#theyre also slightly homophobic and i dont think ill be out to them until i leave

[spirallingintotheabyss]

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#ok this is my vent post! #tw vent #hazel vents #vent #so i said my body my choice at the dinner table. apparently thats not a correct statement #cue argument my parents dtarted and me getting in trouble for being in an arguing mood #also she has insulted/made me feel bad every time we have spoken today #and she has to make a big thing out of everything #they told my sister that she didnt get punished because it was not her fault #yet i get punished for wanting to be respected apparently #or if my mum does something wrong and i get the blame #and also she insults my baking (something im quite proud of) my skin (every 5 minutes) and my friend. who i love #theyre also slightly homophobic and i dont think ill be out to them until i leave #but i need them to pay for uni so i have to be the perfect little daughter at the cost of my happiness #i know im not their favourite. i can even go as far as to say she doesnt like me. but can't she at least pretend to #and i have it good. theyre good parents. they buy me things #im mostly free to do what i want but they hurt me. and i can't go to them if im happy (she said she doesnt care about my interests) sad #they make fun of me or hurt because its my fault #i say yes 100 times to the cost of my happiness and health but she focuses only on the 1 no. #and i love my sister but she is the favourite the girly girl and even though she is moody and spoilt she always gets what she wants #its not fair. i dont think ive ever heard them say theyre proud of me. my best is never good enough. i get 99% they say they expected 100 #and ask why i couldnt be like the girl who got 100. why i cant be top of every class. i used to fight for their approval and crave it #but now i just dont care. i just want to leave home and be free to be myself without being judged and made fun of #i used to act adult so they would respect me. but i got laughed at so now ill be the immature bratty stupid baby she thinks and acts like i #am #sorry for all the negativity! i love you all and hope everything goes better for you too! because i have it easy a d if i do then #you deserve better #youre all so amazing and good and i wish you had the lives you deserve