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#they wouldnt have to look for me forever but i'd want someone to miss me
five-rivers · 2 years
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I was one of those taggers and i feel so bad for missing your point.
To be honest i think i understood the point at first and then i went off on a tangent and forgot the point and then deleted all of that and just left ' make it customer service' or something as a tag, which was the exact opposite of what you meant.
Because you're right, all work is important and specialized and valuable and the idea that any particular job should be a punishment or looked down on is not cool so me saying 'make it customer service' does nothing for the conversation. I also realize that not everyone can do customer service, nor should anyone have to.
I actually wouldnt mind being in customer service forever if it was better paying, had a reasonable work load, and managers/customers valued us better. I really like my job! I like what i do and my coworkers are the best. But it's very emotionally and physically demanding too so it's not something i want to do forever unless something changes.
So i guess rather than a mandatory job assignment (which i realize now is what i originally implied and yeah holy shit i missed your point that sounds like that horrible society from 'the giver'), i really mean that if someone can do customer service or retail they should try it at least once. They dont have to stay if they have something else they'd rather do or if it just isn't working- bc a lot of customer service jobs arent going to work. Mine certainly didnt. But if they can try, then it can give them a new perspective of what our society is like. A lot of people work in customer service and a lot of people in this industry are struggling and if more people saw that then i think there would be lot more understanding and patience and improvements to these jobs.
If i understand better now, your point was that all jobs are valuable, not a punishment or last resort that people are trying to get away from. The sanitation industry is full of hard jobs that not everyone can do and plenty of people want to do. Same with customer service, and it was a major error on my part for forgetting that.
(Also my apologies if this reads as defensive or if i missed your point again. Im embarassed by my error for sure but not upset about it being pointed out.)
Let me know what you think bc i may very well have missed the point again 😩
No, you're good! In retrospect, I think I misinterpreted what you and the other taggers were saying as well- partially because I was still annoyed by the post I'd originally referenced, which is no excuse, and partially because I couldn't help thinking about how people, like you, in those jobs were also classified as essential. And nothing essential should be dunked on as much as customer service is dunked on.
I'm probably the wrong person to talk about thins in the first place, given that I haven't worked in customer service as a job (I'm not counting volunteer work - volunteers can always pull the 'I don't have to be here' card). But I agree that more people with broader perspectives could only improve things.
I just want everyone to be treated with respect, no matter what their job is or what industry they work in, and the part of things people actually see is often only the tip of the iceberg.
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thepunmaster · 2 years
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character opinion for flowey!!!!!!!! flowey/asriel technically !!!! :]
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they are soooo cool looking yes <3333 !!!!!! all his forms!!! flowey! asriel! photoshop flowey! god of hyperdeath! <333333 omg bestie you are sooooo poggers
everyone but me is So So Wrong About Them see you know what flowey should be. i think floweypot aus and saved asriel aus are all fine and good but they miss the best most integral part of flowey which is the fact that he kind of went mad with the resets because of all the sameness. he wanted things to be perfect he wanted things to be okay again but they cant be because chara is gone and hes a flower who can't feel love!!!!! its about not being able to go home because his home was broken up by the plan that he went along with and the plan broke him too!!! its about being just a kid and not knowing how to help his sibling as they got more and more desperate to live up to everyone's expectations!!!!! and now hes lost his family, his home, and even his love!!! and he cant even feel guilt about it!!!!!!! but he knows he should, and he wants things to be perfect again!!!! and then when he finally accepts they cant be then.... then why not hurt them? he can just reset afterwards, it'll be fine... just.... he's frustrated, he's hurt and tired and no one will ever understand.... and hurting one person is a slippery slope, and sure he was a little reluctant, but then he realized it was so much fun! there's no guilt to get in the way, and maybe he starts seeing Asriel as weak, because he used to be so afraid of hurting people that he'd let them walk all over him, and maybe he starts resenting chara a little- or seeing chara's point, and wishing he had killed some humans- or maybe being glad that the plan went badly, because it made him who he was. and then he got those SOULs. and he remembered what it was like to be asriel. and he remembered what it was like to care. and then he was flowey again. and he would always be flowey. and he would always be alone, even surrounded by people. but he cant stop remembering what it was like to love, just for a single moment. (...maybe i should have put "everything i love about them isnt canon")
they has so much wasted potential as you can see. above. mr. fox could have done so much more with flowey :( </3
if they were real i'd be afraid of them yes ofc i would floweys literally killed people lukcily he isnt real so be can be my blorbo my child my little darling boy whom i love dearly and kind of wish i could microwave but it wouldnt be safe. for the microwave <3333
theyre deeper than they seem. see the rant about how no one gets him like me
yes i will project all of my issues about finding an identity when you barely remember who you used to be but people still expect you to act like them onto him
tjey get done dirty by fans people dont. explore flowey's potential as someone who cant care its always "oh he secretly cares. inside him" or a saved asriel au and while those are *interesting* and can be done so well and i genuinely like reading saved asriel because thats such an interesting conflict, no one ever just lets flowey Be which kind of defeats the whole point of his character. his character is that he can never be asriel again even when he had asriel's form he couldnt truly be him it was a facsimile, a pretending, and he knew it could never last and he would be flowey again, but he wanted to pretend anyways. asriel was the epitome, almost the personification of love and compassion, and flowey.... flowey isnt. can never be. and he has to deal with that. forever.
didnt get enough screen time. this is self explanatory :(
i want to carry them in a handbag like a tiny dog except the handbag is a flowerpot and he is feral <3
wow! they are a horrible person!!! he has committed atrocities <3
why do they look like that /pos
im mentally ill about them. as evidenced by this rant that i literally am writing on the night before my birthday right now instead of like. sleeping
they work better as part of a dynamic bc flowey and frisk. flowey <3 and frisk <3 and maybe chara if they can show up <3 i lomve them
and obviously theyve never done anything wrong in his life ever flowey <3333 he is my favourite eternal SOULless child (aside from chara maybe but it could be argued that, as a ghost, they have the shell of their SOUL- or that, since they were awoken by frisk, they use frisk's SOUL)
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thenameisbinx · 7 months
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To the man behind the smile...
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Hi,
Wherever you are, whoever you are, there's only one thing i beg of you... Be real.
I had a long list of what i want you to be but that actually doesn't matter. What I want is you. I hope you can magically appear in my life and that's that. I wish you're more and beyond what I'd hope for.
Someone who'd long for me in every waking moment, but not enough to be possessive. Someone who can survive a day with my family and not complain. Someone who can voice out their inner most fears to me and still believe I can understand even if i really don't.
Honestly? I hope you don't get tired of bugging me but you give me space when I'm busy. The type of person who'd be ok with being home and just realize it's okay not to have a conversation. Considerate enough to buy me food or do chores when there's a lot on my plate at work. The kind who wouldnt mind if I look like a hot mess and don't shower.
I need you. I needed you for five years now. The anxiety is killing me ever so harshly. I needed you when I just needed a hug. I needed you when I wrote my chaotic emotions. I needed you when I felt lonely in a room full of people who laughing at my jokes thinking I was the best even if I was fully masking my depression. I needed you then, but I need you now the most.
Today has three reasons for me pleading for your presence. First, it's the anniversary of my desperate attempt at mending a toxic relationship. Second, the day i started dreaming about you. Lastly, the day i stopped dreaming about you and started writing about a fantasy about you.
I miss you in my dreams. I miss your smile that's slowly fading from my memory. I miss you as an inspiration that fuels my heart with patience.
However, my longing for you has a few years left. I have set a date. If you're not here by then, my life will forever be alone. I vowed to openly wait for a chance without making an effort. Should fate bring us together, I wish to believe it will, please let it come near.
I feel you long for me more because the weight in my chest is twice as painful today. Don't worry, if you were real and you're out there wondering, our meet won't be a spark but a jolt. It would be an "i'm finally here" moment rather than a "what took you so long?"
If you are real, honey, be with me.
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yellowbentley · 1 year
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dont read this im not 15 anymore i shouldnt be doing this
my fucking god the guy i like makes me want to tear my hair out. we hung out on saturday n the feelings are reciprocated so we cuddled and kissed alot. aloooooooot and i was over the moon with that but i swear every 10 fucking minutes he was asking to touch my boobs. im not exagerating. he kept saying he wouldnt do anything i dont want to do and im sure he wouldnt hurt me anyway but dude still. what part of im not interested in that dont you understand
not even just that but a few times he was on top of me and he pinned my wrists above my head which i didnt really want already and ALSO he put a hand on my throat not squeezing but still there and i REALLY didnt want that this is the least of my concerns here. i didnt think he had it in him honestly hes the dorkiest looking motherfucker. i could snap him in half. anyway.
hes so painfully my type i want to scream. he has it all. why did i give him my number why did i let us be friends im ace why does my type have to include having a dirty mind. i hate it here
we couldnt find the tv remote at one point n he reached between my legs and told me to take it out n ive told him to stop making gross jokes where im the focus ive told him im uncomfortable and hes not funny and he doesnt care I KNOW ITS A RED FLAG I KNOW I KNOWWWWWWWWWWW OKAY but every single other fucking thing about him is so fckng endearing. hes gorgeous. hes a genius. he likes anime and spiderman. his laugh lights up a room. when he talks in hindi i cant stop myself from smiling. he bought me pocky. he sleeps on an air mattress. ive never seen him in anything other then a turtle neck. he likes fruity smelling soaps and candles, its the only luxury he allows himself. he has the coolest fucking glasses.
yesterday he asked if we could put a name to this, i couldnt get the right words out and ask him to be my boyfriend properly, half because im easily flustered because I Dont Do This amd half because i dont want him to be. im a coward and i run from my problems so last night after chewing on it for 2 hours i texted him saying basically that i really wanted to date and be official because i like his dumb ass but i also know we arent compatible and its better we stay as friends. which sucks. im a coward and deleted snap immediately after so i havent seen if he said anything. i missed talking to him today. i got used to texting him all day so fast. i miss good morning and good night texts. last time we didnt talk for a day he tried other methods and asked if i was ok n if it was his fault and like it is but it isnt dude its complicated i hate myself i hate myself soooooooooo bad. did i mention this was the day after he saw me kinda cry out of frustration and sadness and he said it was one of the worst things hes ever seen/felt 🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡
he already said that if we dated it wouldnt be forever. he wants to fuck eventually and he wants it to mean something and not be with a hooker (i dont know if ive said this but if i dated someone i'd be fine w them getting a lady for the night LMFAO) which is fine! hes a cishet guy thats his right to want. im just so mad because now we've kissed and we've made out and i remember what cuddles are like and im SO MAD. this is the most ive felt towards anyone in the 3+ years and i cant have it because of my stupid sexuality. i wish i had said no to hanging out. i wish i had self restraint. i wish i hadnt hugged him. if he asks to hang out again im gonna say no. i want to show off my books and coins and wrap ourselves in blankets hes so fucking warm-
god damnit. God Fucking Damnit im not a teenager anymore.
im not ashamed of being ace or whatever im proud of it I Am Just Me im just a person but god it makes me mad sometimes because ive missed out on people ive wanted before and i will again and to be entirely fucking honest i dont know if i ever will. i dont think its even worth it. the older i get the harder it will be to say im not interested because people will assume im either waiting til marriage or im a prude and it will be more common place because everything is only ever sex sex sex and im tired of it man.
im like 99% sure he told me to stop texting him because he wasjacking it yesterday. ye gods.
tldr im so mad i like him so much and i cant have him.
im going to fucking bed
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frecklydork · 3 years
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Can't help but wonder if your AU is for you or for Starscream? 🤔
how bold of you to assume that it cannot possibly be BOTH,,,
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marvelita85 · 2 years
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Everyone was invited to the party to say goodbye to the year that your dad and Stark Industries organized, part of the team was delay due to a misson and your husband to be was one of them and you were worried you were not going to be able to celebrate with him
-you could pretend you want to celebrate with us too just saying...
- I do dad is just... after everything we've been throught is not fare he can't be here for new years
- they will be here don't worry, by the way did you checked the dress I send you?
- you mean Pepper sent me? Yeah is beside Bucky's tux back in our apparment
The Rockefeller was the builing that was chosen for the party obviously Pepper orginized everything and you were sure everything was going to be perfect but the time was aproaching, radio silent from Bucky, Sam Yelena Kate and Clint, who aparentely was still retired, you werent worried but still you got back to your apartment to get ready looking at the bed for a second where Bucky's gala tux was, you grab a little paper stick and write a quite note
" find me at the beggining to the year wherever you are I love you"
Everyone was enjoying when you arrived, Party full of display and your red dress caught everyone's atention, you tried to avoid eyes but it was quiet imposible concidering who you were
Polite as always you talked to everyone but your eyes were to the elevator doors but they were'nt opening not with the person you wanted to see
Bucky got straight to your share house and found the note and the tux waiting for him, he would have chosen to stay in bed and cuddle but he remembered your conversation about this party and how much it meant to you after all this time and everything that happened to you two so he run to he shower and called Sam back who had a similar clothes back in the compound
You grab your dad to dance to avoid the posibility to dance with someone you didn't want to Bruce and Roadey including Peter were all good options
- he is going to be here you'll see he wouldnt miss it
- thank you Peter, why don't you dance with MJ?
- she said you needed me more for younger brother moral support, her words not mine...
- you are an amazing brother - He smiled looking at the elevator where Yelena and Kate got in like always discussing something while Clint grab a glass of champagne drinking it whole not two seconds pass you looked back where Peter was looking and the doors of the other elevator opened revealing Sam and Bucky this last one scaning the room for the only person he wanted to see
Your eyes conected and you smile walking towards him even more so levitating towards it was a pull no other person had the ability to bring you in with so much ease
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- hey... you made it...
- I will always gonna try to make it back to you doll...- the burn in your cheeks you felt it when he grab your waist and never let you go for the rest of the night
You dance a little and then Bucky grab 2 flutes of champagne as the countdown just started
- happy new year baby - Bucky smile to you leaning a little campturing your lips in the first kiss of the new year
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- lets put a date
- what do you mean Buck?
- our wedding... if it's for me I'd marry you tomorrow but I know your dad and the rest of the team deserved the celebration and I know you want one and deserve one too
- I think we had a lot of those already but lets see...- you were sitting on his legs and caress his 4 day beard growth - do you remember like 6 years ago or maybe 7 now... you asked me to say the words so we make sure the conditioning won't work again
- yeah I remember...
- and then I thought I lost you forever...- you felt his lips kissing your hand and looked at you in a so enamorous way - let's chose that day
- I love it besides we are going to give your dad a freak to give him so little time to plan a wedding...
- you happend to know Bucky he has people that worries about that he just pays for it, but is our wedding and wouldn't be nice if we get married in Wakanda?
- are you serious?
- is where you finally found your peace and your peace is my happiness
- and you are my life doll.... tomorrow we ask TChalla?
- yes... and we start to live our lives together forever
Thanks nixakimbo for the wonderfull edits
Happy new year🥂
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pokefanbri · 4 years
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1st I have to say this b4 I repeat the post from fb. This is a place where I can speak my mind freely without judgement, speak my peace even. Which is exactly what im gonna do so prepare for a read. So think what u want idc, but the last thing I wanna do is tick some1 I know off cause on some level there's a mutual appreciation & respect regardless of my impression. And anyone that reads this isn't obligated to understand my opinion & I dont expect u to. With my brain its my thought process to let information out of my head so I can put things aside, observe & absorb more lol. Writing is another tool or coping mechanism for my anxieties & other psych ailments, treatment for my mental health depends on it & other hobbies in other words, especially during shutdown, something to focus on. Heck even youtube is recommended by my doctor if it keeps me happy lol. But because ill be working again, I may not have time to do alot of things I like sadly..idk i just wouldnt want to be burnt out & focus on more important things. I have a high respect for anyone working around people during this time & it must worrisome for u too, means I have to keep on my toes as well soon..its a scary world out there for an introvert but I was killin it in NY too. It was just a slow steady process with all the limitations & moving my life up there wasn't easy to begin with but I pulled through & did it all...only for it to be taken away.
So, I'm an Irish, German, Canadian,British Mut from tucson. Maternal & paternal immidiate families lineage mixed made me, including my NY blood from my bio dad. The rest is all over Europe but u get the idea. Tucson may be where i was born & my 1st home without a father & raised not knowing (were mardi gras babies btw 😒)
But NY is & will forever be my 2nd home i dont care what any1 says, I felt I belonged there. Its the other half of me quite literally.Theres a memory that's really been bugging me. Last day b4 i left it, a bald eagle flew across my path in the sky no joke going NE & I was departing back to the SW. I chose the eagle years ago cause I identify with it. including the background symbolism in different phases of my life that included them lol, but to actually see one was just amazing.
They symbolize strength+freedom in general despite it standing for the country from sea to shining sea lol. Also Braviary was always in my pokemon team besides pikachu since its gen came out lol. I've always been strong, whether some believe it to be true or not is their problem, only I know the things I've gone through. Point is different ends of the spectrum its always been with me throughout in some way & im glad i got to share it with someone that gave me the freedom I needed.
But yea I experienced what its like to be there & got to know that part of me even if I didn't find him & maybe didnt care...I feel I was meant to be there. I was in touch with my roots, lower Temps & above sea level rather than high temps & below sea level 🤣 I loved everything about my time up there. It'll always be a part of me, & I hope to see it again. But I digress.
But in regards to the relationship itself, emphasizing on what i said b4. Just as it i got "settled" in it was gone & I had no clue what was happening without my knowledge, the whole plan to bring me back, all of it, the whole chain of events that unfolded the way it did starting with leaving a marriage in the 1st place to be with him i mean come on lol. Chasing a dream that didn't play out the way we had hoped. I took leap of faith & I ended up starting over twice in 1 year with no benefit of the doubt. I still have my ny health insurance for the rest of the yr, I have to add it to my list to apply again in az. Ive been wearing the wrong prescription glasses for 6 months under quarantine & they're just now getting to stage 4 of opening lol. Just understand how frustrating that actually is for someone like me & u totally get it 😅 U want to take care of business but sometimes you're limited & gotta work around it. had all that covered there & then was told I settled, wrong thing to say & its no wonder I didn't blow up in his face right there & then 😒. But I have retraint & can control myself. Though it was out of my hands the new relationship didn't have to go sour, been just as long if not more, could've actually thrived given the proper balance with room to grow. Idk, Sometimes I honestly don't think anyone believed in me. I mean I have no debt, no record, no kids, im a clean slate type of girl lol. Yes I did end up feeling unappreciated, underestimated, a bit neglected, insecure about my body, ashamed for being myself, & I shouldn't have to feel that way at all & if that happens there obviously something off. I just didnt know what it is he wanted & needed, i wanted to help & be a good partner to this dude but why is it bad to ask the same in return? I shouldn't have to drastically change myself to fit someones standard i know, but...i needed the old him back, I missed the old us & wanted to get back to that.. Was always so closed off & probably ended up in his own head who knows, maybe there was guilt for some of the things he did & didnt want to hurt me anymore, spare my feelings any more than it did b4 it was too late.idk whatever the excuse i still don't know what triggered it all to fail so easily & i don't think i ever will. But ending up with the conclusion that I was the problem, its narcissistic to even believe that & i won't accept it. Not when he can't confront his own issuse & put blame onto himself too.. it was a low blow & literally felt like my heart was pierced at the sound of it. If im to blame its the other way around as well. My point of view wasn't acknowledged so this is my take & experiences of happened so plz dont hate me for speaking my truth.
But yea I can tell when somethings not right & feel strong empathy for others emotions. I knew something was different, there were signs everywhere since the mistrust started & during the last half of that time with him I questioned everything but sat in my own headspace as well as he did just thinking about it. If anything we failed eachother, the blame is on us both but idk what else i could've done to get through to him. That's the stubbornness, he wouldn't budge. Despite how things went down..Leaves me to think, what was the point of having me there in the 1st place, to not follow through with our shared hopes & dreams but instead spiral into such resentment for me that the interest faded. But at the at the same time...even if it ended early for him, I didn't give up & I fought to keep us okay which it was for the most part. Hindsight is 20/20, it definitely wasn't negative all the time. In fact things were great between us & acted like goofballs together, that right there is a friend despite if the stronger feelings weren't mutual. Nobody with hate in their heart acts like that, he was good, the best, cheered me up when I was down, shared interests & did things for eachother. But that alone makes me question what was truth & what was fiction sometimes ever since the trust between us started to fade. Am I in the right to feel what im feeling right now? Im angry & upset yes very, but the kindness he had throughout..he did care in his own way...which makes things so much harder.
Tripadoodle if some way you're listening, I hope u know now where im coming from. For your own benefit & quest to be a better man like you always wanted...actually try. Head my advice. Making yourself better shouldn't be put on a womans shoulders to do for u without her getting lifted in return...its alot of weight to handle for 1 person to carry lol. Get off your ass & build on yourself, learn from everything that happened & become better for yourself & the sake of others, Because it starts with u. Go to church if possible or watch them, it really does help. Even from across the country I still want u to do just as good & help u as a friend. You promised we could remain friends & im holding my end of the bargain whether u like it or not lol it was your idea during the ride here. All I wanted in the end was to not lose u in my life completely...but i should be patient i know.. Theres more space, im not contacting u directly & respecting that, eventually ill stfu lol but I feel I need this rn. I should hate u,but I cant hate u, I do still care, u had that affect on me so much that I can't really listen to others when they say ur a douchbag lol, u were still my rock the whole time even if u didn't feel the same after a while & u did help me alot as well. I see the good in people & u are good, with well balanced snarkiness & humorous sass to boot. light a fire under ur own ass & ull be okay lol. Never stopped believing in u. Ive seen what you can do, you're very smart & know your sh*t, u will go far lol. And as a friend I'd lend u my strength if I could but the most I can do is pray for things like safety/protection, healing, forgiveness, guidance, etc. Leave it to God if u feel compelled to. Give zanabell a hug for me.
God i talk way too much 😅 No im not doing any of this for attention, I want my voice to be heard as well as a possible learning experience if it had that effect on anyone. The things we learn build character & help us understand a little more about ourselves. Probably shouldn't share cuz its nobody's business, yea ive thought of that too.. But its a blog lol, Tumblr allowed it to be that space, opinions and rants are allowed & encouraged. Nothing wrong with that 🤷‍♀️ so who gives a crap.
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These are pictures of the NY sunrise & AZ sunset. Clouds always get me cuz of the shapes, used to to take pics of them all the time. once saw mario holding a hammer when I was a kid 😂 3rd & 4th pic is a split rainbow, never seen that b4...either someone found the gold or its deciding whether or not to connect. Probably was connected but I missed it lol. But then I looked behind me after the split 1 disappeared & a double rainbow was forming. Nature can be scary but also beautiful
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biingbo0ng69 · 4 years
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to all the "friends" who use me for emotional support and leave me on read when i need theirs. get bent. this time around "im at work" cuz im not putting up with you this time 🤗
imma use fake names just in case
Layla- THIS NEEDS TO BE TOLD TO YOUR FACE IN A NICE POLITE WAY. BUT I NEED TO VENT FIRST. YOU ARE A HORRIBLE FRIEND. YOU'RE SELF ABSORBED AND ONLY TEXT ME WHEN YOU NEED SOMETHING. I really needed her emotional support and she let me down one too many times... Pain is a competition for L and seems like she can't stop competing. I want to be here for her, but she isnt showing up for me. so im sorry but this is where i ghost her.
Melanie- Oofers girl. I miss the 16 year old who i met junior year of high school. The one where her whole life wasnt getting a girlfriend. I miss having bomb ass friend night outs. When we looked to our future we were excited and genuine. Now, she can't seem to get over anything. She never quite learned that in life bad things dont STOP happening and they never will, but we can getting better with coping and it doesnt mean there isnt good things. one of our mutual friends did us dirty and she will forever associate it with me. I'm sorry it hurt you dude, but I DIDNT DO IT. and i thought we moved past it, but every time we meet up it comes up at least once. or if that specific friend didnt come up she would ASSUME MY current friends were like the one who betrayed us. even tho melanie was friends with her first .... and she wouldnt phrase it like we went through it together, she phrased it like she was the ultimate victim. i did a lot of reassuring her because of that incident and i hyper explained where i was b/c she would assume 😒 the thing that finally made me STOP talking to her was when she brought it up YET AGAIN and said "we dont need another (inserthername) situation because i felt so left out and sad, you two just hurt me" and i felt like finally snapping and saying "well that was a SPECIFIC situation, my other/new friends arent lying sociopaths with the compulsive need to be accepted. that situation HURT me too, i felt like i lost you because I THOUGHT YOU HATED ME AND WHERE BAD MOUTHING ME TO EVERYONE. and even after all that i didnt block you on anything, or approch you on a daily basis to torment you. but you would. and you did. I DONT BRING THAT PETTY ACT UP DO I? and after all this reassurance and bending over backwards to adjust my schedule so we could FINALLY hang out again. only cuz you broke up with your girlfriend. not even that you missed our friendship which HURTS but i dont keep throwing that in your face. and all this effort just for you to pull this shit. way to ruin an evening YET AGAIN. but why am i surprised you've changed and i dont know who you are anymore." It's always backhanded like she needed to lecture me so i didnt do it again. but i didnt do it in the first place. I GOT SCREWED over too thanks for failing to recognize i lost my best friend and maybe needed my other F R I E N D to get through it. but no all we could ever go over was how i need to not do the same to her. now we're older and out of High School all she does is cry, complain, vent, and need a shoulder to cry on. and someone should never feel like they are wrong for being sad but i miss laughing with her too. I was always here for her, but when shit hit the fan in my life she disappeared 😞. She would just say "Sorry dude good luck!" or "Why does it matter that much?" she IS oblivious to anyone else's needs unless she's fucking them. What happened to friends? Cant you have both a relationship and friends? why did she always chose one over the other? when she fought and broke up a dozen and a half times i was there. EVERYTIME. when i broke up with my boyfriend.... and heard really disappointing news she was nowhere to be found. She wanted me to get over it and stop being sad but she was always allowed to be sad and i'd invite her over for a girls weekend where we talked through her being upset and i tried to get her to have fun. but after a while those girls weekends were not fun. ALL WE DID WAS TALK ABOUT HER. and she called the shots. she helped herself to my house, fridge space, dog, my bed, my products, and time. Whenever i needed a girls weekend she gave an excuse or was going through something else the next weekend. You always seem to have the right excuse but after so many times of being bailed on and even ignored, I'm finding it hard to stay objective. I dont think i need to be there for someone who is NEVER there for me. this is why i never called Melanie my best friend. she always seemed hurt by that but she never did anything to prove to me we were BEST friends. This is why i've stopped talking to her too.
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