#this is related to the euro so ignore this pls

[carcee]

rumour has it

pairing: leah williamson x melody porcaroli (oc)

summary: sometimes all you need is for the public to find out about your old relationship with England's captain for you to meet the love of your life again and after all these years you're both still in love if not more

a/n: I changed a few things so it fits better with the story. their will be other languages is series. Also I hate how I wrote the match so pls ignore how bad it is hopefully it'll get better.

w/c: 4.3k

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porcaroli_news Leah Williamson (footballer) and Melody porcaroli (singer/model) seemed to have know each other not only from school but from birth as their parents were friends.

not only that the two seemed to have been in a relationship from deleted posts from both of their accounts and some photos from their friends. The two also played for the Young lionesses (which she captained) and arsenal's youth academy.

It is seemed to think that the two broke up a couple months after leah got signed for arsenal. Was the break up the reason she didn't peruse her football career as in multiple articles she is praised for her talent and how she could be the future to women's football if she continued with what she was doing.

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𝐰𝐨𝐬𝐨𝐥𝐯𝐫 KEIRA LIKED THE POST     > 𝐰𝐨𝐬𝐨𝟒𝐞𝐯𝐫 as fast as she liked the post she was even faster to unlike it . liked by porcaroli_news

𝐩𝐨𝐫𝐜𝐚𝐫𝐨𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐚𝐧 I never knew she played for Young lionesses

𝐩𝐨𝐫𝐜𝐚𝐫𝐨𝐥𝐢𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐦𝐬𝐨𝐧𝐟𝐚𝐧 I knew I wasn't delusional when I thought they'd make a hot couple

𝐰𝐨𝐬𝐨𝟒𝐞𝐯𝐫 i didn't even know she was gay 😭😭😭

mel KEIRA FAE WALSH WHY DID YOU LIKE THAT POSTTT

fav ginger I DIDNT MEAN TO IT WAS AN ACCIDENT I SWEAR AND I UNLIKED IT IMMEDIATELY

IM SORRY

PLS DONT HATE ME

mel no its fine it just I really wanted to go to the euros finals to see u guys win and now I cant without it being made into a huge thing that I'm going to see her when I'm not I'm here for you and Georgia and the other girls but mainly you two

fav ginger NO PLS COME

we need you

she needs you even if she doesn't know it

mel Keira don't

fav ginger sorry

let me rephrase

I need you

mel okay fine. your lucky I love u so much

Today was the day the 31st of July and of course you were excited to be going but at the same time your body was filled with nerves as you knew that you were going to see her.

The saying time heals all wounds did not apply to this situation especially with the fact that now the whole world now knows that you and Leah Williamson were in a relationship definitely didn't help.

So there you sat, as close as you could possibly get without actually being on the pitch your leg bouncing up and down anxiously when you saw the girls walk on the pitch. You remembered how nervous you were when you were doing the young lionesses and couldn't even begin to imagine how they felt walking into the final of the euros on home ground.

So the second the ball was kicked you sat proudly in your England shirt playing with the bracelet you and the girls made when you were teenagers.

It was now nearly the 50 minuet mark and Germany nearly scored but thankfully Magull was off causing the stress to leave your body and surely easing the lionesses nerves as well.

Although you'd thought you were quite undercover or disguised enough that people wouldn't notice you. But apparently not enough as Sarina saw you causing her to ask you to come and sit with her so the two of you could talk.

So when you both saw Beth mead go down the both of you held onto each other before she made her way further down dragging you along with her which took you by surprise, but you were sure she just forgot.

Beth seemed to now be accompanied by Lucy and medics but although it didn't look that serious you were certain she would have to be subbed off. All your worries for the girl went away as the stadium cheers as the girl stood back up and walked off the pitch with a slight limp.

"Melody" Sarina called out to you breaking you from your gaze "who do you think I should sub on?" the question threw you off guard "erm, I think Chloe Kelly. I've seen her play and I think her skills would make us more likely to win" your voice filled with confusion still.

"that's what i was thinking Kelly it is then"

Just as Chloe went on the pitch the game was on full swing again with Germany making their way down though that was stopped by Lucy with a header which went to Georgia who then passed it to Keira.

Pass to Ella.

As if Keira heard you thoughts she done exactly that and Ella sent the ball beautifully into the back of the net which sent cheers to going through Wembley stadium.

As you jumped up and down in joy for England but also for Ella who you could tell was ecstatic with the goal and had just scored for England.

But not soon after Germany make it 1-1

It was currently the 90 minuet mark and there was now going to be a break before playing the last 30 minuets and ever since Germany equalised the game the game had you sorting on the edge of your seat so many chances were given to them and thankfully none made it into the net.

You found yourself sitting alone as Sarnia and the subs were making their way onto the pitch for s speech and of course Lucy being Lucy she was sat on the grass the the kid she is.

It was soon time for the the girls to make their way back on the pitch but before they did a person jumped on your back causing the both of you to fall "Keira. What the fuck" you complained from the floor as the girl was still laying onto of you "get off" you shouted causing the lionesses to look over at the two of you and a certain blondes gaze to linger a little longer than I should of and it would of lasted longer if it wasn't for Georgia who snapped her fingers in front of the girl with a smirk present on her face.

Leah knew that the two of you keep in touch after the breakup as it would of been unfair if she'd told the girl to pick a side. But what she didn't know was how close the two of you were as it was kinda a rule for her not to bring up the other one when she was with one of you guys. You never posted her and she never posted you, your outings with each other other completely unknown to people who weren't close to her.

She laughed before somehow moving so she was closer to the girl than she already "no, I'm showing you how happy I am that you came" she spoke between kisses that she placed all over any skin that she could see.

Finally she let the girl go only when Lucy came over and told them that Keira need to go back now. "I'm so proud of you okay, so proud" you held her head in both of her hands kissing her forehead before hugging her tightly "now go and win this okay" quickly doing your handshake before watching her run back on the pitch and seeing you guys were on the big screen.

Next thing you knew it was half time of extra time and still England and Germany were tied but England was now given a corner which Lauren hemp was gonna take. You watched as she kicked the ball and Lucy got a touch on it but it wasn't enough but you watched as Chloe went to kick the ball but missed and went for it again and watched as the ball went into the back on the net causing screams to be let out around the stadium.

She was hesitant to celebrating but once she realised that the goal counted she took of her shirt spinning it around while running around the pitch.

She was gone be given a yellow card but no one cared England were in the lead and that all that mattered.

Next thing you knew it was over England had won. You felt tears begin to fill your eyes as you were so incredibly proud of your girls and obviously all you wanted to do was go onto the pitch and hug all the girls but technically you had no clearance to be there so you stood by the edge until Sarina told them to let you through as she knew that you knew a lot of the girls.

You eyes looked for the lionesses to find them in two lines and now was your time to get revenge on Keira for jumping on you earlier.

So you picked up some momentum and jumped on the girls back causing her to nearly drop you but her arms quickly found its place under you're legs. Unknown to two girls when you nearly fell leah reached out to grab you which didn't go unnoticed to the lionesses.

This time it was Lucy who noticed "shut up" leah grumbled as she could already sense the comment that Lucy was gonna, while she only laughed louder at the situation. "talk to her. It's clear you both still love each other"

"told you you'd win!!!" placing kisses all over the girl

Leah eyes on the two of you again wondering how she didn't know that the two of you were that close, like kiss each other close. She noted to herself to ask her later.

"to think you weren't gonna come" she dropped you on the ground turning to see you with tears running down your face "no don't cry" Keira's hand began to wipe your tears away "okay, ill stop I'm just so proud that's why"

You then went around hugging a few players before having to move out the way as it was time for them to collect their awards. And though you hated to admit it you watched her the whole time. I mean how could the girl not.

Even though you thought it was impossible she managed to get prettier over the year's the two of you hadn't spoken.

You watched as she got her medal and then held the trophy. You watched as she lifted it up and the confetti cannons went off.

You just watched her.

As if she felt your gaze, she looked your way but you quickly looked away. It looked as if the girl was going to talk to you but she was dragged away for an interview which you were thankful for. Your eyes watching her only going away when you saw a football being kicked in you direction, which you lucky were able to stop.

Playing with the football doing some tricks "Lucy, your lucky I manged to stop that ball or else" laughing lightly passing it back to her "come on you know you missed it" kicking it back to you "kick it in the goal from here I know you can"

The girl grabbed a camera man placing herself in front of it "okay everyone, here we have" the camera now showing you "the Melody Porcaroli, singer, songwriter, model and many more. One them being an excellent footballer. So who want to see her score a goal from here" the stadium roared which caused the girl blush in embarrassment "you can't say no now. gotta give the crown what they want"

Looking at the girl "I hate you" moving away you created some space between you and the ball so you could get some momentum. Looking at Lucy who now had a bunch of girls lined up with her. Touching your bracelet the began running towards the ball and kicked it watching as it soared through the air and enter the goal thankfully.

Leah watched you the whole time a proud smile on her face completely ignoring the questions that were thrown at her by the interviewer.

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"hello everyone. it looks like we have a big name in the house melody porcaroli here with us" the Alex stated giving you a quick hug as the two of you haven't seen each other in years.

"hi Alex"

"so what made you come to the game today" Alex asked "and miss a chance to see you. no but in all seriousness Keira convinced me. So how could I say no to her" Laughing slightly

alex laughed as well "And why did you think of the game?"

"amazing, I mean the girl gave it their all and it payed off and i think playing on home ground just helped drive her motivation as well as that Germany, they played amazing as well. The game had me at the edge of my seat the-" and suddenly you felt a weight on your back once again "-KEIRA. what's your problem. your lucky I caught you this time"

"well you wouldn't drop me would you"

"are you forgetting what happened earlier"

the two of you forgot you were being interviewed until Alex spoke up again "Keira hi. on that note the media seemed to have ,missed your friendship"

Keira smiled remembering all the memories the two of the you had. "yeah we met each other when she was twelve—"

"—thirteen"

"—barely, anyway and I was fourteen but I actually thought that she was the same age as me cause she lied about it" pointing an accusing finger at you "No I didn't. Okay maybe I did but I wanted to play with you guys and you all just assumed I was the same age as leah so I went with it"

"i thought that as well when i first met you" Keira look at you with an accomplished smile when Alex agreed with her. Looking at her you placed a shocked look on your face "Alex, she wont shut up about this now"

"and it wasn't till years later that the team found out that you weren't the same and as us or else you would of been with the Young lionesses that Alessia and Ella are in but I'm happy you were with us all the memories that we made"

Looking at the girl with a shocked expression "I'm twenty three Keira I could of been with either but I'd rather be the youngest than the oldest"

"you may be happy but I got hate for weeks straight as they were hurt that I lied to them but when I had my birthday party it had my age on it. Its not my fault they weren't paying attention, so really it's their fault i should be the upset one"

The interviewer laughed at the best friend's "anyway ill let the two of you go back to celebrating"

"Byeee"

pretend ur leah and ur in normal clothes in the last picture where she's hugging Keira also ur Lucy in all of her photos

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melodyporcaroli Beautiful assist from my girl Keira to Ella who scored an amazing goal and I knew I was right when I told Sarina to put Chloe on as you scored the goal that changed our lives. Doing what the men couldn't (joking kinda not really) IM SO SO PROUD OF YOU GIRLS @lionesses

I've seen most of the girls grow as people and players. I remember when we would talk about the euros and how we wanted to win and now you've done that maybe not exactly how we imagined but I'm still so proud of you.

p.s why an I celebrating like I was on the pitch and make fun of Young Keira in the comments😜 oh and watch my post match interview as well

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𝐤𝐞𝐢𝐫𝐚𝐰𝐚𝐥𝐬𝐡 I'm so proud of you. I wouldn't be the person that I am on and off the pitch without you     > 𝐦𝐞𝐥𝐨𝐝𝐲𝐩𝐨𝐫𝐜𝐚𝐫𝐨𝐥𝐢 stop don't lie your just naturally talented

𝐤𝐞𝐢𝐫𝐚𝐰𝐚𝐥𝐬𝐡 OMG WHY THAT PHOTO     > 𝐦𝐞𝐥𝐨𝐝𝐲𝐩𝐨𝐫𝐜𝐚𝐫𝐨𝐥𝐢 I had worse I could of posted so be grateful

 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐧𝐰𝐚𝐲𝐠𝐞𝐨𝐫𝐠𝐢𝐚 me in the background of that photo

𝐤𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐞_𝐦𝐜𝐜𝐚𝐛𝐞𝟏𝟏 oh, things are adding up now     > 𝐚𝐫𝐬𝐞𝐧𝐚𝐥𝟒𝐞𝐯𝐫 Katie what are u doing here???

𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐚𝐭𝐨𝐨𝐧𝐞 I look so cool in that hat     > 𝐦𝐞𝐥𝐨𝐝𝐲𝐩𝐨𝐫𝐜𝐚𝐫𝐨𝐥𝐢well I bought it specifically for you and you look leng in it. joe watch out I'm gonna steal ur girl

𝐰𝐨𝐬𝐨𝐥𝐯𝐫 MELODY PLAY FOOTBALL AGAIN PLS WE NEED YOU FOR THE WWC     > 𝐦𝐞𝐥𝐨𝐝𝐲𝐩𝐨𝐫𝐜𝐚𝐫𝐨𝐥𝐢 erm thanks for the compliment but I'm not that good     > 𝐥𝐮𝐜𝐲𝐛𝐫𝐨𝐧𝐳𝐞 I agree with them. you're nearly as good as me, nearly. don't let it go to ur head okay     > 𝐦𝐞𝐥𝐨𝐝𝐲𝐩𝐨𝐫𝐜𝐚𝐫𝐨𝐥𝐢 THE LUCIA ROBERTA TOUGH BRONZE COMPLIMENTED ME. not gonna happen though and u know why so don't

𝐥𝐮𝐜𝐲𝐛𝐫𝐨𝐧𝐳𝐞 come over and visit barca soon. I miss you . liked by melodyporcaroli

𝐩𝐨𝐫𝐜𝐚𝐫𝐨𝐥𝐢𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐦𝐬𝐨𝐧𝐟𝐚𝐧 I knew I wasn't going crazy when I thought I saw her

𝐚𝐥𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐢𝐚𝐫𝐮𝐬𝐬𝐨𝟗𝟗 why aren't I in this photo dump. but Keira's here FIVE TIMES FIVE       > 𝐦𝐞𝐥𝐨𝐝𝐲𝐩𝐨𝐫𝐜𝐚𝐫𝐨𝐥𝐢 sorry next time I see you. you'll get a whole post dedicate to u okay. ur my fave Italian girl

𝐰𝐨𝐬𝐨𝟒𝐞𝐯𝐫 leah completely ignored the question just to watch Melody instead. porcalison when

𝐩𝐨𝐫𝐜𝐚𝐫𝐨𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐚𝐧 did you see when Melody nearly fell when she jumped on Keira and Leah went out to grab her to stop her from falling. she's down so bad even after years

𝐜𝐡𝐥𝐨𝐞𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲 these comments are killing me. someone explain pls preferably you or leah

𝐩𝐨𝐫𝐜𝐚𝐫𝐨𝐥𝐢_𝐧𝐞𝐰𝐬 stop did you see her with the football. she got skills. GO PRO NOWW ENGLAND NEEDS YOU FOR THE WWC

𝐰𝐨𝐬𝐨𝟒𝐞𝐯𝐫 STOP THE WAY LEAHS LOOKING AT HER. IM DEAD. THEIR SO CUTE

After a lot of public celebrating the team along with some of their friend found themselves celebrating privately at club that a friend of theirs owned so that they could party without anyone interrupting them as they all just wanted some time without fans.

Now the majority of the girl's were drunk and were defiantly going to be hungover tomorrow at least Melody was but she technically didn't have to be somewhere tomorrow so she definitely wasn't holding back.

So you found yourself dancing up against Lucy as she was the only one who truly was get drunk with her and wouldn't tell her to slow down. "She won't stop glaring at me" the older women spoke up causing you to stop dancing for a second before continuing "Like Its taking the fun out of it tonight, Mel I looks could kill i'd be dead" stepping away and turning you around so your not facing each other.

"I mean even Keira can't calm her down. So either talk it out or fuck it out" the words that left her lips caused your to part full of shock

Slapping the girl on her hard "LUCY. You can't say stuff like that"

"What. I suggest the second one it'll feel better also more fun"

You love Lucy but honestly the girl says stuff without even thinking and the alcohol definitely didn't help her.

"oh would you look at that my drinks empty. Need a refill" sprinting to the bar "strongest drink you have please" Asking the blonde bartender. Pulling out your card to pay but one beat you to it and the scent that that came with it was all to familiar.

"I can pay for my own drinks" your eyes staring on you drink "I know but think of this as me repaying you for all the times you would pay for snacks after practice"

"Leah" the words were barley heard but it was enough to take the girl over the edge.

Oh how much power that one voice had has.

What she didn't know was that her voice had the same affect on you and the alcohol in both of your systems didn't help it only made each word spoken sound better.

Leah closed her eyes as if to savour this moment her voice replaying in her head "say my name again" looking in the girls eye's "leah. Stop with whatever your doing, I need to go"

Walking away before anything would happen between the two of you. To be fair you didn't know when you'd see the girl but with you spending the majority of the time in America due to work and avoiding going home you had no chance to see her.

So the entire night you had spent it avoiding a certain girl with blonde hair and that girl spent the entire night with her eyes solely on you and she wasn't hiding it.

Everyone there knew who she was watching some with more info than others (Lucy,  Keira and Georgia). Everyone one who knows Leah knew that she never was this interested in a girl. Whenever a girl came up to her she would always turn them down no matter how hot they were so to see her this interested in a girl was something new.

You'd went around and had a fun time with some of the girl's (Rachel Daly) singing so of your songs on the karaoke machine and shed honestly sounded better than you "you should feature me on your next album" She'd joked and you being you said yes.

And after a shit tin of drinks and some dancing you'd found yourself walking to the toilet upstairs which was like a proper bathroom as the owner (your friend Ellie) often would fall asleep at Work so it was just easier for her.

Going to close the door you felt someone slip between the gap. "what the fuck—" A hand cover your mouth whirl they back you up against the wall. Opening your green eyes you saw Leah standing In front of you causing the fear in your body to leave.

"look in sorry barging in here but you wouldn't talk let alone look at me—" you hit her head, her hand that was once on your mouth was now on her head "—owwww. what was that for"

Pushing her away "I don't know maybe bargain in on me I could of been like naked" gesturing to your outfit which was a one piece "nothing I haven't seen before" a smirk on her face

"no stop that. you can't say shit like that not anymore" growing more impatient

"leave" the girl stayed in her spot intact she moved closer to you

"leah, leave. Were not doing this now okay"

Another step

"go"

Another step

This time it was her who spoke now that she was face to face to you "Mellie, Tell me to stop" her eyes taking in every feature of your face having not bring so close in years. The green in your eyes was brighter than ever. How you hair was now lighter than it was when you were teenagers. How your face was more structured now. How you were prettier than ever.

Though you wanted to. Tried to. Your mouth wasn't working the word stop barely being able to be said in your head.

The way the two of you ended hurt but what you were feeling right now was too strong for you to care. Every bone in your body was wanting no yearning for the blondes touch.

"tell me right now and I won't kiss you right now" her lips millimetres from yours. Looking up at her "I can't—" before you could finish the sentence her lips were placed on yours, and it was definitely worth the wait. Maybe it was the years of each other lips not touching one another. Maybe it was the alcohol in both of your system, but it felt better than it ever has felt.

Her tongue parts your lips, a moan coming from you mouth. If there wasn't any desperation in the kisses before there now was. The kiss now sending both of your tipsy minds in to orbit.

Leah's hand taps your legs telling you to jump, your legs which were once on the floor were now stopped around the defender. Hands now under your thighs, walking the two of you to the sink so she could place you down.

Her lips now finding its place on your neck, sucking sweetly on the stop that would drive you crazy all these year ago "see that's still your soft spot. Yeah?" Tugging her hair in confirmation as she went at it again. You let her touch linger there for a second before needing her lips back on yours again.

She clings to you, her arm wrapping around your waist, on on your hip while the other was holding your jaw. Every touch that the girl gave you sent you over the edge. Their was a urgency in both of your touches as though you weren't close to each other. The clothes on both of you being the subject of both of your frustration.

Your hand fumble to Leah's shirt trying to unbutton it and her's pulling down the zipper that was already tauntingly low, as it was barely keeping your boobs covered. "fuck, Mellie. The things you do to me" the words were almost spoken as a moan.

Once revelling your Chest, the blondes hands grabbing them as her lips went back yours. Your legs wrapping tighter to Leah's waist in pure euphoria, Nails dragging down the blonde's back.

On of her hands went lower and lower until

"Melody, you completely disappeared—" Lucy voice trailed off, a smirk present on her lips. The two of you parted, Leah simply moving her shirt so it covered her and you well you struggled with tugging your zipper up, leah left out a laugh which quickly went with the look you sent her. "— Well don't stop on my account. Oh and make sure to lock the door this time" walking away "so my advise isn't bad, I can't wait to tell Keira and Georgia"

Fuck

#woso x reader #leah williamson x reader #lionesses x reader #woso #woso fanfics #leah williamson #engwnt x reader #leah williamson imagine #engwnt #carece writes

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what the hell was going on with portugal today

#n.txt #this is related to the euro so ignore this pls #they were asleep on the field #we had so many chances to score #and in the last 20 minutes they just... stopped trying?

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the invisible life of addie larue *review*

This review WILL contain spoilers (probably). I like to cut up my reviews into segments, pieces  of cake holding individual thoughts. Let’s get started.

WHAT I THINK THIS BOOK TASTES LIKE: 

Something dark, yet with hidden surprises. Black milk tea with boba pearls, maybe. Definitely coffee, black with sugar. Yuck.

WHAT ITS GOOD FOR:

SOME bi representation (an extra special point for male bi representation, because it’s sadly so rare in my reading experience. Give me book reccs with masc bi people pls!).

A beautiful historical piece quite literally woven through time.

Absolutely gorgeous prose. You can smell the woods outside Estelle’s hut and the bread baking in Henry’s kitchen. Luc’s presence alone is burnt smoke and terrifying.

WHAT ITS NOT GOOD FOR:

A DIVERSE historical piece. It’s very euro-centric. I’ve seen many POC readers note this.

Insightful depictions of mental health. Every time Henry compared his emotions to a storm I gagged. I really felt as though it was cliche cop out give him some deep sense of character that just didn’t work for me. Actually, a lot of things about Henry’s character don’t work for me. The introduction of his family and friends as sketchy characters to offer him some sense of background doesn’t really hold much weight. I feel that trying to elevate him to the same level of importance as Addie by giving him his own scenes was a mistake, as they just fall flat and lull in comparison.

PREDICTIONS I HAD AS I READ:

I genuinely thought Henry was going to be a vampire for a little while. I don’t know why. I can’t find evidence of this. I’m just really bad at putting two and two together and really like vampires. 

I also thought maybe Henry would be some sort of celebrity.

I knew from the get-go Henry remembering Addie could not be an accident or a fluke but a sort of game on Luc’s part. 

I thought maybe Addie would finally surrender her soul in exchange for Henry’s to go free? It would be a sweet story of sacrifice, but at the same time, I didn’t like the idea of it. I didn’t think Addie’s insatiable curiosity about the world should so easily be put out. 

CHARACTERS I KIN:

I found no personally kinnable characters. If I had to choose, I would probably point to Henry. Though I don’t like most of his characterization, there are certain relatable aspects because he is VERY human (which makes sense, considering Addie is becoming less and less “human” over time). I also feel like I’m late to everything and wasting time and that days go by too fast. Even if I don’t know when my death date is, I suppose it’s always impending. I think everyone who relates to Henry in some regard should collectively work on this.

WHAT I LEARNED ABOUT WRITING:

Dialogue doesn’t always have to be written out explicitly if it means creating beautiful prose. Seriously, as an editor, I always tell my clients “SHOW DON’T TELL”. Don’t tell us how a conversation went, show us! V.E. Schwab entirely ignores this convention and I applaud her for it, because in this case, it works, for the most part. Many conversations in this novel are described in ways people don’t actually speak (or if they did speak this way, they’d probably be seen as pretentious or trying too hard to be profound), but because Schwab describes an interpretation of the conversation rather than the conversation itself inside that beautiful prose of hers, we are able to capture the beauty in how the conversation made the characters feel. It may not exactly be what is said, but we are able to catch the imagery, subtle communication, and the way Addie and Henry read between each other’s lines (which, might I point out, Luc is never able to do because he cannot love Addie unselfishly enough to know her subtle nuances, and instead assumes he knows her best because he has shadowed her for 300 years.) (spoiler alert, I’m not a Addy x Luc shipper, but I’m not exactly a Henry x Addy shipper either, read my hot take below lol). At the end of the day though, the amount of telling instead of showing does make it difficult to get to know the characters ourselves, but rather through the eyes of whoever is narrating (Addie or Henry) which makes us question the reliablity of the narration. I can see why some people think Addie is wrong when she claims Luc is incapable of feeling love because we are told that he is, not shown (though I would argue there are at least a couple of instances when we are, indeed, shown).

Sex is best written when described as feelings and not actions. As an editor (and general reader of romance) I’ve read some bad sex scenes. Most of them include listing the motions, swapping out words for penis and vagina, and a quick finish. Those sex scenes last a paragraph. What I really love about the scenes in this book is how downright intimate they are. I don’t know the exact actions the characters are taking, yet I do because of the passion that is so tangible between them. I as a reader can fill in the gaps in imagery of the scene while the author fuels the emotion behind it.

WHAT I LEARNED EMOTIONALLY:

Honestly, not much? Which is surprising considering the heavy topic of the book. The plot itself was more or less watching people struggle against time, and declaring overall that time constraints define humanity, but the epiphany is never directly stated nor is much done with it. There aren’t many plot advances either, with the climax of the novel seeming like it should be the reveal of Luc and Addie’s relationship and the mysterious night in New Orleans, but once we get there not much happens with that either. I enjoy the very every day, human aspect of the book, in which not much happens except they hang around New York city. It makes me feel like maybe I should chill out a little bit more. Maybe that’s the overall message: chill out.

HOT TAKES:

ADDIE x LUC 

When I first discovered just how many people shipped Luc x Addie I was SHOCKED. Leave it to Tumblr to turn a soul-trading god into a personified Hot Boy™ (then again this is coming from an avid creepypasta fanfic writer but that’s a little different because there’s barely any canon material for those characters anyway). Luc and Addie are a prime example of a toxic relationship, in my opinion. Being alive for 300 years, Addie was bound to have one at some point. Luc and Addie fit well together for all the wrong reasons. They are each other's foils (Luc is the dark, Addie is the stars, as spoken by many other bloggers on this app) and they fit so well together because they were quite literally made to, but I don’t think that means they are good for one another. It is ironic, because while they are tied to one another, Addie can never be “free”. She is always waiting for him with bated breath (out of fear, boredom, or desperation I can’t tell, but those three emotions are not typically a concoction for a healthy attachment). When things are good between them, they are so good. Maybe even euphorically so. But then when things are bad, they are so bad. Like, he’s collecting the soul of an old woman on your evening stroll, type of bad. Getting into an argument and throwing things so violently you knock over a spire of candles and burn down an entire block of the French Quarter is not healthy, guys! In some ways iconic, maybe, but not healthy! They certainly hold passion for one another but in no way are they good for one another. I can admire their relationship as a tragedy and not a romance. Hence why I simply cannot ship.

ADDIE x HENRY (and some more Addie x Luc)

I enjoyed the relationship between Addie and Henry because of what they were able to offer each other. Henry was able to be Addie’s human love, the one that made her discover that maybe she is not fully human anymore, but rather a lover of humans and all their innovations. Addie was able to give Henry another chance at life, one she never got. The way they are able to sacrifice for one another is heartwarming to me. Would they be together without the specific circumstances that allowed them to grow close? Maybe not. But they were what each other needed in the moment and were able to convey it in a healthier way than Addie and Luc did (though still not entirely healthy. Maybe the irony of this book is that Addie will never truly be free because she will always be dependent on the people she meets and falls in love with, no matter for how long they remember her.) I will admit, I did not think there was a lot of romantic chemistry between Addie and Henry, but there’s no doubt in my mind they were perfect as best friends, and I think that’s terribly important for romantic relationships. Addie and Luc were never best friends. They couldn’t talk like best friends do, and though Addie and Luc’s bantering made for a perfect enemies to lovers relationship, I think any opportunity for that was squandered by toxic behavior on both sides. Addie was always waiting for some sort of trick in something he said, or something to go wrong, even when they were, by every technicality, dating. There was no trust whatsoever. With all this being said, I think the development of their relationship was one of the more gripping parts of the novel.

THE ENDING

I don’t think Addie’s story was ever about her ending up with anyone and in many ways I’m glad she didn’t. Which brings us to my second hot take, the ending! It was lackluster to a degree, though I can’t exactly imagine it ending in any other way. I don’t think Addie’s story was meant to be a triumph about finding true love necessarily, but experiencing love, and all kinds of it. She experienced a myriad of fiery one night stands, a passionate yet unhealthy codependency, and the inklings of a whirlwind, love-at-first-sight connection. It didn’t matter how they ended (and many of them didn’t, not really), just that it happened. I like it, if that’s what you meant by the ending, V.E. Schwab.

HOW I THINK (philosopher) WOULD FEEL:

AKA a segment in which I discuss how a philosopher would feel about this book if they were around to understand the historical and technological context because idk I like thinking about this stuff.

PLATO would most definitely compare Addie and her story to that of the Ring of Gyges. Especially considering one of her few belongings is a literal ring. For those who are unfamiliar, the Ring of Gyges is about a ring that allows the wearer to be invisible. It brings into question morality. Do people act morally because they are moral beings? Or do they act morally because there is a social expectation to act morally? The only difference is that Addie cannot turn her invisibility off, leading to a necessity to be immoral rather than a simple want of true human nature to be immoral. Plato is a big believer that acting immorally taints the soul, and quite frankly I think he would suggest Addie simply die and hand her soul over rather than act immorally, though he’d be enraged at the idea she so carelessly traded her soul in the first place. Secondly, I also think Plato would suggest Addie simply die because she cannot truly know herself due to always being alone. Plato believes the best way to see yourself is through the eyes of another. Your friends are your mirrors. You cannot cultivate your soul if you do not know yourself and therefore he would likely believe Addie should simply die. I do not think Plato would support the novel overall. 

OVERALL:

The overall prose, aesthetic, and beating heart of this story has me ranking it fairly high, but certain issues with characterization and its overall inconcise nature do present as a few complaints. As I read in a Youtube comment section somewhere (if I can find the account to offer credit I will): “This book is purely vibes and that’s it.” The commentor claims that to be the issue with the novel, but if you’re okay with just vibes, read it and let me know if you agree!

8/10 would recommend, mostly because there is such a wide variety of opinions on this novel. Tell me what you think! Let’s discuss and or argue! Let’s burn down a block of the French Quarter together!

#addie larue #the invisible life of addie larue #addie and luc #addie x luc #addie x henry #booklr #booktok #philosophy

[jayhorsestar]

(MILK on chiller floor - [a] sunday eve by 1st december RO national day, all locked up, FANS on - ‘call denisa, to call on her bro, to call ‘valer, to route smbdy switch off those FANS, pls - so the RO team could never handle smth tech-related unless the MDL counter-parts becoming AWARE - and the ‘reaction chain, all MDL counter-parts. [b] upon me on ‘kenes ointment, suddenly by less couple weeks already, ‘denisa stepped onto acid and needs surgery, which already executed, thus also linked ‘roxette, hence ‘copenhagen was standing onto MILK chiller due her diligence too (big white blood free round spot, three centimeters wide which might evolve into mold and hazard for flesh later on). [c] long-haulers lorries of RO at night technically respond to two different colors, politically, and one older is manual gear-box (tops 15 tons), whilst the DAF is automatic gear-box (upon the tech-accident of MAY-JUNE at OITUZ passage, when warranties replaced that acquisition into a one automatic gear-box, thus life-insurances differ from a manual gear-box, and also loads of above 20 tons applicable). to counter the 5 tons better performance the old 82-FPL 7-tons 18 pallets put to work as third lorry onto first political color, the white MAN LH - more trucks, same salaries, btw. [d] EGNATIA BANK versus Chiller MILK Intesa-SaoPaolo Bank, or Bucharest 2005 versus RO ‘juneau kronstadt 2019-2020. when onto diplomatic stances, bilateral affairs only, RON vs DRACHMA, then EUR currency (awesome), certain GREEK investors were allowed borrowing and opening credit lines at EGNATIA BANK (volksbank, sao-paolo PAX bank, so on so forth - yet important - not a TRADING per_se oriented BANK, such as BCR Trading Bank where salaries or SAPARD fundings ESCROW lines available), based on ‘contencios administrative territories, rather than plein simple civil law grounds, the ANCPI land-books, tabulae CF - meaning that for instance having a HOUSE built onto a land-parcel at HARMAN suburbs, yet not recorded tabulated ANCPI, only the LAND area, ’intravillan though - making the ENERGETIC CERTIFICATE available for the building efficiency class A, A+, B or C, would had allowed a BANKER open certain maximum EUR currency or merely DRACHMA credit line WITHOUT particularly adding the ANCPI ‘extras CF, based on the very idea TWO DIFFERENT STATES, cross-borders and diplomatic stances ON, still, and ‘civil LAW might not really be implemented 100%, merely ‘contencios administrative, playing role at POLITICAL level and also preserving ETHNICITY and traditions, thus preserved foreign flags - EGNATIA played DIASPORA approach onto EURO currency at 50 gees level all too much probably, and BUCHAREST was not maturely developed into such diplomacy background so that to allow for the GREEK investors RUN affairs and businesses locally (ignoring ANCPI tabulae, land-books all too much), EGNATIA Bank was bought then by MARFIN Bank. boys last night were relying onto ONE YEAR shelves (not published in a newspaper), to open the limited liability group member trading legal entity (’la suzana SRL), and charge fees for the PALLET shadow onto chiller floor (as if plant manufacturing director wouldn’t ever be able recall entirely the whole STOCK for re-assigning WHEY tankers - sort of the GOLDEN VETO). then perhaps having the ENERGETIC CERTIFICATION over the chiller partitio, hand-over at Intesa SAO-PAOLO Bank (EXELIA), with BELGIUM CEO, all such ‘contencios administrative recognized papertrail, outside of the very ANCPI landbooks, which WE SAW seemingly lacking the PLANT completely - white molds, green and blue molds, black molds too). and that BBP Brasov Business Park 2012-2013 BANK to eventually fade off and away such as EGNATIA GREEK Bank or even VOLKSBANK of AUSTRIA which was eventually merged upon UNICREDIT Tiriac Banks alliance - thus indeed ALLIANZ concern. boys were happy to hear MY DEJA-VU yet once more. m)

[hwangminyeo]

30 Questions Taggg

Rules: answer 30 questions then tag 20 blogs you would like to know better.

I was tagged by: @emperorhwangs thank you for tagging me~!

1. Nicknames:  abby (my full first name is abigail and i hate it so much argh), babby, bee, beebee, goosey

2. Gender: Female

3. Star sign: Leo!

4. Height: oompa loompa size 5′3, like 161-162 cm ??? 

5. Time: 11:49 PM

6. Birthday: August 1st

7. Favorite Bands/Groups: I’m assuming this is supposed to be kpop related :o ??? Nu’est, Wanna One, B1A4, Apink, Blackpink, and Oh My Girl

8. Favorite solo artists: Maybe Zion T and Suran? I don’t listen to many solo artists

9. Song stuck in my head: since I said Suran, now If I Get Drunk Today is stuck in my head lol

10. Last movie watched: To the Bone

11. Last show watched: My cousin got me hooked on iZombie, its rly rly good

12. When did i create my blog: Mid May

13. What do I post: Reblogs of beautiful gifs of beautiful people 

14. Last thing googled: Too Faced Natural Love Limited Edition Palette, I was hoping they’d have it at the mall today at Sephora but they don’t sell it anymore. Welp. :(

15. Do you have other blogs?: Nope.

16. Do you get asks?: Sometimes! And it’s usually for those ask games or someone needing nu’est information which I am always glad to help with/research! I mainly talk through direct messaging even though I’m really bad at replying sometimes bc I am distracted or busy so pls don’t think I ignore you!!! ;w; 

17. Why did u choose your url?: Because Hwang Minhyun is a beauty and it’s his best nickname (fun fact: it was either this or minhearts) I used to have a dash in between hwang and minyeo but Ellie @hyun95 let me know hwangminyeo was an open url and i am super thankful~ ♡

18. Following: 64! I go blog stalking sometimes bc I know I need to follow more but when I’m on tumblr I’m usually multi-tasking at the same time which makes me distracted and forget asdfghjkl

19. Followers: Just surpassed 1.2k the other day and I’m shook and everyone is so sweet and kind and put up with my shitty text posts (which are mainly jokes or me freaking out) :((

20. Favorite colors: pastel colors! but pink is my favorite

21. Average hours of sleep: 6-7

22. Lucky number: asdfghjkl ??? idk maybe 5? bc i’m the 5th child in my family and i rly like the number

23. Instruments: I taught myself piano for about 3 months then gave up and now I play ukulele lmao

24. What am I wearing: a pajama t-shirt bc this florida heat got me fcked up even though I should be used to it by now

25. How many blankets I sleep with: 2 because I sleep with my fan on and if I don’t then it gets really hot and i’m not about to let my legs be grabbed by a ghost

26. Dream job: Anything in the medical field (but I have a sensitive stomach and can’t stand the sight of blood or injuries no matter how small) bc I can help people

27. Dream trip: I’ve wanted to go to France and Greece for forever!!1! I also took a Euro History class and would love to go to other European countries as well bc I’m a nerd for history and want to see everything I learned about~

28. Favorite food(s): Steak, Rice, Beef, Pizza, Burgers, Sushi, Pho, anything and everything except pork because I don’t like the taste of pork :(

29. Nationality: Filipino-American 

30. Favorite song now: I’ve been listening to Sorry by Ciara a lot :)))

i am going to tag: @extraongdinary @wannabl @2hyeons @jaehwanspsychopathlaugh @sleeptalkingg @bbaekmin @dank-danik @jinguos @swoojin @hyuncakes @daybreak-mp3 @onibugi-jr @oneminhyun @danik-chu @pockyjonghyuns @nuest-rebirth @kangdan101 @hyun95  @minhyunisperfection @kangdanielprotectionsquad @luminous-point @nuestlovestory @peachgodkangdaniel @minsbugi @godkangdaniel  (pls ignore this if you have already done it/don’t feel like doing it!)

#this took me a while to fill out for some reason wtf #myabe its bc i was too chatty #btw i kid you not in my speech class there was a girl named chatty #and our speeches were only supposed to be 5 minutes but hers was 20 #i was amazed #and jealous bc i barely reach time limits #sorry for the random story #bye

[maritimecyprus]

(http://www.MaritimeCyprus.com) The sinking of the ferry vessel MS Estonia in the Baltic Sea is an accident that will haunt the maritime domain for long years and even beyond. Caused by myriad reasons, this Baltic Sea accident was an event so unprecedented that the extent of the damages caused, both to life and to property, is still shocking even after so many years since the disaster occurred.

As contrary to otherwise held beliefs, the MS Estonia was a ship with almost 15 years of successful ferrying service for four different owners and operators. Originally built at the start of the 80s, the vessel came under the ownership of her last operators, the Estonia Shipping Company, in the early 1990s.

Even though her impeccable service record was marred fatally and quite abruptly in the end, each of the vessel’s operational routes were extremely popular and in demand. Even her last operational route specially launched between the provinces of Tallinn (Estonia) to Stockholm (Sweden).

MS Estonia Disaster: Details

The MS Estonia sinking occurred in the year 1994 in the month of September as the vessel was passing through the Baltic Sea from the Estonian province of Tallinn to her intended destination of Stockholm. At the time of the MS Estonia disaster nearly 1,000 people were aboard it, both voyagers and crewing personnel included and only a minuscule proportion of people were managed to be successfully saved from the wreckage of the unfortunate vessel.

The timing of the voyage was such that turbulent climatic conditions plagued the transiting through the Baltic Sea. Heavy gales lashed the vessel, making steerage difficult whilst trying to maintain the speed of the vessel. Thus though a common thread about the actual causation of the disaster remains that the weather played a major role in destabilising the ship, sources vary in their account of how the vessel started to heel in the Baltic Sea.

Many references quote that the negligence of the crewing personnel to shut the doorways at the prow of the ship led to the seepage of water into the main deck of the vessel thus causing the MS Estonia to heel onto her right-hand side (starboard). Other information roots about the accident concur that while there was no negligence on the part of the crew professionals, the structure of the vessel was inadequate to enable the vessel to through the perennial harshness of the Baltic climate. This inadequacy manifested itself when the prow’s doorways were thrown open, thus causing water to seep into the vessel and fatally destroy it.

MS Estonia Wreck

Though all communication channels failed immediately following the accident, feeble messages sent by way of the intermittently collapsing radio lines helped in the rescuing operations, however delayed they were. The rescue attempts were considerably hampered by the weather turbulence. Air rescuing campaigns were inordinately delayed which meant that only other vessels in the immediate vicinity could come to the aid of the distressed. Regrettably, by the time the rescue campaigns could be deployed thoroughly after the initial hassles, almost three-quarters of the voyagers had succumbed as the vessel sank to the depths of the frigid Baltic.

While some fortunate kin were able to receive the lost ones’ bodies from the water’s cold hold, with more than half the number of the dead didn’t even get this opportunity. The bodies of these voyagers still lie within the vessel, completely decomposed, as the MS Estonia serves as an unorthodox crematorium.The disaster claimed 852 lives.

Though these less-fortunate kith and kin speak about exhuming the bodies from their watery graveyard, the Swedish governmental officials decided in lieu of the exhumation to uphold the MS Estonia wreck as a memorial site. Alongside several European nations ratified what came to be known as the Estonia Agreement, in the year following the accident. As per the terms of this agreement, these nations and their nationals were barred from using the memorial as a underwater diving locale.

Suspicion of Naval Armaments Usage

Soon following the MS Estonia disaster, rumours started circulating that the vessel was utilised to ferry naval armaments. The cause of the MS Estonia sinking was also placed on the accidental blow-up of the explosives stored within the ferry’s confines. However several drawn-out analyses concluded that the vessel was merely a voyager ferry which had encountered an accidental catastrophe in the most unexpected of manner with emotionally debilitating repercussions.

July 2019 French court rejects claim over 1994 Estonian ferry disaster:

A Paris court rejected a compensation claim in July 2019 related to the 1994 sinking of an Estonian ferry, which remains one of Europe’s deadliest maritime disasters.

The court ruled on the claim from more than 1,000 survivors and relatives of victims of the accident in which a car ferry connecting the Estonian capital of Tallinn with Stockholm sank on Sept. 28, 1994, killing 852 people.

They sought 40.8 million euros ($46 million) from the French agency Bureau Veritas that deemed the ship seaworthy and the German shipbuilder Meyer-Werft.

But the French court in the western suburb of Nanterre threw out the claim, citing a lack of “intentional fault” attributable to either company in the case, the second-deadliest peacetime sinking of a European ship after the Titanic.

Henning Witte, a German lawyer who represents relatives in the case, told that Swedish news agency TT that the ruling was, “of course, a disappointment.”

“The circus continues. It is absolutely scandalous how the events around the Estonia disaster are being ignored, and especially the relatives,” Witte said.

Raivo Hellerma, a spokesman for Memento Mare, a group that represents mainly Estonian victims of the disaster, was more stoic, saying “we had no expectations” in the case. Hellerman lost his wife in the sinking.

An investigation that concluded in 1997 found that the locks on the ferry’s front, the prow door, had not held up to the strain of the waves, causing water to flood the car deck.

The case has been making its way through French courts since 1996, and had been retried on appeal twice.

Pls watch the below 2 videos of the Estonia:

Estonia sinking simulation

Zero Hour – The Sinking of The Estonia 720p HD (Discovery)

Flashback in maritime history – MS Estonia sinking on 28 September 1994 claiming 852 lives (www.MaritimeCyprus.com) The sinking of the ferry vessel MS Estonia in the Baltic Sea is an accident that will haunt the maritime domain for long years and even beyond.

#Flashback #Passenger ship