Woke up peacefully today until i thought about if lorel ended up at rsa instead and never met ace or deuce
They’d be a little more solemn at rsa...the atmosphere at nrc and the friends they made helped them open up n be comfortable n loose but at rsa, they a lil icy and distant
In normal twst verse they also struggle with deciding where they should be, at nrc they want so bad to prove that they Could belong there, so that maybe they would be “allowed” to stay, but they also know they should go home
the thing that pisses me off about booktok and bookstagram more than the normalization of assuming everyone is reading porn all the time is the insane commercialization. this was the only hobby of mine where I did not feel the need to collect anything physical--using library and ebooks (most of my books are in my kindle!!!)--and now everything is about hyperexclusive special editions with black pages and real gilt bound in unicorn leather or whatever the fuck.
I know I have a very compulsive personality so I'm weaker than the average person to Wanting to Collect Things but dammit!! can't we enjoy the insides!! without the whole of the internet trying to drain my bank account!!
I personally enjoy fight club because it’s very interesting to watch the physical and mental self destruction of person trying to find a purpose in life when they don’t desire the typical traditional american ideal life. To see the descent into delusion.
oh my fucking god i waited to buy Nona the Ninth for my kindle until today bc I wanted to make sure I got The Unwanted Guest and ITS NOT FUCKING THERE FUCK