#things are ok things are fine lately

[lunarharp]

lil extras for the free day

#witch hat tag #orufrey #orufreyweek2023 #gotta put these silly things here now 🤦‍♂️ cause the remaining prompt to catch up is not a happy one so it should go somewhere else.. #didnt end up doing anything that pushed my limits after all..but that's ok. since i've felt pretty depressed lately this week was my treat #i def feel like i get less likes & RTs overall on twt recently even tho my followers increase. are ppl sick of my stuff ?? :') #but i myself feel pretty ok about my art atm...so i guess it's fine. my fics have never gotten the hits/kudos i've ever hoped for #so i've accepted that this is how it is for me. i see LOTS of ppl stress about that kinda stuff and i don't wanna be like that.. #i'll just keep on keeping on. creating has been pretty satisfying lately when im NOT depressed abt other stuff #and i do get fulfilling comments <3

[milkbreadtoast]

ai is just so fucking bleak man it makes me want to end it all...

taking everything joyful about life... everything i ever wanted or loved or hoped for... and not just that, everything else too... no job is safe... the only way i can go on is to pretend it doesnt exist and just keep creating and trying as we always have done it haha but meanwhile it just keeps getting worse and im filled with sickening dread... the only hope I have is that people will continue to stick together and protect each other even as ai tries to destroy and take everything from us and our identity and our joy sorry to sound poetic and pretentious but i just need to get the vent out. its bleak man.

#im being vague bc im embarrassed to specify more but it just... the future seems so bleak bc of ai #and... this is just one small thing #everything about the current world and the future looks bleak to me #the only way i can keep going on is if i pretend everything is fine and the same as how it was #but the fact that i can even manage to do that shows my immense privilege #vent #delete later #sidenote i havent been glazing or art shielding my art (i never tried glaze) #because i just... i give up man. like im in denial. i want to just pretend like i can post it like normal and itll be ok #i want to blindly trust #its the same w me posting my art and blindly trusting that ppl wont repost #except ai is much worse than reposting.... #ha... the only meager protection ive been doing #is watermarking but not even obtrusively #and posting at a lower res (but ive been posting higher res on here...) #hhaaa... i want ppl to be able to see my hard work and tbe colors #and artshield makes tbe colors ugly #cries #unrelated but i feel like ive been estranged from my friends lately too #so thats prob also contributing to why i feel so sad #im too old to be having a tantrum like this but isnt this what blogs like tumblr r for? so i can vent here instead of irl... ha ha

[sydmarch]

anyway this is what i was actually trying to find. fucking thinking about this.

#NEED to know about their young adulthood. acele is described as 'late teens to early twenties' & we have no fucking clue how old evrart #is beyond 'around the same age as harry' which could mean anything when klaasje thinks hes 44 & kim thinks hes 56 #but i imagine they ARE actuslly very close in age bcus it'd just make sense wrt the timing of the revolution & all & yknow the parallels #so like they definitely could have been somewhere in their mid or late 20s when they came into power? & this 'at her age' as just a handful #of years before that? (choosing to just believe this line rather than taking it as him only trying to 'kids will be kids'ing away the drug #lab thing & making something up. so i can totally just like imagine lots of anger. at the state of things. about powerlessness. what do we #DO about it? probably getting into trouble & getting in fights for a long time. like leo says they ALWAYS came to help it wasn't just a one #off thing where they defended him it was just that one incident where the bullying stopped. bcus they beat him until he NEEDED STITCHES #like god i can just imagine their childhood & then the adolescent & young adult frustration & all of that coalescing into ok we WILL do #something to make things better. whatever it takes even. coming to the decision it's worth killing for #'your honor it's fine that my little meow meow had someone assassinated he had a bad childhood you see' #im chewing through concrete im throwing up im pacing my enclosure #anyway. me when i'm normal about the video game men #texticles #de #disco elysium #evrart

[crescentfool]

beaming everyone on the dashh with good brain day vibes!!! i hope that you all can remember to extend self-compassion to yourself whenever you're feeling down about something 💙

#lizzy speaks #the human brain works in such profound ways i think #lately i've been thinking about that post that was like 'you will always be your oldest friend take care of yourself' #it's definitely a sentiment i agree with and i appreciate how it emphasizes the importance of extending compassion to yourself #you wouldn't say such hurtful things to your friends right? (or at least i'd hope so) #so why would you say it to yourself? #you are your own friend too. and i think everyone has a beautiful soul within themselves. nurture it! water it! feed it good thoughts. #basically i wish everyone a 'i hope that your brain is not your own enemy but rather a friend that you can find comfort in' #things will work themselves out with time. there's beauty in life and you will find small delights to cherish!! i am manifesting it for u!! #and for those who find it difficult to transition from a self-critical mindset to one that's more compassionate and nonjudgmental #i truly think that with time you will be able to rewire your brain to be kinder to yourself. i'm proud of you for taking any first steps :) #there are times in which it feels counterintuitive to go against habits that feel hard-wired... but brains are very malleable littel guys- #with such a wonderful capacity for changing and learning new things. so i hope everyone can learn to be their own best friend! #not to undermine the importance of a support network ofc. that's good too and im all for that!! but i hope everyone remembers to be kind- #not only to others but also to themselves!! you're going to do great out there!! i love you all!! #ive just been thinking about this a lot... i needed to get it out there. you all shine so brightly!!! we shall be fine!!! have a good week! #sorry if this is out of nowhere but if there's anything about me you should know it's that i'm the 'hey dont cry 8 billion people on earth- #ok?' post. idk i just find great joy in knowing others are out there thriving and finding a daily delight yknow i love humanity!!

[gregoftom]

oh ok

#succession #tomgreg #OH MY GOD THE SCENE IS THIS CLOSE AFTER?!?? i thought i had some time !!! i jqqqqqqq #man. man. mn!!!!aman!!!!man!!!!!!!!!!!!!! man. #matt johnson you would love tomgreg #what the fuck is this scene though i want to die i PHYSICally want to di e Eeeeeeeeeee #he........i .........fkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkmmmmmmmmmmmm #ok. okok. ok . novel tags ok i can think through my absolute fucking grief. ok so basically. #tom giving greg advice about prison. and then greg like basically begs to have tom take the rap for him. but not directly. #he can never say things directly. but tom translates. and it doesn't take him long to say fine. load me up. you piece of shit. #but he doesn't even mean the latter statement he's too sad. and he won't fight. the fight is all gone out of him. #so much for greg being expendable though huh? #look me in the eyes and tell me tom isn't in love with greg at least a little. yall telling me you'd take the rap for someone and go to jail #for them if you didn't love them? ok bestie you do you #i kind of like as well the comparison of the conversation between them and him and shiv like. it's very similar in that him and greg are #saying sentences that are parts of different conversations like him and shiv's convo ALTHOUGH it is still related bc it's to do with jail #she wouldn't even talk about that subject at all. and then it correlates to the whole. nero and sporus thing right. and the dressing up/ring #ALSO THE FACT HE DIDNT WANNA SLEEP WITH HER AND HES OUT LATE AT A DINER WITH GREG I GET IT G IS HIS MISTRESS #but anyway. #and the WAYYYYYYY greg's voice breaks and the way he looks at tom with pleading eyes and it looks like he's about to cry #that's what does it for tom i think. that's what breaks him. he can't bear the thought of greg suffering for months. #which makes me believe that that is why he was so sad earlier when greg was asking for advice. he doesn't like greg to suffer #by other hands of course. if it's by his hands that's another matter BUT THATS ANOTHER CAN OF WORMS #LIKE I KNOW ITS KIND OF AN ASSHOLE MOVE OF GREG BUT AT THE SAME TIME HES LIKE. idk early 20s. 26ish latest??? #and i would be fucking terrified i'm 30 and i still don't know what the fuck is going on i don't know how i am still alive so i get it. #and if you have someone who has been taking care of you and has in the past flexed their power and money to give you food and parties #and move you up in a company and give you opportunities you most likely would never get. you kinda. latch. and fall into a pattern. #you assume he has a way out for you #has help. i mean greg probably assumed he wouldn't say yes in the first place so he kinda Has to be an asshole for any chance at all tbh. #he even said quid pro quo. but tom didn't even want anything in return. i mean idk what greg could even give him [lol] but still.

[dreamertrilogys]

going into instagram comments is crazy it’s like seeing into a (much MUCH) worse alternate reality like You ppl live such unfathomably terrible lives to me….

#aside from the general everything they’re just so boring and miserable. Btw #sorry it’s just i’ve had insta on my phone lately (unfortunately i can’t delete it until the party ☹️) & every SINGLE time i see some sort o #reel and i’m like HA yknow what i think? and then everyone in the comments is saying the complete opposite thing #every single time without fail #the other day i saw a reel where a bartender dumped all the leftover stuff from the thing (idk what it’s called) into a cup and every1 in #the comments was like ugh yucky disgusting / yk ppl put even grosser stuff in their mouths like genitals. besides if it’s cleaned regularly #enough it should be fine / that’s a big IF. meanwhile i’m like Yum jungle juice 😋 #also one time i saw ppl talking abt how they sleep in binders at sleepovers COME ON reddit is free transtape exists. please #<- these r like the worst examples ever but it’s ok #also like the insane casual misogyny. it’s so bad out here guys #.txt #ppl arguing in the comments like ‘that’s like 2k calories’ / ‘why r u being negative besides it’s only like 300 at max’ / ‘it’s not #negativity’ GUYS. WHAT THE FUCK. CALORIES ARE GOOD I <3 ENERGY???? YOUR BODY ALSO LOVES ENERGY. COME ON. BUTTER 4 LYFE BITCH #OH AND ONE TIME someone made vanilla extract and the comments were all panicked muslims like oh no im rethinking all my vanilla extract #buying GUYS do you or do you not eat bread. great now figure out the alcohol content of fermented yeast vs a drop of ethanol in a cake (that #is being baked anyway!)

[byanyan]

byan being a timid kid.

byan being a timid kid because they used to be an outgoing and energetic kid, but they'd get in trouble for being too loud and annoying, too rambunctious and distracting, and struggled to make friends because they were too overwhelming and wanted too much attention. byan being a timid kid because they don't know who to trust because they've been hurt so many times in so many ways by the people who were supposed to protect and look after them. byan being a timid kid because they always manage to disappoint everyone, because they aren't smart enough or talented enough or good enough and they can never seem to do anything right. byan being a timid kid because they're afraid of what they're capable of, because every time their anger has boiled over, they've done serious damage to people, because they've ended up hurting someone far more than that one person ever hurt them.

byan being a timid kid because they don't know what else to do, because every part of them seems wrong, and now being themself just doesn't feel like an option.

#and then of course byan flipping that on its head one day when the final straw snaps #bc being quiet and timid and trying to be well-behaved never actually made things better it never changed anything #byan embracing their anger in a very 'you think I'm a disappointment and a problem? fine I'll BE a disappointment and a problem' sort of wa #hi I've been having a lot of middle of the night thoughts again lately #tonight it's thinking about how if you compared byan at a certain point in their childhood with byan now #you'd never guess they were the same person bc they're such complete opposites #bc they spent so many years trying to be all these things they weren't and none of them were fucking good enough for anyone #if anyone needs me I'll be over here laying on the floor in self inflicted emotions over my own oc ok thank u goodnight #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don’t @ me.

[doctorweebmd]

coming out of my baldurs gate 3 delirium (aka i am working a night shift and can't physically play it. at work.) to say that horikoshi. horikoshi when i GET YOU. you are NOT leaving izuku with no quirk and no arms. i am in your walls

#bnha spoilers #also. more evidence that horikoshi read zero-sum game #like come on the twins thing the izuku losing his quirk thing the losing his arm thing the shiggy getting decay from afo thing #TELL ME THE TRUTH HORIKOSHI. DID YOU READ MY FANFIC. #i'm joking of course. he's just done a really good job of foreshadowing through the series. its a marker of an amazing author #and i know that izuku probably won't lose both his arms and his quirk. i fully expect it to be a happy ending in some way shape or form #this is a sixteen year old boy who sacrificed EVERYTHING. more than he ever had to give #and he had less than a year. LESS THAN A YEAR. #sorry i'm already crying thinking about the scene of him holding shigaraki's hand even though it will decay him........ #izuku who knows better than ANYONE what shigaraki's power can do.... reaching out to him. caring more about others than about himself. #he's just. he's so good. he's SO GOOD. he deserves the world #tbh i feel like eri HAS to be involved at this point. she's the deus ex machina in all this #that or overhaul #both of their abilities can at least physically restructure izuku's body #it would actually be a very interesting redemption point for overhaul....... #i mean WHY ELSE RESCUE HIM. and why give him THE SAME FUCKING INJURY #what a powerful thing it would be to have eri give overhaul his arms back #and overhaul learning about goodness and forgiveness from this girl he's done nothing but abuse and torture #and saves izuku........ #its about ATONEMENT. its about GROWTH. its about IT NEVER BEING TOO LATE. #AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I LOVE YOU MY HERO ACADEMIA #... ok. i'm normal. its fine. #on another note #i loved the ending to my first bg3 run which i think i finished Tuesday/Wednesday. i cried. #IMMEDIATELY started a durge run where i'm playing a male human bard instead of the female half-wood elf ranger #i was like 'haha. i'll make a character based on hisoka from hxh! i'm gonna be SOOOO evil! >:)) #and guess who still isn't good at being big evil. ME. at worst i'm probably chaotic neutral. #its wild i'm already finding SO MANY new scenes i missed on the first playthrough even though i'm making a lot of the same choices #so it still feels super fun and fresh. more so now because i kind of know the characters and the mechanics better #my current playthrough i'm with lae'zel shadowheart and asterion with no intention of switching out

[snailune]

wiki how do I stop spiraling about my life once every 2 weeks I'm getting sick of it

#personal #i just want to make things so bad #it hurts to even look at something anyones made bc im not doing it #i started so late and its still so hard. i got months without doing anything bc im just exhausted from daily life #if i spend more time with my girlfriends i feel like im closer to them but then i have no time for art #if im making something im spending less time with them #and i like my job so much. i really do. i even considered just saying fuck it and going into library sciences #but i still come home barely able or willing to talk sometimes. and i dont know how to fix that #and i feel so unfulfilled and extremely lonely even tho i have friends #but i can barely get myself to draw or write even when i have so many ideas #i feel so uncomfortable in my body and so tired of trying with therapists and doctors #all of it makes me so anxious i feel sick #so Frustrated i feel dizzy. and then i still cant do anything!!!! #i dont want to live here anymore i just want to be with everyone else. but everyone is moving away or planning to. us included #but no one in the same place. it makes me so sad #i dont know what to do or how to do it when i dont have motivation to do the bare minimum #maybe i just like torturing myself by thinking i can do the things i want instead of aceepting i cant. :/ cringes #for anyone that has somehow read this far ill be ok in like 20 minutes im just having a moment dw. im fine. will handle it like an adult #and not spend to much time thinking about this

[humanmorph]

lemferos. thinking so much about them lately

#friends at the table #fatt #seasons of hieron #hieron #rosa art #fero feritas #lem king #lemfero #ok you can barely see safewater in lems hair in the first one but he is there #i listened to a mountain goats fero playlist the other night and it made me a kindof miserable #and the next day i went well what if.i drew fero happy for once what about that #lemfero is The Thing its true and real to me basically. theyre #the thing is their breakup is so fun and i really love when theyre kind of awful to each other BUT WELL the potential for them caring. #about each other and being sweet. its post canon to me ive got a whole timeline by which i shouldve probably drawn them more wrinkles #im having fun drawing lately AND liking what i draw its still. mindblowing #gearing up for secsam.i guess : ) #i love drawing fero on green backgrounds i think 80% if feros ive drawn are like this #ok one last thing well if you read all these. thanks : ) i like talking. but yeah when i started sketching lem looked wildly different #in each drawing(i had another one of just him i just didnt like at all) and it was funny to me bc u could clearly see #who my favourite of the two was(its fero) but i think now its kind of fine so i cant make that joke anymore but i still did wanna mention it #. #im going to bed now

[findafight]

LOVE how multiple people have been like "Steve is a Cubs fan" (including myself) with no elaborations. Look at him. He loves the Cubs. You can just tell. Poor guy is waiting for another thirty something years for them to win the world series. (And my god the wait may well have been worth that game) However I also propose Steve is a "got one American League team and one National League team" baseball guy. And. To rub salt in the wound of his Cubs fan heart. He is obviously a Red Sox fan. Idk how this happens but it does. (It's me projecting hehe)

Listen. The hilarity of him being dragged for being a Cubs fan is compounded by him ALSO being a fan of the only other team in MLB with a curse as famous. Double cursed. And for what is arguably the most boring sport (until it isn't)

#steve harrington #listen okay sometimes you have two favourite teams. sometimes they are in different leagues so you rank them in case they get to #the world series. sometimes you go 'well if i had to choose between id choose x then y then z' #you rank your teams and also have teams you hate. you know how it is. nyyankee hater steve lmao #stranger things #finda's rambles #the party #listen they find out he's a fan of the two most loser teams (regardless of their rankings in the season) and rip into him #fucking. fine! if i tag this as #steddie #will you look at it?? #eddie is like wait....so. you like BOTH these teams #and they. and they BOTH suck ass? have curses? you chose this willigly? babe what the fuck is wrong with you thats messed up #listen...im a red sox fan ok. my dad has been since the late 60s but i will cheer for the cubs in the american league #and watching the 2004 world series was a blast. got to stay up late special for it #AND THE 2016 WORLD SERIES 7TH GAME FJROFO EXTRA INNING! DEYLAY FROM RAIN! MY OWN MOTHER WAS YELLING #she didnt care about the cubs she just didnt want the team with the racist name to win #in the above tags i said cubs are american League they are national my apologies

[shitty-kinda-doodles]

Zilla is the Flotsam and Jetsam to Velvette's Ursula lol.

Lmaooo kind of? In a song where they manipulate an innocent person she would be for sure

#ask #hazbin hotel #velvette #oc #ive been thinking of their dynamic lately actually but i'll hide my ramblings here in the tags for the poor souls that don't care at all #so the funny thing about them is that they dont need each other at all #they have their own thing in different rings and theyre fine with it #but they do have a blast when they hang out #which is kinda torturous for them specifically bc theyre so self centered and controlling and selfish #that admitting that they JUST LIKE someone with no ulterior reason is humiliating #and any excuse they can make to see each other is flimsy at best #like 'hey help me get more souls and you can throw darts at them later' they can do that on their own. they dont need the other to do that #i imagine they try not to bring up it to preserve their own egos #in a more playful moment zilla would be like oohh you like meee and velvette would deny deny deny #in a more serious moment they both have rock hard evidence that the other likes her too and they both know it #if one ego goes down the other does too #this would be like...the first stages of liking each other i think #and when they get together theyd be like 'ok i have soft mushy feelings for this one person but that aside #im still the greatest overlord/murderous mastermind whatever' #until theyre defeated by the good guys i guess #what can i say i think evil friends to lovers to losers is hilarious #soooorry if you read this long ass thing #im hyperfixated and i have so many zillete thought and so much zilla lore in my pocket #i needed to puke a little bit out

[1roentgen]

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#art is very nice and good #just saw some sick fanart of some show or something i’m not familiar with #not rlly drawing rn but remembered i still could if i wanted to #think maybe i’ll be ok #i still got my ocs if nothing else #they ain’t goin anywhere #been having a rather strange time lately #things are not bad not good not quite good enough #but drawing is still a thing. i could still make art #so it’s fine

[lizasweetling]

Franz is that kind of player that tries to break the in-world economy by trying to steal and sell every door in the dungeon, isn't he. I guess that shouldn't be surprising for a dragon.

and we knew Lady De L'etoile must have been charismatic but I suppose I hadn't thought though the requisite extent in order to charm dragons out of some incredibly personal information....

and jeez that portrait is what- 10 feet tall at least?? I don't think anyone else in this party has the space and inclination to even try to display that a little/sometimes. Your dibs are safe, Franz.

#girl genius #page react #late on this one it's fine #I have been having too many things happens. It's ok tho- I cope.