#this is fucked but if I could actually fucking cut off my chest i wouldddd

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It's been a bit since I've been so unbelievably dysphoric but holy hell I literally don't want to fucking exist right now

#this is fucked but if I could actually fucking cut off my chest i wouldddd #but i know that i cant and so now i just feel incredibly hopeless about it because im never going to be in a financial situation #where i can afford or stop working to get top surgery ://///// #i fucking hate my physical form so muchhhhhh #i wish i had the body of a pre puberty kid againnnnn #literally just feel so fucking gross and if it ever gets resolved its definatly years awayyyy #and im really at the end of my rope with itttt #im so fucking sick of binding and still feeling fucking dysphoric about itttt #dysphoria #trans #quarantine vents