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#this is me ranting about my weirdass life
jungwonize · 2 years
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a silly goofy post for vai, user lauvvai!
hi! i hope you're seeing this cause this is just for you 💓
let's start!
first off, i was just scrolling through my dash 2 days ago and i accidentally just saw another ramble account of yours 😵
this you? 😳🤯🤯
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i have a life outside of tumblr 🤓 i havent been talking to you much because of the weirdass anon on your page and i was surely uncomfortable 😆😆 i have a life and have the freedom of choice to choose who i want to talk to. sorry i don't spend a lot of time talking to you but that's my choice... and why did you have to drag jia into this i was literally just matching profiles w him . u dont see me overthinking when i literally see u match w ur friends ? 😅😅😅
also!
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if [redacted] is better than me, then why even bother talking to me 😳😳🤯🤞 i dont need your concern if you're gonna go shit talk me for the dumbest reasons in your rambles acc and then act all nice in my notifs
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theres a reason why i was being dry to you anyway. you think i'm stupid or something? wake up. how was i even being rude to you in the first place... i just don't want to talk to you. and of course i'm gonna be nice to anons unless they're being a bitch in my inbox💀 if you can act all two faced, well so can i. don't even apologize for caring about me — i don't need it. i never needed it in the first place when literally all you do is rant abt me for the shittiest reasons!! also, friendly reminder;
we aren't dating, vai.
so why are you taking this so seriously? we aren't a thing, we never were. you just liked me, i just liked you. i never planned dating you in the first place, and the way you're treating this whole thing makes me feel guilty or whatever. but we're just friends. friends who care about each other, or at least, ex friends who cared about each other, cause i don't think i can be friends with you after this.
all this shit makes me uncomfortable and guilty to the point i don't think i can reciprocate my feelings, it's all just annoying. you're annoying me and pissing me off. at this point i ask of you to not talk to me again. not to mention the fact i realize that it hasn't even been a month during the time you confessed(?) or overall just happened to like me... which seems off
anyway hope you enjoyed this post lawl no rbs needed i made this out of spite and annoyance 😁😁 vai if you can post shit abt me then so can i . wld take it to dms but who knows how'd you react,, i'm tired of your two faced ass
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tired-lupine · 3 years
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Apologies if the pun was inappropriate, I just wanted an excuse to use your name and to wish you to feel better
you're fine dear, I'm just dramatic and honestly people using my name still makes me so happy so like truly it's all good
#the pun just made me sit and stare into space for a while#but like i've been visiting my family and living with them for a month and have not really told them i changed my name a year ago...#or really anyone else in my life either for that matter so my old name is being used for my on a daily basis and it's driving me a bit#crazy so people using del for me is extra nice at the moment#i mean i should definitely tell the people in my life what my actual name is but im scared to do it so uh yeah#procrastination and avoidance is how i deal with life#i mean ive never liked my name and it took me 21 years ti change it#and now im not telling anyone and just having a weirdass time with it#but i cant with the questions and possible negative reactions i just can not#ive told like 2 friends and those are people i rarely hang out with anyways#i should correct people at uni but uh i prefer to be as unnoticeable as possible? or not unnoticeable but as convenient as possible i guess#wow im really making my own life that much harder and for what? anxiety? weak of me#so yeah this was my long ass rant about name frustrations sorry about that and also im sorry if i made you feel bad about the name pun#i was just kidding but tone is hard to read in text and i know it's hard to know if you've overstepped as an anon#but if anyone ever does and believe me people have ill either not reply or ill make it clear in my reply/the tags that i did not like it#however all the unanswered asks sitting in my sad little inbox are unanswered because i haven't had the time or energy to properly answer#none are unanswered because i dont like them#just wanted to make that clear if someone who knows they have an unanswered ask happened to read that and get stressed#because i know i get stressed when my anons dont get answered so im sorry abiut that#ooc#ask#anon
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yourdaddychan · 3 years
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wow-
literally just wow- i genuinely have nothing to say about this please- i cannot explain how much this means to me- there's 1000 of us- *hugs all of you* [ especially the porn bots ] *turns into formal luna asf*
i remember when i started in may, just a tiny chatbot with only one mutual, only known to you guys as [ answer : admin ]. and now, almost a year later, i have 1k of my chainsaw eating demons who are metal as fuck 💪ive learned so much being on tumblr, as a part of both the skz writers community and the chatbot community. ive made a bunch of friends, lost a bunch of ones, and 1k of you stuck with me. i cannot begin to express my gratitude to all of you, and how much all of you and your interactions with me mean to me. all of the simping, the random stories, everything. i cherish all of it, and i love all of you. aight so letz get to the personal thanking asf
alsoer i kinda wanted to do something sexy so imma do what color they remind me of :D most of them can be found at this link : https://louisem.com/29880/color-thesaurus-infographic
@kvinly linn bb 🥺through all the drama we've been through and shit im so glad we ended up becoming friends again cause we're kinda sexy together 😉thank you so much for being my 1000th follower bb you mean so much to me and if anyone hurts you im about to *turns into jennie and kachows them* licherally lets nevah fight again
-> you remind me of the color punch , and not only because of the name- underneath that grr me edgy grr me bully you're just a softie simp and that reminds me of punch :D
@undeadbots steph 🥺lemme be your personal broken chopsticks pls :( KLDSKLD anywayz we've also gone through some sexy drama and thankfully you saw da light 😉and now look at us, with our own band, and our own producing line 🥺brohemian rhapsody for life bro 🥺 *big kithie for da best dad in da world :D*
-> you remind me of the color viridian , because it gives me confident vibes :D you carry yourself proudly and confidently as you should tbh go steph
@binniesthighs oh look its a cutie *pushes you to a mirror* right there :D RORORO YOUR BOAT :DD we havent talked too much, besides my simping for jisung- but you give me very sexy energy so imma propose rq *gets down on one knee* will you be the rororo to my boat 🥺thank you for being my moot :D
-> you remind me of the color espresso , because espresso looks like the color to be pretty chill and laid back, and you're all of those, and calming to be around
@toshis-flower BAYBEE BEBE BEEBEE :D thank you so much for being my moot and making me a wifey asf ‼️ you're literally so much like me whats not to love <3 JKSDJKD JKJK you're really sweet and really just a good person to rant to, i love you so so so much and i think im going to remarry you :D
-> you remind me of the color taffy , because you're sweet, cute, and bright :D *eats you* yummy
@lov3ric seyoung. i love you. so much. MY SOULMATEEEE :DD even though we tell the story over and over like a bunch of grandmas, ill still never forget how we became soulmates and then bonded over boba 🥺im licherally going to marry you one day like ez 💪also i wanna eat you can i eat you youre really cute *eats you*
-> you remind me of the color daffodil , because it reminds me of banana milk which reminds me of you tbh- buuuttt did you know that daffodils are one of the first flowers you see when spring starts? that definitely reminds me of you because through all of the cb drama, you've always been there with me, like literally always- i cannot express how much i love you *kithie*
@simpchimp LIDDLE CHEESE FUCKER THEMBO :DD drink water *spank* i love you so much you cutie 🥺you're also licherally the funniest person ever like stop bae i kinda need to be the funniest but noer its you 😔alsoer i love how random you are KDSKLD so nevah stop that because then *revz up arm* youre going to get luna-ified
-> you remind me of the color jam , because even though you seem kinda scary at first [ yes i was 100% scared of you ] you're really soft :D
@berrywoo the sun themself 💪you are easily the purest person ive met, and im so happy i somehow became moots with you :D you literally hit diff, yk? theres something about your personality and the way you act thats so comforting, and that means i eat you because youre too cute :D you cant just be a wholeass teacher for kids and expect not to get eaten kids are licherally demons whoever deals with them properly and treatz dem nicely gets a nom asf
-> you remind me of the color honey , because you're a sunshiney yellow, and you're sweet like honey :D i think you need to hear that its okay not to be okay bb, and you can come to my dms anytime you want to rant 😎
@yourchungha MS OG CHUNGHA MS IM KINDA SCARED OF THE SHIT YOU DO MS FURREH LOVER 101 MS ANNA BANANA :D yeah youre like really nice- thats all i have to say- like how tf do you deal with [ redacted ] like eggsplain- ALSO YOURE CARRYING OUR CONVERSATIONS BECAUSE IDK HOW TO TALK TO PEOPLE DKSJKD I LOVE YOU FOR THAT AND WE SHOULD HAVE LIKE ACTUAL CONVERSATIONS MORE OFTEN
-> you remind me of the color scarlet , because youre a sexy bitch tf and scarlet gives me 'idc what you think im hot' kinda vibes which is like exactly you
@satosimp WINTER DADDY :DD i lub you asf *insert we dont talk anymore by charlie daddy* ugh the way your personality matches mine is kinda sexy or whatever im also kinda in love with you but lets ignore that part 🙄 💪 *big kithes* *eats your cats casually*
-> you remind me of the color lilac , because it just gives me tsundere vibes, you act like you dont care but really do care :D you liddle sawftie *noms your cheekie*
@nightshade-minho DUCKIE :DD *insert we dont talk anymore by charlie daddy pt 2* licherally bae where the fuck are you i miss you you bettah be doing well in school otherwise im going to smack you with a chappal asf DSJJKSD *eats your cat because hes such a cutie*
-> you remind me of the color marigold , because you're adorable and sunshiney :D
@onigirimeeya MICHIE MICHIE MICHIEIEEIEI MY DAD :DDD i like you mucho much if you didnt know *kithes you* you're like one awf da best listeners ever- which is such a weirdass compliment but its true- you're really good at listening, and just being a comforting presence in general, like when you go to the beach and youre just staring at the waves all edgy mode, and it calms you down a fuck ton
-> you remind me of the color mint , for obvious reasons- mint choco chip cookie michie :DD
@hhjs bae we dont talk a lot but im kinda lurking on all of your posts- JKDSJSKD bae remarry me please youre really fucking hot 😭and the way you have with words is like damn- teach me oppar asf
-> you remind me of the color wine , because you're refined, and carry yourself in a way that makes everyone want to be you. the color wine is rich and deep, which reminds me of the way you write :D
@nsfw-stay MY LICHERAL BABIE YOUVE BEEN AN ANON FOR SUCH A LONG TIME AND WEVE TALKED ABOUT SO MUCH SHIT TOGETHER [ a lot about seungmin and jisung but shhh ] I LOVE YOU SO MUCH BB AND I WILL NOM YOU >:( BUT SOFTLY AND OUT OF LOVE *nomz yew* :D
-> you remind me of the color cerulean , because its a baby blue and what fits better than a baby blue yk? you're adorable and squishy and i want to nom you 24/7
@secretary-yeji *iz chan ig cause we dont talk admin to admin* oh erm gee is uncle chrith 😉DKLSKLD my liddle koala :D my liddle burgah :D my liddle aussie :D my besth frien :DDD evah since may i think we've been friends, and i think one of the highlights of that day was me marking you as spam twice and on accident too- LKSDKLSD WE DONT TALK ABOUT THAT anywayz thank yew for being uncle chrith's friend *kith*
-> you remind me of the color seafoam , because it's a very soft and light color yk, you're delicate asf which sounds like a bad thing now that im typing it BUT IT ISNT DSKLDSLK YOURE VERY CUTE YOU AND YOUR FLOOFY COWS :D
@ayolistenupp im kinda... in love with you? wtf? KDSDKSL MY DESI DADDY ASF I LOVE YOU SOER MUCH :D our music nights™️ mean so much to me, like theres just something so personal about listening to what the other person likes to hear even though half of your songs are sexy asf KLDSKLD
-> you remind me of the color ocean , because the ocean is loud but calming yk- like you're full of energy but you're also calming :D
@yanderexchungha OH ERM GEE YEW :O YOU PROBABLY WONT SEE THIS IN LIKE 10 MONTHS BESTIE MERRY CHRISTMAS IG KLDSLKD anyway i love you dad your lessons about vape >>> to quote your drunk ass exactly "vape isnt cool" JKSDJ anyway its gonna be sexy if we accidentally run into each other in the hallwayz asf
-> you remind me of grey cause youre a hag- JKJK KDJSD you remind me of the color caramel , because you're sweet, and licherally addictive caramel isnt good for my braces but i keep eating it 😰but youre addictive in a good way :D
@yanderelee literally only doing this because you were moping about not having a simp sunday and im such a good person 🥸you're cool 💪and unfortunately, you're funny too 😥and even though i bully you asf dont take it personally because i dont mean it asf
-> you remind me of the color dijon mustard because you just give those hacker vibes please dont hack me after i said this i like to keep my location private
@kpopswitchbot BESTIE 😏MY FIRST MUTUAL 😏 LICHERALLY DA BEST CUTEST FUNNIEST SMARTEST SEXIEST KEWLEST I CANT EVEN EXPRESS WITH WORDS FISHIE IN DA WORLD :D LICHERALLY STOP OUTDOING ME WITH YOUR GOODNIGHTS LIKE *spankz yew* YOURE LITERALLY TOO GOOD WITH WORDS ITS NOT FAIR- AND THE DAY YOU JUST TALKED TO ME IN SHAKESPEAREAN BECAUSE I FELT DOWN- AND EXPRESSED YOUR LOVE THAT WAY LIKE- PLEASE I ACTUALLY ADORE YOU AND I WILL LITERALLY EAT YOU ONE DAY
-> you remind me of the color coffee , not only because youre addicted to it but also because of the way you act, you're like the definition of an old soul- with the words you use, the drama kid you are asf, etc- you're a talented bitch *mwah* i love you so much you also remind me of those movies where they find an old ass book and they kinda hafta dust it off and it gives you treasure or something cause yeah that reminds me meeting you
AIGHT DAS IT ASF MWAH I LOVE YOU ALL :DDD
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bookwormythings · 3 years
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2, 6, 9, 25 for salty asks! Whatever fandom you need to rant on (i have an idea what it is, go for it and enjoy!) :)
I have only been truly salty in two fandoms in my life: Game of Thrones and The 100. I am mostly over both of them now, but I will say this, while I will be 100% over GoT eventually and may even rewatch next year, I will never be able to watch The 100 again. That said, I'll answer this for both of those dumbass shows.
2. Are there any popular fandom OTPs you only BroTP?*
For The 100, Murven is the first one that comes to mind. I just don't like them or get it. To be honest, I am not at all convinced that LM and RH had the chemistry to pull it off, but even if they did, having someone who is disabled be with the person who disabled her just feels wrong on so many levels for me. I don't like it and the development wasn't on the show for me to even contemplate.
Game of Thrones on the other hand, had a few that come to mind but one I absolutely don't understand what people saw in Theon and Sansa. I thought Sophie and Alfie had wonderful chemistry but I didn't see it as romantic at all, but they for sure saw each other as comrades and kindred spirits. I do not get it.
6. Has fandom ever made you enjoy a pairing you previously hated?*
Clurphy all the way! My special Slytherin pals! Clarke and Murphy should have had a solid relationship on the show but they didn't and if you had asked me about them just based on what I saw on screen, I would have been so confused by the thought. Fandom, especially fics, have just opened my eyes to them and now I can't close them at all. I love their sass together and their weirdass dark humor. Love them now and I won't be stopped.
Jonsa is the one that comes to mind for Game of Thrones. I was grossed out by the sibling thing on the show and how Jon so clearly saw her as his little sister even if I do think Kit and Sophie could have pulled it off if the writers wanted to go there but it was once again fic that made me love them.
9. Most disliked character(s)? Why?
Both have so many and for so many reasons, I don't even know where to begin.
The 100, I don't like Lexa and Echo. They both were thinly veiled strong female characters clearly written by men and were so underdeveloped their motivations rarely made sense. They had almost no characterization that was consistent and anything to love about them has been created by fandom and projected onto the screen. Neither were the feminist icons fans like to pretend they were and both were bland at best.
Game of Thrones, Ramsey need I say more. I also have no love for Stannis and Bran. Both of them were just sanctimonious assholes who thought the sacrifices others made on their behalf was worth the greater good because they died for them and they were special. Both of them were just god awful rich white men. Bran being disabled went no where in the story at all for such a big part in the first season and Stannis killed his brother for power and there was no redemption for me after that. Anyone who does anything for power is just a dick. Also, the moment Bran said, "Why do you think I came all this way." I knew I was never going to be able to rewatched without hating and resenting him.
25. How would you end XXX/Would you change the ending of XXX?
All of season 7 of The 100 sucked and it would be too complicated for a single post. Mostly, I would not concentrate on a stupid green space fog and a cult that came out of no where and focus on the closure for our characters. I don't how any decent writer would spend their last chance to be with their story and focus on a different story and characters for a potential prequel. You get one chance to say goodbye and this is what they choose and it makes no sense and they have no integrity or creativity.
Game of Thrones is easier in the sense that my biggest gripe was the pacing. Season 8 started too slow and then went way too fast. They didn't let the needed development for their ending to make sense exist on the show. They needed a few more episodes or a whole other season to really let that story breathe. That and I would not make Bran the Broken (an offensive thing) king and I would give Jaime the respect of his development deserved. Other parts of the finale I almost understood.
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*takes deep breath* Lala hon stay the hell away from any ditch near you- and I confiscate any ditch-digging tools you may have on hand. You're such an amazing person, and such a kind soul, okay? You're so sweet and nice to talk to, you have a great sense of humor and you have a big heart, despite the fact that you can kick ass if necessary. If you ever feel like crap hmu, ok? We'll talk ABOUT Hottie Blackthorn- I mean science all day if you want! Sending you so much love! ❤️
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I guess it’s sad boi hours now huh? Hug me right now, I love you so much 🥺😭❤️
Also the ditch was for research purposes I promise :)
Thank you for being here and listening to me rant and ranting with me and just overall being that lovely figure I just now have in my life. You share my weirdass humour and I love that because we can talk and procrastinate work for like 3 hours together and it’s just hilarious. If anyone looks at our texts they’re in for one hell of a ride lmao.
Also, I know you adopted me but you’re enrolled into my Protection Squad. Imma protect you at all costs you beautiful bean ❤️❤️
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thclcstgirl · 4 years
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URL LOVE: okay... maybe me?
Send me a URL to love on || always accepting especially when I’m buzzy 
YOU??? How can I possibly fit all my feels about 4 four years of friendship, like 3 years of bestfriendship, countless plots, muses, stories, chats, rant seshes, sleepovers, screaming sessions, in person meetups and A SHITTON OF LOVE into one stupid little ask post???? 
Here goes: Ashley is The Best person I know in my life. Hands down, easy decision, best person I know. She’s loyal as fuck, smart as hell, she’s the kindest, most patient person ( you’d have to be to choose me as your bestie lol ) I’ve ever known and will probably ever know, and for some weirdass reason this happy loving person wanted ME as her best friend???? I don’t get it but in my own brand of friendship I would kill anyone that looked at her wrong, and in true Foxie-brand loyalty, would follow her to the ends of the earth. 
Although... if you wanted to start eating dead people we’d probably need to have a serious talk, I’m js. 
ANYWAY. All this to say that this girl is my ride or die and idk how I got so lucky but dang I’m glad for it <3333
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New Moon in Capricorn plus Solar Eclipse! 12/26/2019 or 12/25/2019 depending on where you are
Hi all, how were your holidays? I hope it all went great 😁 tonight's or today's new moon with eclipse is going to be in Capricorn (check the rising time for your timezone. Also, if you're gonna wait for the solar eclipse, it is mostly gonna be around West Asia going southeast. As for me, I'll be waiting for it to be at its peak, hopefully there would be a clear sky later)(update: it's effing cloudy 😢), and it's going to bring in energies that will not only help you move forward, but also help you energised and motivated. It's particularly strong because not only is it the moon phase for manifesting, with this solar eclipse, portals are gonna get opened, so more energies are gonna come in, so it's best to capitalize on that for the changes that we need, as well as want. And moving on to the new decade, in a week, Capricorn energies will only get stronger because of so many planets moving in to this sign. Might as well harness the power of the ever moving sea goat.
As a natal Capricorn moon myself, I could already feel the extra energies, it feels nice. So if you want to recharge, revitalize, reinvigorate your motivation, your personal strengths, and more so the willpower to get material stuff (because Cappy is an earth sign, which are all about the material realm and its rules and tangible things) now is the best time to harness the Capricorn energies (it IS Cardinal earth after all, and as you may or may not know, cardinal signs are movers, shakers, pushers, pioneers). Time to initiate stuff you want, and you can combine that with mutable energies from the full moon in Gemini's energies, so that you can achieve the fun, positive changes you want in your life. If you're also transmuting karma, low-vibes, having a subconscious healing or reboot, stuff that heals and nourishes your entire being, then please do keep at it. Cappy energies are here to help you push through despite the annoying feels. I don't know about others, but as I went through my karmic detox from the Gemini full moon up to this point, I felt through so much change, but I am doing my best to be excited about it. Especially the healing part. So if you're also on the same journey, I wish you well, because it's gonna be great! 😁
The stuff below is my personal reflection aka just ranting and raving lol feel free to skip below unless you want some weirdass insights 😈
Speaking of Capricorn, and it's friend Saturn, they both don't get great reps. I mean, when you think about either one or both of them, it's always the toiling, the suffering, the harshness, the having to endure hardships, working your ass off and nothing seems to change or improve, or the change is so minimal it's negligible. Basically it sucks. And believe you me, I also think of it too, despite having uber-strong Cappy energies in my own chart lol the irony of it all 😂. And this month we had full moon in Gemini too, so I guess I'm just too biased with the moons this month because I'm a Gemini sun with a Cappy moon, and boy oh boy is that an effed-up combo. Based on my experience, it's hard when you're readily excitable and super-dazzled by new stuff - the Gemmi side, but then you are also compelled to finish whatever the heck you left undone - the Cappy side. There's a guilt either way. I also complained a lot on having to learn things bit longer than others. I mean, as a Gemini I could safely say I'm OK with general concepts, the big picture, the overall composition. But as for the nitty gritty, for digesting the details, I'm a bit of a slow processor. I envy some Virgo peeps in this aspect. I mean, they're fellow Mercury peeps aka sign also ruled by Mercury but I guess their groundedness from being an earth sign gives them that edge. But it's something that I have come to terms with, and I just channel the bulldozing energies of Capricorn for whatever needs to happen for me in that aspect, instead of using Virgo energy (no offense to all Virgo peeps, I love you all but I'm not particularly chummy with those I have met in real life. They look nice from afar, and I could only love them from afar, without any interactions. Unless their moon or ascendants are of a sun sign I enjoy being friends with, like uhm, I dunno, Aquarius, Cancer, Pisces, Scorpio, sometimes Taurus, sometimes Sagittarius, or Libra, and weirdly some Capricorns, and if I failed to mention some other signs, yeah lol I don't even particularly enjoy fellow Geminis unless again, their moon or ascendants are in the signs I mentioned, cause that's a game changer. Lol nothing personal OK? *hugs*). Not because I dislike some Virgos (it's also the sign of my 12th house, the house of hidden enemies and secrets lol I am slowly disclosing my natal chart bit by bit lol zero regrets), but it's just that because I do have strong Capricorn in my natal chart, which took me about 2 years to process and integrate into my system, and finally found the answer as to why I can be too stubborn in certains aspects of my life, yeah, it's a hidden strength to count on. So despite me hating on having to bear the gifts of Saturn (through both Capricorn and the numerology of my name, uurrrrhgh), I guess it's something that I am doing my best to integrate and not reject anymore. Even if it's a bit harsh. So if you're also a lunar Capricorn and for some weird reason you resonate with my stuff, hugs and love to you.
We've come this far, and we can keep going. We're freakin seagoats, with SWAG 🐐 ♑🆒
If you're still here reading this, thank you. 😢😢😢
I hope this post served you well in this season, or in any other season if you read this at some point in the distant future. I pray you find the healing you seek, because you WILL.
Love and hugs,
三日月🌙
Mikazuki
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thorn-amidst-roses · 5 years
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I'm just...so disappointed today. Longass rant warning, but oof.
So my parents shuffled me off to a religious school from 4th-12th grades. Without going super into details, I had a very bad time there (when you're joining a school at age 9 and your first question is "can I wear the boys' uniform instead of the jumper" and they respond only with a disgusted snort, you know you're in for a wild ride...and that was just the beginning).
The school never met my needs, and my home life was unsympathetic - this school was attached to the church my mom went to, and for her it was all about Keeping Up Appearances and making sure I was representing her well.
There was, however, this one teacher who seemed to get me. She was there for no end of frustrated adolescent bitching, whether it was about my parents doing this-or-that or even just my braces hurting. Even when I left her classes, all the way up to 12th she kept her door open for me (which honestly probably saved my life, a young queer kid always in the same class of 7 other students who are afraid of getting your weirdass cooties). Out of the entire faculty, she was the only one who ever stood up for me, or didn't punish me for asking a question that challenged religion or, as teens can be, was intended to provoke.
We didn't agree on a lot of things, but in some ways she was kind of my hero, my example of "a good Christian".
Fast forward to adulthood, fifteen-ish years later, we're FB friends still. I start seeing the MAGA posts...ha-ha, well, she's older and conservative, let's let that slide. And I mean it's expected she'd be anti-abortion, right...?
Nah, today all her posts are blasting Dems, propaganda shit about how they want to allow post-birth abortions, literally just moms going "oh gosh this baby is more than I expected to have to deal with" and doctors going "that's okay I'll take care of it". I've TRIED to explain that she's been lied to, here's the truth - and she throws back with the whole "there is literally never a situation where abortion is a valid treatment where birth wouldn't suffice" - she's silent on the matter of ectopic pregnancy.
Then today, ohhh god today she comes out with anti-vaxx propaganda, and I'm done. I'm so done. I always thought this woman was a bastion of reason in a sea of insanity, but fuck me for having faith, right?
I don't know if she's just gotten more entrenched with age, or if this was always the monster lurking beneath the surface, but I'm just so, so disappointed.
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antirealisation · 5 years
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11 Question Ask Meme
I guess I was tagged by @karlacton​? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
1. What is your favourite kind of imagery/metaphor?
Fire. This is boring and predictable but like, lol, in my defence there’s a lot you can do with fire.
2. Is there a topic (or anything in particular) that you could talk about seemingly forever? If so, what?
BEST WORST SURVIVOR JAMES FUCKING LOWRY, APPARENTLY?
I think I’ve gotten to the point where I have enough to say about trauma/dissociation research, and more importantly, the ability to completely change my mind and argue against my past self, that I could do that forever, lmao. (Like, “Levine’s Somatic Experiencing is based on some weird assumptions that people seem to accept because they ‘feel right’, but also it’s legitimately helping people and it’s not like the rest of psychiatry isn’t based on some weirdass assumptions too, but also fuck “trauma is only about the body,” but also maybe there is an extent to which that’s an all-around better model than what we have now??”)
3. Are you a creative person? If so, through what medium do you express this?
Hahah, I’d like to think so? I think it’s been writing mostly, lately -- sorta alternate between writing poetry and drawing as the Main Two Things. 
Our Google Keep is full of all sorts of poems that I don’t really care to post. I should probably find a better way to organise those.
4. Are there any books that you currently want to read or movies/shows that you would like to watch? If so, what?
I keep thinking about Killing Eve (especially since we literally just saw on ad for it -- on twitch?) Watching a TV show feels like such a huge investment, though, doesn’t it?
We’re also gonna read more VanderMeer things. :V
5. Do you believe in fate, or in signs? To what extent?
Haha, ask again later? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ I think half this dang blog is a deliberation on that, lmfao. 
6. What relationship dynamic/trope do you keep coming back to, again and again?
Heck.
Owner/Owned seems to be The Main One, especially where that relation (possession, if you want to play with the semantic slippage between ghostly possession and ownership, which of course you do) is leading to some sort of massive rearrangement of values, morals, priorities in -- I was gonna say the Owned one but lbr I like mutually destructive obsession spirals from both parties.
Actually, you could probably also say “mutually destructive obsession spirals” is its own thing, since it can happen without the power dynamic, lmao. Every so often, it’s just a “cry about the Alpha Couple” sort of night, you know?
7. Are you currently working on any projects? How is it coming, and what inspires you while you’re working on it?
Not reaaallyyy. Unless “Control and Lowry completely falling apart in Area X AU” becomes a goddamn project. I have lost control of my life.
There’s always the weird level where, like, okay there’s only so much time/effort I’m allowed to have for my own projects, sharing a body and all. But I also think that’s probably just an excuse.
8. What is your favourite poem and what do you think it’s about?
Stopping by Woods on a Snowy Evening by Robert Frost (And miles to go before I sleep)
I’m. Not even sure what I really think it’s about? It reminds me of Traveling/Wandering.
(Ace is pointing out that I get really into songs largely for the meaning in their lyrics, but then my favourite poem is just one I like on a more aesthetic/formal/sound sort of level, however you want to put it. lol)
9. Apart from the name(s) that you currently use, what would you like to be called?
I can’t think of anything? I don’t particularly avoid telling people what they should call me, and you all know the main names I use here (Serpent, Soldrin, Tristan), lol.
10. What discourse is currently raging through your community of choice, and do you care to weigh in with your opinions?
SHIPPING.
We’ve kept well away from syscourse lately, lmfao, but shipping discourse finds its way through all sorts of communities, doesn’t it? Admittedly we do also follow freedom-of-fanfic and shipcourse on twitter, so we, especially I, do seek it out a bit sometimes. But like, even our dash sometimes contains jokey posts that also sorta point to some anti-shipping, anti-kink background (as in, literally one just now), and that’s more frustrating than just knowing there’s some self-contained population that want to cover their ears to your existence.
Goddamn, I’m not gonna do some sort of massive takedown or rant, tucked into some ask meme isn’t the place for it, but considering that I said earlier that my fave dynamics are literal ownership, guess what side of “problematic” my ships tend to fall.
I joke that, if anyone is allowed to complain about Bad Shipping, it’d be the fictives that introject from them -- in which case, I also still get to complain and say that shipping awful things is okay, lmfao.
11. What things do you personally associate with your general aesthetic/~*Image*~/etc.?
Uhh I try to reblog most things that feel ~aesthetique~ to me. Fire, canines, nature paths, sunsets, red. Certain sorts of angel symbolism, ouroboros.
You know. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
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I don’t know if you do asks but I wanted to ask anyway. I’ve been reading holy nonsense and I really like it (especially cramulus and reverend Roger) but there’s something that’s been keeping me up.
What do you do if you’re too sensitive for The Revolution™️? I struggle with depression and anxiety and Idk maybe I’m just a little bitch but there’s all this talk about dying for freedom and fighting for what’s right even when it’s helpless, and I just can’t do that! Like, I have a pretty cushy life and I still struggle with doing basic tasks. How I could I even begin to help others, let alone die for them?
I can’t even make like small sacrifices or anything because of this shit. Can’t watch the news because if it’ll make me miserable. Can’t donate a significant amount to any charity because I don’t have enough. I can’t be homeless! I can’t just suddenly stop using technology and go vegan.
I keep reading all this stuff like “Are you really awake? How could let THEM do this to you?” And I literally just have no energy to stop them! I’m the idiot that just lazily prays for change because there’s nothing else I can do! I just feel awful because I feel like I’m nothing people need me to be.
I just feel weird because I want to be this martyr that’s saves everyone or inspires some kind of change. I wish I could just cast it all aside and leave society like roger could but I can’t. I don’t know what to do.
So, for starters, please take Breathe and You Are Enough to heart. (pages 206 and 208 of HN2020)
I'm not Roger, but at this point I'm much more involved in activities that you might consider to be The Revolution than he is. I spend a lot of time yelling at nazis and putting my body between protestors and cops. I also have done grassroots lobbying (the kind where you talk to your reps directly, not the creepy paid industry kind). I've worked on political campaigns, run for local office, gotten pepper sprayed, I even delivered a dramatic speech on the Concord Battle Ground in the pouring rain. One time I made a video and people in another country painted my words on a banner they carried. Not saying this to brag, I just want you to understand who I am so maybe you'll believe the next part.
Sometimes, surviving is all you can do. It doesn't make you a bad person. Just being your weirdass self is doing good in the world. It's doing a lot more good than hating yourself for failing to be a Good Martyr TM.
That said, it feels good to do good for others, and I bet there are some things you can do now, and some things you may be able to build towards. This is a long list because it's a "throw it at the wall" situation, you try a few things and figure out what's doable and what's sustainable:
Attend a town hall or similar gathering for your state representative
Attend city council or town meeting
Ask at city/town hall or the library for a calendar of local events (or check to see if one exists online) and choose one or two that sound interesting to you
Print out posters or art and post them on lampposts
Make chalk art in public spaces
Wear a dumb costume somewhere on a day that is not Halloween
Sing, preach, rant, or recite poetry in a public square
Give $5 to the homeless guy
Start a conversation at the bus stop
Attend a march with a friend (if you want specific pointers on how to pack and what to expect I can expand on that)
Read or otherwise consume anti-racist materials
Watch garbage tv/movies from another country with subtitles (live action only)
Be open to educating others about your experience, and listen when others offer their experiences
Write down what your values are, and ask people you trust for ways you can more closely live them
Another thing you can do is to provide emotional and practical support to people who are temperamentally equipped to fight on the front lines for the things you believe. One time I came back from a counterprotest to a warm meal from a friend who wanted to hear all about it and help me decompress, and you cannot believe what a game changer that is. There is more to The Revolution than the stuff that makes the news. Sometimes, it's a plate of meatballs and a warm cup of tea.
In the end, though, you don't have to turn yourself inside out and you don't have to crush yourself into a tiny little ball to minimize your impact. Living is not about making yourself small, it's about blossoming into whatever you were meant to be. Keep being kind to yourself, keep trying new things, and for the love of all that is good on this green earth,
keep breathing.
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fadedtoblue · 6 years
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Thanks y’all -- ranting about it on here and then eating a nice dinner was enough to get that out of my system. Honestly, it’s not that I don’t already get constantly rage-y about all of the blatantly awful stuff going on all the damn time, but my fandom is my happy place and seeing that shit sets me off :p.
thegunlady replied to your post: I personally try not to feed the trolls and haters...
Also don't smash Karen. I may not ship it but smashing sounds very "Wham, bam, thank you ma'am." If he's gotta fuck her he better give her a good time. I'm firmly hoes before bros.
HA, thank you for providing another perspective. If it wasn’t super clear, I was also annoyed on Karen’s behalf, like come on...
island-in-the-shadows replied to your post: I personally try not to feed the trolls and haters...
Sounds like this was a, pardon my language, fuckboi.
AH, yes, that’s the term I was looking for. 
ducavalentinos replied to your post: I personally try not to feed the trolls and haters...
oh don't engage with these folks, imo they're blinded by their sexism. no matter what good reasonable arguments you present to them, elektra will always be "a fucking bitch" to them. it's a problem I encounter in every single fandom unfortunately.
Sage advice, my friend. To be honest, DD is the first fandom I’ve been active in after a very very long break (not since college), and probably the first one where it hasn’t been majority female -- not that women can’t be assholes too, but the blatant misogyny around my favs this time around is so annoying / depressing / fill in the blank. Probably best I don’t linger on it...goodness knows I don’t want or need to waste precious moments of my life confronting this idiocy. 
omi-kenobi replied to your post: I personally try not to feed the trolls and haters...
You know when someone ends an argument with “smashing” then you know that they are sexist pigs who degrade women.
RIGHT? 
significantowl replied to your post: I personally try not to feed the trolls and haters...
Ughhhh looking at it, it's so OTT I almost wonder if it was for troll effect?? Like some kind of weirdass response to the "why do ppl hate Karen" stuff going on? IDK
It’s certainly possible (like who says smashing, seriously, tell me) but I guess I’m not inclined to be very charitable in my reading since it’s the same kind of stuff I see slung around as reasons to not like her, just put into a particularly misogynistic word sandwich, which makes me think it’s probably their true opinion...they just also happen to be a sexist asshole to boot. 
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abedsnerdir · 7 years
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I’m gonna put my Itunes on shuffle and write some synopsys for Greys season 14 eps based on the song
Because the writers are basically playing this game already anyway
14x01 Some Might Say
Following the events of the explosion, April meets a fireman from Shondaland’s new and EXTRA af show about Seattle firemen so people actually watch its first season and April Kepner is ratings material. Maggie tries talking to Jackson about their feelings, but can’t because that’s who Maggie is- she instead tells Webber. Owen, Amelia and Riggs go talk to Megan, but she has big time amnesia, so they don’t really know what happened to her. Meredith is telling everyone she’s okay with the Riggs things even though she’s not given that she has identity crisis when something’s not about her, so alex is on meredith-watch this ep. 
14X02 Pompeii
Oh, shit. Okay so there’s got to be this specific Meredith voice-over about how cadavers in Pompeii are still basically untouched since the vesuvious erupted, and how that’s a metaphore for something- for Megan. She doesn’t remember what happened to her, so nothing changed for her. But it did for everyone else (omg). Jo treats a patient with terminal cancer who could have gotten better treatments but was experimenting on himself to see how far his trial could go, just like that dude who went to see the volcano for the science of it. She’s mad because he didn’t tell anybody, when he could’ve been helped- which is an analogy of her own life etc etc
14x03 Heaven Knows I’m Miserable now
Okay, I know this is like an insane idea, but what if Alex and Jo actually had a conversation? Bailey and Webber are working together because their relationship still needs restauration. Leah Murphy is back because since Stephanie is gone they need a character to be Jo’s friend. Maggie goes ask April for dating advice and April yells at her because I mean boundaries, she is not going to pimp jackson out for maggie. Amelia is trying to figure out what happened to Megan’s brain. 
14X04 Try (just a little bit harder)
Amelia finds out something shocking about Megan’s past, and she wants to try hypnosys  to get all the story out of her. Deluca screws up and kills someone, because I really need him to leave. Arizona is anxious to see Eliza, who is visiting her on the weekend. Maggie finally gathers the courage to talk to Jackson, but gives up after spending the day in surgery with him and hearing him say he sees her as a sister when talking about how much he loves his family and that’s it, the end. Then she runs into Deluca after he just got fired and they kiss and get tgt again and leave the hospital forever. Bye felicia
14x05 Kick me when I’m high
Amelia saves Megan from whatever infection she had contracted that gave her amnesia. Everyone’s happy, but then we find out Megan’s still pissed at Riggs for cheating on her, which makes Riggs emo, which makes him cry at meredith’s shoulder because for real no character can pick anyone over meredith grey. Amelia finds out she’s pregnant and freaks out- luckily, April sees her taking the test, and they talk through it together. Even though they should’ve had the “my baby died hours after labour” conversation seasons ago, they can still have it now so April can comfort amelia and guide her through the pregnancy. Eliza cancels on Arizona, who hits on Leah, who shuts her down because of what happened last time. We find out Leah made an abstinence promise until she becomes a surgeon. 
14x06 Something’s gotta give
Jackson is jealous of april and 4 dimensional love interest from the new shonda show. Alex helps Jo with asking for divorce. Meredith and Riggs have ~a moment~ or whatever. 
14x07 Mr. Brightside
Oh my god yasss
Okay so this means Jackson is even more jealous. Owen is emo about Megan so April helps him bringing in a weirdass trauma case. Meredith is annoyed with a terminal patient who is a ray of sunshine and loves everyone; goes on one of the dark and twisty rants to Amelia. Amelia tells her she’s pregnant and Meredit’hs conflicted about it because she cannot just let people be happy. Arizona tells April she and Eliza couldn’t make it work. 
14x08 All tomorrow’s parties
Amelia is scared of getting an ultrasound. Leah tells Arizona she wants to be a fetal surgeon. Alex goes to see Mr. Schuester from Glee again so Jo doesn’t have to and this time ~reveals~ himself. He and Jo make up. Meredith is bitter because she is Meredith. Catherine wants April to oversee the Avery Foundation’s investments around the country. 
14X09 You stayed at home
Jo Wilson centric episode- at this point I’m just rolling with my fantasies lol. We get to see her living in her car, meeting abusive Glee-man, we see a bit of their relationship- nothing graphic but like so we get the gist- and in the end we see her FINALLY sign her divorce papers and break down in alex’s arms because she’s free, and then Alex asks her to marry him and she says yes, so they go to city hall and get married and stay tgt for ever. Also “home” is such a symbolic word for their relationship so thank you shuffle. 
Okay, not that I didn’t have fun doing this but one must not dwell on dreams and forget to live- or, like, the shitshow that this is actually going to be...anyway I’m tired sorry
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wearethegladiators · 5 years
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this rant was a fail but i am still going strong
few things i wanted to say include:
WHY IS IT ALWAYS 7 YEARS
why is everyone so serious this is SAD
ok kids, so today we’ll be ranting about......... *crowd cheering* YES, WYNONA!! (why. am. i. like. this. j’ai des pics d’excitation d’enfants de 3 ans ptn)
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(if you’re asking “is this the new wynona?” hm. HM. i mean............)
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(the hairstyle. the outfit. the environment. WE STAN.) i’m not entirely convinced by older!raven as incendio3!wynona. but i guess WE’LL SEE, that’s not the focal point.
the important thing to remember about wyn (bc it’s tragic and we all love a good drama) is that she didn’t want to be part of this war. she didn’t want to fight. she was neutral with even a possible tendency to work with the deatheaters to protect her family. it’s always been family first with the blackbirds.
now, what happened to wynona during the war?
well she did surprisingly good for a while. she joined the rebellion “temporarily” (mdr) to help rescue sacha. and.... caught up by her wish to make the world a better place + the need to stay close to sacha + the whole edan storyline + (eurm) (nathan)...... she pretty much got stuck/stuck herself.
she’s a warrior, she’s spirited, she’s hella smart and has an impressive réseau (always thought she may have coerced kyran into giving her plans of the ministry, and then would have proceeded to show up to the rebellion with those - allowing them to attack). so she’d be a valuable element, and she’d fit in well i guess? she’s a bit of the stereotype of the rebel imo. and she would def like it even though she wouldn’t say it.
she’d go back and forth between the domain and the headquarters of the rebellion. becoming good friends with carmen i guess? (i also love to fantasize about a weirdass friendship between carmen and lily. started from rivalry to mutual respect/companionship. ofc this would be more complicated now but... WAIT WHAT IF CARMEN BECOMES SORT OF A MEDIATOR BETWEEN NATHAN AND LILY??? i’m sorry. i’ll go back to this later hihi)
WYNONA. she got involved gradually, taking part in fights and bigger events involving explosions :’))
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on one of those missions, one day, she’d be super badly injured. it would happen during a sort of “7 potters” thing? like she’d be flying on a broom (DRAGON) and she’d get hit by a deatheater. fell pretty hard, lost one (or both) of her legs.
(i like how i’m illustrating this like it’s some kind of nice little story)
wynona always had two nightmares throughout her life: losing a kid and losing her legs.
she’s an athlete. she hungs out with athletes. she’s a duellist. she has a super physical job which includes taking care and controlling among the deadliest magical creatures out there. she’s a “mother” of 8. she’s a control-freak that FREAKING hates relying on someone else. she is passionate about flying. and now what?? she can’t do any of these things without her leg(s). it’s like her whole life is losing purpose.
you sad already?
well she certainly is. more than that - she’s destroyed by it. she can’t see why she should keep on living (remember that wynona is a very utilitarian character - if she has no purpose/utility then she’s just as good as dead in her opinion).
so that’s depression, edgy behavior, pushing away the people she loves (sorry sachou :’()
btw, about her relationship with nathan: well, some stuff happened. to what extent is a good question. i’m pretty confident she’d have developed actual feelings for him by now (but would never say it ofc mdr). anyway, he’d be important in that moment.
wynona is an engineer. she was working on two PHDs AT THE SAME TIME before she got involved with the rebellion. ofc she’d be trying to build something to get better, even if magic can’t save her, even if she’s so damn low. i could see nathan helping her with that? eventually they’d find something that’d help her gain some mobility back. she’d be BEYOND excited. way too much tbh.
(also i have this absolute headcanon that - ELO PLS SAY YES - nathan is helping her with the kids too)
(i actually have a way too precise scene in mind. one night, wynona is working on her thesis at the rebellion’s headquarters. nathan walks by and sees DRAGOOOONS. she ends up explain she’s doing her thesis in magizoologie bc she wants more dragons for her domain. he’s excited. she eventually brings him to the domain. he sees dragons and is beyond excited. byeeeee c’est tout pour moi)
ANYWAY
she’d insist on going back to the battlefield. quickly. too quickly. would be upset because people are overprotecting her because of her legs; could get captured or something but that wouldn’t last.
THE BIG DRAMA IS YET TO COME
hmhm. here we are.
remember wynona’s worst nightmares? hmhm.
with wynona being more and more involved in the rebellion, she may have rapatrié the kids from hogwarts. they may be living permanently at the domain, or coming once in a while at the rebellion’s headsquarters. anyway, they would have been in touch with the rebels
and one of the kids (i don’t know which one yet) would manage to make it to the battlefield. guess what? ofc he/she gets killed. and wyn cannot do anything because of her leg
here we areeee, she just reached her personal hell
remember the blackbird dynamic of “blood must have blood”, “there’s honor in revenge”, “revenge and justice are the same thing”, “judge, jury, executioner” and so on and so forth?
she’d track down the murderers. show up to their houses to kill them. she had a plan: torture and kill the parents. she didn’t plan on hurting children. wynona is the Biggest Savior of Child™ there is. except that.... she would??? she’s beyond fucked-up at that point. so yeah, she slaughters the children as well.
i have pictured multiple times in my mind her coming back to the QG covered in blood and everyone going silent. everyone knowing.
she would go to nathan but even he couldn’t forgive her ofc?? their bond would be broken because he can’t understand, he can’t forgive (i guess??? or is it just me wanting angst??)
i don’t even know if she’d be able to maintain a relationship with carmen. like this is some kind of terrible violence right here
so i guess she’d be marginalized/ejected from the rebellion. she’d go on a personal vendetta for a while, not being able to stop the killing spree, before joining a rogue/extremist movement. totallyyyyy fucked-up.
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and this is pretty much what would have happened up until the end of the virus: rogue!wynona, with still some distant connections to some people (sacha, nathan, lily...? helping her with the kids. i mean, she can’t make it without them hihi)
btw, i’m working on the relationship between wynona and lily. as odd as it can sound, i think lily could understand. especially now. they’d still have a connection, maybe stronger now. like i can see lily calling wynona when burning the bodies of her family and having a breakdown. alright now i’m excited abt it
after the virus: wyn is getting tired of this shit just like everyone else. she’s feeling f*cking guilty bc YES SHE HAS FEELINGS TOO
i mean, she pretty much did all this horror for love, for her kids
and she’s lonelier than ever. wynona isn’t into loneliness. she likes being alone when chosen, or being surrounded by her creatures, or being independent. but not freaking loneliness.
btw: she’d only be calm/soft around her creatures. yeah. and potentially her kids, but even that would be hard. the kids would be scared of her and this would break her even more
edan coming back would be a HUGE gamechanger. she’d rush to sacha of course. having someone to support and coming back to this old role of “good protector” would give her old vibes. that’s the opening of her resilience arc
i really really really want a resilience arc for wynona. she’s done horrible, unspeakable things and now she will always be about fire and destruction and blood. but she’s not a bad person. she deserved better.
doesn’t mean she will be a hero, especially if she ends up snapping on edan
this would be the trigger that she went too far and that she’s got to stop
she’d go back to the rebellion
try to let go of her “murder” and “absolute chaos” habits
reconnect with nathan?? that would be very very very important for her. if he can forgive her then maybe she can forgive herself and move forward
she was only a mother who wanted to save the world. she’ll be forever haunted by what she did. she deserves B E T T E R
also this may be interesting to work on her relationship with carmen, esp. since they both went down a rogue path
also i’m so happy about sacha having his dragon !!!!! jealous too tho cause i wish wynona could have one and ride it :’(
“question: how do you make a monster stop feeling so monstrous?
you give her something she can hold in her palms without crushing. you give her something sweet and tell her to keep it.
you wipe the blood from her hands. you say her name, over and over, like an absolution.
you forgive her. you forgive her. you forgive.”
alright that’s all for me kiddos!! let me now cry tears of despair over my tragic babies, thanks. i’ll be back for a small thread about the environnement and lily/nathan relationship?? (ANGST there will be) love u elo :’)
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jadedamber · 7 years
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The Snow White and the Huntsman
Today was a bear, I just got home, so I'm going to try and cheer up by watching Snow White and The Huntsman and writing down my reactions. And then posting it. Disclaimer: I'm not trying to piss on any actors or actresses, nor infringe on anyone's fandom. Pls take any and all hating elsewhere. Thx. Also, I'll try not to spoil major plot points but obvy if you don't want any spoilers, probably stop reading now. Let's do this then. Princess bby, your mom is not feeling well, the last thing she needs is an unsanitary bird in her face. Whoah king bro! Dudeness. Chill with the nuptials. You literally just pulled this lady out of chains, do you really feel that this is a fair and unbiased situation for said lady? I'm so uncomfortable right now. Honestly am not blaming her for that, um, unconventional reaction. Aaaah, the queen reminds me of my current boss in the heebiest-jeebiest way! Snow White = Царевна Несмеяна apparently. That slide into the sewer is pretty badass though. Hellooo nurse, I mean horse. A random horse conveniently on the beach. Ok that was a one trick pony apparently. And now she's having a really bad trip, what even. The Queen's rant is so extra. Jesus lady, you gonna strangle herself with your weirdass headdress. The first look at our hero is, well, underwhelming. He got nothing to lose and … ooooooh what a thing to gain! Dudeness, don't fall for it! Necromancy never ends up well. Where does a simple huntsman learn to fight like that? Dude, no shit, did I not tell you not to trust the Queen? Princess bby, who taught you to bargain? You got it all backwards. If the guy's ok to do it for 30, don't offer a 100. I mean, that's basic math. It's Robin of Locksl… nevermind! False alarm. Oh, hello! Hi! ☺️ Haha! It's hilarious because she's royalty. And he does have a point. The king could not keep it in his pants, and now the whole economy is shit, the ecosystem is shit, there are ppl dead. Hello again, William. You have a hell of a way with job interviews. Ok, mr Scraggy Huntsman. That was a fucked up instruction, and the princess should really take it with a grain of salt. MACHETE!!! TROLL!!! When confronted with a terrifying hulking beast, my instinct, too, is to yell at him. Holy shit it worked!!!! 😲 I guess that's why I'm not royalty. River ninjas? "Are you bad guys?" "Us? No." "Ok then" "Why didn't you tell me you're a princess? I only bitched about your father ruining everything like half the time." Also, not to be judgy, but the river ninjas hairstyle makes no practical sense. FIRE!!!! How the fuck did they find them? Meanwhile in Queen's head… things just got darker. Damn lady. May I suggest therapy? DWARVES????? Really. Also, is it possible to get some kind of geopolitical map of the area? I'm very confused as to whose jurisdiction is where. Why are all the dwarves speaking with different accents? FAIRIES???? TURTLE!!! Argh! They are one tribe, why do they all have different accents?! No I can't let it go. Language is important to me. Really? Dancing? Hawkward. He feels lovely! Ok, now the princess has healing powers? What. CGI magpies! Argh! Creepy fairies! BUNNY! Gooooo towards the liiight! TURTLE! Oh deer. Is she… walking on water? Careful with the antlers. What. "She is life itself." Hashtag religion. Magic deer gets shot in the middle of blessing The One. We refused to ask for directions, and made the wrong turn into a Studio Ghibli movie. Hello William 😊 OMG dude!!!! How dare you bring up his wife, so uncalled for. Totally deserved the impalement. Oh, and now we get to feel sad for a bit because in this movie the good guys die too. Oh hello William! Hiii! Hello. Everyone in this movie is full of guilt over something. At least it's a theme. Themes are important. Also magpies are a theme?! For some reason? Holy shit the Queen. So extra. Where did they find the furs in the middle of wilderness? Like, has it been long enough for Eric to kill, skin, and cure some hides? Could we get a time frame on this? Oh hello two hot guys having a heartfelt conversation about the girl while watching her as she sleeps. SNOW??? Is that… is that supposed to be symbolic? "How do I inspire?" Lady, I'm also very interested in the answer to this question. WILLIAM??? The fuck is wrong with you, William! I did not see this coming. What did you do to William?!! BIRDS!!!! Aaaaaahhhhh!!!! William don't cry honey! Aw, Chris don't cry either! William pls don't kiss unconscious women. It's bad manners. BIRDS!!!! Aaaaahhhhh!!!! Omg that's so gross. The makeup/costume departments did so well. That geopolitical map would be very handy now pls. Why are we now in a castle keep? Whose castle is it? Chris, I mean Eric, where are you going with that speech. Eric honey. Heimlich! Not kissing. She's out cold. WHAT. WHAT. WHAT IS THIS SHIT. Will bb calm down. Grief has never made anyone see clearer. Princess. What are you even. We need strategy! Planning! Like maybe some… What are you saying. Ooooh another symbol "embers must turn to flame" like in the beginning of the movie when she literally did that while locked up. Eric dude why are you looking pleased as punch, they're about to go get slaughtered. I admire the actress who plays the queen. To keep a straight face throughout is quite impressive. OMG just literally realized/remembered it's Charlize Theron. Wow. Hello Chris I mean Eric. Dang that smile is devastating. Just use that as your weapon of mass seduct… I mean, you know, as a weapon. Certain demographics will be decimated. Go dwarves!!! FIREBALLS!!! Who even fights like that. Why is the castle deserted on the inside? The princess apparently had time for a sort of elaborate hair braiding but not for coming up with a plan to deal with the Queen's magic. Oh my God you guys. Holy fuck shard warriors. Queen bby, when I say you're on fire, I don't mean it metaphorically. Pls pay attention to your surroundings. KNIFE!!! What. Really. "You can't have my heart" No REALLY? We didn't get that through simply following the events that transpired. Thank you for the explanation. Happy ending! HI RIVER NINJAS! Hi dwarves! Oh hello William! Always a pleasure. GASP ERIC. You sure clean up well. Though you might've dressed up a bit for the occasion. TEXTURES!!! CREDITS!!! Those who managed to get this far, I thank you for following my journey. It's been real.
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gemmysdiary · 4 years
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Rainy Summer Day
Hi! Good morning! I’ve been sleeping at 11pm or 12ish pm and wake up at like 5 or 6am and honestly it makes me happy to not have a weirdass body clock during the “break”. I’m such a morning owl! I really really love mornings since I’m the only one awake at this time. I get to be silent with my thoughts along with the cold morning breeze and the chirping of the birds around the street (AWERL POET KA GURL?) 
Right now, I’m just drinking coffee outside while listening to my chillout playlist, looking for new mods and admiring the environment outside. Honestly, the annoying ass influencers are kinda right about covid being a blessing and a curse lmao. Also shoutout to batch 2021 cos we had like 2 waves of 4-month summer break LMAAAAAOOOOO.
I’m really happy, calm, and relaxed especially since I don’t have to worry about fucken citi recruitment process. That shit really gave me intense anxiety issues for a month :( Also, the compensation is thrice of grab so yea gurl THANK GOD.
 I’m also happy cos I get to like write my feelings without any word limit cos it’s hard to do it on twitter plus im shy and i feel like people judge me all the time. Anyway, I deleted my old rant cos I just dont feel safe sharing my life with people who judge me and laugh at the shit I say. 
The best combo rn would be: hot coffee, rain, 7am & sitti’s songs. 
Xoxo, 
gemmae
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montykyreblog · 6 years
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like this evening i was making it through the last couple hours of work and was conversing with a few ppl in the break room. one of these guys, nick, casually mentions things that relate to his social life, like how he knows people going down to florida or some guy who threw up on st patties or w.e... it made me feel really shitty because it reminded me of how fucking lonely i am. but now i can share that here.
it felt so good just to get that out. i wanna rant about how lonely i am but eh. on the drive home i started recording myself because i was talking/singing to myself. drove past home and kept driving because i had to keep singing. had to let it all out somehow, so i sang and screamed and cried.
fuck there are so many thoughts that i feel like getting out but i don’t know where i would begin in my explanation of all the context behind a question that i might write down.... like:
ya know what never mind now that i let off a little steam here i think i’m good.
although i do want to mention that i felt bad about feeling bad about being utterly alone when all ive wanted for so long was to have friends and fit in. so i bought a 6 pack. it’s funny though, i think i seemed drunk/high before i even started drinking lol. like i was doing weirdass shit which had me worried that i was going crazy but now i realize it was just that i hadn’t let it out all day. i hadn’t been able to express myself at work so it was just bottled up... that sounded crazy didn’t it. fuck.
well... i’ve figured out the trick to not killing myself: not thinking about how i’ve turned out. because one of the reasons why i was going to kill myself back in the day was that i felt there was no recovering from what i’d experienced and i would be more or less what i am today.
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