines. As you start re-routing the stray wire, your mind begins to wander.
You had heard stories about Star Destroyers with entire hangers of processing cores for the shields alone. That their nav computers were the most accurate in the galaxy. That their holo encryption system was unbreakable (it wasn’t. You had written and sliced a viral code into their data key a few standard months back, just to see if you could). This was your first time on such a warship when it was in space, and while it was impressive, at the end of the day, it ran like any other ship.
Tali had been even aboard General Secura’s flagship, the Liberty, for a supply dump once and she swore that their weapons systems were the most flawless thing she had ever seen - barring General Kenobi, of course, she had added with an impish grin tossed your way.
Your not-so-subtle crush on the dashing General was an open secret among your platoon of female engineers. Most of them assumed it was because he was pretty and famous — he was on nearly every holomag cover, after all — but you knew better. You knew he was a good man. His hands told you so.
The first time you had seen General Kenobi, you had been playing in the undercity of Coruscant when a boy a little older than yourself had stopped to ask what you were building with the rubble left behind from an explosion caused by the nascent Black Sun cartel a few days earlier.
“I don’t know,” you had responded belligerently, upset at your endeavors having been interrupted - and by a boy, no less. “Why do you have a braid in your hair?” you continued. “I thought only girls had braids.”
The boy had adjusted his stance to stand up taller. “I’m going to be a Jedi,” he proclaimed. “I’m Obi-Wan,” he offered with a smile. His eyes flashed suddenly, and with a quick thrust, his hand extended into the dusty air. A sheet of durasteel that had been hovering precariously at the tip of the heap was now suspended in midair, mere centimeters from crashing down on your head. Even in the grim half-light of the slums, you could see sapphire eyes earnestly fixed on the hunk of metal. Strong, lithe fingers gestured gracefully. The object fell with a great crash a few meters away.
You could only stare in awe.
The faint sound a male voice calling had caused him to twist his head and listen. “I have to go.” He frowned. “Master Qui-Gon is calling me. I hope I see you again some day.”
He bowed slightly, then turned and trotted back toward his Master.
You had never been quite able to forget the teenager with pretty hands who had saved your life.
Nearly two decades later, you had seen him again. You and Tali had been sipping cups of caf before your shifts in the makeshift mess hall of a personnel loading area when you sensed his presence. Not in a Jedi way - you didn’t have a lick of Force sensitivity, you knew - but in the way you noticed that everyone seemed to speak a little softer and trail their eyes after the passing figure in white armor.
He had strode past the the two of you, hardly sparing a glance at two female civilian engineers and pointedly ignoring the sheer weight of the gazes trained on him. Later, over a pint of lomin ale, Tali has raved about his hair, and how “he had a shoulder to hip ratio that was sharper than a vibroblade, didn’t you notice?”
You had taken a sip of your drink and laughed good-naturedly at Tali’s antics. You had noticed him, to be sure, but you had been transfixed by his hands, not his muscles.
Back in the days before the war, when you were still a little girl, your father Aves had always told you to take note of a being’s hands. In the present moment, you smile as you refit the access panel on the hyper drive’s core reactor as a the memory comes to mind.
Even though he was a good father, Aves had been a man of mystery. Whatever it was he did for a living, it had blessed him with an intimate knowledge of guns, starships, and computers, and he had passed everything he knew on to his “blazing sun,” he used to call you affectionately.
“Blazing sun,” he would instruct you, “you can tell a lot about a being by their hands.” When he was satisfied he had captured your attention, the impression of a smile glowed across his face. He resumed cleaning his carbine rifle as he spoke, his voice low and smooth. “You can tell a lot about a being by their hands,” he intoned again. “Their trade. Their social class. How they hold a weapon. What kind of weapons they use. If they can pilot a ship. If their mind is focused or skittish.” The tall man had shrugged gently, an action that seemed counterintuitive to the grade A contraband blaster now resting comfortably in his expert grip. A new power pack slapped into place with a precise snap. “If you ever want to know someone” — he tucked a stray hair behind your ear tenderly, the other hand still clutching the blaster — “look at their hands.”
You begin tapping out routine codes on the core reactor to test the replacement wire. The various combinations of letters and numbers in basic and binary were muscle memory, and you stared in awe as your own fingers punch in the digits seemingly of their own volition.
Yes, it was General Kenobi’s hands that most enraptured you, you decided. Slender, calloused (you supposed - not that you had ever had the pleasure of testing that theory for yourself), extensions of strong, well muscled arms that indicated a strong degree over his motions. He had held them so softly at his sides that day in the mess hall. They had gestured animatedly as he walked alongside a clone commander, a graceful arc to his movements that made you think he would be a good dancer — or a formidable fighter.
The klaxon of an alarm drives you from your reverie. “Oh, kriff.” The latest code you had entered seemed to have caused the wires to short circuit, tripping an internal safety alarm.
“Kriff, kriff, kriff.” You continue to swear violently as you all but run over to the central computer console and entering a code to kick-start a program to halt the shrieking din. Within the minutes, the alarm bells stop, and you sag against the console in relief.
“Is something the matter?” a rich tenor voice asks from behind you.
Immediately you tense. In a singular, practiced motion, you pivot on your left heel and whip your blaster into your right hand simultaneously, turning to face the voice in a fighting stance.
“Freeze!” you call into the shadows. Your eyes scan the cavernous room methodically before settling on a spot a few meters in from the doorway where the light seems distorted. You take aim with your blaster.
“Justice, freedom, faith,” the disembodied voice replies calmly from the same spot.
Your eyes narrow. Whoever the being was, they had given the correct password. But the upper-class Coruscanti accent didn’t belong to anyone in your platoon, and who else would be prowling around the underbelly of General Kenobi’s flagship? There had been faint rumors of a lightsaber wielding Separatist operative. Maybe they were coming to sabotage the ship? Well, not on your watch.
“Step into the light,” you order, durasteel edging into your voice. “Keep your hands above your head.” The contours of the blaster are cool, comforting in your grip, soothing the blood rushing just beneath the surface.
A tall auburn-haired man steps into the light, arms raised. “Will this suffice?” he asked wryly, amusement playing across his features as you feel shock and embarrassment creep up your neck and onto your cheeks.
Stars above. I almost shot General Kenobi. A thousand thoughts race through your mind faster than light speed - some witty, some pragmatic.
But of course, what slips out is neither of those.
“Fierfek, you startled me,” you manage to spit out instead. It’s only your steel will that prevents you from collapsing from embarrassment on the spot. Feigning nonchalance you decidedly do not feel about almost murdering a war hero and childhood crush, you holster your weapon and turn back to the console.
“I gathered as much,” he returns, amusement still coloring his tone.
The room fell silent for a few moments as you run system diagnostics.
“What is it you’re working on?” This time, he’s so near you can feel the heat of his breath on the back of your neck. Well honed reflexes are faster than your brain, though, and it isn’t until you feel a gentle pressure on your elbow that you realize it’s raised to jab him in the throat.
General Kenobi’s chuckle seems to fill the room. “Are you sure you aren’t trying to kill me?” he murmurs. A shiver runs up your spine despite yourself and you feel your stomach start to coil.
You stare at the data steaming on the console until your eyesight begins to blur. “That depends. Are you trying to kill me, sir?” Maker, but you were mouthy today. What was wrong with you?
Kenobi releases your arm dropping his to his side. Immediately, you feel bereft somehow with the loss of his touch.
Peering over your shoulder, he asks, “hyperdrive problems?”
Kriff, does that man not realize what he is doing to you, muttering in your ear like that? Of course he doesn’t, you dolt, you tell yourself; he’s a Jedi. Not his fault you’ve had a crush on him since you were nearly eight years old.
“A replacement wire short-circuited the system and triggered an emergency code,” you respond as evenly as you can manage. A fresh sweat breaks out across your forehead as another complex code dances across the screen.
“What code is that?” He reaches out as though he could absorb the masses of data contained in the system through osmosis. Maybe he can. You’re not a Jedi.
The movement serves a different purpose for you. Something wet and bright glistens as his hand moves into the blue light of the console.
“You’re bleeding.”
He glances down and grimaces. “It’s nothing. Just a scratch.”
You arch an eyebrow. “Doesn’t look like it to me.” Blood is starting to gather around an incision slashed across his right hand.
He opens his mouth to retort no doubt, but you beat him to it. “Don’t give me that bantha dung about Jedi business.” A grease stained finger jabs in the direction of his chest.
Kenobi’s face remains impassive. When he doesn’t respond, you roll your eyes, and, tugging at his elbow, drag him over to the glow lamp near your workstation.
He continues to scrutinize you, and you look down at yourself, wondering what he’s staring at. Your coverall sleeves are rolled up, there’s sweat gathering at your collarbone, and you feel the grimy mixture of dust and stale perspiration coating your face. You’re a hot mess if there ever was one.
Resolutely, you ignore the flush on your cheeks and the steel of his gaze and rummage for a bandage in the care pack attached to your hip. Several excruciating seconds later you find one and tear it open.
It’s when you’re grasping his hand in one of yours the he finally speaks. “I’ve seen you before.”
His cool composure inspires a sudden flash of irritation. “You seem rather certain sir,” you say as you apply a bacta salve.
“Because I am,” he responds mildly. His hand grips yours tightly when you apply the bandage, and you almost asphyxiate on the spot. You were right — his hands are calloused.
“Well, consider this your repayment from saving a girl from durasteel in the Coruscant under-levels about twenty years ago,” you answer with a quick smile. It’s hard to be angry when Obi-Wan Kenobi is in effect, holding your hand.
Reluctantly you release him from your grasp, letting your hand drift down to your side.
The General inclines his head in thanks, then glances back at the computer. “Is the hyperdrive fixed, then?”
You nod, stuffing supplies back into your pack. “I modified the code and replaced the wire so it should be okay.” You meet his eyes. “I’ll be with the ship until it returns to Coruscant, so if there any problems I’ll be available to assist, sir.”
You turn to leave, but he reaches out and catches your hand. “And who do I have to thank for such diligent caretaking of both my ship and my hand?” he inquires. His touch is like satin against your dirty hands and you grin in spite of it.
You consider for a moment. “A blazing sun,” you tell him.
You smile as you make your back to your quarters. Yes, you could tell a lot about a person by their hands.
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The opposite of your last post for the ask meme! Like 1, 5, 9..
thank you lol sorry it took me a minute to get to posting these answers......i also skipped a couple that got asked previously via answering all primes lol
1: What inspires you?
hm well just basic stuff like “being in a good mood” lol or “being hyped up by friends” or “having reason to be particularly excited about something” which is all like, factors that Contribute Energy......learning about stuff / trying something and discovering like oh i’m Into this thing, or that for whatever reason something turns out to be more within reach / doable than i might’ve thought, like, hey i wanna get on this maybe.......~creatively~ it’s great to like, see other ppl’s art, and while i’ve sure been Inspired by professional artists, overall i’m more like, influenced and motivated by seeing the styles / specific works of Online Randos like me.......i also Draw to create [self-indulgent (usually fairly) niche fanart which is also probably gay and is all the time of characters i like] so like, the Stuff I Wanna Make Fanart Of (which has Whatever characters i specifically would like to draw lol) is sure directly Inspiring in that way. i’d say i never had that experience of like, ppl being kids and seeing some [distributed work in a certain art medium] like oh i want to make my own [distributed work in a certain art medium] as in like, i wanna publish a book, i wanna make movies, etc, but i guess i Did b/c i was like elementary school age in the early-to-mid 00s and experienced some instances of online fanart like :o :o wow damn ppl can do that?? just be a rando drawing fanart and sharing it w/ other people online???? and today i am living that dream, so good for me lol. and also i’d like to shoutout marge simpson anime, which is a particular piece of Online Art (technically fanart even lol) which was like, unusually Motivating as a single work of art lol, i made a notes app fanart like immediately and then a way more “painterly” piece of fanart that was v directly inspired by it lol.......and i was sure Drawing It Up last last winter when bmc 3.0 was impending / happening, b/c i got into like Just in the dec before, so that was Fresh, and then bam the Content is happening concurrently and as soon as we even just learned that jeremy has glasses i immediately spent like honestly 25 consecutive hours making fanart for that exact Inspiration. we didn’t even know abt the hello kitty shoes yet!!! and naturally im not out here for stats or clout but it is Inspiring when ppl enjoy the stuff i make and let me know one way or another. [tag comments that express enthusiasm in any way.....Appreciated]
9: Do you trust people easily, or do people have to earn your trust?
i have to say i am wary! that’s in part just like, a default anxiety defensive mode lol. but it takes me a hot minute (aka weeks....or months.....) to realize when someone like, would like to be friends or something, so while i can be Friendly and Outgoing w/ people like, immediately, i’m not picking up relationships left and right that are close enough that i’d particularly talk about “trust” or whatever. i’m not necessarily Distrustful either lol, it’s more just like, again re: the constant wariness thing. it is not unlike a cat lmao i vibe with them lol i Get that [approach]....and there’s been times i’ve been like “hmm i sure do Not vibe with this person ever and am not comfortable around them / interacting with them to any extent beyond occasional casual interactions that i don’t super enjoy. that’s me being overly anxious and failing to be personable i guess!!” and then that person Does give that reason down the line like oh, actually, that eternal uneasiness was warranted :/ damb
21: How does someone become friends with you?
yknow i was like “didn’t i Also answer this one previously” but it turned out the question i was thinking of, which i Had answered, was “how does someone become important to you” lmao.....same diff
tbh it’s kind of an arduous process lmao like. first of all i am Bad about initiating shit, and a lot of times will like, be wary of Directly Interacting with people for a while b/c i am also Bad At not being too passive / unwilling to assert anything so like, if someone’s regularly interacting with me but i’m not into it / Eventually Realize i’m not into it, it’s that thing again where my main strat is [v gradually sidle away] lol and just find it difficult to extricate myself from interactions / relationships and so that plays into me really feeling like i have to have some real confidence that i’d get on with / vibe with someone Before i start significantly interacting with / getting involved with them which....is also difficult natch lol like. can’t rly get a great feel for what someone’s like w/o talking to them.......but then if i Distance myself at all at any point will that be taken as rejection or whatever.......and then anyways say i Am talking to someone, then it’s like, also i’m just not fantastic at casual conversation always and that stage where you don’t know someone too well and talking is mostly a Polite Ritual and it’s like oh god don’t mess up, respond Normally lmaoo......i am nervous. and i also have a tendency to just naturally try to make an interaction go smoothly than immediately prioritize / feel comfortable busting out My Personality lmao.....so then even if ppl are responding well enough it’s like ah jeez i know we’re all performing always but have i shown them What I’m Actually Like to any significant degree, am i just masking it up / mirroring the crap out of how they talk?? and also it then takes me quite a while to put together “if someone keeps talking to you / choosing to interact with you for like, weeks, it probably means they want to / are interested in doing so” lol.........and then i’ll take ages more of trying to consciously Be More Myself without *also* feeling like this is too much of an act lol, and gradually picking up like oh they’re still not like, annoyed or disinterested or something..............what i am trying to say is it sure takes a minute lol
also when i Am attempting sometimes to like [initiate interaction] with people my version of being Active is still not all that active lmao i will be like [occasional Like] or [even more occasional reply] or [tag comments or no comments coz it’s twitter and im rt-ing stuff] and it’s like oh wow if we’re not having more regular interaction i suppose i’ve failed or something?? does this mean anything further lol, did i do anything.....but welp gotta have that perspective that Not Necessarily lol and i’m not the only person in the world who might not make friends or even friendly acquaintances easily / at the drop of a hat and u can’t necessarily read way into shit that hasn’t Actually been communicated to you.......naturally though it is easier to have some ~perspective~ and Serenity about all this sort of thing when you do already have some Friends lmao........been feeling (and consciously nudging myself towards feeling) More Chill about say like, friendly acquaintances i have who aren’t raring to interact with me on the reg.......ppl i’ll go months or half a year or more between having a convo with and then we’ll be like trading dm’s for a couple days and then it’s back to not really talking, and that Is What It Is, not necessarily a tragedy, and really it feels “rude” to acknowledge to myself like oh i’m not sure that me and whomever even Vibe well enough that *i’d* be raring to talk all the time either, but hey, it’s also true, i don’t have to be Validated by ppl who know me having me in their friend circles in any significant way......i be out here on the peripheral / outer orbits and i can appreciate that for what it is, even if, again, easier to be more Cool with that when i’m not Only in ppl’s periphery...........i appreciate the pal i have who like, 99% of how we Communicate is occasionally sending each other pics of our cats, not very intimate but also back when i was offline for months on end they eventually went out of their way to find someone to get in touch with to verify i hadn’t like died or anything lol........i appreciate the Gestures of Caring that ppl have and do extend, even if we do not actually talk regularly. 
and like also i’m bad at like. idk the main way i talk is again, At Some Length and often about real specific shit lol so im like woop aware that many ppl are not into that, or they might be down for having an exchange like that for a day and then they’re done.........not at all like wholly Against more lol Conversational conversations but i gotta say that’s more of a struggle lmao..........so let’s say befriending me takes some Patience. i kinda operate on [cat] rules. jellicle
25: How do you stop yourself from going back to toxic people?
i absolutely am Refraining from launching off on a ted talk of a tangent that is also me being the [the guy about to throw down a card on the pile on the table and that card pile is like “any conversation” and the guy is labeled “me” and the One Card about to be played is labeled “it’s capitalism” or smthing like that and also it’s all in spanish].jpg.......
anyways idk just try to keep things in perspective, right......i generally am pretty Passive about gradually sidling away from relationships that are bad and so by the time i Have exited them it’s pretty overdue lmao and i get to be quite confident that it was The Right Thing........and just when looking back on stuff it’s like, well if you remember the Good or “Not That Bad(tm)” parts maybe consciously think about the whole of it And specifically the Bad parts / the reasons for peacing out.......also the other day i was mulling over some standard [conflicted / complicated feelings about having cut certain ppl out entirely] and it also occurred to me that a lot of the [conflicted] feeling part came from sympathy for them, whereas from the perspective of Entirely My Own Feelings On The Matter minus that “how do/would they feel about it” consideration, the thought of never interacting w/ these ppl is like. fine with me lol........stuff like this is always Complicated and Individual and there’s certainly no like, one-stop simple Guide To Navigating All This Kind Of Thing, Cmon It’s Easy........another consideration i saw the other day via a graphic on twitter, which is probably most relevant re: say, controlling / abusive Partners, was how like, to think about how someone is acting if they’re saying you should Take Them Back b/c they’ve Changed their behavior, but to pay attention to if they’re trying to guilt you into it / justifying or downplaying their previous behavior / shifting blame and otherwise manifesting the inherently harmful and controlling patterns that are supposed to be gone now........anyways yeah complicated stuff and also just p.s. (and what would’ve been the jumping off point for the It’s-Capitalism tangential essay lol) ppl shouldn’t be blamed if they do choose to let someone back in their life like oh now they’re responsible for bringing their mistreatment upon themself.....no better than blaming someone for, say, having a harmful / controlling romantic partner in the first place like oh well they should’ve known better than to have gotten involved with this person..........ppl are in control of their own abusive behavior and shouldn’t be considered Forces Of Nature no matter how intransigent they are
33: Do you have someone you know you can always rely on?
tbt question 9 lol there’s defo some people that i do trust! love it....
45: Do you consider yourself creative?
another #tbt to question 1 lol.......i mean Yes i am creative in ways but like, who Isn’t, really.......think sometimes “creativity” means “do you like, do Art things” which, yes i do, but then within that there’s art that’s deemed more ~creative~ or w/e......not to mention that i don’t think something has to be definitively labeled an Art to be creative. like, for example, Science and Art aren’t opposites / the antithesis of each other, and anytime defines ~science~ as like, people just memorizing and outputting Facts and Numbers and considers this a distinction from Being An Artist.....wild and i Will fight you lmao. i tell you i can v much remember times i have had to completely disengage to keep from losing my cool at people arguing about “why i respect science but could only be an artist :’|” or “why Art is actually harder than Science and also we’re the underdogs b/c society values science so much more :’|” like.....mf...........anyways scientific pursuits may certainly have a different Methodology (see: scientific method) than art but lbr it still requires creativity and science and art are friends you fucking fools................and then also just zooming in on the Art-Making business here, i also like, have never had any interest in coming up with Original stories / characters and the like, and i don’t enjoy trying and it just really is not my thing, and it’s Funny or something when people wanna say that creative fanworks have value b/c they let ppl cut their teeth for what really matters, inevitably making their own original content(tm)......that isn’t inevitable for me lol and certainly is nothing i aim to do ever, and when there’s the suggestion that if you’re Good enough at ur medium you gotta manifest some of that original the character do not steal shit.........anyways i’m not pressed to claim i am an Artist(tm) or Creative(tm) lol like i guess technically i am both but i have no professional aspirations and my brain does not Do [generate original content] so it’s all like, i’m just out here.........s/o to this time i was trying to do my fuckin thing drawing on a tablet in a cafe and some random annoying guy is trying to talk and i happen to mention like “lol i don’t exactly call myself an artist really” and Guy goes “OH REALLY??? WHAT’S WRONG WITH ARTISTS? WHAT’S YOUR ISSUE WITH ART” like please cool it lmao but god p sure it was a guy who was just. very Around and very annoying in general
49: Do you feel like you’re a good person?
yeah i think i’m alright but really what is the use in like considering there 2 be achievable Good or Bad Person Statuses for everyone........let’s say it’s an ongoing, active state to be in the process of consciously choosing to be Good and working towards Better. especially considering that We Live In A Society which tries to teach everyone and continuously imbues our existence with Bad Messages about how to perceive and engage with other people, and being A Good Person is a lifelong effort and it’s unhelpful to feel that if you’re already Good or well-intentioned enough you can just dust off your hands and be like “well my work here is done” and be unprepared to examine your beliefs/actions or deal with the might-as-well-assume-it’s-an-inevitability that even if u have some noble-ass beliefs you’ll fail to live up to them at some point/s.......so like yeah lol again i feel like i am a pretty good person but can always be better and ought to be aware of / willing to work on that at any point
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Get To Know Me 
tagged by @fourfinefreshfishforyou a billion years ago, thank you so much!! i actually Did have fun filling this out even if it took me forever 
 anyone who still wants to do this can say i tagged them!
1. WHAT IS YOUR FULL NAME? Who wrote this? A fed??
2. WHAT IS YOUR NICKNAME? Kris
3. BIRTHDAY? This year
4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE BOOK SERIES? Would you believe me if I said Warriors
5. DO YOU BELIEVE IN ALIENS OR GHOSTS? Ghosts no, aliens sort of... I’m not sure I buy into whole other civilizations but I find it hard to believe that there isn’t some kind of life outside of our planet even if it’s just bacteria 
6. WHO IS YOUR FAVORITE AUTHOR? Rick Riordan is pretty cool
7. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE RADIO STATION? Christmas
8. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE FLAVOR OF ANYTHING? Strawberry or peach 
9. WHAT WORD WOULD YOU USE OFTEN TO DESCRIBE SOMETHING GREAT OR WONDERFUL? Amazing
10. WHAT IS YOUR CURRENT FAVORITE SONG?  Your Type - Carly Rae Jepson
11. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE WORD? I’m a big fan of defenestration
12. WHAT WAS THE LAST SONG YOU LISTENED TO?  Your Type - Carly Rae Jepson
13. WHAT TV SHOW WOULD YOU RECOMMEND FOR EVERYBODY TO WATCH? I don’t like to blanket recommend shows because everyone has such different tastes
14. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE MOVIE TO WATCH WHEN YOU’RE FEELING DOWN? Tbh I just mope around until I either feel better or give up and go to sleep
15. DO YOU PLAY VIDEO GAMES? This is an Assassin’s Creed and Sims zone ONLY
16. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR? Strangers on the internet knowing my second biggest fear
17. WHAT IS YOUR BEST QUALITY, IN YOUR OPINION? Objectively it’s probably my ability to see things from other people’s perspective but TBH I much prefer my sense of humor and ability to laugh at my own jokes whether or not anyone else finds them funny 
18. WHAT IS YOUR WORST QUALITY, IN YOUR OPINION? My inability to self moderate
19. DO YOU LIKE CATS OR DOGS BETTER? I want to say neither,, but I may be leaning towards dogs in recent years :/
20. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON? Winter, but lately Autumn has been sneaking up on it
21. ARE YOU IN A RELATIONSHIP? Nah
22. WHAT IS SOMETHING YOU MISS FROM YOUR CHILDHOOD? Being small... I loved hiding in tiny spaces and being picked up
23. WHO IS YOUR BEST FRIEND? *cowboy voice* Now there’s a name I haven’t heard in a long time...
24. WHAT IS YOUR EYE COLOR? Dark brown
25. WHAT IS YOUR HAIR COLOR? At this point it’s basically black but I still like to say dark brown
26. WHO IS SOMEONE YOU LOVE? God, my family, probably a lot of people idk I catch feelings easily
27. WHO IS SOMEONE YOU TRUST? Literally no one but God 
28. WHO IS SOMEONE YOU THINK ABOUT OFTEN? A lot of seemingly random celebrities, if you count constantly reciting names in specific patterns as thinking 
29. ARE YOU CURRENTLY EXCITED ABOUT/FOR SOMETHING? Yes, lots of things! 
30. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST OBSESSION? lmao
31. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TV SHOW AS A CHILD? REDWALLLLL
32. WHO OF THE OPPOSITE GENDER CAN YOU TELL ANYTHING TO, IF ANYONE? I’m not sure what the opposite of shrug emoji is but the answer is still no one
33. ARE YOU SUPERSTITIOUS? I’m not, but someone needs to tell me that
34. DO YOU HAVE ANY UNUSUAL PHOBIAS? I’m not sure I have any phobias? Irrational fears, Sure
35. DO YOU PREFER TO BE IN FRONT OF THE CAMERA OR BEHIND IT? Behind it!
36. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE HOBBY? I REALLY want to get into dollhousing
37. WHAT WAS THE LAST BOOK YOU READ? I know I said Les Misérables in a previous tag meme but I now remember that I actually read the first book in C.S. Lewis’s space trilogy a while back more recently
38. WHAT WAS THE LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? Spider-man: Into The Spiderverse which was........ AMAZING 
39. WHAT MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS DO YOU PLAY, IF ANY? When I was younger I had a lap harp but that’s about it
40. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ANIMAL? Opossums
41. WHAT ARE YOUR TOP 5 FAVORITE TUMBLR BLOGS THAT YOU FOLLOW? I’m not a fan of naming names in this context sorry!
42. WHAT SUPERPOWER DO YOU WISH YOU HAD? A lot, but I’ve concluded that for any powers gained I would inevitably just end up becoming a super villain and/or batman so hard pass
43. WHEN AND WHERE DO YOU FEEL MOST AT PEACE? When I first wake up, and just lie there trying to hold on to what I was just dreaming about
44. WHAT MAKES YOU SMILE? It’s basically physically impossible for me not to grin like a fool watching Wander Over Yonder
45. WHAT SPORTS DO YOU PLAY, IF ANY? Does Wii Bowling count
46. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE DRINK? Apple cider
47. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WROTE A HAND-WRITTEN LETTER OR NOTE TO SOMEBODY? I don’t know? Probably when I wanted to wake up at a certain time
48. ARE YOU AFRAID OF HEIGHTS? Sometimes? Depends on how possible it is that I could fall
49. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST PET PEEVE? Dry skin currently 
50. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN TO A CONCERT? I was going to say no but I have the distinct feeling that I have even though I didn’t remember absolutely anything about it except maybe the auditorium?
51. ARE YOU VEGAN/VEGETARIAN? No
52. WHEN YOU WERE LITTLE, WHAT DID YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GREW UP? Zookeeper
53. WHAT FICTIONAL WORLD WOULD YOU LIKE TO LIVE IN? Um. Eternia?? ajfghdk 
54. WHAT IS SOMETHING YOU WORRY ABOUT? Not growing as a person
55. ARE YOU SCARED OF THE DARK? Not really, but I do like the ability to turn on lights if I need to
56. DO YOU LIKE TO SING? My vocal cords were made for Christmas carols and little else. But yeah, sometimes.
57. HAVE YOU EVER SKIPPED SCHOOL? I’m not... sure?
58. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PLACE ON THE PLANET? I’ll let you know when I’ve found it
59. WHERE WOULD YOU LIKE TO LIVE? Where I already do
60. DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS? Yes
61. ARE YOU MORE OF AN EARLY BIRD OR A NIGHT OWL? Night owl
62. DO YOU LIKE SUNRISES OR SUNSETS BETTER? Sunsets
63. DO YOU KNOW HOW TO DRIVE? I feel like I could make an educated guess in an emergency
64. DO YOU PREFER EARBUDS OR HEADPHONES? Headphones
65. HAVE YOU EVER HAD BRACES? No
66. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE GENRE OF MUSIC? I feel like it’s probably pop or disco tbh
67. WHO IS YOUR HERO? Jesus 
68. DO YOU READ COMIC BOOKS? Here and there, the only series I’ve actually read all the way through is Cable & Deadpool (2004) but I want to get into Venom
69. WHAT MAKES YOU THE MOST ANGRY? Not to be cliche but injustice of any kind
70. DO YOU PREFER TO READ ON AN ELECTRONIC DEVICE OR WITH A REAL BOOK? Real book, I like turning pages and the way the cover fits into my hands. Can’t say I’m a fan of the smell though.
71. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SUBJECT IN SCHOOL? Vocabulary
72. DO YOU HAVE ANY SIBLINGS? Yes
73. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU BOUGHT? Sims 4 packs
74. HOW TALL ARE YOU? 5′2 or so
75. CAN YOU COOK? If it involves anything other than a microwave or a toaster then,,, no
76. WHAT ARE THREE THINGS THAT YOU LOVE? Vampires, villains in love, wood paneling 
77. WHAT ARE THREE THINGS THAT YOU HATE? Intrusive thoughts, Marius Pontmercy, mint flavored toothpaste
78. DO YOU HAVE MORE FEMALE FRIENDS OR MORE MALE FRIENDS? I... Have more female mutuals
79. WHAT IS YOUR SEXUAL ORIENTATION? Bisexual but like it’s Complicated. Also this is the first time I’ve ever actually said that directly so ✌️🎉
80. WHERE DO YOU CURRENTLY LIVE? A fed wrote this
81. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TEXTED? My mom
82. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? Earlier this month
83. WHO IS YOUR FAVORITE YOUTUBER? I don’t really follow any, but I used to be obsessed with the videos of this one guy who acted out crossovers of DC/Marvel characters with action figures and had a really great voice
84. DO YOU LIKE TO TAKE SELFIES? I do! I just never do anything with them once I’ve taken them lol
85. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE APP? I don’t have one right now, but I adore choose your own adventure ones
86. WHAT IS YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH YOUR PARENT(S) LIKE? Pretty good with my adoptive parents. I want to be closer with my birth mom but I don’t... really know how to go about that without being a disappointment. Never met my birth dad which has been eating at me somewhat lately.
87. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE FOREIGN ACCENT? Uhh Australian maybe??
88. WHAT IS A PLACE THAT YOU’VE NEVER BEEN TO, BUT YOU WANT TO VISIT? Mexico
89. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NUMBER? 6
90. CAN YOU JUGGLE? Do you take me for a clown
91. ARE YOU RELIGIOUS? Yes, I’m a nondenominational christian 
92. DO YOU FIND OUTER SPACE OF THE DEEP OCEAN TO BE MORE INTERESTING? The ocean, it’s teeming with life and I find it bafflingly fascinating how there’s still so much we don’t know about it
93. DO YOU CONSIDER YOURSELF TO BE A DAREDEVIL? Absolutely not
94. ARE YOU ALLERGIC TO ANYTHING? Almost every single time we go shopping in Sam’s Club I get inexplicably feverish and nauseous and feel like I’ve thrown out my back until we get to the check out. That and I may have a dairy allergy? But honestly my stomach is acting out every other day so who knows really.  
95. CAN YOU CURL YOUR TONGUE? Ye
96. CAN YOU WIGGLE YOUR EARS? No
97. HOW OFTEN DO YOU ADMIT THAT YOU WERE WRONG ABOUT SOMETHING? Not as often as I should
98. DO YOU PREFER THE FOREST OR THE BEACH? Aesthetically, the beach, but forests are less sandy
99. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PIECE OF ADVICE THAT ANYONE HAS EVER GIVEN YOU? Pat, don’t rub (When drying your hands)
100. ARE YOU A GOOD LIAR?  mmMM I don’t really lie, like, seriously about stuff that I can recall? I’ll jokingly say stuff that blatantly isn’t true and even then I sometimes feel guilty and confess seconds later. Unless you count lying by omission? Or saying stuff like “I’m fine” LMAO. The World May Never Know
101. WHAT IS YOUR HOGWARTS HOUSE? We Don’t Discuss Harry Potter On This Blog, but ravenclaw all the way and any test that tries to sort me into hufflepuff isn’t Valid 
102. DO YOU TALK TO YOURSELF? Generally just when I’m alone
103. ARE YOU AN INTROVERT OR AN EXTROVERT? Introvert
104. DO YOU KEEP A JOURNAL/DIARY? I’ve tried, but I just don’t have the attention span for it asdfgh. Sometimes I write down my dreams though.
105. DO YOU BELIEVE IN SECOND CHANCES? Yes
106. IF YOU FOUND A WALLET FULL OF MONEY ON THE GROUND, WHAT WOULD YOU DO? Convince someone else to pick it up and check for ID
107. DO YOU BELIEVE THAT PEOPLE ARE CAPABLE OF CHANGE? Yes
108. ARE YOU TICKLISH? That’s a personal question
109. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON A PLANE? Yes
110. DO YOU HAVE ANY PIERCINGS? No
111. WHAT FICTIONAL CHARACTER DO YOU WISH WAS REAL? Count Dracula from Monster Family (2017) ok so,,, i know he tried to freeze the entire world because a married woman rejected him but LISTEN
112. DO YOU HAVE ANY TATTOOS? No
113. WHAT IS THE BEST DECISION THAT YOU’VE MADE IN YOUR LIFE SO FAR? Following Jesus
114. DO YOU BELIEVE IN KARMA? Mm, not karma per say, but I do generally think that what goes around often comes around in way or another
115. DO YOU WEAR GLASSES OR CONTACTS? No
116. DO YOU WANT CHILDREN? NO
117. WHO IS THE SMARTEST PERSON YOU KNOW? Idk! there a lot different types of smart people
118. WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING MEMORY? Nice try, but someone might actually read this
119. HAVE YOU EVER PULLED AN ALL-NIGHTER? I’m basically nocturnal so... yeah
120. WHAT COLOR ARE MOST OF YOUR CLOTHES? Various jewel tones
121. DO YOU LIKE ADVENTURES? Ehhhhhhh
122. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON TV? Not that I know of
123. HOW OLD ARE YOU? 21
124. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE QUOTE? I can’t really think of one right now
125. DO YOU PREFER SWEET OR SAVORY FOODS? Whichever I’m in the mood for!
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becoming-human · 3 years
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okay oc brainrot let's go off. this is knight/lady ocs. word v*mit from what ive been thinking about for the past couple days in the format of bullet points. usually i do this in the notes app but i have a candle going SO main character moment. what the fuck am i even saying. right codependent lesbians
okay. knight has been trained from a very young age to be the lady's personal bodyguard and helper. probably didn't have much in the way of family before this. certainly doesn't remember any and has no interest in learning--her "family" [aka the people she is willingly loyal to] is the royal family and the ppl in the castle. she has been groomed and doesn't really question her place.
lady has also been groomed in her own way re: knighthood. it's very important traditionally and she doesn't even attempt to imagine life without the knight/lady relationship because it would be ridiculous lmao. at age five you get your knight. at age five they take the pledge. it's literally just another facet of royal life.
thinking in an rpg setting the knight would be a paladin. their oath would be taken at age five, potentially in a religious setting [we'll get to why]. it is an incredibly rare and high honor to be a lady's knight.
thankfully the knight and the lady hit it off right away. they get along great. no hard feelings, no manipulation, no enemies to friends between the two. only important details:
the knight always puts her duty as a knight before her feelings for the lady, friendship or otherwise. She Is A Knight. her job is to serve and protect the lady. she knows that she can never be fully friends with the lady and thus makes sure a professional boundary is maintained (at least in her mind). it's not something she has to remind herself of, it just /is/. [EMPHASIS: this is not sad. the knight is not sad about this.]
the lady is privilidged and mostly unaware of the professional wall between the two of them. she knows the oath and she knows the rules, but as far as she is concerned the knight is her best friend and the feeling is reciprocated wholeheartedly. she doesn't realize that the power she holds over the knight doesn't just go away because they're friends. she also is used to using that power subconsciously--she knows both in her conscious mind and unconscious mind that the knight will always be there for her and do whatever she asks because the knight always has. she never uses it to do morally dubious or dehumanizing things (which in her mind makes the dynamic okay). she doesn't realize just how much the dynamic has affected the knight's personhood.
they ARE besties (to the best of their abilities). the knight follows and helps with all of the lady's silly little princess shenanigans and enjoys herself. many late-night castle sneakouts. as long as the knight is doing it to protect the princess (who she knows is stubborn and wouldn't take well to getting snitched on) she figures it's okay. the princess looks forward to all the time she spends with her best friend the knight. they're inseparable.
something something princess and knight leave the castle. don't know why. join a party. they're late teens early twenties at this point probably. 18-19? end up joining a party. princess wants to not be known as a princess but the knight still very obviously acts as her bodyguard first and foremost so everyone guesses pretty easily she's someone important
[this point forward will be mostly with the mindset of rpgs bc that is how my brain was wired at the time of thinking but can easily be translated to other mediums]
get into a couple skirmishes. the princess was never dainty--she was always ready and willing to kill a bitch if necessary. usually it was the knight holding her back instead of taking a bullet. now, without the castle and manners and consequences hanging over both of their heads, the princess comes into her own fighting-wise. the knight always moves to stand in front and protect her if she is in danger, and she used to always instinctively move back to be protected. that was how they were both trained. about five skirmishes into their new life, the knight notices that the princess moves forward instead of back now. this makes the knight nervous--just because they're no longer on monarchy land doesn't mean her oath to protect the princess is any less valid, and the princess's newfound fighting confidence will make her job a lot harder. (she is very proud though, on a personal level. it's just that she is not a person, she is a knight, and her duty comes first).
the knight doesn't directly mention this. she cares about her princess and doesn't want her princess to feel like she is not happy for her or proud of her. it's a difficult situation. she tries to handle it on the down-low, without direct communication. (great idea!) she starts compensating for the princess's new bravery in battle by rushing in early and taking heavy hits. if she can focus the enemy on herself they won't focus on her princess. makes sense. the princess has never really seemed to notice before so she probably won't now, right?
the princess definitely notices. she sees her best friend getting hit harder and acting more selflessly in battle to the point where it seems she has no regard for her own personal safety at all. finally, the princess calls her out on it. you know i can handle myself, right? you need to protect yourself before me.
my lady, i'm just fulfilling my duty.
we're not at the castle anymore. all of that is irrelevant now.
no, it's not? it's my entire being. my oath doesn't just go away because we're in a different location.
okay, fine. you're right. [odd for the princess, who is well known for being a stubborn pain in the ass] can you just be more careful, please?
......only if you be more careful, too.
this arrangement doesn't last for very long. as one can imagine. the princess is quickly realizing that the dynamic she has cultivated over the years is not a healthy one, and that the mindset the knight has been taught is both dangerous and incredibly unfair. she cares for her knight deeply and is incredibly upset that she didn't realize her hand in the grooming [whether intentional or not] sooner.
she tries to casually bring it up with her knight but every time is shot down by that Professional Wall (TM).
they get distracted with other things as per rpgs, but this is their dynamic for a large part. the knight is loyal to her oath and the princess is loyal to her knight's personhood. they go back and forth.
the rest of the party, meanwhile, has picked up on this back and forth tension. the knight, while originally hesitant to be vulnerable and break down the professional bodyguard wall, has since caved and accepted the rest of her party as her first true friends. there are certain members of the party whose opinions she trusts, and who she turns to if she needs help.
[side note: neither the princess nor the knight were cold or standoffish during their original meetings with the party. the princess was eager to make new friends and kick ass, and the knight was along for the ride as a friendly chaperone. the princess opened up first (probably within the first few weeks), but it for sure took a few months for the knight to break the friendly-in-a-distant-way facade. she had never really been given the opportunity to have friends besides the princess before]
the party is also on board with breaking the training/grooming. they're all hinting it. the knight stands strong (mostly she just pretends to be oblivious to their hints about her individuality and personhood), but it's starting to wear her down. she is, against her better judgement, starting to consider who she is. this is incredibly frightening, and, even worse, a distraction from her duty. if the knight becomes too preoccupied with questioning, she could lose her princess for good. she cannot have that--not after everything she's sacrificed, not after everything she's been through. the idea that giving up her personhood actually was not necessary is starting to weigh heavily on her mind. she tries to push it away. she acts even more overprotective in battle to compensate.
the princess, in turn, is trying her best to protect her knight in battle (who has lost any sense of self-preservation she had beyond "don't die", and even "don't die" is based solely around "who will protect her if i am not there"). you can see where this is going, i'm sure. she is protecting her knight, which in turn causes her knight to protect her, which causes her to protect her knight, etc. etc. they're creating an entirely different toxic cycle.
everything comes to a head--knight makes a decision in battle to protect the princess that would have killed her if the princess hadn't stepped in. the princess calls her out directly, saying that the knight has to learn how to love and respect herself and put herself first.
but it's my duty to--
i couldn't give two shits about your duty! you almost died! do you understand that? do you care?
when i agreed to this--when i swore my oath--i knew what i was signing up for. i thought you did too. does my promise mean nothing to you?
we were five years old! five! we had no idea what the real world was like.
that may be true, but does it really make a difference? i could have been five or thirty and done the oath and it would still be the same. my duty is to protect you. you are my life.
i shouldn't be! what about your life? what about your protection?
my protection is irrelevant. my life is yours. what's not clicking?
that's so fucked--
i gave you my body and my soul willingly. if you claim to care about it so deeply then why are you throwing it away?
throwing it away? seriously? after the shit you just pulled, i am the one that's throwing away your life? listen to yourself.
if i died in there, it would have been for a good reason. it would have mattered. my duty would have been fulfilled. this is how it's always been, i don't see why you're suddenly fighting it now--
because it's fucked! because you are a person too! how can you not see that?
listen to me. i am yours. i live for you, i die for you. i pledged myself to you in front of gods and men, and that will not change no matter how you feel about the subject. [....] please don't make this harder than it has to be.
[...] i can't.
can't what?
i can't--i can't do this. i can't watch you do this. i'm breaking the oath.
i--what?
you fucking heard me. i rescind it. you are no longer bound to me.
you can't....you can't do that.
yes, i can. i just fucking did.
no, i mean you literally cannot do that and have it mean anything. that's not how it works.
well then how does it wo--you know what. you're not going to tell me.
i would if you asked. it's my duty. falls under the "help in any way you can" category.
no. stop. i'll fucking--i'll figure it out myself. [...] go get yourself cleaned up. [...] that wasn't a fucking order, do what you want.
the rest of the party is just. popcorn staring. knight offers to take first watch as princess makes a tactful retreat into the tent.
princess doesn't have the first clue where to get info quickly. she tries messaging everyone she knows outside of the kingdom, but that's not a whole lot of people. eventually she gives up for the night, blows out her candle, and lies awake in the dark.
knight takes first watch. she sits and Thinks about everything the princess said. it's incredibly hard to think about. the ideas the princess presented are unheard of, unthinkable, ridiculous--and, most importantly, terrifying.
end of watch: Respected Member of Party offers to take over. knight asks if princess is okay. party member says she fell asleep (a lie, they're plotting), and then suggests quite simply, "you should talk to her". knight shuffles, says the situation is complicated and nuanced. party member says learning about yourself is frightening but it's easier with help. knight doesn't respond but internalizes it. goes to the tent she shares with the princess to start cleaning up and getting ready for bed.
Oh, No! This Injury Is In A Hard To Reach Place, If Only There Was Someone--
do you need help?
oh! i'm sorry, i didn't mean to wake you.
i was already awake. do you need help with that?
no, i--i got it, thank you though. go back to sleep.
i was already awake.
i've dealt with worse, i can do this by myself.
you don't have to.
[...] okay, sure. yeah.
cool. just--right here?
yeah.
all right.
[...] have you...done this before?
[very obviously no] bandaged a wound? oh, yeah, tons.
right, yeah. sure.
i've been so reckless lately, so in danger, so in need of saving i had to learn how to do it--
okay. okay, i get it. ow! i get it.
oh shit did i--
--no you're fine--
-sorry, sorry. sorry. [...] i'm sorry.
no, it's fine. it barely hurt.
not just for that.
oh. [...] it's all right. your anger is....[defeat] justified.
hmm. i still....i shouldn't have yelled. it's not your fault.
[......] you have to, um. you have to sterilize it before you--
--right, yes, i know that--
right, of course. sorry.
[....] i just...i get scared. you mean a lot to me. i wish you were more careful with yourself.
i....
[without any real malice] i swear to god, if you say the word "duty"--
no, i--heh. duty.
what?
duty. you said doody.
oh my god....
sorry.
oh my god, you are ridiculous. i'm trying to have a serious conversation with you an--
sorry, i, um. it was a silly joke. i'm tired.
no, it's funny. i laughed. [...] dooty. jesus.
[...] looks good. thank you.
of course. and, hey, if you need it again, you can come to me--clearly i need the practice.
no, actually, this is--this is pretty good.
really?
[no. she'll probably have to redo it] yeah. feels great.
oh. cool.
[...] i--can i see your hand for a moment?
...sure.
[the knight very carefully takes the princess's hand like it's something made of clouds. she cups it in her own, not making eye contact] i....what you said.....what you've been saying. i don't really....fuck, how do i say this.
it's okay.
i don't. hmmm. i have never, once, in my entire waking life, put myself before you. i don't know who i am without you. and i'm--i'm scared to find out, and i'm scared of losing you. if i'm distracted and something happens to you...[eye contact.] i'm okay with not knowing who i am. i need you to understand that. i'm okay with it. it's okay.
[...] it's not okay with me.
...okay.
sorry, but it's not.
i don't--. sorry. i don't know what to, um. hmm. i don't know what to do, where i would even start. i don't want to start. this is--this is going against everything. i need you to--
--it's okay--
no, listen. i need you to understand this. this is going against literally everything i live by. every fiber of my soul is telling me to stop. i cannot do this. i can't. i really can't. it's not right.
i'll help you. we'll do it together.
[...]i'm so scared. i've never been more scared in my life.
i'm sorry.
me too. i'm sorry for hurting you. i'm sorry for rushing in and causing you to worry. i'll...i'll be more careful. i will. i promise.
you promise?
well, apparently our promises mean next to nothing now? so i don't really know how much my promise is even worth to you, but...yes. i promise.
your word is worth everything to me. just as long as it's coming from you.
[...] it is. i think.
i'll take it.
and then they go to bed lollllll
the doody part is stupid i wrote it at like two am. anyway. p2
princess is trying to figure out ways to help knight come into her own, but she quickly realizes that whenever she is around the knight immediately bends to her no matter what. they're trying hard to do this together, but eventually they have another conversation and agree that one of them has to leave in order to break the codependency
the knight, seeing how much this hurts the princess (and how much she adores her new friends, the party) decides to be the one to leave. for once the princess doesn't argue--she knows that the knight does well under pressure and can hold her own, and believes (correctly) that a few months on her own will do the knight far more good than a few years trying to work through old mindsets and traumas with the princess. cue sad goodbye scene. they hug. it's soft, it's mutual. it's a genuine healthy "breakup". the knight says goodbye to the rest of the party and then heads off in the opposite direction, to the nearest town.
viewers/players don't see the knight for a while. few months, maybe even a year depending on the scale of the story? the knight sends updates and messages, and the princess replies to them all. she is never the first one to "text"--as a former [oppressor?] she believes that any communication should be on the knight's terms. (this was something they most likely mutually agreed on, in the sense that the princess suggested it and the knight, who was still very out of her depth, agreed out of trust)
idk how exactly they reunite. i'm thinking it's more accidental? like "oh shit is that knight over there???" or "omg we're in the same town want to meet up?" knight has had a Glowup (tm): she know has her own personal style separate from just basics/bare minimum, she's had a hair change, and she seems looser and more open. she is also acting differently--she's finally beginning to figure out who she is, and she's not hiding it as much.
the princess has also had her own Glowup (tm). she may appear stronger (depending on her weapon of choice), she's more engaged with her friends, and she can take "no" for an answer relatively easily. in short, they've both become a little bit of each other despite being separate for [insert long period of time here]. they balance each other.
their reunion is awkward. for sure. it's like meeting your old high school buddy after not speaking to them for two years. so much of your life was shared with this person but now they are a total stranger. they're also treading on eggshells--neither girl knows where their boundaries are or where they stand with the other. (also, wow, her glowup.........was she always this............no. it's weird to think that.)
regardless of how they reunite, they quickly end up sharing a battlefield. it's a chance for the audience/players to see how the knight has grown into her own. she is protecting herself and trusting that the princess can hold her own (and the princess absolutely is). they still work in tandem, but now that they trust each other completely they are an absolute force to be reckoned with.
there is one specific moment where the knight has to choose between keeping herself safe and putting herself in more danger for the princess. there is a clear opening to make one of her old selfless decisions. she debates with herself--old habits die hard--but chooses to stay put, knowing the consequences. the princess takes damage but stays standing, and ends up getting the final blow on the enemy.
everything is rainbows and sparkles! woohoo! everyone is safe and happy! growth happened! princess and knight, now just woman and woman, are super pumped--all barriers put up between them temporarily leave, and they triumphantly rush towards each other, proud of each other and the individuals they've become
and then the world falls out from beneath the knight, and the world rushes to meet her as her pulse drops. she gasps. the princess's proud smile quickly turns to a look of shock and horror as everything goes black
remember the religion from before? yeah
knight "wakes up" in Nothing. she does not know where she is, there are no features. one moment she is falling on the battlefield, the next she is Here. there is nothing.
there is something. oh, look, it's God.
specifically, it's the deity that the knight's oath was sworn under. it's the deity that all knights' oaths are sworn under. oh, fuck.
that awkward moment when even the gods themselves are like "hey you shouldn't be a person lol" dirty capitalist freaks
n e ways. the knight recognizes the deity (who is vaguely woman-like, but far more like a biblical angel than a woman. because biblical angels are cool as fuck and also terrifying, which is the vibe this deity should definitely give off. she is an eldritch horror first, human-being adjacent second. you get the vibe that her appearing vaguely human-like is a privilege and mercy)
her voice is everywhere and nowhere. it fills up the room. it is not loud, it is just There. YOU LET YOUR CHARGE FALL.
i--i had to protect myself.
YOUR OATH IS TO PROTECT HER, NOT YOURSELF.
she broke the oath! she said i was free!
THAT IS NOT HOW THIS WORKS.
[...] i know.
YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPENS TO PROTECTORS THAT BREAK THEIR OATHS. ARE YOU READY TO FACE THE CONSEQUENCES?
[...]
ARE YOU READY TO FACE THE--
how does it work?
LOOKS LIKE SOMEONE WASN'T PAYING ATTENTION.
i was six. remind me.
THE BREAKING HAS TO BE MUTUAL AND HONEST. IF BOTH PARTIES BELIEVE WITH THEIR SOUL THAT A SEPARATION IS NECESSARY, THE BOND WILL BREAK.
i believe that the separation is necessary.
DO YOU?
yes.
ARE YOU WILLING TO BET YOUR LIFE ON IT?
yes.
ARE YOU WILLING TO BET HERS?
her life is not mine to throw away. her life is not my responsibility. her life is her own. [as she says this, slow motion flashes without sound of the real world: the princess yelling for help; the princess watching her party attempt to res the knight; the princess holding the knight's hand, her mouth saying something in slow motion that looks a lot like 'her life is her own' as the healing spells refuse to take effect]
HMMM. DISAPPOINTING.
[....]
YOU HAVE ONE CHANCE. ACCORDING TO YOU, SHE WILL BE FINE WITHOUT YOU. COME PEACEFULLY.
i am not choosing to live for her. i am choosing to live for myself. if she's there, that's just an added bonus. not a requirement.
[...] FINE. WE'LL SEE IF YOUR FAITH HAS ANY BASIS. I CANT SAY I DIDN'T TRY. DO YOU, [firstname lastname], RENOUNCE YOUR TITLES AND DUTIES AS KNIGHT TO PRINCESS [firstname lastname]?
i do. kindly fuck off.
flash of light, you know the drill.
cut to princess. knight has just collapsed. she tries to wake her up, calls over her friends, they're asking what happened, she says i don't know--wait. no. it couldn't be. i thought she--
what?
i thought we were on the same page, i thought--
what the fuck is going on?
when i renounced our oath the first time i was afraid of losing her. i did it again when she was gone, and i meant it. i thought that she meant it too, i thought she was thinking the same thing, but i guess--
--why does it matter?
because she let me take that hit. if she intentionally lets harm come to me, she gets punished equally. that was--that was a killing blow. on top of her other injuries, that was a--oh, my god.
so, what, she's dying?
yes? probably? oh my god. oh my god--
so, okay, hold on--so if she renounces it too, the...the spell, or bond or whatever is broken?
that's what my research said, yeah. [trying not to cry and failing]
well, she's been on this self-discovery trip, right? right. yeah. let's just keep pumping her with juice until she comes to her senses. she'll be fine, princess. [very clearly trying not to panic]
and they do. they pump her with healing spell after healing spell. nothing is taking. the princess, not a healer, takes the knight's hand. quietly, more to herself than any gods or deities that may be listening/she says:
her life is not mine to hold here. she is not my protector. her life is her own.
cut to the scene we've already seen. the knight says, "her life is her own" to the deity. the deity smirks in a horrific way.
there is silence. her pulse has disappeared.
horrible, horrible stillness.
a single shot: a red string snaps with an echo.
the knight gasps awake, coughing. the princess, who had already accepted the inevitable, stares at her in shock, still holding the knight's hand.
the knight gives her a bloody, drunk grin and says "i told god to fuck off. it was great." and then passes out in her arms.
the princess is still staring at the woman in her arms in shock. her friends are all staring at her. she doesn't notice. she is six seconds from a breakdown. a pause, and then, with the absolute audacity of someone who has reached their limit: "what the FUCK?"
blah blah. knight makes a full recovery. knight tells princess about her meeting with the deity, the princess insists it was a dream induced by the trauma of the event but recognizes the importance of it anyway. the party is super relieved to have the gang back together. the princess and knight now work mostly as equals. they still have their moments, but they now know how to communicate with each other, and they don't have the ridiculous oath hanging over their heads.
they are best friends first. they build up their healthy friendship for a couple years. the knight actually dates a few other people.
finally, after years and years of working on their relationships as equals, they finally enter a romantic relationship. it is very frightening for both of them--both are scared of falling into old habits--but they keep each other in check and live a long and happy life together as individuals and partners.
yay woohoo lesbianism! yay breaking out of religious cults! yay personal growth! yay powerful women!
i have more in my head but i'm literally sooooo tired rn but anyway i love them. that is all. this is cheesy sorry el oh el i just think that lesbians are cool
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gguktastic · 7 years
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He Tasted Like Love // D. H. X READER
NOTE : I didn't exactly understand the 'doesn't want kids' part, so I'm just gonna see it as 'is not ready for a relationship'. I'm so sorry for disappointing :( Warnings - swear words, vague mention of sex, very very boring and shit. ALSO YA'LL I HATE MYSELF I HAD THIS WRITTEN AND THEN I FORGOT ABOUT THIS I AM SORRY TO WHOEVER LOOK FORWARD TO IT LETS GO ON TO THE FANFIC SHALL WE // "DAN! PHIL! IN THE KITCHEN, THIS FUCKING INSTANT!" It was a rainy and miserable Saturday, and all I wanted were some mini Easter eggs to snack on, seeing as my room mates had bought them for a YouTube video on their very famous channel, but hadn't used them in the end. However, when I slouched to the kitchen to have some, well, you can guess what I discovered. Dan and Phil both grumpily walked into the kitchen. "[Y/N], it's fucking ten AM, you'd better have a good reason to wake us up at such an early hour," said Dan. Cue eye roll. "Who ate the mini Easter eggs?" I asked, cutting straight to the point. Both the boys straightened up, their cheeks painted in a light blush. "I'm sorry for eating a quarter of it, [Y/N]," said Dan, evidently guilty. "Ugh, whatever." "I'm sorry for eating the mini Easter eggs, [Y/N]!" Said Phil. I smiled at him. "It's okay, Phil. Just don't do that next time." Dan flared up. "What?!" He said, his voice high pitched. "So I'm dismissed rudely for eating, like, just a quarter of the pack, and Phil here is given a smile for eating the rest of it? This isn't fair!" He yelled, like a toddler. I laughed. "Dan! You're not a five year old anymore. Deal with it." Saying so, I simply walked out of the kitchen after pouring myself a bowlful of Dan's cereal. Right after me, Dan stomped out, and Phil stayed behind to give me a high-five (which completely flopped). Hello there. My name is [Y/N], and I'm a [INSERT DREAM CAREER HERE]. Three years ago, I found an advertisement in the newspaper by some Dan and Phil, who were apparently looking for a room mate. Since my current room mate threw wild parties at the apartment every other day and made me help her clean up, which basically meant she would sleep off her hangover, and I would end up cleaning the whole thing. On top of that, I'd been paying her monthly rent for around two years. Since I couldn't really afford to pay two people's rent or rent out an apartment of my own, I decided to ring the guys, whom I met the next day as I looked at their apartment after a coffee with them. I found out they were actually big-time YouTubers, so I pointed out that giving off their address and phone number like that could get them some serious stalkers. They said they had thought about it, and had decided to use a different phone number for calling, and to actually meet the person before taking them to their apartment to show them around. Still, dangerous. I, to this day, still didn't know why they were looking for a room mate, but I longer really cared. All that mattered was that none of them had tried to get in my pants. I was a sister to them, and to me, they were like brothers. However, I'm not going to deny that I have had a crush on Dan ever since I moved in, three years ago. I mean, could you blame me? Tall, dark hair, chocolate brown eyes, and those dimples? Irresistible. I shook my head, and proceeded to drown my feelings out with cereal. // Two days later, I waved goodbye to them as they got into a cab, on their way to the airport to leave for Singapore, and then, Australia, for a YouTube event. I sighed as the cab sped off. 'It's getting bored for a week now, great.' A day later, I was sitting in the lounge, re watching old episodes of Attack On Titan, wincing at all the gore and blood, when all of a sudden my phone began to explode with notifications. When I say 'explode with notifications', my phone literally fell of the table because it was vibrating that much. Twitter. Tumblr. Instagram. What on Earth even happened? I opened tumblr first, that's what mattered. All I saw on my dashboard was a picture of Dan, standing in front of the Merlion statue, mouth open, and in such a position that it looked like the water spouting out of the Merlion's mouth seemed like it was going directly into Dan's mouth. The caption? 'Yes quench my thirst Merlion dad.' I face palmed. Typical Dan. I scrolled a bit, and came across a picture of Phil, attempting the same thing Dan did and completely missing. I laughed, shaking my head. Those two, I swear. Again, two hours later, my phone exploded with notifications, thankfully not falling off the table this time (mostly because I was sensible enough to keep it away from the edge of the table.) I opened my Twitter this time. All I saw were the words 'Dan' and 'ripped jeans'. I finally found a picture. God damn. I'm not going to lie at all, but Dan look hot in ripped jeans, and my eyes bugged out looking at the picture of him. Oh lord, I need to stop. I got some more of Dan's cereal, to drown my feelings out: again. // A few days later, I woke up to the same thing happening. What did Dan do this time? I chose to go for Dan's Instagram this time. I felt my heart stop for a second. It was Dan, sat on a stool, wearing ripped jeans, and a long, feminine-cut flannel shirt. There was a smirk on his face, as he sat, legs apart. My breathing felt laboured. Oh, fuck. I immediately took a screenshot of the picture, and opened up the Messages app, just to shoot a quick text to Dan. [Y/N] - What is up with that fuckboi selfie? I sent the screenshot. A minute later, I got a reply. Danyul - Lmao I thought I was looking good wait I am looking good rite ;)) I laughed and replied. [Y/N] - you looked good but kinda like a fuck boy, js Danyul - ugh I want to kms now [Y/N] - nO you look like a good fuckboi Danyul - omfg what is wrong with u what is a good fuckboi [Y/N] - ugh whatever, I'll Skype you guys after your show, text me when ur done Danyul - lmao okay fine then ttyl enjoy the silence at home [Y/N] - I will dw, you enjoy australia Dan and Phil's meet and greet had probably started, that could be why he didn't reply, but just read the text. // "What the hell were you thinking, Dan?" I was skyping with the boys, and as soon as they picked up my Skype call, I called out Dan for the mirror selfie he'd posted a few hours earlier. "So I wasn't looking good?" He asked, a smirk on his face. Phil laughed as I sighed and rolled my eyes. "Yes, Danny boi, you looked good, kind of like a fuckboi - a good looking one at that - and you probably made the hearts of around a million girls from around the world stop and cause their 'deaths', as far as I saw on tumblr. Also, Phil, if you ever take a fuckboi selfie like that, apparently people are going to 'float out of their body and transcend into nine different dimensions," I said, making Dan laugh like a hyena and Phil stick out his tongue in the adorable way he does when he laughs. "You can tell them all, that is not happening any time soon," Phil said, and I laughed in reply. "Well I'm going to change out of these clothes now because my sweatpants are calling my name, I'll be right back," said Dan, disappearing into the bathroom with a pair of sweatpants and a tee. "[Y/N], spill." Demanded Phil, as soon as he thought Dan was out of earshot. I was taken aback, confused. "Spill? About what?" "Um? About the fact that you really, really 'like' like Dan?" I blushed visibly. "I - but - just that, I'm not ready for a relationship yet," I say, my voice getting quieter by the second. Phil's face softened and looked almost sad. "Todd?" "Todd." Todd was my ex-boyfriend, whom I broke up with only a few months ago after I found out that his 'helpful' colleague had been way too 'helpful' to him. It just made me not trust anyone else at all for a while and mainly just stop thinking about being in a relationship. I jumped back to the present as I heard Dan shut the bathroom door behind him and enter the frame. Phil and I put our happy faces back on as we talked till the sun came up, the dim light seeping through my partially open curtains. // "[Y/N], I'm hurt! Why wouldn't you come to pick us up from the airport?" Dan yelled, as soon as him and Phil entered through the front door of our apartment. I ran down the stairs to the actual door to the apartment. "Well, Dan and Phil, you'll find out when you go get changed and come into the kitchen!" I said, panting after the exercise. They looked at me, then each other, then shrugged. "[Y/N], it'd better be good, I'm still a bit offended." Said Dan, making Phil and I laugh as he nudged my shoulder while going up the stairs. In reply, Phil obviously raised his eyebrows at me and I bit my lip, slightly shrugging. Phil smiled and patted my shoulder as he climbed up the stairs and walked past me to get to his room. As soon as they were both in their rooms, I got my 'surprise' - successfully green velvet cupcakes after their fail at making them green once before- out of the oven, a sweet smell spreading around the kitchen. I then 'silently' ran to my room, grabbing a bunch of pillows. Phil was the first one to get out of his room, dressed in his classic, old gengar shirt and a pair of Star Wars pyjamas. I gently threw a pillow at him, Phil struggling to catch it. We had a mental conversation. 'Pillow fight?' 'Pillow fight.' 'Attack Dan when he gets out of the room?' 'Attack Dan when he gets out of the room.' We nodded, and put our backs to the walls on either side of the door, clutching our pillows tightly. We had to keep ourselves from bursting into giggles, but after a few minutes of waiting, we finally heard the doorknob turning. I looked up at Phil, and we grinned. 3... 2... 1... The door opened fully and I yelled out a war cry, slamming my pillow onto Dan's face, and then so did Phil. I threw the third and last pillow towards Dan, and Phil and I ran. It must've taken a moment for Dan to realise what was happening, because I was almost to the lounge when I heard Dan's footsteps on the floor. I stopped for a breath in front of the lounge, but Dan caught up. He was only a few steps behind me when I made the stupid decision of running into the lounge, which Dan then rushed into, closing the door behind him so I had no escape. He grinned evilly, and I resorted to darting to different sides of the room to avoid his pillow, but then I felt his arms around my waist, and I squealed. I felt myself rise up a few centimetres from the floor. "Dan! Let me go!" I said, giggling. I heard Dan laugh as he set me down on the floor again. I decided to run while I could, but me being me, I stubbed my toe on the edge of a couch. I fell to the floor, groaning in pain. Dan sat down beside me. "You're the only person I can trust to do something like that," he said, chuckling. I pouted, lightly hitting him on the shoulder. "Daaaaan," I whined. "It huuuuurts." I pouted some more. To make it feel better, Dan stomped his heel on the toe I had stubbed. I sharply gasped, and Dan burst out in his hyena laugh. All of a sudden, I felt him draw me closer to him, his arms around my waist, his head resting in the crook of my neck, bodies close together. After a second of not realising what was happening, I finally clasped my hands behind his neck, hugging him back. He smelt of vanilla and coffee; he felt like a summer day after months of winter. His breath against my cold neck, hot. "Hey, [Y/N], I know it's a really hard time for you after Tony, and you're really, really brave to be dealing with it like this, sometimes I forget that something so shit has happened to someone as beautiful as you; it shouldn't have, ever." His chapped lips forming the words against the bare skin of my neck sent shivers down my spine: the good kind. I let the first of the tears fall, wetting his shirt. When Dan hugged me tighter, pulling us together so close that I could feel his heartbeat, I let go. "[Y/N]. I know you won't like this, but I just have to say that I really, really like you. I overheard you talking to Phil about me the other day, and since then, I've been thinking, and I really, really, really like you. You can say no, I would understand." I pulled away from the hug, eyes wide, and hesitantly pulled him in for a kiss. He tasted like mint chocolate; his lips were softer sandpaper against my completely smooth lips. His hand was warm as it cupped my cheek, the other hand behind my back, pulling me closer to him. He tasted like love.
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Ask the Admins 10.0
@genosha-meiuqer: This is to Admin M -- Out of curiosity, do you drive anything like a War Boy?
M: Yes. That is actually a problem I have irl. I drive far too fast. Haven’t gotten pulled over yet though! (knock on wood)
Anon asked: Describe yourself in one adjective.
Chamomile: Talkative
M: Witty
Syren: Enthusiastic
Jynn: Resilient
Vox: Amiable
Anon asked: Do you have other sister blogs or affiliate blogs about writing? Or maybe you can rec us other writing blogs? Not that auideas is not awesome, loving this blog! Just, you know, want to follow other blog. Thanks! Loving your aus btw!
Chamomile: We have @nsfw-auideas​, which has been inactive for a while since I became uncomfortable running it and the other admins sort of dropped of….but for blogs that inspire me, I always love @writing-prompt-s​ because they give me ideas for prompts with their prompts (if that makes sense, lmao) and also from fanfiction/fanart. I get //so// much inspiration from fanfiction/fanart.
M: Yeah we have our NSFW blog, but that’s pretty much it, and I don’t really have a lot of time at the moment to look at other blogs, so this is definitely one for the other admins to answer.
Syren: I second what Chamomile mentioned, and I also get a lot of inspiration from @inell​ who is a writing machine in the Sterek fandom. It's insane how many stories she churns out, and they often help me mindlessly brainstorm, if that makes any sense??
Jynn: I get a lot of inspiration from @otpprompts​!
Vox: @otpprompts​ and @writing-prompt-s​ are two other really great prompt blogs! ( ≧▽≦)
Anon asked: curious about the new assistant admins. mind doing information pages for them like you did for the admins?
Chamomile: Here’s all of our pages: Chamomile // M // Syren // Jynn // Vox
Anon asked: When I'm grown, a martyr I will never be. I won't cry for you. I won't suffer for the things you do. I won't cry for you, see. Even though I understand you, Kankri.
Chamomile: this is a sin
M: get outta here
Syren: *Castiel voice* I don't understand that reference.
Jynn: I had to actually go back and find this song again for Chamomile so I just have to say how dare you make me relive that.
Vox: This ask has 6een marked as triggera6le and will 6e taken d9wn by Kankri Vantas. (ง •̀_•́)ง
Anon asked: So I know that this blog is SFW, but do you mind if I use your prompts in a NSFW story?
Chamomile: That’s totally fine! Whatever you do with our prompts is totally up to you.
M: ^^^^^
Anon asked: Have you decided what theme you'll be using? I remember a while back one of the admins asked what the followers think about the current theme.
Chamomile: Oh yeah, we got this solved a long while back. If anybody has a theme that they think is really nice and that we should try out, then send it to us!
Anon asked: What is your opinion on "Shrek is Love, Shrek is Life"?
Chamomile: get out
M: leeeeeeeave
Syren: I am daily surrounded by meme trash and could probably recite it perfectly if I tried. I am only slightly ashamed.
Jynn: I'll never forget it. That being said, I never want it in my presence ever again.
Vox: You scream, I scream, we all scream for Dank Memes™
Anon asked: I finally talked to my future college roommate. Accidentally ignore her email for a week tho... Not really off to a great start?
Chamomile: I can’t tell if this is a prompt or you telling us about your day but my advice would be to get her a card that’s like “I’m sorry I ignored your email for a week” and then some candy or whatever else she likes.
M: Lol man that did not happen with my current roommate - we actually sent each other our first introductory emails at the exact same moment even though I was across the country. Thankfully, we’ve clicked very well, but I would recommend not getting on their bad side right away, or that’ll make your year not so much fun.
Syren: Dude, I am the worst person at communicating possibly ever. I have lost friends because I forget to reply to them for months, no joke. I've found the best way to make it up is to be as sincere with your apology as possible. I've learned not to make excuses. Don't sweat it!
Jynn: I'm glad you reached out to your roommate, good job! I'd go with Chamomiles card and candy idea.
Vox: -looks at the messages I have in Line that are months old- -l a u g h s- Oh honey.
Anon asked: Do you (admins and assistants) know how to make gifs? Also, how do you pronounce "gifs"? "Jifs" or "gifs".
Chamomile: I have no clue on how to make a gif, and I pronounce it like “gift” without a “t”.
M: Gifs. Hard G. I will fight you on this.
Syren: I have no clue how to make a gif, though I've been thinking about learning (barely any gifs out there for When We Rise). Hard g.
Jynn: There are tons of gif makers online, I also have an app for that. I pronounce it “Gif” with a hard G
Vox: I LOVE making gifs!! They’re super fun. Also I use both alternatively.
Anon asked: how do the admins like the new assistants? And how do the assistants like the admins?
Chamomile: I think they’re pretty great! Everybody has been really good with getting their prompts in the drafts so admin m and I can approve them. No real problems.
M: Two thumbs up from me! I can now feel more stress about my school and social life than about this darn blog...
Syren: They're all generally fabulous people and make me feel welcomed. I'm the youngest of the bunch, but that doesn't change anything. Also, I have a habit for apologizing for everything, and they always assure me that it's all good and that they've all been there.
Jynn: Chamomile, Em, and I have actually all been friends for upwards of a couple years now, and I've contributed to the blog here and there before so it hasn't been super different for me tbh.
Vox: If I could put emojis into replies, this right here would just be a string of sparkles and hearts. Everyone’s been really nice!!
Anon asked: I haven't been on this site since forever and I just got back. Nice to see more prompts that I can add to my growing list of things I want to try writing :) (Also, "Runaway" and "So Sad, So Sad" are some of my favorite songs! :D )
Chamomile: Eeeeee! Thanks for loving the blog! Also I know right, I have some pretty good music taste if I do say so myself ;)
Anon asked: Knowing that someone else uses Japanese emoticons makes me really happy. \\\ (۶ÒワÒ)۶//// Where do you get yours from, Vox? An app, website, or other?
Vox: Yaaaaa, kaomoji are super funnnnn!! ☆⌒(*^-°)v I have a Japanese keyboard on my phone so I automatically have a bunch of them readily available.
Anon asked: Choose five of the blog's followers that you've talked to a fair amount and say what story genre you think they would be a character in, and if they would be a protag or antag.
Chamomile: Instead of choosing just five, I went with all of them. Here’s the link
M: I willllllll do this over break - expect a post on my admin blog!
Anon asked: If life was a standardized test, you would be "Answer B" because I always turn to you when I don't know what to do.
Chamomile:....that’s actually really sweet?
M: Omfg.
Syren: This would be really cute if the thought of standardized tests didn't throw me into a panic over upcoming midterms, SATs, and ACTs
Jynn: Awwwwww!
Vox: I’m in various stages of oh god and that’s so sweet and lol my name is actually Bee so this is kind of great, are you flirting with me anon, winkwink. ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)
Anon asked: What do you call a flirty Greek? A Socratease
Chamomile: The King of flirty Greeks is Mithridatetease (Mithridates)
M: Get out.
Syren: As long as they don't have an Oedipus complex, they can tease all they want
Jynn: More like MithriDATEs
Vox: Has war flashbacks to Greek myth lectures. Sweats nervously.
@all-made-of-stardust​ asked: So I love your blog, and I especially love all your Never Book quotes. I was wondering - what's your policy on using those quotes? Can I directly use the whole quote? Should I change it a bit? Should I not use it at all? There's several quotes I have been thinking about using, and I just wanted to make sure I was doing it right.
Chamomile: hey there! This is a pretty popular question, but our policy is that you can change it however you want (adding in words, changing pronouns, etc.) but don’t repost it anywhere without crediting us. Cutting our parts is also totally fine. If you write something inspired by TNB, or has a TNB quote in it, make sure to shoot us a message and we’ll make sure to add it to the follower’s works page!
@ihaveatheoryabouttimetravel​ asked: What exactly is the never book?
Chamomile: Hey! I’m the creator of The Never Book (TNB) and here’s the long version of how/why I created it (link), but the short version is that TNB is supposed to be a collection of writing prompts to help inspire you to write. Some of them are very dramatic, while other ones are humorous, and other ones are meant to be cliffhangers that make you want to write what happens next. The name “The Never Book” is supposed to imply that all of these quotes come from a story that has never been written, meaning that they’re free game for prompts as well as to make stories out of.
Note: I’ve entertained the idea of trying to write a piece of fiction with a ton of TNB quotes crammed into it. Might try to get around to that if anybody is interested.
Anon asked: Is it okay to Writer's Block shame a friend who has an almost complete first chapter for 57 different fanfiction pieces???
Chamomile: #me
M: Shame us all
Syren: I'm too fragile to be bombarded like this
Jynn: I'm being called out.
Vox: First of all how dare, it’s only 56. (ง •̀_•́)ง
anon asked: tbh between chamomile and m i really thought that chamomile was younger. i have been surprised but not unpleasantly so             
Chamomile: I’m definitely shorter and rounder than admin m, but I’m older by like, a year and a half? Something like that?
M: I am the alpha.
anon asked: assistant admins, what’s your favorite ice cream flavor?
Syren: Blue Moon (it's an upper Midwest thing I guess)
Jynn: Chocolate
Vox: Mint chocolate chip
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