#this ended up with a lot of UST so i also hope thats okay

[lupismaris]

Canon era, Silverflint. I would like to see a hug after Flint tell Silver about his past in 3.10. Like, Madi just showed him that hugging is effective for comforting, after her dad died. So he's gonna give it a shot :)

(i woke up just to write this and will probably now go right back to bed because the chronic fatigue is unparalleled today but thank you for this prompt i hope you like it!)

The lantern burned low between them, it’s delicate light barely enough to fill the space. Between the darkness that encircled them and the scar of starlight over head, the pulse of the lantern mimicked a heart beat, deep in the chest of whatever insatiable beast the two of them had become. What the light of the lantern could reach flickered in the darkness, the shovel standing as a silent sentinel, the disturbed earth where the whole of their futures now rested, the wisps of the ghosts that their stories had summoned, and Flint’s sharp smile that felt like an omen.

He was watching Silver, leaning in with his elbows on his knees with the bottle of rum forgotten in his hands. It had been almost cocky, the way Flint reminded him of all the various hells he had survived, how he had emerged further deformed by each until he sat there before Silver, a strangely small figure in the dark, like a king in his tomb. His eyes were black in the dim light and Silver was reminded, as he often was, of the sea, of the inky waters that carried them forward to dawn.

“I’ll remind you,” Silver said after a moment, “That you said this. That you think me anything but your inevitable end.” He meant for it to be light, playful, but with the faint whispers of the ghosts in the trees and the darkness, nothing could be said lightly.

“No doubt you will, Mister Quartermaster,” Flint replied, before tipping his head up to take a drink from the bottle. Silver watched his throat work, watched the light dance across his face and hands. The smile was still there when he lowered the bottle, only now it was a little less foreboding, lips slick with rum, a few spare drops in his beard. Flint passed the bottle to him, “And I will remind you, I am sure, that you brought it up in the first place.”

Silver laughed softly and took a drink, rolling his shoulders as the warmth of the liquor filled him, “Only Fair, Captain. Only Fair.”

They sat together a bit longer in silence, passing the bottle between them and simply existing together, in their shared darkness, watching the stars shift over head. The lantern burned lower , the woods closing in closer around them, the ghosts getting louder to Silver’s ears. It was then that Flint finally moved, sitting forward to add a little more fuel to the lantern and get to his feet with a soft groan. Silver watched him, his renewed bulk lost to the shadows around them. The days of becalming hadn’t left either of them completely, not yet at least, but it always left Silver feeling reassured to see the broad span of Flint’s back as he worked, or the softness in his middle, the dulled edge of his cheeks as they filled out again.

“Best find our way back, before anyone sobers up enough to notice we’re missing,” Flint said, reaching to help Silver up from his seat. It took a moment, Flint pulling him up with very little effort and holding tight to his arm until Silver was able to steady himself.

Between them, standing so close, the light of the lantern was extinguished, it’s light catching Flint’s eyes and the rusty trim of his beard like embers. Silver couldn’t help but look up at him for a moment, his mind a useless tangle of words.

He should say something.

He had expected to be ignored, when he asked Flint for his history. He’d expected- anything really, anything but Flint watching him with soft eyes as he cut out his heart and placed it at Silver’s feet, calling on the ghosts who stood always in the corners of their vision, naming them, entrusting them alongside his heart, to Silver’s care.

He had to say something.

But nothing would come. Nothing coherent or clever or earnest enough to be believed could be separated from the endless stream of questions and curiosities and desperate need to name his own ghosts in the safety of the dark.

Flint was watching him, head tilted a little, waiting with the saintlike patience he seemed to reserve for Silver and Silver alone. The same Patience that Madi seemed to show them both.

Madi, Silver thought, Madi had trusted him with her tears, with her heart in its moment of breaking, when he had been so thoroughly undeserving of it. And yet he had held it, held her, until the tears had stopped and the space between them was forever changed.

Oh. Perhaps that was his answer then.

“Is everything alright?” Flint asked softly, and Silver didn’t miss the look of wariness in the lines around his eyes, or the way his body instinctively braced himself for some delayed hostility. Always so ready for the lash, Silver thought, always so ready for the cat or the cane or the cold steel was his Captain. He wondered if he had always been that way, born into cruelty and alive despite it all.

Silver nodded, ignoring the urge to speak and curling his fingers in the fabric of Flint’s shirt, pulling them flush together, eclipsed in the dark. He got his arms around Flint’s shoulders and held him tightly, tucking his face into his neck. There was a moment of stiffness, Flint impossibly still in his arms, his heartbeat skipping where their chests were pressed together. Then- like a line cut and the sails dropped he caved in on himself, curling into Silver’s body and bringing his arms around him with a heavy exhale. Flint hid his face in Silver’s shoulder, his hands spread wide on Silver’s back as if to hold him tighter, to keep him from slipping away. Silver’s left hand cradled the back of his captain’s neck, his right an anchor between his shoulders, his body bowing into Flint’s like a line being drawn in.

Nothing needed to be said, not yet.

The darkness held them, the lantern flickering in the soft midnight breeze. Silver let his eyes close, Flint relaxing further into him with every breath, the weight of his grief shed if but for a moment. Silver could carry it a while, help him share the load. He’d been trusted with it, and so it was now his grief too.

“Steady now,” Silver said softly, lips pressed against Flint’s ear. “Steady now, I’ve got you.”

Flint took a heaving breath and squeezed Silver tight for a moment, a touch of desperation about the way his hands clawed at Silver’s coat. But slowly he let go, straightening again as he pulled away just far enough to see Silver’s face in the lantern light, unbothered by Silver’s hand that now sat at the base of his throat like an open question.

“Stick close to me, John,” he said softly, “I don’t want to be losing you in the dark.”

To late, Silver thought to himself, even as he smiled and nodded, the two of them hooking arms as they made their way through the dark forest back to camp, the silence between them lighter than it had been for a long, long time

It was far, far too late for them both.

#@jaynovz #my fics #black sails #silverflint #jamie's fic prompt fills #james flint #john silver #long post // #kinda sorta it didnt feel long enough for a readmore but its still a smidge long? so sorry about that #this ended up with a lot of UST so i also hope thats okay

[highonchocolate]

Take Two: The Guardian in Gotham Chapter 4

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Note:  When italics are in quotations (“”) then Marinette is speaking French. If the italics don't have quotations, that’s people’s thoughts.

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After patrol, Dick made his way to bed, mulling over the announcement Bruce had made at dinner. When he had seen that picture, he had wanted to join Jason on his Paris killing spree. That girl-Marinette, was it?- seemed to be in need of a better place to stay, and he was happy they could provide it to her. At the same time, he had no idea how to treat a young teenage girl! What does she like? Sports? Dresses? Both? None? He had no idea! As he lay there having a breakdown in a slight panic, he couldn’t force the image of her broken, bloody body out of his head. He wondered what kind of person that sort of assault would turn her into. He had seen greater people snap after such emotional and physical wounds. 

Meanwhile, Jason, Tim and Damian were facing similar dilemmas over the girl in question. 

Jason had no idea how to handle teenagers, especially ones that had been assaulted. Suffering through fucked-up shit like that would definitely leave you with some trauma. He thought to himself. Maybe we should ask her about her boundaries. His coping method involved wearing a red helmet and gallivanting around the rooftops of Gotham, looking for excuses to shoot people. He didn’t exactly think that was the best way to help her out. Sure, he grumbled, I’ll just walk over to her, hand her some Kevlar and a grapple before pushing her off the top of fucking Wayne Enterprises in hopes that she’ll get it right. ‘Cause that’s totally fucking healthy!

Tim on the other hand, was completely and utterly paranoid. Sure, he was definitely worried about that girl, considering that it looked like she had lost a lot of blood; but at the same time, he was worried about exposing their identities to her. Just one slip up, and she would know exactly what the Wayne family did at night. Not to mention that if they ended up getting injured, they’d have to figure out how to hide it from her. As he hacked into her school records, he noticed that she had filed several bullying complaints that had never been acknowledged, as well as a request to transfer classrooms that had been dismissed. Just how corrupt is this school?! He thought to himself as he saw how the principal-Monsieur Damocles- had bent to one girl’s every whim, just because her father was the Mayor! Abuse of power, and ignoring bullying reports? He thought to himself. This is not going to end well for them. With that, he completely launched himself into digging up every bit of dirt he could find on that school and it’s staff; completely forgetting about his original panic over being discovered.

And as for Damian, he was completely furious that there would be another person living in the Manor with them! Not to mention she had to go to Gotham Academy as well! He hadn’t even met this Marinette, and she was already proving to be a pain. 

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As the day of their Marinette’s arrival dawned bright and clear, four members of the family waited for the arrival of their last member and guest. Bruce was slightly nervous. He had never had a girl so young stay in the Manor before, and he didn’t know how to greet her. Did he shake her hand? Smile and wave? Shake her hand then smile? Wave then shake? 

Dick, however, was full of excitement that their new guest was arriving in a couple of hours. He wondered if she knew any gymnastics, and if she would be willing to do some flexibility-related stretches and workouts with him.

All his other children were scattered throughout the city, doing various different things. Jason was up in the Manor library, reading his latest novel. Tim was in his office at WE, finishing up some paperwork he had wanted to fill out before Marinette arrived. Damian, thankfully, was at school, and wouldn’t be returning until later in the evening.

His thoughts were cut short by Tim’s arrival. As he walked into the kitchen and came back with a large mug of coffee, Jason trudged downstairs, and they all sat around in the living room continuing to work and read as they waited for Marinette and Alfred.

Half an hour later, Bruce was alerted to the gates in front of the Manor opening. They all lined up outside the house and watched as the sleek, black limo pulled up in front of the house. 

They waited patiently as Alfred got out of the car and headed to the trunk before opening it and taking out a suitcase, and what looked like a foldable wheelchair. The four of them were confused. Why would she need a wheelchair? Surely her classmates hadn’t injured her that badly? Their thoughts were cut off by Alfred opening the back door on the opposite side of the car. He bent down and proceeded to open the wheelchair, before wheeling it around to face the family. When they caught their first glimpse of their guest, they were absolutely floored.

They had all seen many worse injuries during their nightly patrols, and several injured children years younger than her, but when they saw Marinette, they were shocked into silence at her battered appearance.

She was a decent height at around 5’ 4”, but compared to Bruce and Jason she was absolutely tiny. She had several dark purple-blue bruises that contrasted sharply with her pale skin as well as an angry gash covered in stitches on her forehead. She also sported a clunky cast and a thick brace on her leg and wrist. With her dark hair pulled into space buns, and blue eyes, as well as how small and bruised she looked, they all felt a rush of protectiveness flood through them when they saw her. 

Their silent shock was interrupted by Jason leaning over to Bruce and whispering angrily “You said her classmates did this to her?!” At his exclamation, the other three tensed in anger at the reminder that her old friends had been the ones to injure her so severely. They were snapped out of their thoughts by Marinette speaking.

“Bonjour, Monsieur Wayne! Thank you for letting me stay in your house with you! I promise I’ll do my best to not be a bother to you and your family.” Her voice was slightly rough from when she had been crying, but she spoke sweetly, and politely. At her statement, Jason jumped in “No problem Pixie Stick! The only nuisance here is the Demon Spawn, and he’s not home yet.” She blinked up at him, before her mouth twitched up into a half-smile. “Thank you, Monsieur. I’m sorry but I didn’t get your name…” she trailed off. 

“Sorry about that Sunshine, he’s Jason, I’m Dick, and the sleep deprived one is Tim.” Dick interjected. “And you don’t have to call us Monsieur, either. Just our names are fine.” 

“Oh okay. Thank you Mister Bruce, and thank you Dick! I’m Marinette, but I’m sure you knew that already. You can call me Mari if you’d like. I’m not very picky about nicknames!” She laughed. 

“Now if the young Masters are done with their introductions, I will gladly show Miss Marinette to her room.” Alfred cut in. “Thank you Monsieur Alfred, that would be wonderful.” The girl in question smiled up at him from her seat in the wheelchair before he wheeled her inside.

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Marinette thanked Alfred as he wheeled her into her room. He mentioned that someone named “Damian” was at school, and that she would be attending school after she gets adjusted to the time difference. After he left, she opened her bag to let the Kwami out, and waited for their excited chattering to calm down. Once they had quieted, she spoke. “Hey Tikki? Do you think it was wrong to tell Alfred about the Miraculi being active in Paris?” she questioned as she fiddled with the straps on her bag. ”I was just so excited to meet another wielder that everything slipped out!” 

The Kwami was quick to reassure her. “Oh no Marinette, it's okay. SInce you are the Guardian now, you need all the help you can get. And besides, you already recognized each other’s auras, so there was no point in trying to hide it!” She flew up to her face and patted her unbruised cheek gently. 

“Oh no! I completely forgot to tell Alfred that I’m the Guardian!” She shrieked. “What if he gets mad at me for being too inexperienced?! He’ll kick me out and I’ll have to live on the streets! Then I’ll end up becoming part of the Crime Alley hierarchy, living alone in an abandoned building with a stray cat named Tommy! Tikki this is a disaster! A disaster!!” She would have continued to ramble in french, if it wasn't for the fact that Wayzz had flown up to her and reminded her that she needed to shower because she had been on an airplane and in the airport.

Several curses, near falls, and plastic cast coverings later, Marinette limped out of the shower, exhausted but clean. She quickly tied her hair onto a messy bun before changing into warm leggings (although she couldn’t fully pull one side down due to her cast) and a sweater. Gotham was cold! She let the Kwami roam around her giant room as she put her clothes into her closet. 

After settling in, she plugged in her phone and texted her friends. 

FashionableBug: Just got everything organized and took a shower. Turns out M. Wayne has four kids! I met Dick, Jason and Tim, and apparently Damian is at school. 

QueenofMean: Maribug! How dare u not text us as soon as you arrived! Ur plane landed over three hours ago! 

Snakey Boi: Chlo’s right, Mari. We were all worried bout u.

FahsionableBug: Sorry u guys. Everything was going so fast I completely 4got!

FashionableBug: Also I met a Peacock wielder!!!!!!!

You’reUnderAgreste: Really?! Buginette thats amazingggg

DragonGurl: Wonderful news indeed, Mari. They must have lots of advice for you.

QueenofMean: !!!!!! 

QueenofMean: Nettie thats awesome!!!!!!

SnakeyBoi: Thats totally great!

SnakeyBoi: Also who is it???

FashionableBug: lol Luka its Alfred their butler. Tho hes more like a grandfather

FashionableBug: Anyways, I’m going to go find the kitchen. I wanna make the Kwami some macarons!

FashionableBug: Bye!!!

DragonGurl: Bye Marinette.

You’reUnderAgreste: Bye Bugaboo!

QueenofMean: Bye Bug!

SnakeyBoi: Bye Mari!

Marinette smiled as she put her phone down. Glancing over at the Kwami flying around the room, she stretched before calling out “I’m going to see if I can bake in the kitchen. Do any of you want to join me?” Before she had even finished her sentence Tikki and Kaalki were flying over to her and nestling in her bun. Laughing at their antics, she maneuvered herself into the chair before wheeling herself down the hall. She hadn’t gone very far when she bumped into Alfred walking out of another door. "Salut, Monsieur Alfred! Would you mind showing me where the kitchen is? I was thinking of making some sweet treats for my...friends.” At her statement, Tikki and Kaalki poked their heads out of her bun to wave, before hiding again. Smiling, Alfred turned to her and spoke. “Of course Guardian. Right this way.”  Her eyes darted to meet his hesitantly. “You aren’t mad that I’m the Guardian?” Alfred paused and looked her directly in the eyes. “Miss Marinette, I am in no way questioning your capabilities as a Guardian. You are very powerful, and I have no doubt you will do an amazing job. I am simply upset over how you seem to have no Mentor or any form of Guidance to help you.” Sighing in relief, she smiled. “Well, my old Master lost his memories because he had to give up his memories after being compromised. I do have the Grimoire though, and I was also hoping you would help me as well?” She questioned, looking up at him hesitantly. As they walked into the kitchen, he bowed to her and stated “It would be my greatest honor to assist you, Great Guardian.” She laughed and thanked him before beginning to bake. 

She hummed a simple melody designed to bring about calm and peace, and soon she was happily working in her own tranquil little bubble. 

An hour later, as she was frosting the little pastries, Jason walked in, drawn by the smell of sugar and freshly baked goods. “Hey Alfred! What cooki-” he cut himself off. “Sorry Pixie Stick, I thought you were Alfred. Only he can make something worth eating in this house!” 

“Oh it’s no problem Jason, I was just making macarons. My parents own a bakery, so I’m kinda used to just baking whenever.” She laughed softly

“Damn Pixie, macarons?! You haven’t been here a day, and you’re already much nicer than all my asshole brothers!” 

“Yeah, well these are for after dinner, so no touching ‘till then!” She warned.

He sat at the counter and scrolled through his phone as she decorated the pastries. Soon enough, she had them all completed and proceeded to carefully take the tray and wheel over to the fridge. Before she could move an inch, Jason had leapt up and placed the tray in its designated spot. “Sorry Pix, but I’ll get that for ya. We don’t need you accidentally crashing or dropping these heavenly treats!” He laughed.

She crossed her arms and pouted up at him, before her mouth stretched into a wide grin. As she wheeled herself into the dining room, she swiftly turned her head and stuck her tongue out before disappearing through the door into the room beyond.

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Dinner with the Wayne family was a rambunctious affair. Dick and Jason bantered good-naturedly over their meals as Bruce sighed tiredly in the background. Tim moved lethargically, downing giant gulps of coffee as he ate his meal. Damian apparently was studying with his friend Jon, and therefore wouldn't be eating with them. They all smiled and laughed as they talked through dinner. Marinette told them about her friends, before adding that they’d probably video call her tomorrow so they could meet the family. Bruce assured her that it was not a problem and added that he would be glad to speak with her parents. After eating, she headed up to her room to work on the outfit she had been sketching on the plane. 

She immersed herself in designing, and ended up finally going to sleep shortly after midnight. The Kwami flew over to their little nest of pillows and blankets, and she turned off the lights before drifting off to sleep. Her dreams were plagued by nightmares of looming shadows and ethereal dark butterflies destroying the world in fire. She watched in helpless terror, stuck in her Ladybug persona, unable help as the world burned. The horrific dreamscape was shattered by the sound of her phone blaring out an Akuma alarm. 

She leaped out of bed and shut off the shrill noise as she called for Tikki and Kaalki before leaping through the portal and into Paris.

She ended up in a ravaged, unrecognizable landscape covered in flames. Looks like her dream had been semi-accurate after all. The Eiffel Tower was partially melted, and fires were cropping up all over the city. The four simultaneous thuds behind her signified the arrival of her team. As one they looked upon their ravaged city and charged the Akuma.

#maribat #marinette dupain cheng #damian wayne #adrien agreste #chloe bourgeois #luka couffaine #kagami tsurugi #alfred pennyworth #bruce wayne #tim drake #jason todd #dick grayson #lila rossi #alya cesaire #lila salt #class salt

[bbarican]

life updates: november 09, 2021

work:

my seniors recently complimented me again saying na im a really efficient junior designer and that my main senior is so lucky to have me work with her in all of her projects

yung makati project namin nakakatawa nalang kasi ang daming extra na gustong pagawa nung client namin so syempre madedelay yung turnover pero sila din tong atat mag move it; pls make it make sense po

yung alabang project naman namin, hindi mafinalize ng boss namin yung mga details kasi magboboracay daw muna siya; basta ako ill finalize everything on my end para wala siyang masabi

also! im super duper excited for this one: my ninang asked for my help in designing her condo unit so thats basically going to be my first ever freelance project! wish me luck! im about to prep for our meeting tomorrow too before i go to bed

praying to god na wala kaming ganap masyado sa work para keri kong pumunta ng ust after lunch

last for work: i have officially decided to take the board exam next year meaning i have to email my bosses already regarding my plans on filing for leave from march to july; fingers crossed they allow it!

family:

im so glad my dad is feeling much better; yes, i always am annoyed at him but i really do love him and care about him so much

i am: confused cause my younger brother didnt enjoy bungalow's homer donut as much as i did; IT WAS THE BEST DONUT EVER

my lola is staying over for the night and having her here at home always makes me feel safer than usual

i miss my mom and brother; i cant wait for my mom to come home

syempre di na ko magkukunwari, excited na din ako sa mga pasalubong ng nanay ko yahu

friends:

im so fucking excited to see my bestfriends; we're going back to the beach for tiger's birthday and im just so excited to spend a weekend with them especially since its been so long since we all last hung out

i miss my tumblr bestfriends a lot; sometimes i wish it was 2020 again when all we were doing was staying up late on zoom and literally just playing games and watching movies and talking about everything under the sun and planning random meet ups and actually ending up meeting up with almost everybody

im really excited to review with my bestfriends too and go cafe hopping once review season starts! also syempre matik na din yan, lagi sila matutulog dito sa bahay

personal life:

my puson is hurting a bit and im kind of getting worried na its either 1.) pcos related since i do have pcos or 2.) its something to do with the fact na ang lakas ko nanaman sa juice, soda, and coffee

i have to drink water ONLY i swear to god i do not want to get sick at all, especially in this pandemic

got my first ever 13th month pay today! i really really really need to save kasi i dont want to go into review season with an empty bank account

which means, no coffee or pastry runs whenever im out of the house; i seriously need to discipline myself para din i dont keep gaining more and more weight

i am itching to fix and reorganize and clean my room; cannot wait for the weekend kasi ito talaga gagawin ko

eamon and bec, you have stolen my heart; plus your accents are the cutest thing ever

watching their videos just made me really really want to visit morocco soon cause ive been wanting to go their for so long already

love:

syempre wala

if youve made it this far into my post, thank you so much. i just felt extra chatty this evening and i feel like i had to type everything down cause if i dont, i wont remember them with how busy i am. i hope you guys are doing okay and please know that if you ever feel like just typing everything as well, go for it. just go for it! who cares what other people say? either way, again, i hope you guys have a really lovely tuesday evening and i hope the rest of the week treats us well!

#bbarican #prsnl #thoughts #writings #life #love #work #family #updates #recently

[acciosoogyu]

if big hit debuts a girl group;; idol!au

a/n; actually i'm boring and this came out of nowere, i'm sorry if there're spelling mistakes ir nonsense bc english it's not my first language

Anyways hope u enjoy ^^

[...]

L.I.T (girls)

NAME: L.I.T (lit girls), the abbreviation of Lux In Tenebris (light on dark). They want to share music to those who feel alone in this world.

MEMBERS: 8 (one japanese, one australian, one argentinian and five koreans)

DEBUT: 9th of January

Okay, about the group

one day big hit uploaded a logo, not about bts or txt or lee hyun

It was about a survival show

like stray kids but... yes with girls

girls from other companies (most of them from small agencies)

but there are two trainees from big hit (yeah i like produce fvck me)

in total there are like 20 trainees but only 9 of them are going to debut

the different thing it's that only the trainers can disqualified the trainees (and the audience only votes for concepts and music)

and there are special judges

HWASA, RM AND HOSHI

kdkskdjsila that was unexpected ajkskska

and of course, HITMAN BANG (what)

OKAYY TO THE IMPORTANT PART

it was going to be 9 members but the last place had a problem with her actitude like idk she was not really working with the group and was so rude???

So they end up being 9 crackheads in big hit about to debut

their concept was cute at the begining but big hit say no way these girls need more things, they are so vErSaTilE

and it was a mix of bts and txt debut concepts, a total mess but it matched well

About the members;

kang eun gi

was a trainee from DPS media

98' liner

from busan

a rapper and dancer

'suga-sunbaenim'

SHE REALLY LOVES HIM

thats why she joined bc he is her role model

a shy little girl

tomboy style or something like that

has a cute little cat named nemo

and in every v live shows him off like a proud mum

doesn't know about english but it's actually good in japanese bc anime

and thats why naoki loves her unnie so MUCH

cares a lot about the others and it's the pefect noona for txt kids

like she has a soft spot for her dongsaengs

has an older brother and always wanted to be a noona

so yeah, txt has the best noona ever

and lit girls has a great unnie who can relay on all the worries

She is Scorpio

OKAY NEXT

choi seo joo

from PLEDIS

99' liner

looks soft in the outside

but inside she may have killed you more times that u could think???

yeah it's not what she looks

it's a rapper (surprise)

and a dancer but it's kinda slow when it comes to learn new moves

it's a carat and monbebe

her fav it's jooheon

has every photo of him

and blushes so much when she talks about him like giiiiirl u so CUUUUTEEEEEE

has a love-hate relation with maknae line

bc they are so loud and dumb

but she loves them bc it wouldnt be the same without them

doesn't like animals

actually she can't stand them

only child and very spoiled by her only unnie and her oppas (vocal line from bts)

it's a good friend with changbin (from stray kids) they went to school together

and chan from seventeen it's her bestie

IT'S A LEO

our lovely leader

choi chae rin

no, she is not soobins sister

only have the same brain

like lost soulmates

kidding

from big hit (trainee since 2013)

99' liner

and bts little sister

it's a producer, rapper, vocal and dancer

the perfect girl

and an idiot

in a good way

tries so hard to be there for her members

she don't want them to have a bad moment bc of haters and stuff

so always tries her best

it's beomgyu fav noona

he could not stop talking about her when the show was happening

it's REALLY close with the boys

and pd nim daughter (like chan and jyp way)

didnt want to be the leader

but ruby (aka her bestie for life) bagged

without her lit girls could be a total mess

loves ice cream and butterflies

a virgo

OKAY THIS ONE

wang ruby

chinese-argentinian living in korea

under big hit since she was 14

a 00 liner

her stamina last forever

LIKE SHE IS SO HYPE

and kinda dumb she's actually a genius but it's shy and doesn't belive in herself that much

their fans think more of her like an unnie than a maknae

she is mature and serius when it comes the time

so she is like 'ruby-unnie' to her 00 friends (hyeyeon and nao)

a rapper, vocalist and dancer

sometimes a producer and song writer

loves mamamoo and wheein

her dream it's a collab with her

and also a collab with 3racha

bc seojoo show her some music and now it's a fan

it's friends with everyone

a fake sunshine bc when she mad

oh boy

she is M A D

may kill u or just make u suffer for a long time

so don't mess up w/ her

REALLY close with Heejin and HyunJin from loona (went to same school)

and shuhua (g-idle) just bc she know chinese (multilingual queen)

AQUARIUS

next

jung hye yeon

main vocal

center

and a cutie

looks like an angel

and it's one

like she is so good to every single one

00 liner

under source music

usted to be friends w umji

knows little english

and it's really good at maths

her dance skills glow up in such a short time

and also her vocals

voice of an goddess

high notes own her

and the best facial expressions

it's shy around boys but

girls?

confident gay comes out

lot of winks and joke

and giggles

nothing can make her mad

she is just so sweet :(

and caring

a cute little piscis

not like the other one

mirasae naoki

00 liner

under blockberry creative

best friend of gowon

and a crackhead

a big one

but she has a lot of talents

knows about beatbox and football

and a rapper

but a vocalist

has big eyes that could melt your heart

and a voice that sends you to heaven

but she is evil

loves mesing around

and it's so easy going with everyone

no matter nationality or age

she is going to be your friend after all

okay but seriously

she is an amazin dancer

her moves are perfect and learns fast every choreo

it's the tallest

and tease all her members w that

it's so different from hyeyeon

but share birthday

yeah she is a pisces

okay this one

park zuri (eunwon in korean)

short and cute

02' liner

from source music

a rapper

from australia

she was kinda shy when meet the others

but now?

has no shame to drag her members down

she roast them why free style

her korean it's perfect

bc her dad it's a korean teacher and her mum a famous writer

her dream was to be like CL

now she wants to be herself and make music

knows how to play the piano

and sings pretty good

but still it's better in rap

small bean

yeonjun and jungkook want to protect her

but she really doesn't need that

it's a strong and brave girl

but cannot sleep without her tata plushie

witch makes taehyungs heart melt bc SHE IS ADORABLE

Scorpio

and finally

park hye jin

maknae

03' liner

the baby of big hit

the princess

and perfect girl

from rainbow bridge world

so she is one of the main vocalist

her voice it's so sweet and soft

like her

and when she is singing and smiles like :>

OMG AKSIWJWJISJD CUTE CUTE

she is the favorite

everyone loves her

bc she is perfect

calls taehyun oppa bc they are good friends and the rest shipps them in secret (bc they're still kids)

anyways

has three older brothers that go to every event just to look at her and say hi

the fandom thinks of her like a baby koala

and thats her nickname

koajinnie

a whole cutie

for being a capricorn

finally

Sorry if there're mistakes, i tried my best :<

byebye~~

#idol!au #lit!girls #bts #bts imagines #bts incorrect quotes #bts incorrect texts #jungkook #taehyung #namjoon #namjoon x reader #kim namjoon #park jimin #seokjin x reader #kim seokjin #hoseok #jung hoseok #bighit #big hit #au idea #stray kids #loona #tomorrow x together #yeonjun #huening txt #soobin #kang taehyun #beomgyu #txt post #kpop incorrect quotes

[nebulawriter]

Black Panther

WAIT BEFORE YOU SCROLL AWAY! If you like this blog, some news: I recently got a moviepass, which means I will be watching a lot more movies, I’m hoping to make it one movie per week, which means one movie REVIEW per week. I’m not sure what I want to do with television right now, though, so we’ll deal with that later. 

ANYWAY as all the early reviews have told you this was a really good character driven, socially aware, well plotted, well crafted movie. 

I mean I think it kinda had to be, right? The first major black superhero movie? Granted I only saw it a little bit ago, but it’s hard to find flaws. but I want to start with that so I can talk about the characters, since they’re the centerpoint of the film. 

I mean I guess it’s not...the most complicated plot? I’m sure that was done intentionally so they could focus on showcasing the world and the characters and everything else, but...I mean its pretty predictable for the most part. 

Tied into that there was a lot of pretty on the nose exposition? but that was needed to explain the world and properly set things up and. Yeah, it was fine. 

Oh and there was one character death that was kinda unnecessary. 

Other than that? Yeah it was pretty solid. 

Killmonger: As you may have heard, this is one of the best villains marvel has put forward. I mean, it’s not the highest bar, basically he’s hanging out with Vulture, Hela, and Loki in the “best marvel villains” tent. I will disagree with some critics that he’s the BEST part of the movie or something like that (especially with like...*gestures to all the other characters*) but yeah he has a ‘point’ and some excellent political commentary and he’s got a cool look to him. Marvel has successfully saved another ex-human torch, because he does some wonderful acting that really stands out playing against the other characters. Personally I’m not quite behind the trend to make sure villains “have a point” but “take it too far” because I feel like that treads dangerously into just having the marginalized being villains for the heroes, and then we get into the “bad” marginalized people and....okay thats a complaint for the trope in general, THIS movie doesn’t do too much to contribute to that. I mean it’s a thing but he’s still a good character and a bad...person...and I get that. Actually a part of me wants to write something up about what really ‘Made’ him a villain, because I think it was more America than Wakanda, but that might not be for me to do. 

Klaue: Andy Serkis steps out of his motion capture suit to give a....well it was still a pretty animated performance. I think if he were the ‘main’ villain he would have gotten annoying, but as a side villain he played off Killmonger well. Did not expect him to die, mostly cause I thought Marvel was gonna keep him on, but kudos, movie. Though I wasn’t happy Killmonger’s girlfriend died, that felt unnecessary.

W’Kabi & Okoye: This will probably be more about Okoye because Heck Yeah but I love the duality in morals presented with these two, especially as they’re presented as lovers. Both are close to T’Challa, but both end up betraying him for Killmonger at the halfway point (ish. Not really a betrayal. just. On Killmonger’s side) and it’s so clear that Okoye does this for her love of Wakanda, and when Killmonger did things according to the rules of Wakanda, Okoye followed him, even if she didn’t like it. Very Lawful. W’Kabi, though, wanted what Killmonger could offer, and when the chips fell, went to war over it. These two also were the leaders of the armies that fought in the finale, so it was very interesting to see these two as opposites. Also, though OKOYE!!! DAMN I LOVE HER SO MUCH!! LIKE DAMN!

M’Baku: Don’t have much to say on him, other than I guess the one thing that wasn’t predictable was the good guys coming to these guys for help, but it made narrative sense, and it was nice to see that he was just....legitimately doing what he thought was right, the traditionalist to Shuri’s progressiveness. I wonder what he thinks about the end of the movie.

Zuri: Yeah I called his death the second he was on screen. 

Ramonda: I actually called her death too, but was gladly surprised. Woo!

Everett Ross: I did not expect to like Martin Freeman in this. It’s weird hearing him with an American Accent. He might be the weakest character in the movie, but that doesn’t quite feel like a flaw, he was....a plot point. And it was nice seeing the white guy being a plot point. 

Nakia: I admit, it took me a bit to stop just thinking of her as Lupita Nyong’o, but I loved her, I loved that she was always right, I thought her romance with T’Challa was adorable, and she was badass. Absolutely the moral center of the film and I dug it. 

Shuri: !!!!!!!! The comic relief of the film, clearly more in touch with the outside world than most, but she had respect for Wakanda and traditions and such. Her dynamic with her brother was amazing (actually, T’Challa’s dynamic with all the women were amazing, but we’ll get to that) She was smart and witty and brought some great levity to the film. Plus....awesome. IDK. 

T’Challa: A solid man, a good king, I like him. I mean that was basically it was just following him as he faced some pretty damn tough decisions. And then everything went to hell in a handbasket and. Whoops. But yeah, he was awesome, and a great person to have at the center of all the wild personalities listed above. Woo!

Wakanda: What an amazing world. I know so little of African culture I can’t really speak to a lot of it but I appreciate all the touches of it, and....okay I really appreciated that the tribes were color coded that. that helped a lot. But yeah holy shit that was amazing to see. 

(Sidenote, Theory for Infinity Wars: I’m betting that inside that Comet of Vibranium that’s made Wakanda so rich is in fact the Soul Stone. That’s my guess anyway. I dunno, if I were an alien trying to keep one of the Infinity Stones away from Thanos, wrapping it in a giant ball of Really Tough Metal and launching it into space (where it might have accidentally hit a measly planet like Earth) seems like a good idea.) (But the Wakandans in their new trading initiative dug too greedily and too deep and will probably find it and accidentally reveal its location to Thanos. Whoops. Can’t wait to see all the tribes united, fighting together, WITH the Avengers) 

The Social Commentary: Im willing to put money on the idea that the mid-credit scene was written after 45′s election, because you could almost tell they were ust... desperately trying not to say the word “wall.” 

As it was, yeah, this movie was directed towards a specifically African American audience, and I say African American instead of Black here because a lot of it is focused on America’s race problems (not to say other countries around the world DONT have that, but it was very America focused, which, for a movie made by Americans, makes sense. 

Anyway, as I am NOT African American, or a racial minority of any sort, I cannot speak to this with any nuance and can just say “Good.” Like, thumbs up, with my understanding of it, I’m all in favor of black communities a) helping each other out and b) getting stronger in general. If anything, I think a lot of the white characters in the movie could have been held more accountable, and considering Ross was right there they could have done something with that. but hey, they kept their focus, I’m good.

The plot: Like I said, kinda predictable (did you really expect me to believe T’Challa was dead?) but I....don’t care. It was tight, like, no holes that I can think of though I’m sure the internet will think of some.

Oh, and Bucky’s still in Wakanda. We kinda knew that but ‘kay. 

I really want to see Luke Cage working with the New York Wakandan Outreach Initiative, and/or going to Wakanda. I just think that’d be neat.

Wait, actually, thats it. T’Challa vs. Killmonger reminded me of Luke Cage vs.....shit what was his name, his half brother. Like, finding out his Dad was Wrong and now dealing with a villain his Dad created.

Am I missing anything? I think that covers all the stuff. 

#black panther

[pitifulbefore-a]

this is long as hell but I really like what I wrote about Jeremy’s grief if Michael had died in the fire so uh?? here you go

ophelias-Today at 12:24 AM

JEREMY BREAKS DOWN, LIKE MIDDLE OF THE HALLWAY JUST CRUMPLES. SQUIP IS YELLING AT HIM FOR MAKING A SCENE. SHOCKING HIM TO GET HIM TO MOVE. HE CANT. HES FUCKING BROKEN HE FEELS LIKE HE LOST A PART OF HIMSELF. AND ITS HIS FAULT HOLY SHIT DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH HE WOULD BLAME HIMSELF

andveronica-Today at 12:26 AM

i'm fucking sobbing i can't believe this shit

Bae-ley-Today at 12:26 AM

!!!!IF HE HAD LISTENED TO MIKEY MIKEY WOULD HAVE LEFT THE BATHROOM AND WOULDN'T HAVE DIED I'M CRYING

andveronica-Today at 12:27 AM

christine would decorate this locker, fill it with flowers and notes and a picture of him and she'd hang some earbuds there

ophelias-Today at 12:27 AM

YEAH AND THATS WHY JEREMY BLAMES HIMSELF

Bae-ley-Today at 12:27 AM

FU C KING JER WANTING THE SQUIP OUT LIKE THEN AND THERE

ophelias-Today at 12:28 AM

HONESTLy

SQUIP YELLING AT HIM IN THE MIDDLE OF THE HALLWAY. JEREMY YELLING AT THE SQUIP TO GET OUT. LIKE ACTUALLY YELLING. AMÉLIE HAS TO COME GET HIM AND ITS THE FIRST TIME HES TALKED TO HER IN MONTHS. HES HALF SOBBING TO HER AND HALF SCREAMING AT THE SQUIP

andveronica-Today at 12:29 AM

christine would want to walk over to him to make sure he's okay when he's still in the hall but she probably gets held back

Bae-ley-Today at 12:30 AM

BECAUSE THE LAST TIME HE SEEN HIM WAS RIGHT AFTER HE CALLED HIM A LOSER SO HIS FACE JUST IS HAUNTING HIM

ophelias-Today at 12:31 AM

JER JUST SCREAMING YELLING AT NOTHING APPOLOGIZING HOPING MICHAEL WILL HEAR IT

tbh he doesn't blame rich for the fire as it is now but if michael died in it............. hoooo boy

Bae-ley-Today at 12:32 AM

OH SHITHE WOULD BLAME HIM CUZ SOMEONE GOT WORSE THAN HURT AND IT WAS HIS BEST FRIEND J E SUS

ophelias-Today at 12:32 AM

IT WOUDL BE BAD. HED BLAME EVERYONE. HIMSELF THE MOST BUT HES JUST SO. ANGRY AND UPSET. HES LASHING OUT AT EVERYONE

andveronica-Today at 12:33 AM

I just realize... rich would take an involuntary manslaughter rap for it, at best. Bc like... Since he knew the house was full prosecutors could go for homicide

ophelias-Today at 12:34 AM

jeremy just. 'GOOD'

andveronica-Today at 12:34 AM

Cause like... When it's just arson he can get parole. Murder? Nope.

andveronica-Today at 12:36 AM

Jeremy would probably be the most mad at Rich and Christine, if you think about it. Rich set the fire that killed Michael. And he got the squip to impress Christine, and the squip is what made him say the things that made Michael go to the bathroom.

ophelias-Today at 12:36 AM

even if someones trying to comfort him

jeremy? blaming everyone around him? shoving everyone away? hating everything and everyone no matter their role? more likely than u think

Bae-ley-Today at 12:37 AM

OR MAD AT HIMSELF THE MOST CUZ THE SQUIP WAS OFF AND EVERYTHING HE SAID WAS HIS FAULT

ophelias-Today at 12:37 AM

DEFINITELY MAD AT HIMSELF THE MOST

andveronica-Today at 12:38 AM

Christine WOULDN'T stop trying to help him as much as he pushed.

ophelias-Today at 12:38 AM

im not joking he finds out at school and he crumples then and there on the ground screaming cant catch his breath 'get out get out you killed him you fucking killed him get out GET OUT I KILLED HIM YOU LET ME FUCKING KILL HIM'

Bae-ley-Today at 12:39 AM

WHATEVER YOU DO DON'T IMAGINE THE LIKE MICHAEL "burn it" SCENE BUT WITH JER SOBBING UNCONTROLLABLY ABOUT THEIR STUFF

Bae-ley-Today at 12:39 AM

OH GOD HE DIDN'T WEAR HIS HOODIE. JER COULD HAVE HIS HOODIE

ophelias-Today at 12:40 AM

jer takes that hoodie and never lets it go wtf

Bae-ley-Today at 12:40 AM

SOBS ON THE FLOOR HOLDING IT TIGHTLY

ophelias-Today at 12:41 AM

listen jer finds the hoodie and it s like losing michael all over againon the ground clutching it unable to move or even notice whats going on around him sobbing and yelling at himself or anyone that comes near

Bae-ley-Today at 12:42 AM

WHATEVER YOU DO ALSO DON'T IMAGINE HOW BROKEN MR.HEERE WOULD BE

andveronica-Today at 12:42 AM

Daddy Heere would be heartbroken

Bae-ley-Today at 12:43 AM

bUT IT WOULDBE LIKE. LOSING HIS OWN BLOOD SON. LIKE LOSING JER

ophelias-Today at 12:44 AM

mr. heere's grief is more silent than his son's because he's trying to be supportive. but he also just retreats completely never goes to work excuses himself to cry silently where jer cant see

Bae-ley-Today at 12:45 AM

MMMMM OKAY SO TWO FUNERAL ANGST IDEAS MICHAEL'S PARENTS DON'T COME OR TWO , they DO AND JER YELLS @ THEM

ophelias-Today at 12:45 AM

jer screams at him one day because jer's grief is angry and blood boiling and he's like 'you dont even care!!!' and mr heere yells back 'he was like my own son of course i do!!' or smth and they end up ugly sobbing and holding each otherjer screams and screams and it doesn't make a whole lot of sense to mr. heere but he listens and tries to calm himlisten if jer ever sees michael's parents again you can bet you he's gonna yell at them

andveronica-Today at 12:47 AM

Imagine how empty that funeral would be I'm sad

Bae-ley-Today at 12:47 AM

JER JUST WOULD ALREADY BE ANGRY AND UPSET BUT IF HE SEEN THEM HE J UST RAGE

ophelias-Today at 12:48 AM

thats the one time jer's grief is anything but seeing red and he's just crying and over michael's casket which is closed obv and he's probably not in there but he's crying and talking like maybe michael can hear him oh god

andveronica-Today at 12:48 AM

It'd be his brother, the Heeres, Christine, a couple people from school who felt bad... Maybe his parents.

Bae-ley-Today at 12:49 AM

LUNA MY F UCMING HEART

ophelias-Today at 12:49 AM

'yknow i was gonna bury your hoodie with you because i know you love it i thought you could use it but i cant michael i cant. if i give it up it feels like im giving you up i cant do it again. michael im sorry im sorry for everything you didnt deserve this it should have been me'

ophelias-Today at 12:50 AM

he stays there for hours after the funeral just appologizing for everything

andveronica-Today at 12:50 AM

Christine would be really soft in her attempts of comforting Jeremy, BUT. After all his anger and resistance?? She'd break out a little tough love and just

ophelias-Today at 12:51 AM

from everything w/ the squip to breaking his favorite crayon when they were kids

his dad leaves and comes back to pick him up later jeremy falls asleep next to the grave because its been hours that he's just been talking w/ no answer and trying to fill a space and days since he's been able to sleep

Bae-ley-Today at 12:52 AM

OH G OD AND LIKE THE FIRST WEEK OF WHEN HE'S BURIED HE KEEPS VISITING HIS GRAVE

ophelias-Today at 12:53 AM

first week?? first month. he makes a trip up there at least twice a week for the first year once a week until he graduates highschool. tells him everything

ophelias-Today at 12:55 AM

( 'rich told me how to get rid of the squip. who knew, mountain dew red? i know you love it. but ah, it's-- it's gone now. i'm sorry it wasn't soon enough.' )

#░ ჻ OOC // the squip lurks instrumental. ] #░ ჻ HEADCANON // ticks and fidgets are persistent. ] #death// #long post// #caps lock// #YEAH I TRIED TO CUT IT DOWN BUT YIKES WE TALKED A LOT #I took like #all of us screaming at each other out #and all the messages that were sent one at a time were combined into one #and its still long af #like literally double the length if I kept us screaming at each other because we're literally crying wtf #p. s/ave tba.

[until-things-get-better]

[[sending this because youre presumably asleep and . i want to shout this into nothingness of space: god i love you. i love you so fucking much,. i feel so fucking bad about it every day. every day i go to sleep and wake up crying at least gently because i know that me loving you this much is honestly getting to borderline harassment and i know its so fucking creepy. i know that me smelling you is creepy bbUT ITS SUBCONCIOUS OKAY IM NOT. TRYING TO SMELL YOU  I  J UST,,, END UP DOING THAT A L OT,,,  i   jus t,. i know this is all so fucking weird but ive never been struck by someone this hard and its driving me insane. i love you so much more than i loved darby and i dont know how thats possible. last night i had a dream that someone was threatening to "teach us (you & me and a few others) a lesson" at a public restaurant and we were all fucking afraid for our lives but like. no joke i saw how scared you were and i was immediately protective and i straight up risked my life and almost died getting him away from you guys and when i woke up i totally realized that im always recklessly protective of you,. im always with you and youre so important to me and i always want to protect you and i j ust want you to be happy ann d j just, ,, i  dont know,, god, dude. i hate being like this so much. and honestly what,, my love hasnt changed for you at all it just got a name. i loved you like this every second we were fwb a nd,,  me putting the name on it ruined it. me calling it love ruined it all. because i dont know. this could be extreme friend love. and thats a good escape for me ,, jjust imagine its friend love . but the fact that i also really fucking liked being with you sexually and really really really liked being with you romantically (aka being with you in a fluffy fashion) makes it a lot harder because it doesnt matter if that love is just friendly love. i miss you. i miss you so much. and,,,, beyond love: fuck talking about love. its benign and honestly i love a lot of people. love comes really easy to me, how about just enjoying the time we have here and letting things happen. lust. just. wanting to feel good and be okay,,,, i wish you fucking lusted for me. i wish you liked being with me., i wish we could go back to having sex as infrequently as you want. even if it was only like spontaneously every few months. even if you wanted to do it whenever you wanted but you needed breaks. dude, i get it. im a lot and i get taking breaks but i WISH that you wanted me. i wish that you missed getting fingered as i do. i wish that you missed our cuddling,, our spooning, ,, our kisses e e ven i k now,,  y y ou   didn t like those as much as i did but , ,,,,, i wish you missed that warmth. i wish you missed the way we were. i wish you missed, ,, us . look, what we are now isnt bad or wrong or anything like that because ive always been your best friend first and our relationship has never truly changed at the core because i dont do that when i fall in love anymore. i know that changing relationships in response to love is wrong and stupid and it ruins all the magic.  i just,. i miss us dude. i miss our sexual escapades because i felt so good and so comfortable with you and youre my best friend. theres literally nobody on the planet id rather have sex with than you. theres nobody im more comfortable sharing my secrets with than you. theres nobody im more comfortable trying to satisfy than you and ff uck dude,,, i miss you, !!! i miss you so much. i know i used to run out in the rain and cry that id never get to date you. that id never call you my boyfriend but i didnt realize then: i dont care. i dont care dude. i love you and i would love to date you and call you my boyfriend but look,, i dont need that from you. i dont need security. i dont need you to do anything you dont want to do. plus we literally spent as much time together as a dating couple would so: i dont really care. i dont need to hold your hand in public, as much as i want to. i used to get so swept up in it but id always pull my out of it with a quick 'but look josh, youre having sex with him and its awesome. every day of your life is awesome because of him.' l ll ook dude, , i dont know what im trying to say with all this. its just a long run on sentence of 'gosh i still feel the way i do right when you broke up with me' but i do have a little message. think about us more. think about the things we did more. think about thanksgiving more. ww hy ,, why did you want to stop having times like that ,,? is it because i always acted like it wasnt enough, , ?? because i regret that so much and i would never do that again. i would never take sex with you for granted again. i would never pressure you to date me again. iis it really because, as you said, you stopped liking it ,,? iif you really did, what was wrong because we could fix it. we could figure it out dude. i dont know i m j ust, .,,, im not ready for it to end, okay? im not ready! im not fucking ready ! and thats empowering to say with an exclamation mark! a few weeks ago i reread our texts and saw you say that you still had lots you wanted to try with me and you didnt want to stop anytime soon. that polar express day,,, where i spent all day with you and i honestly loved being with you so much. the day you pulled me out of a funk i was in for no reason. dude. tt o me,, ,,, that cant be the end. that cant be the way our story ends. i love being with you the way i was more than ive ever liked anything else in my life. ive never looked forward to anything more in my life, not even the most magical trip to disneyland with darby. ii,, ,  i know its weird to think about again after saying adamantly that you dont want to get back in it but , , do you honestly want to stop? i want to sit you down in front of me in real life and ask that so badly., ssince youre presumably not seeing this, i,, hope i get the chance to do that sometime,,,, bbecause i dont want it to stop. not now or ever. and i get it if you need to leave me for someone because you choose them. because you love someone else more than me. thats fine dude. if you find someone you like being with more and you have to choose one then choose them,, itll hurt! itll suck., but itll be so much better than being left for literally nothing. i  ,,  i dont know. im going to end this massive text wall now but fuck,. fuck dude. FUCK. think about us!!!! think about us. think about the us we were on thanksgiving night and think of if you want that back because god dammit i do every moment of every day. thanks ♥]]

[survivorcordillerablanca]

Episode 8 Confessionals

This is long overdue but I've been busy because my brother got married woooo! Okay so FINALLY WE MERGED! Jordan and I survived the hell tribe and we made it here. We had to lose Jay which absolutely sucks, I feel terrible for voting him out but I did what I think was the right thing. The biggest piece of news is that I was literally on the merge tribe for like 10 minutes and ended up FINDING THE IMMUNITY IDOL!! I WAS SO SHOCKED I COULDN'T BELIEVE IT!! I haven't told anybody about it but I might....MIGHT....tell Jordan about it to show that I do trust him after wavering so much on my decision about potentially voting him out. We have an auction coming up, I hope I get something really cool from it! Bryce told me that he was the one that gave me the idol but Zach told me that he was the one that pushed for him to give it to me so I'm thankful to the both of them for that. I think I could get good with Carson, Zach, Bryce and Charlotte. Katie and I have bonded over our love of true crime, she's super nice and her connection to Jordan Pines is incredibly strong so we can do this. I believe that Copa isn't dead just yet. 

finally got into an alliance with charlotte and chris

i bid well at the auction and got a nifty apple that lets me sit out for a round #blessed

Finding out someone I want to work with is an Amy Schumer fan.... maybe shouldn't work with them :/. Jk!! But am I even DKSFJSD

zack just sent me this message "and im in kuang si (it’s a main season, if you know what those are) asdjfk" I dont know how to respond to that

Merge sweet merge! Okay so I'm officiallly in an alliance with Katie and Charlotte. We're the Senior Citizens. Katie is playing up to Jordan that she doesn't have any allies in hopes of him telling her any potential people from Ulta who might flip. Meanwhile I have to PUBLICLY pick 3 people to go to the wishing well with me. Obviously taking the Senior Citizens, but I then decided on Bryce because he was the only person not mention by Jordan as someone he thinks he's working with. Immunity just happened and as of right now I feel content with my score but some people are insane and will destroy me. I really hope I win because I feel like I'll get cut as soon as the opportunity arises.

me two days ago: I should probably try to be less hostile towards JP. me today: DISADVANTAGE GOES TO JP. i'd say i'm sorry but that would be a lie.

am i up to date on confessionals 

hope i dont go home probably should have used my advantage 

We merged!!! and im stressed as hell. i have NO idea what im doing. chris won this wishing well thing in the auction and took katie, charlotte, and bryce. so it set off alarms to me and zach so we're working on the me/willow/zach thing we were planning on before, we just have mroe of a reason now. the plan is: vote jordan pines this first round (even though hes trying to talk strategy with me and if eel bad bc i told charlotte to use the disadvantage on him) recruit luke and katie and vote chris out at final 8 and thats our plan so far bc... its hard to plan things in survivor! yeah i have no idea i hate the merge especialyl when i know where NO ONE sits

Whose got two thumbs and flopped at immunity? THIS GUY. But it's all good. We have two clear outsiders in the form of luke and Jordan. I feel bad because I genuinely like luke. I'm hoping we can get rid of Jordan and then I can swoop up precious baby luke to use him to get some of the ulta's I'm not close with out. For now, me, Katie, Carson, and charlotte are going for Jordan unless something drastic happens. 

I'm tired and I've been essentially goating myself this game yikes 

So at this point, it's the morning of the first merge tribal. Exciting? Yes! Nerve-wracking? Yes! Willow won immunity. I lowkey was going to force a tie because I know any intellectual could get 5 at most (Willow's smart, so I just expected it) then her comp adv. of -2 would ensure her a win since 3 is theoretically impossible. SHE GOT TWO! Good on her though! I overall chose not to snatch her score because I felt really bad, and it was with someone whom I potentially was going to work it or would work with. Speaking of, Willow, Carson and I formed a trio alliance. We both comprehend that the two Copa need to go soon. I think it'll be Jordan Pines this vote. However, a) I don't want Luke to go JUST yet, as we can utilize him, and b) the votes might flip and ADIOS me! I also have worrying speculation of an alliance including the newbies. This is purely because of whom Chris decided to take on his little... trip to the wishing well. It's just a little suspicious, considering Carson admitted to me he talks to Chris relatively every other day, so it was shocking. Nonetheless, it's a game decision, doesn't matter much.. My game plan from this point forward is to just try to be fairly more social. I've been talking to Chris and Katie a lil more. I'm on relatively good terms with Luke. Carson and I are best buddies. Willow is a LEGEND! - then we have Bryce, a king who I don't talk to much but is iconic. Charlotte, a literal icon. Jordan Pines! (that name along speaks for itself). It's going, I guess. We'll see ^-^

So I finally found the wishing well thing and I completed my task yay!! I can now see who votes who for one tribal but idk when im gonna use it tbh. I think I'll tell carson about it b/c hes my number 1. But for this vote i'm hoping itll be easy and be one of jordan/luke just gotta talk to the other ulta people.

Okay so I think its just gonna be the easy vote of Jordan? Hope its not too easy and im not too complacent

Here's the thing. Anyone who has ever played with me before, or knows me, knows that I pretty much play the same game. I stick with my alliance and only turn on them when I need to ... I'm not one for cannibalizing the alliance too early. But ... I'm bored. Everyone's quiet, no one's exciting me, and I really just want to watch the world burn. Do I like Jordan? Eh. Will he make the season more exciting? Absolutely. If I can convince Katie and Carson, or maybe Zach, to vote for Jordan ... the game will flip upside down.  I'm here for a little Chaos. 

is Jordan gonna die tonight? the answer probs wont surprise you as YES. AHHHHH. IM GOING HOME FUCK FUCK FUCK ME, FUCK YOU RYAN TEDDY PALMER. I am trying to save myself but i may be all out of lives.

I'm watching Shookstralian Survivor and writing a confessional, I hear this episode is iconic so I'm preparing! Michelle is winning btw! Okay so back to Cordillera Blanca...I didn't win immunity...Jordan didn't win immunity which means that both of us are vulnerable at tribal and one of us could potentially be going home tonight which is worst case scenario. As of now I think the votes are going to Jordan and I would be open to playing my idol on him but I would need to be 100% certain that I'm not getting votes because I DO NOT want to idol myself out. If I lose Jordan this round I do still have my Golden Monkey Idol to fall back on at the next tribal council so hopefully that work out in my favour. Right now Jordan and I are trying to pull in Charlotte, Katie and Zach to make a majority of 5 so that we can take over this tribe. Stay tuned...;) 

Did Jordan just save himself? MAYBE?????? If all goes according to plan,  me zach luke, charlotte and carson will vote for chris and blindside him 5-4. So #letsnotkilljordanpines

Omg so I have a randomized vote this round which really sucks but I sent in a fake vote so if people ask I can hopefully trick them also I'm shook I won immunity with4 guesses

So... charlotte wants to flip and zach does too which.. i gues?? djksd we with jordan andl uke.. a VERY tight duo pretty much, and its gonna be hard to break that, so we cant let them get far. but getting chris out right now?? idk if its right. im still a bit bitter over him not taking me to the wishing well [3:59:22 PM] Jordan Pines: same here <3 [4:00:34 PM] carson: (y) if i hear anything i tell u but just know I'm down with u lukle charlotte and zach [4:00:46 PM] Jordan Pines: same here <3 also jordan sent the same message to me twice which.. kinda shady but like i hope its not anything bad?? if he rats us out i dont think im the biggest target but like.. ya never know in this game. also idk if my social game is good bad or whatever, buti m hoping its good and it can propel me to a victory?? zach keeps saying hes my lapdog andj ust.. uh i dont want that i want to be equal allies. whatevs?? idk. also willow's vote is apparently randomized from what zach said and charrlote found where the iodl was hidden but it waas found so someone else has it... so idk. IDK i feel like flipping on the entire tribe and doing 5-4 the first vote is soooo risky. im thinking that me/zach can tell willow we're voting chris even though her vote is randomzied so she cant rlly do anything?? she doesnt talk  a lot of strategy because she takes awhile to respond but she's cool and id definitely say i trust her more than most people here. like bryce, i cant read him or chris. katie's cool but i feel like shes a bit fake to me like saying how much she trusts me when we dont talk that much?? and charlotte/jordan/luke just give weird vibes idk. only person i trust 100% is zach ig uess because we talk 24/7 and hes cool. hope this vote can go as planned, and im still kinda having cold feet, but like... i dont wanna lose jury votes so i either commit or go home.

hi can i have an episode title i came up with someone very clever here it goes: Why are all my tribe mates children like hey whats up welcome to lord of the fucking flies.

So this vote for the longest time was going to be Jordan. I was going to stick with it, but knowing me, I don't like boring games and it'd be predictable to do that. Charlotte came to me about voting out Chris. Not that directly, I guess, but mentioned flipping. I was down for it, but I wanted to talk to Carson. LUCKILY, she wanted to include Carson to, so we made an alliance ^-^ I believe right now the vote is sailing for Chris. I feel bad but it's the game, and you gotta do what you gotta do. No hard feelings. The game is tough. WHY DO I PUT MYSELF THROUGH THIS ALL THE TIME ARGHGH

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