#this is a half truth today

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

This election day, I'm thinking of my Nana.

I'm thinking of how as a young woman, she fled political violence in her native Colombia to build a new home in a more stable country. I'm thinking about how she lived a long life, but not long enough to see her home country elect its first ever progressive president (just a few months ago!).

Coincidentally, I was living in Colombia at that time (in the very city she grew up in), and I was able to witness what felt like a miracle. A very conservative country, suffering from the violent inheritance of colonization and catholic invasion and the war on drugs, against a backdrop of the dangerous global rise of the far right--this unlikely country managed to elect one of the most progressive heads of state in the world, in 2022. That's a pretty big deal.

And I'm thinking about this, this election day, because that election was won by a very thin margin. I'm thinking about how it almost didn't happen. I'm thinking about how it was only possible thanks to the highest voter turnout in 20 year. And I am thinking about the countless number of voters who chose to vote for the first time. I am thinking of the poorest and most disenfranchised citizens who showed up at the polls. I am thinking of the indigenous women who rode 12 hours on public buses to vote at the 'nearest' polling stations. I am thinking of all the money and corruption that went into preventing minority citizens from voting, and I'm thinking about how they showed up in the millions and voted anyway.

I am thinking that I would like to see a miracle like that in my own home country.

So if you're on the fence about waiting in line today to cast your vote, I hope that you will think--about the country you want to live in, the future you hope will unfold, and about all of the people it takes to make a miracle.

Because history may deem us nameless and faceless, but when we show up en masse, we are the ones who make history happen.

And yes, maybe also spare a thought for my Nana. Who was in fact a very angry and judgemental woman who supported the republican party for 50+ years, and who would be turning in her grave right now (if the family hadn't had her cremated). Think about the mean angry ghost of my Colombian grandmother, who very much wants you to not show up at the polls to support abortion and other sinful progressive values. Think about her. Do it for her. Do it for Nana.

#Do it! for her #not a shitpost #serious post #politics #ask to tag #I love you Nana but i disagree SO vehemently with almost all of your personal political and religious values #also you should have treated my mom SO MUCH BETTER when she was a kid. all of your kids really #i see you very much as a victim of religious trauma & childhood poverty #followed by the cultural isolation of being a first generation immigrant with no local hispanic community to provide support #plus the failure of late 20th century mental health care almost certainly compounded by medical sexism #recognize sympathize and am indignant on your behalf for all of those reasons and more #but that truth can also coexist alongside the truth that #hot DAMN Nana you and Papa very much failed to provide your children with an emotionally safe and stable environment in which to grow #and me and my sibs are still dealing with the generational trauma #and who knows how many of my cousins. I HAVE TWENTY-ONE COUSINS AND I DON'T TALK TO ANY OF THEM #that is too many cousins to not be in contact with any of them #(and fyi that's on *one* side of the family. on the other side are a dozen half-aunts-and-cousins I've never met #because Other Grandpa was a Certified Piece of Shit) #Anyway. ANYWAY... #apparently i really needed to overshare today. know what? no judgement. judgement free zone #i have no judgement thoughts or opinions i am finally FREE #........gosh that sounds so relaxing #ANYway #yeah. break the cycle of abuse or your descendants will grow up and critique your parenting choices on third-tier social media platforms #when people say 'they will always be remembered' at a funeral--that is a THREAT #what they actually mean is 'OH HONEYBUN YOU DONE FUCKED UP' #.........i want that in my eulogy actually

[todayisafridaynight]

did some dumb shit today and immediately thought of my favorite quote to cope

#rgg #ryu ga gotoku #ryu ga gotoku 2 #yakuza 2 #ryuji goda #snap sketches #ever since he said that i've been able to cope with so many things better and i'm 100% serious #it's just such a funny quote but it also speaks to me on a spiritual level #anyways i thought i had to go to the court house today so i drove out like half an hour #and then i waited another half hour cause i was too early and then i go there #and the lady's like 'we sent you an email :o you didnt have to come in today- youre actually fine for the next three years :o' #AND I JUST SAT IN MY CAR AFTER THAT SO DEFEATED #I COULDNT EVEN GET ANY FOOD OR GO SHOPPING CAUSE ALL THE SHOPS WERE CLOSED #AND THEY ONLY OPENED THREE HOURS LATER OR LIKE. /TOMORROW/ #ryuji goda my beloved thank you for letting me be able to live with my dumbass #my stupidity is an illness and i'm glad i can coexist with it now #tbh i coulda made this funnier cause i just remembered ryuji's shirtless in the og cutcene but whatever #i just wanted to get my truth out there #plus i like his coat :)

[maiaacchiato]

thinking thoughts

#mia's ramblings #thinking abt that one time i was so uncomfortable with my friend's pda thing that i left them behind at the koi pond #like i literally just. stood up. started walking away #i still have no idea why it made me uncomfortable and even now just thinking about it makes me sick #for some reason idrk #also thinking about those times where i was so mentally exhausted from everything that i didnt have the energy to stand up so i just #didnt go to school #obviously i told people i was “sick” or “masakit pakiramdam ko” etc which i mean #its a half truth? atleast ??? #and thinking about how i just want to avoid Her bc i do Not want to be dealing with their relationship problems at 6am but yk #the moment she starts up conversation i just #put those thoughts at the back of my head and pretend like im not fucking tired of her bullshit #i could be so. mentally drained. to the point that i just avoid everyone by going to coop on my own or going to 7-11 just to Breathe #but the moment someone talks to me like jack or salve or heck even kui my brain just. forces itself to act “normal” and by normal i mean no #-mentally drained yk? #like the moment literally anyone starts talking to me the thoughts of being mentally tired just get pushed back and idrk how to tell people #-that im mentally exhausted without sounding rude so i just #let my brain just bottle it up until im so tired mentally that i literally cannot function #i think its called being overstimulated? yea #which yeah basically this shit happens every. day. until my brain just goes nope youre shutting down no school for today also youre getting #-a fever too #which like??? idk why it happens??? #and its not like i dont want to talk to them either #like #obviously i do #but talking to anyone when im like this makes it feel like an obligation #which fucking sucks because i dont like being obligated to do stuff i just want to do it because well #i want to?? #and i feel bad for peewee bc usually he'll talk to me when im at my limit so my responses are very short and yea #this is why i always say 'im tired' whenever people ask how im doing

[limielle]

idk i feel like so much discourse could be easily minimized if people learned to say "i think" instead of "it is"

#like “i think this is a bad game” is way less abrasive/aggressive than “this is a bad game” #do u know where im going w this like #it's literally 2 extra words and it could avoid like 99% of confrontation #ofc there would still be people who are like “omg how can u hate smth i like ur trash” but idk i feel like so much of this discourse u see #on twt especially #is like ? just people being deliberately aggressive abt stuff they dont like to antagonise others and then going “its just my opinion” #and it's hard to read tone online so it's often hard for me (and im sure for others ?? idk actually) to read whether or not sm1 is being #like. just sharing what they think vs them trying to bait out people who will defend smth they like #idk ive been trying to find ffxiv people to follow bc getting back into the game and finally being confident in my art to draw for it also #has me looking for ppl to follow but i wanna avoid the big livetweet first time experiencers and unfortunately that leaves #a lot of people who are afraid of dawntrail/unhappy with the current patch quests #of which i am neither and i also dont want to log on to the internet every day just to see ppl shitting on things u know ? #and i have seen a LOT of like #'x sucked' and 'fandom lacks critical reading skills' and whatnot #but then u see what theyre talking abt and all theyre doing is shitting on the game itself or going 'x expansion was mid' #like . if u stopped phrasing ur opinions as objective fact i feel like maybe ud avoid half those arguments id k??? #just words #SORRY im talkative today the truth is i worked on a drawing veyr hard and i do not have the strength to colour it but it will not look good #without colour and i feel like i cant move on without it so i went and replayed shadowbringers instead and cried a lot #and now i have lots of icarus feelings again #WOW loiok at me writing an essay out here i overshare so much im sorry

[tea-earl-grey]

there are three types of people in this world:

1) people who think Zagreus is the best dw anniversary special

2) people who have never heard Zagreus

3) people who have incorrect opinions

#you're allowed to have incorrect opinions but i only speak the truth <3 #its three and a half hours and it truly has it all - a cast list thats two feet long #its camp #paul mcgann gets to lose his shit in many ways #it tears your heart out “im the bravest one in this room” #“i love you.” “kill me.” </3 #most of the cast dont play their actual characters #the entire thing is based around alice in wonderland #and best of all it continues in scherzo #absolutely unparalleled #tbh 2003 was the best year for doctor who releases and the actual show had been on hiatus for 13 years #like theres dr who and the pirates. the wormery. zagreus. scherzo. jubilee. project lazarus. omega. davros. master. deadline. #life during wartime too #anyways guess what im listening to on my 15 hour train ride today #doctor who #big finish #doctor who eu #my posts

[tigresslanzhu]

Artica is feeling… grinchy this year!

Artica, to Rosita’s kids: We didn’t have this Olaf stuff when I was a kid! We didn’t have Elves On The Shelf when I was a kid! We didn’t have strobe lights in front of our houses when I was a kid! We didn’t have any of these pink Christmas trees when I was…

Rosita: Artica, stop that!

#sing 2021 #sing 2016 #sing artica #sing rosita #christmas #Artica is just jealous of how pampered todays kids are compared to her #if Rose-Chan hadn’t stopped her she would have pointed out that she didn’t even get half as many presents as they do #of course when you have 25 whiny kids and one whiny husband it can’t be helped #so at least she would have sort of told the truth

[lostlovepunk]

having your parents over should count as negative social interaction

#i had. a day for sure #on one hand: my dad #eho asked a whole bunch of questions abt my stay at the psychiatric hospital i wasn't at all comfortable answering #(like. why do u think it's a good idea to ask abt my methods of self harm) #and who also doesn't seem to understand the concept of disability and injury (yes dad my ankle still hurts 3 hours after i twisted it #no someone who struggles to get to the grocery store won't go on bike tours) #and on the other hand my mum who is sooooo ''worried'' #and actively stressing me out #and doesn't get that sometimes i cannot entertain her. not even when she's helping to clean my apartment #so. lots of dissociation anf half truths today #how did i ever live with these people i am going insane over three hours with them #spike spoke

[stardestroyer81]

Y'all want a Paper Mario-styled drawing of Micah Koopa? 💖✨⭐

#Star's Art #Micah Koopa #Super Mario #Paper Mario #Koopsona #Coolness #Remember how a mere two posts ago that I said I'd draw my koopsona in the actual Paper Mario style? #Well... SURPRISE!!!! 💖 #I wanted to save this post for this Thursday at the earliest seeing that I've been posting a lot about this koopa lately #But after some thought I decided to just post it today because I REALLY want my sister Stephanie to see this #I am so proud of this piece that I just couldn't WAIT to show it to everyone!! #I actually had a draft of this drawing going around the time I first showed my koopsona off here #But I ended up finishing it in almost one sitting and a half because... truth be told... #It is RIDICULOUSLY fun to draw in Paper Mario's artstyle and I've yet again mastered a style on my first attempt XD #I was so certain that the shading style of the Paper Mario series (And the Mario franchise in general) would be a nightmare #But after realizing the trick used to pull it off I was able to finish this quite quickly! #I also heavily referenced TTYD's Koopa Troopa sprite sheet over on Spriter's Resource to draw this #Seeing as that game's sprites are assembled from pieces so there were plenty of assets to go off of #I wanted this to initially look more like that game's key art without the white outline and paper texture... #... but honestly I think it looks a whole lot more perfect leaning in toward how modern Paper Mario's style looks! #You can consider this the definitive reference for my koopsona because I doubt I can top this #... well... that is until I inevitably draw her again #To think a few days ago I couldn't draw Koopas and now I've completely MASTERED it with this piece!!!

[realboutfatalfury]

finally got back to playing zero escape

#aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. ok. yay. <- so astonished #spoilers for puzzles and the ending i got? whoooooo care/////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////// #/////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////<- just to be real sur #i want to get every ending before the true ending and um. wow only got to finishing one today bc um. yeah #i thought the ending with clover you knooooooooooooooowww....... was fucked up but this. holy fuck? holy fuuuuuuuuck #hated the puzzles in door 6 second half. fuuuuuuuck that shit i hate pushing boxes I HATE FINDING 3 DIGITS WHERE THE SUM IS 15. #fuck that one in particular... #i thought it was finding numbers with the digital root of 6 bc F is the 6th later but no.. i gotta find 15 bc of hexadecimal stuff... #but my first guess is not wrong technically bc 15 does have the digital root 6 but still.... #anyways. snaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaake um was seeing him again but also not bc. ☹ #fuck fuck fuuuuuuck i literally stopped at the part where things get crazay. clover tells me snake has a prosthetic arm swag. #later we find his ''body'' and his left arm is a real arm. inchresting. #thought this haaaaaas to come back. and it did. ☹ #AND THEN ACE. 😲 <- my face when finding out the truth #AND THEN CLOVER. clover 😭 #god i'm still like just sitting here processing. woafsdjkfsnjks #AND THEN SNAKE. SNAAAAAAAAAAKE #also the zero bracelet being 6... what does this meaaan?????????!!!!!?!? and zero at the end. and akane disappearing WHA TDOES IT MEAN #well find out next time on gabe plays zero escape after not playing it for 2ish years. lol

[honeybeeofficial]

dang it. after I was in bed last night I realized I couldn’t remember if I’d taken my meds and waffled on that thought for like 10 minutes. even though I take them right before I go to bed, it’s such a small part of the routine it just doesn’t get stored in my memory sometimes so I really might have taken them. I decided to err on the side of not doubling up

and folks, I did not take my meds

#I’m so anxious :( #and it doesn’t help that I didn’t tell my work the truth that I would be traveling today #so really I’m only working a half day but they don’t know that. I’m gonna have to like log on from the airport to log some activity #lamppost #feels bad #I meant to tell them last week that I had something in the afternoon today and would have to work a half day from home #but I couldn’t think of what to say so I decided to just say I was sick today #but that plan failed to account for the fact that I have to leave for the airport at like 2:30

[radioconstructed]

⌖ The amount of people today who were CONVINCED that the EMERGENCY ALERT SYSTEM TEST was ACTUALLY a ploy to ACTIVATE A SLEEPER ZOMBIE VIRUS in them via ELECTROMAGNETIC RADIATION!

⌖ Half of them begged me to PROTECT THEM with my RADIO POWERS and the OTHER HALF are COPING & SEETHING on GANGSTALKTVT about my COMPLICITY with the SYSTEM!

#// deadass the conspiracy theories rearing their heads today... the stuff Al deals with is so stupid and funny. #'gangstalktvt' is her shorthand for 'gangstalk tvitter' which is people who think they're being gangstalked by govt operatives for 'knowing #the truth' (aka believing in wild conspiracy theories). #'Al is a dealmaker' yeah with the equivalent of your average (hell equivalent of a) qanon conspiracy theorist. #(the other half of these ppl think she's In On It. She's in cahoots with Big Emergency Alert System so she's getting cancelled on tv*tter #and it's not the part of tv*tter that usually pays attention to her so she's very amused) #⌖ online

[newts-and-sharks]

I am writhing on the floor and stopping every now and then to take a bite out of cheese and then proceeding to writhe on the floor like an angered spirit being tethered to the floor

#I am #so #dumknvgdrsesfch #but the cheese is my sanctuary #I’m trying to draw #but the scribbles won’t scrimble #I think it’s just too early In the morning #urggggggghhhhhh #I have that 2 truths 1 lie to draw #and after that I wanna try making a small SIWK comic #maybe a little angsty #and then I want to draw Funtime!Sun n Moon with half their faces stuck open #that’s the plan for today #I’m gonna be productive #if I have time I’ll do some art fight doodles

[variouspositions1984]

[organisation redacted] will tell me that rostering always tries to get your last shift as close to home as possible and yet here i am. 30 minutes away at my last shift when my first shift was 10 minutes from home

#so what is the truth? #theyre a great org to work for dont get me wrong but rostering is a nightmare 😭 #half my shifts today were cancelled and replaced w others which is fine but ugghhdjgd #a lot of going with the flow!! and i am a rock in a river.

[tottallynotanalien]

Mother/shipping rant for myself:

OH MY GODDDD!!!

My mom thinks I shipped and read smutty Drarry fanfiction as a young teen (I hate lying, I mentioned Drarry as a way to escape from me saying the reality which is Tomarry as it’s easier to explain and I liked Drarry fanart but am OBSESSED with Tomarry in every way and idk why I’m even mentioning this! I know I’m an awful unhuman human who hates lying and got stuck!) and now she keeps telling everyone she meets how I love reading smutty Drarry fanfiction like WHYYYYY MOTHER WHYYYYYYYY????

Anyways just wanted to get that off my chest, my chest with my broken HEART AS GOOD OMENS CRUSHED IT WITH SEASON 2

#please lord help me #as my #mother #keeps spreading this #and now I wanna die #I prefer #drarry fanart and canon type stuff #but my true heart lies with #tomarry #I hate lying #and so I told my mother a half truth #and now I want to die #she keeps telling EVERYONE SHE KNOWS #LIKE WHYYYY #anyways just wanted to vent #as I hate lying to her #Also today I crocheted a rabbit ear headband! #it’s now my everyday wear #obsessed with it!! #def gonna make more

[bookwyrminspiration]

aw no that sucks!!! i hope it passes soon and that you don't get too bored waiting for it to be safer! i would give you my v simple most favorite chocolate chip cookie recipe but i have no clue where i put it, so i've got this cheesecake chocolate chip muffin recipe that was a hit with my family???

also VERY much thinking about rewatching arcane for like, the nth time, at some point, or maybe painting something since i finally have access to my acrylic paints! it has genuinely been so long and i've missed them but i only have a bunch of little square canvases so i'm trying to figure out what to do haha. maybe now is the time to figure out how to stretch fabric and prep it for painting.... or i could go and figure out where i put all my thread and start sewing, uhhhhh, something. ig We'll See!

Luckily we weren't stuck too long! Weather here changes its mind quickly, so it showed up all of the sudden and then left all of the sudden like 40 minutes later and we could safely descend--though my dad decided it would be fun to leave his truck keys at the top of the mountain -_-

And ooo thank you for the recipe! I have most of the ingredients, but not all, so I'll have to wait for the next grocery trip to get everything should I try them. I think my mom would enjoy those the most, so perhaps I'll make them for her :)

ALSO!! I started an arcane rewatch a while back but never finished it and I keep thinking. About starting again. Because i love Arcane so so much. If only we could coordinate our efforts and rewatch it together--surely there's something on the internet for that, what's the app? Netflix party or something?

I hope you have fun with your paints though!! I must admit I've never been a big fan of acrylic, too thick and opaque and fast drying for me. Watercolor bitch forever and ever here <3/ But! People who know how to work with acrylics are truly incredible, and I can't wait to see what you create! Whether on your own stretched canvasses or not! It would be cool to know, but watercolor doesn't really need that so it's never been a serious consideration in my mind

However! I do like sewing, I've got like all the sewing stuff in the house in my room. Including the machine, it's beside my desk. Quite the pile of things, but I'm never quite sure what to make.

Anyway! Nice to be not stuck on the top of a mountain (though it wasn't bad at all), and nice to hear from you, I hope you're well :)

#quil's queries #soryasongsaa #today I confronted a truth about me I'd been making into a bit and it's. a genuine struggle to dress appropriately for the weather #like I get by most of the time #but when it really comes down to it I don't know shit about fuck #how hot is 60 F? is that chilly or reasonable? #i wore a long sleeve. a BLACK long sleeve. in the middle of summer. in the desert. to go hiking #it worked out when the storm hit #but for the first half I legit just took off my shirt and walked about in my bra like why tf did I think that was smart #i don't even like long sleeves! #so yeah. i genuinely struggle to dress weather appropriately #also have been slowly coming to terms with the fact that I think. I am lonely. but we don't need to get into that now #I did think about it while standing shirtless in the sprinkles of rain on the edge of the top of the mountain though #long post

[todayisafridaynight]

Y'know I'm not big on shipping so sometimes I'm like: "Man, why is it all Kazumaji." when searching for fanart but then I am on Twitter and... I think I am fine with Kazumaji on Tumblr.

i don't know the further implications of this and the diff between twit and tumblr kazumaji but Personally to me it just isn't my cup of tea and i don't really get the pairing

#snap chats #maybe its cause its popular and i have popularitis or something idfk i just cant see the appeal #or. i CAN but not personally yk. i understand why other people like it is what i mean it just doesnt do it for me for some reason #like Sorry Everyone Trying To Scroll The Kazumaji Tag Rn In Peace but ima spit #nvm i forgot what i was gonna say. never mind i remember #anyway it just doesn't do anything for me #like it's not wholly established and there isn't even a lot of in-text reasons to like it which . Hasn't Stopped Me Before #but like i don't have anything to go off of... like the pairings i like i have something to point at and go 'ah there it is mental illness' #and ig with kazumaji there's SOME things like Again I Can See Where People Are Coming From #but it's nothing that makes me go Ah.. The Brain Barnacles Are Here #we been over this but it's been a while but kiryu and majima's relationship really does just feel professional after a certain point #like y3 the earliest but ESPECIALLY after saejima comes into the picture #idk im rambling about something that WILL get me shot but i'm speaking my truth on my blog #moving on. watched the first half of tonbi today..... crying... #i have to update my Top Cutest TTM Charas list now... #but i gotta do these comms first ok bye #then im watching the second half if these dont take me all night..