#this is mostly abt college

[luxaofhesperides]

Human/Mer AU + Bioluminescent Siren Duke ; requested by @justwannabecat!

The human hadn’t been in his territory recently. 

He wasn’t attached or anything, but Duke had started to look forward to seeing him around. It was equal parts exciting and terrifying to be under the curious, watchful eyes of a human who could so easily be dragged down into the depths. 

He knows he shouldn’t be doing this. He shouldn’t be indulging this human’s curiosity, trying to lure him closer time after time. Holding the attention of any human is dangerous; Duke’s heard the stories plenty of time. He’s seen the damage humans can do even more. 

There’s just something different about this human, who never dives too deep, who smiles at him and leaves little gifts in the tide pools tucked away from the rest of the beach, hidden from sight. Or rather, usually hidden from sight, since this human is the only one to go there. 

It’s foolish, but Duke actually misses his human. 

It’s not the first time he’d been gone for long stretches of time, but something feels off. There’s worry curling up at the base of his throat, making him swim to the surface more frequently. Steph had given him a look when she caught him, but didn’t say a word. She shouldn’t, really, when she’s been sneaking up to the surface for her own human friend, some small, dangerous human with dark hair and hands that speak more than a voice.

He’d seen her, just once, when he had gone up to splash water and his human then swim away.

Somehow, things felt easier back then. Like the horrors of the world couldn’t reach them among those tide pools. 

It’s reached them now.

Duke’s not expecting to see his human when he swims up to the surface. He’s expecting another quiet night, an empty beach, a dark sky with only the moon casting its lonely light down onto him. 

But when he swims up, his eyes go to a figure on the beach instantly. 

Even from this distance, Duke knows: that’s his human.

He doesn’t think before he’s swimming over, pushing himself faster than he’s ever gone before. It’s low tide, so he can’t get as close as he wants and can’t reach most of the tide pools at all, but it gets him close enough. Human and merfolk vocal chords are different; he can speak in water, but can’t make more than a few hums in air, and humans can’t really do anything in water at all. 

His human is sitting with his knees tucked into his chest on the beach. He’s hiding in his clothes, a hood pulled over his head, but he looks up when Duke drags himself onto the sand. 

Duke can see bruises. Dried blood. A stray tear slipping out of his eyes. 

He wants to ask what’s happened? But all that comes out is a low crooning noise. 

His human laughs, a quiet, bitter noise that makes Duke’s chest tighten uncomfortably. “Hey,” he rasps in a low voice. “Been a while, hasn’t it? I hope you’ve had a better time than I did.”

Duke can’t reach his human. The distance between them isn’t great, but it’s too much. He’s already partially out of the water, hands sinking into the wet sand just out of reach of the waves, and he can’t get any farther out. He reaches a hand out, silently pleading for his human to come closer.

The move makes his human soften, some of the hard edge of tension in his body melt away. He gets up and walks into the water, then sits down next to Duke, taking his hand. 

“I missed you,” he whispers. 

If they were underwater, Duke would be able to say I missed you too. Don’t ever go away so long again. But his human is in no shape to go underwater right now, so Duke presses his hand against his lips and hums lightly. 

They sit in silence for a moment, and Duke realizes that he’s never been this close to any human before. It doesn’t feel dangerous. It feels like relief, to finally have his human in his reach, safe from the rest of the world. 

He gives him human another moment, then reaches out and carefully pushes his hood back. His human allows it, blinking at him slowly. Without the shadow of the hood, Duke can clearly see the bruise coloring his cheekbone and the cuts going down his temple to his jaw. His split lip is still red with blood, and what little of his throat isn’t hidden by his clothes reveals more bruises wrapped around the delicate column of his neck. 

Duke ghosts his fingers over each of these injuries, hating how easily humans hurt each other. His human leans into the touch despite how it must hurt, something devastating in his expression. 

Who hurt you comes out as a questioning trill. Somehow, it gets the point across.

“It’s alright,” his human says. “Really. I’m not even that hurt. It’s just been a long few months. We never talk much, so you wouldn’t know this, but I have to fight a lot of people. Perils of being a hero, you know?”

Duke knows about heroes. More specifically, he knows about mer heroes. He’s considered being one himself, but the currents shifted and he ended up more a loner, banding with the other rejects of the city to live in the fringes and help only those who wander out too far from the marginally safer waters within. 

He hasn’t heard of any human heroes, but then again, he doesn’t know much about humans at all. Nothing beyond the stories all parents tell their children to scare them away from the surface, or the horror stories kids tell each other in the middle of the night when they want to scare each other.

He hums again to let his human know he’s listening. His human has such a nice voice. Why haven’t they done this before? 

It’s always been a push and pull between them, carefully keeping their distance but always circling back to each other. Duke would let his human swim with him, and his human would let Duke sit safely on the other side of a tide pool, tossing sea shells back and forth between each other.

They don’t even know each other’s names. 

He wishes, just for a moment, that he could go back in time and do things better. But he’s happy here with his human and he doesn’t want to lose this either.

He’ll just have to make the best of what he has. It’s how he’s always lived after his parents disappeared.

“This really isn’t that bad,” his human says, “I’ve taken worse hits before. It’s just that I couldn’t transform before the attack started, so now my human form is bruised too.”

…Human form? The more Duke hears, the more questions he has. 

Duke hums at a lower octave, placing a hand over his human’s chest. 

His human laughs lightly. “Yeah, I guess we’ve never really talked much about ourselves, did we? I’m human, don’t worry, just not all the time. I… actually, I died a few years ago. But I came back partially. So I’m also half dead still and I can transform into a ghost to fight threats. I’m a hero called Phantom. Actually, Danny Phantom since I was stupid enough to just give out my first name when I started out. In my defense, my brain was still a little fried.”

There is so much he wants to say to that. He tries, and makes a series of low hums and clicks in the back of his throat, staring at Danny (he finally got his human’s name!) incredulously.

“I promise I’m fine,” Danny continues. “It was just a bit rough. As soon as I get some time to recover, I’ll be good as new! And I really did miss you, you know. Didn’t even go home first, just come straight here.”

That’s honestly really sweet. Duke hums again, a lighter pitch, and takes hold of Danny’s wrist and tugs him towards deeper waters. 

“What? You want me to go in?”

Duke nods, already shuffling his way back out of the sand. 

He expects to look awkward during the process. What he most definitely doesn’t expect is for Danny to easily pick him up and walk them both into the ocean.

Listen. Duke is not a small mer. He’s big. He’s got a long, heavy tail and wide fins going down his back, his forearms, and the sides of his tail. It’s a struggle for him to fit into seaweed nests with his friends during the colder seasons, often left to balance on the edge with his tail hanging out. His friends struggle to pull him through the water with his weight. His parents weren’t able to hold him much after he started growing.

None of this matters to Danny, who acts as if Duke weights nothing at all. 

To his great embarrassment, his fins flare in appreciation for Danny’s strength. He was not expecting a human to be so strong, but Duke’s not about to lie to himself and say it’s not attractive. 

He trills to Danny, who laughs again, then falls into the water, taking them both under. 

Duke doesn’t hesitate. He grabs hold of Danny and swims them further out. He stays close to the surface so Danny can rise for air as needed, but he makes no move to leave Duke’s side even after a few minutes.

He glances back, concerned, when he sees that Danny is watching him with dark eyes, not breathing at all despite being conscious.

Danny holds up a finger and closes his eyes. Two rings of light appear around his waist, then split apart and pass over his body. Instantly, Danny’s body becomes lighter, as if Duke’s hand is grasping at a current on the seabed. His hair turns white and his eyes glow from how bright of a green they are, but there’s something inhuman about his features now, something that makes him look different beyond just physical features. 

Well. Danny did say he could transform.

Now that they’re underwater, Duke can finally speak. The first thing he asks is, “What was that?”

Danny grins at him. “That,” he says, speaking with ease as if he’s not underwater at all, “was my transformation. And this is my ghost form. Quite the look, isn’t it?”

“You can talk down here?! Also, hi, my name’s Duke. Since I never introduced myself.”

“Ghosts can do a lot of things,” Danny answers with a cheeky grin. “It’s nice to finally know your name. I’ve been calling you glowfish in my head this whole time.”

“Glowfish?”

“Yeah. Because you, you know,” Danny gestures vaguely at him, “Glow.”

Duke glances down at his back fins, which are indeed glowing. They flare a bit from embarrassment, which just makes the dots of light lining the fins more visible. He doesn’t glow a lot, keeping a tight hold of that ability, but sometimes it comes out anyways when he’s feeling especially happy.

And apparently, he’s always very happy around Danny. 

It’s a good thing Danny doesn’t know what that means, because if anyone of his friends found out, they’d laugh at how obvious he’s being. Drawbacks of being somewhat bioluminescent: anyone familiar with mers who have this feature know exactly what the glow means. 

“Right,” he says just a beat too late. “Well, now that we know each other’s names, can you tell me how you really feel? Those injuries didn’t look too good.”

“It’s fine, really! I take harder hits all the time.”

“That doesn’t mean it doesn’t hurt.”

Danny doesn’t answer for a long moment, then sighs. “Yeah. It still hurts.”

“Stay with me for tonight,” he says. “You’ll be safe. You can rest and heal and I’ll keep you safe from anything that comes looking for you.”

“You don’t have to—”

“I want to.”

Danny doesn’t put up much of a fight. He must be exhausted. “Yeah, alright. Take me away, Duke. You know, this is like those stories about sirens luring sailors down into the depths.”

“Well, I am a siren.”

“Wait, really?”

“Yeah. I take after my mom. She’s the one who taught me how to sing.”

“I guess it’s a good thing we’re friends so I don’t have to worry about being dragged down to my watery death.”

Duke snorts. “Good thing you’re already a ghost then. Not much I can do to you down here.”

He swims down, heading towards a small cavern in a sea rock that he’s claimed as his own, leading Danny into it. The light from his fins illuminates the entrance and the rocks within, a narrow passage that goes in for a few meters before opening up into a larger space full of carefully tended to seaweed and starfish decorating the walls. 

There’s a nook tucked away in the back wall where he’s set up a seaweed bed, the plant braided together into something more solid. It’s big enough to fit his tail, which means it’s big enough for him and Danny. 

“Here,” he says, helping Danny down. “Get some sleep. Then you can tell me about what happened in the morning and we’ll take it from there.”

“I’m glad you’re here Duke,” Danny whispers, curling up on his side.  He holds Duke’s hand, twining their fingers together, and it’s as nice as it is strange to feel how cold Danny is in this form when he was so warm as a human. 

“I’ll always be here for you. You just need to come back to me.”

Danny hums, but doesn’t answer. It’s alright; Duke’s used to his loved ones leaving. He knows he can’t make them stay. All he can do is hope they return one day.

It’s been a long time since he’s had anyone in his home. There’s a communal cave where his friends stay that he visits when he gets lonely, but this place used to be for his family. Now it’s just him.

Him and Danny. 

The last time there was song in these walls, his mother was still around, singing him lullabies. 

Looking down at Danny, curled up and so strangely fragile looking, Duke feels the song build up in his chest. It slips out in low, soft notes, an old melody passed down through generations of their family. 

He sings Danny to sleep.

He sings and sings and sings until all his nightmares are soothed and dawn is almost upon them. 

It’s all he can do, so Duke sings and hopes it’s enough to keep Danny close to him for just a little longer.

#ghostlights #dc x dp #dp x dc #dcxdp #dpxdc #dc x dp fic #prompt fill #my writing #once again hit by the need to go crazy with worldbuilding #hitting myself w a broom while writing this like KEEP IT SHORT. KEEP IT SHORT!! #this could so easily be 20k+..... #the worldbuilding.... i have Thoughts on mer society and underwater gotham and human/mer differences and so much more #duke's parents were captured by a human (the joker) to use in a fucked up traveling aquarium #danny's still a halfa and a hero but he's not w his parents. they're good parents they just fought the gov for his sake and got arrested #so he's w vlad in a coastal city while jazz is in college #other heroes are still around on land and are not mers so villains are still up there too. and danny had to fight them hence his injuries #he actually got captured a bit and taken to some evil underground gladiator ring he had to fight his way out of mostly in ghost form but #also as a human. and the whole time he just thought abt the only friend he has in this new city which is duke. a mer he visits when he can #there is just SO much i want to write for this but i have to hold myself back.... #this whole asking for prompts thing is to make myself writing shorter things... keep fics brief... not 10k+.... #anyways. thanks for the prompt!! #i went straight for the hurt/comfort lol

[manitapaleta]

SEMI REALISM/HOW TO ANATOMY GOOD TUTORIAL (click for quality)

@shortest-jorts sorry for writing so much but i hope this makes sense 🤓 👍

#art tutorial #anatomy #anatomy tutorial #how to draw #drawing tutorial #artists on tumblr #my art #i feel like i’m back in figure drawing class lmao #also if u can’t read this bc my handwriting sucks……………sorry OTL #ik it’s mostly abt proportions but ong i feel like that needs to be pushed more above everything else when learning how to draw #it is v important #this is p much what u learn in fig drawing classes in college first so that’s my justification #muscles and how to capture motion in the body is another thing that would take forever to explain but i could try lol

[curiosity-killed]

My sister has this thing where she like…loathes my childhood self ?? which. Feels a little unhinged. but leads to things like her being like “omg you STOLE so many baby dolls and because I was a Good and Rule Abiding Child, I was APPALLED and you were TOTALLY REMORSELESS” and I was like. 1 yr old when this happened.

#literally in this case bc we just had this convo over vacation #and while my sister was going on about what a terrible lawless child I was I asked my mom #and she was like yeah you were like 1 maybe 2 #which idk aren’t exactly ages known for having a developed moral code or understanding of ours/not ours #she also did this years ago #the day she moved into her new house (& bear in mind I had been helping her prep/sell/move for weeks) #she told her entire assembled friend group how annoying/terrible I was growing up #when like. she left for college when I was 12 #so she LITERALLY only lived with me when I was a /child/ child #personal #idk why I’m thinking abt this today #like it is a little hurtful but mostly like. it’s really fucking weird???? #I’m sure I could be annoying as a child (that is human nature) #but like literally everyone else who’s ever felt the need to comment has been like ‘’you were so sweet and gregarious and then also had a #horrifying temper. but you very very sweet 🥺’’

[seasononesam]

can't stop thinking abt sam at stanford...

#no it's gonna be an all day thing #the fact that we have 15 seasons but know comparatively little abt his time at college makes me go crazyyyyy #mostly i am sad but happy but also sad but mostly happy but godododjkdjsjks FUCK he's just like me #personal

[gazeboarcade]

this week is such a mf bummer

#my littlest sister is in a bad situation and had to be hospitalized #my college friend from undergrad I just found out died abt 2 months ago #I’m so goddamn tired and it’s only Wednesday :(( #I feel very lonely bc I’m struggling to communicate about everything #and I feel like an idiot for wanting attention #I feel like a bummer and a drag #I’m just so worried abt my sister and there’s legit nothing I can do!! so that blows #school is rlly stressing me out so THAT blows #lots of big things to worry abt doing #and I can’t bring myself to do them today bc I feel so sick abt my sister #and my friend #and like work is incredibly rewarding IF it goes well but mostly stresses me out lately #but I guess at least it’s a break from school work???? idfk #I’m just overwhelmed and feel rlly shitty abt myself :( #delete later

[munamania]

OH MY GOD also guys. please literally go to any amateur theater or whatever that u can near u. i went to a live performance of the it's always sunny ep where theyre doing the nightman. or whatever. it was soooooooo silly and so fun and in that room i could feel centuries of people gathering in rooms to laugh together. this is what can save humanity

#abby talks #i want them to do another one... #then we went to this sketchy weird party. well FIRST we saw one of my old buddies at the show!!!!!!! #hes gonna help w my thesis film and then he was gonna come to the party but by the time he was ready we were leaving #it was crazy me and my friends were so high and we were just in this absurd house. fucking maze ass layout #so anyway these dudes r playing mario kart. i asked my friend if there were going to be mostly straight ppl there and well that was a yes #these two dudes trailed me until i found a way to perch in a corner with my friend next to me. anyway. these dudes r playing and bring up #brba bc of course. im sorry u guys know when we talk abt that show its extremely thin ice. bc this guy is ofc hating on skylar and we're #lit all like ok misogynist like. she was just a woman living her life with an insane gaslighting husband. but he Kept his values the whole #way thru... ok. anyway hes like genuinely getting mad like we can see him take pics of us and angrily type to someone LOL and them hes just #pissily playing the game. so anyway yeah then we went back outside. then left after watching ppl do keg stands #i get so scared for college girls. literally felt like i was staring daggers at all the guys around the vibes were just off. #anyway. so fun night. #the show was genuinely amazing im so excited to see the one person in my class this week. she played mac

[vamptastic]

it's just like. okay. when i say i like men in a gay way and women in a lesbian way i don't mean that i think straight attraction is icky or my attraction is somehow more enlightened and progressive. i mean that I've spent the formative years of my sexuality in a place with my gender presentation where people are equally as likely to see me as a man or a woman and often seem to think of me as both, and i cannot separate both my attraction to men or to women from that. ive always felt drawn to butchness because its this concept that your love for the same gender shapes your gender presentation and vice versa, but it's specific to womanhood and attraction to women as a woman in a way i can't entirely relate to. like, in many ways i am both a man and a woman, and i am attracted to both men and woman in a way both shaped by and reflected by that fact.

#there's not really a clear label for that is there #i suppose i don't need one it's just to have that cos you can find similar people #i suppose bisexual as a gender is the closest i can get #like both sexes and also attracted to both sexes and those two things each are linked to and affected by the other #i don't know. i expect my feelings on this will change as i transition and people start to really see me as a man #and not the in-between ive been in since puberty (thank you pcos combined with massive badonkahonkawonkadonks) #it's just sort of frustrating to feel like nobody gets it #like lesbians are into me cos they think im butch #a specific type of man-autistic nerds (affectionate)-seem to just see me as a regular ol woman #and when confronted with the reality that i am not seem to not really care either way about my gender #other trans people are into me and they do generally get it but not always #and gay guys are into me sometimes but i don't really pass consistently enough for it to happen often #like im not actively seeking a partner n i don't both passing day to day cos everyone knows im trans already #n binding is a living hell when you're fat with a fucking. idk the size like E or F probably. cup size. #so mostly ppl approach me thinking im butch but occasionally ppl think im a guy in photos i post and such or #strangers will ask my friends abt me thinking im a guy #but like generally speaking no matter what i don't get to just be A Man. and i don't know if i really want to be! i like being trans #and it sucks because ive missed out entirely on dating in middle/high school like when you find out who you like #simply for being trans. ik most queer ppl end up doing it all in college its just frustrating yk. cos all my cis friends get to do it #realistically speaking im p much just t4t i really only have actually tried to date trans people + trans people are hotter + they get it #which im fine with. i love trans people . just sucks to be excluded sometimes even when u don't want in

[oldyears]

mostly brain scramble rn but i feel like the reason that i’m so drawn to learning about the personal motivations of chefs/restaurant owners/recipe developers/people who are involved w cooking as their work is bc they’re like. somehow in the same vein as writing. because cooking and writing at their baseline are essential skills so it brings the question of why do we care so much about these things and why there are motivations to see it arrive at a certain place in terms of craft/artistry/etc …

#before anyone tries to misconstrue i’m not saying other art forms aren’t essential #but it’s mostly how like writing is a formative skill taught in school yada yada while cooking helps survival etc #and i guess it’s also from personal experience bc my family are not creatives or intellectuals #they have college degrees but dgaf about exploring knowledge yk… so they’re always asking why writing what’s so special abt it when everyon #is taught how to write essays and compositions etc #there is a thought here. but i’m going to take a nap #moi

[backspacy]

Not writing smut about minors is basic knowledge??!!

#random #spamblog #rambles #lalalalala!! #ESPECIALLY if you're in college or just idk an adult??? #if i get cancelled or killed #this is going on my grave. #trauma isn't an excuseeeeeeeeee #e.g proshipping <3 #or comships!! #just being a horrible person/shouting at people for no reason #i dont really like that trope in books.. #like omg!!! he was so mean and screamed at the fl for something that wasn't her fault bc he had family issues 🥺🥺🥺🥺 #ok. but did the fl deserve ur misdirected anger...? #ANYWAY #Mostly abt proshipping #oh i kinda went on a rant #some of these tags dont relate to the post at all!!!!!!!!! ^^ #i went off track #right #moral of the story #YOU WROTE IT. #may or may not be targeted?? #toxic manipulation stationnnnnn #this is just me ranting about something that happened awhile ago.... #ignore this if you dont agree with me #thanks <33 #i nearly #tagged lotf by accident..... oops #also about the screaming at people thing it's extra points if the person you're screaming at is being reasonable!!!

[fuck-kirk]

I’m in the middle of writing a long ass Danny Phantom fanfic and it’s kinda crazy bc for one I haven’t written a fanfic in almost 7 years, and for two I entered this fandom when I was literally TWELVE how am I still into it…my brain doesn’t get rid of fixations so easily I guess

#mott txt #it’s a rewrite of one I started when I was like 15. it gif good traction on ff.net back in the day #and my fav authors were following it and it was too much pressure for poor lil 15 yr old me #and the story was too involved for me to do properly back then #but I’ve wanted to redo it and finish it for SO LONG #danny phantom #it’s a story about Danny and vlad being stranded on a deserted island together without their powers #basically a long ass character analysis and Vlad redemption #it’s already twice as long as the original and I’m not even half way thru re-writing what I had #I used to be so involved in my fandoms and churn out so much content. but ever since college I’ve mostly become a spectator #which is fine bc I create a lot of my own original art in ceramics but something abt providing in a fandom and receiving feed back… #I want that again. it’s so fun #also this story has been nagging in my brain for YEARS #it’s already like 12-15k words. I won’t start posting it till it’s done bc I have a bad track record with abandoning fics #I also want to get back into writing in general bc I have ideas for novels I’d like to explore #sorry I’m like doing a diary entry in the tags. but that that’s new or anything

[llumimoon]

Dose Dot age or do the oaks just pass them down from generation to generation like an antique vase? 

HELPPP ANTIQUE VASE THATS SO FUNNY

Ok I think physically Dot doesn’t age until they decide they want to and then it’s a lil family thing where everyone goes out into the backyard and they help build Dot a new body ANSGEGAHAHAHA eventually she DOES have a young adult body that he sticks with for the rest of history. Kinda like that weird great aunt/uncle that’s just been there for AGES for the Oaks. She generally considers himself to be siblings w/ Normal and Hero though when thinking abt themself on the family tree.

In actuality Dot isn’t even mentally as young as I draw them. He is mentally abt 13ish I think, (since the Doodler in the current timeline represents the Teenage Experience), but the point of the body is for her to experience a normal human childhood. Like after the pretty traumatic first years of it’s life, sometimes they just wanna regress and be taken care of, you know? Age is SO WEIRD for eldritch gods anyways. So sometimes Dot acts like a little kid, and sometimes she suddenly gets very aware, knowing, and a little sassy.

Honestly I think the years that they spend in the young kid body spans the time that the teens are in high school. After that, they’ve emotionally healed and have grown to know a lot more about what it means to be a person, and he’s ready to move on to a teenage form that’s more accurate to it’s mental age. Maybe she even tries going to school.

#ask #willsmithsleftnut #doodle dot au #dndads #cal rambles #IVE ACTUALLY THOUGHT A LOT ABT THIS EJWBWJRJF #i Think about Dot’s age in relation to the teens mostly #like they’re always a little bit behind but that gap widens over time bc she ages slower than a human #so like when the teens are. teens LMAO they are a little kid #and then when the teens go to college and are young adults Dot is in a teen body #and then when the teens start getting older and getting married and having kids etc like think the current kiddads age #THEN Dot is a young adult #and he stays in that body for a LONG time. i think multiple generations in that body #She feels. sad making herself a new one by herself after the original generation she ‘grew up’ with is gone #so he clings to it for a long time. it’s their favorite one #but eventually they make a couple older ones although they always cycle back sometimes #and for funsies sometimes they go back to their first body as a kid and fuck with ppl HAHEGEJWHDF

[fives-girlfriend]

God I wish I could be on a different planet rn. @ any clone take me into your fucking arms

#tag vent incoming -> #god i fucking. hate. not being able to be normal abt people talking in other rooms #the moment the MOMENT i hear my parents voices in their bedroom or in the living room or wherever the fuck that isnt my bedroom #i immediately just. freeze up. i lock tf up and hone in everything into listening #searching for intonations to determine moods #waiting for raised voices #waiting for screaming waiting for crying waiting for absolutely foundation-quaking yells of fury and frustration #things have been mostly alright lately but #hell even back at college i would end up locking up when i heard people yelling down the hall #when i was 50+ miles away from home with complete strangers #but my body jumped to 'your parents are yelling again and youre caught in the middle again' #i just want one day. one day where i can feel safe #one day where i can hear people talking in the next room over and not turn into a statue intent on listening and playing crowd control #re;my post: @any clone take me into your fucking arms. please. #any fucked up backwater planet youre deployed on is better than here

[homecomingvn]

Do you have a date on when HOMECOMING demo is gonna be released?

As of right now, no. I’m currently working on a project that takes up most of my time so once I’m finished w/ that, official work on HOMECOMING will commence [15 Dec + onwards] !

Hopefully the demo will be out sometime in January / February, but I honestly have no set date or anything.

#🖤 - answered #🪳 - roachie scatter #♥️ - abt hoco #the thing I’m working on rn is a interactive fiction project [for college wahh] + is pretty chunky so that’s what I’m working on mostly rn #I do have the general outline / plot of HOCO’s demo ready - just need to write it + then legit work can begin ^^ #I dropped hoco at the worst time LOL I should’ve just done it after my other project…ah well #thank you all for your patience tho! I will try + get hoco out as soon as I can ;-;

[sodafrog13]

man the irony of trans inclusive spaces still supporting harry patter is beyond me

#this is about a few didf things but rn it's mostly abt the building i live in on campus #bc i live in the pride building which is mostly inhabited by queer ppl (w a few allies here and there) #and like. for the most part i like living there bc it definitely helps that i don't have to worry abt being called a slur like #on my way home fr class #and also bc most of the other buildings r gendered and i don't feel comfortable being in heavily gendered spaces let alone living there #but man do some of the ppl in my building kinda piss me off #like why are you as a trans person watching harry potter on the common room tv. keep that shit to yourself man #obviously i'm not gonna like you anyways but why are you like publicly announcing to the entire building that you care abt harry potter #more than you care about the comfort of the other ppl who live in your building. i don't get it #bc there's no fucking way you don't know she's a TERF. you're a terminally online person in your late teens early twenties #attending a majorly liberal college. you fucking know she's a TERF. #who fucking cares anymore man #i just gotta make it thru the next week and a day and i won't have to think abt it for like a month #the trash speaks

[luffysbasement]

hello, i'm finally distancing myself from mcyt :]

it's been really fun!! i loved drawing for everyone, for my interest and esp just interacting with you all. this fandom brought me my friends and different experiences and emotions that are rly unforgettable but i think it's time. thank you for everything, i appreciate you all! ♡♡ pls do stay safe and take care of yourselves!

(my art will remain here ofc but i will most likely be turning this blog into how it was before, multifandom, personal and just a bunch of whatever!)

#the shorter version is the post #ill be here in the tags to talk more :] #honestly im pretty grey on the situation and im just rly waiting for whats gonna happen #thats not why im leaving (mostly) i think its abt time to accept im getting tired of how the experience is of being a drm stan #i loved the man i rly do hes been with me for the entire pandemic him and his videos helped me get through it #but its kind of a bummer that just by being a fan u get exposed to antis and their nonstop scheme of just starting up shit #and that everytime something new comes up you keep hoping its just an accusation but at the same time u feel terrible and anxious anyway #ive alrdy distanced myself from twt and by extension even tumblr bc i thought if i just keep drawing and not looking at my socials those #dramas wont reach me (they still do and it sucks lol but i did get a peace of mind just being free of social media) #at some point i started losing interest in mcyt in general the only thing keeping me was drm not even mccs nor other ccs rly just drm #but then recent thing happened and yeah :/ idk what to think im lost and honestly just tired of stuff like this #thats the final straw i think i dont rly want my mental health tearing up over whether to worry abt things i alrdy stress over abt (w the #college and family stuff) and freaking minecraft youtubers fandom #i think whatever the outcome is im just over it if drm comes out innocent i dont think i can let go of him yet #so ill prob still be checking up on hm and watching him by myself #if not then thats that. #stilli cant deny the fact that it rly has been an amazing two almost three years #i hope you all stay safe and takecare of yourselves ♡ #if anyone still wants to see my art im just hanging out in my onepiece sideblog lol @/luffysbasement

[asiancatboy]

so

#a couple of weeks back i was talking to my therapist abt my trip back to my college town & how being there made me realise how much #i had changed. and how i can see that in the way i was able to navigate a space that held so much anxiety for me without any problems #maybe not completely without. but it was different. more clear #they brought attention to the fact that i'm visiting my friends again next month and it could feel the same #i've been thinking abt that ever since & idk how to feel abt it #nervous? excited? a little embarrassed over old memories and i think mostly surprised to be in this position #where i've committed to friendships for years & actually have the opportunity to grow with & be seen by #and i mean actually offline & in the flesh like damn ok why did u have to bring that up now i feel the most vulnerable i have ever felt #😭