#thing thats attached to it so i mean. i guess i feel better knowing that bc while cysts are very mysterious to me apparently a swollen lymph
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I'd love to request, jason x male reader, who has a prosthetic arm and leg, you can decide. And the reader meeting the Wayne family for the first time, and Bruce being a bit judgy. Maybe Bruce even asking Jason in Private if he's sure the reader is the right person
I hope you're comfortable writing this :)
YOU SURE ABOUT THIS
WARNINGS: None unless you count swearing.
A/N: Y/n just has a prosthetic arm. Also when i was writing i wrote this with Bucky Barnes in my mind.
I look over at Y/n as I park in front of the manor.
“Are you sure about this? We can go home and order takeout.”
“I can do this, Jason. I need to, they are your family.”
“You don’t need to do anything that you don’t feel comfortable with.”
“If I didn’t step out of my comfort zone, then I wouldn’t be here with you right now. So let’s get this show on the road.”
“Ok and remember we can leave at anytime.”
“I’ll be fine Jason and stop worrying so much, it will give you wrinkles.” Y/n days before giving me a quick kiss on the lips before getting out of the car. I sigh to myself before getting out as well. He’s right. He’s always right. Can’t he ever be wrong? I reach out for his hand and gently lead him up the steps of the manor. As I got to knock on the door, it opens and revealing Alfred.
“Master Jason and you must be Master Y/n pleasure to meet you. I’m Alfred Pennyworth, the butler. Please do come in.” Alfred says, stepping to the side to let us in. Walking in the warmth of the manor is comforting, like always, especially on cooler evenings like this.
“Pleasure to meet you to Alfred. I’ve heard a lot about you from Jason.”
“All good, I hope,” Alfred says as he closes the door.
“Very much. I heard that you are an excellent cook.”
“And baker. He makes a mean snickerdoodle.” I add.
“You always know how to falter me, Master Jason. Anyway, your father and brothers are in the living room. I must get back to the kitchen to make sure nothing burned.”
“Alright, thanks Alfred.” I watch as Alfred walks down the hall and when he’s out of earshot, I ask.
“You good.” Y/n grabs my face with his hands.
“I’m good Jason.” He says before giving me a kiss.
“Ok.” I say as I pull away.
“Now, how about you introduce me to your family?”
“Alright, it’s just this way.” I say as I start to lead him towards the livingroom. I notice the way he looks around. It’s in admiration.
“This place is very beautiful.”
“I guess.” I say, leading them into the livingroom.
“Jason, my son. It’s good to see you,” Bruce says, getting up from his armchair.
“Good to see you too, old man. This is Y/n, Y/n this is Bruce.”
“Nice to meet you, Bruce.” Y/n says, reaching out to shake his hand. Bruce shakes his hand and I can see the way his eyes flicker to Y/n’s prosthetic arm. We take a seat on the empty couch and I silently pray to the gods he doesn’t say anything as my brothers introduce themselves. Of course, the last one is Tim.
“Tim and that a nice piece of metal you got there.” I try to contain myself, feeling the urge to strangle him.
“Yeah, a friend of mine made it for me shortly after I lost my arm. And I’ve been rocking with it sense then.”
“Cool, does it function?”
“It does see,” Y/n says, showing how the arm and hand can move around.
“Thats neat. How do that?”
“I have a plate built into my shoulder that my arm attaches too and that is hooked up to my brain and that’s how I control it.”
“Damn that pretty high tech.” Tim says.
“It is, Drake. May I ask how you lost your arm?” Damian asks surprisingly kindly. Hmm, that is weird. I look over at Y/n and take his hand, giving him a gently squeeze.
“I lost it during my time as a P.O.W..”
“Thank you for your service.” Dick is quick to say with a smile. I sigh to myself, finally relaxing, Its was nice to see Dick
being Dick. I just hope short stack and Bruce don’t say anything insensitive.
“It was my honor to serve.” Y/n days.
This whole thing definitely went better than I suspected. I smile to myself as watch as Dick practically pulls Y/n out of the dining room behind him, wanting to show him around the manor. Tim and Damian following behind them. As I go to join them, I feel a hand on my shoulder. I brush the hand off and turn around to look at Bruce.
“I know this isn’t my place, but are you sure about them? Are you sure they’re the one?” He asks. When he asks that I see fucking red.
“Why? You think they're damaged goods because they lost one of their arms. Well listen here, old man, I love them and I will marry them one day. So keep your shit opinion to yourself and go fuck yourself.” I say making sure my anger was on full display. I then turn around and leave the dining room to go find where my brothers dragged my boyfriend off to.
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“Master Bruce, that was very out of line of you.”
“I just want to make sure he’s making the right decision.”
“He is an adult. He can make his own decisions and, remember don’t judge a book by its cover, Master Bruce. I raised you better.”
#jason todd#batfamily#dc#jason todd x male reader#jason todd x reader#batfamily x male reader#batfamily x reader#dc x male reader#dc x reader
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MAybe some fluff sfw headcannons for Submas if s/o was expecting twins? Together or separate are both fine
Absolutely!
Submas Twins their partner expecting twins
Cw: babies,pregnancy, s/o is expecting babies lots of new parent fun.
Ingo
You know one of those parents who immediately color assigns children? Yes thats him. Everything they get has to be in the color assigned to them it's not to tell them apart no he could tell them apart easily he was a twin once before he knows the small little differences having his two little babies in their different color PJs make them look like a package deal. Because they are! Do not separate! Ingo was already a little nut for color coding you remember him having a multicolor pen when he would write notes down but now it just takes it to a whole another level.
Ingo is in new parent mode his rose tinted glasses are bright red everyday he has that soft kitten Smile as he can't take your hand off your tummy. The twins your future children his future children is all he talks about. Once he opens his mouth everyone knows that the next words coming out is going to be about as pregnant partner.
If you want to be involved with Planning and Building the nursery you better be on it because Ingo will be too excited and accidentally start without you. It's nice that your husband the father of your children is so excited but you're also just as excited.
Emmet
Words cannot express the excitement he feels the man is practically vibrating. Two babies for the price of one! Instead of color codes like his brother he assigns little Pokemon they don't have any joystick or Venipede onesies. I guess he'll have to stick with Eevee and Pikachu for now while he calls up an old friend, one of the many perks of being friends with a celebrity Fashionista. Emmet fuck with his friends and family think thinks about dressing up his future little children in the same things because he thinks it's funny.
Online he read somewhere that carrying twins means you're extra susceptible to all kinds of things that could happen when you're pregnant which scared him shitless. Emmet becomes extra protective. He will not I repeat will not let you do things that he thinks are dangerous! At first it does feel nice when you don't have to lift a finger. You're happy that your husband is taking the time to research however you don't want poor Emmet to be drenched in anxiety for the next 9 months.
Ingo always has a hand on you but Emmet oh man he is all over you I mean your husband was normally very cuddly but this he's practically attached to your leg he does not leave your side. Every hour asking if you need anything anything at all.
#pokemon black and white#pokemon subway boss#subway bosses#subway master kudari#subway master nobori#submas#pokemon emmet#pokemon ingo#pregnency#Babies#submas ingo#submas emmet#ingo x reader#emmet x reader
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if you don't know | yang jeongin
☆ part 8/8 of the 5 seconds of stray kids series ☆
words: 1.03k // warnings: friends to nothing, unrequited love, angst
“go ahead, y/n, rip my fucking heart out - show me you think love's all about!”
as jeongin’s eyes brimmed with tears, could you ever be sure of your feelings for him?
you and jeongin had always had a strange relationship. being best friends practically since birth, you both knew each other better than anyone. but god, if you knew that would be your downfall, would you have changed anything.
it started as harmless flirting, playing into everyone’s idea that you were dating. from there, it progressed into being each other’s first kiss - because you were both young and inexperienced, and who better to trust than your best friend? then making out almost every time you’d been drinking. then hooking up on the down low. but, honestly - why wouldn’t you? jeongin was hot, you weren’t blind. and you were both available, but not wanting relationships. just two best friends helping each other scratch an itch, when has that ever gone wrong?
but things changed, so slowly that you barely noticed. jeongin had been clingier - and he was always clingy with you, so getting worse was an accomplishment in itself. he never even looked at other girls, let alone spoke to them. and his reaction to you telling him about a recent hookup was the finishing touch.
“jeongin… you know we’re just friends, right? we could never be anything more?” you asked softly, scanning his face for a response as he turned away and put all of his attention to the tv in front of him.
“yeah, i know. that's why we’re only hooking up, not dating, obviously.” he replied nonchalantly.
you let out a silent sigh of relief, but little did you know that jeongin’s heart was breaking on the other end of the couch. he’d been in love with you for as long as he could remember, and as a disciple of 90’s tv shows and movies, he had put all hope into the idea of you becoming best friends with benefits and you’d inevitably fall in love with him. he realized now the idea was futile, but he was selfish when it came to you. so selfish, in fact, that even if it was just no-strings-attached hookups - on your end, at least - he’d hold onto that. keep you as his for as long as he could.
however, slowly he began distancing himself. he knew that eventually your agreement would come to an end, and he wanted to avoid the hurt as much as he could. yeah, he was selfish, but even keeping you around as a friend when you eventually crumbled his heart up into a thousand pieces would be too much to bare.
it took you over a week to notice his distance, he realized. over a week of barely answering his messages, not hanging out, and no sex. he began to doubt himself over it. was he that replaceable? did you not miss his presence in your life? but, in reality, it was the opposite. you noticed him distancing himself from you, and it wasn’t hard for you to guess why. given the severity of the situation, you wanted to allow him his space, to not push him. you just didn’t realize he’d misjudge your intentions.
when jeongin knocked on your door at 2 in the morning, obviously having had alcohol earlier in the evening, you were surprised. you were even more surprised when he let himself in, the lights in your hallway showing his puffy cheeks and red eyes, indicating that he had been crying.
“oh, innie,” you cooed, sleep still plaguing your voice. “what’s wrong?”
“do you love me?” his voice, stern and resounding, cut you off and made you stop in your tracks. what was this about?
“of course, i love you, innie. you’re my best friend.”
he sighed harshly, running his hands through is hair as he paced through your living room.
“you know thats not what i mean. do you love me, (y/n)? i need to know.”
your heart broke at the state he was in. really, you wanting nothing more than to love him the way he loved you. you’d tried - tried to learn to love him, to see him as more than a friend, but all your efforts were in vain. jeongin was your dearest friend, and nothing more.
“jeongin… i–i don’t know what you want me to say. i can’t tell you something just because its what you want to hear…” your voice cracking, giving away your heartbreak at what you knew the outcome of this would be.
you didn’t want to lose jeongin, never. but you knew that this would be too hard for him. you just hoped that maybe, somewhere in the future, you could settle the differences that drove you apart and become what you used to be. best friends.
he scoffed, and the look on his face was similar to pure disgust.
“so all i am to you is an easy fuck, right? someone you can shag, and then drop for the next guy who wants you in his bed?”
you gasped at his words, even though you understood he was only speaking out of pain. his words were cutting, and even the way he looked at you had you on the verge of tears.
“you know that’s not true. if at any point you said you wanted more, you know i would’ve stopped sleeping with you. it was never supposed to be more than that.”
you were shaking, praying to any and every god that jeongin would see sense. that he would sit and talk it out calmly with you. but it never worked that way, did it? not when jeongin was looking at you like you held the key to his heart and had just thrown it away.
“right. of course not.”
clearly not having any more to say, he stormed back across the living room and towards the front door, with you hot on his tail and begging him to stop - to not leave like this.
“see you around, i guess. i really hope that one day you realize you’ve just lost the one person that everyone knew you wanted, except you.”
as he slammed the door behind him, making you jump, you mulled his words over in your head. was he right? were you lying to yourself, and everyone else? but it didn’t matter, anyway. you were too late.
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For part 2 of catching feels. Kyle now know the rider basically has no one and has tsukino keep tabs when he hears the rider is going after a nergigante (with cheval) he not only climbs and finds the secret wyvern village. But is relieved to see and hear the rider okay.
That is until he hears the rider yelling at cheval (honestly cheval was fixated on the nergigante not the rider from what it seems in game.) and then the rider sees kyle and insults cheval by saying “at least kyle’s better AND HE’S A HUNTER AND I RATHER TEAM UP WITH HIM!!” before dragging kyle away to help them find the nergigante nest for its egg. (Just a lil hc that nergigante was only a pain due to trying to get extra food cause its partner was dead. Thats why it was causing issues and the rider understood but cheval didn’t and they ended up killing it due to cheval constantly going after it without understanding it.)
You're right about my boi Cheval, man was more obsessive. And I love how long it took them to realize that the ELDER DRAGON EATER was after an elder dragon XD like, ever hear of Zorah Magdaros and the Nergigante
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Catching Feelings (Part 2)
You were still on Kyle's mind when he reaches Nua Te to see you, and whilst there, you drag him on another adventure. But wait, why does it make him feel weird?
Ever since he found out you had no family, Kyle has been jumping from thought to thought. He didn't quite know what to think of the situation as a whole, but all he did know was that he felt different around you. The hunter couldn't quite explain it. All he did know was that he felt a sudden emptiness when you guys parted ways after the Rage-Rayed Mizutsune.
But Kyle was just glad he's reached an understanding when it comes to Ratha. He gets it now why you feel so attached to the monster.
It still bothered him that you had no family. In fact, Kyle couldn't even focus on the pits because of it. It got to the point where Tsukino had to be in charge of things because he was too busy thinking about you.
That's why he's heading to the secret wyverian village in the mountains, Nua Te.
"I got intel that Y/N is heading after a Nergigante-along with another rider." The palico told him with a grin after seeing Kyle's relieved face.
"That's not a monster that should be taken lightly. I'm going to help Y/N." Kyle said without hesitation, and Tsukino put her paws on her hips.
"Is that the only reason you are going-or do I detect a hint of jealousy?" Tsukino teased him and Kyle balled his fists by his sides while his face turned slightly red.
"Shut up."
Kyle certainly wasn't worried about you having a companion. In fact, he was glad that you weren't on your own right now. But there was a feeling in his chest that irked him when he knew that your other companion was not him, but rather a stranger. It was one of the main reasons that he was climbing up the cliffside to a village that would most likely throw him out. He needed to know and see that you were okay.
And true to what he was thinking, the wyverians were very cold to him and Tsukino. However, the felyne was very quick to tell them that they knew you. And somehow, they seemed to ease up a little.
"Where do you think Y/N is?" Kyle asked and Tsukino shrugged. Honestly, you could be anywhere outside the village looking for the elder dragon. In fact, you could be in the middle of fighting it right now.
"You are impossible to be around!"
"Found Y/N." Tsukino said with a grin when your voice echoed from the village entrance. The hunter and palico duo were quick to rush that way to find you, angry (kind of like how you got with Kyle before) and shouting at another older red-haired male, who looked equally annoyed. Kyle guessed that this was the other rider you were working with, or trying to.
"Me? I'm just trying to help you! Your selfish obsession with this monster is hurting Ratha!" The man said back to you.
"You mean YOUR obsession! It's you who's tracking the monster, not me! I could care less about where that Nergigante was! I didn't give it a thought before it stood in my way to help uncover Ratha's secret!" You shouted back, roughly poking the older man in the chest. In fact, your actions made Kyle feel rather proud.
"That monster never needed to be slain. It was just following its instincts. It...it had a family." You said, backing away a bit and putting a hand over your heart. The other rider, hesitated a bit before looking at the wall.
It was then that Kyle decided to make his presence known.
"Kyle!" You said happily, and for some reason it made his heart jump for joy. The (rather handsome) red-haired rider looked over at the hunter with a curious expression. However, you shot the older male a glare and ran over to Kyle.
"Well Cheval, I'd rather team up with Kyle, and guess what, he's a hunter!" You shouted at your companion, who simply rolled his eyes and walked off. But you paid him no mind. Instead, you grabbed Kyle's hand and ran back out into the wilds.
Kyle didn't understand, but all he could focus on was your hand touching his.
"So...you want to tell me what we're doing?" Kyle asked. You had dragged him out of there so fast that neither Tsukino nor Navirou had time to follow. Only Ratha was glued to your hip and followed you both.
"We're looking for a Nergigante nest." You explained simply while folding your arms and looking away. Kyle didn't need to say more. He knew that you wanted to save that egg because if you didn't...then the egg would...
"I don't know how much you overheard, but that was Cheval, the rider helping me. We just got into a disagreement." You explained, peering through foliage and avoiding large monsters. Kyle was looking around too, eyeing crevices in the rocks for signs of elder dragon activity.
"Sounded more than a disagreement." Kyle said and you shrugged.
"He just didn't understand the Nergigante. It was just hunting more because it had a family to feed...called me obsessed over it while he was the one hunting it. It was just..." You huffed, showing your irritation.
"Why would he think you're obsessed?" The hunter asked and your walking slowed as your eyes glanced down.
"It's the same monster that killed my grandfather..."
You could practically hear the breeze running through the valley due to the silence both of you held. Honestly, Kyle didn't know how to respond to that. He's come close to losing someone, but he's never had to...comfort...another person like this. However, his instincts acted out.
He gently patted your shoulder and you smiled softly at him.
But before you could say anything else, Ratha sensed something and ran past both of you. Alarmed, the two of you ran after him to see that Ratha found the nest you were looking for. But the most alarming thing of all was the already dead Nergigante corpse that was laying beside the nest. Kyle widened his eyes and your hand went to your heart.
"So...my hunch was right. That other monster was the only one able to get food for its family. Its partner had been..." You shook your head and walked up to the nest, taking an egg after patting Ratha on the head and praising him for finding this.
"You gonna make it your monstie." Kyle asked and you nodded.
"This Nergigante is a part of my family now. No one should be alone." You said while looking at the egg and walking off, Ratha following. Kyle watched you leave before starting to follow, again more of these thoughts were in his head.
You were raised alone which is why your monsties were so important to you. You didn't want any other living thing to go through what you went through. Because of this, monsters were an important part of your life. They act on instinct, and don't leave or fight with you if you have a disagreement with them.
Well, Kyle's going to walk right up to Cheval and tell him that he can leave now. You have a hunter by your side.
And for some reason, the very thought filled Kyle with much pride.
#monster hunter stories#monster hunter stories 2#mhst#mhst2#kyle#kyle x reader#monster hunter stories 2 kyle#mhst2 kyle#mhst2 kyle x reader
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so honestly if im being really direct and just no bullshit
i feel i want better than what hes giving and can do better in a partner or idk like i want better and dont think hes in a position to b in a serious relationship or at least w me i guess. i feel like im not picky enough in relationships and accept treatment im not happy w and it just makes me unhappy. like being w guys who wont cook for me or really do much for me dont put in a lot of effort and then also are bad or incompatabile with me in terms of emotional support
and i feel if we do break it off hes gonna blame it on me and my shit which it definitely has a large part in it but idk maybe i just wont say my grievances w him it doesnt matter ig and he wasnt really listening anyway when i tried. i just dont like being blamed or whateva or dont want it to b framed like im at fault but i mean who cares it was a month who gaf... idk i dont want to sound mean too asking for what i want i tried to b as nice as possible abt it and framing it in a positive way like "i liked when u used to compliment me" and it went over his head. it just sounds mean if i say i feel u take me for granted and dont put effort in but idk i dont think he cares enough and i shouldnt keep trying to revive something thats dead when hes shown me how it is. but i also have trouble leaving something that isnt making me happy maybe cuz im used to staying and i feel a little bad idk why. i guess i thought he was different and even wehn. isaw he isnt really the type of partner i would want i just let it happen and dont say anything and ik thats on me. I just dk what to do but i know what i should do😔 i guess its just disappointing even tho i dont have that much attachment to him i still do a little bit. but i have to focus on the now and how hes making me feel now. i guess i just thought he was more understanding at first or came off that way so its throwing me off that suddenly hes nkt cool w me still dealing w stuff eben though i thought he knew that bc ive been open abt still recovering and healing. i guess it wasnt what he expected. idk i feel my life hasnt impacted him that much honestly bc its so early in the relationship we dont see each other every day and our lives r separate and i guess he can still see im kind of depressed but i dont really confide in him or rely on him or let it affect how i act w him or i dont think so bc i still would do all thr activities he likes and just typical stuff we do idk. Like unrelated but i could be sm worse i think sometimes i could be cutting or relying on substances to avoid shit or using sex to cope or idk but i just dont do much besides try to survive each day lately and do things on my to do list and feel vaguely sad or depressed but sometimes i wish i was doing the destructive things bc im not very happy feeling this way either. idk! lol
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Just watched Nimona. Im feeling so notmal rn [lying throught gritted teeth]
I quite literally knew NOTHING when I decided that I will watch it.
Got suprised positively and felt so many feelings so many times. This was so enjoyable and just done with care? I have many thoughts but I dont know if I could put them all into comprehensible words. Just. All topics were handled beautifully.
I literally got attached to characters less than 10 minutes in. Help me
Some Spoilers beyond this Point
The villain. BOY THE VILLAIN. I hate her so much she got what she deserved <4 I loved how she was written. She believed eveything she was Fed. She lived in fear that consumed her and she was willing to kill innocents for that. She went so far she didnt even want to consider going out of her bubble. Also she could be classified as a twist villain, although its easy to figure out it's her. Even if its not a twist for audience its a good twist for characters + she gets so much time to shine too.
The ending. I understand how some people I guess could say its anticlimactic because Nimona comes back [we don't see her but Its pretty clear lmao]. Personally for me its not an issue, she went through so much and deserves to be happy too. And see that people like her now :] Although I wouldn't mind more tragic ending either, it just wouldve hit me with more sadness than a lot sadness -> sudden happiness spike
At the start of the film I was so so glad that Ambrosius wasn't the 'priveledged guy thats an asshole to the main character' and instead they were lovers :] But also at that point said 'I hope there wont be any falling out!'. Top 10 sentences said minutes before disaster
Also if you could've seen my reaction to nimona and gloreth stuff. Boy I went absolutely insane.
On the topics handled well. I think how they handled opression was really good. They showed how it affects everyone. Even the opressed themselves, that try to find a place in such society, try to have Faith in the system that fails them[ commoners, Ballister]. How at the earliest stage possible people are already influenced into such mindsets. How some people are so firmly set in those beliefs they wont even consider they're wrong. And also the worst of opression, violence, and how it not only hurt Nimona physically, but also how it scarred her mentally.
Some negative beliefs were reinforced for so long, and spawned different kind of negative beliefs. And opression
And I think throughout the movie, you REALLY get how ingrained negative beliefs are in everyones minds.
Further to me, the change of this whole kingdom for the better didnt happen too quickly. Trying exposing the Director ended with her quickly swaying people to her side again, when she played the monster card.people so quickly also believed that such a commoner as Ballister would kill the Queen, which probably wouldnt happen if it was someone form the Noble bloodline... okay its not related exactly to what I started talking in this paragraph. Fuck, people had to see how for this belief that monsters are terrible, the one in power is willing to kill them, along with the monster. And in this situation the monster saved them.
Like also those are circumstances that absolutely would lead to a change I think. There were probably some people in denial but I doubt for long? Authority of power and beliefs risked their people's lives with ease when it came to actual danger. Although the focus should have been on protecting the people, as it always was said before, in the end it all went into killing 'the bad'.
[Um i hope I put this into comprehsible words and that I got the meaning I wanted in there]
I enjoyed the animation, design and music too! Also this world was really interesting, medieval combined with futurism. Really neat worldbuilding!
And last thing, comedy was great >:]
Anyway I hope you enjoyed my incomrehensible ramblings. Bows
#milk sits and talks#nimona film#nimona#also i could tell you all a site where I wached it if you want?#I wasnt sure if I should include that in the post#anyway watching this completely blind was the BEST experience for me
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TW vent
before you start reading i dont wanna hear pity if u even decide to read, i just need to blow off steam.
sometimes i feel like a butterfly, so fragile my wings can break, but instead of wings i have a heart and a brain, and i cant stop crying, i mean last year was way worse yk? life felt like it was ending i resorted to sh, im better now right? im clean, i have an amazing bf, i basically get everything i could ever ask for, so whats wrong?
i dont know what's exactly wrong with me, i feel fat, i hate the way i look, but that's how most teenage girls feel huh? its normal. just like its normal for a father to walk out, destroy his child's life with just a few words. bc that's normal and nothing is gonna change a man's mind.
"normal" im your normal girl, everyone is normal, right?
i grew up in a household where i wasn't considered normal, i was treated like i was sick, and wrong, by my father, if u dont agree with him then ur the wrong one not him, ur opinions don't matter to him. he still thinks that way, which is fine yk? being gay? pffft thats horrid, like "boyish" things (which really aren't i wanst even a tomboy growing up but wtv) guess what, THATS WRONG.
its not really like that has affected me much, just my parents arguing, and my mom commenting on my body.
my parents fought so much it was overwhelming, it was never ending, my dad would threaten to kill himself and storm out of the house, id be screaming and crying begging him not to do anything, i guess as a child that really does affect someone, he left so much like that it created worry, he was my hero, he IS my hero, as much as i hate to admit it, i love him more than i should.
due to my father, i think thats the reason im so attached to this boy (my bf) ik that sounds stupid but i have a reason for this.
lets call him N, and N was someone i met in school, he is the total opposite of me, has a tendency of being an asshole to people, so why might i like this guy? well he gave me the right amount of attention at the wrong time.
school was hard 2 years ago, id cry almost everyday, and ig i was an acquaintance with him, one day he noticed me crying, during break, i was alone, he came up to me, and hugged me, it wasn't expected but it was definitely needed, he didn't say anything, he didn't ask anything, he just hugged me, let me cry in his arms, i guess we slowly became friends after that. at the time i liked him a bit, didnt care that much atleast i thought.
i had no way of contact to him, it was just school, and during the summer i still liked him, it was a new year of school, and i didn't see him, i thought hey maybe he's around here somewhere doing who knows what, i asked some friends if they've seen him, they said no. and at one point i asked one of his friends, and he moved, she said, and i felt my heart sink down to my feet, i could feel like eyes water, i couldn't control it. and ik it's stupid, but he promised me he would never leave me without saying goodbye (in a friendly way)
i dont want to explain more. But to whomever decided to read, im sorry for not finishing it.
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SHE'S SO ELEGANT,,,PICTURE PERFECT GRACE. THROWING UP GARLIC BREAD LIKE A CAT HACKING UP A HAIRBALL. she looked so comfy in that one panel being held (🏳️🌈) i think thats her peak. i wana be as sleepy as her,,,snnnnzzzz
ALSO IM LOOKING THROUGH THE COMMENTS TO SEE IF I MISSED ANY DETAILS. WHY DO SO MANY PEOPLE THINK AVERY IS A MAN. ITS BEEN 53 PAGES????? I LOVE ROTATING GENDER CODED AVERY IN MY BRAIN AS A SILLY SELF-PROJECTION HEADCANON BUT THIS IS BEYOND ME. WHAT DO THEY NEED TO MAKE IT CLICK. "HI ITS ME, AVERY, WOMAN FROM HIT LESBIAN (NOT HETEROSEXUAL) VAMPIRE SERIES PAPERTEETH"??? theres somethign deepr 2 be said about this tht pisses me off nd im too tired to express it correctly. im goign insane sorry. anyways
scarlet's t-rex hands at the end mean so much 2 me!! thnak u,,,i have seen them in ur comics before nd they r so important as someone who does them 24/7. this may also sound weird but i like the extra detail u put into the legs. i do NOT mean this in a strange way oh god. um. u get it i hope.
awesoke page in general im gnna eat it.!!!
literally so sleepy and is held. sure she passed out from fear but thats irrelevant now bc shes unconscious I want to be that cozybut i dont think i ever will be
yeah! uptick of ppl who think shes a man this page- Ig it got featured on a banner again the other day so a few new ppl probs skim read past the part where shes outright referred to as a woman idk. I think the reason it bothers me a bit is bc avery is a character im rly overly attached to bc shes pretty pathetic like me and shes the same flavour of girl as me, which i dont rly relate 2 a lot of fictional women as someone whos kind of a struggle, so its like nice to make them for myself i guess? idk having her makes me feel better. is that a comfort character. i dont know. i care her.- so i feel like ive failed a little when ppl just look at her and go oh, this character is clearly intended by the author to be a man.
I cant rly b mad at ppl who honestly just dont realise though, I'll admit i commit the crime of mistaking cartoon men for cartoon women sometimes- I am a little mad at ppl who say things like its hard to believe shes a girl when they find out .like. shes a vampire. you can suspend ur disbelief far enough to believe shes a vampire. but not enough to believe shes a girl... interesting ...hm ....funny how that works anonymous webtoon commenter.......................
TL;DR: Averys my bbg and im too attached to her.
& no of course! i like giving characters raptor hands, I am for serious when i said i injected the autism myself. & ITSNOT WEIRD DW i like drawing legs even if i make them far too long.
&thank you!!
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EIHF Anon again!
Things that make me absolutely feral:
1) Viserys did not give one single fuck about Rhaenyra throwing her coochie around in a brothel until Daemon's name got tossed in there. His brother and his daughter are cheating on him with EACH OTHER.
2) That very quick shot of Viserys and Rhaenyra in the carriage on the way to Driftmark. His eyes look so sad, and it looks like he wants to say something to her. But her entire body is turned away from him, and she's practically breaking her neck to look outside.
3) Milly!Rhaenyra is never in the room when he defends her claim to other people!! When he promised her he would not supplant her, it was in private, and his oath came attached to a "I did waiver at one time." That must have gutted her. Even if he did promise to keep her heir, he told her the doubt was there. The doubt was real. Her worst fear, at least at some point in time, was very real. And I can't help but think that Viserys did that on purpose to keep her forever off-balance. And the way he just stands there with his hand on the back of her chair as she's walking away. His arms are around her, but it's not an embrace.
my love... youve returned <3
YES LMAO??!! like he was fully in 'good for her' 'shes a chip off the old block 😌' mode UNTIL daemons name gets mentioned. then his position as 'the most important person' in his brother and daughters life gets threatened. and he lashes out at otto for just being the messenger, cause how DARE he suggest that theyre cheating on him. its that thing rhaenyra says to him how she could 'father a dozen bastards and no one in his court would care' like viserys himself wouldnt (and doesnt!) care if shes having bastards, as long as shes coming home to him. rhaenyra isnt going to fall in love with a whore... but daemon... that is a threat
y'think he feels a little bad. almost regrets what hes doing to her. for going back on what he said about letting her pick someone that 'pleases her'. but not bad enough to not do it. he Does need a political band aid for the velaryons, and this way he can resolve that, keep her tied to himself AND 'safe' from daemon in one move. rhaenyra cant even stand to look at him in that moment. i cant remember where i was talking about it before but something about how rhaenyra cant ever be mad at viserys directly. she has to compartmentalize her feelings about him. she cant fight him about this marriage, she cant even allow herself to be angry at him about it. so she has to just. remove herself from the situation.
this is something that actually bothered me a bit in hotd vs fb, but in terms of the interpersonal emotional incest relationship, was fantastic. (although i Guess that just because viserys advisors knew not to question his decision doesnt mean rhaenyra did…?) viserys cant let rhaenyra get *too* comfortable in her position as his heir, cause then she would stop trying to impress him. she would start living for herself and leave him behind, in his mind. viserys couldnt handle that. he couldnt handle 'losing' her. something i read once about how dogs you beat half the time and are sweet to the other half are more 'loyal' than dogs that are wholly treated badly/nice, as they cant predict your moods so they try harder to please you. thats what viserys does to rhaenyra. telling her he wavered once, well whats rhaenyra supposed to think but that he might waver again? her worst fears came true once, and she didnt even know about it. she better be on her 'best behavior' to ensure it doesnt happen again. to keep close to viserys and do whatever it is she thinks he wants so that he doesnt doubt her again.
"His arms are around her, but it's not an embrace." i am gnawing my leg off (affectionate)
#anon what if i told you i started writing a fic based on the eihf ideas#i got the like. start and ending done... still working on the middle...#viserys i targaryen#rhaenyra targaryen#asks#my posts
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👁👁 may I ask for some things you love about your relationships with Cole (my personal bestie™️) and Genji? (Separately of course)
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some things i love about my relationship with cole? well first and foremost, i guess its that we're both texan. i can literally project onto this damn f/o because?? ive grown up here all my life so i automatically can be like. OH CONTENT AND CONNECTION TO A CHARACTER WHOS LIKE ME FOR REAL!!!
so aside from just being texan...i think i like the silliness of it all. like. damn despite the circumstances of our knowing of each other, theres a strong level of playfulness. reckon, its akin to like, how two male friends interact (and i get along a lot better with guys while im a lot more awkward around women?? idk man) but yknow. aside from the playful insults and their loudest smack to the back that you'll hear in a hallway, its still just a bit more silly. in a romantic sense. whatever that means
another one is. mutually very affectionate. like in a sickeningly sweet way. peppering one's face in kisses. bear hugs. noogies followed up with head kisses. cuddles and snuggles and shit like that. but its always asked. because sometimes i get really annoyed by being touched. so we make sure to ask the other if ttheyre okay with affection! and specifying itll come in small or large amounts
i also love. angst. i more than likely struggled with separation anxiety as a kid and in a lot of my selfships thats like. rather than being attached to a parent, it shifts to the f/o. so like, yeah i follow cole around like a pet or something because i get so emotionally attached that leaving him (in any way, even if we just stayed friends) would probably wreck me. and funny, i like to think of cole being in a similar situation. we are glued to one another's hips, because if we leave each other we will probably go into a panic attack 👍 queue the missions always being scheduled together cuz its either die together or not at all
small bonuses: morning kisses by windows; cole never smoking around me; me giving cole beard scratches; me kissing cole's amputated arm. not the prosthetic (i kiss that too), the actual nub
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FOR GENJI. MAN. okay well one of my favorite things imvolving this man is that. teehee i love the fucking. female friend who is not giving a shit and male friend who's a playboy who also does not give a shit but in a more playful way (he falls first). like oh yeah we're flirting as a joke theres nothing there (genji is fanning his face after he ran away from me because i called him stupid and he liked that). i literally do not care unless i actually hurt his feelings (he will pout and then eventually tell me after three days and then gets pampered)
UH. RELATIONSHIP HAPPENS WHILE YOUNG. AND THEN THE TRAGEDY HITS. AKA I ALSO LIKE THE ANGST HERE AS WELL. its so very oh we're having a mostly happy relationship if you ignore the shimada clan getting fussy. oh i propose to genji? oh he accepts? genji fucking almost dies and i dont see him for a long while. and when i do get to see him he hates how he looks and he obviously does not want me to see him but i just cry. not because hes ugly. but because hes alive. genji's shocked by this 👍
another silly thing. i looove kissing genji's scars. especially on his face. he gets so flustered, a large insecurity lies beneath the mask, and im just smothering him in kisses. i also really like the little hc that if he gets too flustered, steam comes from the metalic parts of his body so he can cool off. so if genji has his mask on and i fluster him, then damn there's my sign !
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okay, i KNOW you said separately. but between you and me, i am an avid gencass/spuriken shipper. like i dont indulge in much ccxcc ships because i am easily jealous but i LOOOVE gencass.
so with that being said: polyam alternative! i spoil two men who very much deserve it!! and i get to be cuddled by two very silly men!! and we all have one big ass crying sesh!! sometimes!! it all works out. its the dynamic of trio going to an amusement park except i carry everything because i hate most of the rides and i just film genji and cole having a good time and tjen they make sure i dont get heat sickness (this has happened irl twice)
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long kind of sad gay poast ahead
saw something about loving the unlovable and it got me thinking about how its a central theme in most of my writing. paired with like, isolation, being separate/other, the doomed concept of human connection, being the only person who can love and understand you the way you need, etc - i watched evangelion way too young if you couldnt guess.
anyway and this is due to the fact that a core part of my identity and personality revolves around the fact that i considered myself unlovable for the majority of my life, first unconsciously through childhood neglect, then by choice as some "you cant fire me i quit" teen angst sort of thing, then by a doomed sense of resignation all through college. its a significant part of how i see myself even now after years of working to unlearn it - ive managed to dial it back to "im difficult to love" which still isnt great but yknow. better than it was
which is why i have attachment issues and preferred one night stands for a long time. my romantic relationships (many of them short lived) have been with well meaning partners who assured me constantly that like, even though youre difficult to love its worth it. and that was all nice and good but it made me feel so fraudulent and disgusted with myself because it put me in the position of thinking either 1) this person doesnt actually know me that well at all or 2) i have somehow tricked this person into thinking under all the baggage theres someone worth loving. which is something i find difficult to reconcile with because the baggage is me too. i cant get rid of it. inevitably those people got wise and it ended up not working out.
by now have all these arguments and strategies geared up to explain to people who make the mistake of caring about me that its really not worth the effort, we're better off as friends or acquaintances, etc. im very transparent about the issues i deal with so its all just laid out there from the beginning and im not like, tricking people into being in a relationship with me or whatever by hiding it. ive talked in circles with exes over and over along the general lines of "im difficult to love" > "no youre not" > "i have xyz wrong with me and i push people away, trust me you dont want to deal with this" > "okay well we can work on that, and youll get better and itll be worth it" > "what if i never get better" > "you will, ill help you" > [me relenting bc im unable to dash their hopes and dreams that even if i Get Better im still Me at the core and the things that make me difficult to love are a permanent part of me]
the relationship im in now doesnt even let me get into that. shan is just like, youre not. youre not difficult to love, youre actually very easy to love and it has always been easy to love you, even before we were dating. and i dont have a comeback for that.
even with my usual strategy of "heres an itemized list of all the reasons dating me is a risk" theyre just like well sure, thats difficult for you to deal with, and im sorry its so hard for you, but that doesnt make you difficult to love. the loving is easy. that part has always been easy.
she doesnt treat me like a problem that needs to be solved she doesnt try to be my savior from myself she doesnt give any indication that shes just waiting it out until i reach a certain threshold of acceptable or unacceptable. she just loves me and trusts me to take care of myself, and it places a lot of personal responsibility on me to be better - not for us but for me, because im the only person who can do that and they know it.
its the healthiest relationship ive ever been in and ive never felt so safe and free to be myself. i dont need to live up to any expectations to eventually make myself lovable. im easy to love. hard thing for me to believe in self practice but going back to the inherent disconnect between all humans, who am i to know or control what they consider easy or difficult? i dont judge her when something she finds difficult is easy for me, so why wouldn't the opposite be true?
#started thinking about this first thing in the morning for some reason#i think because im moving again and its making me think of the last time i moved#out of the house i shared with my ex#something about grief being cyclical idk#pin talks#im doing a lot of posting and not a lot of packing. lol
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Hello, I just need som advice.
I've been with my bf for 6 yrs now and I've lately been getting irritated or just tired of dealing with him... such as him wanting to be at my home alot such as our routine is staying in and watch TV and eating and while this is nice, I have more of a wild side and want to go out and he gives me a bit of attitude and hesitancy but is willing at times. He asks me to do thing he doesn't do to me such as sweet talk ? And it bothers me bc I have asked him to do better with that as my love language is words of affirmation, he "tried" but hardly . And lately he will cancel plans or make a big deal out of small fights like we could be arguing and I tell him my perspective and he'll cancel plans which throws me off bc we don't really argue alot and usually still act mature to continue with your plans . Even with sex, its a constant effort to ask him, I understand not eveyone has the same sex drive but when I bring it up he just say I'm fine but I always do it for you and when I express that it doesn't really make me feel good bc it feel like im pressuring him that I need him to atleast try to initiate it he just doesn't and says he'll "try " which never happens. A week ago he was sick so I didnt see him for a whole week and that was probably the first time I didn't feel anxious or upset that I wasn't gonna see him, I felt really okay and I made plans with my friends and just did things on my own which wasn't as hard as it used to be. I took a yr to be truly alone as I was going thru some friendship problems, and I think now I'm really okay with being alone which is weird and I think its making me second guess my relationship bc I used to believe you have to be somewhat obsessed with your partner and obiv now I know thats not normal but I also feel like I lost this connection I have with my bf bc I get more irritated if we constantly have the same plans or routines. And I guess I'm just tired of asking for better ? I do love him and I know he's a really great guy, he's my best friend but now im not sure if this relationship is still giving me what I need. im not sure if I'm over reacting or reading to much into it..im happy that we can both be independent together but I also am feeling a off bc what if this means our relationship is fizzling out . Also how do you talk to someone who doesn't really know how to communicate their feelings or not take everything like an attack..pls if any advice about long term relationships and healthy attachment styles would be appreciated,
It sounds like you might be getting tired of each other, or even simply not a good fit. Both of these are normal and not everything always works out.
He doesn't want to go out any more, and "gives you attitude" if you insist on it. He has stopped reciprocating your love language. And he seems to find little reasons to cancel things and dwells on fights. This sounds like he's just as irritated as you are.
I do want to note a few things, though:
1) If you understand everyone has different sex drives, why ARE you pestering him about his?
If he's not interested and doesn't want to, then you need to drop it. If you can't handle that he "doesn't rise to the challenge", then that may be a sign you guys aren't a good fit - sometimes, majorly differing drives can't be overcome, and that's normal.
However, if he's saying he's okay with doing it if you want to, but isn't strongly for or against it, that's also just how some people are. Some people just don't initiate, too; a lot of people aren't "up for it" until someone else brings it up. It doesn't mean they feel pressured or hate it. Again, if that's not something you like, and he isn't budging in making a common ground in this point, then you guys might not work out.
2) It's very normal to work independently of each other. In fact, it's even healthier to do that. Hanging on each other can wear on the nerves a lot, which both of you might be feeling. That is, you're suffocating under each other, which makes you both snappy and irrational.
All that aside, if you're needing him to do things he just can't, or won't, do, it's… probably time to end it. Which I know is not what you want to hear. But, it's worth looking into whether it's a matter of you guys just needing more space and independence with each other so you're not smashed together all the time.
Regardless, here are some resources that you have asked for and those related:
21 Bits of Relationship Advice From People In Long-Lasting Relationships
12 Tips for Healthy, Long-Lasting Relationships
6 Tips for Maintaining a Healthy Long-Term Relationship
7 Secrets to a Healthy, Long-Lasting Relationship
7 Golden Rules of Long-Term Relationships, From Couples of Nearly Four Decades
25 Relationship Tips for a Long, Lasting Love
6 Tips to Keep Long-Term Relationships Exciting
20 Keys to a Successful Long Term Relationship?
Scarleteen also has a section for articles and advice about relationships, and Planned Parenthood also has a few answers on their relationships section.
How Attachment Styles Affect Adult Relationships
Secure attachment style in relationships explained
Secure Attachment - from Childhood to Adult Relationships
If You Want a Happy Relationship, These Are the Qualities to Look For
The Different Types of Attachment Styles
How to develop a secure attachment style so that you can have healthier, more loving relationships
What is Secure Attachment and How Does it Develop?
What Types of Attachment are Healthy and Unhealthy?
What is Secure Attachment?
Secure Attachment: What Does it Look and Feel Like in Relationships?
Attachment Styles & Their Role in Relationships
Creating a Secure Attachment With Your Partner
Which of These Four Attachment Styles is Yours?
How Adult Relationships Benefit from Secure Attachment
10 Signs of a Securely Attached Partner
-Mod BP
#relationships#asks#attachment#attachments#secure attachment#relationship advice#secure attachments#attachment theory#attachment styles#healthy relationships#relationship respect#mental health
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GM CYNO
what if i told you every single question in the ask game should be answered, that or WHO IS THE SEXUEST PERSIN THAT COMES TO MIND IMMEDIATELY
GOOD MORNING HI HI. BET. im gonna do all of them you bet i wont but i will. youre the best for this btw
IMMEDIATELY? PFFFF HOW LONG DO U HAVE LET ME GET MY LIST
0. height
i yam 5 foot 6 (and a half)
1. virgin?
what the fuck did you just call me? /lhj
anyways in my head yes i am and thats what matters isnt it
2. shoe size
i wear 11s and god i wish that thing people say about shoe size was true 🤙
3 + 4 + 5. do you smoke/drink/do drugs
no and i never plan to <33
6. age you get mistaken for
i.. honestly have no answer to this tbh
7 + 8. do you have (and/or want) any tattoos?
i don't have any, i'd like one/some but i'm not really sure what i'd get
9 + 10. do you have/want any piercings
no to both PFFFF i think like... a clip on lip piercing would probably be my personal limit
11. best friend
...ego stroker much, tumblr user wangshu? /t PFFFFF
12. relationship status
harem with fake 2d men single. yeah uh. single
13. biggest turn ons
tbh... i cant think of any off the top of my head that aren't painfully obvious
14. biggest turn offs
ducklips iykyk
15. favorite movie
i'm not kidding when i say step brothers. but if you want a more respectable answer, nightmare before christmas
16. i'll love you if
you aren't an asshole??? i mean ik it's hypocritical of me to say but cmon
17. someone you miss
i've lost a lot of family over the years so probably someone there tbh
18. most traumatic experience
when my ex lived with me and i wish i was joking it was that fucking bad
19. A fact about your personality
which one /hj
i do think.. i overcompensate a lot by trying to be funny bc i dont feel like i HAVE a personality so there's that about me
20. What i hate most about myself
mm thats a toughie it could be the appearance or the voice or the attachment issues or the codependency issues or the jealousy issues or the mood swings or the weak immune system or the several mental illnesses or holy shit this is turning into a pity party
21. what i love most about myself
im an alright writer i guess? and id like to think i'm a good friend
22. what i want to be when i get older
i just wanna write man idc what
23. my relationship with my sibling(s)
i have 0 of them
24. my relationship with my parents
my moms cool but the less said about my dad the better
25. my idea of the perfect date
literally just staying in and watching a movie with snacks and stuff... honestly never thought about it much
26. My biggest pet peeves
UM UM um people who think the world revolves around them people who don't know the difference between their there and they're um people who Unironically Capitalize Every Word Like This oh i could go on
27. a description of the person i like
big hat dumb bowlcut open kimono /j
28. description of the person i dislike the most
um literally jusr my dad so. narcissistic explosive annoying abusive etc etc
29. A reason i've lied to a friend
only time i'm lyin is when i say tiggy ain't best boy 💯
30. what i hate most about work/school
it kinda semi interferes w my night owl ways but otherwise i'm chill
31. what your last text message says
gonna use actual texts cause using disc is too easy 👹 it was just me asking my mom if she wanted a drink from mcdonalds from last sunday
32. what words upset me the most
does this mean like. just words you hate or a phrase/sentence that upsets u...
uh i'll do it both ways. the word bussin makes me want to fall down an abyss a la childe ajax tartaglia
and uh. i hate being told i don't do enough, specifically by people who don't do jack shit in the first place. AGAIN iykyk
33. what words make me feel best abt myself
oh it was the second thing. honestly don't hve an answer to this but i just hold onto any compliment i get for actual years so there's that about me
34. what i find attractive in women
eyes its eyes
35. what i find attractive in men
sense of humor tbh
36. where i would like to live
somewhere close to a big city so that it isn't massively crowded and loud and overwhelming all the time but i'm close enough to stores and hospitals and all that stuff
37. One of my insecurities
i feel like this has already been asked in like 6 different ways.. prolly my body tho
38. my childhood career choice
honestly i've.. always been kinda laughably indecisive about this type of thing. i never wanted to be like, an astronaut or fireman or any of the cliche stuff that kids talk about i.. don't think i ever thought of it actually
39. my favorite ice cream flavor
cookies n cream 👹 specifically like a cookies n cream cheesecake blizzard from like dq or culvers.. that shit is unmatched
40. Who i wish i could be
a mentally stable person or cyno genshin (real)
41. where i want to be right now
in bed <///3
42. the last thing i ate
leftover pizza <3
43. SEXIEST PERSON THAT COMES TO MIND IMMEDIATELY
TIGHNARI FINAL ANSWRR I DONT PERCEIVE REAL PEOPLE
44. a random fact about anything
all odd numbers contain the letter E
GOLLY THIS WAS SO FUN.
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Part 3!! Of rereading Lore Olympus. Episodes 21-30
⚠️Content Warning! This review contains the episode arc of Wolf in the Hen house, an arc ahout SA⚠️
So it seems to be better to post 10 at a time so that's what I'm gonna do, I'll try to post em daily since I usually read like 20 at a time but who knows.
Ep 21
Hermes lets gooo
Look naked persephone just in case you forgot that shes gorgeous
“Demeter sends her a lot of letters” didnt they not live near each other if not together what
Why does apollo introduce himself like that- oh i know bc rachel cant organically make someone bad shes gotta kinda force it /lh
Apollo is being a dick just let her talk like interrupting is a dick move and what he said obv
“Let me help you” “no thanks” yeah i mean she doesnt need help
Plus youre being a dick like
Ep 22
“Hes my brother” i dont care shes uncomfortable
Quick apollo make a comment about your sisters body so we know how much of a dick you are
Also why does she slip with the knife we dont see her and then ope she has a cut i feel like it couldve been done better
“Alot of blood” did you stab yourself wtf
I know they are gods but shes also the goddess of the hunt she should have stuff lying around for her or maybe animals
See the thing with apollo is he doesnt ask to do anything he just assumes its fine which is one thing but it feels like rachel hammers home the point so violently
“ let me help you!” use ur words king
“I dont have great control of my moods” get a therapist bestie
Also he has no reason to be overprotective he just met her what is it with men and becoming immediately attached to persephone
Cause shes so gorgeous and sweet and naive or whatever
which i think we should discuss the portrayal of her being naive and how it is a part of p*dophilic culture
Ep 23
Haha! I know you dont like this man so i will joke about it
Why is one eye golden bc he used his powers or
Stop grabbing her she just forgave you
Ur so uncomfortable around this man so none of us will pay any attention to you guys together
Are they watching carrie
Why. honestly just why
Ep 24
Hey uh just tw for sexual assault bc its that epsiode
“What time is it” “i came to see you” thats not an answer
Once again the he doesnt ask he just does
“Youve been flirting with me all day” has? She?
Like its gross and apollo is in the wrong but can we ask why we needed to see it, even part of it. Thats so intense
And also, how does it help the story. Genuinely. Did Rachel just do this bc persephone needed to explore her darker side i find it uncomfortable
She handles the topic fine but why was it necessary, i know its smth that happens but it feels so. forced into the story
I guess to get her out of the maidenhood thing but wouldnt it have been so nice to watch her make the decision on her own as a form of growth
Im glad we stop having to see it
I know why the pictures are used later but right now, why does he take pictures
Also its so weird that hes like “keep it between you and me” there isnt any reason for that other than like. Hes bad
Ep 25
Why did his name change for Aidoneus to Hades i dont know the stories that well
The shiny rocks are nice i wish we got to see his connections to gems more
I wish the titans looked more diff than the gods i know they are related but it would be cool
Why did Gaia say that he would destroy them
Vore :/
Glad hades has a therapist
Dog
Ep 26
i do like the fact that this episode is a call its nice
Omg they said the title
“Im the king of the underworld” ok and?? Anyone could tell shes crying
I like the small talk i know it doesnt move the story but its realistic
Hades hears her crying and is like. Im gonna bully you for it
Yeah its teasing and its cute if she wasnt already sad yknow
“Persephone why did you stop talking? I just completely called you out while you are upset”
Ep 27
Why was he in the mortal realm with minthe im curious
“It was different” rachel then retcons that and says it was a one time thing
It does sound like hes making fun of her
Her face and hermes proportions in that one panel oml
“I dont like talking about it” is a valid response persephone hades doesnt make you speak you just are very vocal
“The balance of power should always be in my favor” thank you rachel for showing why it is an unhealthy relationship
“I owe you question” never. Brought up again
Ep 28
“You dont get personal boundaries do you?” neither do you tf
Why do demeter and hades not like each other other than plot
“Working with someone doesnt mean youre compatible” works with minthe(and later works with persephone)
Why was demeter so intense to make her join maidenhood i know to protect her but like if she kept her with her she could be protected too right
Aw they fell asleep on the phone together
How did their phones not die tho
Ep 29
Oh wait look we see one dog that isnt the main three lets go
And hes wearing glasses its actually nice to be wrong
Artemis’ bangs are not long enough to pull into a bun oml
Ill say it: i hate how rachel portrayed zeus and heras marriage. Like they love each other and there couldve been a better way to do this then them arguing all the time
I know ive said it plenty of times but the lack of color consistency is annoying same goes for body types
So if he commands someone they have to do it or
Shes right tho he does whatever he wants
Hebe is cute
I do like how hera dresses
Ep 30
Hebe is so smart but like why let her be 8
Also let me see the other kids who is her sister that she is getting out of bed
“How about a test!” thats a terrible idea
New outfit!
“Persephone has big boobs” we know shes like supposed to be perfect or whatever
Imagine stopping aging at 19 gross also how does their aging work
“ i think ur depressed bc u arent challenged” hera. Stfu up
Also you cant say job and then have her be an intern
Also i know its just so they can be close to each other but god its so dumb
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soap for the eyes and cold, cold cold water
For the skin
Droozy all across my room,
Is it even mine, for when oil spills
All my brain is pushed to the outsides
I’d like to spin with lace and ribbons within the sun and unfortunately I’d imagine it with someone like you
And i keep my locket empty but with oxygen and nitrogen
As if something was there to fill a space that was never empty
And yet i look through the glass and see someone just as broken as the mirror
And i wonder if that love is even worth anything
Knowing how much love is worth in the world these days you’d think i’d take it but With the fear of a strong beast as I place my flag on the mound
The mound that is still a locket, but opens and seeps, and i guess my feet just have to stay muddy, my trench foot growing worse
I dont know if your love is worth it.
I want it so, but is it even yours that i want, or maybe the character ive assigned for you, which you kindly do not play the role
If your role is a challenge, I do not know why I see it fit for a life as uncomplicated as this
I don’t even think im bored
I just want a mans hand although i know i rlly do not want it because i have analyzed this and know it is not even a fit at all
I want someone who will do these things for me.
And yet when the door is held or a second longer is waited I feel so immensely cared for
But these small gestures mean nothing without big ones as well, and that, you fail to offer
I love my little life I have built and the cruelty of love threatens every last brick in my castle
So much so that I think insane things, like I better glue the bricks together so they never move, but failing to allow space just destroys more in the end, so I must be patient, I must look you in the eye and see nothing more, just a human, just a person, just a guy, you’re not venus, because I am.
Yearning is the worst for my mind but best for my dopamine, adrenaline, I swear there is no better thing, but thats the catch, it holds up so well like a net with many holes, and i am so many drinks in, and i fell in a hole and I’m spiraling down, down, down, I try to cling to my net, but made of my fantasy and now all I have done is bring myself lower without even having a substance, a reason, to it.
Why do I want so bad a life that calls a threat and sadness instead of a peaceful happy one. I know he is a threat. And yet im enthralled. Why, what is going on, and why does his kindness hurt me so deep, why do I wish to hold his skin, and wish we could rot away together into nothing, I know I have bigger goals and yet I feel quick to drop them at the opportunity of a soul fabric chance, when I know its not even that and just a dumb fucking fantasy land my mind has thrown me into, instead of fucking math and electrons I have to become a biological creature, intense so intense desire to mate and bond and bond and bond and attach and attach and love. Unfortunately love is the law. I dont even love him. I just want the best for him, i want him to heal, oh god please im putting this into the universe that i want him to heal not even for me but for himself, he deserves it, and if he never speaks to me again after he heals thats okay with me. He will heal eventually and so will I too. And our separate ways we go and I will barely remember these feelings until the next person who comes around.
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OHMKYGOSH YES i j read ur sashisu ramble… and i love love love hearing ab other people’s hyperfixations so don’t worry :33
mainly the fact that none of them could be open or vulnerable with each other …. to be honest i havent looked at sashisu very closely before but this hit me bc. I FEEL LIKE I RELATE SM :; like. i have a best friend who i’ve known since i was a baby but we’ve never ever had a serious conversation once… maybe this is unrelated but that is so tragic because to me friendships really struggle to be strong and stable against one another if you can’t ever show the side of you that’s struggling … being vulnerable w one another is key to bonding :’3
i have some thoughts about them— mainly shoko…. to me it kinda seems like she kept them at an arms length away this entire time on purpose and she still does…. maybe i’m spitballing idk i’m just basing it off the fact that satoru and suguru called her shoko but she still referred to them by surname even ‘til where we currently r in the manga (which. i will also ignore but i cant lie the memes were so funny…) but my thinking is that she did so because. even though we never really saw her much i think that’s it since she was a reversed ct user n probably didn’t have much experience fighting… maybe. hear me out just MAYBE she knew what might become of satoru and suguru since they were so enveloped in fighting and being the strongest, and both of them were so headstrong and arrogant for lack of a better term that she might’ve just… tried to keep herself from getting attached n being hurt even more than she already might’ve been simultaneously 😞😞
that still just makes me so so sad though….. they always looked so happy when they were together… maybe if they could’ve gotten suguru to talk and really listened to him for once…. alas ;; gege is an evil thing
U GET IT RIKO…
i feel exactly the same, i have two childhood friends who im very close to but none of us have ever been the type to really be vulnerable like that w each other and !! i absolutely think that strong connections need that, u need to be able to show even ur weaker side… n i guess the tragedy of suguru’s character is that he never felt comfortable showing his ”weak self” to shoko and satoru. T_T he will always make me cry like no other ….
BUT YES SHOKO !!! ur so valid riko. i love this woman so much n i think shes so interesting to talk abt !! ive been thinking abt the name thing too, i feel like its very telling of the sashisu dynamic; the fact that satoru and suguru ONLY (and i mean only) ever referred to each other w their given names, even after suguru’s defection… and how shoko refers to them as ”gojo” and ”geto” even though gojo still calls her shoko…,
i think its super interesting !! i rly rly wish i was able to read the og japanese manga, bc i feel like so many little language details like that get lost in translation (esp since the official jjk translation is kinda bad lol)… i wish we knew if shoko called them by their given names in high school, i want to think so but we just dont know </3
(i could be wrong but there was a translation on a recent chapter i read where shoko switched between ”satoru” and ”gojo”…… obv i dunno how accurate it is but i think itd be cool if we saw her start calling him satoru :’3 im delusional i still think my baby’s coming back)
but !! regardless i def think ur onto smth. i 100% see her as the type to get very detached to the ppl around her. thats why she seems so unbothered !! even tho she obv cares very much…. i think she loved both of them but she wasnt able to broach that gap between them, and after suguru’s defection i absolutely think she repressed herself even more…..
but its obvious that she still cares for them. like how she started smoking again after gojo got sealed / she found out abt kenjaku using geto’s body :((….
and yes i rly do think sugu couldve been saved if they had managed to open up like that <///3 thats what fanfic is for ig :’3… sob…..
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