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Hi, I know I've been MIA for a while, but since the news about the cancellation of Shadow and Bone broke I've been sad and I need to let it all out. I've come to think of my blog here like a safe haven, so there's no better place for this.
These photos are of the very first original amigurumis I've ever made (sorry for the first photo, I hastily put it together just for this post because none of my photos seemed good enough). As you can see they are some of the characters of Shadow & Bone: Alina, the Darkling, Inej and Kaz. This was back in 2021, when the show premiered. Back then I had never heard of the Grishaverse, but when I saw the teaser my curiosity was piqued so I gave the books a chance and I LOVED them. After so many years on a reader's block and at a time in my life where I was struggling to get by, I had something new and exciting to look forward to. I loved the show (watched it twice in a row, actually), I loved the cast and I loved everything surrounding the Grishaverse. I even convinced two of my friends to read the books (and I regret nothing) 😂
I was so thrilled I HAD to do something, to create something new inspired by the Grishaverse. At that moment I had been crocheting only for a year but I thought I could try and see if something came out of it. That's how I crocheted Alina, my very first bookish amigurumi. It's not my best work, sure, but till this day I'm so very proud of the result. This was my first attempt at designing an amigurumi, I felt like I was improving my craftsmanship while honouring one of my favourite fantasy sagas. So I kept going, I crocheted the Darkling, made changes to get a better design, started putting more effort into my photos, even replicating the show posters. I kept growing my collection, adding Inej and Kaz and taking fun photos of all of them.
I didn't get far in terms of interactions and likes with them but I didn't care that much, I was just genuinely elated that I was creating something new with my bare hands and that was my priority.
And after them, I stuck to the book amigurumis. Created new patterns and characters, got more involved in photography and photoedition, and strived to do better with each new amigurumi. I got happier too, the thrill to create and share not only my craft but the books I love the most has been the best part of these last three years. And none of that wouldn't have existed without Shadow & Bone, without Leigh Bardugo and her universe, without that amazing cast and all of the writers and staff that have worked tirelessly to bring the Grishaverse to life.
So yeah, I'm heartbroken it has come to this abrupt and unfair end, especially when there was just a season left. In a way it feels like putting an end to a part of my journey as an amigurumi artist, this first part in which I was fumbling to learn and create something new. And as sad as it is, I want to say thank you too. It's not much, but it feels right to use my small amigurumi kingdom and reach to say thank you to everyone involved in the Grishaverse. You've made me unbelievably happy in so many different ways that I have trouble putting it into words.
Thank you as well to everyone who has taken a bit of their time to like, share and leave comments about my Grishaverse amigurumis. You helped me believe in my work and gave me strength to keep crocheting.
I will always remember the first time I showed Alina and the Darkling to my best friends and we talked about how I could crochet the rest, and which ones they wanted to see the most and "omg what if one of the actors noticed your work?????". It will never happen, but imagining the possibility still makes me feel a bit giddy even after two years.
If you've read this far, thank you to you too and sorry for my silly ramblings ♥️ If you love S&B too I'm free to cry together about all of the things we will never see on screen anymore.
P.S.: who would've thought that little me having a crush on Prince Caspian (aka the great Ben Barnes) would have ended in crocheting plushies inspired in book characters??? Not me for sure 😂
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thesmokingguns · 1 year
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Picking Peach Chapter One
Warning: Minors DNI 18+ does have a small oral sex scene, talks of age gap, mental health, cheating
Word Count: 6470
A/N: Sorry this is so long. Part one is here and I plan on writing more of this this weekend. I hope you all like it <3
July 16, 2021
Ben POV
Peach? Who was this Peach everyone was posting pictures of and wishing a happy birthday to? All these pictures of a pretty blonde with a smile on her face that could solve all the problems of the world. She was gorgeous and that was putting it lightly. She seemed to know everyone but why didn’t I know her?
There were pictures of her out, never a drink in hand but always in some shade of pink like she was a young Anna Nicole Smith. She seemed younger than 27, but that was what everyone was wishing her. A happy 27th. 13 years younger than me. Lucky 13. Her arms around Instagram models and her arms around rockstars. And her lips on…Nikki SIxx? Well… that didn’t seem to fit.
A quick follow on Instagram before some  more web sleuthing and it turns out she had been with him for nearly a decade. The age difference of thirty six years made me blow out a breath. Even in Gold Diggers the age difference hadn’t been that big. This was a lifetime. 
But the way she looked up at him and how he looked at her…he knew that he had something in her. Lucky old man. 
Still…
‘Happy Birthday “Peach”. Surely that can’t be your real name?’ 
I sent the Instagram DM, looking around the airport like someone would know I had flirted with someone else's girlfriend. Was I flirting? Maybe.
My heart leapt when I saw that she added me back, a quick red heart from liking my message showed up and my pulse quickened as I waited, watching her type and then ‘Thank you. Haha. Nikki called me Peach years ago and it just stuck.’
No name. Nothing and for some reason I hated the idea of calling her Peach. I needed to know her real name.
‘But if you promise not to tell a soul…Sasha Jade.’
I smirked at this, licking his lips as he tasted the smile on my face. My  fingers typing out a new message to her. I just needed more, this magnet pulling me towards her for some reason as I waited for my flight back to LA
‘I’ll take it to the grave. Happy Birthday, Sasha Jade.’
She didn’t respond, just liked the message but it was enough for me now.
Peach POV
My real name. What a curious thing to ask for. I sat back, smirking at the idea of someone in the world knowing me by my name and not a nickname that Nikki had given to me years ago and I had got stuck with. How curious Ben Barnes was. This handsome British actor I vaguely knew about. Very handsome. Very good looking. Not young young but young enough that Peach was interested.
“You’re smiling at your phone, birthday girl.” Nikki’s hands were on my shoulders as he leaned in kissing my cheek. My hands went over his hand as I closed my phone not needing him to squint over my shoulder at what I was doing.
I was so tired lately.
“Mhh, Sami was texting me about LA being too crowded. She is buying a house in Colorado so she can survive the zombie apocalypse she is sure is coming any day now.” he laughed into my ear and i forgot all about that man sliding into my DM, turning to wrap my arms around Nikki, feeling his lips on mine as he kissed me. 
It was nice being home. 
The pandemic last year had been a difference in our lives. Before the pandemic we would travel and get to see the world together. But being forced to stay still as the world went to hell changed us. Nikki was looking for things to do and my anxiety got out of hand. I was so nervous doom scrolling the news that I had to go to a new therapist and NIkki insisted that I do an inpatient at a private hospital for a week until I calmed down. 
It wasn't the first time Nikki had guided me like this. Sometimes my feelings were too much and he needed me to take a break. But sometimes it made me afraid thinking when I would feel too much again. 
“I might go lay down for a bit.” Nikki was pulling away, frowning at me as I said this and I wondered what I had said that was wrong
“Really, Peach?” I blinked, confused as I saw the way his face darkened, “You know I’ve been working on my book. I took today off for your birthday and you just want to sleep?” he scoffed as I stood up, wrapping my arms around myself as I watched him walk away from me, having to chase after him. 
It was always me running after him.
“Nikki, please. What do you want to-”
“I’m going to write Peach. Enjoy your nap.” his office door shut as I frowned, pressing my hands to my eyes as I thought about screaming. 
Everyone thought I got everything I wanted but all I got was locked doors and the taste of my own tears. It was nine years with Nikki this coming September and yet instead of being solid I felt shakier than ever. 
He would be touring again and I felt sick at the thought; when I was 21 Nikki toured in 2015. I was finishing up school and couldn’t come with him but it was when Instagram was big, so I saw the pictures of him cheating on me online. It was the first time my emotions got too big for Nikki and he found me a pretty little place to stay in Malibu where they kept me calm and I talked about how I could be better. 
I forgave him. Of course I did. He had taken care of me and I was young, and thought it was my fault for not being there. I took the blame for his faults. 
But now…thinking of the tour he was going on again…I was sick. 
Pulling the blanket over my head I breathed in and out, pulling out my phone and feeling my cheeks pink as I reached for my airpods, pressing them in as I started scrolling through Instagram. 
Why had Ben Barnes DM’d me?
Mutual people we followed. Posts he might have seen. And- Oh…a like on a picture from 2015. What a finger slip. I smirked as I slid back to my DM’s, glad he was looking at my pictures so I didn’t make this awkward.
‘Deep Diving, I see. Anything you’re looking for?’
Ben POV
Fucking bloody hell. 
I had been jostled on the plane and my damned finger hit a photo, liking it. And not even ten seconds later there was a message from Sasha showing up to show that this was not going unnoticed and she knew I was looking at all her photos.
‘I am thoroughly embarrassed. And to be caught so soon… Aren’t you celebrating your birthday?’ 
Downside was that I looked like a crazy person liking old posts but the plus side was that she was talking to me. 
‘To overshare I’m having a Lesley Gore sort of birthday.’
My frown settled on my face. That wasn’t a very good birthday. I looked around, thankful for the privacy of first class as I held up my phone, singing into it. She deserved a Happy Birthday song sung to her. I wasn’t going to overthink it, just sing ‘Happy Birthday to Sasha’ and sending the voice memo.
This was overstepping a line. But she looked gorgeous in her pictures and I was curious as to why this beautiful girl was with an old man…
Shit.
Shit. What happens if he is with her and hears me singing happy birthday to his girl? What was I thinking? Why can’t I resist a pretty face why could I-
‘You’re an angel, Ben Barnes.’
An angel.
I smirked, tasting the smile on my lips again as I eased back in my seat and started sending more messages to her, wanting to hear all about her. I could only learn so much from pictures. What I hadn’t expected was the flight from New York to LA to be filled with learning about her, sharing stories as fast as our fingers could type.  We exchanged selfies, mine on the plane, pillow around my neck and her in bed, an oversized hoodie on and just pretty eyes poking out for me to see. 
She should be dancing for her birthday, enjoying the day and seeing her alone in bed as she deflected saying that she didn’t want to go out made me think there was a lot I didn’t know, a lot to learn about Sasha. 
But I felt like we were friends now, so that was a huge step in a short time. I just had a feeling we were destined to be more than that.
Especially when she gave me her number and the invitation to let her know when I got home safe.
Nikki POV
Looking up I realized my office was bathed in darkness. My neck heart from typing and I pulled off my glasses, rubbing the bridge of  my nose, realizing that I had spent the better part of the day holed up in here writing. I had gotten a ton done but I was shocked that Peach hadn’t snuck in, looking for attention. Especially since it was her birthday.
Her birthday which she had chosen to spend alone.
Peach had been sad lately. The type of sad that sometimes called for trips to the doctors to make her feel better. Poor Peach. My sweet broken girl who needed help putting a smile on her face.
I hadn’t even given her the gifts I had gotten for her. 
Pushing up from the chair I stretched, feeling the kinks in my back as I moved my body, stretching as I grabbed the bags from the closet, shuffling upstairs. I expected to hear quiet but instead I heard soft laughter and the sound of the TV on. My eyebrows furrowed together as I saw Peach, smiling as she watched something on TV, her phone to her ear as she laughed again, a smile on her face that I had forgotten she had. 
Her eyes landed on me and I watched it crumble. Her hand going to the remote to pause the show, some Game of Thrones looking thing. 
“I..I’m sorry I have to go. Thank you for calling and letting me know you were safe. And thank you for the Happy Birthday…it was…thank you. Bye-Bye.” she hung up, tucking her phone under her as she looked at me, all big eyes and pretty pout as she crawled over the bed, making that oversized hoodie she was wearing look more like lingerie than anything else. “I gave you lots of time to work on your book. Are you happy with me, daddy?” I groaned as I set her presents on the bed, taking Peach in my arms and kissing her deeply. 
She roped her arms around me, pulling me against her as I laid her down on the bed, wanting to make up for ignoring her. I Wanted her to know that I was sorry. Wanting to-
“Can I open my presents?” she was biting her lip, giving me that spoiled little smirk of hers and I knew I couldn’t say now. She was delighted as she dove in. tearing packaging off designer packages and clapping her hands with delight. 
I loved watching Peach be spoiled.
“Nikki!” She threw herself in my arms kissing me all over as I held her. Breathing her in, “Thank you.” Her voice was muffled against my chest, her eyes on me sparkling as I sighed, hands tangling with her hair, drawing her in and kissing her forehead.
My sweet Peach.
This book had be remembering moments of my life that I had wanted to forget, putting me in a state of constant go, trying to move away from the bad. Poor Peach was getting caught up in the running, reaching out to me as I swatted her away. 
But I am here with her now.
“Let me take you out, Peach. For your birthday, please?” We could still have dinner. I could save this. I could make this better. She looked at me, nodding her head. A sigh of relief leaving my lips as she scared away to her closet and I plopped down on the bed. 
Her work cell phone came out from under her pillow and my eyebrows furrowed. Peach’s main cell phone was on my plan and she barely ever used her ‘LA phone’ as she called it. My eyes glanced at the closet where I could hear her bustling around and licking the corner of my lips as I picked it up. Shocked when I saw that it was locked. 
“Peach? Were you working?” I heard the stillness as she poked her head out of the closet, looking at me with a smirk on her face.
“I’m always working.” she teased. “Give me five minutes and I should be done.” she was ducking back inside her closet as I locked at the locked phone again, feeling like something wasn’t quite right with all of this. 
Would Peach lie to me?
“We’re still going to LA in October for your book launch?” she asked a moment later stepping out of the closet. It took Peach less than five minutes and she looked like a goddess, making me forget all the curiosity as I lost myself in her beauty.
She was in a pink dress, see through on her stomach with feathers over her breasts, it was short with her legs shimmering with freshly applied lotion I wanted to  kiss off and high heels. Her blonde hair was down as she tilted her head putting in crystal big earrings. She had managed to do her makeup, simple but showing off my beautiful girl.
Sometimes it felt like beauty and the beast with her.
“Yeah, did you still want to come?” I asked as she made her way over to me, sitting down on my knee as she pulled at the lapels of my blazer, that smirk of hers driving me crazy as I breathed in the thickness of her perfume.
“I want to go everywhere with you, daddy.” She teased, leaving pink lipstick against my lips as she kissed me, slow and sensual. So unlike the hot and heavy kisses Peach and I usually shared as she slowed things down.
My hands rub her, wanting her as she smirks against my lips pulling away as I groan, reaching for her and pulling her back to me. She wasn’t going anywhere and she knew that. 
I needed her and when I needed Peach that’s all I could think of.
…..
September 2021
Peach laughed as she looked at Ben. He threw his hands up at her, joining in with her laughter as she tucked a strand behind her ear. They had started in DM’s around Peach’s birthday, switching to text shortly after, then phone calls and now were in the Facetime era or their friendship. Some (Ben) would declare they were best friends and tease her about how he would get bracelets made for them. BUt it was true. They would Facetime for hours each day as the other just existed. Sharing space with each other, wanting to just be in the presence of each other.
Like now.
Ben was driving to the grocery store, a mundane task, and singing along to whatever was on the radio. His latest rendition of Single ladies having her laughing as she sat outside, knowing Nikki wouldn’t hear her since he was recording his audiobook in the cabin on the other side of the property. It was too loud in the kitchen since renovations were being made after Peach had accidently set it on fire the week before.
As she tucked her hair Ben caught sight of the bandages and remembered the frantic call she had given him. She was crying, unsure what to do. He had walked her through putting out the fire, trying to get her to stop crying before asking where Nikki was. It was the first time he had said the man's name out loud and it hurt worse when he had to tell Peach to go to him because he was sure she had gotten hurt enough that she needed to go to the hospital to treat her burns.
“Are you okay?” he asked her and she nodded her head, feeling stupid for what happened the week prior. No one was mad at her but she had managed to scare everyone with her carelessness. “Are you still coming to LA next month?” She nodded her head, reaching for her water to take a long drink. 
She was trying to ignore this conversation but he wasn’t going to allow her to pretend like this couldn’t change their lives. Ben was no fool and very aware that he wanted to meet her in person.
But he knew it would change everything, just like Peach did.
“We can’t meet. You know that and please don’t make me say why.” Ben wanted to hear her say why. Wanted to know that he wasn’t crazy and that she was feeling it too. That this could happen if she opened up about it, “Plus Nikki’s keeping me on a short leash. He wants me to go on the whole tour and I just don’t want to be traveling like that.” Ben was surprised she was talking about Nikki in a negative way.
Sometimes she would let out tidbits of her unhappiness but to say she was on a short leash and give him more clarity shocked him. 
“You get motion sick. Not a great thing in a tour bus.” Peach blinked, surprised that he remembered that and grateful that when she spoke someone listened to her. “Maybe you need to break the leash. Stay in your condo. Oh, about that. I went over and checked the place for you. I picked up the keys. You said you were just changing the locks but I wanted to be thorough.” Two people other than Peach knew about the condo she had in LA. Her best friend Sammie and now Ben. 
She had always kept it separate not wanting NIkki to get ideas about her real estate and try to take over. Since her and Nikki did keep some finances separate she never thought of it as a lie. 
“Thank you for doing that, you’re the best Ben Barnes.” He smiled at her, posing so she would laugh again, “Are you going to Trader Joes? That’s no fair!” He knew she always craved things from the store and planned to stock her condo for when she came to LA in a couple weeks. He wanted her to be able to use this trip to realize that she didn’t have to stay in Wyoming, like a princess stuck in a tower. 
Sasha had options.
“Just move to LA and you can come shopping with me. I’ll even let you push the trolley.” She laughed at him and he knew he had used a word wrong, “What? What did i-”
“Are you on the phone with Sammie?” Peach ripped out the headphones, Ben watching the color drain from her face as she hung up with him, “On your work phone? What’s wrong with your regular phone? Did you smash the screen in a tantrum again?” He was teasing her and Peach had to put on her good girl face.
“You have time for me now, Daddy?” Her hands were out, pulling Nikki down on the couch, running her fingers through his hair as he made a soft hmm sound of content with her arms around him. 
Peach softened at this, some of her doubts melting away as she felt him. Nikki was exhausted and she felt bad knowing he was trying to use the rest of his life to make all his dreams come true, to leave a legacy. BUt sometimes she felt like there wasn’t enough room for his dreams and to love her. 
“Nik?” he made a hmm sound in response, “Do you love me?” He chuckled at this, turning to look up at her, his eyes on Peach who he could see was spiraling lately. Peach who got trapped in her head and made things worse than what they were. His sweet Peach girl looked at him and seemed so desperate as she asked him if he loved her and she meant it, she looked like she didn’t know. 
“Peach, you’re my everything.” He said with a sigh, pulling up her shirt and kissing her stomach, “You’re the love that makes it all worth it.” he was closing his eyes as he kissed her soft stomach again.
She was laying on the couch, worried that it wasn’t enough.
October 2021 
October came and Nikki looked at Peach with her several suitcases she was wheeling like this wasn’t an insane amount of shit to bring for a week trip to LA. He wanted to make a comment about how she was over packing but Peach had been in a weird mood for months and claimed it was work related. 
She was working more. Nikki couldn’t deny that. Her work phone forever in her hands as she typed away. She was doing more brand deals too and he knew she had several projects she was working on when they were in LA. It was one of the first trips that they were going on that had them both planning different things. On one hand Nikki was thankful he wouldn’t have to deal with his pouty princess but on the other hand he was worried that she was overworking herself and would have a breakdown.
“Peach, it’s like you’re moving out.” She looked up at him, a flash of emotion that made his stomach knot on her face before it was masked over and she laughed at him, leaning in to kiss him.
“With the tour coming up I want to make sure I have enough stuff to pack since we’re leaving from LA. Plus cleaning out my closet at home means you can buy me new pretty things.” she teased him.
But Peach had already planned to have six of the bags delivered to her condo in LA that she kept separate from Nikki. She had been using it as additional income as a rental but her tenant had left at the end of August and Peach planned to fix it up a bit. Things weren’t going right and she believed in having an escape plan in all situations. 
Nikki treated Peach like a spoiled child but at the end of the day she was worth a few million and had a steady income from her online involvement along with her counseling work she did at a law firm. Which she was going to extend while in LA to see if she could build her worth in case she needed to have more cash on hand. Peach wasn’t stuck in Neverland, the Peter Pan fantasy that she was sure that Nikki had managed to get stuck in at one point. She was growing up and out of being Peach, especially with Nikki not having the time or patience with her anymore. 
Peach had a rough life and she never wanted to be as unprepared as she was as a teenager. She harbored a lot of fear of having everything go to hell like it had then and promised herself that she would always land on her feet.
And there was also the Ben situation. Ben who claimed to be her best friend and knew more about her than Nikki did at this point. Ben who left her voice messages of songs he was working on that made her shiver. Ben who had laughed when she told him it was 11:11 to make a wish and yet texted her every 11:11 he was awake for, letting her know he was making wishes. Ben who made Peach feel like herself and not something Nikki had created.
They had managed to stay friends. Just friends because they had never met but now Peach was on a flight to LA and her heart was in her throat as she thought about Ben who she had told more than she should have about Nikki. Ben who had told her she would need to make a decision one day and he would support her either way. Ben who had just left her a voice message as she sat next to Nikki on the plane.
‘Sasha, your fact of the day is about the Horned lizard. The scientific name is Phrynosoma, which I used google to learn how to say . The Horned lizard can shoot blood out of its eyes, up to three feet away. This rather disgusting act is used as a defense and to confuse predators away. Ta-ta now darling. Safe travels.’ 
Peach kept her face straight, glancing over at Nikki who was typing out messages to people he would visit in LA, getting all the time in with friends he had made along the way. There would be dinners she would need to sit through and places she would smile and get her picture taken at. Nikki claimed he hated LA, talked about what a rat race it was but at the same time when he was there he lived a life he was excited about and Peach could always feel the difference in his moods. 
His hand landed on her thigh and she looked at his fingers, worn and tattooed. No ring on his finger. Peach sighed, her hand going over his as she laid her head against Nikki’s shoulder, loving when he remembered she was there and wishing she wasn’t always so desperate to have his attention.
“I have some surprises for you in LA, Peaches and cream. You’ve been such a good girl about being patient with this whole process. I couldn’t have done it without you. And it’s overdue that you get a little spoiled, right?” he teased her gently as she turned her head, burying herself in Nikki’s chest. 
Peach felt guilty. Guilty that she had a friend who made her smile, who she turned to because he always had time for her. Made sure of that. And yet he wasn’t next to her right now. No, she was with Nikki. The love of her life and Peach hated worrying about if that was true. Was he the love of her life? Because she often felt like she wasn’t his. 
Horned lizards shoot blood out of their eyes but Peach’s just cry.
NIKKI POV
It had been crazier than I had expected in LA. Peach had been less of a pouty brat than I expected and more of a shadow of a person. But I could see it on her face tonight that she was ready to rumble.
“We have two nights left in LA, Nik. And I haven’t seen you at all. Not one dinner. Not one date. Nothing and…what is that?” her head tilted to the side as she looked at the envelope I had in my hand, waving at her in a teasing manner. “Nikki! What is it?” She was dancing around me, her silk robe fanning out as I held it over my head, watching her smile as she wrapped her arms around me, kissing me on the chin to soften me.
“It’s a surprise. We’re going to a show tonight that's more jazz sort of lounge music. And I’m taking you out for dinner to have some one on one time with you.” I leaned in, kissing her as she squealed delighted as she pulled me in, long kisses as I let my hands roam despite knowing we didn’t have the time. I could make time for this. “Show daddy how happy you are with him, Peach.”
She looked at me, trying to hide her shock with a smile as she pressed down into the floor of our bedroom. Hands coming up to undo my jeans as her eyes glanced down at my cock, stroking me as I reached out, hand tangling with her hair. The way she gasped, my tip pushing into her lips catching her off guard.
Perfect.
Peach sucked me, hard as she stroked my shaft, using her lips as she moaned around me letting her tongue roll around my cock as she whimpered around me. She was Pulling off me with a pop, eyes up as she looked at me, stroking me with her lips still plump.
“Lay down, daddy. I want to sit on your face while I suck your cock.” Of course she wanted me to please her too.
I held her thighs, pushing her apart as my tongue slid into her, feeling her moans around my shaft as she choked sliding down me a little further. It had been too long since she had wanted to climb on my face like this and I realized just how starved I was for it. My fingers pressing into her weeping hole as she cried out. 
I knew Peach’s body like no other. I could do things to her that she had only experienced with me. I loved how she trembled on me, throwing herself into swallowing the spit and precum as she tried to go deeper and deeper around me. So needy.
“Daddy,” she gagged around me as she shook out, swallowing loads of cum i was depositing into her mouth. Her own body propped up by my hands as she came against my tongue, giving herself up to me. 
Peach crawled over, laying against my chest as she had her eyes half closed, ready to take her nap after exhausting herself.
“Tonight is a date night, Peach. No work phone.” she tensed in my arms for a second before nodding her head, pushing off the bed as she stood up, picking up her phone, hesitating for a second before turning it off and putting it in the bedside drawer.
“I’m all yours, NIk. Come shower with me.” her hands were held out and her pout was welcoming me in. 
My sweet Peach. I was going to make sure I took time for moments like this more. I hadn’t been the man my girl needed and I needed to fix that.
One surprise ata  time.
Peach POV
Ben was staring at me. That sneaky British fucker who looked so good in a suit that my mouth watered like I was hungry. His eyes were locked on mine as he sipped his scotch and he didn’t have the grace to look away. Nikki was on my arm, holding a bottle of water as I held my purse with two hands to keep them busy, wondering why out of all the shows Nikki wanted to go to we ended up here.
He was walking towards us? Eyes eating me up as I wished he didn’t look at me like that. Giving me knots in my stomach as I thought of how I should have never started talking to him.
“Great show man.” Ben smirked at Nikki, taking his eyes off of me as I melted in place, wishing Nikki had not insisted on coming backstage. “I’m Nikki. This is my girl P-”
“Sasha Jade.” I looked up, wide eyed as I heard my name spoken for what seemed like the first time in a decade. He smirked at me, leaning in and kissing my cheek, the bristle of his beard as we breathed each other in. Ben shifted to kiss my other cheek, so close that his lips just brushed over mine as he turned his head and I caught his eyes knowing it was done on purpose.
My head reached out for his bicep to steady myself as I thought about how incredibly small this room was and how I was ready to faint.
Nikki was there though and I let go of Ben as he pulled up, eyes giving me all the emotion I needed to see to know that this was a situation I didn’t need to be in with Nikki. He was already looking at Ben, trying to make sense of what he had just called me and how he knew me. 
“I followed Sasha on Instagram a whole or so ago. I didn’t think Peach was her real name.” He looked from me up to Nikki and I wanted to leave. Very badly. The guilt I felt for Dming with him for the past few months was bubbling in my stomach and I felt like I was going to puke. 
Nikki was pushing him into conversation, telling him a story about how he had played the Troubadour a million times and talking all about the 80’s and his glory days. Because of course that’s what he talked about when my feet ached in the heels and I was dying of thirst.
Ben kept eye contact with Nikki as he stepped toward the bar, grabbing a water and a barstool, pulling them back and handing me a drink as he nodded, keeping conversation with Nikki still. He held out a hand as he steadied the stool with his leg and helped me up on it, eyes still on Nikki as he listened to the story he was being told.
“Thank you.” I said softly, sipping my water as I finally rested my feet. I was exhausted, emotionally drained and wanted to scream.
“Did you already eat? I was headed back to my place soon and-“
“We ate already.” Nikki was short with him as Ben nodded his head, shaking Nikki’s hand and smiling at him. He knew that the time between them was done and anything extra would let him know to much. 
Was there too much?
“Thanks for coming to the show.” Ben was so short with him and then he turned to me, eyes sparkling as I felt myself want to shake my head. But he was smart, “Goodnight, Sasha.” I only could wave a few fingers as he walked away.
What. The. Fuck.
“Everyone follows you, Peach. It was strange hearing him use your name.” Nikki was oblivious to the puddle I was in and I was thankful for that small miracle. Finally willing myself to stand up, grabbing Nikki’s arm.
“I’m exhausted, Nik. And I have an early shoot time.” He nodded, at least understanding that I had to work. 
I wasn’t going to talk to Ben again. I needed to stop this because seeing him in person made my crush that much worse. But as I laid in bed listening to Nikki snore beside me I felt myself reaching for my phone, wishing to see a message from Ben, disappointed when I didn’t. 
And that disappointment scared me.
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The show had left me on a high where I couldn’t sleep. Even after staying until the venue had kicked us all out I had managed to push through and stay up until the twilight hours. Maybe I couldn’t sleep because I was thinking about Sasha, wishing she would text me first so I didn’t come off as too pushy.
She had looked…phh..
Exquisite.
I couldn’t stop thinking of her. The sheer black gloves, that silk dress hugging her body. All black like a midnight sky and she was the moon, lighting up the room. I had caught sight of her when I was singing, eyes meeting hers as I sang 11:11 for the person it was written for, watching her painted red mouth gasp and oh what a dream come true it had been, until I realized the nightmare that was beside her.
She had told me about him, careful words but when we video chatted her eyes would drift to the side, sad and sullen before she wanted to change the subject. There was something about him that gave off dirty old man vibes and I wondered why she was with him.But she loved him and I think part of her knew she always would. Sasha was growing, learning and I hoped she would soon realize that you can hold onto a love story even after it ends. 
We were friends but today, touching her and breathing her in. The way we looked at each other made it very, very clear what a terrible ruse this friendship was. This was a friendship where we pined for each other but I wouldn’t push her. No, if I pushed she would pull away.
‘You’re amazing. I don’t tell you that enough. You amazing, talented, handsome man. XXOO SJ’
Smiling at my phone like a fool. I wondered if she was in bed with him and my mood darkened as I put my phone down, turned away as i undid the button on my shirt and poured myself a drink. Looking out at LA I thought about the girl I knew I was going to fall in love with, very aware that she wasn’t ready for it. 
I closed my eyes, head tilting back as I pinched the bridge of my nose and thought about what I was going to do. I didn’t want to be just her friend but if that was all I could get would it be torture or could I make it enough? Was I not understanding her side of the situation as much?
I couldn’t quit her cold turkey and knowing how unhappy she was, how could I let her sit there, waiting for me to respond and get nothing back. I had to put my feelings aside and think of her. Someone had to think of her.
‘You’re exquisite. Getting to sing to you in a crowd of people, it was my dream come true. Sleep well, darling XX BB’
I hope as she read that she knew that she was my dream and that I was never going to stop chasing her.
It was a new day, the sunlight was rising over LA as I pulled my phone from my pocket holding it up to my mouth to leave her a voice message. 
‘The fact of the day, darling, is you’re the most ravishing girl I have ever seen. So blinded by your glow that I can’t close my eyes without seeing twinkling stars in your smile. I hope you’re sleeping, Sasha. I hope you only have swirls of good dreams dancing through your head. And if you wake up to this, Good morning and what a wonderful day I wish for you’
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https://archiveofourown.org/works/53108068 by Ilikebooks178 Penelope "Penny" Isabella Parker, your everyday "average" girl. A genius in her classmate's eyes. A bright student in her teachers' perspective. A polite and kind nephew. An " emo nerd" in Flash Thompson's words. She was called by names and praised by many, but not everybody knows about her life, what she used to be. Penny was a good artist, because she painted for herself a perfect identity. Words: 593, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Categories: F/M Characters: Tony Stark, Pepper Potts, Aunt May Parker (Marvel), Uncle Ben Parker (Marvel), Original Characters, Avengers Team Members (Marvel), James "Bucky" Barnes, Stephen Strange, Peter Parker, Guardians of the Galaxy Team Members (Marvel), Midtown High School Students (Spider-Man: Homecoming), Karen (Spider-Man: Homecoming), Quentin Beck, Happy Hogan Relationships: Peter Parker & Tony Stark, Aunt May Parker & Peter Parker, Ned Leeds & Peter Parker, Michelle Jones & Peter Parker, James "Bucky" Barnes & Peter Parker, Peter Parker & Original Character(s), Peter Parker/Original Character(s), Avengers Team Members & Peter Parker, Peter Parker & Stephen Strange, Pepper Potts/Tony Stark, Steve Rogers & Tony Stark, Uncle Ben Parker & Peter Parker Additional Tags: Female Peter Parker, Genderbending, Hydra (Marvel), Movie: Avengers: Infinity War (2018), Avengers: Endgame (Movie), Movie: Spider-Man: Homecoming (2017), Movie: Spider-Man: Far From Home (2019), Movie: Spider-Man: No Way Home (2021), Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, Nyctophobia, Canonical Character Death, Peter Parker Needs a Hug, Tony Stark Acting as Peter Parker's Parental Figure, BAMF Peter Parker, Winter Soldier Bucky Barnes, Villain Peter Parker, Hero to Hillain to Hero, Hydra Peter Parker, Slavery, Past Child Abuse, Orphan Peter Parker, Adopted Peter Parker, Protective Tony Stark, Hurt/Comfort, Hurt Peter Parker, Bucky Barnes Recovering, Peter Parker is Bad at Feelings, Peter Parker is So Done, Implied/Referenced Brainwashing, Past Character Death, Past Torture, Child Soldiers read it on AO3 at https://archiveofourown.org/works/53108068
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That's 22 more posts than 2021!
132 posts created (4%)
2,915 posts reblogged (96%)
Blogs I reblogged the most:
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@therefugeofbooks
@leer-reading-lire
@mostlyghostie
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I tagged 3,045 of my posts in 2022
#who queue? - 2,870 posts
#book covers - 915 posts
#stacks of books - 652 posts
#bookshelves - 601 posts
#cover art - 432 posts
#spines - 386 posts
#open books - 333 posts
#book recommendations - 295 posts
#mugs - 209 posts
#bookstores - 203 posts
Longest Tag: 112 characters
#lords noodle and doodle came back and there was the most spectacular collective accident scene i've read in ages
My Top Posts in 2022:
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2022 Release TBR
Where the Drowned Girls Go - Seanan McGuire (contemporary fantasy) - January 4
Heartstopper, Volume Four - Alice Oseman (YA romance) - January 4 🏳️‍🌈
Battle of the Linguist Mages -  Scotto Moore (contemporary fantasy) - January 11 friend says it’s probably not my thing
Anatomy - Dana Schwartz (YA historical fantasy) - January 18
The Servant Mage - Kate Elliott (fantasy) - January 18 🏳️‍🌈
Love and Other Disasters - Anita Kelly (romance) - January 18 🏳️‍🌈
Some by Virtue Fall - Alexandra Rowland (fantasy) - January 25 🏳️‍🌈
Hot and Sour Suspects - Vivien Chien (cozy mystery) - January 25 BIPOC
The Christie Affair - Nina de Gramont (historical fiction) - February 1
Bluebird - Ciel Pierlot (science fiction) - February 8 🏳️‍🌈
Dead Silence - S.A. Barnes (science fiction/horror) - February 8
Age of Ash - Daniel Abraham (fantasy) - February 15
Carolina Built - Kianna Alexander (historical fiction) - February 22 BIPOC
Gallant - V.E. Schwab (YA fantasy) - March 1
The River of Silver - S.A. Chakraborty (historical fantasy) - March 1 BIPOC
Spelunking Through Hell - Seanan McGuire (contemporary fantasy) - March 1
Umboi Island - J.J. Dupuis (mystery) - March 8 🇨🇦
Memory's Legion - James S.A. Corey (science fiction) - March 15 I’m three books behind on the series, no way am I getting to this this year
When We Were Birds - Ayanna Llord Banwo (fabulism) - March 15 BIPOC
The Cartographers - Peng Shepherd (mystery) - March 15
How to Take Over the World - Ryan North (science/humour) March 15 🇨🇦
Comeuppance Served Cold - Marion Deeds (historical fantasy) - March 22
The Diamond Eye - Kate Quinn (historical fiction) - March 29
The Wolf Den - Elodie Harper (historical fiction) - March 29
Conversations with People Who Hate Me - Dylan Marron (memoir) - March 29
Portrait of a Thief - Grace C. Li (thriller) - April 5 BIPOC
Shadows of Berlin - David R. Gillham (historical fiction) - April 5
Amongst Our Weapons - Ben Aaronovitch (urban fantasy) - April 12 BIPOC
Persians - Lloyd Llewellyn-Jones (history) - April 12
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A couple weeks ago I was blessed with a reading copy of A Strange and Stubborn Endurance by Foz Meadows, and let me tell you, it should be on every fantasy lover’s TBR for this summer. This is a story about kind, sensible, competent people dealing with assassins and intrigues, about finding love in unexpected places, about healing and unlearning unconscious biases. The writing and the setting are both lush and to be sunk into. It’s a beautiful queer love story, full of gentleness, wonderfully escapist in general, and gave me serious Marvellous Light vibes the whole way through. It’s not without darkness—there’s a very notable rape early on, for instance—but gosh, I need people to read this just so I can squee about it with them.
Out July 26, 2022.
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My dad unhauled a bunch of books before Christmas and let me have my pick of them. A pic of the full stack will be coming, probably in my February wrap-up, but I just had to share this one! Don’t have a date for it, but it was awarded to a technical school student in 1910.
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The Wolf Den by Elodie Harper is a refreshing take on historical fiction. Not only is it set in Roman Pompeii rather than northwestern Europe in the 19th or 20th centuries, but it’s centered on enslaved sex workers and told in modern language. (No thou’s or attempts to mimic Latin here!) The author has done a great job of bringing the ancient world to life and making it feel nearer than it is.
The book focuses on Amara, born into a middle-class Greek family and sold into slavery after family tragedy. As she does her best to better her circumstances at any cost, we get not only a portrait of a living Roman city with its pubs, parties, clothing stores, food stalls, and everyday injustices, but also a wonderful sense of the friendships and competition within the brothel she works in. I loved seeing how the women there formed a community among themselves, and how they fit into the wider society (or didn’t). I got the real sense that Harper had not only delved deep into how Roman society would’ve worked at the street level, but had done her diligence regarding the lives of (modern) sex workers too.
I also thought that Harper did a good job portraying the characters as complex, fallible, and human. She gives her female characters, especially Amara, the full range of emotions and all are believably imperfect. The worst of the men get sympathetic moments and the best of them, damning ones. They all feel of their time too—relatable or familiar, but also holding attitudes and beliefs that remind you this isn’t a modern story. (For instance, it’s clear that Amara knows slavery sucks for all enslaved people, but she never quite questions why slavery is even a thing.)
All in all, reading this felt like reading about real people leading real lives much more often than it felt like reading a novel. It’s a slowish read that feels at times like it’s digressing or offering up set pieces of Pompeiian life, but those moments all get woven back in neatly by the end. (It’s also slowish because of emotional drain. I couldn’t binge-read because bad things kept happening.) I found the ethical dilemmas compelling, though—if you’d damned no matter what, what’s the right option?—and enjoyed both how Harper told this story and woven in her themes and critiques. It’s definitely been one of the highlights of my reading month and I hope it gets a lot of attention once it’s out.
Note: while this book is definitely pro-sex work and has a lot of sympathy for those who find themselves forced into that life or exploited, it’s still set within an incredibly misogynistic society that saw no problem with degrading or harming women. If harassment, issues with consent or boundaries, or sexual violence are things you don’t want to read about, this might not be the book for you. They’re rarely graphic, but definitely prevalent.
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My #1 post of 2022
Hello! I saw your 2022 Release TBR come across my dash, and I don't know if the Pride flags are to denote that the author or that the book itself is queer, but in either case, Seanan McGuire can absolutely have a flag :-)
Thanks! The flags are to denote queer characters here, not queer authors (for brevity and minimal confusion). I'm trying to be responsible and not put flags on books I'm not 100% sure of. For instance, I know Where the Drowned Girls Go is Cora's book, but I don't remember if Cora is canonically queer? Same goes for the characters in Seasonal Fears and for Alice in Spelunking Through Hell. If they're confirmed, I'll be adding that flag during my wrap-up, for sure.
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Tagged by @aliteraryprincess and @franticvampirereads, thank you!
Tagging @lizziethereader @thelivebookproject @rae-reads @thesheepthewolf @doughtah @howlsmovinglibrary
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That's 1,111 more posts than 2021!
966 posts created (46%)
1,131 posts reblogged (54%)
Blogs I reblogged the most:
@unstablecryptid
@frogus
@mudkipper
@donesparce
@darlingshane
I tagged 1,872 of my posts in 2022
Only 11% of my posts had no tags
#shitpost - 552 posts
#jon bernthal - 481 posts
#frank castle - 157 posts
#misc - 98 posts
#fav - 85 posts
#brank - 61 posts
#disk horse - 61 posts
#ben barnes - 58 posts
#shane walsh - 57 posts
#inbox - 54 posts
Longest Tag: 140 characters
#stop casually forgetting trans people exist like how are they not the first group of people to come to mind when u hear about genital surger
My Top Posts in 2022:
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Shoutout to movies aimed towards straight men that unintentionally ended up being extremely homoerotic and then got adopted by the gay community
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YESSSSS I TRIED SO HARD TO MAKE MY ORIGINAL/RB CONTENT 50/50 BECAUSR IM A FREAK YESSSSS
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That's 372 more posts than 2021!
57 posts created (3%)
2,094 posts reblogged (97%)
Blogs I reblogged the most:
@haberdashing
@angryducktimemachine
@evieebun125
@anaander
@yum-cy
I tagged 1,989 of my posts in 2022
Only 8% of my posts had no tags
#aaaaaart - 554 posts
#rusty quill gaming - 457 posts
#lgbtq - 199 posts
#fav - 171 posts
#video - 171 posts
#hamid saleh haroun al tahan - 136 posts
#trans - 114 posts
#art - 109 posts
#sasha racket - 104 posts
#the mechanisms - 104 posts
My Top Posts in 2022:
#5
the saga of figgis et al
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[ID: Digital fan art of Sasha, Grizzop and Hamid from Rusty Quill Gaming, in Newton’s office. In the foreground, they are walking across the floorboards, and are minuscule compared to the scale of the room. The floorboards are a flat, mostly featureless plain, with a sunbeam making a square of light. In the distance is an apparently massive table leg, carved in a spiral pattern. The group is walking towards the table leg, with Sasha and Grizzop talking while Hamid walks ahead of them. End ID]
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sometimes i get emotional about how many npcs just immediately take a liking to sasha. barnes, gerald the butler in dover, the jailer, the gargoyles, earhart, the sphinxes, carter, the old wizard at apophis’, clapper the goblin — there are tons of people she encounters that she makes friends with. and she’s awkward and antisocial and low charisma, but she still connects with so many people regardless, there are so many people who care about her
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[ID: Digital fan art of the scene from Rusty Quill Gaming episode 51 of Hamid and the fire elemental. The fire elemental, a huge humanoid figure made entirely of flames, is crouching inside a large red crystal and looking down at Hamid. Hamid is standing next to the crystal looking up at the elemental, with one hand resting against the surface of the crystal. The elemental has one hand raised to match Hamid’s. Hamid is tiny in comparison, smaller than the elemental’s hand. End ID]
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[ID: Digital fan art of the seven kobolds from Rusty Quill Gaming. They are red and lizard-like, with horns and spikes. There are seven portraits of their heads drawn in profile in various poses. Skraak is medium sized and an intense red color with small spikes. Natun is large and dark brownish red, with multiple scars. Sassraa is medium sized with light and dark stripes, and pure white horns and spikes. Meerk is small, dark red with dark stripes, and has numerous spikes. They are posed with their mouth open, showing small sharp teeth. Draal is small and brownish red, with a light stripe, dark spots, and stubby horns. Driaak is large and lighter red, with long horns and a scar. Tadyka is large and dark grayish red with dark spots. Each is labeled with their name. End ID]
the kobold gang’s all here!! lineart under the cut
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Writing Masterlist
Monthly Prompt Lists
Winter 2020
Febuwhump 2021
The Merry Whump of May 2022
Summer of Whump 2022
January Vocabulary 2023
Whumpuary 2023
TV Shows
The Good Place
Brooklyn 99/Good Place Crossover
Game of Thrones/House of the Dragon
Aemond Targaryen
You Tell Aemond You’re Pregnant
The Haunting of Hill House
Luke
Spending the Day with Luke
Nellie
Going on Vacation
Umbrella Academy
Series
i turn to paths that lead home
Summary:  Luther held Vanya a little tighter, refusing to let her go. It changed the game and made all the difference
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#i turn to paths that lead home
Connected One Shots
 A Season 2 Fix-it Universe
give your heart and soul to charity
post season 2 au: five finally gets the hugs he deserves but does not want (but he really actually does)
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birds flying by, sun in the sky
summary: post season 2 au where 12 people came from the ‘60s to the world that 7 of them had left.
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I’d never want once from the cherry tree
summary: post season 2 au - its finally a nice day in the city and the entire family has a BBQ
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creepy, kooky, mysteries, & spooky
summary:  post season 2 au: its halloween time and the hargreeves let Klaus choose the costumes. it went about how you expect.
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6 for 6
summary: 6 hugs for Ben cause he deserves them
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Claire Hargreeves’ Summer
Tea Party
Summary: Five has a plan. It does not survive contact with his niece.
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Cooking with Klaus
summary: Claire has a nightmare and Uncle Klaus comes to the rescue.
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Rainy Day Forts
summary: Claire has fun with the Hargreeves and they build a Blanket Fort on a Rainy day.
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Bedtime Stories
Nighttime Nightmares
Summary:  Number Seven gets a nightmare. Number Six helps her go to sleep again.
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Sleep Without Fear
Summary: Number Four, Number Six, and Number Seven sleep together. The nightmares go away.
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Not Connected One Shots
he had to do this
summary: klaus wakes up alone in the barn, surrounded by his siblings.
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idioms
Summary: Diego misspeaks and his siblings are assholes.
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every dog should have a boy
Summary: Five? Meet Mr. Pennycrumb
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Drabbles
Ben
Getting Engaged to Ben
Luther
Going to all of Luther’s Fights
Movies
How To Train Your Dragon
Ruffnut
Being Worried about Ruffnut
IT and IT: Chapter 2
Bill Denbrough
Running into Him Outside the Jade Dragon
John Wick
John
Spending the Day at the Park
Marvel
Wanda
Talking to Wanda inside the Hex
Rise of The Guardians
Jack
Ice Skating
Starting a Snowball Fight
Star Wars
Obi-Wan
Making Him a Flower Crown
Original Characters
Charlie Hargreeves (Umbrella Academy)
i couldn’t utter it, i couldn’t whisper it (my love for you was silent)
Summary:  In one world, the young teenager hid when she abruptly found herself pregnant and she gave birth in secret, left the baby on a random doorstep, and never looked back. Unfortunately, this isn’t that world. In this world, Reginald Hargreeves finds her and takes her baby. It doesn’t end well.
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a bed of roses and the river at dawn
Summary:  In one world, the young teenager hid when she abruptly found herself pregnant and she gave birth in secret, left the baby on a random doorstep, and never looked back. Unfortunately, this isn’t that world. In this world, Reginald Hargreeves finds her and takes her baby. It doesn’t end happily.
AU of a Number Eight AU.
#a bed of roses and the river at dawn
Aelia (Eternals)
Drabbles
M’darlin - Breakdown after the final battle
Post Battle - the immediate aftermath
Reading - a calm day of the past, reading
Piano Lessons - teaching Jack how to play
#the sun the moon and all the stars
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22 posts created (0%)
14,177 posts reblogged (100%)
Blogs I reblogged the most:
@celestial-citrus
@shenzi-hemlock
@bluebellwren
@/insomniarama
@/avesblues2
I tagged 7,893 of my posts in 2022
Only 44% of my posts had no tags
#a dyad in the queue - 2,520 posts
#art - 1,067 posts
#star wars - 1,003 posts
#queue looks like starlight - 873 posts
#asoiaf - 608 posts
#rwby - 540 posts
#bnha - 287 posts
#arya stark - 245 posts
#lotr - 241 posts
#stranger things - 230 posts
Longest Tag: 116 characters
#the morally had the right idea but executed it in such a horrific way that you don’t want to outright side with them
My Top Posts in 2022:
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Freeze! ✧ ─=≡Σ((( つ•̀ω•́)つ You’re under arrest for being so lovely. Copy this message to 10 other blogs that you think are beautiful and deserve it. Keep the game going and make others feel beautiful!
Thank you !!!
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For the ask game, I see Ben Solo on my dash and I know it's you lollll
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What's your favorite star wars movie? I've realized I don't know and if I really had to guess maybe The Force Awakens or Rogue One...?
Actually it’s The Last Jedi!
I did really like both tfa and rogue one when i first saw them. but when i saw tlj i really got hooked into sw as a whole. i could gush about that movie all day 🤍
What’re your faves?
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ok what kind of farm do you want? animals or lots of fruits and veggies?
Ok so I’m more inclined towards having a garden but while doing my research and with how crazy expensive food is atm I would definitely have chickens, goats, and honey bees with working dogs and barn cats. Having other animals like cows, guineas, and turkeys would be awesome but that would depend on the size of the farm itself.
Lol I started rambling but yeah growing fruit/veggies would be priority.
How about you?
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Comfort Things
Tagged by @/callthedarknessdown <3
Comfort Movie(s): Whisper of the Heart, Pride and Prejudice (2005), La Belle et la Bête (2014), Emma (2020), Matilda, & The Dark Crystal,
Comfort Food(s): Pineapple fried rice, chili beans, chocolate malt, fried apples, strawberry pie, & homemade mac n cheese.
Comfort Clothing(s): Lol any of my sweat pants / old t-shirts combo's
Comfort Song(s): Right now its the ENTIRE soundtrack in belle (2021) 😭
Comfort Book(s): Howl's moving castle by Diana Wynne Jones, The Hobbit by J. R. R. Tolkien, Jane Eyre by Charlotte Bronte, Sense and Sensibility by Jane Austen, & The Chronicles of Narnia Series by C.S. Lewis
Comfort Game(s): TES: Oblivion, The Sims 2, Stardew Valley, Portal 2, & Fallout 3.
tagging (if you want!): @/skynapple, @/celestial-citrus, @/bluebellwren, @/celinou, @/shenzi-hemlock, @/fairytale-lights, and anyone else who wants to do this
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That's 704 more posts than 2021!
553 posts created (63%)
331 posts reblogged (37%)
Blogs I reblogged the most:
@becauseicantthinkwritings
@dreamlandcreations
@marvelmusing
@stardustmorozov
@dearmantis
(my mutuals ❤️ and myself)
I tagged 814 of my posts in 2022
Only 8% of my posts had no tags
#billy russo - 390 posts
#billy russo x reader - 321 posts
#ben barnes - 321 posts
#billy russo the punisher - 247 posts
#billy russo imagine - 240 posts
#billy russo x female reader - 224 posts
#billy russo x you - 220 posts
#billy russo x y/n - 220 posts
#the punisher au - 191 posts
#aleksander morozova - 184 posts
(can you guess who was this year’s hyper-fixation?)
Longest Tag: 111 characters
#this man faces centuries of his people being killed for existing and i’m supposed to be happy when he fails????
(⬆️ of course this is me ranting about Aleksander)
My Top Posts in 2022:
#5
His Smile
Pairing: Billy Russo x Reader
Summary: Agent Madani expresses too much interest in your boyfriend for your liking. Billy unknowingly provides you with a reminder that he’s yours.
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“Have I done something to you Agent Madani?” She glances up at you briefly before returning her interest to the files in front of her.
“Not that I can recall, why?” You press your lips into a hard line, slipping your hands into your pockets.
“The unthinkable happens. Homeland security runs out of snipers, and you pick a civilian consultant to assist in your op?” She sets her file down, finally meeting your eyes.
“So this is about Mr Russo.”
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Like Calls to Like
Pairing: Aleksander Morozova x Shadow Summoner!Reader
Summary: After an unsuccessful skiff journey through the Fold, you’re brought before the Black General.
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A prickle of discomfort crawls over your skin as the small group of Grisha stare at you. Their bright, neatly pressed kefta’s are a stark contrast to the remains of the bloodstained First Army uniform you’re wearing. There’s a war table in the centre of the tent, and standing in front of it is the infamous Black General. The Darkling that your mother always warned you about. Because you were a Darkling too.
He turns, and you’re struck by how dark his eyes are. His gaze sweeps over you briefly, though you feel the heat of his eyes, before he glances around the tent.
“Who actually saw what happened?”
You look around the tent as well, waiting for someone to step forward.
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Fear and Dreams
Pairing: Morpheus x Fear Spirit!Reader (gender neutral)
Summary: Morpheus has reclaimed his sand, and his helm. His ruby has fallen into the hands of a being capable of driving humans to madness. But you’re not what Morpheus expected.
A/N: Phobetor is actually the name of a Greek god but I’ve decided to alter it so that Phobetor’s are beings of fear (like how Erotes are the beings of love)
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“So,” Matthew starts, fluttering his wings as he settles in front of Morpheus’ feet. “What now?”
The King of Dreams glances down at him,
“My ruby. It was stolen from a mortal by a Phobetor.”
“Pho-what?”
“A Phobetor.” Morpheus observes the landscape of Hell that surrounds them as he speaks, “Something mankind has often called a Frightener. They are known to filter into the human mind and create terrifying visions.”
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White Picket Fence
Pairing: Billy Russo x Fem!Reader
Summary: Billy and you have to go undercover as a newly married couple in the suburbs, and you’re certain your house is bugged so it’s 24/7 of you two acting like a married couple.
Warnings [18+]: smut, unprotected sex, breeding kink, little bit of wife kink
A/N: I wrote this very quickly so sorry if there’s loads of mistakes, also there might be some more from this AU at some point??
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“Come on sweetheart, cum around my cock.” Your grip on Billy slips, as your mind goes fuzzy, and you lose yourself to the sensation of Billy fucking hard into you. “Nice and tight so I cum inside you.”
Your body is practically folded in half, with your entire pussy exposed to Billy as he thrusts into you.
“You gonna hold my cum inside you sweetheart? Gonna be a good little wife for me and make sure it takes?”
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My #1 post of 2022
Flower Crown
Pairing: Morpheus x GN!Reader
Summary: You spend some quiet time with the Lord of Dreams, and make Morpheus a flower crown.
A/N: this could be seen as a follow up to my other Morpheus fic A New Start
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Out of all the places of beauty in the Dreaming, Morpheus’ throne room is one of your absolute favourites. The glorious colours of the outside sky reflecting through the three large windows that run down the length of the wall behind Morpheus’ throne. The cathedral-like features that give the palace it’s sense of majesty. But your favourite aspect has to be the smooth marble steps which lead to Morpheus’ throne.
You love sitting there during the day, whether that’s with your head buried in a book from Lucienne or just observing the folk from the Dreaming that wish to visit their King.
Morpheus is also particularly fond of the steps, and often joins you. It’s instances such as these that you find yourself longing for, as Morpheus tends to favour the lower steps, meaning that you can admire him without attracting too much attention.
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roscoebarnes3 · 6 months
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Nelson's talk on Ben Chester White draws record crowd
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Stanley Nelson is speaking at the Sept. 26 meeting of the Natchez Historical Society at Historic Natchez Foundation. His topic is the 1966 execution of Ben Chester White by three members of the Ku Klux Klan. Photo courtesy of Jessica Ingram
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By ROSCOE BARNES III The Natchez Democrat
NATCHEZ, Miss. -- Stanley Nelson's talk on the 1966 murder of Ben Chester White drew 120 people to the Sept. 26 meeting of the Natchez Historical Society at the Historic Natchez Foundation, according to people who attended the event.
The attendance set a record for the society, which averages 50 people at the monthly meetings, according to Alan Wolf, a director of the society and its program chair.   However, the recent meeting with Nelson rivals the society's annual dinner in January that set a record with more than 100 attendees, Wolf said.    "It was electric," Wolf said. "There were so many new faces, and we were on the edges of our seats."   Jeff Mansell, lead historian of the Natchez National Historical Park, agreed. "This is as good as it gets," he said. "We had a great attendance, and people were deeply moved by the presentation."   "The NHS meeting Tuesday night was a huge success," said Linda Ogden, society board member. "The audience was indeed large and diverse."   Society board member Adam Gwin said the gathering says a lot about the community: "I think it says a great deal for a community that wants to look at its past and face it honestly."   The presentation   Nelson’s presentation was titled, "Murder on Pretty Creek: New Revelations on an Old Case." It focused on White, the 67-year-old Black man who was executed in 1966 by members of the Klan. White lived in a small community known as Sandy Creek, where his house still stands to this day.   Nelson talked about White's alleged killers, two of whom, Ernest Avants and James Lloyd Jones, were charged but not convicted in 1967; and a third one, Claude Fuller, who was never brought to trial. Avants was convicted decades later in federal court and died in prison a short time after his conviction.
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Ben Chester White
During his talk, Nelson focused on the Klan activities in the Kingston community. He also discussed the personal life history of White and his friends. Nelson said White was only five feet tall and weighed 155 pounds. He was known as a "soft spoken gentleman" who was not involved with political or civil rights activism.   Nelson spoke about Jimmy Carter and Boyd Sojourner, both of whom became Adams County Supervisors. Both had also worked cattle together with White, and they knew each other all their lives, Nelson said. Carter owned the farm where White had lived and worked.   Nelson zeroed in on the planning of the murder and how it went down. He showed, among other things, that the Klan made two attempts on White's life.   One of White's murderers said they killed him in order to lure Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. to Natchez to be assassinated. Nelson believes the killing was a "local action" and said he found no evidence connecting the murder to higher ranks of the White Knights of the Klan.   Nelson said a longer version of his presentation will be posted on Louisiana State University's website (lsucoldcaseproject.com).   Nelson is the former editor of the Concordia Sentinel in Ferriday, La. He is also the author of “Devils Walking: Klan Murders Along the Mississippi River in the 1960s (LSU Press, 2016) and “Klan of Devils: The Murder of a black Louisiana Deputy Sheriff” (LSU, 2021).   The audience
Nelson said he was happy to share his research on the White's murder and quite pleased to have a large and diverse audience.   "It was really good to see people so interested in our history and want to know about that terrible thing that happened to Ben Chester White," Nelson said. He noted the audience was "very attentive" and asked "great questions."   Nelson said relatives of White also attended the meeting, as did Denise Jackson Ford, daughter of slain Natchez civil rights leader Wharlest Jackson Sr.   "It was just a really great mixture of age groups and great turnout," Nelson said. "I was glad to see good African American representation there Tuesday night. Hopefully they will become part of the work being done by the Natchez Historical Society."   The audience included a white couple of some years who were farming near the area where the murder took place, according to Wolf. He added, "They knew Chester White. To him, he was Mr. Ches. They came and were very touched. They were shocked at the time of the murder."   Wolf said the meeting amounted to a memorial service to Chester White. The room was packed, he said, noting the meeting was a big deal in exposing the horror of the Ben Chester White case.   "There was some belated justice done for Mr. White simply by the telling of his story," Wolf said.   "Our audience doesn’t shy away from the difficult topic of race," he continued. "To the contrary, there may be a deep-seated desire to talk about it, and as long we have people like Stanley Nelson, who is profound and sympathetic, without being shrill and demagogic, we can have a good discussion."   Wolf and others said the Sept. 26 meeting will be hard to top. "We can equal this in future programs, but in terms of gravitas, we will never exceed it," Wolf said.
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I posted 369 times in 2022
That's 337 more posts than 2021!
128 posts created (35%)
241 posts reblogged (65%)
Blogs I reblogged the most:
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@atlinmerrick
@bertilakslady
@everythingfox
@neil-gaiman
I tagged 147 of my posts in 2022
#sherlock holmes - 88 posts
#margaret walsh - 63 posts
#historical crime - 61 posts
#pastiche - 52 posts
#quote - 31 posts
#book quote - 28 posts
#anthology - 18 posts
#victorian era - 15 posts
#book review - 14 posts
#barnes and noble - 12 posts
Longest Tag: 54 characters
#i knew all the words to pokare-kare-ana before i was 3
My Top Posts in 2022:
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My latest book review.
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#4
Omens are everywhere in this world you just have to find the one that fits.
Terry Pratchett, I Shall Wear Midnight
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Things are different here, sir,” said Carrot. “It wasn’t until ten years ago they replaced trial by ordeal here with trial by lawyer, and that was only because they found that lawyers were nastier.
Terry Pratchett, The Fifth Elephant
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#2
My publisher, MX Publishing, is having a BLACK FRIDAY SALE and you can get all my books at 30% off.  Use the code ‘blackfriday’ at the check out.
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My #1 post of 2022
I didn't think that Herefordshire Social Services would be best pleased about me dumping a poorly socialised pre-teen with mind control powers on them.
Ben Aaronovitch, Foxglove Summer
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damianogender · 3 years
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i think 𝓭𝓪𝓭𝓭𝔂 𝓲𝓼𝓼𝓾𝓮𝓼 people and daddy issues people should unionize. like enough with "i wanna fuck the middle aged guy" vs "hes literally my dad" it doesnt matter. you are both fucking insane
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Inktober Day 9 - The Darkling
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Shadow and Bone
On April 23rd, 2021, Netflix premiered its live-action adaptation of Leigh Bardugo’s debut novel, Shadow and Bone, the first book in a suite of Grishaverse trilogies and duologies. When casting revealed that five of Bardugo’s titular Six of Crows—itself taking up 2nd place over on this year’s Books List—would be making an appearance, the forthcoming series began to feel delightfully like fanfic of the Grishaverse and its characters, rather than a straight-up adaptation. And if there’s one thing we all love here on Tumblr, it’s a good fic.
The Hype
As if you weren’t already primed to be hyped about the show—demonstrated perhaps most powerfully by the proliferate fan casting of Ben Barnes as the Darkling—the news that he initiated contact with his considerably younger colleagues using the classic “How do you do, fellow kids” meme set the scene for what was to come.
In February, almost three months before the show premiered, Shadow and Bone hit the weekly TV Shows list on Fandom at a very respectable #10. In March, the show reemerged at #2 and oscillated up and down the list until its premiere when it crowned the TV Shows list and entered Week In Review at #2. To celebrate, you asked Jessie Mei Li and Archie Renaux about working with live goats and horses, method acting, the vibes of Darklina, and Alina and Mal’s theme songs.
As soon as the show hit our screens, the fandom produced an astounding array of characters-as-text-post-assemblages, GIF-sets, incorrect quotes GIF-sets (reader, many GIFs were made) to complement its eight episodes. And so, we savored the Shadow and Bone experience long after we’d all watched General K dismount mid-gallop and come to Alina’s rescue or the blossoming of looks between Fedyor and Ivan, again and again. And again.
This Year in Review, the show ranks 8th on our TV Shows list, while on the Celebs list, Ben Barnes appears at #14. Freddy Carter (Kaz) debuts at a solid #48, Jessie Mei Li (Alina) at #65, and Amita Suman (Inej) at #70. Given that we’ve grouped, loosely termed “all famous people,” of all genders no less, in one list, this means you’ve all been screaming about your faves. A lot.
The Heart is an Arrow (yes, this is where we talk about the ships)
Well, now, let’s see. We’ve got enemies with benefits Darklina, the somewhat contested shipping of the Darkling (General Kirigan in the show), and sun-summoner Alina. We’ve got the excruciating slow burn that is Kanej, yet to come to its full fruition in the series (but we all know what those stolen looks mean, goddammit). Then there’s the playful melting of one Fjerdan heart that is Helnik (Nina and Matthias). So, whether you’re a fan of Fjerdan reserve or like to imagine Inej making Kaz squirm with her wide-eyed sincerity, the ships game is strong with this one. From incorrect quotes to (you guessed it) more GIF-sets, there’s something here for everyone. And, despite Jesper’s spicy tumble with the stableboy and the introduction of his emotional support Milo, the question on the book fandom’s fingertips since April 23rd, 2021, has been WHERE’S THE MERCHLING, PLEASE, @netflix?? 
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TEASER: Two/Eight detected
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Summary: you were the main lead of the FBI Cyber Division to solve Two/Eight— the most damaging hack committed by an individual. Never had you predicted to cross path with Mark Lee during your time doing your job, neither before that. Even if you did, everything about him was magically coincidental and surely you couldn’t expect coincidence. It unnecessarily stressed you out more than the cyberattack. But only then you could realize Two/Eight was bigger than the hack itself.
Pairing: Bodyguard Mark x FBI Special Agent Reader
Genre: forbidden relationship, angst, a little fluff, smut
Warnings: language, infidelity, mentions of alcohol and drugs addiction, mention of deaths, explicit smut.
Word count: 25k
Released date: 16/10/2021
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You twisted your heels, finally darting your eyes at him. Again, this man startled you. Everything about him fascinated you. In height he was approximately 5’9, one or two inches deviant. Jet black hair, neatly styled as there’s some strands falling on his forehead. His eyes were round downturned yet sharp and piercing. His jawline, too, had the prominence and squareness which marked the man of determination. He’s wearing a black dress shirt with black slacks as well. If Hades had a human version, it would probably be the man in front of you.
He raised a brow at you teasingly, causing you to gape in realization, that you had been staring at him like a thirsty chick seeing Ben Barnes. Admittedly, he was the most attractive man you ever met in your entire life. However, at the point that was able earn a mere reaction from you, it was absolutely unacceptable.
“Uhm- thanks?” You responded with an unsure tone. What exactly did he expect you to say? Hell if you knew.
He chuckled again. “Are you always like this?”
“Like what?” You looked at him questioningly.
“Dry and— unfriendly.”
You folded your lips and nodded your head just so slightly and slowly, internally judging his deduction. He said that you’re mean but you did not think he’s any better than you, if it’s possibly normal for him to talk to someone he met the first time like that. The only difference so far was that he laughed twice and you definitely had scowled more than twice.
“I haven’t met you here before.” He continued, attempting to alleviate the tension.
You nodded, “Yeah, haven’t been in the States for nine months. Haven’t used these things during that period of time either,” shaking the pistol in your hand for indication.
"Twisted fate." He mumbled under his breath. “Wanna make a bet?”
a/n: why tf do I write so much but I do have countless ideas in my head so whatever. dm me, send an ask or comment under this post if you wish to be in the taglist!
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