#this is going to ruin me

[chelsiegeorgia]

I managed to get tickets for the Sonic Symphony in London asdfghhjkl! September could not come quick enough! 

#sobbing! #screaming! #dieing even! #sonic the hedgehog #sonic #sonic symphony #sonic symphony world tour #art #fanart #trying to get these tickets was the most stressful thing I've ever been through #but i got em #this is going to ruin me #in the best way possible #my friend will have to scrape whats left of me of the theatre floor #ahhhhhh I can't wait!!!!

[riverunderneaththetraintracks]

how mortifying and wonderful and horrible and terrific and truly truly fucked it is to feel yourself falling in love

#enby #enby nsft #t4t nsft #t4t #lgbtq #queer #queer community #transgender #queer ns/fw #trans #transgirl #fuck i’m a mess #this is going to ruin me #i just know it

[coolbeans495]

Fucking FINE. I'll play Honkai Star Rail.

ARE YOU HAPPY MIHOYO??? THAT I'M DEFINITELY GOING TO LOSE MY MIND OVER ANOTHER ONE OF YOUR GAMES???

...I will be back with updates...

#I've been trying not to #I've been trying so hard #i have been doing every other piece of content in genshin that i possibly could #but i keep seeing shit about the free 5-star character Dr. trigonometry or fuckin whatever #and i. i can't do it anymore. #he looks amazing #the game looks amazing #and everything i hear about hsr is glowing #this is going to ruin me #i already spend hours and hours playing genshin and it barely has any content left for me to do #so now I'm DEFINITELY screwed #........my sleep schedule will never fucking recover #hsr #honkai star rail #god fucking damn it what have i done

[sosclancy]

6 MINUTES OF PALADIN STRAIT?? 😳 😳

#I'm going insane #This is going to ruin me

[roimp]

man i need to learn how to be happy for others

#this is going to ruin me #gargi is keysmashing

[sixteen-juniper]

writing

My long fanfic has spiraled out of control. When I write a book I can control myself, but here I’m like ‘no rules, fuck the man’ and then I have 75k words of bullshit that I love and can’t stop writing and there’s no one but me to pump the brakes. And I’m like ‘fuck the brakes! full speed ahead!’. My main pairing was supposed to meet at 80k words but that’s in 5k words and no one is ready and I can’t stop myself!  it’s the worst trolley problem ever!

#writing #fanfic #I'm saying fuck story structure! #this is going to ruin me #there are no rules #they'll need to suffer longer

[macadam]

Really thought I gottem with that ratchet post…

I was annihilated within 5 minutes

#mac mumbles #watty…… #this is going to ruin me

[cows-wearing-my-sweater]

FULL SELF TITLED SET HAPPENING IN 2023??????

#this is going to ruin me #the 1975 #at their very best #2014 core

[softlyspokensternlysaid]

When the first episode of The Magnus Protocol goes live I hope all of you know that’s the only thing I’ll be able to think about, and I’m gonna be horribly annoying about it. Im obsessed. Im so sorry for the amount of spamming I will be subjecting y’all too.

#the magnus protocol #the magnus archives #im so screwed #this is going to ruin me #nice

[thatonevenusian]

Us:

- Moon square Moon

- Sun square Sun

- Sun conjunct Chiron

- Mars square Mercury

- A shit ton of 8th house synastry

Me: 🥰🤩😍❤️❤️‍🩹

#astrology #synastry #this is going to ruin me #i blame my 12th house venus #and pluto

[ava-valerie]

#brock lesnar #my gif #i have serious issues #this is going to ruin me

[elliewlums]

gna watch beautiful boy tn and start the book tomorrow

#this is going to ruin me

[inkskinned]

what is with men being mad any time a woman raises her voice where did that even come from. someone posted a video of a small electrical explosion, and the top comment was of course the woman screams. the second comment is women try not to scream challenge, level impossible. i had to go back and watch the video again. there is, somewhat fainty, a little gasp emitted off-camera, more of a yelp than a scream. it is mostly lost in the crack of the explosion. afterwards, you hear her voice, shaken, say, are you okay?

i am helping one of my friends train her voice pitch lower, because she wants to be taken seriously at work. she and i do each other's nails and talk about gender roles; and how - due to our appearance - neither of us have ever been able to be "hysterical" in public. we both appear young and sweet and feminine. she is cisgender, and cannot use her natural voice in her profession because people keep saying she appears to be "vapid". we both try to figure out if our purposeful voice lowering is technically sexist. is it promoting something when you are a victim to it?

a storm almost sends a pole through a car window. in the dashcam, you can hear the woman passenger say her partner's name twice, crying out in alarm. she sounds terrified. in the comments, she is lambasted for her lack of calm. how is that even fucking helping?

in high school, i taught myself to have a lower voice. i had been recorded when i was genuinely (and righteously) upset; and i hated how my voice sounded on the phone speakers when it was played back. i was defending my mom, and my voice cracked with emotion. it meant i was no longer winning the argument: i was just shrieking about it.

girls meet each other after a long summer and let out a little joyful scream. this usually stops around 12-14, because people will not tolerate this display of affection (as it has the effect of being passingly annoying). something about the fact that little girls can't ever even be annoying. we are trained to examine each part of our lives (even joy) for anything that could make us upsetting and disgusting. they act like teenage girls are breaking into houses and shrieking you awake at 3 in the morning. speaking as a public school educator: trust me, it's not that bad, you can just roll your eyes and move on. it does not compare to the ways boys end up being annoying: slurs in graffiti, purposefully mocking your body, following you after you said no. you know, just boy things.

there's another video of a man who is not allowed to yell in the house, so he snaps his fingers when he's excited about soccer. the comments are full of angry men, talking about how their brother is unfairly caged. let him express himself and this is terrible to do to someone. eventually the couple has to address it in a second video: they are married with a newborn baby. he was trying not to wake the infant up. there is no comment on the fact women are not allowed to yell indoors. or the fact that it could have been really alarming or triggering for his wife. sometimes i wonder if straight men even like women, if they even enjoy being in relationships with them.

for the longest time, i hated roller coasters because it always felt inappropriate and uncomfortable for me to scream. one of my friends called me on it, said it was unusual i'm so unwilling. i had to go to my therapist about it. i don't like to scream because i was not raised in a safe situation, and raising my voice would have brought unsafe attention towards me. even when i am supposed to scream, it feels shameful, guilty. i was not treated kindly, so i lack a basic form of self-protection. this is not a natural response. it is not good that in a situation of high adrenaline - i shut up about it.

something very bad is happening, i think. in between all the beauty standards and the stuff i've already discussed - this one feels new and cruel in a way i can't quite express. yes, it's scary and silencing. but there's something about how direct it is - that so many men agree with the sentiment that women should never yell, even in an emergency - it feels different.

is the word shriek gendered automatically? how about shrill or screech? in self defense class, one of the first things they tell you is to yell, as loud and as shrilly as you can. they say it will feel rude. most women will not do this. you need to practice overcoming the social pressure and just scream.

most women do not cry out, even when it's bad. we do not report it. we walk faster. we do not make a scene. what would be the point of doing anything else? no matter what we do, we don't get taken seriously. it is a joke to them. an instagram caption punchline. we have to present ourselves as silent, beautiful, captivating - "valuable."

a woman is outside watching her kids when someone throws a firecracker at them. she screams and runs towards her children. in the comments, grown men flock together in the thousands: god. women are so annoying.

#warm up #writeblr #this one has bothered me for a bit #any time a woman does something even passingly annoying we treat it like a fucking crime #hey man. women are allowed to be annoying. everyone forever is allowed to be passingly annoying #as long as they aren't hurting anyone/thing #like u wanna know something? i find it super annoying that men don't wear seatbelts #why arent there thousands of comments on driving videos thats just like : men try not to die in a car crash challenge #''this briefly annoyed me''. okay??????? AND????????????????? go get ur self a cookie and calm down about it #ur not entitled to control other ppl's experiences and emotions just so u can maintain ur own peace #if being briefly annoyed ruins ur whole day! you! need! therapy!!!! #men try not to become immediately angry about nothing challenge: level impossible #ps author is nonbinary. we didn't even get into the gender presentation thing #the fact men think it's SEXY that my voice is on the lower end....

[mercuryallen]

i just watched a little tiktok essay on johnny and they were talking about how johnny can’t even blame him not having a partner on his superhero lifestyle because sue, reed & ben are all able to manage it and i

#IDJMEZJDJSKSKS #this is going to ruin me #idk just the idea that so many heroes can at least use that to shield themselves from the pain of feeling unlovable but he can’t

[lotus-pear]

cringefail exes oh my god

#sry for not drawing skk for four posts here u guys go. eat up #“i hate bsd so much i'm fucking LEAVING” i say as i make no effort to disassociate with the fandom or the show #i miss how i used to view skk😔😔😔😔😔 the silly lovers to enemies who are still clearly infatuated w each other after seven years #their backstory ruined me i hate it here #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #bsd #dazai osamu #osamu dazai #nakahara chuuya #chuuya nakahara #soukoku #skk #lotus draws

[talisidekick]

If a transgender person asks you to deadname and misgender them in front of certain people. Misgender them and deadname them in front of those people. It doesn't matter how icky or gross it may feel, it doesn't matter you'd rather be honest. It doesn't matter if there's more of you there. Certain people aren't safe, and honesty IS NOT the best policy when honesty could put them at serious risk. It doesn't matter if there's a crowd, because when there isn't shit goes down.

Be an ally, do what they ask. Understand that the trans person knows more about their situation than you do, and this includes who's safe and who's not. Some one can be "trans friendly" to other people, but not to people they know or specific people. Do as the trans person asks, yes it's uncomfortable, but it's 10 times worse if the person we don't trust finds out. 100 times worse if they have access to us when you're not around.

Respect trans peoples safety. Misgender and deadname when asked.

#trans #transgender #lgbt+ #lgbtq+ #2slgbtqia+ #lgbt #transfem #transmasc #transneutral #there is a post about this on my blog but it reminded me of my own situation #my whole family knows I'm out and I didn't want them to #my entire extremely christian catholic and mormon extended family knows because I let my sister tell my parents because we weren't talking #now I live in constant damn fear I'm going to get a message forwarded from family to the point I blocked my own parents #these are dangerous people who will stop at nothing to ruin my life if they find me so I'm going to ask I get deadnamed and misgendered #in front of them #i'm going to lie that it's a joke so I can live my life in relative peace.